Quit after 2 years of daily use last August and due to the extent of the withdrawals experienced at the time, I was certain I’d quit for good.

Smoked casually with friends in December to break the streak, which quickly turned into daily use again shortly after. I’m training for a marathon at the end of May so I’m using this as my motivation as I can sometimes struggle appreciating the short and long term negatives of smoking. However, I can definitely appreciate that I find it very easy to turn up to work, smoke in the evenings and just plod along - neglecting a lot of external things.

Posting on here to keep myself accountable, and I found this thread v useful last time.

I had my first opportunity in 30 days to smoke, and I'm happy I didn’t. I had peer support not to smoke, which helped 100%. I thought I was going to cave tonight, but this pushes me to go longer, and I feel pleased about it. ( although I’m thinking about smoking when I’m alone tomorrow ) 10 year weed smoker here. On going smokers cough is what’s really pushing me. It’s gnarly still after 30 days ( obvi since I’ve been a heavy smoker for 10 years )

Hey guys,

If you care to read my previous posts, you’ll see that I was suffering from the prodromal phase of CHS. I am now 9 days sober and I feel like a real person again. The first week might have been the one of hardest things I have gone through in life, as I was a daily user with ADHD, anxiety, depression. Anti nausea meds helped me immensely, but I was barely able to eat. I had a burger and fries today, oh my god it was amazing. I am sleeping better, so much more alert, my relationships are already improving. I couldn’t have done it without this community and building a support system of friends that encourage me in this stressful time. Thank you to all the kind souls who commented on my posts, if you are reading this I promise quitting is so worth it, IT GETS BETTER. I didn’t have cravings in the first week because I was I was so sick and scared to get sicker, but now I am starting to wish I could smoke a bowl here and there. I know this will fade with time, I might not have chosen to voluntarily quit weed but damn did weed quit me. Kudos to everyone here, i love you all.

I stopped smoking about 3 months ago after smoking for the last 4 years because I'm trying to join the military (Air Force). Unfortunately my recruiter keeps ghosting me and it's really weighing on me. I smoked to help myself stop overthinking, mostly at night so I could sleep or I smoked socially with friends. Now I'm just depressed and struggle to sleep since Im still in the same place in life I just have no outlet now. My friends respect that I can't smoke but the few times I do hang out with them seeing them relax just makes me more depressed. Plus the whole reason I quit smoked isn't planning out. I signed all the military paperwork so if my recruiter ever does get back to me smoking at all will disqualify me immediately. But it's a very slim chance he'll get back to me no matter how hard I try. How do I get over this? I want to try nicotine but I know how hard that is to kick so it scares me.

So I'm 22M been smoking since I was about 16 but didn't start heavy use up until I was 18. I finally have found the urge to want to really quit. I honestly regret smoking at such a young age because I do feel the effects. Im at the point where my anxiety gets worst when I smoke so I'd rather just stop. I'm also entering a new phase in my life and honestly really want to be clear minded for this new chapter in my life.

Last week I stopped after tapering down from a eighth a day a week prior and the first 3 days were rough but it honestly got better.

My biggest thing is sleep, it's currently 3:18 am in Florida and I am stuck up. I have been having nothing but the WORST nightmares and not only that but staying asleep is sooooooo hard. I wake up about every hour and when I do I'm up for 2.

That one hit I took yesterday helped me sleep so well and it really makes me wanna go to the dispo and buy a eighth but I'm trying to stay strong.

I really just wanted to know when can I expect these nightmares and the sleep insomnia to stop ?

Thanks in advance for any replies!

I am pretty pleased to have gotten to day 8, it's the longest I've gone in years.

My living situation is a bit chaotic until April, all of my things are in a lock-up until I can move, I don't have access to most of my stuff. I basically just move between my partner and parents house with a bag of clothes and toiletries. So I feel starting new habits is tough right now.

Nevertheless, I don't want to wait until April to start replacing the weed with good habits. Last week I cooked lots of healthy meals, which I really enjoyed but lots went to waste as I moved around for work etc., so I am looking for suggestions and ideas. I like the idea of meditation but honestly don't know how to start.

I'd love to hear what healthy habits you all have started since quitting. Even if they aren't achievable for me right now, it would be good to get inspiration.

Hey, this may be a bit tmi but I'm over three weeks sober from cannabis. I'm happy to be free of it and all that comes with it. That being said I've noticed I have no real libido or that I am attracted to anyone. I've struggled with hypersexuality due to being on the spectrum and trauma response my whole life so this is like a post nut clarity on another level. Now it's almost the exact opposite, I find most very little interest in people and slightly off put by human sexuality. I am unsure how I feel about it as it is nice but now I worry that dating is even going to be harder for me as I don't have the interest in being physical with anyone. I feel like I've gone from pan to ace. Did this happen to anyone else or am I just a special bit of fucked up. Thanks for reading and would love to hear other people's take on it.

Hey guys so I first started smoking weed when I was 18 and severely depressed, of course at the start it was this amazing new thing and getting high was just fucking awesome I just started smoking nonstop.

I did pretty much nothing with my life for 4 and a half years until I got a job and started earning money and started doing something instead of sitting around the house smoking all day. Now a year and a half into this job I’ve been staying at accomodation on site at my work, my boss owns the place. He can tell I’ve been smoking because no matter how hard I’ve tried to hide it the smell eventually got me.

Now I know I have a problem and I smoke too much and it’s kinda just keeping me tied down in life but it’s just such a huge part of life like I have no idea how to even start quitting, I honestly never thought I would I figured I’d just smoke until my lungs gave out one day. I know that’s grim but yeah

I stuttered like a little bitch.

I stuttered like I had just learnt how to speak English. It’s been two years since I moved to Canada and I was handling my expenses while working at Uber.

But I always wanted a job in customer service since that’s what I am experienced in. I grew up as an Ameriboo in Iran and mastered the English language when I reached 16 years old.

I can speak English fluently and only native speakers can notice that I’m not a native speaker cause I speak with an almost accurate American accent.

But tonight, being 3 weeks sober after abusing weed daily for 3 years, I finally had a job interview in customer service. I had anxiety leading up to the interview, but I was hoping once I get to talk to the general manager it would go away.

But I stuttered hard and did not seem confident in my answers at all. I’m 90% sure that they won’t be calling me back.

I left the interview feeling absolutely disappointed in myself. I felt like I had led myself down. And even though the last time I relapsed I had the worst paranoid high ever, I got strong cravings again.

I got very, very tempted to just fuck everything up.

But I didn’t.

I’ll keep pushing forward. I’ll keep trying. I’ll keep going.

Fuck it.

EDIT: Thank you everyone for your inspiring response. Tomorrow is my 24th birthday and I was feeling like absolute shit knowing my age is becoming a bit more serious and yet I’m not where I want to be in life.

I always used to get excited a week in advance for my birthday and this year I was feeling the worst kind of emotions and feelings I had to endure. Your responses really lightened up my mood and warmed my heart.

I made the post with the intentions of letting some weight off my shoulders and possibly motivate others by showing I didn’t relapse while being in such a terrible situation. But I wasn’t feeling the best myself.

I feel the obsession is finally lifting! I’m actually getting into new hobbies. I’m so excited for the rest of my life without weeds fucking up the flowers of my metaphorical garden 🌺 🪷🌷🌸🌹 After being a daily smoker for Lord knows over 20 years, I’m so grateful. Thank you to this sub.

I really wish I never picked this plant up sometimes because although I love Mary J so much she causes so much turmoil in my life. I’m currently trying to quit but I can’t even stop for one day. The power of my free will is stopping me from quitting. I can’t even go more than a day without smoking. I’m really trying what helped u guys get past the rough craving of wanting to smoke? (Also doesn’t help that I went behind my partner’s back and copped more w33d although he doesn’t want me to & basically broke up with me because I did) I’m really struggling guys, any advice helps 🫶🏻

I (30F) used to smoke mostly around my period because of awful PMS symptoms; mostly insomnia, migraines, and hot flashes. Unfortunately this often led to me smoking constantly as my tolerance is very high and I have no self-control. Being high turns me into an antisocial, anxious and angry person. Several doctors now have been fully unhelpful in this and love to tell me this is normal, so I’ve all but given up.

I have a sneaking suspicion the weed was making my headaches worse, but the last few days have been unbearable. My sleep has been fucking awful in the last month since I quit even though a lot of other things have improved. I recently had to switch birth control and I am in possibly the worst pain of my life, plus I haven’t been able to sleep in days. All of my joints are stiff and my feet, which are messed up from previous injuries, have been flaring up like crazy. Has anyone else dealt with this? What do you take in replacement of weed? I’m ready to pack it in and pick up tomorrow, this doesn’t seem worth it.

Just wanted to thank everyone on this subreddit:) without it I wouldn’t have stayed sober from thc. I’ve smoked everyday for the last 10 years, and I feel like my mind is clearer than it’s ever been:) one thing that really helped me was awarding my self a pretty sticker on my calendar every day I don’t smoke:) thanks again!!!✨✨✨

61 days clean now, I was forced to quit because it started to give me awful panic attacks that definitely had long lasting mental health effects. It took me a month to go back to what I consider my ‘normal’ amount of mentally unwell and anxious.

I quit for other reasons too like I was neglecting my work, study, relationships blah blah ect- but if it wasn’t for the blessing in disguise of it starting to inducing paranoia I’d still probably be doing it I can’t lie.

I have the urge to ‘try again’ lately whenever I remember the good highs, when I remember how it USED to feel. When I see others having fun, I yearn desperately for that feeling again. I miss the feeling of being high, I haven’t experienced it for much longer than 61 days because the last 3 times I tried to smoke it was just that paranoia that made me throw my hands up in defeat and stop.

So other weed addicts who also quit due to mental health effects please share your stories of regretful relapses where you just felt that same awful feeling. Help convince this bastard voice in me saying “what if it’s different this time” that it won’t be.. Help convince it nothing is to be gained by trying again to ‘see for myself’ what will happen, because we all know what WILL happen. Why sabotage my progress for the 9/10 chance of it causing a paranoia episode again.

I’ve been through this before but I thought the insomnia would kick in later. Been lying in bed for 1.5 hrs with my mind racing and can’t sleep.

I’m not against the herb but this is ridiculous. I’m ashamed that I smoked so much that the withdrawals have started so soon. I smoked every day and most evenings so what could have I expected.

Im not turning back now. I don’t even want to smoke anymore. I have a whole ounce in my drawer and have zero desire to roll up. Tired of this shit. Rant over..

if anyone wants an accountability partner, let’s do it together. Im game

hi all! tonight is my first official full day of no weed. sounds stupid but it's probably been about a year since i've gone longer than like 12 hours without smoking. i've been smoking every day probably for over 3 years now. the hardest part about staying away from it for me personally was being sooooo bored. whenever i would get bored, id light up and feel fine again. but now i have so much free time all im thinking about is weed. about how it distracts my brain. but i dont want to be dependent on any substances for my whole life. i want to be able to find joy in simple things and have fun activities to do. instead of getting so high id just lay in bed and play games. any fun activities or hobbies i can pick up that are relatively cheap? it's winter here in NY so its hard to go on walks/hikes like i enjoy.

It’s been exactly a week since I (23f) quit smoking weed. Up until this past November I was smoking every day at any time of day. I started a new job that didn’t require a drug test, but I never allowed myself to be high at work for the sake of being able to do my job at full capacity. I started smoking shitty carts from shady “smoke shops” when I was seventeen. Once I turned 21 I started buying bud from dispensaries, I never gave myself a break longer than a few days.

I not only quit for the sake of my mental health, I was diagnosed with BPD and anxiety when I was in high school and used it as a crutch, but also for my relationship. My boyfriend (27m) and I decided to do it together because after five years together we want to be the very best for each other. There hasn’t been much time spent together where we weren’t high.

The first few days were fine and life went on as usual, but last night I felt the actual urge to smoke and fought so hard to let it pass. I had a glass of wine thinking it would help, but I woke up wanting to smoke even more. Ive been doing backflips in my head thinking “oh just give yourself the one slip up and move on”, but I’LL know I broke my sobriety and feel like a failure. But I’m also thinking that giving myself this one smoke wont be the end up the world, and i can just get back on track.

Reading these posts about forgiving yourself for slipping up is pretty much my way of justifying smoking this one time, but how will I know it will be this one time only?

EDIT The title was supposed to be “rationalizing a relapse”.

went to the gym today and saw my family finally. my brain fog has been so bad since i stopped i was suicidal, depressed & wondering if i was gnna be stuck like this forever. i'm not sure what changed today but wow my brain feels like it actually works. anyone going through this just be patient! i was so scared the brain fog was going to be forever but i really couldn't tell you what changed for me overnight? feeling amazing right now, brain clear, no depression, happy as ever. praying for all of you guys! stay clean, eat healthy, pray, go to the gym, you WILL see improvements i promise! just a week ago i was struggling to even get out of bed and so lost in life. i wish i could tell you guys what flipped this switch today but i haven't felt like this in a decade. stay strong nobody here is alone i promise

To be fair, I don’t always feel this way. I haven’t really started missing weed until recently. I had to leave a job I loved due to reoccurring bounced paychecks and have been spending way too much time with myself at home while I’ve been looking for another job. I don’t start to feel really bad until nighttime, but by that time I start to feel super restless, nothing sounds fun — I don’t want to sleep, I don’t want to be awake, I don’t want to go out, I don’t want to talk to anyone, I don’t want to watch TV — my brain starts moving a mile a minute without even actually thinking about anything, and then I start craving weed. I start convincing myself that’s the only thing that’s going to stop all of this.

I just moved to a state where weed isn’t as accessible, which I guess is kind of a blessing in disguise, because if I were back where I was I would’ve bought some already.

Just needed to vent someplace positive, I guess. Wondering if anyone else has experienced this kind of restlessness in sobriety and what they’ve done as an alternative when it feels like weed is the only answer.

Currently on day 11. Out of all my attempts, the first week felt the best but come the second week I feel undisciplined, unmotivated and tired

I'm quitting weed and attempting to quit alcohol and caffeine as well. I'm just going to take this one day at a time. That's the scope of my goal- a sober tomorrow and we go from there.

My life is a mess and I have to own up to it big time. I'm in the trenches financially and I don't think I can fix things if I'm not as lucid as I can be. I've been a habitual user for 11 years and honestly, I know for a fact my brain has been suffering as a consequence. I feel disoriented a lot of the time and I think I consciously/subconsciously do that on purpose because there is a lot inside of me that feels difficult to face.

If you believe in astrology at all, I'm nearing the end of my saturn return and I know its beyond time I really take responsibility for my life.

I have a partner I'm very in love with, friends I want to be my best self for, and family members I don't want to disappoint any longer.

My confidence and self-esteem has just been a dumpster fire lately and though I can't make huge strides to change things right now- I know that I can start with the smaller things I can control like what I put in my body and how I treat myself/others. Part of me wants to bend to nihilism because the world feels so fucked, but so long as I'm still here I have to do what I can as well as I can.

whew, this is hard ya'll!

I'm mostly asking about brain fog and memory issues because after smoking heavy for my 20s I finally quit 4 months ago with no intention of going back but I still struggle with brain fog some days with concentration problems as well as short term memory issues.

It scares me because it's been an entire 4 months and while I notice some improvement I feel like my brain is as good as it will get now?

Do I still have benifits to come in the following months?

sub has really helped me stay focused on my goals and not turn back❤️

I’m on hour 21 and I tried making homemade GF pizza and it was a total bust. I hate being fucking gluten free and now I don’t even have weed so what the hell. Can’t have gluten or weed. What’s even the point I might as well smoke it would make me not want to punch a hole in my wall.

I am going to preface this with a trigger warning for trauma, domestic violence, and related subjects.

Initially I wrote this as just a rant rom a long-time lurker - I've quit weed in the past without any issue. Now it is an issue. Except the issue is me. And me has been through way too much.

I moved abroad in summer 2021 and left my stable gov role for the adventure of grad school. Unfortunately, weeks before it happened, I had to end up getting a restraining order against my father for stalking and harassing me as well as my former colleagues/bosses (he would show up to my workplaces, track down their home phone numbers, etc.). I will spare the details but the same week I moved abroad by myself was the same week I had to decide between dropping the case vs potential longer-term worse consequences (his lawyer called me to let me know he'd lose his taxi operator license if the RO became permanent, and given his schizophrenia and violent tendencies, it would not be crazy for him to get on a plane and try to do something to me if he was unemployed and had more time on his hands.)

Since Feb 2023, I have become hermetic and inward receding. Without getting into too many details here, I am frankly overwhelmed by everything - looking for a job makes me want to scream (when everyone is using the same keywords and sending their applications in to a gatekeeping system....) - networking to get in touch with the right people, the same, I am living here to finish up remaining courses and exams by the end of March but I have no idea where I'm going, how, and at some point, my money will run out. The culture of the place where I live has the veneer of being progressive but it's really not, the attitudes are quite provincial, and in the past two years especially, people's behavior has seemingly somehow gotten worse to the point where I've had multiple men assault me or try to assault me. Oh and because I am obviously not from here, I am constantly harassed by creepy men. If it isn't creepy men it's apathetic, cruel, lacking empathy type drones (sorry, I know this is not all Dutch people, but it is too many of them for me at this time).

I smoke way too much weed to get through the day because social interactions here have wiped me out. I also got myself into a bunch of debt as a result, got myself out of most of it, but tldr, I am miserable and not thriving here. There is no 'home' for me to return to.

I am aware I spent a lot of time numbing out the trauma and I've been in therapy, have been doing the work, etc. But goddamn the grief is never-ending.

The last time I smoked this much weed for such a long time was when I was 17-19, also another situation triggered by family trauma. Today is apparently actually the first day without it I'll give it a legit try - simply because there's nothing else for me anymore. I miss how less mundane life is on weed, but everything just sucks, always has, so it has to get better and that's through change. I have the willpower, but I just don't really want to do it for any other sake except for fuck it, there's nothing left for me to resort to except sitting there with all the pain anyways, I thought I worked through it, but I was wrong.

Hi everyone, I’m currently on day 15 of quitting and this time around (second) the withdrawals haven’t been SO hard but oh my god the depression is so intense. Prior to my addiction I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety. So this time I am on my meds, but I just don’t see the light of day…
I have no energy, no hunger, just so much fatigue and the feeling of numbness and doom… please tell me it gets better.

Has this happened to anyone else? I was a daily smoker for over 9 years and haven’t smoked in 32 days. Sometimes i feel like I’m high randomly and it’s disorienting?

so im a junior in high school and i quit nicotine about 7 days ago. My next thing is carts. I feel them having an effect on me like they change my personality and what im actually doing. How long should i quit carts after quitting nicotine. nicotine was the biggest challenge for me and i got past the first week thanks to this fucker cart. Now I wanna get rid of it but not sure if its the time yet or no. And ramadan is around the corner so I gotta get a grip on my life. Anything helps.