I’m 19 and got prescribed fluoxetine I went to the doctor about my mental health hoping to get a referral to a therapist. He gave me that and the anti depressants. But the thing is, I’m not sure if I’m actually depressed as it never crossed my mind before the appointment. I originally wanted to see a therapist because I get lots of anxiety (90% social anxiety), stress (typing this post is stressing me out why does it keep jumping omfg)- these are the only emotions I really feel, I got no confidence, hate the way I look and sound, and got no motivation. I kind of just related it to burn out from work. I don’t remember how long I’ve been like this as I was always a very awkward person (was hoping therapy would help with that too. The doctor said that I looked very “flat” but I don’t know if I am or if I was just shy? Not asking for a diagnosis or anything, but do antidepressants help with these things and can they be related to depression? I don’t think I’m depressed but idk

I don't know what I'm going to do with myself, I'm not okay but I can't get therapy, and I can't be like this, I don't want to, I'm so lost and I can't do this anymore, every day, every month, it's all the same, I wish I could just hide away everything, feel something else, and I wish I could go somewhere far away, I have been thinking about using psychedelics for reasons. I wish I wasn't like this; I wish I felt alive again, and this not me just feeling down, I can't and don't want to do this anymore

And with my bad habits, I don't have a double barrel shotgun, but I still want to shoot of the physical area, so my feelings for something can go away, but then I'm also scared something happen, being tortured for all eternity, but If I do It, I'll be free, but then also, if I do it, its irreversible, I'm goanna have to live with my choices for the rest of my life.

My dad triggered me while we were having an argument, he hit me and I'm so fucking done. This is a day before I have my award ceremony. I've called the police, I'm sitting in my room waiting. I don't want to self harm, what do I do? My siblings are freaking out, my mum is crying. I don't want any physical touch or interaction so I'm letting them be.

I’m attached to someone a close friend and I having a difficult thing letting them go They area great person but I feel as I have attached myself to her too much Should I tell them this or should I look into therapy to find out why Im like this I want to move forward but don’t know what to do .

So I had eating disorder like a year ago and now I'm not insecure I like my body but I just hate the fact that I weight more then boys my age, I weight more then my mom and brother. So I am 13 years old I have 161 cm and cca 70 kg, I'm not really fat but I hate those numbers. I don't want to go to doctor when I am sick because of my weight they even make me read that number out loud in front of my parents just so they can make fun of it later. I don't feel like losing weight but THE NUMBERS. Do you think it's okay to weight like that or is it too much or what I need answers.

I don't really know how to explain this but it's starting to become a problem. For a long time I haven't eaten with my mom at all. I just can't handle the way she eats and when she talks with her mouth full. It makes me so uncomfortable and annoys me and makes me so mad for days. When I try to go to sleep it like pops up in my head and I get so mad. It just happens throughout the day for days. It's gotten to the point where I just haven't eaten with her at all for months cause it's literally just hell when I have to. I always avoid it and it stresses me out so much. It's starting to be like that with other people as well. Every meal is just a nightmare at this point but I just feel stupid cause I haven't actually seen anyone else feel this way. What should I do? I don't really feel like anyone will understand.

I haven't had facebook for 8 years, avoid work and family events because of facebook and now I feel so angry at myself for putting myself in the position where I was videoed by others. It was a speech at work. Just because someone felt too scared to do something. I found it has been posted online. I had trouble sleeping all last week and haven't slept all last night and I haven't eaten much either. As each day passes I feel angrier at myself and resentful towards this person who wasn't scared, just couldn't be bothered. I don't know what to do.

This year has had a lot of uncertainty about my fate at work. I have been working for two years on contract and it ended this September. At first I was quick to want to find a solution and fix the problem as I usually do. But this time round, I couldn't muster the energy to pursue a solution like I normally do in every situation. This time I just let things be and see where life goes. I got a new contract. It is for 7 months ending in May 2025. I am being given opportunities to show my skills even more by being given more duties. I just end up feeling used. At least it came with a pay rise but the uncertainty killed any sense of motivation I had because I just see the end in 7 months. I don't want to get out of bed. I don't have the energy to clean my house. I don't want to see or talk to anyone in person or via text. I rarely leave my house. Sometimes I struggle to clean even myself. I barely eat but I am gaining weight. I am always tired and the only time I am active in any way is 8-5 where I do the bare minimum at work and clock out coz I need the money for myself and family. But if I could sleep and never wake up I would be grateful.

I feel like this reaction is too strong. I don't understand why I am like this just because I did not get the job I was promised if I put in the work. I am just so exhausted and I don't have the energy to fight anymore. I want to be stable and not worry about basic needs and supporting my family but everytime I seem I am close to getting there, it moves further away from me. I have an upcoming interview and I am struggling to even prepare for it. Which makes me feel like my state is my own fault. I feel like I am now in a constant loop of self blame and hate. And I don't know how to get out of it.

TW: talk of eating disorders & self hate

I am a ‘21 F’ and I’ve had a turbulent dating life. I’ve noticed patterns in myself when I get romantically involved with someone. I crave connection and companionship, and seek relationships, but it seems that whenever I find someone and things begin to become more serious, I retreat and leave. I know it’s a really shitty thing to do, but I don’t know how to not feel this way, or why I do at all in the first place. However, sometimes I wonder if the problem is not my attachment style, but something else. I have struggled with an eating disorder ever since I was a teenager, and I think the mentality and the way that you view yourself when you have an ED has fried my brain. I absolutely fear physical touch and intimacy, but yet I still want it at times. I hate my body, and I really hate most things about me as a person. I’ve been told before that you can’t love someone else if you cannot love yourself first. Other times I wonder if I could be asexual, but it’s not like I don’t ever have sexual urges, because I do, and I want intimacy, so I don’t know. My brain tells me that I am disgusting and ugly, and that no one would want to be with me. I slightly fear commitment in relationships too, but I don’t know why? It’s not like I’ve never felt very attatched to a person though, because when I truly love a person, I never want them to leave my life. I just have never had that feeling last in a romantic relationship. So I crave connection , but I am afraid of it at the same time. Usually in the beginning, I am very into the person and am excited to know them further. But as time progresses, it’s as if those feelings disappear and all I feel is anxiety and dread. I don’t want to have an avoidant or disorganized attachment style. People like that are described as horrible people, and I’ve even heard them called narcissists. I am not a narcissist, that I know. I don’t think I am a bad person either. So it really, genuinely hurts me when that’s how people like me are known as. I know I do feel uncomfortable being vulnerable sometimes, I am always afraid that I will be judged or never be understood and loved. I don’t want to be a bad person and hurt other people. It’s not even just my ED, but I have a hard time regulating my emotions too. I’ve never been to a therapist before. I’ve tried desperately to get help in the past and never was allowed to (when I was a teen). I can’t afford one now either, and my insurance does not cover it. However, I have access now to counselors through my school. Are they equipped to handle my particular problems, I have no idea yet.

I'm 15. When someone says a word, I start visually hallucinating that word for the rest of the day/multiple days. I also hear whispered random words and people calling my name.

If someone says "dog", I hallucinate dogs for the rest of the day. Dogs just everywhere. On the couch, at least ten running around on the ground, some on counters etc.

This doesn't happen for EVERY word I hear. This goes on every day and has been for as long as I can remember.

When I hear things, it's mostly random whispered words and people calling my name. Example: Hearing the words "silver", "stone", and "maroon" over and over for hours. Also, at least once a day, I hear a voice I don't recognize calling or whispering my name. Sometimes, I hallucinate entire conversations with my family. Let's say my brother is ranting about something he enjoys, and I'll respond with "That's cool". Then he tell me he hasn't said anything.

Some other things I see are giant figures. They move when I stay still, and stay still when I move. They hover over me and watch me but don't say anything. Just twenty minutes ago, while I was showering, a figure with yellow eyes was staring at me the entire time. Its head followed me, and it didn't blink at all. Creeped me out

I am not on any medication and haven't been on any in a year. My mom thinks I'm hallucinating because of my depression, but it's been happening since I was a little kid and has only worsened over the years. I only recently told her about the hallucinations and now she's getting annoyed when I bring it up so idk what to do

Is this normal? Does anyone else go through this or something similar? If you do, how do you manage and do you have any advice?

Suffering from Overthinking and Imagination

I can do 99 things right, but can be fixated on the 1 thing I did wrong- even if it was a long time ago. Seeking any advice to have better self talk and positive thinking on mistakes and myself in general. I am rather harsh on myself and do work with a therapist (she's great). Just I struggle sometimes at night.

Recently I observed I am following the same pattern of my abuser , it's subtle but it's there

M 32. I'm constantly procrastinating on everything: my health, cleaning the house, my clients' projects at my side hustle, etc. The arm of my glasses recently broke and I haven't even booked an eye exam yet. The dirty dishes are piling up. I've been living alone for 3 months and I haven't swept or mopped a single room. I bought a course on how to reduce procrastination that cites books by Windy Dryden and James Clear. It didn't work, even though I wrote everything down and did all the exercises. Or rather, it worked for a few weeks and then I went back to being worse than before. I'm starting to think that my problem is more serious than I thought and that I should see a psychologist. The only thing I can do is cry myself to sleep without having done anything all day.

But when I'm at work in the office, I'm a productivity machine. My desktop is minimal: a fake plant, a post-it block, a pen and my computer. I write everything I have to do on post-it and then waste it after I did it. I read every email and archive them after the job is done. When someone calls me, I try to go as soon as possible in his office to fix his/her computer.

What can I do?

I am 20 years old and have had mental health problems that affect my day to day life since about the age of 10. I grew up with a parent who dismissed every mental health problem that I expressed. They are my only family member and only person I have had to lean onto, so I have felt really alone with my problems all my life. I struggle with body image issues, obsessive and intrusive thoughts, anxiety, and believe that I might have ADHD.

Although I have struggled with these issues for the majority of my life, it was much easier to push them aside when I was younger. I struggled a lot in school, I wanted to be a better student but I did not realize the actual importance of it at the time so I let myself slack off. I graduated with really low grades and a low GPA and with no path or idea to what I wanted to do with my life after graduation. 2 years later my mental health has gotten much worse and it has made it really difficult for me to pave out my life. I realized how much of an issue it has become when I enrolled in college but then had back to back anxiety attacks the week before school started when I had to pick out my classes, so I just didn't. similar things keep happening with other aspects of my life like work and relationships. I know I have needed help all this time but now that It's in my hands I cannot build the courage or motivation to do it. I don't even know HOW to get help. If I have too much anxiety to live my life normally, how do I prevent my anxiety from getting in the way of getting help?

hopefully this all makes sense. I know I might have been a bit vague. feel free to ask any questions and any advice helps :)

I loved her more than anything and i cant deal with the fact i wont get another chance no matter how long it takes or what i do so im gonna try emotionally detach myself so 1 i dont hurt anymore 2 if i cant take it anymore she wont be hurt when im gone, i loved her more than i love myself

Ive been “ depressed “ my whole life as long as i can remember (im almost 17) ive been abused most of my life emotionally and physically and i feel like it made a big impact on my dopamine receptors or something cause i dont get happy or even feel “joy” about anything anymore for the last 3 years, i barely eat anything and when i do its junk, i got with this girl last year around when i wanted to attempt and she made such an impact on me for the time being and she doesnt want to be with me anymore and she was the only thing that was keeping me moving forward and wanting to be better for myself since my mom passed when i was 13 , i feel selfish and immature for this but i just really dont see any point to keep going, i have a part time job i havent been in school since 8th grade ive been to 2 treatment centers, nothings helped i just want to end it all bc then i feel like it would help not having to feel anymore, idk im just so tired

im an 18 year old male i have depression but i take sertraline to help with that and ive been on that for months now but recently every single day my mood goes from being normal/happy but all a sudden my mood just switched to me being really sad and crying but i have no reason to be sad and its a nonestop cycle it happens every day for hours and its making me feel insane can someone please explain whats wrong with me (also im going to see a doctor in a week but im on a need to know basis and would like to have an understanding on whats wrong with me)

I'm just frustrated with life. I suffer from schizophrenia (thought broadcasting delusion). Meds work but it's such a hassle when the treatment center keeps screwing up my refills. I work a shitty night job at a gas station where it's constantly filled with crackheads just stealing and mocking you. I know what you think oh just get another job trust me I've tried. I have to give all my money to my mom just to keep the family afloat cuz my dad and siblings won't step up, and even that's not enough to keep rent paid. I just feel so done life is a constant cycle of work and sleep I have no friends no social life I can't even have a relationship because I am just constantly being the provider for a family who never learns from their decisions. I'm not like depressed but just tired and feel like ending it this struggle with no payoff is not worth it. Grinding for no reward just to breathe? I'll pass

Hi everyone, I suffered from some traumtic event that eventually led me to depression this was a phase of 3 years. I was given antidepressants for 6-7 months. During that time I didn't used to go out and just would be mostly in my bed overthinking.

Now ,after 2 years ,I have improved significantly but I still get really stressed automatically when there are certain situations that involve dynamic activities like driving a car or a bike , body just starts going into the flight response. I just feel I don't process information even the same way, I just need to feel some level of stress in everything

If there are any doctors here , would want to hear what this is about and if I will ever be able to do such activities?

I have recently(past week or two) stopped smoking marijuana, and i’m not really sure what it is i am experiencing. i am okay some time and feel completely normal especially when im out with people, but other times i have this weird feeling where i don’t feel like i am me. when i look in the mirror during this time it doesn’t feel like im looking at myself but rather someone else. i also forget what i just did minutes ago. i have looked into depersonalization and it seems fairly similar to what i am experiencing, but i have tried all of the methods to snap out of it that it have found and they did nothing. i’m unsure of what to do here and what to think about this, please help me out.

Five years ago I was in a DV and SA relationship that seemed like I would never escape, so obviously my mental health was a wreck. Immediately after getting out of that I went to a doctor and mentioned, among other things, my obvious depression and anxiety. He directed me to one of their practices psych PAs who put me on Celexa. I had a two week check in and I mentioned how great I was feeling that particular day and she said that was too soon to be THAT happy and it must be a hypomanic episode so she put me on Lamotrigine because it could only be from BP. Well I don’t know anything about any of these conditions so I trust her. Keep in mind, I first went to this doctor nine days after leaving my ex so this BP diagnosis was less than a month after leaving. I keep going to her and my emotions are up and down, she gradually increases my dosage till I’m at 150mg and eventually stopped Celexa because I was having side effects I couldn’t handle. I stay at 150mg for four years and still feel ups and downs but mostly meh. This past month they stopped accepting my insurance and I made the really bad decision to stop taking my meds instead of finding a new doctor. And I feel normal. No ups or downs, not tired, unfocused, hypomanic, anxious or depressed. I feel really and truly normal. Thinking back on it of course my emotions would be all over the place that soon after leaving six years of hell, I had really good days and really really bad days. I don’t think I was hypomanic, I think I was excited about being free. Those mood fluctuations seem completely normal given the situation. So, was I misdiagnosed?

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i js can't understand how any parent could not notice a child going frm being a B - A student, always in multiple extracurriculars, going out w friends almost every day, to failing almost everything, in no extracurriculars, and never going out or talking about friends anymore. and not notice a child being high literally 24/7 right infront of them, and never eat anything, and not notice cuts and scars i barely remember to hide. howw could anybody have a kid and then not notice when they completely change and smths obviously wrong. how

My only hope was therapy, I fought weeks to get it but ended up unable to for family reasons, and now I’m wondering, if not professional help, what else can I do? How can I help myself

My ways of coping haven’t been the best, it’s easy to just pick up something sharp and feel physical pain instead of mental pain, I can’t do anything at all, doing tasks is the equivalent of going to war to my brain

But my future depends on me doing something, yet I’m not doing anything, at first it was the bigger stuff like not studying for a test or not doing any of my hobbies, now it’s barely getting out of bed, the most I do is brush my teeth and it feels like a miracle, and I’m scared my future is non existent because I’m not working on anything

My family aren’t very supportive, living with them is the reason why it’s difficult to live, so I have to work to get out, live elsewhere, and yet I can’t even do that, how can I start doing things? How can I finally start enjoying doing things

I’m tired of feeling like my only solution is dying, I attempt twice this year and I’m scared, I’m so scared I keep getting worse

i don’t really know when this all started but from what i can remember i don’t think ive felt any serious emotion or connection since i was 10. i’ve slowly started feeling less to a point where i think i’m just empty. i have lost most, if not all of my friends over the span of 2 years. i have tried everything from gambling to speeding to feel something and it just doesn’t work. a few years ago i started to hate the way i looked but it’s only been getting worse since then. right now i can’t stand to look in a mirror because i’m such a waste of an individual. i hate the way i look, i hate the way i act, i hate my tendencies, i hate everything about myself. i’m basically at an all time low and i don’t know what to do

I feel like i don't know what's going on with me I'm 34 male i have 4 kids i feel so off I'm weening myself off zoloft i am on way too much meds for someone my age i go from so much energy like too much like way too much like I feel drunk high and litterally like slap happy then I wanna cry idk how to talk about it in person I don't feel real then I feel too real i don't understand these feelings

"Wooaaahhh, big revelation there buddy.. no one's perfect" but I think about it damn near every day. Nobody I know thinks about this, or cares anywhere near as much as I do. I will never be perfect. If it was just me on this Earth, I wouldn't care, but I will eventually find a partner. I can't ever be perfect for them, they will always have an idea of the "perfect man", and I will never, ever fit it.

I don't want reassurance"everyone is perfect in their own way" I just need people to know I feel like this. I feel like I will never date just because my girlfriend might like a man even the littlest bit more than she likes me, and I couldn't live with any of that. I don't feel this is normal at all, or healthy. I feel I'm the only one who hold himself to a literally impossible standard, and then beat himself up when he doesn't reach it. How do I stop this?

For years I have been struggling with my mental health, but it has all mostly started from My self image. I’m incredibly insecure with everything about myself, my body, my voice, my hair, all of it. I know most people my age feel insecure about something, and if I told someone about it they would just think of it as me being a “moody teen”, but I’ve genuinely been feeling this way since I was at least 9. Any advice for feeling better about myself? Because I really can’t remember a time where I have liked anything about myself.

I am a 19 year old male. I’m obese and have always dealt with severe weight issues. Recently it’s caused me to develop boils and spots in my intimate areas due to how thick they are causing chaffing. And recently I have developed rough dry skin on my intimate areas making them very unkempt and in my opinion gross looking. Every second of my day is directed to trying to fix these problems with almost no progress, almost showering and lotioning 4 times a day with no results. I have no money to see a doctor with no insurance anywhere. I got fired from my job 3 months ago almost and my family is in no position to help me financially. I want to do anything else with my day but it takes up my mind knowing I can’t be anywhere I want to be intimately or career wise and it feels like nothing is going anywhere for me. And I’m afraid that when things do go my way, I’ll mess it up because I don’t know how to handle it.