I quit last February but since the summer I’ve been smoking before bed again. I can’t stand the brain fog I know it’s giving me and having little to no motivation everyday. When I quit the first time it was so easy because it was worsening my already pretty bad anxiety at the time. Now though, it’s like every night I have a draw to smoke. Without it it takes me a while to fall asleep , my eyes will feel heavy but the rest of my body and mind feels restless. Maybe that’s just normal and I don’t know because I’m used to being knocked out cold for the last 6 years

Ive tried a few things but still find myself reaching for my bowl every night and not going to bed until 1AM. What has helped you guys with settling in at night and being able to fall asleep at a reasonable time since quitting? Thank you in advance

Last time I smoked was on Halloween, I was smoking all day everyday for like 5 years now.

I could write a whole other post about quitting but it was so so so much easier than I was expecting.

My thing is I feel like I didn’t dream for years and now every single night I have the most vivid dreams like multiple story lines I wake up remembering all of it. It feels like I barely slept because I was just dreaming the whole night. Some dreams are completely random and feel fake but others feel so realistic and will be about things actually happening in my life in the moment. I’ll wake up having to realize wait that wasn’t real that was a dream.

Anyways I’m not saying this is a problem but anyone else experience this? Will I always just dream like this now because it can be a little exhausting like my brain won’t even shut up at night going to sleep I liked waking up feeling like my brain was shut off the whole time.

You will slowly but surely start to realize that the energy around you will shift. The same people you’ve smoked with for years will slowly drift away from you. Nonetheless two weeks off the weed will not completely fix you, but will surely enable you to learn more about yourself and your emotions than you have for years. Two weeks may feel like months, even years. You may be sad, depressed or feel a slight dullness in the world as if you’re in a feeling of grief. But within these two weeks you will learn that it’s the small things that truly make you happy. You may feel as if you’re so far, but yet so close. You may crave it, as if a deep loved one of yours has been snatched away but within this time, you will realize that it is you, yourself who deserves all the love you’ve deprived of yourself. 2 weeks may not be enough for you to feel like yourself again, but it is well and truly enough for you to realize you have taken the first step to truly find the path you have always wanted to be on. These two weeks may be the most uncomfortable yet promising days of your life. Within these two weeks, some days are going to be worse than others but you may find yourself at war with your own self. What does it take to win this war you may think? One word, GRIT. 2 weeks sober after 5 years of addiction and this was a letter to myself, but it could be a letter to you.

Hi guys, I need motivation to quit. Me (26F) and my husband (29M) have been smoking for 8-9 years. We really want kids and we want to start being healthy, it’s just we’re lacking the motivation to do anything cause we just want to smoke all the time. We’ve cut down this week and plan to stop picking up once we’ve run out. I’d like to quit even though I’ll miss it so much. Any pointers / ideas on how to get through it all? We’re gnu go away in a month for my bday so I’d really like to have quit for my bday.

I’m needing to quit asap because I’m going on a trip overseas for a few weeks where marijuana is not legal, and I would not risk it in that country. I’ve been smoking daily for years and I know this is going to be a really tough ride. I’ve dealt with CHS in the past as well. So I know the first week is going to be hell.

Can you please give me your best tips to overcome the insomnia, lack of appetite and sweaty hands?

I officially had my last smoke last night, I already woke up craving a hit. But I think it’s me more so craving my routine than the weed itself. I got rid of all my stuff last night though to ensure I don’t smoke even if I want it. Please tell me some of the things y’all did to help with your own journey like activities you did to fill your time, etc. I’ve been struggling to stop bc I graduate college in a month and worried what the withdrawal journey will do to my mental stamina to push through finals, but I plan to try anyways.

Can someone please help me, no hate

Let me preface this with, I love marijuana, I just want to do this for myself. I’m about to be 26, coming up on almost 10 years of smoking marijuana straight. It started when I was a junior in high school just for fun after school. By the next year, I was smoking every day before school to ease my anxiety to make it bearable to even attend my final year. I started to have a problem with getting nauseated in the mornings when I was 12, no doctors could help me other than tell me, “it’s just your anxiety.”. Smoking marijuana helped me with that finally. It became a crutch for me, it helped with my morning nausea, with my MDD, and my severe anxiety. I took a break from smoking when I turned 21 and had turned to alcohol for almost a year. I got sober from drinking and went back to smoking and haven’t been able to put it down again since. I will go days without eating if I don’t smoke, it’s as if my body can’t tell me when I’m hungry if I don’t have the THC activating my hunger. I will feel seriously sick or nauseated until I smoke. My body doesn’t feel like mine unless I smoke. I have been dreading this feeling for over a year now, I so desperately want to quit. Every time I try though, I cave back in because I just want to enjoy some food or enjoy being in my body without feeling miserable. I want to quit, I genuinely need help quitting. I want to do this before I bring a baby into the world. I came to Reddit to ask for others opinions because none of the research I’ve been doing for the past couple years has helped me at all with trying to quit. Can anyone please give me some helpful insight on how to quit for someone who has a serious struggle with quitting, because it helps me function?

A fellow leaves friend shared a very relatable poem yesterday. It has me thinking. The same exact thoughts have gone through my head so many times, and especially a couple of months ago when I was fresh on my sober journey. The last line made me pause, “I hate you and I love you”. I very strongly felt that way, and the love that I had for marijuana kept me so sad and lonely. The longer I’ve been away from smoking weed, the more I’ve fallen out of love with it.

For all the reasons listed in the poem I felt like I could always depend on it, like the most loyal friend I’ve ever had that can’t die, or will never be the one to end the relationship. I depended on it heavily to make it through some extremely difficult life events and push through loneliness, despair, gut wrenching grief, and trauma, but also my memories of this “relationship” are pictures of sitting around campfires laughing so hard I cried, spending time, cherished time with my brother who is now gone from this world, excitement about planning to get high later or on the beach, or after a night of dancing and drinking and having fun, or just sitting and listening to the rain fall, giving me a reward for cleaning the house, or finishing grueling homework. The list goes on and on with these memories. They are part of my life, and they aren’t all bad, but in more recent years I’ve been having panic attacks, and finding myself so paranoid about any other person I speak to or at times even make eye contact with that I lost myself completely. I’m a loving, helper in this life. I thrive on doing things for others that make them feel better. I smile at most strangers and see the precious 3 year old child in every person’s face. I’ve learned that I am much more of a social person than my weed addiction made me believe I was. I had to take it to the end of the dead end dirt road to figure that out. Weed turned on me.

The love I had for it was something I had begun to personify to make my choices easier to accept. I told myself I needed it, I self medicate, I love the way it helps me through and makes me funny. I thought of it like a relationship. As I’ve fallen out of love with it I’ve come to see that if it was a relationship it was like the toxic ones, the ones I’ve run from. The ones where the other person didn’t ever care about my feelings. Manipulating with fleeting happiness. Once I see it I can’t unsee it.

But there was something else about that line that made me think deeper. I hate you and I love you. I can’t hate people. Holding hate in my heart makes me become hateful. So when I feel those words bubble up about a person I always pause and ask myself “how can I rephrase this feeling without hate”. It makes me think with my logical brain instead of the cavewoman brain. So in this instance I feel like now I can say well, Weed is just a plant. My choices to put it in my body in all its different forms are what have brought me to heart racing panic, isolation, apathy, and forgetting that I’m actually pretty witty and funny without it. My choices over and over again have brought me to the end of this metaphorical dirt road. There’s nothing left here for me, and I can’t hate it because that would really just be hating myself. I’m accepting that all those past memories when I chose to smoke weed, the good and the bad, they were all my doing. All my choices. By doing that I get to love myself even harder. I get to take those memories and grow myself in ways yet to be seen. I’m excited!

I’ve reached the point in my sobriety, it’s been 7.5 weeks, that I’m definitely still moody at times (and Lord help you if you cut me off in traffic! 🤣 JK) but I’ve started seeing myself again and I love her! I’ve started acting on ideas that feel so good. Like finally cleaning up a pile of “I don’t know what to do with these things” one at a time. I’ve started cross stitching again and my son has been inspired by me and we stitched together the other night. I live in a big city with a lot of people suffering from homelessness. I see them all the time, and can recognize the ones near my neighborhood by face. But money is tight at my house so if I don’t have a snack to hand out the window I just smile and give them a peace sign. Last week we had rain for the first time in months and I saw the old man I see twice a day on my route looking especially rough and covered in dried mud. My heart ached like it does many times for my homeless community members, but this time I went home and without blinking an eye became obsessed with filling an old backpack full of things I thought he could use that we definitely won’t miss. On my evening pass we handed him the back pack. Later my husband saw him carrying it like a child with a big present toward where we know there are homeless camping on a wooded bike trail. It felt so fucking amazing. I keep finding myself forgetting to procrastinate! Ha! And just being more and more clear headed. I usually would have already forgotten that man by the time I got home but my brain is healing.

I am accepting that I used to use marijuana for all kinds of reasons, but I don’t want to anymore. I can be better off without it. I have to be. I’m still alive and each day on earth I get to make new choices. I’ve fallen out of love with Mary Jane because I was trapping myself with it.

I need to romanticize sobriety.

Please tell me in great detail about your little moments that you never got to enjoy before you quit.

I keep romanticizing weed.

16 days in, sleeping and dreaming, got over the evening boredom. Finding myself with heavy brain fog in the afternoons, leaving me feeling incapacitated & unable to work. Which is not great as I'm self-employed running my company. Wondering if anyone has experienced this and knows how long it might last, or i there's anything I can to to pre-emptively curb this?

Worth mentioning I has two double espresso's this morning, and a gyros for lunch about two hours ago

Hi I’ve been a smoker for about 8 years and I am ready to start making huge changes in my life and starting to give up weed is one. Not asking for drug testing purposes but how long til it completely leaves your body and you feel like you again? Ik my withdrawals are gonna be crazy I just don’t know how long it will be

all i want to do is write and create and make things with my hands. and in the mornings I do really well, because I'm not smoking.

as the day goes on evitably I smoke and all the dreams I had from the morning, the goals, are gone. don't get them done. rinse and repeat

I just want to finish a thought for once.

This is like my 10th “day 1” but I’m still doing it. This time I’m not going to smoke with friends or on special occasions like I allowed myself to do prior.. that doesn’t seem to be working. The anxiety of NEVER again is overwhelming but I need to do this.

My breathing is messed up, I wheeze and cough over almost nothing. I lie to those around me who all think I’ve been sober for MONTHS! I neglect schoolwork. I eat like shit and have gained weight. I don’t even get the fun high anymore, just the lazy, depressed, do nothing high.

It’s time.

My best advice- do not compare your detox timeline to others. We are all so different, from our height, age, weight, amount smoked, etc…

It’s best to take the challenges day by day. If you come on here and read that you’ll get sick, you’ll feel worse. Listen to your body and give it what it needs- you only need to worry about yourself.

I was a heavy pen user, I’d finish a 1g cart within 2 days. I tapered my use before quitting for good and the withdrawals aren’t that bad at all. The worst part is my brain playing tricks on me, trying to tell me I feel worse than I do and that I should smoke to feel better. Don’t listen to the tricks, it’s your brain having a hissy fit because it wants weed.

You are doing so good and I’m so proud of all of you for wanting to quit.

The cravings get really bad and I find myself trying to bargain and question why I quit, but I just try to find something to distract myself and the urge usually passes pretty quickly. Sleeping has been the worst of it, but even that hasn’t been too bad. I can actually read before bed now that I’m not too stoned to focus on a book and reading honestly puts me to sleep faster than weed did.

Every morning, I ceremoniously lock my little timed lock box with my weed for another 24 hours and it feels really empowering. On day 7, I’m going to toss my stash.

Thank you to everyone in this sub who has shared their stories. I really appreciate how candid and supportive everyone is. Here’s to day 3!

Does anyone else have to deal with this… I’ve been smoking for years now since I was 16 and I’m 34 now and every so often I’m dealt this horrible episode where I’m woken up at 3:00am and need the toilet… I go to the toilet and immediately after I am so sick and nauseous it’s unbearable and the only relief I have are hot showers which seems to dull the nausea… I love smoking but is stopping my only option… any advice please ?

I think about it everyday. My mental health is deteriorating and idk how to stop it.

I was feeling fresher the first few days but am starting to feel a wave of depression come over me. I have had an unhealthy study/work life balance for the last 12 months and weed had been a treat for me and a quick way to switch off my mind. Recently feelings of shame and guilt would appear when I smoked and this has prompted me to stop as I felt it was worsening my mental health.

This evening has been the worst yet since stopping use. Feeling a wave of depression come over me. I just want to sleep but the dreams have been difficult too. It’s like I’m doing a full days work in my dreams and the nightmarish aspects of the dreams linger into the next day. Also, having difficulty spending time with my partner. It’s like we were better for each other when I was smoking. My vice helped me chill and be in her company. Now I just want to retreat to my own part of the house and be alone.

I think being on unpaid placement for university is impacting me a lot and also experiencing burnout as I was working 6 day weeks to try and support the household on top of my placement. Financially I can’t access the MH support I feel that I need and I don’t want to mask things with depression medication while things are chaotic.

In a few more weeks I will have some more spare time and my degree finished.

Let’s hope this post goes negative lol

Edit* For context I’m 25 years old, and been smoking daily since 16. I never had an issue other than not knowing what I could’ve been and not having a reason to quit

I can eat, and enjoy food! I get hungry, I eat 4-5meals a day. I don’t get nauseous after eating.

Day 2 of the rest of my life. No smoking. Never again will I allow myself to fall to such a low point. Weed is a drug and it's addictive. It ruins life and it almost certainly would've ruined mine had I continued smoking. There are no benefits from weed for me. It destroyed me and tainted my soul. The journey to redemption continues

I am quite happy with the result. Have been using for 25+ years.

Good sides

- anxiety gone. weed was much of the cause

- sleep so much better (REM phases and deep)

- mind getting clearer, but still some fog left

- no daily ups and downs of dopamine

- much more focus on my food, work and workout

- can actually do stuff with my full capacity

Bad sides

- can not think of a single one

Phases

- First 3 weeks little or no sleep and crazy anxiety. Cravings all the time. Worked out like crazy

- Weeks 3-5 some sleep, incredible nightmares, accumulated tiredness was killing me. Still worked out like crazy. Could not focus on work

- Weeks 5-7 sleep in patches, peak nightmares, multi layered dreams, but cravings getting less

- Weeks 7-10 sleep started returning in 3-4h segments, nightmares disappeared, cravings almost gone

- Weeks 10-now sleep great, dreams mellow, little and very infrequent cravings

Still an addict. I need to avoid it or I would go back, I have this feeling that there is no moderation.

THANK YOU LEAVES. You have been a great asset. I have been here every day, multiple times a day in the first 10 weeks. Such a supportive community and so much great info.

All the best to all of you leavers in earlier stages. YOU CAN DO THIS!

Hey guys,

This might be a rant.. I found this community and hoping to get some encouragement and support in my sobriety. I’ve been smoking weed since i was 14, i’m from the Netherlands, and you guys know it’s embedded in the culture here. I always say that if there wasn’t a coffeeshop i could easily walk into it would be easier on me. I had periods of not smoking, but im turning 34 in a couple of weeks and i am so done with it. It keeps me stuck in evolving in my life. I asked for help and support from friends, but nobody reaches out or ‘understands’ it.

This year i quit 3 times only lasting a month each time. I always fall back to smoking again.

Does anybody have any tips or advice for me, i want to keep posting in here everyday so that i have someone to hold me accountable. That someone being me!

Thank you already!

Has anyone used edibles to help with quitting the vape? I am way too scared to go cold turkey! TIA

Had posted yesterday for my first day off weed, and just about to finish day two! Got some urges but went ahead and read through some of these posts and seeing countless others describe exactly what I’m going through has really helped. Definitely have been experiencing a ton of hot and cold flashes and insomnia, which is pretty obvious as i’m wide awake right now. Also feel as if the day feels much longer now and I get super exhausted and depressed in the evening time, don’t know if this is something anyone else deals with? Also couldn’t bring myself to play any video games which was really weird as video games are really one of my main passions. But I just think about my reasons and Keep telling my subconscious to fuck off!

I need to quit smoking weed really badly, I’ve been dealing with very intense chronic pain (mostly facial) for some years now, and all throughout that and some years before that I have hardly gone a day without smoking some form of weed. I started smoking at 13 and I’m 18 now. Recently, my disposable cart ran out so I decided I was gonna try my best to give it a rest for a little while to see how I feel without it, maybe a few weeks or something. Instead of that, I started hitting an old empty cart I found until it tasted like fireworks and circuit boards, and then hit it some more after that. Yesterday I threw away the original empty disposable because it was super clogged and super empty anyway. Today, I’ve been hitting that burnt ass old cart until tonight I decided I couldn’t do it anymore because it was making my stomach and chest hurt weirdly and worse than usual. Then, after thinking about it for maybe 10 minutes, I went to the bathroom and dug the empty disposable out, washed it off with water and hand soap, used a hairdryer to unclog it, and am currently hitting that. Not asking yall for help, just showing yall how weed really can be genuinely addicting AF

Coming from a "functional" everyday smoker of over 10 years.

The only one I have is to just see what it's like.

Today was day 1.

I need to build up the reasons to stay motivated.

This is something I just can't moderate, especially after a major life event like a breakup. I can somehow manage to get a 10 day break and feel great, only to go back to smoking everyday again. I always thought I could moderate, but I guess I should completely stay away from this plant.

For people who can moderate and enjoy this plant, I am envious of them. I just feel like I can moderate/quit anything but this. It's just not the healthiest coping mechanism for me anymore

This is my third night and I woke up after 5 hours and I have been laughing ever since. When I smoked it kinda made me feel numb. I feel like my brain is getting back to its old ways

Keep going!!

Just crossed the one year mark.

Which is an interesting milestone for me because I’ve been here before. I had 1.5 years clean from a decade of daily use and thought I could enjoy a puff on a vacation. I was wrong and would go on to spend another year or so using more than I’d ever had.

I’m not making that mistake again.

Quitting was tough. Both times. The chills, insomnia, horrific nightmares, nausea, anxiety, countless “last days”. But the freedom I have now, is so unbelievably worth it.

My life belongs to me now, not a plant.