Shooting dope everyday, A boy with dreams lost all hope.

I laugh at you as you toss your life in the wind,

To far gone… it’s us till’ the end.

I’ll be there when you lose your pride.

When you forget your morals, I’m at your side.

You’ll cheat and steal to have that fix,

Won’t take baby to the doctor although she’s sick.

Oops. Another appointment baby missed.

Nanny buys diapers because Daddy stays high,

Daddy hits Mommy and the children cry.

Daddy is a junkie and fast becoming a crook.

You’ll land in jail, a drug addict you remain,

Your heart turns cold as you play the game.

Do not pass go- strip your dignity right here,

This old man wants you, dry your tears,

Quote a price! Self respect long forgotten,

You’d sell your soul to the devil for an Oxycontin.

I told you boy the destination is in your head!

‘Welcome To Hell!’ Next stop… Well, he’s dead.

I told you that I’d stick it out till’ the end,

For me, you traded your dreams and kids,

Your Addiction, Life, and your faithful Friend.

Funny, I don't remember no good dope days. I remember walking for miles in a dope fiend haze. I remember sleeping in houses that had no electric. I remember being called a junkie, but I couldn't accept it. I remember hanging out in abandos that were empty and dark. I remember shooting up in the bathroom and falling out at the park. I remember nodding out in front of my sisters kid. I remember not remembering half of the things that I did. I remember the dope man's time frame, just ten more minutes. I remember those days being so sick that I just wanted to end it. I remember the birthdays and holiday celebrations. All the things I missed during my incarceration. I remember overdosing on my bedroom floor. I remember my sisters cry and my dad having to break down the door. I remember the look on his face when I opened my eyes, thinking today was the day that his baby had died. I remember blaming myself when my mom decided to leave. I remember the guilt I felt in my chest making it hard to breathe. I remember caring so much but not knowing how to show it. and I know to this day that she probably don't even know it. I remember feeling like I lost all hope. I remember only causing pain, destruction and harm. I remember the track marks the needles left on my arm. I remember watching the slow break up of my home. I remember thinking my family would be better off if I just left them alone. I remember looking in the mirror at my sickly completion. I remember not recognizing myself in my own Damn reflection. I remember constantly obsessing over my next score but what I remember most is getting down on my knees and asking God to kill me cuz I don't want to do this no more!!!"

Belfast bloody Belfast

I walk down a broken street in search of my Promised Land, I'm on a mission from God and my God's name is Heroin. In the distance I can hear the gunfire, I'm in a holy war, my sergeant's named desire. I walk past other junkies nodding out against a wall, We're fighting the same cause, fighting against withdrawal. I reach my destination, I talk with the man, I hand him twenty pounds, he puts my God in my hand. Heroin you must be God for everything I do is for you,

I'd crawl ten miles on broken glass for you. I'd sell my soul, my family and friends for you, If you asked me to sell myself, I'd do that too, You can see I'm truly nothing, nothing without you. But if you're really God, you leave me confused, At times I feel like I've really been used. You leave me shivering when it's not really cold,

Unable to walk and I'm not even old.

You leave me penniless when I'm not even poor,

You leave me feeling beaten, aching and sore.

You take away my pride, my looks and my health,

Make me lie to my family, my friends and myself. Although for you I have dedicated my life, What have you done for me except stabbed me with a knife? I look in the mirror at my own bloodshot eyes, I stare at a man whose world is all lies. I think about my past and start to realize, You're not a God at all, but the Devil in disguise.

I am trying to get sober from alcohol and have relapsed a bunch of times. I just this month fought a really strong urge, and I realised it seems to always come 3-4 weeks into recovery, and then I realised maybe I just really get the urge to relapse a few day before my period arrives. Any thoughts? If this was true I could prepare for it.

If you have previously or were to attend an outpatient addiction treatment center on day 1, what would help to ensure that you would come back on day 2 for your follow up appointments, etc.? Aside from medicine that makes you (hopefully) feel better and (hopefully) nice staff that makes you feel welcome, if you were to receive a "goody bag" of things to take home to make your day 1 to day 2 easier, what would you want to be in it? warm socks is an example. These can be gender specific like tampons or gender neutral like mouth wash. Or, more emotional like words of encouragement in a letter. I need ideas! Wanting to help patients and ensure they want to come back for treatment on day 2! Thank you all so much!

Has anyone else gained a significant amount of weight on Suboxone? I have gained 40lbs over 2 years and no matter what I do I cannot lose even a pound.

Join us in supportive and welcoming space community as we come together to share our experiences and knowledge. Our aim is to reduce harm and raise awareness globally. Together, we can work collaboratively towards harm reduction in a supportive community setting. Share your experiences and feel free to ask any questions about harm reduction to avoid unnecessary mistakes. Let's build a sense of unity and understanding by spreading awareness together.

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14 years ago my resolution was to quit drinking. Every year on January 1st, I renew that resolution. Here’s to another year!

By the grace of God Sept 22, 2017 I went my first full day without picking up a drink of whiskey, or using meth or any other substance. To this day I have not picked up! If I can do it, anyone can!

Hello everyone!

I’m a 22 year old woman who has had some pretty shitty news dropped in my lap. My aunt has relapsed after 8 years of sobriety. She has expressed wanting to get sober again but is having trouble figuring out how. Most of the rehabs near us are suboxen pushers and she believes she needs to be completely sober to stay sober, no drugs. Idk how to help her, I’m just worried and need some advice. She also has 3 young children and a teenager, she’s terrified this mistake will jeopardize them and they’ll be taken away.

How is it like having kids as an addict in recovery

As im only getting older, the question is on my mind. How was pregnancy and having kids for u

I’ve been wanting to hold myself accountable with my actions and am new to the sub. I’m excited to see where my journey takes me but am wondering if anyone has people in this sub that you talk to privately and check in with each other.. daily, weekly.. just anything honestly. Is that even allowed here?

Not looking forward to being surrounded by alcohol. I know all the tips to distract myself and won’t feel tempted to drink but it’s not fun being around my parents when they drink. When they drink it brings back old memories of them fighting my entire childhood and I hate seeing it to this day. Trauma lol

Tomorrow is my sobriety anniversary. 3 years sober from alcohol, weed and gambling.

I’m feeling sad that my dad is still in active addiction and was arrested yesterday after being in jail for 5 days last week and was just released on Sunday.

We live in a small town, so on his way home, my husband actually witnessed the police foot chase and then arrest… I’m scared my dad will come to my house while high on meth.

Heavy stuff going on, but I’m proud of myself and happy my two kids 2 and under have never seen their mom drunk.

Drop your thoughts in the comments 👇

Hello, I just needed some advice from anyone. I’m trying to stop smoking the flower but I’m finding it extremely hard to do. I’ve recovered from other substances that are much more hardcore and did it but I can’t as of right now with THC. So, I wanted to go to a detox behavioral hospital, where I actually have been there before, just to detox for a week because I can’t do this anymore. The last time I went there, I came out after 6 days of detoxing, I was so much more happier because I just needed that push. It’s effecting my family and kids so I need to stop. Do you think it’s stupid to go detox off of weed because I have mental problems as well?? That’s why I smoke to calm me down and so I can actually deal with life. Anyway, sorry for the long rant.

Hi Everyone,

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Ok, so I am always last minute. My husband has one year sober on July 11th and it’s a Tuesday so we both work. Do you have any ideas how to make this day special? I was already thinking I might take him to dinner… we have a 2 year old… maybe we sing happy birthday with a cake (he will have a birthday night for him only at our home group July 14th). I moved from Kansas to Idaho, we met in aa, relapsed and used together for a while got sober and slipped here and there. We moved to Oregon then back to Kansas, had a baby, got married. It’s been an adventure for sure. Two alcoholics addicts trying to grow and learn spiritually hasn’t been easy, but it’s been so worth it. Anyways- help!

UC Irvine researchers in the Departments of Emergency Medicine and Informatics are recruiting Peer Leaders for the HOPE Opioid Study.

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I'll be two years alcohol-free next month, yet I still think about drinking. I don't physically crave alcohol and I believe that I will never drink again, but why do I keep thinking about it? Is it because I'm counting days (709 if you're wondering)? I became a vegetarian three years ago and I don't think about meat everyday. I just wish alcohol didn't take up so much room in my consciousness, if that makes sense.