I got a mssg and pic from one of my mom's old friends. The fucker did like young girls. I won't give details, but both mom and her "friends" used to call me their little retard. He then said he would like to see me again, since I'm so much fun. All I could do was cut, cry...and cut some more.

as the title says, I relapsed a few days ago but have been doing it everyday since. it had been over a month where I hadn't done it and it's only a one time thing I dnt continue but it has been worse than ever and all my teachers have been saying I look so much happier which I think is the trigger for me to start again and I want to tell someone but I dont want my mum to take away my blades or get angry at me. Another thing is that it's day one of my period and iykyk it's shit and I don't want to do this I don't want to be here anymore and I'm not going to do something drastic like try to end it because I know I can't but I just want peace and dnt want to do this anymore.

I have been getting beat down my whole life. Im kind and expect nothing in return. I try to love everyone around me, and in return, I am stepped on, and treated like im less than. It hurts. It hurts so much, and my dad calls me a pussy for not standing up for myself. I have no confidence in myself to do anything. I just freeze in the moment and I wish I didnt.

I started cutting because I hate my personality. I hate that I cant stand up for myself. I hate who I am. I try to be a good man behind doors so I can be great in public, and I get treated like garbage. I hate the way I look, and who I am. If I wasn’t such a pussy maybe id already have killed myself by now.

For now maybe cutting will give me a sense of control. Even though it barely does.

Tomorrow I’m going to the doctors or smth idrk, but I have to get my blood taken cuz my mam thinks I might have low iron I think? Idk but either way I’m getting my blood taken, as well as my brother and sister who are both older then me. I’m 14 btw. Basically, I have sh scars up my left arm and there’s a lot of them. Most are relatively healed but some are fresher. I have no idea what to do. Nobody knows about my sh in my family. I told my mam I was nervous abt getting them done and didn’t want to and she basically told me to get over it and it’s not even that bad😭 Do nurses (or whoever takes ur blood idk who) have to tell ur parents if they see smth? Ik teachers do but idk abt nurses yk. Any tips on how to hide it, idk where the bloods taken from, I’m assuming like top of my left arm yk, the cuts are basically everywhere below my elbow on my left. They’re noticeable like the nurse would definitely see them. Also do yk who’s allowed in the room? Like could I ask to do it without my mam in the room? Since I’m a minor idk. I genuinely have no idea what to do if my mam figured out. She’s really unpredictable, idk she’d either go crazy on me or else just pity me or think I’m stupid and my life isn’t that bad. I don’t want her to know, if she knew she would tell everyone in my family cuz she’d definitely tell my granny who’d tell my uncles and aunty. Like genuinely I’m so fucked at this point idk what to do. And then it’d be super awkward with my family and they’d wanna know why I do it and tbh, half the time idek why I do it myself. So yeah. Any tips on who’s gonna be in the room, if they have to tell ur parents, ideas how to cover it? Anything I mentioned above or anything you think might help me😭

I’ve been clean for 3 months today it’s been hard and I’ve had struggles especially as a teenager but I think I’m doing good

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Harmed myself, while being aware of why and wtv- ig yk. I don't think I've ever mindfully harmed myself, as a child maybe a time or two but idek why at that time.

My main question is what do I do- as of late i haven't had many urges to do so, but in general recently, it's happened. I've never gone thru with it. But I'm quite afraid sometime i may, not (re) but relapse ig-. It's rlly always confused me, does any1 have any advice, I don't necessarily fw therapy or anything which ik that makes it harder, maybe worse yk but 🤷‍♂️ is there smth that may help me when I have these thoughts?

I don't rlly have many of any ppl i trust talking to either.

Ik this is very, kinda 'idk either' type of deal- but id rlly appreciate any help yall may have! Thank u for reading.

I haven't cut in a few months...had my up days and a shitload of down days. The other day, I was in the shits, debating using, suicide or to cut. I even entertained myself while cutting. I won't give details to trigger someone, but this was my way out of using or offing myself. Today, I was seriously thinking about getting spun, just to turn my brain off for awhile. Instead, just played with my cuts and calmed myself down.

I hate long sleeves but we got to what we got to do. Do you guys knows eastier spots to cut and to hide ? Or maybe make-up technique of bandages ? I tried coverin with concealer but its so obvious. Any ideas to cut and for no one to find out?

So as the title says...I relapsed and it sucks. Not just to have to hide the cuts, but I haven't cut since I was 14 and then I fell back into it when I had to go from college dorms to commuting from home (living an hour away) then I was cleaning my room for the first time since moving back in and found the old kit...if you can call a little box with a shit ton of razors and some gauze a kit. It's so embarrassing to be 19, in college, and hiding fresh cuts. But here I am. Maybe I need to get my medicine cocktail rebalanced...

When I started cutting I hadn't realized how addicting it could be.

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I relapsed for the first time in 6 years. I see my partner this weekend and I don’t know what to do. Does anyone have any advice on how to make them heal faster?

I usually on use my dominant hand to cut therefore only cut on one arm but lately I've been feeling like it's not enough & tempted to cut on my other arm which would mean using my non dominant hand ... Obviously that makes me nervous ... Any harm reduction tips?

idk im just feeling a bit ashamed rn because ive worked so hard to ignore the urges to cut. it helped me not kms today, but that doesnt really make me feel better about it.

Quantos anos vcis tem? Qual é o gênero de vcis? Qual é a sexualidade de vcis?

I had been like four weeks clean but when I was shopping at Walmart I saw an exacto knife and bought it and now I’ve been cutting a lot. I cut my fingers and wrist and my chest and stomach.

I used a scalpel but the scars are so thin idk how to make them bigger/better other than go deeper which I'm scared to do. Is there a safer alternative?

Four months but I messed up. My family doesn't believe anything was ever wrong with me but if they could only see how horrible of a person I am if they saw what and why they'd know. I don't deserve pity but some things need to be said or they eat you alive and this is mine. I'm a horrible person and one day people will see

I told you I was a bad person You didn’t believe me “You’re only bad if you do bad things” Do you believe me now?

I started cutting again after 6 years and now I don’t remember why I stopped. Once again I’m fixated and I don’t think I can quit on my own

I've been hitting a pretty bad place lately and have been working on getting help. I started therapy which I've never done before. My next appointment is over a week away though. This is the first time I have cut in a very very long time.. I just needed that sense of control, ya know? But my boyfriend doesn't know.. im pretty sure he'd freak out and have a breakdown if he saw it.. im at his place tonight and I know he wants to have sex, but im afraid he'll see the cuts and get upset. What do I do? Do I tell him I'm not in the mood? Do I just turn off all the lights?

I'm relapsing hard at the moment like don't even have the desire to stay clean there's just too much stuff going on and this is my only outlet. Lately I've become fixated with carving words into me almost like artwork like there's quotes I like and instead of getting them tattooed I'm just like well I could just carve it into me myself. I get this is not a healthy mindset. But I also dunno how to break it?

Any ideas and how I can hurt myself?

It makes me frustrated seeing that I have no one next to me, no close friends, no partner to come home too.

I feel like shit. It seems my accomplishments haven t given me much self esteem. I still hate seeing myself in the mirror. I still find myself ugly even after getting in shape. I feel like a loser, even though I finished my studies and I got a good job. I'm missing something.

I know that seeking external validation wouldn t solve my root cause of insecurity but it wouldn t hurt. It wouldn t be this painfull.

I m not a social outcast. But I m still scared of doing the first move. Striking up a conversation with a stranger. Be it a man or a woman. It still feels like I m in highschool sometimes, and I'm lacking confidence.

I know things are gonna get better, because I m gonna keep trying. Trying to grasp for some purpose and meet new people. But right now I just want to cut myself, and slash my tights.

the hardest part of getting clean is that everything triggers urges at the beginning. knowing that i'm trying to stop makes me want to do it more, every sharp object makes me think abiut cutting, and it's the only thing i can think about.

i'm genuinely trying right now, i'm at a week. but honestly? i can't imagjne myself quitting forever. i still think i need to stop as much as i can, but i know i'm going to do it again, it's going to come back again and again

I’ve had this the to cut deeper but I can’t because of the hair on my legs and my dull knifes, and because to feel relived I need to see blood I end up cutting even more. I live with my mom and she sees all purchases I make, so it’s difficult to buy anything unless I have cash but people probably won’t let me purchase a knife because I’m still a minor, any advice?

I’m not even that sad anymore. I used to be super sad, I’m not gonna say depressed cuz I was never diagnosed or anything, when I was 12 and then had patches when I was 13, which I can hardly rember, low-key think I blocked them out tbh. I never cut, except once, instantly regretted it cuz I thought I was gonna die and didn’t do it for months. I’m 14 and started up again This may I think. and literally the longest I’ve been clean is two weeks in June then every couple days after that. But idk why I even do it tbh. I just want to so I do. I’ll try make excuses in my mind and stuff to rationalise why I do it, but tbh I have no real reason. I just do. Idk I feel like I’m crazy, idk what to do. Maybe I was influenced by my friends, I’m not saying that it’s their fault whatsoever cuz it obviously isn’t, I make the choice to cut myself, not them. But pretty much all of my best friends cut or used to cut. So idk, maybe subconsciously I saw their scars and wanted them. Idk I genuinely think I’m going insane. Like idk if I even have emotions. I feel like I force myself to feel emotions. I don’t know what I think. Maybe I’m forcing myself to think like this and all these thought aren’t even what I think. Like, I feel like I’m forcing myself to like things and people? See. I sound insane but I genuinely don’t know what’s wrong with me.

Am I crazy for cutting myself for no real reason? And thoughts on my mind and shit cuz I literally can’t understand what’s wrong with me.