In my last post, I asked you guys for improvements how I could write my character with schizophrenia of my book. Some of you Gave me some advice, which I'm grateful for, but some others seemed offended or descomfortable with how The character portrayed schizophrenia, so I'll briefly explain.

When I was writting, One of The most important things to The plot was for The character to have One specific hallucination but, since I wanted it to be more like a fiction instead of fantasy type of book, I searched to see how people can see hallucinations and, since schizophrenia sounded a good option to add to him, I did.

After making more and more of my story, I asked you about it, which, as I previously mentioned, some of you didnt like the concept, since my character was violent and it perpetuated stigma.

Well, I certainly didn't want to offend any one, therefore, I thought about searching for other mental disorders to write about thag had hallucinations, but, once again, I knew that, since I dont have any medical experience or engage with anyone who has it, portraying any real life mental disorder would just Tarnish the good name all these communities fight for and I would just end up like another brainless media creator creating characters with conditions they dont even know.

Therefore, here's my idea: Instead of using any real life mental disorder (like schizophrenia) on my initially violent character, since the book I'm writting is already a fiction, I was thinking in creating one fictional mental disorder my own. Since, if I did so, I could put The desired symptoms I wanted for him (hallucinations and delusions) and give him more justification why that specific mental disorder I created makes him violent. This way, I hope to be able to keep writting The original story without offending any of you.

But, If you think The idea is still too much interwined with schizophrenia and it still cause stigma, discomfort or offends you, please, let me know and I'll make sure to think of an option that can satisfy all of us

I’m 30 years old, and I lost my younger brother (28) five months ago in the most traumatic way imaginable. He had been diagnosed with schizophrenia and possibly bipolar disorder, but unfortunately, that didn’t spare him from being jailed for five months for a mistake he made, even though he was mentally unwell. When he finally came home, we thought we could support him and help him heal, but that peace lasted only two months before things took a devastating turn.

One Saturday, he sent me a long, chaotic message that ended with him saying he was going to end it all, even urging me to do the same. I could tell he was going through an episode, but I had no idea what was coming. I rushed to where he said he’d be, only to discover he had set himself on fire in public. His bloody footprints were everywhere. The ambulance took him to the hospital, and on the way there, we got the call saying he wouldn’t make it due to the severe burns all over his body.

I couldn’t accept it. I screamed at the doctor on the phone, refusing to believe that my brother was dying. When we got to the hospital, I saw him lying there, barely breathing, covered in burns from head to toe. I’ll never forget that feeling – the helplessness, the disbelief, and the overwhelming grief. He was able to say he loved us one last time before passing away peacefully after a few hours.

In the days that followed, my family and I had to prepare him for burial. Because of our faith, we needed to wash his body, and even though it was painful beyond words, I decided to do it with my friend and cousin. Pouring water over his burned skin and saying goodbye in this way is something I’ll never fully come to terms with.

Since then, life has slowly returned to some kind of ‘normal,’ but I still see his face every night before I sleep. My heart breaks thinking about his suffering, and while I know he’s free from his illness now, I just miss him so much. I’m sharing this here because I know grief takes time, and sometimes it helps to know we’re not alone.

Diagnosed with schizophrenia and ocd. I will at times, typically after watching a movie or show, that a celebrity or fictional character appears to be taking hold of me. Only yesterday after watching a movie (won't go into potentially triggering details) I felt I was acquiring some of his physical and mental characteristics, a sensation I'm struggling to completely shake off. I'm not a particularly suggestible person or overempathatic so the whole thing feels out of character. More like an invasion. Would this be "psychotic", or does it fall under more everyday "under the skin" experiences anyone can go through at some time?

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I have this sleeping problem which causes me to sleep during the day and then I'm up all night. Wondering if anyone wants to pass the time, talking about things in common.

For a little bit I thought I was doing better but now its harder than its ever been to do things. I have no sense of time and I just have been going to bed when I feel like I'm about to pass out. I forget to eat, and yet food doesn't sound appealing and it's hard to even eat when I do. When I think of doing something hard like taking out the trash I get a mental block and my arms feel too weak like the muscles just give up. I'm missing every appointment and I don't even feel up to answering my phone or scheduling.

I'm not really hearing many voices right now or anything, and I'm not really feeling intense negative emotions, just like normal sadness and happiness. But I've never had such negative symptoms where I don't even remember or think of doing the things to take care of myself for days at a time.

I knocked over some empty pop cans earlier off my table on accident and I just felt like it was too much to pick them up so they're just on my floor.

I've been in this state for maybe a couple of weeks I think. Just chain smoking cigarettes and playing videogames completely lost to the world.

But like genuinely, my voice hearing and even delusional thinking has decreased by a whole lot so I don't think it's psychosis. But it's definitely a state of some kind that's not healthy because I don't think I've ever just done something like knocking over something like knocking empty cans off my table and letting trash pile up all over like this before. Even now I don't feel up to doing anything about it, like cleaning it up or even like calling my psychiatrist or therapist.

My energy is just so sapped.

i am in the middle of a terrible panic attack and i keep hearing a voice telling me i am going to die tonight. i feel as though i am fated to die and there is nothing i can do about it. the voice is not allowing me to sleep and i keep getting unnerving visuals like “seeing the light” or seeing hellfire around me. i need to be told this will not happen and that it’s a delusion. it feels so real. thank you.

Weird things that confirmed my paranoia have happened quite often. I'm just curious if any of you experience something similar because, according to a book I've read on schizophrenia, written by a psychiatrist, some patients with delusional paranoia do experience things that confirm their paranoia, which the author himself cannot explain.

For instance, I had never been late for school or work, but one day, my phone vanished. I had clearly recalled it being right next to my right hand when I got up to get ready for school. But within the few seconds I looked away, it was gone. I looked every nook and cranny of my room, but it was nowhere to be found. I ended up being late for 30 minutes for class.

For a few months, I couldn't find my phone. But one day, when I was cleaning the entire apartment, I found a suitcase that I hadn't touched since moving into the apartment. There were a lot of untouched clothes inside. I took all of them out for the first time. And at the very bottom of it, right at the center of the suitcase, I found my phone there.

I couldn't have done it myself, especially unintentionally. I can't think of how it could have been buried in the suitcase that nobody had touched. The only possible explanations are that I have a memory lapse and did it by myself, or someone had come in and done it, neither of which is likely. My phone was literally next to my right hand, and it suddenly went beneath a pile of clothes at the bottom of the suitcase that had been buried deep in the closet. And the phone was left right at the center of the bottom, not even a little off from the center, as if someone had placed it there tidily.

This is just one of the things that have happened. Some of the events involve people. Right before something bad happened, a car suddenly slowed down right in front of me, the guy on the passenger's seat rolled down the window, and started waving at me with a "blank" face. As soon as I tried to notify my ex next to me, he rolled up the window and drove away. And shortly afterwards, something symbolic of what the guy had done happened.

I have tried to talk to some people who do not have schizophrenia, but they just saw them as riddles to solve and gave me unhelpful explanations. I'm not looking for advice or explanations. I'm asking if any of you experience things that confirm your delusional paranoia.

Has anyone in this group ever taken Malarone when travelling to prevent malaria?

Did it have any impact on your mental health? Literally asking for a friend!

My mum was not diagnosed with schizophrenia until i was in high school in 1989. During primary school i wondered why my mum acted the way she did. I think she had schizophrenia since 1980 when she tried to throw my older sister aged 7 off the balcony of high-rise building, when we lived in Romania. The neighbors in the high-rise building kept complaining to the police that we were being neglected so we were removed from her care and given to my grandfather. When my mum started taking medication for schizophrenia in 1989, she stopped hallucinating & being violent. But she also stopped taking an interest in life and spent most of her time in her room in bed. She didn't like to watch tv because she said it disturbed her. I always wondered how much of the behavior was because of the schizophrenia. She died in 2003 from breast cancer.

Can someone please explain it to me, like I was 5?

I've been hearing people for some time. The voices are pretty realistic. They typically harass and say vulgar things. They claim they are from a higher power.

So months ago i met somebody wonderful, and for the last weeks we started to become extremely close. It's safe to say that we're almost getting at the point of dating, and although i do plan to talk to her regarding all of this, i wondered if you guys had any advices regarding dating with a person who has schizophrenia ?

Swarms and clumps of spiders falling from my eyebrows onto my nose and crawling inside of my nose. Flies flying around in my mouth. Bugs crawling all over my skin, worms in my brain, hearing and feeling bugs crawl into my ears etc etc etc

Does anyone know any treatment centres or therapist near East LA or DTLA that takes government insurance.

I hear it's expensive 22 grand a year.

I dont know if this is normal but I visually see the girl from the Grudge sometimes. It makes me lose sleep.

I also believe that if I kill myself, I will become a famous artist that my paintings will be worth millions of dollars. I have been compulsively making paintings because I'm convinced that if I reach 1000 paintings, I will automatically will become famous due to how much paintings there is. I have done over 168 paintings. I haven't even reached a quarter of paintings. I have also drew numerous of notebooks with some of them drawn from 2011 when I was 10 years old.

This is a strange delusion but I feel like this will happen. I also think CIA is stalking me. I don't know. I feel so much all at the same time. I even think that if I kill myself, it will be the most hilarious thing ever. I have no idea why I have this idea, like if my suicide shouldn't be taken seriously and it should be made fun of. Since after all, I feel useless. I get anxious quite fast.

This would help me and everyone… if ya know I’m a sexual 4 mapping our true fears to see our symbols and recognize too far and a moral lesson 8 challenger 9 peacekeepers in comments

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These are a list of the songs that were used by my voices to communicate/feed delusions. Up to you if you want to listen to them and the lyrics. They trigger me and I would have panic attacks to them.

Skengdo x AM - Gemma Lorenzo Raganzini, Denis Dekay - Born Slippy (Trainspotting) blk. - Enter the Dragon (Are you up?) Blk., Circo, Teletech - Parasomnia The Kid LAROI - NIGHTS LIKE THIS Imogen Heap - Hide n Seek Becky Hill, Chase and Status - Disconnect M.I.A. - Popular M.I.A. - Paper Planes Kevin Abstract - Baby Boy siouxxie sixxsta - Masquerade Lil Peep - Buzzin Natalia Gordienko - Sugar Hooverphonic - The Wrong Place The Cranberries - Zombie STARGIRL INTERLUDE

https://mentalhealth-uk.org/help-and-information/conditions/schizophrenia/types-of-schizophrenia/

I think most of my symptoms would fit under paranoid schizophrenia, but I don't feel comfortable identifying with that as I have disogranzation and non-paranoid hallucinations and delusions and I have experienced catatonia. Maybe it's because I'm Schizoaffective and not schizophrenic but I experience my disorder in a cyclical way, at times having no symptoms and other times being fully psychotic, at times only having negative symptoms , etc. ....

After 10 years of unsuccessful treatment of symptoms by Seroquel and terrible side effects, I decided to get off of seroquel last year. This year has been pretty damn tough, lots of anxiety, uncontrollable anger, and health anxieties. I got a prescription for cobenfy sitting at home, and will start tomorrow. May update you guys in a week if I remember.

I’m quitting my meds and going silent towards my parents. I hate this all.

Been having bone pain, milky and clear breast substance coming from nipples, heart rate has increased even when laying down.

Like honestly it’s so lame and washed up at this point. No I don’t care why you want to write your boring book, video essay, blog, screenplay, etc. I don’t care what your intentions are. I don’t care and at this point I’m so tired of you people. It’s been done and it’s been done poorly. What makes you think your piece of media about a stigmatized illness would be any different? It feels almost voyeuristic at this point! Leave us alone!

No I don’t want to help you learn about schizophrenia. Type what you want to know into the search and go from there. It’s not our job to help you with your stupid side project. Also it’s offensive most of the time anyways. I have schizophrenia and I couldn’t accurately portray a person with schizophrenia in a movie because we aren’t a fucking monolith! My schizophrenia although possibly similar MAYBE to yours, is still different!

And no, I’m not saying you HAVE to have schizophrenia to make a piece of art about someone with schizophrenia. But for the love of God just DO RESEARCH. Stop making the same posts as every other artist before you.

Rant over I guess I don’t know.

I see flashbacks of the night I had my first break from reality. Most nights I cannot sleep because it’s all I can think about.

I was in the car with my friend driving him home and everything went to slow motion, I could see my life flash before my eyes and I have never felt so insignificant like I had lived that night before a near infinite amount of times. I got out of the car to try to stop traffic with my mind when my friend took me by the hand to a parking lot the rest of the night is a blur although I was arrested.

I have a delusion that that at any moment I will go back to that night forced to re-live those terrible moments over and over again.

Voices just reaffirm this when they are intelligible enough to make full phrases.

“You’ll go back” is a common one

Lately I’ve been having some self destructive tendencies and actually trying to trigger my delusions on purpose because I think it’s inevitable that I will go back to that night and if I do it will destroy me, so I’m doing it just to get it over with. I also stopped going to therapy awhile ago.

My fiancé is at her wits end with me and I don’t blame her. She’s been dealing with the full brunt of my symptoms for years And at a certain point she has to prioritize her mental health.

Any advice would be appreciated, there’s only a very small number of people that I trust talking to about my schizophrenia And sometimes I feel like I’m trapping myself in a bubble where i have no outlet or outside perspective. I know what I’ve been doing isn’t enough and I can feel myself spiraling and I want to stop it before it gets completely out of control. Thank you so much if you’ve read this far.

Had an odd day. Had a seizure in the night which triggered night terrors and that became a day of seeing and hearing things. Didn’t leave the bedroom at all but thought I’d had conversations with my wife a few times but she had been at work. I hate days like this but I know it will pass. Love to you all.

The thing is my case is harmless compared to the majority because i can talk normally and i can also tell the absolute clear micro differece between the schizo thoughts and my real ones.

It is just that the voices are still there. I know what they are and i am no longer fearful of them but they still sabotage my learning and studies.

Of course i did improve my condition with training.

A piece of advice: You must do the main work yourself in all mental illness. Your therapist or psychiatrist are just support characters in a video game like useful NPCs but they are not meant to heal you. That is your job by using the tools they give you.

Anyway my question is are there different levels of schizoohrenia? I am kinda between sanity and insanity. On a border. Sometimes i am sane and sometimes i feel like another person takes over my voice.

I'll try to be quick. This question comes from me watching The bad reviews of a movie called "Music" who portrayed a character with autism, but really bad written.

Because of that, I got a little scared because my hobby is to write a book on which The main character has schizophrenia and I didn't realize I could be steriotipazing it or offending minories, which isn't The point of my book.

To try to contradict it, I want you to tell me how would you portray a character with schizophrenia. Though I already have a personality for my character, I'm always Open to your point of views. How would you discribe them, what would be their traits. Or how I should aproach aproach The theme, how I can differentiate what's normal in schizophrenia and what's a steriotype and how I can avoid stigma?

Thank you for any help given and I hope you are doing okay.