So, ive struggled with binge food eating disorder for a while now, I eat mostly when I am able to, and not in public, I dont like eating in public, because I eat really fast, so fast that its sometimes hard to swallow. And Ive noticed that I'm actually getting bigger. I'm eating, and eating, and eating over and over again. I cant stop eating and it really concerns me. Ive eaten so much once that I actually threw up. I really want to stop but I don't know how.

I really need tips, because I'm overfeeding myself, and its extremely uncomfortable. Does anyone have any tips to help me stop eating so much?

hi! I’m a 26yo girl who has struggled with body image and eating disorders since I was a little kid. I’m bipolar (type 2) and I’ve also got adhd. I like to describe my body as an accordion. Either I eat way too much or way too little, no in between. Too skinny or overweight. For the first time in my life I feel like I can stop this pendulum. I can’t stand this anymore, seeing food as my best friend or as my enemy. I wanna feel good about my choices! I wanna feel good about the things I’m putting in my body. After a major depressive episode that lasted for 2 years, I’m finally starting to exercise again. Also went to a behavioral nutritionist for a diet plan that was doable and interesting at the same time. She’s really supportive of my journey. Due to my mental ilnesses I struggle a >lot< with motivation and consistency so I’m trying to be my own hype girl through this, even if it feels cringeworthy. Wish me luck! 🍀

Throwaway account, sorry I am unsure if what is going on is considered an ED or not.

To start with, my husband does have autism and I know that the hyperfixation or prioritization of autism can cause feeding problems. However, I am surprised he will eat a lot of food all at once if I feed him a good dinner, or he will eat if we go someplace for some breakfast on the way to am appointment. When he wakes up and throughout the day, even on his lunch break, he will either snack or not eat at all. He is underweight by a bit, and doesn't make the efforts to change despite talking to him. He has expressed wanting to get ensure for calories, but is worried about the cost.

Is there anything I can do about this? Should I refer him to a clinic? He does eat, he doesn't restrict calories, but he always undereats the standard daily amount. Would he need to be in therapy to be more conscious or is this overstepping? For all I know, I'm completely overthinking this, and maybe he'll get better, but this might be from food insecurity as a child and the fact his father only seemed to make meals at night. Probably a variety of factors.

Has anyone here experienced this?

So one of my family had a surgery and got out , and as a habit among my people is to gift food and pastries, now if you ask me what do you think hell is like ? I’ll tell you this is hell

Now our house is FULL of food and pastries and chocolate, and I can’t ignore the smell of it , I keep staring at the food for hours , sometimes even grab it just to smell it , this kind of food I used to eat tons without thinking for a sec , now it’s a hell for me , every day there’s a new plate of food I used to LOVE , I swear it’s like someone’s challenging me

I can’t talk about it with anyone

So.. tips ?

I’m a 20 yr old female and have struggled with BED (binge eating) for most of my life. Because of this, my weight has severely fluctuated multiple times through periods of excessive binging and then excessive restriction. I’m excited to say that I’ve finally decided to recover but I know that my body is not at a healthy weight for myself (I only know this because I looked much different when I was not struggling as much with BED)

One of my main goals in recovery is to regain my hair loss and also obviously I am really motivated to become physically mentally healthy again and repair my relationship with food. I don’t really have any hunger cues so I was planning to track my intake to make sure that I am getting enough (and I’ve never had an issue with tracking and numbers but it’s helped me know that I’m eating enough)

Long story (my apologies) but basically I’m just wondering how I should find out how much I should be eating to make sure that I’m eating enough to regain health and recover but be able to lose weight that BED made me gain to get back to a healthy weight for me? I’m hoping to talk to a nutritionist but it’s taken a while to get an appointment so I figured i’d reach out here to hear any advice. Thanks for taking the time to read, wish you all the best xx

I used to be bullied and called chubby when i was younger, i even look at old pics of me when i was like 8 to 10. ever since quarantine, i haven't been so fond of eating, i'd eat at least once a day cause it's the most comfortable, if i eat more i'll feel terrible. sometimes i cant control myself or think and i'd eat a lot without thinking like pizza or some sweets. everyone calls me skinny but i don't see it, my grandma says i'm like a stick but i'm not even skinny or even if i was, i'm not boney. if i'd show my full belly, it'd look like i'm pregnant but i suck it in a lot.

Recently, i feel like i've gotten more fatter, i exercise a bit but i've been eating more than i thought i would and it makes me uncomfortable. i hate my body for how it is and i wanna stop eating so much, i still have at least one meal or a snack a day but i'd spit it out at times. i can barely listen to positive comments no matter how much i really appreciate them, i cant see much beauty in me and even if i did, that feeling lingers a lot.

My (18F) sister and I (19F) have always been extremely close but in the past 2 years her eating disorder has gotten so bad it’s plagued every part of her life. Around 2 years ago she got into her first real relationship with a total jerk of a guy that ended up making her feel horrible about herself physically and mentally. Soon after they broke up we started to find laxative wrappers laying around her room as well as her eating patterns change significantly.

At first my parents tried extremely hard to stop her from taking these laxatives as we know long term use can be dangerous. My parents would monitor what she would bring home, monitor her transaction history, and constantly check how long she was in the bathroom for. But she ended up just starting to steal the laxatives. Her depression has only gotten worse as well and she’s pushed a lot of her family and friends away. My parents have almost given up in a sense. They just feel that she’s an adult now and they both have full time jobs and can’t monitor her 24/7.

TikTok and social media have been fueling her disorder as well. When she does eat she will only eat Greek yogurt with fruit once a day, or steak and eggs once a day. My mom bought the wrong steak that my sister doesn’t like today, and she threw a fit and left the house and starved herself. I tried cooking her pasta but she said she hates it and will become fat if she eats it. I eat pasta everyday and this hurt my feelings a lot- I know she doesn’t try to purposely hurt me but I’m not sure how to help if she refuses to eat everything. She says she only likes steak she hates chicken, fish, ground beef, and turkey. My sister relies on my parents completely financially as anytime she does manage to get a job, she won’t last long. She’s confessed to me that if she feels like she’s slightly gained weight she is too embarrassed to leave the house and will just no call no show to her job. I even got her a job at my workplace that she loved, but she stopped showing up. She’s begged me to try and get it back but I told her unless she tries to recover, the same cycle will repeat.

I’ve talked to her today and it seems like she just doesn’t want to help herself and is relying on other people to do it for her. I told her we all have been supporting her and trying to help her but she’s been pushing us away. The only person that can truly get over these obstacles is herself- and of course she can use the tools we try to provide her. We also are struggling to provide professional mental help for her at the moment due to our loss of health coverage. (My dad recently got laid off) So right now psychiatric help is off the table. What can I do to help her and show her I support her? This has been going on too long and she’s starting to look ill all of the time. I want my healthy and happy sister back, but her mental health and wellbeing has been completely compromised and she really cannot move forward in life to milestones like getting through college and getting a job because of how much this eating disorder affects her. Please for those who have recovered I’d appreciate some help with what to do. Thank you (I’m also not sure exactly what eating disorder she has. Typically she won’t eat for days and when she does eat it’s not a substantial amount. If we happen to go out to eat or eat something unhealthy she will eat it if she likes it, but I believe she then uses laxatives to avoid gaining weight from the food. I’m assuming she’s also constipated most times from using the laxatives for so long, she might just be taking them everyday-it’s hard to say.)

I can’t seem to eat almost anything after a breakup. It’s been about 3 days now that I’ve barely eaten. I can feel my body slowing down. I’ve managed to get down a Powerade and half a corn dog so far.

Any quick tips on what I can try? Help🥲

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I've struggled with disordered eating off and on for almost 13 years now (since I was 12, I am 25 now). Even though I did have a period of time with successful recovery, due to a high-stress period of time, I relapsed about 7ish years ago. I don't even know how to classify my disorder, as I am not afraid of gaining weight; I just have zero appetite. I don't know how to regain that without professional help, which I unfortunately cannot seek out at this period of time as I am in school full-time and work part-time. I'm really just looking for advice and support, anything would help at this point.

A month or two ago my dad, my sister, and I were going to go to my dad's (now ex) girlfriends birthday party and I started breaking down in the car on the way there and telling my dad all about my body image issues. When we got there he convinced me to eat some shrimp and it was really good so I decided to eat a donut and while I was eating a donut a little girl asked why I'm eating it and I said "because it's really good" and she said "but you're already so... Big." And I literally couldn't eat anything for the rest of the week it physically hurt to eat food how do I get this out of my head

I TW: Potentially upsetting content , eating disorder , BED

I feel that eating disorders are routed in my family, I don’t want to my future children to have to deal with one too.

My mom has always said about her weight infront of me, that she looks ugly and that she hates her rolls and belly. Ever since I was a child I’ve heard it.

My aunt was similiar weight to me and use to tell me to love myself. I really saw myself in my aunt. Recently She got a gastric sleeve, and got really small. She couldn’t eat but would say she was happy. Now she has put on a tiny little weight back on and she is saying she is fat again. And she is more judgmental about herself than she was.

My Nonna has been skinny all her life, she never has her photo taken since she believes she is ugly. I remember as children she wouldn’t take photos with us . She only ever ate dinner and it would be soup.

My mom and other aunt has recently started taking mounjaro. A Weightloss drug. I have PCOS and have struggled with my weight a lot . My mom says I should take metformin since it will help me lose weight, but she also says if I want to lose weight I should do little bit by little bit.

I have been so tempted to take her mounjaro recently. She keeps talking about it.

My mom never ate more than 2 meals in a day before. Now she only eats 1, and it’s never a proper meal. Me and my family have always asked and offered to cook her something.

The mounjaro has been making her feel sick and I’ll, and as you do when your moody you take it out on your loved ones.

I asked her not to talk to me about it, but she got annoyed at that. I asked her to stop taking it ,if it makes her poorly. But she won’t listen.

A couple of months ago, I mentioned in therapy once about having a eating disorder, and she disagreed with me. She doesn’t think I do but I do. I binge really bad and also have wanted to 🤢🤮 my food multiple times . Also, one time I was sick and she joked atleast you’ll be skinny now ( after I had just been sick).

How do I break the cycle ? And how do I stop my BED

i’ve had a eating disorder as long as i can remember. i was never diagnosed, have never spoken to anyone about it really except my current girlfriend but she is not aware of how bad it is. as a kid i never ate, as a adult i rarely eat and when i do i eat too much and gain unflattering weight, then i starve myself again and rinse and repeat. this way of living, i just can’t do it anymore. is there a way to just accept weight is healthier than being frail and thin. i used to do Kickboxing and nearly went pro whilst having this disorder. my body was insane, sculpted like a chiselled statue and i loved it. but i was not big. looking at old photos, i looked like i was starving to death. i was delusional. but every time i motivate myself to eat and gain weight, i remember how i used to look and try and starve myself into looking like that again. only i dont exercise anymore, and the only way im going to look like that again is if i eat and work out. is there any acceptance in this? has anyone here successfully gotten better? and how?

hey, so i’m wondering if it’s possible get an NG tube while staying completely outpatient. i’ve had plenty of experience with NG tubes, so this isn’t something i’m just making a quick decision on. i have sorta been backsliding and i recognize that, things have gotten to a not great point. im in my early 20s but i live with my parents so they can clearly see im struggling and have been monitoring my intake/supervising meals so they see at this point i really struggle to eat and can only really tolerate liquids. they’ve talked about putting me in treatment again. i cannot go to treatment again as i really cannot afford to leave school, and on top of that i have a ton of trauma from horrible hospitalizations and treatment centers. I have been in recovery for 12 years, since i was a child i have been living in hospitals and treatment centers and im just so sick of living in treatment centers (ive lived in inpatient units for up to a year). so i do not want to go back. i have anorexia with suspected ARFID (but my parents don’t believe in ARFID). I’m just wondering if it’s possible to get an NG tube outpatient. I am just so sick of the exhaustion from dealing with all the stuff that comes with oral intake, and the stuff from my parents that results from my struggling. i have comorbid mental illnesses so that makes things so much worse. i just need something to make this easier and try to get me more stable so i can stay out of treatment and in school. i have a full treatment team (psychiatrist, 3 therapists, an ED specialist doc, a primary care doc) but i am missing a dietician as my parents have been refusing to let me get one again but i am at the point where im just gonna try to get one on my own. i just feel stuck. i am wondering if somehow it’s possible to get an NG tube while staying outpatient, at home. i’ve seen others do it, and im just wondering HOW they do it. who do i talk to? what are the requirements? how do i go about it? i just really need some help because i don’t know what to do and i feel like this is probably the option that would best allow me to continue my life without having to pause everything to go back to treatment for god knows how long. any advice is appreciated, please. i hope you all are feeling okay :)

So i haven't been properly diagnosed with an ED, though I don't doubt I have one. (E.g. Sometimes I eat alot, sometimes I barely eat anything, sometimes while eating I feel like vomiting or like my throat is closing up because I'm eating, etc)

It's probably on the Binge eating end, and I know it was definitely caused by my families comments I received before even reaching the age of 10, resulting in..well..this...

It's bothering me a lot, especially since I want to loose weight, since I'm constantly around a certian weight that's seen as overweight, but I don't look it, but I can't because I'd need a calorie deific but I know I'd obsess over it and cry and hate myself and everything else so I won't eat but then I'd binge eat and just..repeat it :(

I don't know how to deal with it, I don't look at my weight on purpose nor how much I'm eating because I know I'd obsess over it and hate everything. The only consistent thing I can eat is chocolate- but that's not the best food to eat on a daily basis-

I don't know how to deal with it..and I don't know what I can do to make it stop or slow down- so if any of you have any suggestions or tips, it would be great. :(

For about a year I was b/p every night, eating limited during the day and doing heavy lifting sessions in the gym. It’s been nearly a year since I reduced this to once per 1-2 weeks and since April I stopped completely. I am struggling with ridiculous water retention and whilst I have gained weight I haven’t had my period so I can’t correlate if the water retention is caused by this. I’ve had gazillion tests about it all sorts of things and nothing can be found. Has anyone struggled with insane water retention this far out in recovery

Has anyone ever felt so much guilt from eating that they literally can’t sleep? I’ve taken sleep aid that should’ve knocked me out hours ago but my brain is doing overtime, I had a yogurt and some ice cream after my omad today and feel like crap for it

I'm in recovery from my eating disorder and sometimes I want to take a fun food quiz from Buzzfeed to find out my soulmate's eye color or something like that...

These quizzes are supposed to be fun and I want to choose the fun food options. However, I keep choosing the healthiest options.

So as backstory me (31F), my sister (19F) and my dad (60M) are obese, mostly due to unhealthy eating habits we learned in the family. I am working with a dietitian to fix my own issues, meanwhile my sister decided to hop on a pretty strict diet in the hopes that losing weight will help with her other health issues. She's been on it for a bit over 6 months and was happy/proud of the results so far. I said to her when she started that her caloric intake is too low for her activity level, but she refused to listen... Her energy levels have been down and the other symptoms didn't improve much.

Now she said she hit a plateau and lowered her calories even more. I don't know how much, but the last two times I've seen her she didn't eat despite me offering to cook something she is "allowed" on her diet. I am afraid she is not eating or just eating one small meal a day. I asked my dad to "spy" on her to see whether she actually eats at all, really hope she does.

What worries me most is that she now refuses to talk about it and does not want to address my concerns, she just shuts down any conversation about food.

What can I do to address this? I don't want her to think that I am sabotaging her weight loss journey out of jealousy, or that I am babying her. She's her own person but I am worried she could go down a dangerous path... Are there any resources I could hint at that could break through to her?

I have been in a weird binging vicious cycle where i binge today eat normally tomorrow and binge again the day after and i dont know how to stop. How do i stop this miserable cycle and detox myself and my cravings within 24 hours? I am miserable and feel miserable and i dont know how to stop.

I used to suffer from anorexia for many years but I’m now recovered. I’ve restored a good amount of weight and have been eating completely normally without negative thoughts for about 6months. However, I can’t help but use starving myself as some sort of coping mechanism?

I’m not even sure how to describe it but whenever I get into an argument I just refuse to eat. Currently I’ve gone two days without food and minimal water, which would be somewhat normal back in my ed but it’s the fact I’m not trying to lose weight?

Even I can’t really understand why I’m doing it, but if I got handed a burger now I’d point blank refuse even though I’m super hungry. I feel I can’t eat until any tension is resolved which is stupid but that’s just how it is 🤷‍♀️.Happens every time there is a bit of conflict

Has anyone experienced this? I don’t think it’s linked to my old ed but still weird. And how do I get over it, suck it up, and just eat something. I’m fully aware it’s not good for me but my brain tells me I’m stronger if I don’t eat.

hi everyone. I am a 17f and my eating disorder is ruining my life. My mood swings and anger are out of control but am considered a healthy weight due to a popular chart. I lash out at my partner, and anytime i eat a little too much i feel like i can feel the fat surrounding me. I have kid a considerable about of weight, a number that has left me a lot of loose skin because it has only been a little over a year and a half. How much weight will i gain if i try to recover and how will i ever feel good about myself when i don’t even have a flat stomach now? i feel like the only option is either killing myself or giving up any happiness i’ve achieved with my weight loss. i’m stuck but i’m miserable and don’t know what to do; i need to feel small and i feel like i am past the point of no return…how do i recover without gaining weight, how do i recover and still lose more? please, anyone, im sick of feeling alone.

Hi there. I am a university student in the UK living in a shared house with friends in our 3rd (and final) year of university. One of my housemates has been exhibiting ED behaviour since the beginning of university (getting progressively worse) and appears to be slowly isolating herself from us. I won't go into detail about her behaviours but it is quite evident they are unhealthy, compulsive and deteriorating. This year has been especially bad, as she is no longer going to any of our social events as a house, and we barely see her cook/eat at all compared to last year (always very specific safe foods and in very controlled portions). We believe she is increasingly compartmentalizing her life to conceal her behaviours from her different groups of friends. She is compulsively studying and performs at gigs in a band for many hours of the day. We want to help her and think this has progressed enough that it requires intervention. We are unsure if her parents are aware of these behaviours or if she successfully conceals them at home during the holidays. I have spoken to some of the counsellors at our university who encouraged me to bring it up in a sensitive way to her but told me they ultimately can't do anything because she's an adult. What can I do to make her feel safe with us to open up about it and/or point her in the direction of help? She is a people-pleaser kind of person and the main reason we haven't spoken about it with her before is that we believe she will just deny it and continue to isolate herself. We therefore don't want to make the situation inadvertently worse but at some point someone has to do something or I see her ending up in hospital.

i have an avoidance restrictive eating disorder (ARFID), and I am recently in recovery trying to eat more. sometimes I would miss two meals a day or only eat crackers during the day out of fear of eating food because I have severe emetophobia. I would eat mainly buttered noodles, crackers, and sometimes soup. This has been going on for about two months. I have only within the past few days started to eat more again in recovery, and I notice I feel nauseous after eating now sometimes. is this something that is common? should i be worried? I notice it more at night as well after I have eaten my snack for the evening. obviously this is hard since I already have emetophobia, and it can be really challenging dealing with this.

i live with my best friend im very close with (both 19f) and i just realized she’s been making herself throw up. i feel kind of stupid for not realizing it sooner because she’ll go in the bathroom for at LEAST 20 minutes and turn the shower on and i hear her coughing. this is like 2-3 times a day. i don’t normally listen but this time i did and i could hear her coughing and throwing up

i asked her if she was okay when she came downstairs because i heard “coughing” and she looked very shocked and got defensive and very obviously lied throughout the conversation. she ended it with “what did you think i was doing throwing up or something haha” fake nervous laugh that pretty much proved it

she’s had bad eating disorders in the past where she would do this and im worried about her. i’m not sure how to approach this and i don’t want to confront her about it and make it worse. any advice is much appreciated

I’ve been struggling with eating disorders on and off since 2006. I was a young kid and I went from anorexic, to bulimic, to both, to over eating. I find myself in an endless cycle. When I have to eat with family friends or just friends in a public place I feel the need to not order anything but a drink or only eat two bites making a point of how indulgent it is and giggle to make it feel lighthearted. I really don’t intend to make anyone around me feel bad at all. I don’t judge anyone’s eating or body but my own. I just feel uncomfortable eating around people. But recently my friend I guess was saying I was trying to body shame by not partaking in apps that we all paid for—-including myself. In one instance I paid for a group of four and didn’t eat anything. I really just hate eating in front of other people. I’ve gotten better about eating in general in recent years but public settings are so hard, and really hard to explain to people who truly don’t get it. And when I get food to go I get rolling eyes at me, but I can’t truly explain the struggle to people who don’t understand. Does anyone else feel this way?

i have a friend whose been bulimic, according to my knowledge, for a few years and im extremely worried about her. personally, ive had bad body dysmorphia and ed-related problems for a while now, but my friends problem with food is significantly worse and im scared for her. shes only ever spoken about it when texting or drunk, but i know from to various sources how bad it really is. i dont think anyone else from her real life knows the full extent of it. sometimes im scared my concern comes from jealousy of her ed (i know it sounds horrible of me), but as much as ive felt that way, today i had a small wake-up call, where i realised that i needed to do something because even if she may not consider me her bff, i care for her deeply and i want her to be happy and healthy. i feel responsible. i dont think i would ever tell her parents. i just have no idea on how to help anymore when i am stuck in the exact same hole as her, though not as deep.

Hello everyone! I'm currently trying to recover from my ED, and one of my concerns is hair loss and hair thinning. I know that it takes time for hair to get better, but what advice do you have to help this process? What supplements/vitamins are you taking? Are you using any kind of hair treatment such as oils or masks? Do you recommend a shampoo/conditioner? Or what are you doing to help your hair get healthier?

Hi everyone, soooo l've been suffering with this sickness for a long while now and I have a really really low intake since June/July. Since my body is starting to tell me that he's at his very end I have to at least maintain my body weight. So I have calculated what should be my intake to maintain but I just don't know how to start, I'm so incredibly scared of gaining I can't even describe it. So how should I do it ? Upping slowly ? Or just going fully in ? I'm so so so scared! Should I instantly eat at my maintenance? It would be almost triple over my current intake ... pls help. Will I gain a lot of weight? If yes, is it only until my body knows that it’s not starving anymore? Recovering is not possible for me at the moment because of my huge fear but I should at least maintain for my family and myself. Thank you for your help!

At first, I was literally having a mental battle between giving into the urges and the consequences that I know are going to happen. I was honestly doing super well for a while but little things started creeping in. All of a sudden I am knee deep in it again and I told myself I’m gonna stop when the weight is lost again.

I don’t know if that’s possible but looking at my body I’m just disgusted by it. I want to lose weight fast but I don’t even know if I am. I don’t want to tell anyone for obvious reasons but I also feel so alone.

Is anyone in that position or was and got through it?

I've very recently realised I most likely have bulimia. I'm a male, almost 30. I reckon I've had this for 12 years undiagnosed and just thought this was me, trying to lose weight, never realising what I was doing was an eating disorder or needed to be fixed. I just thought I was greedy when I binged and thought I was just punishing myself and being healthy by purging.

Anyway, I spoke to a doctor finally and I've been referred to an ed service for an official diagnosis but the waiting list is apparently almost a year which has really depressed me today. Now i know what's wrong, I just want to start recovering.

In tbe meantime, I don't know whether I should tell my family and how. We're very close and I'm going to be spending 2 weeks with them in a few days. I'm scared if I tell them they might walk on eggshells around me or on the flipside, might think I'm exaggerating or silly. I also feel scared about explaining what I've been doing all these years and what I've been hiding.

My question really is does it help to them? Is there more pros than cons? Should I wait til after the 2 weeks?