Hello everyone! This is a thread for people who have been navigating this interconnected poly thing and have found success. I want to talk about me, but I'm a lot more excited to contrast my situation and strategy with the rest of you, and isolate why certain things worked. I'll be putting as much data as I can manage without making anyone uncomfortable​! Here's the people:

Me: 34, nonbinary (the kind that keeps changing names), parent of two kids 11 and 8, communist, factory worker first shift, $33 an hour, 50 hours a week, homeowner, doesn't quite understand the difference between bisexual and pansexual but identifies as both. Enjoys all drinks, extroverted (difficult to be alone!), a source of novelty. Both parents love me. Autism, the kind that got you Ritalin in 1995 and a good IEP in 2018.

Purple: 21, nonbinary (the kind that is okay with you not understanding) trans man, anarchist, participates in parenting, factory worker first shift, $15 an hour, 50 hours a week, homeowner, not straight, introverted (likes solitude but loves company!), a source of comfort. Autism, the kind that leads to masking. 20 Kyu go player. My relationship with him mostly occurs at work, because we work a lot. Relationship began July 2023. Might learn an Internet language with him this week.

Black: 22, trans woman (the kind to throw a brick to celebrate pride), communist, factory worker second shift, $23 an hour 50 hours a week, homeowner, pansexual, plays video games in the same way girls play with dolls. Omniverted (no one around, gaming time, everyone around, party time) Anxious, loves cars, a source of thoughtful conclusions. Autism, the kind that leads to two or three hyper-obsessions that last your entire life. 16 kyu Go player. My time with her has been reduced to weekends and in-between times while we wait for her to get back on first shift. Good at communicating things others have missed. Has been in a relationship with purple since childhood, and me since July 2023. Excited for all of us to start playing Eldin Ring so she can share her gear with us.

Blue: 34, cisgender man in the same way a tomato is a fruit, or america is a democracy, anti-capitalist pragmatist, social worker, 55k a year, graduating with a masters as we speak, homeowner, gold star pansexual, participates in parenting. Extroverted gamer, has done so much emotional deconstruction work that listing mental problems would be reductive, a source of ambition. Has been spending less time together with the entire polycule because of having both school and the job, we are all really excited for graduation. Been in a relationship with Purple and Black since July 2023, and me since October 2021. Has been forging wholesome kink connections in our area for years, and could have been a cult leader in another life. I just worked with him to create our emergency joint bank account, which I think is very promising for gradually weaning us off credit cards and loans.

Red: 34, trans guy, anti-capitalist pragmatist, artist, 8k a year, requires travel to do most financially profitable work, homeowner, pansexual, my kids consider him a step-dad. Anxiety, the type of autism that creates hikkikomori, a source of beauty and perspective. Ridiculously intelligent even among geniuses, it's difficult to stress this properly. Been in a relationship with Purple and Black since July 2023, with me since October 2021, and Blue since covid. We want to create a visual novel together, though work has made this slow. Introduced me to hypnospace outlaw and balatro.

Looking forward to seeing what we have in common!

Recently, a younger friend of ours, who we have over to watch Survivor every week, asked what my poly partners do for me that makes me feel loved. She was very heartfelt and a bit vulnerable when she asked, so I told her that I was pretty bad at making my partners feel loved earlier in my relationships. I kept giving them what I wanted, which was rarely received. So I had to learn to look and listen for what my partners wanted and then give them that - even if it did nothing for me. I followed by telling her many things that my polycule does that make me feel happy and loved, but I'm wondering what other things people do or receive make them feel the most cared for. So what does your poly do that makes you all gooey in your core?

Im new on Reddit and hoping to get some insight. I’m looking for any MFM V out there and I was wondering if anyone has this dynamic? Most of the time I see FFM and I don’t see much about MFM.

Okay so me (M21) and my Fiancée (F20) are talking about having a poly relationship with our close friend (M21). She’s been in a mid-term poly relationship (2 years) before and knows people that had similar doubts and worries, but ended up enjoying the lifestyle and have continued long-term relationships. She and our friend had a relationship in the past and are now friends but he’s realized that he still loves her. He has had a similar relationship before and they talked about it briefly before bringing the idea to me. She has talked about boundaries they want to put in place to help me ease into, and she’s made sure that I know that I am her first priority and is willing to end it if I’m not comfortable with it. He is also willing to respect my decision and just continue being friends with us if I decide not to. However, I am a bit anxious about it because I have never done anything like it and I don’t want to accidentally make things weird between us and lose them both. I tend to overthink a lot of things even to the smallest detail, and don’t want to end up getting jealous and ruining it because I didn’t communicate. I want to give it a try but I need more information. I have done a some research already and my fiancée has explained it to me as well but I just keep finding my self getting anxious, but I do want to try. I just want more advice from people who have done it before.

Question for the community: when do you come out to parents, kids, friends?

I have 4 kids, ranging from 11 to 17. My parents are my husband's as my own have both passed.

Should I tell my church family?

Your wisdom on the matter is valuable. Thanks everyone!

Hi everyone!

I am working on my master’s thesis about intersectionality in polyamorous relationships. My research focuses on the stigmatization of polyamory, its impact on relationships and well-being and how intersectional identities shape these experiences.

I am a poly and queer psychology student. Including intersectional perspectives in psychology and research around polyamory is really important to me, and I’d be so grateful if you could participate and share your experiences!

What to expect?

If you consider participating, are in polyamorous relationships and are at least 18 years old, there will be an completely anonymous online survey with open-ended questions. The questions will focus on your personal experiences of stigma regarding your polyamorous relationships and (intersectional) identities.

You can take the survey in English, in German, and also in an audio-version.

It takes about 30 minutes (you decide which and how many questions you want to answer and how long your answers will be!).

If you have questions or concerns, reach out anytime! e.g. at Wolferst@students.uni-marburg.de

Take the survey here: https://www.soscisurvey.de/intersectionalpolyamory/

Via this link, you will also find information on data protection (no personal information will be gathered!), your rights and helpful ressources.

Thank you for your time and the mods for hopefully approving this post.

This study contributes to the master thesis of Vera Wolferstetter and has been approved by the Phillips-Universität Marburg Ethics Committee (Aktenzeichen: 2024-69k). My advisors are Anne Vogel, M.Sc. and Prof. Dr. Melanie Fischer.

Hi Everyone! Our very last PC in NYC will be on Mon, December 9 from 7p-12a. We’re on the Lower East Side of Manhattan. 21+, free. Private.

To RSVP, please send your name, vaxx card (buffed out identifying info ok) to polychrissy@gmail.com and take a rapid antigen test at home before arrival. We will confirm!

Our next event won’t be til February, so join us!

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For those who have never been, we’re an almost 18-year-old monthly social of over a hundred attendees who are between the ages of 21 and 87 with the majority in their mid-20s-mid 50s. We’re nerdy mutual aid enthusiasts who meet in a non-cruising space in community and solidarity.

There’s a cash bar for reasonably priced boozy and non boozy drinks, and people often bring snacks to share.

Background: We are a 3 person family unit. Two of us are having a baby together and are taking parent roles, and the 3rd person in our unit is going to help with caretaking, but definitely doesn't ID as "dad" or "mom". Uncle is a clear option, but are there any cute, creative names y'all have heard for kiddo to use for the "other caregiver"?

Any MFM V who live together? What are your arrangements? What kind of boundaries do you have? How do you guys make it work?

New to this.. please be kind.

Started dating a married couple a couple of months ago. They have a couple kids. They’ve been married for multiple years. How do I start to integrate myself into the family?

My hope is that this all continues to go smooth. I’d love to be a little more a part of the family, just not sure how to bring it up yet. I don’t want to “force” myself in but also want it known that I want to and am willing to be a part of their family.

My (32 f) meta (26 f) and partner (32 m) shared the news that they are pregnant.

Partner and I always had the intention of having our first child together, so while I'm very happy for them, I'm having a very difficult time navigating my sadness around this accidental pregnancy. Meta and partner had an accidental pregnancy earlier this year, which they decided to not follow through with, then immediately became pregnant again (not viable). After they terminated their previous pregnancy, they both separately and together expressed feeling like I should be the one to carry the first child in our family (especially because I'm older and really really don't want to start having children late into my 30s). This time around, they've decided to follow through with the pregnancy.

Has anyone else ever gone through a similar situation? How do you calm the cognitive dissonance of being very happy with your meta being pregnant while also very sad about our plan not being the one to happen (it has been expressed that I would need to wait to have a child with my partner bc meta and baby would be priority for the for the duration of the pregnancy and first year(s) of life).

Partner & I have been in a relationship for nearly 13 years. Meta & partner have been together for 3 years. We don't subscribe to hierarchical polyamory, just sharing this info for more context.

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Update: thanks to all of you who have shared your insights. I really do appreciate the honesty and clarity of your comments, and took them to heart, despite how difficult it was to accept the reality of my situation.

I did my best to communicate my feelings and thoughts with my partner while he was visiting, and spent a great deal of time mourning together. I wrote my meta a letter outlining how my trust was broken, and that I need space (I don't feel I can keep it together witnessing her pregnancy progress).

I'll write a more substantial update when I'm feeling more grounded from this whole situation.

Hello all, I'm a 32 year old college student working on a research project about emotional and sexual intimacy in ENM relationships and monogamous relationships. I'm currently trying to collect data so I made a survey. All info is anonymous since I just need the data. I'll leave the link here if anyone wants to check it out or take it. This is not for profit just plain research. I'd greatly appreciate it.

https://survey.zohopublic.com/zs/hvDHWH

Hi! As always, it’s free, COVID-19 vaccinated only, 21+ with ID, and we ask you to take a rapid antigen test at home before arrival.

For those who have never been, we’re a 17-year-old monthly social of over a hundred attendees who are between the ages of 21 and 87 with the majority in their mid-20s-mid 50s. We’re nerdy mutual aid enthusiasts who meet in a non-cruising space in community and solidarity.

There’s a cash bar for reasonably priced boozy and non boozy drinks, and people often bring snacks to share.

Have a beautiful weekend <3

Warmly, Chrissy

*All names changed for privacy, and using my throwaway account for my own privacy.

This is a longer one. I included a TLDR at the end, but it lacks context. Thanks to all who take the time to read this.

Hey everyone, I could really use some advice. I recently started dating Jasper, and he’s honestly close to everything I’ve been looking for. We share similar values, I’m both emotionally and physically drawn to him, and we laugh at each other’s jokes. He’s thoughtful, hardworking, and wants kids, which is important to me too. We’ve been dating for about 5 months and have had some serious talks about our relationship goals. I was upfront with him that I’m looking for a committed, escalator relationship: I want to live together, have kids in the next 3–4 years (my biological clock feels a bit accelerated due to cycle health). He’s completely on board with all of this, which is rare to find in ENM spaces. But there’s a complication: Hazel, his long-term nesting partner.

We’re all in our late 20s to early 30s, and Jasper and Hazel have been together for about 11 years. That longevity is intimidating to me, especially since my own relationship history hasn’t been easy. I’ve experienced emotional, physical, psychological, and even sexual abuse, which has left me quite cautious. I’ve been in therapy for a long time and have actively worked on healing, and while non-monogamy has been generally positive for me (10 years on and off-most of the abuse happened in mono dynamics), I’m not sure if I can do a relationship anarchy poly dynamic with Jasper and Hazel.

Jasper and Hazel practice RA, and Jasper at a time hinted that she’s his priority, even saying once, “Hazel is my life, and we’ll have babies together.” This isn’t very RA to me, and when I brought it up, he didn’t remember saying it, but it’s stuck with me. Hazel also has a boyfriend, Jett, who she’s been with for 3 years, and Jasper shared that she might have kids with him too. Jett and Jasper even run a serious business together, so Hazel has a solid support system behind her. I’m happy for her because everyone deserves support, but I feel uncertain and weary entering this space with all of them and am unsure of where I fit.

Unfortunately, I’m finding myself feeling resentment toward Hazel, especially since she wants kids with Jasper too. I respect and appreciate their love, and I understand why they may want that together, but coming from a place of scarcity and instability in past relationships, I don’t know if I’d ever be okay sharing something as important as children. Honestly and sadly, I also don’t really like Hazel, I’m desperately trying to, and I definitely don’t hate her! but I just don’t love her energy. She seems to take Jasper for granted, and I don’t enjoy being around her sometimes. She once interrupted a private moment between Jasper and me to argue with him, in front of me while we were laying in his bed, and even crawled onto the bed to do it, which made me uncomfortable. Jasper smoothed it over, but I can tell he often finds her behavior frustrating. She sometimes comes across to me as a “princess” who expects her two partners to cater to her. She’s openly talked about avoiding financial responsibilities, seems to expect Jasper to pay for things, and doesn’t reciprocate his bids for support. This bothers me, while I’ve had to work hard to build my own stability and have always tried to be a considerate partner. I don’t have a ton of context for their relationship besides what I have witnessed though so I’m trying to temper my assumptions of anything.

Jasper has a dream of all his partners and metas living together and raising kids. I think his intentions are good, but I worry I’d only tolerate Hazel for Jasper’s sake, and I believe he’s being a bit naïve. I don’t want to crush his dreams, but from what I know about child development—and just how complicated it can be to live with people, let alone share finances and kids—I have doubts. Personally, I’m ready for a strong, stable relationship, and am being totally crushed by the weight of all the responsibilities as a single person. I WANT to share my life and responsibilities of life with a partner(s). It feels like a cruel joke that Jasper, who’s so close to perfect for me, comes with a partner I don’t mesh with and a condition of RA. I’m usually good with compersion, and I’m flexible and understanding and open minded to new dynamics, but in this case, I’m really struggling. I’ve been emotional about it because I do see a potential future with Jasper—he has all the qualities I seek, and I seem to be that for him too—but Hazel’s relationship with him almost feels like a dealbreaker for me. It’s sucks.

I know this sounds like a monogamous perspective, but I can’t help feeling this way. It’s not just that Hazel wants kids too; it’s that she has two men open to having kids with her and a long-term commitment, while I’ve struggled to find even one stable partner despite being an attractive and kind person(I accept that’s jealousy on my end). It’s also how I see her treat Jasper and her attitude about responsibilities. Jasper mentioned that he’s tried to date others seriously, but they’ve often clashed with Hazel. It’s clear he’s lost meaningful connections because of her, and she seems to be a common issue. I don’t think she’s a bad person, but it’s safe to say Hazel and I are not compatible.

So what do I do here? Should I leave? Part of me thinks I should de-escalate with Jasper, let him live his life with Hazel since they have more history, and explore other relationships without disrupting what they have. I’d love to think she’s amazing and that this could work, but I have doubts. I feel almost guilty for not being able to embrace RA and KTP fully, and I’m very sad about potentially losing Jasper. I have no desire to hurt his relationship with Hazel either, that’s a big part of this for me too. Seems easier to just remove myself from the whole equation. I guess I just need a primary partner to build a stable foundation with before exploring other dynamics. I’m scared I won’t find that person though. I thought maybe I finally had, but I’m starting to worry that something like this will always be in the way. That I will have to tolerate metas I dislike, or that monogamy might be my only path to a family.

Any insights would be greatly appreciated. Thanks, y’all.

TLDR: I’ve been dating Jasper for 5 months, and he’s everything I’ve been looking for: similar values, goals, and we both want kids. He’s in a long-term poly RA dynamic with Hazel, his partner of 11 years, and Hazel has another partner of 3 years. Jasper has expressed interest in possibly having children with me in the future, but Hazel also wants kids with him and with her other partner. While I’m non-monogamous, I feel uncomfortable with Hazel, who seems to take Jasper for granted and doesn’t feel compatible with me overall. This doesn’t sit well with me given my past experiences and need for stability, especially around possibly all living together and potentially raising children. Jasper dreams of all his partners and metas together and raising kids, but I’m unsure I could handle that dynamic. I think I might need a primary partner before exploring RA, and I’m sad and conflicted because Jasper is otherwise an ideal match. I have no intention to hurt or damage his relationship with Hazel. Should I step back from this relationship? How can I move forward compassionately to everyone involved?

I'm 24(M), My fiance 26(F) and recently we met a wonderful young lady 23(F). It's a long distance relationship which is something I've had in the past so it's not new to me. But for my fiance... She's never been apart of one. Neither of us have been in a Throuple and we are all extremely confused on how to do this. Talking is a major point we all have discussed yet we all struggle with talking about problems. We both really like this girl and we've been official for around 2 weeks now but the cracks are starting to show. My fiance says she feels like she rushed in and I asked her if she felt forced cause of me. She insists I didn't but I have a problem when I take the blame for everything and right now I genuinely feel like this is my fault. She keeps saying I didn't force her. She also says that she's doesn't have the time and is stressed but she doesn't want it to end. Both me and our gf are really confused and now our gf is upset and scared and she doesn't know and is now blaming herself.

I'm trying this while trying to avoid breaking down and having a panic attack. I get attached easily. Im trying to understand what's going wrong if something is going wrong I just need advice and tips on how I can help them or what to do to fix the situation.

Edit: Thank you for the wonderful advice. Here's a bit of an update. Yes we are all still together. Things got a lot smoother after we all talked. The biggest issue was She was scared that 1.) She wasn't going to be good enough for our partner 2.) She was stressing about work and that was bringing her down 3.) The future if we all move in together how do we explain this to our son 4.) Would I still love her if she couldn't keep up with mind and our gf hypersexual needs.

They talked. It's not my business to know but our gf gave me a bit of reassurance and we got her to listen and calm down. Right now the only problem we are facing is one that's just out of control and the circumstances can't be help. My Fiance is very physical. From showing affection to how horny she feels. And she's desperately wants to ERP with our gf but it's just going to take time.

So yea I am so grateful to everyone who was kind enough to comment and give me advice.

I am currently pregnant with my families first child (M,F,F). My boyfriend and girlfriend are married to each other and I am single. We have been together since 2017 and have a fantastic relationship. The three of us are so excited.

Does anyone have advice on making a will? My goal is to create a will that would protect my girlfriend's rights to our child if something was to happen to the father and I (the biological parents). We live in AZ. Any advice on what else should be added to the will to protect our child?

Guessing minivans are the go-to?

Man they're expensive, even used.

Also: 3 adults is hard with 1 adult always being in the back in some way :(

I am sharing as a Public Service Announcement this post that I wrote because there should be more education out there about what are the limits of the validity of the negotiation of consent in and out of committed intimate relationships that are totally closed.

Love in any type of connection does not hurt anyone, does not matter at all whether the connection is open or closed, monoamorous or polyamorous, sexual or emotional, romantic or platonic, hetero or gay, cis or trans, hierarchical or anarchist.

What really does hurt is loving the wrong INDIVIDUALS, while there are interested individuals better compatible for any and every sort of thing out there in the world, including any and every sort of rare and complex need, want and desire that someone can value.

FAIRNESS IS EQUITY instead of equality, but love without informed AND genuine consent is a violation instead of love.

Gender variant, gay, polyamorous, aromantic, and asexual people can be united together as worthy of the constant free love fights for basic rights because they are socioculturally discriminated CONSENSUAL love minorities in ways more similar than what you may think.

You should not forget that you should always have the valid freedom of expression right to request as many answers to all sorts of questions that may appear invasive to as many indviduals you may feel is necessary for you to feel secure enough in order for you to give to anything consent that really is informed, as long as you make an effort to be respectful, but no one is necessarily obligated to reply to any of your questions.

Many people are not aware that only a first clear "yes" with enthusiasm is the only genuine consent to anything, and, therefore, is the only one that is not questionable enough to get anyone in legal trouble.

If you are about to go try something that you are not with enthusiasm to try, you are very likely not going to enjoy what you are about to experiment, even if you have an open mind to new experiences.

You should also not forget that consent to anything is not really genuine if results from constant begging, peer pressuring, outcasting, withdrawing, guilt tripping, shaming, blackmailing, threatening or any other type of manipulation not listed, and, therefore, is sexual coercion, also known as sexual abuse.

No consent should be unlimited to anything, because consent can not possibly be given genuinely to anything if you are obligated to keep consenting anyhow, so everyone should always have the valid right to freely stop consenting to anything at any moment, in the sense that consent is constantly being given at every new moment each of all of us shares an experience together with someone.

Only when is granted the freedom to be spending time anyhow anywhere else with anyone else at any time can anyone consent to love someone genuinely instead of out of obligation due to commitment to restrictive and limiting promises.

I really hope that sharing this helps at least someone out there.

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I (25 f) was in a cult growing up, and always had a crush on the pastor's kid. Nevaeh (24 mtf) came out to me as trans a couple months ago.

After that we did a lot of catching up and I found out she was in a red state that banned gender affirming care, lived with her fundamentalist family, and had a partner-- Pixie (20 mtf).

In a month me and my nesting partner Dick (29 M) made a plan for her to uhaul from the east coast to the west coast. Nevaeh says she's been with Pixie since January, lost her virginity to her, and can't leave her. They both have ASD.

I messaged Pixie to ease her worries about moving here, and from the start she was aggressively sexual towards me. I thought: fuck it, if it makes her more comfortable to move here, it's just sexting.

Through messaging Pixie I really liked her and could feel for her. She had a lot of trauma-- we both do--, was really insecure, and not that stable-- but how could you be in that environment? I really wanted to make her feel safe.

After the plans were set-- thats when the drama started. Pixie tries to fuck Nevaeh's cousin in front of her, making Nevaeh really uncomfortable. Pixie says she wants to live with Martha (their mutual partner) and Nevaeh's cousin in Colorado. Then Martha breaks up with Pixie and verbally abuses her. Pixie pressures me to buy her a car in another state-- that fails miserably.

I fix their resumes and set them up with job interviews for the first week they get here.

Then the two of them fly out here. Things get sexual the first day. Something that Pixie keeps doing is touching my genitals and my chest whenever she wants, randomly. This triggers me badly, but I mask up because I want to please her. After all that I notice her teeth are black and rotting, her breath smells, her gentials smell bad even after a shower.

We have sex, and the first thing she says is, "that was mid."

When I get sexual with Nevaeh, Pixie is always interupting the scene-- barging into the room and trying to talk to us.

Pixie constantly shits on everyone, shits on everything I like, is always complaining about the new state-- after awhile it really got to me. I asked if she wanted to go to therapy, and she vowed she'd never go again. This really eats at me because I'm convinced if people don't seek help for trauma, they are just going to continue it.

After the first week Pixie was obsessed with wanting to buy a bb gun to shoot fish and other invasive animals. My PTSD brain just kind of put the unwanted touching and then the torturing of animals into a category: Pixie was NOT safe anymore.

The whole household came outside. Pixie bought the BB guns, and started shooting lead into our yard-- which is a couple of feet from a protected woodland. Then she started talking about buying guns-- and I had a terrible flashback of when someone pointed a gun at my face at 11.

I started screaming, "NO GUNS, NO GUNS, NO GUNS." Over and over and over. After that we stayed away from each other for a couple of days. And I'm fine with guns, I'm very pro-gun. I'm an anarchist who thinks we need to be wary of the government. But my body just felt super unsafe and terrified of her having guns in the house.

We have 3 cats together, mine and Dick's 2 cats and their cat Max. Well one or two weeks later and my cat Taki is obsessed with Pixie's draw-strings on her favorite pjs. For a week I keep seeing Taki try to bat at the strings and it made me smile. One day, Taki tries to grab them and he accidentally clawed Pixie's thigh.

She then kicks Taki hard away from her.

I scream, "CAN YOU NOT DO THAT NEXT TIME, AND JUST TAKE A STEP BACK!"

Pixie wasn't even apologetic. She just says, "What am I supposed to do when he hurts me?"

And I scream, "NEXT TIME, I'M GOING TO BE VIOLENT." And I left and slammed the door. I then started getting really paranoid. How can I trust she won't kick my cat again? So I go to her room, take her pjs, and cut off the draw strings.

A couple weeks later, and I'm trying to get along. I buy Pixie a car with everything she needs for it. I have a terrible pain attack, and the whole time she's flirting with me through it and touches my boobs.

A day later Pixie has a girl over. She says she's gonna quit her job (that she just got), work with her, break up with Nevaeh (but still live here), and be Mono with this new girl. I was pissed.

The next day I'm going on a date with Nevaeh, im taking her to my favorite fancy restaurant, we both look cute and 10 minutes into the drive Nevaeh goes quiet and starts silently crying. I finish the drive and park near by, but she has completely gone nonverbal. I ask her a bunch of questions but all I can get out of her is that it's about Pixie. This really freaks me out.

I drive to go pick up Dick, and after that my brain can't take it anymore: I switch personalities (something I only do when I'm stressed). *My brother only went nonverbal when my stepdad SA'd him.

We go get drive through, go home, sleep it off.

Then next day I'm still extremely stressed. I think Nevaeh went nonverbal because of the break up. And Pixie brings her new Gf over, and kicks Nevaeh out of the room. I AM FUMING. I turn my music as loud as I can, and tell Dick I do not feel like a safe person at the moment. I scream, I do breathing exercises, I try to punch a pillow, but nothing is working. I'M SOO STRESSED.

Dick says Nevaeh and him want to go out. I put myself together, I get dressed, and by the time I'm out Nevaeh has gone nonverbal again. I lose it. I switch into 5 different personalities infront of them both-- which I've never done before.

"We" say that I don't wanna be around Pixie anymore and that I basically wanna do parallel poly as much as possible.

It's been a month and I still haven't been paid back for the car, I haven't talked to Nevaeh (she hasn't talked to me), and everyone says I'm the bad guy. That I'm making Pixie's life Hell-- even though my mental health has literally gone down the gutter.

I don't know what to do or how to navigate this-- Help.

edited due to how judgemental, self-righteous, and virtue-signaling SOME of the comments were (on r/polyfamilies anyway. r/polyamory was a little bit more empathetic.)

does anyone ever wonder why, as soon as a new "movement" tries to break away from traditional labels, many of the loudest voices want to lock down new labels for their particular movement, getting stuck in pedantry and semantics?

Hello Everyone! Dropping by to let you all know that we’re on for October’s NYC Poly Cocktails.

As always, it’s free, COVID-19 vaccinated only, 21+ with ID, and we ask you to take a rapid antigen test at home before arrival.

For those who have never been, we’re a 17-year-old monthly social of over a hundred attendees who are between the ages of 21 and 87 with the majority in their mid-20s-mid 50s. We’re nerdy mutual aid enthusiasts who meet in a non-cruising space in community and solidarity.

It’s a free event with a cash bar if drinks are your jam (though many don’t drink alcohol and some eat together beforehand), and a rooftop full of warm and dorky community. Open sky if the weather obliges.

You can email me at polychrissy@gmail.com for an email invite, or share an email with me in DM that works for you.

Reach out with any questions and have a beautiful week!

Warmly, Chrissy