So a few months ago I went cold turkey off snorting pharma roxis. 40mg a day. This last go around due to surgery I went cold turkey off 30-35mg roxi a day taken orally. The snorting wd was kind of brutal but this one wasn’t too too bad. What’s your experience? Just curious.

I have recently friended someone who is a recovering drug addict from opiates I think he's in year three. He does take Suboxone 4 mg. And smokes. At least I think he's still in recovery...I don't really know what the flags would be to know. I know he's got a little bit of depression and perhaps PTSD and I'm trying to work with him and let him know good people are out there. I've only known him about 4 months but it's like every time I try to do something good for him such as I filled his freezer with food cuz he's having a rough time he was very appreciative and excited when I first gave it to him but then a couple months later he asked me if I'd want it back that he didn't know how to cook most of it and probably wouldn't need it but I told him to keep it and I would come over here and there and help cook. Well about a month after that his electricity got turned off for not payment and I told him just to let the food thaw and I'd come over the next day and we cook it. But he said no that since I didn't want it back a while back that he was just going to find somebody in need to give it to or throw it away. Which to me felt like in your face type of thing. Although he could have just been embarrassed that that situation happened. I feel like maybe he's trying to push me away even though he said he would like to have a friend cuz he doesn't have any really. But he's pushing 40 and he's been on opiates and heroin all its life and I don't know anything about that. But every time I do something nice after a while he'll find fault in it such as what is my intent of being nice. He does get worked up from time to time and does have anger but not towards me. Does this sound like narcissism? It's only been a few months since I've known him and I hate to just walk away and give up I'd like to help if possible. I don't visit with him much at his house I just let him be by himself for the most part but I will text him at least once a week to see if he's okay. But I just don't know what red flags to watch for to make me think he really doesn't want help or it's just going to hurt me in the end.

Is this possible or is this just my anxiety getting to me? I was taking between 60 and 90 mg Codeine + Acetaminophen for about 9 days and noticed I was getting the jelly legs and feeling off.

Symptoms: Anxiety and jelly legs, a bit of head fog.

I quit cold turkey and it’s been 25 hours, woke up and realized I sweat the bed in the night. I feel a bit off and discombobulated and panicky, but I also suffer from Generalized Anxiety and a Panic Disorder. I used to take Kratom but i’ve been clean from the sludge for over 500 days, and this doesn’t feel like the withdrawal I had from kratom at all. Am I overreacting?

I may feel like this because I don’t have the motivation or strength to smoke so after not doing it for a little minute, it makes it feel better idk. This makes the abstinence process feel much better because I feel higher than when I would smoke weed, instead of chasing a higher high than weed if that makes sense.

Hello I've been taking codine for 9 months on and off and I can admit I am extremely Addicted to them i could easily take 300mg of dihydrocodine or about 420mg of codine phosphate and I want to get off them completely I tried going cold turkey but it was absolutely horrific the prefusive sweating, feeling cold, diarrhea rejection of food it was quite literally HELL so I eventually gave in on day 3.

I've been using ibuprofen with codine to ease the symptoms (Yes I completely understand how bad ibuprofen is for your kidneys) So now I'm taking 100mg in the morning and 100mg at night so I can sleep. Should I try cold turkey and get it over and done with? How long would a codine withdrawal take until i actually feel like a normal person again?? This is my first time doing a withdrawal..

Does Asprin or paracetamol work? What other medications will help me get through this disgusting feeling.

As much advice as possible will help me so much. I'm so done taking opiate pain relief again!!!!!!

Many thanks people!

Stay strong others going through this with me!!

I’m very grateful for recovery. Stick around long enough, there will be so many good people who don’t make it. I’m not looking for sympathy, this is the reality and I try to carry the message of recovery. I’ve lost my best friends and my brother from opiates. Another best friend and my best man overdosed, including some who decide to play ‘chemistry set”. This is a deadly disease, please seek professional help.

My buddy who jumped was a heroin and cocaine addict, he was trying to get clean but didn’t want to go to any length (rehab, detox, MAT).

Rest in peace buddy. Gone, but not forgotten. One day at a time 🙏🏄🌍

Long story short, I’ve been addicted to Roxy’s for 3 years now, the first 2 years, I did them maybe 2-3 a month max, about 45 mg, last July, it got worse, a lot worse, my father in law got a script and has been sharing it with me ever since. I want to quit this and I’ve been trying really hard, I’ve cut off all contact with my FIL, and don’t go over there anymore. I did about 60-100 mg a day about 14-18 days a month and have been for months, what’s my withdrawal timeline looking like? How long before I can feel emotions again? How long before the horrible body aches, and extremely low energy go away? Today is day 1 for me btw. Any help is greatly appreciated

I got 4 m30’s and been smoking since yesterday… will I have to go to withdrawals again? I defetnely feel like I can control it now and it doesn’t control me… like rn I could easily just stop doing them for another week , how many days in between should I wait to smoke em and not get withdrawals? Once every 2 days or am I always gonna get them??

I haven’t had that symptom of a runny behind but I wish I did because I keep eating and nothing is coming out. I usually don’t throw up or poop a lot while withdrawing, haven’t had that problem ever. My stomach is always growling because of all the foods I’ve eaten not being digested and ready to come out. I’m feeling fine otherwise. Here’s to day 5!!

New to this sub, forget when my first check in day was but I'm a couple weeks in now, they've got me up to 600mg a day and I'm going to see the doc today to get that upped. I was on pills for about a year and the past few months got into that dirty fentanyl.

Massively with the help of psychedelics and ketamine I can genuinely say that the past few days have been the best I've felt in years and years. A few weeks ago I felt like life was hopeless and was considering giving up and I'm so thankful I made the decision to seek help. It wasn't until I had a powerful psychedelic journey for the first time in years, the very next morning I went in to the hospital for help.

Love you guys, hope you're doing well and I wish you the best in your journey through recovery. Psychedelic usage, it's been the number one thing helping me use less, and less frequently. It's also been slowly helping me better myself and pull this crazy life I've built for myself back together bit by bit. Every single trip I come out the other side not only using less but a better person. Please take great care if you choose to use psychedelics with a family history of schizophrenia or other similar afflictions, as psychedelics can trigger those in those who are predisposed to them. Do your research, the drugs and psychedelics subreddits can be of great help, but you may find some people there are judgmental towards opiate users.

Much love and good luck everyone <3

My body has just not been down with sleeping this morning… so I’m doing my thing and going to see the sunrise at the beach. I’d rather have a good night of sleep, but at least I’ll get to see and capture some pretty shots!

This still happens some times (for me, at least) even years into recovery. I’ve had to accept that sometimes my body just won’t do what I want it to.

Good day, beautiful people! 💞

Today has been something from the Twilight Zone.. I haven't been able to wrap my head around all that's happened and all I need to do to take care of everything, but one thing I do know for sure is that I can't do it if I don't get off these blues..

This is a long story, but I halfway need to just vent and halfway need to explain the whole situation for context..

So last night around 1:30am my husband was on his way home. Less than a mile from home he gets pulled over for his inspection being out. Low and behold after what my lawyer and I are almost positive was an illegal search, he gets arrested. All day long it's been a battle to get his bond, they have changed his charge 3 times. As of now its a first degree felony with a bond I definitely cannot afford.. We've been struggling already financially and I've been gathering as much info as I can on detoxing at home. We were planning on doing so next week..

But now he's in jail and I'm all alone at our home.. none of my friends or family know I've been using so I can't ask anyone to come help me or keep an eye on me.. I've decided to go through with the detox even though we won't be together, because he is already going through it in jail and I won't let him get through it just to come home to me still using and to drag him down again..

There's a couple things I've got to take care of first, like getting the car out of impound before it racks up all those fees and becomes a huge problem. I don't even have all the money to get it out right now, but I've got to figure something out. I refuse to lose his vehicle he bought out right. Another thing is I'm trying to get together the medicines that will help ease me through the worst of it.. I already know I'm in for a fucking shit show (literally) but I want to try and make it as comfortable as I can.. so far I've got a few Xanax, 4 600 MG gabapentins, one 130mg dose of methadone and some thc gummies..

Here is my absolute fear.. last time we tried to detox my blood pressure kept dropping to the point where I was fading in and out of consciousness to the point where my husband decided we couldn't do it ans got us well.. that being said.. now that he's not going to be here and I don't have anyone I can call to come check on me, I'm pretty fucking terrified.. I know that this is what I have to do,and I'm willing and wanting to do so, but do you guys think it could be dangerous? What are some recommendations you might have to help me get through the worst of it? I am not able to go to a detox facility due to many, many reasons, so that is not an option.

Please don't bother to comment if youre saying anything hurtful, I didn't come here to be judged or ridiculed. I haven't felt this kind of loneliness since I was deep deep in my addiction years ago. Not being able to communicate with my husband has been extremely difficult. He has become my total support, my absolute rock, my go to for every single fucking thing, good and bad. Having absolutely no one to talk to about this makes me feel like I'm stuck in solitude with nothing but my nightmares to keep me company..

I got in a car accident that left me with a really bad concussion. Months later I started experiencing horrible migraines that would literally make me throw up and faint. I went to a doctor, previous to this I never went to doctors besides my dentist I just didn’t like medications at all. I was the type to ride out the flu with no meds. My first visit he right away prescribed Tramadol and said “take it every 6 hours daily”. So I did as told for a whole month. Went back for a follow up he gave me a new script because wow this medication was the only thing that cured my migraines. I was naive and never even looked up the med or knew about opioids besides heroin. Took it another whole month my doctor went out of town and I ran out, I had no idea was I was in for…I started feeling sick like never in my life didn’t even know it was withdrawals that’s how unknown the topic was for me. It got really bad I got a seizure from how sick I was and at the hospital when I said what meds I was taking and I said tramadol right away doctor came in and said you have a physical dependency on this drug and what you’re having are called withdrawals. I looked at him and said “it means im addicted?!” Started crying uncontrollably. They gave me some to taper off but this is where my addiction started I never wanted to feel those WD again! Took more and more and more until I was taking 26 tramadol a day!! It’s been 12 years hiding my addiction from everyone…my whole brain chemistry and body is fkd up at this point!! Sometimes I feel the only way out is death

Let me preface this with the fact that I am so happy for anyone and everyone who chooses recovery over the misery that is opiate/opioid addiction. Before I got into my current relationship I was 1,1768 days sober which may seem like alot but if you compute it into years it's only in reality a little over 3 years od sobriety. I had always sworn off fntanyl because when I was in the middle of my senior yr of highschool one of my closest friends I had since age 15 ended up relapsing the early month of Jan 2018 in my senior year and ODd on fnt. Since his death and how horribly it effected me, I made a vow to never touch it cause my prior opiate addiction was all to prescribed pills that just happened to not be prescribed to myself so I had purchased them but I always swore even in active addiction that fntanyl was a line I would not cross. My current partner got me to the point of breaking that personal promise. It is 1000000% on me for trying it and getting addicted. Part of me only even took the chance because part of me wanted to just die and I had heard so much stuff about how even a small teeny tiny amount of it could kill an adult. I was 23. It did not kill me but instead reignite an addiction and dependency on opiates which I had freed myself from for years at that point. I really want to emphasize my partner didn't peer pressure me or anything, this was a personal choice and entirely my fault. Maybe if I was like 15 I could blame someone else but at 23, I have to accept full responsibility for snorting and sharping this garbage. I was able to get off pills on my own and even when I run out of this shit now I honestly do not get super sick. I maybe feel shitty for 2 days maximum than I'm just bored at worst. After months of getting me into this shit my partner finally decided to go to rehab, which I wholeheartedly support, but I am still doing this whole detox thing on my own with no medical help. Especially having someone's name who overdosed on this evil drug tatted me well before I ever tried fnt makes me feel like I deserve it all the more if I experience any pain trying to detox on my own but an additional factor is my lack of insurance. I am having a very difficult time going from how proud I was of the over 1000 days of sobriety from any and all opiates to resorting to the one and only one I had sworn against.

I am ultimately blaming myself. But I also cannot take methadone or suboxone without negative effects, I tried before, which is why I refuse medical detoxes in my area.

I just am at a point I feel so worthless I don't know if there is any point in getting sober since I did what I considered to be the worst thing I could ever do. I sincerely don't understand how it hasn't killed me, the only thing I can think is that all the info I had previously been fed about f*ntanyl is propaganda making it seem way more deadly than it is?

I don't know what to do. I don't know even want to be sober. In a way I feel like I deserve to continue punishing myself by making myself dependent on it, but even months in I sincerely don't get that sick or withdraw at all.

I'm at a point I think since I haven't reached a joint decision of "let me get better since the person who introduced me to it decided to go detox for the third time!" (First.time since I've been with him but he's tried subs and relapsed multiple times before me in the picture) There's the part where I feel like he only.sought help to feel less sick and as soon as we get money he will also relapse and also At this point I see no value in my life and that's part of why any money I have gotten or.saved would go to this addiction when he is the only one with connections and I didn't want him to be sick. There's a bigger part that feels like I deserve to die for being so stupid to relapse to begin with in the first place especially with the thing I had sworn to never touch and now I can't imagine life without it and it's really entirely my fault. I'm really.not seeking pity I promise, I just needed to get this out. If I gave up 1000+ days for a shit reason why not just keep doing it? Why not kill myself if I'm the reason I got put in this position? Cuz it's really not the partner who offered me the f*nt the first time or the dealers faults, it's ultimately on me since I'm an adult who had years prior decided this shit is garbage and an entrance to a grave. I just see no point in sobriety anymore

So far I feel like natural prebiotics and probiotics are helping but what else can I do? I have tempature fluxuation, low energy, no motivation, anxiety, stomach issues, sweating constantly, horrible sinus problems & overall feel like i have the flu.

This has got to be from opioid abuse. I havent used fentanyl or oxycodone since September, but used kratom on and off up until a few weeks ago and sometimes would take tramadol and odsmt. i didnt have these problems before opioid addiction

Hey guys, just finished my first 24 hours in probably 7 years with no Tramadol. Feel terrified of what's to come.

I was on 400mg a day and have been tapering down about 1 tablet a month. Today I took the plunge...

Any encouraging messages would be really welcome as I keep feeling this wave of awful sadness.

I'm honestly terrified.

What are some things that you do in your recovery to not relapse or get triggered by nice weather, barbeques, swimming, outdoor festivals - any of the things that ordinary people want to partake in but also that most people would associate with using alcohol or drugs? How do you stay sober during the spring and summer/beautiful months?

I've been on both for about a year ( 3mg / ~90mg a day)? I quit Ativan for week cold turkey and that was painful. Now I'm back to 3mg a day. I'm down to about 50mg hydro a day.

Due to medical conditions I need both but I also need to know I can quit even if it means dealing with other issues for the short term.

If I keep going with quiting, which is better for wd symptoms gabapentin or Lyrica? Dose?

Hi has anyone gotten tinnitus when withdrawaling? I've seen everything else but this. Yet I got it and it's the second time it's happened. When I c/t off Benzo's I didn't get it but it was a known symptom for Benzo's withdrawal. I just haven't heard anyone mention this for opiate withdrawal.

I’m on day 4 of oxycodone WD. It’s been hell. Restless legs and arms, insomnia, agitation, anxiety even w clonazapam. Now I’m utterly exhausted and fatigued. Probably a mix of WD and sleep deprivation but oddly every once in a while throughout the day I’ll get spurts of energy and a mood lift. It’s weird.

So today is 15 days clean from codeine, I am beyond proud of myself for making it this far as have been trying for a very long time! Feeling so much better in general, still a bit achy and tired, but the restless legs and arms are killing me. When will it stop?! Night time arrives and I'm so tired, but as soon as I try to relax it starts so I am still in and out the bath all night which means I'm exhausted. Taking magnesium and vitamin C, back at work now, feeling good, just scared that this restlessness won't ever go away 😔 Still struggling a little with my appetite, also still sneezing and a bit snotty but I can handle that. Any ideas on how to tackle the restless legs and arms? Thanks 😊

Opioid hack for withdrawal get a s ton gabatine and you will feel no symptoms then slow down on the gapa after two weeks trust me I’ve done this a thousand times relapse after relapse but I feel for people that don’t know you can not suffer with withdrawal if you use this hack

The mental dependency to tramadol is much worse than the physical to overcome. I am tired of being a slave to this drug of hell

I was sipping "lean" rikodeine but it's dhc instead of codeine for about 2 weeks every night. Really just out of boredom and it made me feel real good. Dosage ranged from 50-120ml I noticed at the 2 week mark I was hardly even feeling it anymore and knew I needed to stop asap. It's been 3 days and I feel a little shitty and headache y with low energy. I can't imagine it will last long at all?

A lot of the physical stuff basically went away today, but now that I'm not focusing on how bad a feel physically all i can focus on is the mental stuff and it's killing me. I'm trying not to take my comfort meds cause I don't need them , but all I want is a Xanax to ease my mind, but trying to space out my Xanax as that's the last thing I want to be addicted to.

It's my biggest barrier to getting any substantial amount of clean time. I've been a raging insomniac my whole life, up until my fentanyl addiction that I fell into 7 months ago. Subs, anti-depressants, and anti-psychotics didnt work before and don't work now. Want to see if any benzos or z-drugs work, as i was on Lunesta previously and that worked well. Will they even prescribe something like that if I have a history of substance abuse ?? I'm hoping maybe someone would have a harm reduction mindset but idk. Trying to get a job and just resume my life, but the sleep deprivation is completely ruining my body and mind. Please help.

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I woke up this morning and felt a tang of anxiety so I popped a busproprione and took 1/4 of sub then it knocked me out for a few hours, woke up feeling great. I took a shower, cleaned my room, and now I’m about to make myself something to eat. I’m kind of scared though because ppl were telling me in my last post that now is the time when I should start feeling like absolute shit but I don’t. No matter what drug it is, I usually start feeling better around the third day and by the end of a full week I almost feel brand new. Idk if it’s just because of my body or whatever but I feel the most of withdrawal during the first two days, after that, I’m able to do things that distracts myself from the discomfort.

Someone DM’d me and asked if I would remain completely sober for the rest of my life if I could… well I smoke weed and don’t have problems there and honestly? I used to be able to party and have fun without dragging it out for multiple weeks. I could take something, enjoy myself, wake up the next day and be okay without it. I do want to get back to that point but since there isn’t any major events happening right now, I’d only be taking it to make life more interesting which is why I got addicted in the first place.

“To have faith is to trust yourself to the water. When you swim you don't grab hold of the water, because if you do you will sink and drown. Instead you relax, and float.” ― Alan Wilson Watts