where could i start looking to be diagnosed or to seek help, i figured i’d grow out of what ive become but i just feel like it’s going to stay the same if i don’t do anything.

This is something i haven't told anyone but i was a young boy I would hurt little bugs and lizards (sometimes even birds). I would disect them, take their organs and limbs apart, sometimes i would even catch wasp/bees and make them sting them to see how they'd react to pain. I would also intentionally hurt animals as well like dogs and cats. I remember when i was around 12, i threw a baby kitten up in the air and i ended up injuring the kitten so severely it had to be put down. I think all this stemmed from abuse. I hate to admit it, but i was both physically and verbally abused as a kid. I was always the one out of all my sibblings that was subjected the worst form of punishment. I was bashed, had things thrown at me, spanked with belts and extenson cords, as a result from all this, now whenever someone goes to up to me and does a simple hand gesture (e.g patting my back for instance) i flinch because of trauma. Now that i'm an adult things have settled down. I now have pets and everything but i find that there is something off about me i can't explain.

This going to sound even more disturbting but i remember there was a time where i had the random thought of stabbing my father while he was asleep. I don't know what went through my mind but i just had an instrusive thought. What i did grabbed a knife from the kitchen and snuck into his bedroom while he was asleep. What made me stop was trying to fight my mind. It was a wrestle between me and my mind. I was very lucky my dad never woke up from his sleep.

Also there was a time where i almost stranged my brother to death. I was around 12 at the time and me and him both had an argument that lead me to using physical violence and i almost strangled him to death. Not once did i feel empathy. All i remember was seeing him sobbing profusely while trying to calm him down to avoid suspicion.

Even today for example, i came across an injuried pegion and had a random thought of stepping on the bird to test if i have some degree of empathy. I've noticed even in real life, when interacting with people i have learnt to develop a mask to fake my personality to blend in. I don't know if this maybe a case of depression, PTSD (from my past trauma), OCD or something else. As an adult now i still feel that there is something off about me. like there is a missing puzzle to my life. Most of the time i'm just in my own head. Currently now i'm seeking treatment for ADHD, i'm not any any meds but i don't know if i should bring up my past trauma to my psychiatrist.

Recently got into learning about psychological conditions which turned into me researching alot murderers and what there psychology looked like and now I'm at the point where i find personality disorders particularly interesting. However u don't really have much knowledge on anything other than aspd, npd and bpd. So if you guys have any good resources for info on these or potentially are willing to explain your disorder or how you figured out you had it, what steps you took, how early had noticed these behaviours and what happened because of it, how it has effected your life etc I'd be super grateful.

For example, when my sister just drank from my drink I just went hysterical yelling for my mom to stop her. And I've been sobbing for an hour after that. It's not the only incident. It's all the time. Sure whenever someone asks me to borrow something I say yes to not look like a bad person but I'd be fuming in the inside. I seriously think there's something wrong with me. Do you know anything similar to this?

Now, I'm not saying this goes both ways for males and females, but in my personal experience i have encountered several men like this.

This type of guy appears to have/has great qualities, has a good job, goes to the gym, eats healthy, knows how to cook, has a good personality, takes care of his home, is funny, has a close friend circle, is close to his family and spends a lot of time with them, drives a nice car, takes good care of their dog/pet.... BUT,

NEVER has a girlfriend. Conversations/flirting with them usually flows smoothly, but eventually you realize they aren't asking you on a "real" date and they don't seem to be interested enough in your life.

They take great care of themselves, family, and friends, but it's like those attributes don't apply to their dating life. Furthermore, they might even start to come across as cocky and get too comfortable poking at you with some jokes/comments that can be taken personally or offensive. They just don't seem to show empathy.

This was a shower thought i had last night and now i'm invested to learn more...... i have girlfriends that also have met guys like this. They seem so great at first but then we girls just get disappointed.. kinda quick too.

19F, autistic with GAD and depression

i don’t know how to word this. i think i might have something wrong with me. i crave attention so much to the point its so harmful, my family is sick of me starting arguments with people online for the rush, my friends are sick of it. I lie to people all the time, i tell them either a lie or an exaggerated version of the truth. and i don’t even think it’s a conscious thing. i just want sympathy so i end up doing it and say what i think would make me look the best

I became suicidal if someone doesn’t like me or doesn’t pay attention to me, Like genuinely suicidal because my mind immediately goes “They hate you and are going to tell everyone else bad things about you. all your friends are going to leave you and you’ll be alone”

I feel like i don’t consider others feelings, ever. i’ve doxxed people for the rush, and not considered what it meant for them. i don’t consider my friends feelings unless they confront me and directly tell me? They feel kind of like NPCS, i just have to say the right thing.

When i become attached to people, it’s all about getting positive attention from them, and i’d do anything for it. Help????

over a duration of time, ive always had issues usually starting since middle school but they’ve always pretty much been there. i am such a bad liar but not in the sense that im not good at it but that every lie i tell is severely impactful despite there not being much of a thought behind it. i dont exactly know why i lie so much but i grew up kind of rough so maybe thats why but i dont wanna try to excuse it. i lie about so so many things, and the worst part is i dont really feel that bad about it unless it directly impacts me to a degree or i really like the person. i dont want to keep doing it anymore because it impacts the people around me so much and i cant keep hurting them. i dont know what to do because although i feel like theres a void in me that doesnt care, i know to an extent i do. my partner, ashton (17m) has sat me down and told me to stop bullshitting and that it genuinely hurts him. it hurt so bad to see what i was doing to him and not just only him but the people around me. i dont want to be this person anymore, it feels like im ruining my life and everyone else’s around me and it sucks because i want to care more than i do, i wish i was a better person and if there’s anything i can do to move toward that i want to start. because of my lying i racked up like a months worth of absences in school, ive broken my moms heart, ive hurt my friends and my partner. i just want to stop but lying has become such a horrible habit and even to a point where i just do it out of habit without putting much thought into it. i do know that i also help a lot of people in different ways too, ive given my friends great advice on how to solve issues and it usually works. however for some reason when these issues are brought up ill do anything i can to help and usually it works but i dont find myself genuinely caring or being upset by said issues. i dont know whats wrong with me but i know i need help and i dont know where to start.

. . My youngest cousin, has always been very moody and random outbursts or tantrums from a young age 4 . I noticed when I visited them for vacation that when the kids acted out even the smallest thing would upset my uncle and he usually he would lash out or react with anger and verbal abuse, the way he treated them always upset me and a reason I stopped wanting to visit him. She expressed to me a few times that he has hit her as well . Is it possible that she developed BPB from abuse ? She is almost 17 now and I once in a while chat with her about her home life and how she wants to leave She has been suicidal in the past and they have put her in 72 hour psychiatric hold, during that time she was Put on Ativan . They expressed to me recently that my uncle and their mom hasn’t listened to her at all and refuses to take responsibility for the way they treated them growing up as kid and said it’s not their fault the way they behaved and act and that it’s all just BPD . In the past I tried to say to the mom that she needs help and is basically crying out for help from her actions and right away was shot down saying “ oh it’s just a act for attention. “ I suggested therapy that it could help . They got her a counselling but my uncle believes it’s a waste of time and is doing nothing . They currently on Fluoxetine clonidine and 2 others. During the hold she had they gave her Ativan and ( said it was the best she felt with anxiety ever) and suggested that to him and he refused and said I don’t want you to get addicted . Also has stated “ oh it’s just anxiety it will go away . Instead said a treatment centre would be better for her . All she has expressed is how she wants to leave the house or has had suicidal thoughts .

Over the last summer she started smoking weed to help her and they recently told her that the weed is addictive and made her stop . I really feel bad for her as she is the baby cousin and going thru all at home . I just really want to help and do something. Who is to blame the parents or the BPD . There is only so much I can do from a different place but it hurts my heart seeing someone go through so much . Would therapy fix this would the medication she wants work . Any advice helps . Sorry for the long message.

51M. All my life I've found I seem to get teary or cry at a drop of a hat! When life gets tough I seen to get quite emotional and have moments where I cry on my own. When discussing relationship issues with my partner I always get teary. Sometimes I think I'm ok but when the conversation starts and I start talking I break down. I get emotional and teary watching a regular movie (not even a tear-jerker). Sometimes I get tears in my eyes watching kids movies with my kids and need to make an excuse like going to the toilet to wipe my tears. I can't think about anything serious in my life without getting teary.

This has been happening all my life as far back as I can remember as a teen.

I feel is affecting my relationship and coming across as not manly and masculine.

In going to be checking in with a mental health professional about a few current issues in my life and will mention this. Do any other makes experience this? And tips and suggestions?

Thanks.

51M. All my life I've found I seem to get teary or cry at a drop of a hat! When life gets tough I seen to get quite emotional and have moments where I cry on my own. When discussing relationship issues with my partner I always get teary. Sometimes I think I'm ok but when the conversation starts and I start talking I break down. I get emotional and teary watching a regular movie (not even a tear-jerker). Sometimes I get tears in my eyes watching kids movies with my kids and need to make an excuse like going to the toilet to wipe my tears. I can't think about anything serious in my life without getting teary.

This has been happening all my life as far back as I can remember as a teen.

I feel is affecting my relationship and coming across as not manly and masculine.

In going to be checking in with a mental health professional about a few current issues in my life and will mention this. Do any other makes experience this? And tips and suggestions?

Thanks.

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Hi , my therapist and psychiatrist told me that possibly I got personality disorder, I was prescribed meds : Bioxetin and Kwetaplex XR. However I read all negative side effects that can happen and thinking to avoid it . Have anybody else been prescribed to it, what were the side effects . I am feeling great right now , so I dont see any sense in taking anything.

The end of August beginning of September I noticed I started to enter a depression (after being fine for absolutely months before) and by the middle of September to the end I was ready to end it all (and tried). I got referred to an intensive treatment team though my GP who I am still seeing and waiting for them to decide what we need to do. I woke up this Monday morning feeling on top of the world and completely back to my normal self (if not even better!) tonnes of energy, confidence and I’ve noticed reckless spending amoungst some other behaviours. My coworkers have even mentioned my crazy energy.

The next Sunday I’ve noticed I’ve started to dip again and the negative thoughts and slumpiness has returned. This isn’t just mild depression… I’m really feeling quite unwell with it. Is this too much of a rapid cycle to be bipolar? I’m absolutely exhausted with what’s being going on lately and just want some answers.

I’ve tried about 5/6 SSRIs since I was 17 (now 24) and none of them have ever done anything for me. I’m currently taking nothing as I decided what’s the point if they don’t work anyway.

Any advice would be appreciated.

May I add I have had periods in the past of excessive energy lasting about a week or just less and a massive depressive episode that lasted around 7months (with episodes both coming and disappearing without a trigger) as well as other depressive episodes… my memory isn’t great regarding other times as it’s never something I’ve thought about.

For the past 5 months ive been faking everything. My laughter, my empathy and sympathy, my happiness. Everything. I dont even care about others even if they are my own family members. I just dont care anymore. The only real things inside me are my anger, stress and excitement( very rare). Ive been researching about this traits just so i know what i am. I 17yo thus i cant have a diagnosis on aspd. Even the traits of aspd are traits i carry. Impulsivity, lack of empathy and remorse, being deceit and manipulative without any second thoughts. But the 2 only things i crave for are revenge and connection. I have forgot how it feels to be connected with someone. I have forget feeling loved and cared. Is there anyone who is like me and share his/her experience?

I am curious as someone who has the symptoms of both disorders. This is most likely caused by autism, but there are a few traits I've displayed in my past that I could not relate to autism, and could only be caused by D/NPD. The (environmental) causes and symptoms seem very opposite but if anyone particularly educated in psychology or diagnosed with both/either disorders could add their two cents, it would be very nice.

My friend is having problems with her mother-in-law. When her mother-in-law, who is 78, comes to visit, it’s often with very little notice and at odd times, even though my friend works and goes to school in the evening and her two kids are in high school. It’s almost as if the mother-in-law felt suddenly compelled to come for a visit.

The mother-in-law also gets very agitated about the way my friend organizes her kitchen cabinets. She takes everything out of the cabinets as soon as she arrives and rearranges it to her liking.

She also opens mail that’s not addressed to her and then expresses a concern or worries regarding what she reads in the letters.

She’s even gone so far as to kick out my friends cat, because she thinks cats are dirty.

My friend is, for obvious reasons, very frustrated.

When I hear the stories, I can’t help thinking that the mother has some sort of psychological disorder, perhaps Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder, or something similar. But I also know from experience that people never like to think that their relatives have psychological disorders, no matter how frustrating their behaviors are. I’ve seen it again and again, including friends explaining away their parents obvious hoarding behaviors or ADHD. Instead they prefer to attribute the behavior to an inability to listen or some other personal shortcoming. This friend is no different. She often defends her mother-in-law by saying that she is simply “traditional” and “from the country” so she “doesn’t know any better” because she hasn’t been exposed to different types of people.

But country people don’t open other people’s mail, no matter how rural they are.

My own mother had BPD and I know for me it was very helpful once I had a diagnosis of my mother’s issues. I think that might be helpful for my friend as well.

I know that it’s impossible to make a firm diagnosis just based on a Reddit post, but if one were to treat this as hypothetical, what would a possible cause, psychological or otherwise, of this behavior be?

Idk what to really put here, hell idek if this is classified as a personality disorder, but i really beed help because idk what to do.

I’m a daughter that’s in nursing school and has had my mom recently become sick. Over the summer I had to take her to the ER and there the neurologist diagnosed her with some brain atrophy. Fast foward to now I’ve taken her to a PCP her check ups are all normal (labs are normal now) but has had a history thick blood (treated with aspirin) I believe this may have caused the brain damage the lack of blood to the brain caused from high cholesterol (now treated) and thicker blood. My mother has seen a neurologist and they have mentioned that the symptoms she’s showing and experiencing don’t sound like a neurological issue. They also stated that her CT scans with the brain damage aren’t significant enough to affect her normal daily living.

My mom shows symptoms of crying and yelling. Doesn’t have a lot of self control, spends money even if she doesn’t have it, speaks to random men online and then says that it’s her boyfriend even if they only spoken a couple times and are just flirting. Has crashed two vehicles in the past year. Has shown up to neighbors houses unexpectedly asking for money or accusing them of stealing from her. She has asked multiple friends to borrow money. Has lost her job in February. Forgets things like passwords and addresses to places. If I ask her what she did that day she’ll repeat what she said multiple times or copy what you say to answer the question. If you ask her how she feels she says “good” and has no other explanation. I’ve taken her to psychiatrist visits and is on a mood stabilizer that has helped with the outburst crying but that’s it. During these Dr visits she doesn’t say much she just lets me talk and has no questions to ask or any interest to be there. She’ll confuse her words or has pressured speech. She’ll forget words or what she was about to say. When I was at work once she asked my roommate to bath her even though she knows how to shower in her own. If I would open my room to her she would bang or scream at my door until I did.

I am in school now for the semester and have her living with family in Canada but she will be back in Texas this November for a couple months. I want to get help from a social worker, psychiatrist, therapist, etc. My mom needs more help than what a 23 y/o daughter can provide. I don’t know where to go or who to contact for help. I’ve filed for her disability for financial help but that takes years to process. All her medical expenses are coming out of pocket with the help of Obama care.

I want to be walked through this very carefully, and to understand the why’s and how’s. Specifically, I am curious about instances where, say, someone meets the criteria for several personality disorders. On one hand, I feel like if someone says they have like 3 cluster B personality disorders, most people would find that to be ridiculous and some kind of an over-diagnosis. On another hand, I feel like hey, comorbidity is a thing, so if they really do meet the criteria of 3 or more PD’s, why not? And then I’ve heard people say ‘well what a psychologist would probably do in this instance is pick the one that most explains their symptoms and diagnose them with That, w/blah blah blah Traits of the other disorders.” But to that I say, why? Why not several comorbidly, if they fit the criteria for several, comorbidly? Also, I do see comorbid PD diagnoses pop up, so if that’s the case, how and when and why might that happen? And even under such an approach, how would a psychologist truly figure which PD best describes them among several they meet the criteria for entirely? It just seems to be so confusing and convoluted and like even the people running the field have no clue how this should be carried out. But it’s the field I want to one day be in, and I’m very curious as to how it all works.

Why isn’t Machiavellianism a personality disorder? I don’t have this personality but I was researching the dark triad and why isn’t it a classified disorder like psychopathy and narcissism?

Where I come from, doctors will never give the problem a name. They'll listen to a patient for hours and then prescribe some meds. We have had difficulties trying to get a diagnosis for an older relative (m 50) of ours who has the following characteristics:

disproportionate rage
easily provoked
extremely sensitive to how he is treated by others
reactive rather than deliberate in his actions
mild paranoia under stress
rude , sarcastic at times
no career - difficulty holding jobs
no significant relationships other than family
life long bachelor
no self harm
no sadness , just anger or irritation when provoked
sometimes keeps on talking to make a point
intolerant of others views
hates people coming into his space
leave him alone and he is fine
keeps himself busy playing outdoor sports , cooking, internet
outwardly 'normal'
difficulties only when you get too close to him
doesn't seem to be sad
rejects the idea of a family of his own
fears others depending on him
boundary issues- vulnerable to manipulation ( from past experience recounted)
seems fearful of being engulfed by others
Was Prescribed an SSRI but he never took them

what could be the personality disorder here? or is is just a personality type?

I am beyond an introvert, I would actually classify myself as a loner. I’ve always been this way. My parents constantly tell me that as a baby and young child, I’d keep to myself and play with my toys alone and was so self entertained that it made them very easy to raise me, take me places, or for me to be around adults and stuff.

In grade 1, I screamed and kicked every single day for half the year as my mom would quite literally have to drag me into school. They forced me to speak to a counsellor and no one for the life of me could figure out why I didn’t want to be there - even me.

After grade one and up until this very day, I’ve always been able to make friends (multiple), have dated multiple partners long term, am happily married now, and am very close with family and a few friends. Every place I have ever gone whether it’s school, summer school, camp, jobs, other people’s parties or birthdays where I don’t know anyone, etc - I have no issue making friends. In fact it’s quite the opposite - I make these friends that THINK I want friends and start inviting me to other things and then the pressure is on for me to have MORE friends and show up to things which is the last thing I want.

I hate going on trips with people, I hate being around people for long periods of time, I feel extremely pressured when I’m invited to (most) places, and I just generally hate any situation where I feel like I’m stuck with people on their time. As a kid I would fake being sick long term just to avoid having to do things with others, and I always wondered what was wrong with me. As a young adult, I would drink a lot to self-soothe so that I could force myself to feel like I wanted to be where I had to go. The sad part is, I wasn’t even drinking to have “more personality”. I was drinking to make myself feel like I wanted to be there. I didn’t need to drink to have personality but I needed to drink to have the willpower to go out and be with those certain people - especially in the party stages that most 19 year olds go through.

I have a very full life because I am close with my family and extended family, and I have a close circle of friends, and two jobs where I also have friends at both (both jobs are extremely people oriented). And it’s too much for me. I am beyond drained, beyond burnt out. If I were to actually tell anyone this (and the few people I have told) laughed at me and said I’m just going through stuff. I’m a friendly, warm, pleasant person on the outside, extremely empathetic to a fault - but deep down inside I just want to be left alone by everyone except for select family members and my husband who I love. ☹️

When I go to public places especially busy places - I am REPULSED by the sight of people. Including grocery stores. I hate people so much that I don’t even like cars driving around my car, I will either speed up dangerously or slow down dangerously just to get away from other people. I barely take elevators at work because I don’t want to run into anyone on them…I get as excited as a child on Christmas morning, when plans are cancelled. If you talk to me one on one about something deep, I’m an incredible conversationalist - which draws people in but then gives them this expectation that I want to be around more people and continue talking every time they see me. I sound like the grumpiest and least fun person out there, which is probably who I really am, but no one believes me because of my learned/forced survival tactics to be a people person to make it in this world and my careers.

I guess I’m just wondering if there’s something wrong with me? (I’m sure there is 😂) and if anyone else who comes across as friendly and confident - which I am, also feels like they completely classify as a TRUE loner. And hates people. I might be making it sound like a lighter issue than it really is, but deep down inside I have this hated for people as a whole and constantly fight off some pretty intrusive thoughts.

Does anyone else feel this way? Is this some sort of condition?

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Do you think its possible for one to have HPD without being sexually provocative?

I'm very confused right now and have no idea what to think.

A few months ago my therapist told me to try for some ASD ADHD tests at the same practice as her. Went through it and they did some added tests. Results come back and it doesn't fit me so I call to talk to the therapist. Had a call today to first find out the report I got was someone else. Then when we go over it the physcholist starts pointing to Cluster C PD but mentions we could do more tests for that. They way she sounded was well somewhat certain but until that time I'm left in the dark about this. It's confusing and well was out of left field. I'm trying to get time with my therapist to talk it out but needed to vent somewhere, or get perspective from people who may understand more about this stuff

As it is highly connected that traumas (especcially) ones "survived" as a kid in childhood time leads to developing one of theese two personality disorders later on in life, what is that factor that regulates if one becomes either sociopath or in another hand narcissist, if so :) ?

i’m literally being stalked and harassed so bad to where ive had to file a police report on her. if you guys wanna have an interesting read im here to provide lmao.

this all started with a guy i was dating (of course over a guy lol) the girl immediately became my stalker. she made at least 10 different facebook account over the span of 1 year and 4 months to harass me. let me add that i’ve never met this girl irl. he dated her on the internet and never even met her. when the guy and i broke up she messaged me apologizing and we became friends agreeing that he was just a bad guy.

well it turns out that entire time we were friends she never liked me. she was screenshotting personal things i told her over the course of 4 years all to use against me. i cut her off this year because i found out she was still stalking and harassing women on fake accounts being a bully and it IMMEDIATELY all went downhill from there. she made this HUGE facebook post making things up about me , tried to claim i stalk her , attempting to make me look bad and humiliate me etc. she started back up with the fake accounts. on EVERY social media. i decided to take on a different approach than how i did when i was first stalked by her. before i would get worked up and post about her stalking me publicly. this time i’ve completely acted like she doesn’t exist. however she thrives on attention so this made things WORSE. she ramped things up and started harassing / stalking my husband.

at this point i was trying SO HARD to not give her a reaction and i did so good. unfortunately this provoked her even more. she took it to another level and posted a NSFW photo of HERSELF on a local hookup group for MY CITY and plugged MY social medias claiming to be me. she’s done that TWICE this year. in july i just had enough and went to the police about it. i publicly posted that i went to the police because she literally checks my page every day and she stopped harassing me for about a month and she just started up again two weeks ago. she’s even added one of my old friends to stalk my page for her.

i seriously have no idea what to do anymore. everyone tells me that she’ll eventually grow out of it or find someone else to harass but she doesn’t. she literally gives dedicated time to each person she’s stalked and harassed. she still harasses some of the women she’s fell out with in 2018. giving her no attention doesn’t work , giving her attention doesn’t work. i’m so drained.

As it is highly connected that traumas (especcially) ones "survived" as a kid in childhood time leads to developing one of theese two personality disorders later on in life, what is that factor that regulates if one becomes either sociopath or in another hand narcissist, if so :) ?