I am wondering if anyone has any information on microdosing iboga / ibogaine to taper off opiates specifically heroin. If anybody has any advice or experience in this ie dosages or any hints on how this can be done successfully it would be really appreciated. Many thanks

Hi everyone I wanted to share a big milestone for me, I will be 1 month sober from oxy next week!!

This month has been a living hell. Constant fatigue, awful stomach pains/reflux/GI issues, crippling anxiety, cravings so strong I was inches away from relapse. I even felt like I was about to pass out a few times while at work and wound up at the doctor for bloodwork.

Despite how hard it has been I would do it a thousand times over to be free of the hold oxy had on me. My body is finally starting to regulate and I am feeling like myself again. I am still dealing with some symptoms, but I feel alive and not in the numb haze that this horrible drug puts you under. To those battling, stay strong with me. We got this and we are way stronger than this drug💪

Im not sure if I used the right terminology but I'm referring to medicine such as naltrexone, buprenorphine, methadone, suboxone etc. I need to get sober but think I need to do a taper of some sort to be able to accomplish this.

Could you guys tell me what all the different options here are and what the pros/cons for each. I know pros and cons is very subjective so just use your own personal experiences.

Thanks to all who help. Just want to start becoming the best version of myself I can be. Thanks guys

I’m 5 days sober off fent and I’m super confused and worried for my future self. I went out of town for the holidays so I haven’t had the opportunity to use. I go back home on Monday where all the reminders of active addiction are so I’m afraid I’ll relapse. I didn’t really want to get clean as well so I’d be in the same mindset and comfortable in active addiction. However, this has been one of the easiest times getting through the withdrawals. I took a bunch of supplements and stuff on the first three days and then a little over half and sub probably midway through the third day, otherwise I’ve been completely sober other than nicotine and weed ofc. Im also afraid I’m going to be way worse off when I’m at home simply because of the power your mental state has on the withdrawals. It seems like it was way too easy this time and therefore too good to be true. I’m just confused as I want to stay clean and never go through withdrawals again but I also really want to get high again. I find at night right before bed is when the cravings are the worst as all I want to do is hit a yerk and get the best sleep EVERR. It’s hard not to look forward to then so that I can get some type of fent in my system and feel awesome again. PAWS is also terrifying me. I know I need to make the changes when I get home, but for how long I was using for, everything reminds me of pills but I can’t just throw out my whole life and start over from scratch. I can’t afford to. Idk what I need so if you guys wanna just put any advice or tell your story it would be appreciated greatly…

I smoked M one time in the basement while my wife was upstairs with the kids and I told my mom and now she wants to take them away in court. What do I do?

I recently went to a addiction specialist and was told that when using naltrexone fir cravings I would need to wait 7-10 days to induce the naltrexone to allow everythingto get out of my system. In your personal experiences does that sound right?

Im confused because when I asked about suboxone they said I would only need to wait 36 hours. From my knowledge wouldn't it be the same either way if it's just waiting for the stuff to get out of my system.

Also I've heard suboxone really ruins your teeth big time. If I go that route is there a way to combat the tooth issues? I got good teeth and really don't want to mess them up.

I think I do need some form of cravings help. I've been using since 17 and am now 22 with my longest sober period being 6-8 months. I fear I may have wired my brain really wrong. I would taper off suboxone and maybe use naltrexone as a craving helped

Very curious about this. I know tramadol is different from other opiates. It was always my drug of choice and for years. Anyway I couldn’t ever see past 4 weeks without it, after many tries. The withdrawals were horrific then I would relapse due to extreme PAWS. I started subutex in may this year, and I’ve just hit the 6 month mark being clean from tramadol. This last couple of weeks I have been feeling a real zest for life again. I’m excited about things, feel all giddy towards my husband again, going out socialising with friends again and just enjoying life. But for those first few months being clean from tramadol I was just miserable, even taking the subutex didn’t really help my mental state all that much. My only thought is maybe my brain has healed itself or is beginning the healing process from the damage from the tramadol. Just curious to see if anyone can concur on this? I’m aware tramadol has very complex effects on brain chemistry so this is my thoughts on why I’ve been feeling so well this last few weeks.

I (f31) went through my husbands phone last night, through the deleted messages. He’s not a cheater but he has been caught lying to me on multiple occasions about small random things. I found out he has a drug addiction ( MDMAs and opioids) after we got married ( 3 weeks in and I found a bag of pills in his car) and moved in together. It’s only been 6 months of being married and I’m already seeing other things about him that doesn’t make sense. Mid June I helped him detox and started meal prepping for him, getting him started at the gym, managing his business so he can relax a bit and maybe the stress can stop being a trigger. Mid June to now I thought he was clean ( we even did random drug tests to earn my trust back) but there’s a message from September in his deleted box to some guy saying “ any luck?” And the dealer texted back with “ did you see my txt from last night” and my husband replied back with “ no I have to block you every time I’m home so my wife doesn’t see this”. On this day and time while he was texting the dealer I pulled up my text history with my husband and he’s ACTIVELY telling me “ I love you so much I know I put your through a lot but I’m going to earn your trust back. You’re going to see many changes in my health” etc etc. only a few hours later after texting me this he’s meeting up with the dealer for his pills. How do I proceed? I’m feeling torn between staying and helping him get through whatever this addiction is but the other part of me is feeling like I’ll end up lied to, manipulated ( he’s done this before to me when my gut was telling me something is off and he’ll gas lit me into believing I’m overthinking) and wasting a bunch of years before I see he’s going to pick his addiction over me.

He has his own company, he’s very high functioning, takes care of the bills, has a social life, etc. I’m saying this because he’s not relying on me for shit, or using me. he wants to be with me for me but how do I get over this betrayal.

Mid June to now I thought he was clean when I first caught him. He even started coming home early. I just can’t believe he’s smoking smack on a foil paper, popping pills and manipulating me this bad. I could never imagine a life without him but I’m scared that’s the real reality of my life and I need to somehow pick myself up and leave. Any advice would be appreciated please. I’m young and don’t have much experience with drug users or being betrayed.

I was a heroin/meth addict for ten years, at the end did mostly fent. A year ago I got clean after experiencing an ayahuasca ceremony with the express intention of quitting drugs. It’s been really hard and I still use Kratom so don’t necessarily consider myself clean, but still it’s been a hell of a lot better of a situation.

I was at my in laws house for thanksgiving and she had a big bottle of Percocet sitting out in her bathroom. At first I walked away, but later this incredible urge came over me and I had to take one. It didn’t do shit so I took 3 more. I still didn’t feel anything at all and felt like shit for stealing so stopped. Maybe the kratom has my tolerance high enough or percs just aren’t very strong, idk. But I’m grateful I didn’t feel high. If I did I probably would have fallen back off the wagon hard. It’s been 3 days and just trying to move forward.

It’s SO COLD OUT I’m psyched for it a little because it’s so good and crisp but also goddamn my nose is cold.

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Hardcore fent addict here. It's as bad as it gets. I start going into withdrawals within an hour of last use. Needless to say, sleeping through the night is impossible.

I got ahold of some sub strips. 8/2.. I cut one up into fourths and took it through the day. They have worked for me in the past.

That night, I started throwing up. Like hard. So much so that my diaphragm hurt. It was the worst night of my life. Of course, I went back to fent to make it stop.

I wasn't sure if taking more suboxone would make it worse or make it stop. I still have several strips.

I have no medical insurance. Anyone have any suggestions?

Im not worried about getting a prescription anytime soon or anything but If there comes a time where I get surgery or go through something that requires pain management, will I be unable to get prescriptions in those situations?

I don't plan on using those situations as passes to use but if the pain Is bad enough I don't want that option to be non existent.

My sources are being cut off and I’m being forced into ‘recovery’. I’m hanging my a thread here. Can someone please give me a reason to live without the drugs? I’m really struggling to find anything

Tomorrow, I'll have been clean for 2 years and 5 months. My entire life has changed. I'm unrecognizable. Sometimes I wonder if I'm actually dead and this is some dream my brain sent me to before I finally realize it's over. I'm looking down the barrel of moving overseas and possibly working my dream job. But the only reason I survived my addiction was luck. My friends died. My best friend died. How am I supposed to do all these things that make me happy when they're dead? None of this makes any sense. I don't even know how I'm supposed to have a career knowing all the things that happened in the past.

I see a therapist and will have to bring this up in our next session, but for tonight I'm just stuck. The urge to relapse hasn't been this bad in a while. I think I'm afraid to actually live my life and move on. I just don't understand how I'm supposed to pretend like I wasn't an addict for so long and live amongst people who never went through it. There are a lot of people that expect a certain level of put-togetherness from me now that makes me want to throw it all away and just get fucked up. I don't want to relapse, but at the same time I really, really do. Nothing makes sense anymore. I can't ignore the compulsion to throw away all of my success.

I don't know what's going on with me, any advice or response is appreciated.

Gone lukewarm turkey since Tuesday, from 256 mg (20 pills) of codeine pretty much daily to just 38 mg (3 pills in the morning to get me going). I know thats not crazy compared to what I’ve read on here but for me it was a very expensive addiction. I’m in the UK so I’m talking Nurofen plus (Ibuprofen and Codeine) here and no I was not CWE-ing them unfortunately. I’m aching, mildly depressed, fatigued all symptoms I can live with EXCEPT these stupid legs that feel like they are going to vibrate off my body. Please someone in the UK give me some advice because I cannot fucking get any sleep.

I was taking 40 mg of methadone for 10 days, then 30 mg for another 10 days, 20 for 6 days and 3 days ago took my last pill of 10 mg. Did not feel anything until today I’m just wondering how much this will last and if could get worse by the time. I do have a prescription for 10 mg of methadone but where I am they do not have any left.

Any advice or help is really appreciated and helpful.

Thank you guys.

I recently started using Suboxone to come off of a pretty hefty kratom addiction. I have been using 4 mg strips for about 9 days and it has completely gotten rid of my kratom cravings and withdrawals. The problem I am facing is that I am too scared to come off the Suboxone and I'm needing advice on what to expect if I were to stop them within the next couple of days cold turkey. Any and all suggestions and advice are greatly appreciated as this is my first time trying to come off of Suboxone and I realize that I haven't even been on them for 2 weeks but I do know how potent and addicting they can be. Thank you in advance.

I started using with the age of 12.. I'm 25 now.. my last dose was 500 mg IR morphine.. I'm 2 days into cold turkey now.. tomorrow is 3rd day.. it's getting harder and harder but I'm fighting through this because I don't want to be the next person who dies.. I'm also sick of scaring my parents.. my mom cried so often when I had an overdose and when she thought I would die.. even my dad cried and hes an addict himself and getting substituted.. but I don't want to be numb all the time.. I want to feel.. I want to enjoy life.. I'm sick of numbing myself just so I'm able to fit into this world.. I'm so fucking sick.. This time I'm fighting and I will do it.. I needed 4 hours to write this because I had to throw up every 5 minutes so I hope it all makes sense.. keep fighting!

today is my second day without doing perc 10s with the help of subs. my goal is to keep taking like 1/8th of the sub until sunday then i should be in the clear of wds

Today is 11 days off opiates. From a 15 year addiction. I was a fictional addict. I went completely broke trying to make myself feel better everyday. So I’ve decided to get my life back. I have nothing now. I even quit my 9 year job because I couldn’t function without a perc or norco. Mind u I found my 42 year old mother years ago. She died from her legal addiction. (Bought mine illegally). But I’ve been in such a deep depression doing this. Today I feel I can beat it. I didn’t think I could just 3 days ago. I hate I have no one to talk to about this. It’s just me & my mind. I’m fighting so hard

I made a post about ANR yesterday (the “legit” one in Florida), and I just wanna say I’m not endorsing it at all. It has left me worse than I was when I was on methadone. My methadone symptoms were weight gain, extreme sugar cravings, no libido(I still don’t have it), poor concentration (I still have poor concentration), and constant sweating. I already suffer from depression and anxiety, which could be why I’m feeling this way. I also want to add that I’m on medication, and I’ve been on medication for years. My medication is Lamotrigine, Cymbalta, Spironolactone, Adderall, and Ativan. But it has been hell emotionally. I’m having trouble showering and brushing my teeth, and I don’t feel anything toward my dog, which is scary. The depression is so bad. They’re claiming you won’t have withdrawals which is bullshit. I don’t have the physical withdrawals of going cold turkey, but the emotional toll is absolute hell. I don’t know if I’m explaining this correctly, but methadone and opiates occupy your endorphin receptors, and once you’re off, you are left with nothing to occupy them. I saw a lot of success stories and talked to some people who’ve done it and were successful, so I thought it would work for me and I’d be better, but that’s not the case for me. I’m still off methadone and other drugs. So my question is, if my goal is to get off Methadone with tapering and I successfully got off of it, wouldn’t I be back to square one with my endorphins?? It sounds like a catch-22. I’m at a loss and can’t take feeling this way. I’m 28f idk if that matters

Welcome to Black Friday, what used to(?) be the biggest shopping day of the year. I don't know if it's just my area or what, but I went to Target today to get a cheap TV stand and there was just the normal amount of people there, which I was grateful for.

I'm glad I'm not dopesick today, because it was usually the case when I was getting high that my people would run out or be unavailable on holidays and then I'd be stuck sick as hell all weekend.

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So.. I graduated from Cosmetology School in 2016. I spent around a year apprenticing. Built my clientele up for around 3 years. Built my confidence up, had enough clientele to live on my own.

Then the pandemic came. Sadly- I discovered Heroin. Then unknowingly- was being sold fentanyl. So been addicted to that for years. It probably had switched to just straight fentanyl around the end of 2021, looking back and realizing now that I know what it is.. I know now when it switched.

So. I stopped doing hair for many reasons. I could only go so long without getting sick.. so I had to bring it with me, and run to the bathroom. So ran the risk of getting caught with it, getting pulled over. And I knew I wouldn’t be able to perform my best, which wouldn’t be fair to the clients and I would have ruined my name for good. Or lost my license for good. I was aware from the start I had a problem. So I only worked a couple months after getting addicted.

It’s been years since I stopped. And honestly. My confidence is in is gone. I have no idea how I’ll just walk back into a salon, as my skills are not where they were. My confidence dead- so couldn’t even fake it till I make it like I used to be able to, and still figure out the color formulation.

I’m starting a clinic this next month to get clean, and I know I’ll need a few months after at least to recover.

My question is- where do I even begin to get back into this career… with having so much time passed and not feeling up to par, even after being recovered. I think I would have enjoyed it even more as time had gone on and would have gotten better and better.

I’ll be 30 this next October, and it sucks to completely start from the beginning again almost a decade later. But that’s just me whining, and I know I’ll have to do what I have to do. But part of me feels maybe it’s time to just let it go and find something else. But no idea what that would even be. It’s the only thing I have experience wise… and wish I knew if the confidence came back if I would enjoy it more. But feel don’t have all the time to figure that out at 30, as it would take a few more years.. just to find another career even older… and do the work for that.

Should I stick with what I know.. and find classes and practice during my recovery stint?

Just not sure where to even begin, and having a plan in place will help me stick with recovery.. knowing life will get better and having a plan of getting where I want to get… sustained… actual achievements. Even before when I was at the height for myself personally of the career- I still had never made it to where I wanted to be as a stylist. I became addicted before I had time to find out or become that.

Hi. I stupidly relapsed on Tuesday (I’d ordered pills online that got stuck at customs for weeks and then randomly they arrived. And like many of us junkies, the temptation was too hard) I’ve only taken 6 pills (150mg of tapentadol equivalent to 30mg oxy each) over the 4 days.

I know this is a dumb question, so I don’t need it pointed out, I’m just looking for actual facts and advice from people who have relapsed in the past, but how long of taking this amount would cause withdrawals?

For instance, I know that if I increase and take for 6 months, the withdrawals will be hectic. But if I continue to take them only for a couple of weeks at the low dose, will the withdrawals be minimal?

I can’t bear the thought of throwing them away however I am terrified to get hooked again and have to go through hideous withdrawals I went through.

I know I have failed and I know I’m playing with fire. I’m just having a hard time at the moment and as soon as that first pill hit me I felt myself again. 😭 No pain. No anger. No stress. I know it won’t last but if I use them properly for a few weeks to get through this period could I avoid withdrawals in say 6 weeks?

I’ve only ever taken pills orally. Never inject etc. I was heavily addicted to approx 500mg oxy for two years. Went to rehab. Relapsed. Went to hospital. Been on subs and Mat injections. And completely clean of opiates for 8months and MAT for 6months. Until now; if that makes a difference to the answer.

I am a mental basket case after overdosing Nov 16th. I don't know what I was thinking when I made the decision to take Ativan. Benzos have already cost me my career, gotten me a domestic violence charge and 2 DUIs.

This time all I remember is taking a few Ativan and the beginning of a mile walk to my house. Then I briefly remember struggling to breathe in an ambulance.

After that I wake up in the emergency room, where I was told by a kind doctor I was not breathing, blue and unresponsive when EMTs arrived. I was picked up at a seedy motel 3 miles away and I have no clue how I got there. or with whom? or why?

It is all so embarrassing to think about. It is constantly on my mind. I am not ready to die and have a 13 year old that needs me. I am going to AA meetings and start therapy next week. I feel like there is no coming back from this emotionally...

I’m thinking of switching to ER as opposed to regular dihydrocodeine, so it would be DHC Continus 120 mg

quick recap wanting to taper off a current habit of about 1200mg a day (40 x 30mg pills)

The 30mg hit me pretty quickly and last about 4-5 hours (assuming i have taken enough)..then withdrawals kick in quite quickly, so i end dosing 4 or 5 times a day..

If the Continus work it could mean i only dose twice a day, although i would need to start with quite hefty doses

does anyone have good experience with ER and hopefully DHS continus specifically, do they work as they should? Any insights would be great, i would like to know exactly how they do work too

Having real responsibility sucks. I miss when getting money for boy was the only thing that mattered sometimes cause it was easy for me. 9 months clean

I forgot how bloody beautiful music sounds when you get clean! Literally stopped listening to music and then in the last 4-5 days (9-10days since last use) music sounds like absolute magic to my ears right now.

It definitely helps when I’m feeling down and low. Which has been often because our poor brains are so deprived of naturally occurring dopamine.

But yes, music. I’ve missed you! So much good can come from putting on your fave music and just dancing around or sitting and hearing those lyrics.

I did ANR weeks ago in Florida, and it’s tough. I was doing blues from April 2023 to August 2023, so I decided to switch to methadone and was on it from August 2023 until before my treatment of 60 mg. I gained so much weight and was exhausted; I had no sex drive the whole shebang. I have no appetite or motivation, trouble showering, brushing my teeth, and just everyday basic tasks, and it’s hard. I’m finally able to sleep without trazodone. Methadone was hard, but this is a lot harder. But honestly, I should be working out more and doing endorphin-boosting activities. It does help to go on walks, but only for so long until my endorphins drop again. I’m pushing myself, but the depression is so hard. Then again, my treatment was on November 13, and today is the 28th, so it’s still so soon. I already suffer from depression and anxiety, so that can add to how I’m feeling. I think my brain needs to recalibrate. There are withdrawals for ANR that definitely could be worse by going cold turkey. Honestly, I had to get off methadone somehow, and I don’t regret it because I know things will get better eventually. And I do not have any cravings. Also, I’m happy to answer any questions, and anyone who’s been through this has advice. By the way, this isn’t the same as rapid detox. It’s ANR in Florida

Just for some context- I’ve used opiates of all sorts on and off for 10 years. Total.. 4-5 of those years I have been sober with relapses sprinkled in. So I had a surgery in March and I got prescribed oxys of course and that lead to be getting back involved with shit off the street in June. I was buying real M 30s for 5 of the 6 months I was doing them… along with mixing Xanax. Not good.. I know. At my peak of last month (October), I was taking two 30mg oxys at a time, two times a day, with a few 1mg xans. My guy ran out so I had to switch to the “dirty 30s” for a few weeks. Money got tight, and I knew I had to get clean before it got even worse. I have a 5 year old son and a wife so I gave myself no choice.

So… on November 18 I did my last bit of a dirty 30 and was prepared for the suck. I had one 8mg subutex to help. The first 24 hours, not too bad. At 48 hours the anxiety, depression, RSL & all of the other lovely withdrawal symptoms started kicking in (minus vomiting & diarrhea for whatever reason), but not as bad as I have felt in the past as I was still able to sleep. At the 48th hour I did a small crumb of the sub, then another and another throughout the day until I took a total of 4mg. The next day I felt really foggy, anxious etc. but nothing like I expected. Later that evening I took 2mg, went to bed and actually slept. Wasn’t good sleep but I slept for 6-7 hours. The next day which was this past Saturday,the 23rd, I took 2mg in the morning and have had nothing related to opiates since. I have had a few drinks a night to help with the nerves

My symptoms since (past 5 days) have been blurry vision, aimlessness, weakness & fatigue, difficulty sleeping (more so than the first 5 days), depression, heavy anxiety. But still no where near as bad as what I have experienced in the past after getting clean. The anxiety and fatigue are the heaviest symptoms.

I am confused on why this time isn’t as bad as I was expecting…. From experience. Any insight?

For more detail- a few wholistic things I did over the past 10 days to help with symptoms are- As hard as it was because of the fatigue…I’ve hit the gym a few times and did 30 minutes of cardio and spent 20minutes in the sauna afterwards in hopes to sweat out the toxins and speed up the process. I meditate in the morning for 10 minutes or so and do other breathing exercises. I do this to try and slow my brain down and also, when you’re focused on your breathing you are not fixated as much on how bad you feel. Also, meditation and breath work increase your dopamine. I also have taken several cold showers which absolutely suck because of the temperature sensitivity that come with withdrawing, but cold water exposure GREATLY increases your dopamine & serotonin. It sucks but if you can handle it, do the research on it and do it!

I did get a small script of Xanax (14 count) yesterday (Nov 27th) from my doctor to help with the anxiety and buddy what a relief. I only wanted some to get me through the first few weeks of this process. I am not advocating for Xanax I am only giving the full story. 1mg Xanax and my vision is no longer blurry, the brain fog and confusion are gone, obviously the anxiety is suppressed, depression is suppressed but I am sure they will be back with PAWS.

Side note- the last two nights I have been profusely sweating while sleeping. Not fun but none of this is 🤷🏼‍♂️

My plan next week is to get back in the gym, cardio and weight lifting. This has been my savior with previous relapses. Working out gives you huge increases of dopamine, seratonin and other “feel good” brain chemicals us addicts have depleted ourselves of.

I’ve managed to be okay to function (barely) throughout this whole process and I’m baffled. 6 months of hard use and all I had was one 8mg sub stretched over 3 days… while my sleep hasn’t been good, I’ve managed to sleep at least 5 hours a night. I’ve managed to get work done (I work from home brokering boat sales and my wife and I own a Flower Shop which I work at as well when needed). I’m not sure wtf is going on as to why this has been much easier than in the past. I know I’ve done things like hitting the gym, cold showers, and meditating in hopes to offset symptoms but I still feel like I’ve dodged a bullet….

Either this is a sign from god to get my shit together once and for all? My plug and I ended on bad terms so I can’t ever hit him up again. That’s of course a great thing but maybe now that I know for a fact I dont have any access to opiates, that somehow helped my psyche? or I found a good recipe for mitigating the symptoms of opiate withdrawal? Im not a doctor…. I am just confused lol

Sorry for the book. My hopes for this post is

1. To try and help anyone going through this in any way I can. Meditation, breath work, cold water exposure, sauna & working out definitely help A TON. Do all of them if you can!!
2. Trying to make sense as to why this withdrawal has been so moderate comparatively speaking.

Good luck everyone! I can tell you from multiple experiences.. it gets better 🫶🏻