Won 300k in a day, then lost it all the next day shiiit 🥲the guilt, i quit!!!

Last night was bad. I drank and gambled. Woke up feeling hangover a few hours ago and realized I still have money left to lose. So of course I gambled some more. I am really angry and depressed. Not sure what this post will accomplish but whatever.

I just don't see a way out. Whenever I feel like I've got things under control, thoughts of drinking and gambling and messing up my life come back. Fuck this. I really hate myself right now.

The issue is that he won 200k one night on a mega bingo but he ended up losing it all and more.

I since then put limits on all of my accounts. 250 for dk, fd, and fanatics….. each month i lose it IMMEDIATELY. It’s amazing how fast i lose it and how much was i blindly losing in the past

This shit is a disease man. A leech on your brain.

Been feeling like crypto itself has promoted gambling as a whole ,for me I always get fomo looking at prices or people's pnl's ... Worse shit that could have ever happened was pump.fun that platform made so many people lose their money in the search for a 1000x or milions . When I reality only people promoting this shit ever make money saw some statistic that only 0.5 ever made more than 10k profit so just let that sink in , 50% lose everything and didn't make any profit . This has spawned the hypergambling , you keep your balance in crypto so even when you don't gamble you actually do gamble ,sick shit . From now on I will stay away from any market of fucking scam just not to get triggered. Stay safe people ,let them make their fucking money which they gonna lose anyway ,gambling on vaporwave shit which has no value. Your life has value ,money doesn't .

i hate myself. I dont have a job. I am broke. I'm super lazy. My life is just total shit

Lost a few hundred earlier and I feel sick. I am so disappointed in myself and I find myself disgusting. I would save a few buucks here and there while I'm spending hundreds on gambling.

I had a relapse day today and I never felt this way before about gambling. I just hate myself, I hate whoever created gambling in the first place, I hate all the gamble site owners, I hate all the gambling ads. I hate everything

I just graduated from university, looking for a job right now and I got a lot of time in my hands when I don't have much money. Having too much time in my hands isn't good for me because I once had a gambling addiction, I lost a few thousand (quite a bit for a student), I quit for 8 months but I got bored and somehow I just found myself back on a random gambling website again and I lost 500 bucks. I have 65k in student loan debt and lost over 20k in gambling/day trading,. I don't have a job and I don't have a wealthy family so I'm broke. But I just don't know why I'm like this

i don't think i understand the value of money and I hate it.

500 dollars was a lot but I just decided to GAMBLE IT like a total idiot. I don't have much more money left so I try to save a few bucks here and there but that didn't matter because I just threw hundreds away. 500 dollars for me would last me up to 2 months in terms of food. I don't know why I did it.

I didnt even have any cash so I used a visa card that I've had for 3 years but never used before, until just earlier. I'm so dumb and upset at myself.

man. i was doing well because i dind't gamble 8-10 months but it came back... my stomach feels sick from it. I remember I got this feeling when I lost a thousand dollar in a few minutes back then.. I hate myself. I don't even have cash to pay back my visa card debt... I'm going to have to find ways to get money to pay that back..

I just can't understand myself. why am i like this man...

man. i thought i'd never come back because i didnt gamble for 8-10 months but i got an urge to play earlier and I just kept losing so i kept putting 100 deposits. I know i quit 10 months ago because I already lost thousands and another 500 went into my losses..

its so hard to quit gambling. I feel like my life is gambling sometimes. When i play games with friends, I tend to do things that replicates gambling, I tend to save things until the last minute and try to beat the "eta".

how can i stop these things about me? I feel like my life is just a gamble.

I am also unemployed and low on money so I shouldn't have gambled but i did... I feel terrible.

I used my visa card as well so I am 500 dollars in debt sadly

i feel like he’s betting more and more, we’re both 25, starting a life together and i worry he’s spending money on gambling and not savings

I am happy. Everything is better since I stopped gambling. Just stop guys. Just do not gamble and things will be all right. Everything will be just fine.

We all need a good laugh once in a while correct?

But the message is we all have talents, gifts, and capabilities. We all also have weaknesses, Achilles' heals, and demons we fight.

If you ordered pizza once a week and the pepperoni gave you indigestion would you keep on asking for pepperoni? No.

Yet I kept on gambling even though the last 1,000 attempts ended in emotional misery and disappointment.

We are not built to gamble. We either don't have the knowledge, intuition, discipline or a combination of these. We must accept this and let it go.

Start small and you will be surprised at the results. I will not gamble today. I will not gamble until some debt is paid down. I will not gamble until I make some amends with family.

Then eventually a day will come that you will CHOOSE not to gamble. It won't fit your lifestyle anymore.

Accept the things you cannot change. We are not destined to live our lives as gamblers, and that's ok.

I'll have a beer and order a pizza with meatballs and mushrooms instead.

ODAAT! 💪

Not been active in here after my relapse. Wanted to give myself time to get back on the wagon. My relapse wasn’t catastrophic which is good: I played one hand and got a push. Left instantly but a relapse is a relapse. Ruined 25 days of sobriety.

Day 18. ODAAT.

You are not alone. The grip of gambling addiction can feel isolating, overwhelming, and relentless, but recovery is possible. No matter how deep you feel trapped, there is a way forward—one step at a time.

Your past mistakes do not define you. Your journey is not over. Every day without gambling is a great day and even if you've slipped, you can get back up. There is hope, there is help, and there are people who genuinely care about you.

If you need someone to talk to, whether it’s for advice, support, or just to be heard, my DMs are always open. You don’t have to do this alone.

Stay grinding, stop gambling. Life gets better. One day at a time.

Each day gets a little easier. I spent this morning paying my bills for the month and reviewing/tweaking the remaining budget categories out for the rest of the month. Valentines Day is around the corner and I've budgeted funds to treat my wife. My dad's birthday is in a few weeks, so set some funds aside for a gift. I've thrown some spending money toward a cruise I have in May too. I find all of those to be a better investment than giving the money to a greedy machine.

Hope everyone has a nice weekend!

Its impossible for me to keep living like this.

Im already so stressed from debt that i cant manage not to gamble.

I called one company which help people with loansharks but im hopeless that they will be able to help me.

There is no light, nothing. Currently im bedrotting for weeks

I have been battling a crippling gambling addiction and recently lost a lot of money (35K USD) to a underground bookie on credit, while heavily intoxicated, because I couldn’t pay right away, they added more interest and wants the entire amount by end of next week. I made a few 2-3K payments to bring down the balance but then fell behind and I was essentially warned that the people that covered my loss for now are not to be fucked with.

I make about 10K a month, but the pressure from being behind on bills and being constantly asked is killing me. I am getting help by going to GA now, but I’m scared. I have not been dodging them and communicating every single time, but I’m getting warned that it must be paid in full. I have nobody to turn to as I burned all my bridges with friends and family. I’m terrified about what is to come next. I don’t want to get hurt and I don’t want to be homeless.

Officially 2 weeks without gambling. Haven’t this clean from gambling in a while now. Payday is usually the day I relapse.

I paid all my bills, putting a dent in my debt as well, and have a little bit left over for treating my girlfriend and I out for breakfast tomorrow. The old me would’ve deposited that leftover money to try and double it. Or walked to the bank to deposit my cash tips and put it all on NFL parlays. Spending our off day together not even mentally there. Just internally stressing about the money I just put down on bets.

I’m trying my best to put that old me down. Realize the disrespect I had for my hard earned money. All those hours of work, spent in an hour of hopes and dreams of getting out of the hole I created myself, week after week. Payday after payday.

I’m going to kill that old me & be more present. I know I can do it.

I have been battling a crippling gambling addiction and recently lost a lot of money (35K USD) to a underground bookie on credit, while heavily intoxicated, because I couldn’t pay right away, they added more interest and wants the entire amount by end of next week. I made a few 2-3K payments to bring down the balance but then fell behind and I was essentially warned that the people that covered my loss for now are not to be messed with.

I make about 10K a month, but the pressure from being behind on bills and being constantly asked is killing me. I am getting help by going to GA now, but I’m scared. I have not been dodging them and communicating every single time, but I’m getting warned that it must be paid in full. I have nobody to turn to as I burned all my bridges with friends and family.

I’m terrified and paralyzed by stress.

Lost another 600 today I just can’t fucking quit. Since my relapse from 2 weeks clean after gambling everyday I can’t get myself to stop. Just yesterday maxed out one credit card for 500 and lost $300 cash that I had. Fast forward today I take 600 on a card I already owe 6.5k towards. And lost it on adasanya. And the first thought I get is I have to get it back. Luckily I gave my credit cards to my mom and I’m currently broke so I can’t chase with credit anymore. Didn’t even realize it lost 1400 in 2 days. So in reality no cash down 20k cash in 4 months no job at the moment and upped my cc debt from 21k to 22.5. Please guys don’t gamble and if you’re on a streak of not gambling fight the relapse it’s not worth it.

Can’t shake the feeling of how I keep making the worst decisions financially. It’s ruining every aspect of my life. I hope I can finally quit for good today and never look back. Can’t believe I’m so stupid don’t even have no way of paying back that 1100 I burned not to mention I have bills coming up this month. Fuck my life. Been having crazy thoughts of just ending it but I’m not suicidal I just wan to be better and change my life. I’m actually tired of this now

Think about my losses daily, wont gamble dont want to. Only wish for the time, money and spark back

i am a gambler for 7 years. '17 to '23.

started to quit 2024 but relapsed a few times. 275 out of 366 days clean. I started 2025 clean, but out of nowhere relapsed again. 6 months of not gambling, then I snapped.

debt count: P600,000++ (around $11,000)

Today, (Feb 1, 2025) I am starting anew. this time i will include my habits. hoping to turn bad habits into good ones.

my rules are as follows:

GOD FIRST. pray the rosary everyday. and MEDITATE. NO SPEND on non essential things and food cravings. WORKOUT every other day. resistance training + running. JOURNAL every morning. track progress. if it's not on paper, it's vapor. GROOMING on point. 100%! READ BOOKS and reduce screen time. stop doomscrolling. QUIT P*RN, no fap! SLEEP 8 hours a day. HYDRATE. drink more water. REVIEW product knowledge and improve work ethics.

this is DAY 1 🧘🏻‍♂️ see you in 6months! I plan to post my progress on my newly created facebook account named 'Gentleman Jack'. and yes, I am pinoy.

It all went downhill in 2024. I had a great girl, remote job, everything was working out for me. No debts. Now I have 15k debt from credit card, 900 personal debt and another debt 1700 dollars. I am financially destroyed, I have no money and my salary is in two weeks. I ruined every relationship I had, I asked for money my unemployed friends, I literally ruined everything. I have no one, my phone rings only when bank calls me, and yesterday they threatened to sue me as I have 2k unpaid monthly payments, which I of course do not have. I am totally miserable, I am not eating, I look worse than ever, gaining fat even though I am not eating. I deleted all socials, I have no interaction with people. The only place I feel good at is my work as I am appreciated there but no one knows in what chaos I am in currently, as I always somehow happiest in the room for unknown reason. The anxiety about losing this good paid job is killing me too and is not helping at all. I am 23 only and my life is ruined. I have no parents, no family, no girl, no car, literally nothing. Don’t gamble guys, don’t do that to yourself; you do not deserve to treat yourself like shit and to have suicidal ideas every day, but I honestly do. I hope I will not wake up tomorrow. See you, please don’t gamble.

G.A meeting Saturday February 1 at 9:30am eastern time on zoom Meeting ID: 8627683586 Password: 1234 Chairperson: Gail F

Topic:  It does not take long attending these meetings to  witness people coming diligently for a while then never coming back after a relapse.  Statistics say sadly approximately 2%  of us maintain successful long term recovery.

What keeps you holding a seat in these meetings?  Do you think you can be part of that 2%?

Or anything you brought into the room you need to share.

Anyone who has a desire to stop gambling is welcome

This is a reminder to future me. First I’m pretty sure it gets better. Second this part sucks. The part where you have to face the problem you created head on. The part where you realize it took years to get here and it’s going to take some time to undo that damage financially but more important mentally.

If you feel like taking the easy road tomorrow, next week, next month, remember you’re just making it worse for yourself.

I’ve been gambling for 10 years now. Since i was 18. I don’t know what triggers it, i can stay away, but once i go i can’t control myself. From 2020-2022 idid really well and was away for 2 years. Towards the end of 2022 i went one day with friends when casinos started opening up again after covid.. and this is where the mess began. I started seeing all these online casinos popping up and i was hooked. i was newly married and started gambling non stop, every chance i could get and it was so accessible. at one point 40k deep, i talked to my brother who helped me pay down the debts. However this was not the stop, it took only a few weeks for me to start again. Losing another 60k. I collapsed, thinking of suicide, was ready to end everything. i finally broke down to my wife, she was shocked to see me crying. She was upset but was my support to pull through this was back in dec 2023. now fast forward 6 months to july of 2024 and what do i do? I relapsed, another 100k. I told myself i would not lie if she ever asked but did not bring it up myself. Then the day came… she asked. I told her honestly, she was devastated. We had another rough patch, but got over it. I was doing so well till now… and i relapsed again for one night.. and 12k. I told her the very next day. Shes so mad and i understand i do her so wrong, this is not fair to her. I want her to have someone better than this. I started therapy now and really hoping it works. This addiction is the worst. Its so hard to explain, sometimes i wish it was just drugs, would have been cheaper.

I cannot remember the first time I gambled but I can remember the first time it was a problem. April 9, 2011. I had just moved across the country to live with my long distance boyfriend at the time and he talked me into going to the local casino with his mom to "bond". I only lost $300 or so dollars but losing that money opened up something in me and 14 years later I am still chasing that lose. 6 months after that casino trip I ended up moving back home but at that point I was hooked. Flash forward 14 years 3 casino self bans and a few GA meeting later and I am still this broken gambling addict. I have lost hundreds of thousands of dollars over the years and am currently in debt over $150k all due to gambling. I had my share of big wins but being honest the casino was the winner there because they got the money back tenfold. I have lied, I have stolen all to fuel my gambling addiction. I am so lost. This past Thursday I took a step to ban my self from the casino I had been frequenting the most, one month after I had told my mom and boyfriend I had already done it. I am so lost. I feel like this is the time I truly quit, but I've had this feeling before. I need to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I need something to turn around. I need strength.

I lost a good amount last week even yesterday, i said to myself to not gamble this month. I felt okay this morning again so i deposited money again. And I lost it.

Why dont i have the selfdiscipline? How to not gamble when you get 1 second thought of wanting to gamble.. opening a casino website and depositing is just too easy. Whetever it is legal or some crypto casino.