I am 25 years old with dead end job, my relationship with my girlfriend is going down hill, My friends don't respect me, feeling weak, feeling like there is no one I can talk too. I am in my office right now and crying sitting in the chair. I want to kill my self, just want to point a gun ony temple and shoot my brains out, but yet again will need to settle on cutting myself.

I can never stomach the feeling of stabbing myself intentionally (or at least with what I own). I use more blunt force trauma since it cause less damage but more pain. That is speaking from my personal experience so I could be wrong or it varies from person to person. I'm talking like punching, hitting myself with blunt object, ramming into things, y'know. Also, side note, I don't know how to stop but I always seem to be mentally and emotionally tormenting myself for no reason. Is there a place for that? Anyways need to go do work. Bye Bye.

I talked myself out of burning but I cut myself after a month and a bit clean godamn it

So I've been sh'ing for a hot minute now and recently I've really wanted to do like a shape(eg star) but I can decide 😉 someone help 😄 ik this sounds crazyyyy

So I’ve been thinking about telling my parents but I have a few things holding me back. I want to stop but I also can’t imagine stopping. I don’t want to deal with a bad reaction because that would just make me want to sh more. I also know that they would ask things like why I do it and I can’t answer them. They would probably try to get me to stop but I know that i’ll just keep doing it no matter what they do. I don’t want them to fix me I just want someone to support me in trying to get better, it’s something I have to do myself but I need some support to do it. Just someone to believe in me I guess.

I’ve been peeling my lips for years now whenever I’m feeling bad, I didn’t know it also counted as self harm till some days ago and my lips are really the only thing about myself that I like but I keep harming them and making myself bleed. Is there a correlation or is it just a coincidence? I also don’t know how to stop, I promised I’d stop but I just can’t. I failed to keep my word and I’m feeling even worse bc of it since I failed those who I made the promise to

i have been doing friction burns (with an eraser). i have like 8 of them on my wrist. i haven't really done any aftercare besides running them under some cold water. should i bandage them?

I (25F) relapsed 3 days ago and it only just occurred to me today that I broke 5 clean years. and I kinda am more addicted to it than ever I feel like I deserve it and I deserve more than what I’m currently doing to myself and I need help but I don’t want to be the one having to ask for it but I also don’t want help and I just wanna dieeeeee I like looking at my scars I’ve taken photos of it and the only solace I have in my day is knowing I have night time to release everything. bought a new boxcutter today because I was using sewing scissors and it wasn’t making me bleed as much as I want and that’s why I’ve been doing so many each night instead of a few deeper ones. It’s fucked, but I also feel like now I can’t break the streak????

I had a relapse after yesterday's post. Now everything is okay, I medicated myself but I don't know how to tell my partner about this thing. They have also suffered from sh, but I'm afraid it could have a bad impact on their mental health. I don't want to worry them.

Urges are worse than ever before and everything reminds me of it, can’t concentrate and my mood is so much worse too 🫤 I don’t even know if I want to quit anymore, few cuts would make me feel so much better.

(I tried Using ice, drawing lines on my arms, snapping hair tie against my arm but nothing really works. Pls recommend me some other methods 🙏)

i have school tomorrow and don’t want my parents to see either. i scratched the back of my hand to bled and the bandage wrapped around is the typical white wrap kind. anyway to hide this? i’m going to try keeping it in my sleeve but it’ll be difficult to hide regardless

i get surched eveyday a supprt staff to cheak i dont have a blade. i empty my bag and phone case. still mange to get razor blades in tho

Hello, I know this sounds crazy, but I have Body Integrity Identity Disorder and I have made serious plans to amputate my non-dominant index finger with pruning shears.

Please, tell me all the bad things surrounding finger amputations. I'm trying to convince myself not to do this.

My job requires heavy lifting. Will I be able to do that?

I like to game, could I not be able to do that anymore?

How badly does it hurt?

Can it cause long-term pain?

Today was my first time trying to use a knife i failed so badly it was laughable like i genuinely felt ridiculous. The knife was so dull, WHY WAS IT SO DULL?! Like are you forreal right now😭 it felt like plastic. i just put it away and said nvm dawg keep it i guess whatever🫸

I am not doing well these two weeks. I can’t breathe and I’m super stressed. I wanna cry but I couldn’t and my heart is racing most of the time. I feel like I’m gonna be insane the next second. I don’t want to cut again. How can I calm myself down ?

I always wanted to go to a therapist but are they even worth it? If its gonna end up with me throwing money away I don't know what I'm gonna do

I hope when I die I’m forgotten instantly and the waste of resources I am is forgiven

I sometimes hurt myself as a way of doing penance for my sins and giving praise to God, and I consider this to be (for me at least) a good thing. Would it really still be classified as self harm or is it different?

I struggle with getting medical help for my self harm and SH related medical problems due to feeling like I just don't deserve the help. I have directly caused the harm to myself and it can make me feel like a burden. However, I have had a slight perspective shift after watching some videos about Steve-O. If you don't know who Steve-O is he is someone who got popular for hurting himself in the most drastic ways, most famously shown in the "Jackass" franchise. Now whether what he does in his content is self-harm or not is another discussion. What really striked me is that he gets medical help for the damage he's done to himself. The motives of self-harm and what Steve-O does definitely do vary, but both are deserving of medical help nonetheless. Essentially what I'm saying is if steve-o can do it..... so can you lol!!!!!

I started crying for absolutely no reason while listening to music, and after a few minutes I was considering killing myself at that moment out of nowhere, and banging my head against my desk. First time something like that happens to me so out of nowhere, I really doubt I have more than a few more months at this point, even though I've been thinking that for over a year now

I cut my arm last night and it was pretty deep, I could seperate the skin and see the color of it before it started bleeding. But it didn't even hurt that badly to cut it, and it didn't sting or anything afterwards. I did a few more cuts around the same area and those hurt when i push my finger on them, but not the deep one. I'm just wondering why or if anyone has the same experience, nothing to major.

I've been trying my best to stay clean (the last time I self harmed wad like at the end of October) but social media is slowly killing me. I've noticed that people on tiktok like making people insecure about the dumbest things, and something I keep seeing on tiktok is people making self like a competition on how deep or how much cuts you have, and it makes feel like im not valid. The definition of self harm is literally hurting yourself which I've unfortunately done multiple times, but when I did self harm I used a piece of glass with a sharp corner (ik that sounds so bad and I could get a infection from that) and I've never really gone "deep enough" for anyone to notice that I'm sick too, I discovered the saying "baby cuts" and it just makes me feel like im only self harming for attention. People need to get offline and go outside instead of making literal children that are clearing struggling feel like they aren't valid or make them insecure.

Okay so my urge to relapse is very strong rn. I've been clean for 171 days, but it's just way too overwhelming today. The thing is, I play volleyball, and every time I go for my usual (my forearms) it hurts whenever I'm training, for obvious reasons. So is there an alternative where it wouldn't hinder my activities? I've tried my legs but movements like squats and dives feel very uncomfortable so I'm not sure what to do :c

so idk if this is a good place to ask this, but I've found that the only way I've wanted to not cut myself is if I have noticeable scars. I don't have any because I've never cut really hard because of my hemophobia and trypanophobia. they always fade and never scab enough for me to pick at them, so I was wondering would it be insensitive/morally wrong if once I'm 18 i get SH scars tattoo'ed on my inner arm and thigh? nothing huge, something like a little more than cat scratches (which is what I would do when I'm not clean) i've been clean for like 3 months, but I always end up relapsing cuz my autism needs familiar things. I feel if I have the tattoo to look at, it would trick my brain to feel like there are actual scars and that would make me not want to self harm. any advice is greatly appreciated and I'll answer any questions :)

Alright so I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I kind of miss it? I’m around 10 months clean from my huge ones but I did do tiny ones in like the past 2 months but I lowkey miss the look of the blood and the scars it gave me and I don’t know why. I feel like it makes me seem like an attention seeker but I just genuinely liked looking at them bleed a little. I don’t know what’s wrong with me I’m in therapy and I’m doing slightly better and I’m on medication so why do I miss it so much and is there anything I can do to replace that feeling?

Basically what the title says, I sh for the first time since February and I feel shitty about it. I always do. I tend to feel euphoric at first, but it quickly dissipates into self hatred. I hate that I can't seem to cope these days.

I can barely hover the flame near my skin without crying out, I'm so scared of it and it makes me feel weak, I've given myself infections, cut various parts of me open and stuck my fingers into wounds and yet this is the thing I can't do? Why, I hate it.

I’ve been self harming on and off for years but I was doing well recently only because I play volleyball and was scared of my coaches seeing. But I got into a big fight with my dad and he told me that he has always wanted me to leave and never come back and I ended up cutting on my forearm which is hard to cover unless I wear long sleeves. I wasn’t really thinking when I did it I just felt so overwhelmed by what he said that I didn’t care where i cut and I didn’t care to cover them either. I went to practice the next day and wore a regular sleeve shirt but had my arm sleeves on like normal and at the end of practice we were sitting in a circle talking about our upcoming game which is pretty normal. But I forgot about the cuts first a minute and took my sleeve off and kind of had my arms on my knees and out in front of me. I zoned out for a bit while the coach was talking and when I started to focus again I made eye contact with my head coach and she looked at me and then glanced at my arm and I almost started to freak out right then and there. After that meeting with the whole team we were taking down the nets and I had put on my hoodie because I was scared and as I was helping take down I could see her out of the corner of my eye watching me and then at the end of practice I was in like a weird corner by the bleachers where my stuff was and she told me like infront of everyone not to leave until I talked to her which was really embarrassing. I went and talked to her and had to explain like why i cut myself and it turns out that she told my other two coaches as well. I am now to scared to make eye contact with any of them because I don’t want to see the pitty look that I always get when someone finds out. I feel really stuck because everytime someone finds out about my sh I get the same look and they start talking to me different which makes me hate myself more than I already do. It’s just so ridiculous Sorry this was long 🥲😭

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i was 5 years clean but this year was just so. difficult. i spent my birthday all by myself at home while my "friends" celebrated their other friend's birthday after they declined my invitation. i was doing kinda ok the whole day but then my grandma called to say hbd and asked if i had already eaten some cake, and when i said no cause i spent the day alone she just got so sad and when we hang up i just got so so sad i couldn't control myself. i'm so disappointed on myself and i get even more sad when i remeber it cause now my birthday will forever remind me of this. i don't even know why i'm writing this and im probably going to delete this app as soon as i post it, but i just had to get it out somewhere. thank u.