Me and my boyfriend (both 20) have been together for about a year and a half. At the beginning of the relationship, he wasn’t completely transparent with men, which caused some issues and broke my trust a little bit. But I decided to remain together.

It wasn’t cheating, just dishonesty. he lied to me and told me I was the only girl he was talking to, this man begged me to take him seriously, to be his girlfriend. And said everything I wanted to hear. Because I had told him how I wasn’t looking for a relationship because I was done with them. I didn’t trust anybody, how hard it was for me to trust people, he made me believe he was different. About 2 months into the relationship I found out he lied. And at the same time that he was pursuing me and making all these promises he was also hanging out with some other girl, like going to the movies. He says he knew she liked him and he just wanted someone to hang out with so they hung out but nothing physical happened, they were sexting a little bit. And then 3 days before officially asking me to be his gf he finally cut her off.

I discovered all of this because I went through his phone and his recently deleted messages. And found their messages thread. She had texted him again congratulating him about a championship. Anyway; he said thank you and then she kept trying to initiate other conversations and he told her I appreciate you for congratulating me but I have a girlfriend and I don’t want to disrespect her by texting you. She was like I understand and then he deleted their thread and did not tell me about it obviously til I discovered and when I did his excuse was that he knew how I would feel about him hanging out with her while he was pursuing me because he knew how strongly I felt about it bc I told him so while we were talking. (he said there was nothing physical but who knows)

Now looking back at it I wish I had left. Ever since then, it’s just been constant lies, small lies but lies. He showed me his character from the beginning, and I didn’t believe it I thought it was just a one-time thing.

He even admitted to portraying himself as someone he’s not. i’m his own words, he showed the man he wanted to become instead of the man he is. I wanted to be 100% transparent but he’s still working on becoming that man.

I think that’s called love bombing, but anyway, I’m still not over that incident and I'm stuck in the sunk cost fallacy and I regret not leaving that day. Everything was good i still felt love for him til now. I realized how much time I’ve wasted, how untrustworthy he is, and how many times I allowed him to break my heart and my trust. I think I hate him, I barely text him, and I don’t want to talk to him or see him.

Just venting and maybe some advice if you’ve been in this position before.

I'm a 25-year-old guy, and my FP is a 26-year-old woman I’ve been close to for years. Over time, I developed deeper feelings for her and started imagining a future together. But things changed recently—she got pregnant and is now engaged to someone else. I tried to accept it and keep my feelings hidden, but eventually, I couldn’t hold it in. I ended up saying something really hurtful to her, which I think caused her to split on me.

Since then, I’ve been feeling uncertain about the future of our relationship. Part of me wants to go low-contact to protect her and myself, but she still reaches out. She’s been such a big part of my life, and I trust her more than anyone. But lately, I’ve been struggling. I have a finsta that she uses to keep in touch, and out of boredom or loneliness, I’ve posted things that weren’t entirely true. Now, I’m caught between feeling guilty for those lies and not knowing what to do next.

I’m stuck between wanting to stay close to her and feeling like I should distance myself. I know I’ve made mistakes, and I’m not sure what the healthiest path forward is. Any advice from people who’ve been in similar situations would be really appreciated.

super embarrassed to admit this because i’ve never even told anyone about this, but does anybody else consciously mirror one specific person? i can’t remember when exactly i followed her but there’s this girl online that i’m genuinely just so consumed with. i check her accounts constantly and think about her all the time and literally want to BE her. i’ve followed her for years now and i even have dreams about her and her life sometimes. it’s pretty seemingly insignificant things like dressing the same, buying the food she posts about, making similar posts etc. i screenshot her instagram stories just to look at them later like it’s so ridiculous. she’s not the only person who i’ve become obsessed with over social media, i go through phases where i mirror one specific person for x amount of time and then move on to someone new and i feel like that’s something i’ve done my whole life whether it be with celebrities or people i know irl. just wondering if anyone is conscious of when they’re mirroring someone and can’t seem to help it

I’m going through my first queer breakup which happened just before the election and I’m in so much pain. Just found out I have BPD this year. Makes too much sense. I feel stupid, embarrassed and like I’ll never ever get to have peace or love.

I am deeply in love with this person. They’ve never once let me down. I’ve loved them so perfectly in my head but the emotional whiplash was so overwhelming I couldn’t think or actually put any of it into practice. I deescalated one bit at a time during the relationship to try my hardest to cope - separate bedrooms and then we even got separate apartments.

I feel like a monster. And the worst part is, all of it was due to OVER empathizing and idealizing them so much I lost myself but because it looks another way, I have to navigate everyone thinking I’m the asshole on top of the drowning/SI.

I don’t think I’m going to make it this time. I don’t see the point. This is just going to keep happening over and over. I’m in therapy and constantly seeking out help. But it’s never been enough. And now they won’t talk to me or let me see the dog and I feel like my heart is going to burst out of me and I just want to run away.

I had a call with my friend last week and thought that helped but as soon as I’m alone again, everything flips upside down. I want so badly to be independent and have a cute place but in the last week I took off work and couldn’t do a THING. Just frozen in place, alone, tears streaming down my face. I could barely figure out feeding myself.

I don’t know what to do anymore. I want to learn to be my own person, but I need love too. I feel so misunderstood and angry that people don’t know what it’s like and automatically assume we are the problem.

I’ve been on my journey to recover from BPD for a good couple of years now. I’m way better with my angry issues and I am glad that I am focusing more on all the kindness that people like us have to offer.

One way of venting my emotions is by doing lots of art stuff. I found myself trying all kinds of crafts and art ventures. I am very good with some, like writing, but kinda mediocre in others (and I of course give up on them very fast 😂). But I wanted to share here how art is part of my recovery journey. When we have tons of emotions and we don’t know where to put them, I think art is a great way of coping with it.

Is anyone else with a similar way of coping? What is the best art platform for you?

(me: 32F)

I know he tells me he’s fine but his behavior says otherwise. He’s too scared to ask for things or to do anything that might anger me. He says he hasn’t felt like he has to walk on eggshells anymore but I feel like that’s a lie. He doesn’t say much to me because of how sensitive I can be. Now recently he tells me when I used to get really drunk I’d hit him or something?? I know I’d get an attitude but I never thought I would do that. I haven’t drank in a while now but still. The thought I ever did that to him kills me. I only ever thought I was hurting myself when I did that stuff. I only ever try to do things that will only harm me because I feel like I deserve it in some way. Maybe I do. I don’t know. But I feel so bad he doesn’t feel as free as I do in this relationship. He helped me let go of my chains but all I did was pass mine to him. I don’t want to leave. He tells me he doesn’t want that he tells me he wants a family and to be together with me forever but how can he say that while in the same breath feel this way. I thought I was good at holding it all in apparently not. I just feel so bad I don’t know how to fix this. Please help if you can. I just don’t want my acts to feel love bomby. I got him flowers with a nice note and he loved them so much but now I feel icky about that. I don’t know. All this is so new to me and I have so many problems I need to fix in so little time that I don’t know where to start or what’s most important. Again any tips would be helpful because I don’t want to keep making him feel this way.

Bit of a rant. Me and my ex have been on and off for a few months now. We can’t seem to get out of each other’s life. Obviously, I’m the one with BPD. He was (still is, I guess) my FP and I wish I could stop thinking about him. Every time i want to leave him I can’t. I’m constantly craving his attention, even if it’s negative. I keep wanting to act out just so he’ll text or call or come over and help me. I just want his attention. I feel like I’m going crazy. He said he wants to get back together, but it feels like he doesn’t want me. I feel like I’m losing my mind. Why do I need him so bad.

As the title states. I cannot get over this guy, he has a girlfriend who he shares a child with.

I’d like to immediately state im not a homewrecker and I’d NEVER do anything to get in the way of their relationship, in fact we stopped talking all together last year.. though I still find myself thinking about him almost all the time. I just want to be able to get over him and move on with life but it’s seemingly impossible, I’ve cared about him for 7 years.

Thankfully he lives in America while I live in the UK so I don’t have to worry about silly things like bumping into him!

The feelings just won’t go. I feel so trapped, any suggestions?

Sorry if I sound awful. I’ve tried everything. I feel like a terrible person

I just feel so alone and so tired. I don’t feel like I have anyone to turn to. It just feels like everyone hates me and the people who put up with me only do it because they want something from me. I don’t know what to do to feel better. I really don’t.

I feel "different" from everyone else and I feel like nothing is really real which probably contributes to this. But I always feel like I'm in a simulation or something, or that I'm able to see all of the instincts behind human behaviors and sometimes when I'm with people I feel like I'm in some kind of huge social experiment and I'm just able to see the patterns of human behavior and society. Things like money and government doesn't make sense to me, it just feels so random and like our entire culture and identities are just different abstract concepts built on top of each other but when you break it down were just chemicals or programs or something.

I know I'm not explaining this very well, I hope this makes sense and doesn't sound too crazy. It makes me feel like there's just something wrong or different with me.

So, although it was a hard decision, I have decided to go home for a week, which is until my treatment screening. My most recent breakdown was so long and intense, and my partner wants to recover in order to be able to be a better partner for me. As well as this, they have a lot of studying to catch up on that they haven't been able to do whilst looking after me. They're the only person I have here, really, and I had been very unsafe and suicidal. At home, I will have my family 24/7 as well as my best friend who I haven't seen in two months. It's very safe and my partner can relax knowing that.

Obviously I'm nervous about it, because being away from my fp is hard and scary. But I knew I had to.

I booked my train for the evening so I could spend even more time with my partner before leaving but they really wanted to leave in the afternoon to study. This triggered me. I could've done what I usually do, which is cry and beg for hours and feel like I want to die. However, I went out for a smoke and decided to just book an earlier train so I'm not alone for the hours before I leave and so my partner can do what they need to do. The pain was immense at first but I came back and realised I had to lean into the pain and ride the wave instead of fight to make it go away and delay my progress. My partner was super proud and was able to get an early night because I avoided spiralling.

However, now I just feel very numb? Usually I feel exhausted after a breakdown but in a sense it feels like I've let it all out, even though everything is worse for it. I don't really know what to do with myself now that nothing came of it.

No one in my life knows how much grief I am still in. It’s been 7 months since my breakup and I put on a happy face because it would be embarrassing to share my misery after that much time.

I do not know if I will ever be that happy again. Since it happened I have been in a complete fog. I feel like I am empty, floating through life with no attachments. My ex was the only person who saw all of me. I don’t share everything to even the closest people around me because that side of me is scary. It is emotional and depressed and manic.

And now he is gone. I am alone in my pain that no one knows the extent of. I want nothing more than the life I had with him. Now that I know how true love feels, not having it feels pointless. It literally feels pointless to be living a life without someone who loves me unconditionally as I do them. Honestly, I’m getting really scared. I want to die but am too scared to do it.

this is not meant to be a i’m so quirky, different, or misunderstood type of post. just speaking how i feel/what i experience. i’m 20F.

i think from the parental abandonment and negligence mixed with the horrendous online relationships in my young teens to the in person toxic relationships in my late teens, i have became so detached and numbed. i know that my way of thinking is probably just corrupted worse from BPD on this.

i’ve always been so scared of being hurt and lied to and mistreated because quite literally every single person who romantically took interest in me, has done that. but now, i don’t feel that excitement when meeting someone new. it just feels kind of dead in a way. like yeah you are cool, but i’ve met so many people like you before and i notice the red flags so quick. now i know this may sound like self sabotaging, but i refuse to waste someone’s time if i don’t feel interest.

so i’m at this point and mindset where it’s like “is this it?”. i’ve never had a guy or even friend truly understand my mind. i don’t expect someone to understand every little thing, but just general feelings and awareness. i crave having a deep connection and genuine bond like that so bad. the only times i found a hint of it were with people who ended up being in a relationship and i could never continue speaking after that. i don’t know where to find someone who will get me. i just want to feel something different and new and be enlightened or even outsmarted and challenged. i’m most afraid i’ll never find that and always feel alone.

I don’t know. It’s just getting harder to be ok with this disorder. I’m better than I was but I’m still not where I was before and that sucks. I don’t recognize who I am really. And I don’t know where or how I got this way. I feel like a black hole and just suck up everything and everyone until I can get full but I’m never filled. I’m only 24 but I can’t function most days, I just dig it out of me. I feel empty almost all time of the day, not just at night anymore. I will feel better for a week, maybe two, maybe three but then i crash and im back to this. You would think i would be smart to get things done when bpd hides but i just feel like im finally able to breathe. I can’t write, i can’t really get the energy to work out, i can’t clean. I want my life back. I want to be me again. I want to know who I am again. I’ve been on so many fucking meds and nothing has helped.

I genuinely don’t have an ounce of love for my mom. She’s a useless human being and I hate that everyone sees her as some wise person who’s so capable of literally everything when she’s the most incompetent piece of human garbage I’ve ever seen. Whatever she tells me not to do, she does and when I tell her that she doesn’t even respond. When I criticize her or just tell her something she does makes me uncomfortable she doesn’t even roll her eyes she just stands there like the useless waste of oxygen she is and I absolutely despise her for it. I’m still a minor and living with my parents and I’m looking forward to moving away as soon as i graduate. When she dies I’m not going to feel a single ounce of sadness that I lost her. I’ve thought about it and the only thing I’m going to be mourning is the mother daughter relationship I never got to have and that I’m already actively grieving. It’s so weird and so upsetting and I feel like I never had a mother. She thinks she’s some quirky wholesome little thing that I adore and that pisses me off even more because she’s too ignorant and full of herself to even think I can feel anything but love for her and the dumb shit she does to get in my way in everything I do. I don’t know how much longer I can deal with her shit since she doesn’t know boundaries either and I have no privacy. I literally hide my stuff so she won’t go around snooping and find them and she does anyway and thinks it’s some weird quirk I have and doesn’t even think for a second that it could be so she won’t reach the shit.

I genuinely hate my mom so much and i feel like im owed a childhood thanks to that stupid hoe and I feel guilty saying that because I’m so much more privileged than most kids in my country. I feel so trapped and upset that this is the only childhood I get and that now I’ll have to do extra shit like therapy to be able to think and function like everyone else and until then I’m just going to keep being miserable.

Sorry this is a long rant but I’m just really overwhelmed with the fact that I’m trapped here and there’s literally nothing I can do about it.

I can’t be diagnosed with bpd yet since I’m still a minor but I definitely do have it it’s so obvious and it pisses me off that it’s something I have to deal with for the rest of my life and it could’ve been prevented if only my mom wasn’t an absolute selfish idiot

Whenever I think about my (early) childhood (im still a minor) everything that comes to mind is memories where im sad and miserable. Especially before I started middle school I would cry every single night about how everyone hated me and how we were all going to die and how everything felt so empty and I used to get so anxious it would make me nauseous. When I went to my parents they used to comfort me ages 3-4 but after that they kinda got sick of it and they would just laugh and say “Ohh what, is it time to cry about bla bla again now that its bedtime?” and laugh. It wasnt just at night though it was whenever I was left with my own thoughts and at night there was nothing to distract me since I couldn’t fall asleep right away (I still can’t sleep without the tv or music on). I would also cry about ruining stuff like one time I tried to draw a heart on a note my mom wrote and I felt like it was too ugly and I cried about that for literal years before I learned not to cherish shit my mom gives me because I realized she literally doesn’t put any thought into anything she does for me.

Sorry this is kind of a mess it’s like 4 am where I am and Ive just been upset lately

We’re replacing most furniture in my room so I ended up finding a lot of old stuff (literal trash I’ve been hoarding since I was a toddler because it has meaning to me and what if I end up needing it one day) and I break down crying at almost every singe thing I think about in that pile of stuff. I just don’t have a lot of happy memories with my parents or with myself and I hate that this was the only childhood I got and I spent it under constant distress and there wasn’t even a specific reason why. I wasn’t abused and we were pretty well off financially. My parents are mental health professionals and seem like decent enough people but whenever I think about my childhood even for a second I can’t help but absolutely hate them.

My relationship with my parents is both better and worse now since I’ve learned to deal with them but also I genuinely hate them since I realized that they expected me to have the maturity they didn’t have at 50 when I was 5 and that pisses me off. The main reason our relationship is somewhat bearable is becau I don’t really remember my childhood unless I specifically try to. Also I cannot stand most dumb shit my mom does and surprise surprise the hoe does a lot of dumb shit.

Sorry for more ranting but I’m too tired and mad to reread all this to edit it.

(17F) I don’t know what to do. I want to preface with saying that I do not claim to have BPD, nor am I diagnosed. With this said, a part of me thinks it is likely to develop in me. For a lot of my life I have deeply struggled with many things that are commonly seen in those with BPD, mood-wise, action-wise, and thought-wise. I am diagnosed with OCD, ADHD, particularly attention deficit type, and Depression. These symptoms have ramped up severely in the past year, ever since I went through a traumatic relationship with one specifically traumatic incident. Throughout the years my romantic relationships have been extremely rough, in the way I was treated as well as how I reacted to the behaviors of my partners. I am now in a relationship of two months with an amazing partner, but my mental health seems to be decaying. When I am in relationships I completely lose my sense of self and my mental state seems to completely rely on my partner, and I feel so much guilt for any and all stress I put on my current partner because of that. They treat me well and love me, but I cry every time we hang out. I have fits of rage at the smallest things, I try to control it as best as I can in front of my partner as to not scare them. I have never physically harmed anyone when I am in these conditions besides myself, but I still feel immense guilt during and after my outbursts. My mood changes so so quickly and drastically within literally seconds if something upsets, I try to not let it because half of the time I know it’s unreasonable, but I genuinely cannot contain it sometimes. I feel awful because I feel like it wears on my partner so much even when they tell me it doesn’t. There’s a lot more to fit into here that I feel like can help people understand better what I’m experiencing but it would just be so much to put. I never want to hurt those around me but sometimes it feels like the only way to contain my anger towards others is by turning it only myself. I don’t know exactly what I want from sharing this, or expect, but I appreciate any feedback or suggestions.

So, I'm 30 years old.

With this disorder you don't really expect to live into older adulthood / old age.

I thought about the future, just for a few minutes because of a conversation I was having.

I realised, there's a real risk I'm going to be very, very alone once I'm say, 50?

I also thought about all the people I kept in my life, despite their red flags and problematic issues because, I fundamentally didn't want to be alone.

How do us, who are blessed enough to get older, and we truly are blessed, by the way, fight through the fear of being alone, accept being alone and build a network of good people who aren't walking red flags?

25, nb, in therapy, medicated (not working much after 6 years of it)

anybody have advice/support?? rejection is hard and one of the only people i care for had a loss and decided to grieve alone so I respected that and im giving them space. it's been a week, thry never communicated that they were leaving/needed it but i got told through a 3rd party instead (someone we both know but my friend claims to be closer to me than to them but would tell everyone but me.) i accepted that maybe im just too much and maybe they think id react badly, and i decided it's better to just not bring it up since they're grieving and i gave up on checking on them and their grief has nothing to do with me. I get that.

my closest friend is now always busy, often distracted and misses notifs so i just gave up on talking and it almost feels like im weirdly losing interest even though we've been friends for half of my life??? we visit each other once a year for 1 month at a time (he lives overseas) and our time is always enjoyed

I have no other friends as an adult. i understand that everyone's going to always be busy and being able to hang out with people you know more than 1x every 1-3 months isn't the norm so i did my best to drop that expectation and now i go out maybe 1x a year with anyone at all (travel+ the occasional odd day)

i did all the frustration tolerance therapy stuff and it didn't help + exposure therapy to just being alone and doing everything alone to try to make myself enjoy it, but ive never really had any friends, ive had 1 for 10 yrs and that was it, other friend is of 2 yrs. it's hard to like being alone when you've only ever known being alone.

i volunteer, have 2 jobs and im not liked by anyone. No family, they never wanted me (unplanned) and none of them like me. I don't know what I'm doing wrong, my therapist says my social skills are OK. I'm in crafting groups but no one notices + I have hobbies. gaming, coding, crafts/manufacturing, baking, cooking, animal training (I am working on a cert,) travel. I Dont lay around and do nothing save lately where i just feel like giving up. I tried to unlive myself 3x back to back and woke up every time (not recent) and no one ever checked on me except grieving friend for a few hrs who mostly ghosted me after that which is understandable that i wouldn't ever be trusted again, im wondering if that friendship is fried atp.

I don't know what's wrong with me or if maybe they can sense that something is wrong with me, so I want to learn to lose all my expectations for people and not expect anyone to come for me. I WANT to be happy alone. I've only ever been alone and I want a real change of mind. I know im exhausting to be around, but i almost never vent to anyone , i usually handle things on my own, try to help everyone else,bring it all only to my therapist, dbt skills that never work, med trials that don't seem to help. The common denominator is me, I just wish I knew what made me so unwanted. I spent years working on myself and I'm hated even more now than I was before

How do you detached from friends/fp(s) and be happy w/ no one at all? I want to be happy where im at instead of seeking something else. :/

The one person in my life that I truly care about and cannot fathom living with out may possibly be out of my life forever soon. It's a long a complicated situation, see some of my previous posts in another sub for an insight into how I feel. Tomorrow we are going to talk and I am trying to prepare myself for the absolute worst. Wish me luck

I am so excited! I’m a single mom and I never get to go out. I have been thinking (obsessively) about going out this weekend and drinking. I start my psych meds on Monday so this feels like a last hooray (with alcohol.)

For the last couple months I have been thinking about hooking up with someone and I know that won’t happen tonight but I can’t wait to make out with a dude!!! Yayyyyyyyy

Perhaps because you expect your partner to leave some day, do you …

• spend more time with your friends than with your partner?

• prioritise time spent with your friends over time spent with your partner? (e.g. make plans with friends before committing to arrangements with your partner)

• keep your friends and partner separate as much as possible (or swing between involving and excluding them)?

If you keep your partner at a distance, does this help to keep your feelings of appreciation for the relationship? Does it help to minimise the devaluing and pulling back?

EDIT:

I am essentially asking if you intend to create distance with people you care about because you might be more concerned about losing other people who might seem more stable in your life.

TW: slight mention of death

I can’t deal with it anymore. Going from extremely happy and joyous to empty and crying for NO reason whatsoever within minutes. I just don’t get how can I change that.

I’ve tried a lot of ways. I also don’t understand the black and white thinking, one second “oh I’m gonna be top notch, I’ll achieve all of my dreams” and the next being “I wish I wasn’t alive” .

It doesn’t make sense all of it, and also splitting whenever someone does anything that bothers me even if it’s slight. It’s almost like I instantly wish they weren’t apart of my life before revising my pov and realizing that they matter to me.

I had to leave my partner of 5 years due to no communication and then randomly wanting to join the military. She gave me 3 days to process and be “okay” that she wants to enlist. I told her I wasn’t okay with it at the moment. She got papers the next day to enlist knowing I wouldn’t stay if we couldn’t communicate. When she brought the papers back she said “you made your mind up, I made mine”. My ex was raised by a narcissist who was abusive. Her dad committed suicide after getting out of the marines. She had a rough up coming and my family took her in as our own. She has lived with us for 4 years. When she got the papers to enlist she stopped feeding our cats, didn’t do laundry for 2 weeks, didn’t clean up after herself. She stopped talking to my parents in general and ignored them when they tried communicating. She let everything go to talk to her new military guy friend. Whenever I was around she wanted space. My dad finally told her she can’t stay if this how she is gunna live in our house. She left my house 2 days ago to move out and moved out like nothing. She was laughing and mumbling to herself. She said she would be back the next day to grab the rest. She never came back and went back to her home town saying my family betrayed her. We had to contact her brother because she went back to her abusive mom. My dad called him and let him know what’s going on from how she has been acting, how she let everything go for her rash decision. The brother is very anti military due to their dad’s suicide. She then contacted me from her hometown stating we are horrible for talking to her brother and we only ever betrayed her. Something I should say is, my dad got her free college, taught her how to drive at 18 years old, got her a good credit score, got her to get a car, and gave her a free place to stay for 4 years. We took her in as our own and she has always made rash decisions then regretting. I believe she has BPD and want to hear your guys thoughts. She has left the house and deleted everything of me and blocked me on social medias expect my number. Whenever she texts me she throws her enlisting in my face, and that she is now struggling because she is on her own. Please give me advice. I wish for her back.. but she is happy when I’m gone. She was normal when I broke it up. She looked relieved. How do I heal from this.

My best friend is my FP and it SUCKS SO BAD!!! I hate it so bad, I get jealous of my other friends when she talks to them more, or when her tone changes when talking to me, and I feel like I'm in hell. I'm aware it's an FP attachment and that my emotions are irrational, but that doesn't make them any less severe.

I'm just looking for advice on how to deal with this, how to get over it, etc. I'm meeting with a psychiatrist soon to talk about this, but until I can do that, I'd like some advice from other people that actually have BPD as well.

I have a loved one who has bpd. And it is really hard for them as well for me. I was hoping I could gets some advice or a place to talk about it. I really wanna know how can I help them or how to proceed with things.

Also a place for talking about this thing would be a really big help. Any help or suggestion is highly appreciated.

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I’ll give some context, i’ve been with him for nearly 3 years and we used to argue quite a lot, not so much anymore. When we argue, he flat out ignores my existence. I’ve expressed numerous times how triggering it is for me, because i have BPD and feeling ignored is one of my main triggers. But still, he ignores me. Why does he do this? I’ve read a lot about abuse and I’m not sure if it is abusive or if it’s not. He knows that it can lead me into an episode, and still nothing. I do everything for this man, and i don’t get much in return tbh. Because i have BPD, i struggle to leave relationships, especially ones that I’ve grown into. Can someone give me some like genuine advice? I’m really lost.

I just feel empry right now. I feel heavy. I fee like there's something cloudy over me. Just need some love from someone who understands. Some reasuring words that everything will be ok. Right now it doesn't seem like it :/

Welp, found out today I meet the diagnosic criteria for autism spectrum disorder, bipolar disorder type 2, borderline personality disorder, and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I am not sure how to take this, and am wondering about what I should do. Is anyone else out there both autistic and BPD? Or have bipolar or PTSD? How do you deal with all of this?

hi, i’m 23 and i graduated college a year and a half ago and i feel like ive gotten nowhere with my life and that im so far behind my peers and others my age. i can barely keep a job and i love the one im at now but even this i can feel slipping away from me as my symptoms continue to get worse. same goes for relationships, i just feel like im not good at anything. i live at home with my parents, too. idk i just feel like im so behind in life because my bpd keeps leading to setbacks and i guess i’m just wondering how others are doing/ if others have gotten through it and can offer me some advice?