Not a single soul. I can relate to cartoon characters and shit like that, but as for irl people, I Just can't.

This feeling is so fucking isolating it hurts. I feel like I'm an alien. It's been this way for as long as I can remember.

I wish I could find someone who doesn't ignore me, and who I can relate to. I want to kill myself, what's the point of anything.

I'm extremely lucky that I'm working from a slow paced HO job, but otherwise I'm almost doing nothing. And not too proud of that.

Same shit, same loneliness, same weary day.

I wish I knew I only had 5 or so years to deal with my shitty life. I'm 34, never had a girlfriend and I can only assume it's because I have no value.

And I just can’t find the will to do anything, my hobbies annoy me, piss me off, or bore me, same thing with the people around me, god damn man wtf is life. You’d think being off work resting would let me be free to enjoy things but noooope, I hate everything through and through I guess.

I go to a lot of gigs and other public events alone. I used to see quite a lot of other people alone at gigs but in recent years I barely see anyone else alone. Gigs seem to be social events now as a big chunk of the audience simply talk their way through the whole thing. I don't go to gigs to make friends or talk to people in fact until recently I resented anyone talking to me but now the loneliness is beginning to kill me I'd be happy if anyone at all spoke to me. But if you're on your own they probably will avoid talking to you. Now everyone's got a smartphone you don't have the awkward wait twiddling your thumbs until the band comes on. Most people would rather not go to something they like than go alone which is just weird to me.

I know this will make me sound too full of myself (I am) but hear me out. Years ago this girl I talked to (then fell out) kept saying "it doesn't add up" (Refering to how I look and behave but still be single.) That was years ago but also recently I've been receiving more compliments. This got me thinking what if people look at me and say "he's probably not single." Is this possible or is this just the thick skin I grew against maidenlessness?

I have never had a girl be into me romantically, closest I ever get is being used as a therapist which I stopped letting myself get used like that and women don’t talk much to me now lol. I’m tired of it. I hate that looks and height matter so much for a guy. I’ll never experience happiness, real and true happiness in life. I’ll get little bursts of happiness when I buy a new game or a new skin in one of the games I enjoy playing, something I’m looking forward to comes up but I’ll never be truly happy because I’ll never experience love, proposing to a woman and her saying yes. Getting a woman pregnant knowing I’ll be a dad soon… instead I get depression, constant sicknesss and constant anxiety/panic attacks. Life sucks for FA uglies like me 😪

Speaking as someone who is 25 and still have zero experience with women, it’s all downhill from here. I know for a fact women will view that as a red flag. By that age people are getting married, meanwhile I can’t get a single genuine match without getting scammed or ghosted.

“So in love with my best friend”

“Can’t wait to marry my best friend”

“God works in mysterious ways, so grateful that he brought us together”

Two dates in, had some great chemistry on the first, neutral on the second.

I choose not to be demoralized by this. I choose to not think negatively of her for making her choice. I finally made some progress in the first time in my life, and if that progress ends in rejection, then it's a learning experience in how to make progress that eventually will not end in rejection.

The saying that lightening doesn't strike twice in the same place is wrong, both metaphorically and factually. If I can make lightening strike once or twice, that means the lightening rod is working and I just need to wait for the right cloud.

I've been thinking about this alot lately after being used by a person I thought was into me.

So I’m 17 and it really hurts seeing people my age and younger flirting holding hands ect, it just kinda hurts that I know I’ll never get to experience that. I know it’s not to late but I feel like there’s nothing I can do I literally cannot approach a girl, it’s like I cannot comprehend it

Ok so this question has two parts. Here is the backstory: I am a male in my mid 30s who still has his V card. The other night I was chatting with a acquaintance of mine (F) who is aware of this and has mentioned it a few times as though it is some sort of affliction. Now usually my standard comeback is "If it bothers you so much then fix it 😉" which is normally good for a laugh and shutting down the topic but not always this was one of those times. I was counterd with "hell at this point I will pay for you to get laid"

So my questions are this

A: is this a issue that you open about? If so how does it go? For me it seems like it bothers everyone but me. Now I know the easy solution is to not tell anyone which I have started doing and thankfully at this point in my age most people assume that I have and it's more of "when was the last time? Ect..." to which I normally reply "its been awhile" which generally suffices. My problem is with those who already know now again I know most of you will answer "just lie" but I am not a good lier and if I say I have I will be hound for details about my experience.

B: I know some of you have visted with those in the SW profession how was it? Was it worth it? I will admit it has popped into my mide a few times as just a get it over with sorta thing but I live in the states and it is only legal in a couple vary specific places that are far away so financially it's not in the cards and I don't have enough "street smarts" to find it otherwise and still be safe and not arrested. I am also curious if you felt better or worse after I am a firm believer of "you can't miss what you never had"

Feel free to comment below or DM me if you don't want to be public or what to go more in depth

Thank you

I'm just tired all the time. Both in the literal sense and just...mentally. My soul is tired, to put it in a cute metaphorical way.

Well into halfway to 31 and been single my whole life. I don't want to burden someone else with my happiness, fuck knows I already burden people enough with my existence.

But the phrase 'better with someone' DOES exist for a reason. Am I better with someone? Would I be better with someone? It seems highly unlikely I'll ever know at this point. How do you know if you're better with someone, if in your life you've never had anyone?

But I can see it from the other point of view, that burden I spoke of. The last thing in this life I'd ever want to do is suck the joy and light out of someone, turning a soulmate into a worn crutch used to prop up my insecurities and self-doubts. Something bursting with warmth into mutual hatred.

But I'm just fucking tired. I think a hug would make me explode into tears and snot bubbles. I've been so tired.

And I never will be. Simple as that. Life isn't fair. Some win, some lose. I just drew a short straw, figuratively and literally. Busting my ass for years to try to be seen as enough and even worthy of attention, let alone attraction, has made that clear. Better men can just roll out of bed and have everything handed to them. I can't come near them on my best day, yet I'm supposed to believe I have a chance? No. It's all a lie, just cope and bullshit lies meant to keep us compliant enough to move forward and not jump off a bridge, but I see the truth now and I'm fucking done. There's nothing for me here now, and no amount of effort I put in will change that, so why bother continuing to just exist in a world where winners get to simply thrive for free?

It took 26 years but i've done it. I asked a girl out and she told me yes. We're gonna get a coffee this weekend and i genuinely can't wait.

It took a lot of courage to finally ask her but i did, she said she wants to and that she looks forward to it. I specifically said date when i asked.

And she's super cute too! A little shy, but me and her clicked immediately.

Imo the moment that you are an adult who has less social/romantic/sexual experience than a teenage high school is when it’s hopeless. You are supposed to go through high school normally socializing and making friends naturally and having your first romantic and sexual experiences, then you’re supposed to go off the college the moment you graduate to live the wild hedonistic frat lifestyle of partying and socializing as much and experimenting with as many drugs and sexual partners as you can get your hands on. These aren’t negotiable or arguable, this is what you are meant to do to be considered a normal and valid person. If you are an adult that doesn’t have a decent body count, a social life and relationship you are a loser in the world’s eyes.

I’ve stayed away from dating apps, or trying to meet new people for a good couple years now. Because the last time I did it was a scammer, after weeks of talking they tried to sextort (never ever send dick pics I was 19 and dumb). So I said this is stupid as hell and deleted all of the apps and stopped trying.

Well, today I figured fuck it I’ll give it another shot, add her on Instagram after a while of chatting. Reverse image search photos and found an onlyfans girl from a different country, welp that’s a scam. Why do I even try anymore?

My aunt shared a video on FB of teens basically looking like 13-15 years old MAKING OUT. They look like they were about to swallow each other whole. In the caption she tagged my second cousins who are also on those age basically nagging and warining them, lol. I am assuming she said does because she typed in another languange I can't understand.

Bro, I am turning 23 never had a relationship or any such. I felt so left out. But oh well. The kids on the video amuses me. The comments of others aunts was funny full on nagging and dismay in Bisaya. Can't understand it but I think I get the context and the gist.

I have 2 exams Thursday so I'm just studying. My parents forgot and no one called me. It's just another day to me.

Recently, especially I've been wishing and dreaming of what it must be like to have a close friend group, just people you can always rely on, talk to, and go out often. I've been apart of a friend group before in high school but they've known each other years before I met them and I was never close to any of them and rarely spoke to them outside of school

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I see my brother or my cousin go out sometimes and how it's a great memory and experience for them, I can't remember ever having something like that. I don't know I just feel like stuff like that just keeps you alive and in the real world but I don't have anyone to do it with.

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It's a small thing too at least for normal people and it's definitely something I wish I had in my loneliest and lowest moments. Instead I kind of just wallow in my owl self pity and depression and go back to pretending everything is alright by distracting myself.

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Man the things I would do just to have friends

It was incredibly brutal. I was just sitting on my seat and through the classroom door window i saw this guy and girl making out and kissing and hugging and flirting and climbing on each other etc. Made me wish i was the guy for once.also I’m proud of the guy for being able to get into a relationship He must have a great lucky life. I wish him well unless if he is a bully of course. I heard he is popular but that doesn’t mean he is a bully even tho most are

Which is why I also believe normal people suggest clubs or volunteering. I actually think this advise is underrated, because the odds that you’ll consistently meet the same person out in the wild are exceedingly low. When you’re in school, you’re forced to be around the same groups of people every day; This facilitates getting to know a potential dating candidate, as opposed to just hoping the stars align with a random individual outside of that or similar environments. Therefore, I believe the best way to find someone to date, once you’re out of school, is to put yourself under similar circumstances. If you can meet someone often enough to get to know them, you have a much better shot with them than with strangers, especially if we’re talking about online dating.

I think I’m gonna return to dance school. I got to meet and interact with chicks there, who were actually interested in me. I also might decide to volunteer in community gardens, only because I like the idea of growing life myself, and working with others to do so. The gardens I visited were so beautiful.

As tradition commands, I spent Easter Monday grilling with some friends.

There were three long term couples...and me. After lunch, we played some card games. While amusing oursleves, I couldn't help to notice that, out of all three male partners:

I was way fitter, I was the only one with a stable, well paying job and that I was the only one living in his own apartment.

So why, why am I never enough, why do I always put myslef down and lastly, why do I seem to never meet someone that accepts me for who I am. Someone like the three girls sitting at our table, who were totally at ease with, what someone in the "always improve yourself community", would call "shortcomings" of their partners

I’m attention deprived. It would feel nice if someone would just talk to me and give me some attention. I couldn’t ever have this. I’m not sure if I would be called an attention seeker for this. It’s been decade of loneliness and suffering alone. I’m in late 20s and life never got better. I’m tired but can’t sleep anymore.

I asked my female classmate for honest feedback and she said:

"Look at insta and twitch do you see ugly couples no, the economy everywhere sucks now and you cant blame girls for wanting to make a living beyond a office job right? Your face is not streamable and you will only spoil girls dreams to retire early. No girl will ever choose you cause you can't be in cute shorts with them, you have to live with it sorry."

(I edited her reply slightly as she used a lot of abbreviations which made the original very difficult to read.)

I mean...I always thought working for a decent salary would at least grant me a miniscule chance...but to think that there's now a modern-day requirement to be streamable....

I honestly just feel like giving up and conserving my money to buy a 1 room apartment and then decorating it with model trains. There is no point in bothering to woo a woman anymore as I am never going to find anyone.

My town gets swarmed with families and college students on spring break in March and April. Makes me realize exactly how isolated I am every single day and how alone I’ll be for the rest of my life