I was going to write a whole thing but idk

I just wish I was dead rn, I can't make friends irl or online, I'm just crying because what's even the point? I can't meet anyone nor keep anyone who pretends to seem interested enough

Normally you train AI models to respond the way you want them to respond. But I wonder: Are there any AI models, preferably local ones, where you can let the AI have some personality type, then respond with some stuff and it gives you information how it perceives what you write and what you should have written to have a better effect, but similar content if it wasn't great?

And I don't mean to train to have "perfect" responses because currently I often unintentionally hurt people all the time. And not even just in a romantic way, it also happened a lot in completely normal e.g. group conversations. So I think even just getting that right could be an improvement.

I had friends when i waa younger but i was just always gaming. I did not know that if i don't meet friends in person they will fade. Now i know better. I did find friends 6 years ago but it broke up when our group fell apart. Now i am lonely for 4 years already and i just can't take it anymore. My day is the same everyday. Wake up in the afternoon, Shower, brush, watch movie or game. And the entire day i keep thinking: i need to change my life. And than i try to change my life but i can't. I don't know where to begin.

Sometimes i see tiktoks of people who are like not living healthy and sitting indoors all the time. When I think of them i think of me. Because i dont wanna become like that. I need to get my life back up and running

22 today. No friends left. My old friend group betrayed me, kicked me out of the business I put my all into over a small dispute. Now they’re making big money while I’m stuck in the projects with nothing.

Lately, I’ve been heavily addicted to weed, just trying to numb the feeling. I don’t know what to do with my life anymore.

It hurts me a lot, because I'm the worst kind of man. Autistic with interests only men can tolerate. Thus, I'm practically doomed due to my social inability and introvertedness.

I am not longer tired, nor sad, nor depress, I am just burn out, no path no bright future, just an ordinary guy who hates himself for loosing all his potential. I cant, i wanna sleep a whole day, I wanna lay and forget about the world.

Everyone always has a group of friends with them or someone they're talking with. I can't remember the last time I had people to talk to. I know it's my fault but at this point it's so pointless going out. I tried it in my first year and got nowhere. And second year I can't be asked. Last time I hung out with a friend properly has to be last summer

I do have a supporting partner and he is great. Problem is we're long distance and this just makes things worse. I've been lonely all my life but it's seems to have gotten worse since I came to uni

Some of the best conversations you'll ever have will be with people you never see again.

Goodnight, you know who you are tho you're probably stalking my posts and pretending you don't care about me

I hardly know what to do at this point, between my mother and father not communicating and messing a lot of things up for me I feel lost. My partner has been amazingly helpful through all of this but I know they are just as stressed as I am about this and I feel terrible that I have put them in this situation. So here I am at 3am unable to sleep with everything going crazy and I'm just lost in the sauce.

I'm 29 about to be 30 in a few months, and I used to have friends/girlfriends I could talk to well into the night but now everyone has either gotten a family or boy friends and meeting people has just become so hard. It's been like 3 or 4 years since I had a real connection with anyone. I've been so focused on going back to school and saving as much money as I can, I have one friend we hang out once a week but he is busy most other times, I know I could count on him for anything but I also don't want to burden him. The other 2 friends have whole families to worry about. And meeting someone as school has been made so hard by the age gap I have nothing in common with these people.

All my special people have disappeared again and i have no one to share or talk to anymore.

TW: Suicide.

I don't encourage it. Sharing for making my heart less heavy.

Apologies for my daily dose of being pathetic, but after such a terrible night, to breathe - it's relieving

That little episode of despair, it was awful. Assaulting me every time my anxiety peaks, or if I lose the slightest control over something, even if it's natural.

I felt overwhelmed

I broke

How do I describe it.. Hm

It's a fleeting thing. But I had never, EVER felt more horrible. An intense, teeth-gritting sense of dissatisfaction - with yourself.

Waves upon waves of that dark voice in your head. Fantasies of what you would force yourself, to do and disappear

And the disgusting truth - is that voice.. it's you. It's not an evil spirit or shit!

It's part of you.

A record that keeps blabbering over and over to no end, making sure every syllable it groans out is an insult to your existence..

I try my best to keep it at bay. Or wait for it to quiet by itself - akin to an angry neighbor beside a construction site.

It's loud and long.

Only tears stop it. And cold showers. Food. My dog.

And, just silence. Being grateful for little things..

When the waters calm, I can think. And hug myself back to reality. Of course it won't stay still forever, that's a given.

Best we can do is not fall off the boat

Anyway.. thanks to the beautiful, kind souls who listened to me whine last night.

I'm really, really happy to have this place to share my thoughts. And knowing that some people can understand..

Take care.

♡..

These past few days have been incredibly isolating. No one in my immediate vicinity to reach out to. I don't even need someone to talk to at this point. Just to have someone's presence; just sitting close by or laying in bed and cuddle but no words exchanged would be nice. I could use even just a simple hug but I can't even have that... I cry every night to sleep and thats after doom scrolling for hours until 3am. I hold and cry onto my pillows. Or stroke my own hair as if someone is with me just to feel a tiny bit better. I wake up sore, even more tired and unbearably hollow. Currently at a loss on what I want and what to do...

So lonely that I am talking to Chat GPT now. I am amazed that it remember context from conversation I had 3 days ago and brings swiftly into conversation.

Feels comfortable because it does not judge or runaway hahaha.

I’m extremely introverted and a homebody, if I had a gf I’d just want to stay home and snuggle all day without saying anything. Maybe watch a romcom together too. I’d still want to go on a lot of stereotypical dates though, like aquarium/movies/festivals/ etc. as long as we could cuddle when we got home. Most people want excitement out of their partner though, and a lot of girls want a guy who will take the lead, so i think that’s the main reason i wont ever have a relationship. I’m not the type to be super charismatic, interesting, and constantly cracking jokes, I’m just boring af and not attractive enough to make up for that. I’m also pretty shy and submissive so I’d need a girl who was willing to take the lead, and those types are incredibly rare. I just hope technology advances enough in my lifetime so I can go on virtual dates with characters I guess.

Same as above

I just turned 16 yesterday and my life just seems to get worse every year. I always think it cant and then get surprised the next year. What's the point of living if its just going to keep getting worse.

I just want one birthday where Im happy. This year was the worst one yet. None of my friends wished me. My parents barely acknowledged it. I celebrated by going to sleep crying.

I know a lot of you are going to tell me that its going to get better but I really cant see that happening.

Sorry in advance for long message: Is it normal to feel lonely in the world, even tho you like being alone and secluded and quiet? I mean this because I've grown away from most of friends and I don't really make new ones. I've learned that I can't really rely on people (aside from selecting few) and I always felt pushed aside or used. Even when I had good friends and some I liked I still didn't go out much. I've been so used to most of my adult life (basically right after high school til now) either working 2 jobs or working full time and doing school that I had no free time and when I do I literally wanna relax. Anyway, I just get coworkers or others who always try to play nice and say we'll game later or try to hang out. I kinda look forward to it but eventually just give up hope. I just always feel like a failure, even to closest friends or family. All I do is try to please them and be kind but ultimately I feel like I'm not doing a good job or I'm just a sucky person/friend. Sometimes I just wish I had people to talk to or relate to me or take me seriously. I'm just always tired and not wanting to do anything but I think the main thing is having motivation or someone to help encourage me. Basically what I'm trying to say is as much as i like being home, I sometimes feel like I want a friend who can motivate me or at least actually care...

My poodle just died. And she was my dog. My companion through life. She was my light. She was my best friend. I could love her. Cry on her and just talk to her. She was my everything. My poodle. And oh my god. The pain is unimaginable. I haven't really done my crying yet cuz I have to strong but. God I miss her 😭😭😭 I miss my baby doggy 😭😭😭 she's been with me since I was a kid and the pain is so unbearable I don't understand why life has to be so hard and when you have something that helps why it's gotta be ripped away. I miss her.. I wish I could lay my head against her once last time.

I'm so jealous of my friends... all 3 of them in a loving relationship. Planning their dates for Valentine's. It hurts so much. Why can't I have that. Imagine having a person love you. How does it feel like? Going to bed with them. Spending time laughing and having fun. Why am I always in the shadow? Why am I never enough? Why am I never loved the way they are?

I was on Facebook and clicked on a reel with a teaser image of kittens. I love cats (I have 3) and the kittens were in a carrier so I knew it wasn’t one where they’re being hurt or something.

Indeed, the first part of the video was saying they found the “spicy” feral kittens and they would be socialized and homes found for them. Two of my three cats are foster fails so that made me happy.

The second half, though, explained that the mama cat was too feral and was clearly miserable. They spayed her and vaccinated her and took her out where her colony was, where they are fed and get medical care if they need it.

She was in a carrier and when she realized where she was it was like she realized she was home. When they opened the door of the carrier she waited a moment and then took off. The little text on the reel said something like, “have your best life, Mama.”

I was sitting there sobbing and I didn’t know why till I realized I don’t have a place like that. I am lucky in that I have friends, online and off, but not close friends, not really. I’m also 43, single, and childless (all of which I’m fine with) so it feels like that cuts my options as to finding people I actually connect with.

I’m just rambling now but it’s like I’m lonely but I don’t feel like I have the right to be.

I don't know why. Both in real life and on The internet I just can't. Soo many people from this sub itself Have messaged me and tried to talk after I make a post or comment But for some reason I just don't ever feel like talking.

I feel so lonely all the time and yet Whenever Someone tries to come close to me I just shove them away. I Just don't know what to do.

I feel like I don't have anyone anymore no true friends or anything I just go to uni and come home and do nothing really I miss talking to people all night fr like alot

We just had a fire drill at my dorm building. There wasn't an emergency just someone tripped the alarm by accident, but we did have to evacuate and wait outside in the cold rain. I meet up with my one friends and we talked the whole time, so that was nice. But I kept looking around and seeing all these guys with their girlfriends just holding each other and stuff. Idk I just got jealous because when when there's a "emergency" they always have someone to be with. I see these people all the time in the halls and such, but idk, it just hit me different this time.

M28 never been in a relationship and didn't really want to until I met a girl I fell in love with , but after a month of being good friends I asked her out and she rejected me and later even stopped speaking to me completly. So with a spark ignited I decided to improve myself and explore this new world of dating but never got past the first stage of successfully asking someone out as all I know is rejection. I've even got picked out of crown to meet a lonely girl just for her to reject me because of my looks...

And that just kinda does it, like after that first girl in my early 20s I've been wanting something that I've realised I might not ever get because I'm unatractive. Like how is it fair that because of bad genes I might end up alone through out my life while some douchbags will go from girl to girl like nothing or some shit, I don't even want that I just want 1. I Wana experience Valentines day not alone in my bed or at work for once. I Wana just go on a walk and look at the stars whilest holding someone. I Wana wake up with someone and give them a hug just know that I'm not alone. But fuck it I'll just play videogames and watch porn from now on fuck this real life shit, it's not for everyone.

I want to feel loved, wanted, affection, sweet good morning and goodnight messages, to flirt, to be excited when I get a message, to have deep conversations and be able to talk about anything without judgement and be encouraged to open up. I want to be vulnerable and fully honest. I want to experience all of that love. I want to be drowned in love and affection. It’s so hard to find a woman and I can’t help but be doubtful it will ever happen since I’m 31….

But not for me. I really wish I knew. I wish I knew so I could fix it. I wish I could be the man they want me to be. But Im just weird and awkward and I don’t really even know what Im doing 90% of the time. Im too sensitive, Im too quiet. I can’t be a strong man, I can’t be the rock that women apparently want because I can’t even hold myself against the tide. I wish I could be loved without feeling the need to provide, or having to provide.

I was born with a brain that doesn’t work properly, its dysfunctional and rusty and sometimes I question if anybody else will ever see worth in me, sometimes I question if I even see worth in myself. Maybe its better if Im alone, no one else should have to shoulder the weight of my inadequacies, its something I have to fix myself. Its something that I have to do for myself.

But man, sometimes, it would be nice to feel loved, to feel worthy of being wanted and known. I wish I could be there for someone, but I can’t even be there for myself. And to be honest, anyone who would want to date me or be friends is making a mistake. But man, it would be nice to feel like a human, and not an awkward out of place alien.

I wish I could know love.

That awkward moment when u tell your teacher you don't have a partner because A. Everyone in your class sucks and B. You don't have any friends. I honesty pray sometimes that our groups get chosen for me so I don't have to work alone all the time. I liked it at first but now I'm feel lonely.

Mother was being mean again.

Still alone