I remember when I started what I liked so much was how loved and warm they made me feel. It was just like a warm hug from someone you love, and as someone who was extremely lonely, abused as a child, and unable to meaningfully connect with people even when I was alone, it was heaven. It was almost like for me the love in my life was just opioids. I was so much more physically affectionate back then. I don't use opioids much anymore and am not dependent, and it has been a while since I have taken a considerable dose.

I've noticed I'm like so emotionally numb now, as a kid all I wanted was for someone to love me, care about me, hold me, now that I have that I'm so numb to it. I know cuddling with someone is never going to feel like taking opioids, but I'm surprised it's not something I want more now. This could be for many reasons, but sex as well isn't really enjoyable, emotionally or physically. Is it possible that using high doses for too long has somehow ruined physical affection for me?

I got my hands on a script from 2008 of Opana. The pills say E613 10 on them. I have had some rare pills in my life but never like this.

Anybody know bioavailability on these? Best way to take them. There before the pandas time so there so easy to break down. They snap like a cracker

Iv got some some 100mg tapentadol. Has anyone tried it, how will it make me feel and is it recreational?

First of all I know this durg is addictive. I have 4 5mg pills after a surgery. Never done drugs, and have no idea how I'd even start to look for these to buy.

Should I take all 4 or just 2? How long does it take for them to kick in? How long does the high last? Does it have heavy withdrawls? Will I get sick while high?

I've read a bit from other posts but still don't really know. Thanks.

I've been taking this shit for 6 years now I'm 22 years old.

I have a buddy ( not me ) who’s in the hospital with me and he has a pick line in and he wants to iv seroquel. I’d imagine you’d have to filter It before pulling it up into the syringe. But will it even affect him? And if so how?

Today I am on my 5th full day of WD. Yesterday I started to notice some weird brain zaps, almost like fast electric zips in my brain. Today they have just been ongoing and I feel as if my head is just heavy. Just curious if anyone has had this before or if it's maybe something completely unrelated? It's not painful but it's very annoying. I might add that although I was on oxy and hydros hardcore, I have also been on Tramadol for the last several months. From what Ive heard Tramadol has antidepressant properties, so when your brain is WD from that it can cause these zaps.

My lighter ran out so I went to the store to get another and on the way lost it, saw these kids walking from where I think it fell and asked if they saw the case it was in. They said no but because I couldn't find it even after looking everywhere with a flash light, I think they Def picked it up. They were like 13-14 and I can't imagine if they ended up trying to smoke it anyway. But at this point I'm super depressed and I even cried, a whole gram (40$)down the drain

I've been taking these a few times a week 100-200mg and figured it was comparable to an oxycodone 10mg. Then I look at the equivalency chart and 200mg is equal to a 40mg of oxy. When I was in high school a long time ago, we had oxy 30s ("Blues") that I'd take occasionally. They were fun but I know some who went down the wrong path on them. That said, am I really taking over a blues worth of oxy when I take 200mg tapentadol?!!? Had no idea I was taking such strong doses. They do make me pass out at 200mg, so I guess I should've done more research. Really rather not put myself at risk for addiction.

Do you guys think these strength equivalencies are accurate?

Wanted a couple opinions on my method, I’ve tried smoking and chasing in fouls however cannot get the hang of it, it seems.

My method is as follows. Measure out a fixed amount of freebase, and then mix in a crushed/powdered vitamin C tablet. Ratio wise roughly 2:1 freebase to vitamin c. I then measure out a fixed volume of water. I keep mixing until all is dissolved. Then put the mixture into a nasal spray. I do this so I roughly know how many mg I’m getting per spray.

Not sure if this is doing anything or I’m doing anything wrong but surely this is a better method than just snorting the freebase alone.

Any tips if not?

So i dont take subutex daily, i take it every now and then for a high.

Which way would give me a better feeling buzz. 1. Snorting 2mg at once or 2. Staggering low doses through out the day like 0.5mg every 3 hours untill i reach 2mg.

Exit strategy

Alright so this might be a bit of a controversial post, it's definitely not drug porn and it includes doing something a lot of you would find less than GP. (Skip down a bit to get to the point and skip the back story)

Let's start with a bit of background. The past 5 years have been nothing but pressed 30's ( a lot of 30's) and great fent for the past 2 years galore. I've always worked full time and spent more than I make on drugs, as I have others who never minded supporting my habit when I'm low on cash.

This time last year I got the best job I ever had making 90k yearly and I also had the best plug I've ever had who also became my best friend in the process. This guy never had a shortage of anything and everything he got was top notch. Always. I was In heaven.

Then circumstances changed, his life got ruined and he disappeared from the radar, but not before helping me get hooked on crack for a short term that ended up with me losing that job I loved so much, not to mention the relationship problems that killed the best relationship I ever had. I was a fuckin mess.

I lost everything, stopped using rock, decided to quit everything (opiates, benzos, cocaine). I have to, its ruining my life in more than just the ways above.

So the past three months I got on food stamps, moved in with my mom (who always supported my habit but supports my decision to get clean as well), I confessed my addiction to everyone I loved and got all the support I need except money.

Its been hell but NA and all that other gay shit has helped, but still I relapse all the time. The end goal here is to go to a program which I've been putting off with every excuse in the book.

Now the real reason I'm making this post. I've been using the only plug I can find, occasionally a good one will pop up for a very short amount of time and disappear, it's been dry.

This lady plug is the worst I've ever had. She's rude as fuck, grimy, she'll hang up the phone on you when she's done talking, won't pick up if she doesn't feel like it, she'll tell you to come where she's at (never delivered once even when saying she would) only to leave before you get there and essentially have you chasing her around town, she never has a scale and tries to short you when eyeballing, and all around just no consideration for the game and her clients. She'll even sell bunk shit and say if it's not good I'll trade it out later, just call me. Then won't answer her phone.

The one thing I can give her credit on, is she trades for food stamps, and occasionally has good shit. So it's pretty impossible for me to get cash right now, but I get by. Needless to say when the first of the month comes around, I get my "fat sack" for the month, and have to hustle to stay well the rest of the month.

Now here's the kicker. The last few times she tried to short me on a sack I told her nah and she gave me some SHIT boy, hella disrespectful and talking about "I can keep your money and never sell you again" before finally breaking it off proper. She getting way too comfortable with not getting busted in the mouth.

So my stamps are coming in tomorrow. And I'm about to leave for the program in a week or so, but I want to have one last go. Usually she holds onto my card for the month because I don't use em and she takes forever to use them so whatever.

I'ma get mine.

Some of y'all think shit like this is wrong no matter what, but I've been the plug too so fuck what you think. I'ma tell her keep all the money on the card and kick down the fetty. Now I know she ain't gonna use it right away because she got like 5 people's cards. Then I'm gonna call the card in stolen and get a new one sent my way.

The rehab I'm going into asks you to bring your food stamp card or sign up in there, and I still have my own house in the mountains surrounding the city that I need to go to collect what I'll need for the next three months, not to mention just chill for a couple days and get high without my sister and recently released from prison brother bitching about me getting high.

Then I'm off to rehab, and I'll have to get those mandatory 3 days clean because I won't have a plug to rely on.

TLDR- I'ma fuck over my bitch ass disrespectful shady plug and then dip off to rehab, if I don't I won't be able to get the Mando clean time required to get in, and I gotta burn the bridge. Not to mention all the homies who use her want to see her get fucked up but I ain't like that.

Edit: I want to know what you all think about this, and if you have stories about retribution, getting back at plugs or people who wronged you, drop your comments. I'll post an update before I leave for the hab.

I take 120 and barley nod off oxy I take 180 to get a nod only got 50mg and sum Prometh how can I get atleast somewhere with it

I have been on benzos since 2018, mostly bought my own stuff, sometimes docs would prescribe it but for the past year i sometimes stole from my dad:( I figured he wouldn’t notice since he always has multiple boxes of Xanax laying around in his cabinet.

I am also addicted to Tramadol, came to my dads to sober up (and steal from his benzos:(). I am 1 day into WDs (i was taking like 500mgs per day.) I’ve never gone through wds without benzos

Now all the Xanax is gone from the cabinets, obviously he must have noticed I was stealing them.

Should I tell him that I’ve been addicted to it for years and if he could give me just a couple? I have been attending NA meetings and wanna be clean from Tramadol but benzos are a longer road for me

I know I’m a horrible person

I've got some 200mg er. Snorting is just sore.... I've chased H and IV coke and H,

Is tapentadol worth IV and or Chasing on foil?

Hey , short story, Iam on daily 140mg methadone. I really wish to find another weaker opioid that's easier to taper. And there I'm thinking about tapentadol. I got some packages with 50mg ir pills. My normal dose of methadone is 140mg. How much tapentadol will I probably (or at least) need to fight the WD Symptoms of 140mg methadone?

Been using mainly hydrocodone for 8.5 years with just a sprinkling of oxycodone and a dark and terrible trip down to the land of fentanyl/zenes.

My pill use is outta control and frankly... I cannot afford it at all. Like I literally just don't eat. Savings are obliterated. I'm planning on testing it obviously and my dealer knows I test my drugs/don't use fent anymore. I have needles n shit but I've never IVed and wasn't planning on it. Pills really don't do it anymore. It's costing me hundreds every week and heroin is significantly cheaper so...

I'm aware of the stupidity of all this, but at this point its pure economics. Not sure if I'm asking for advice or anything. Like give me some if you have it. If it tests for fent I will flush it cuz I just can't with that shit again.

I have had experience with DHC and codeine, love the chilled feel good feeling. Can any recommend anything little stronger with the same kind off effects I have access to the DW so can look around

I just done this stuff 3-4 times but everytime high doses.I never felt the feelings people talk about.Yesterday I said f it and ate 120mg over the time of 3 hours.Finally I felt what people feel.I enjoyed the high pretty much and it lasted for a good amount of time.But the problem is today I felt terrible.Like the worst hangover ever.Very very bad headache and I feel extremely tired and nauseous.Im feeling those right now.How long does these effects last?This shit really doesnt worth the high

Anyone had any experience with using Kaiser for withdrawal and recovery treatment?

Oxy got too expensive and I switched 7oh, but quickly climbed to about 5-7 then regularly 10 tabs a day in less than 2 months of use. It really fucked up my tolerance and I'm not even getting a high now. Tried oxy again this week instead of 7oh because I hate some of the 7oh side effects, and I went thru ten 10s and twenty 5s in less than 2 days and never felt a high, barely felt well. That was a waste of money. I went back to the 7oh tabs yesterday and don't feel like I'm going to jump off a bridge anymore.

I'm over feeling like shit, not being able to get high, and the money disappearing. This life is already too expensive.

I ordered the liposomal vitamin C everyone has been posting about but I know I'm going to need more than that. Just curious if anyone had any experience using Kaiser for treatment? I still don't know if I'm ready to get OUD put on my medical history.

He woke up suddenly and in his cloudy state noticed two things: he was in his desk chair and the darkness suggested late evening or night. The time on his laptop read 21:30 which undoubtedly meant he'd missed all of his University lectures. No matter, there are more important things. He spun around to survey the rest of his room and recognised the presence of his stomach contents lounging in the bin in the corner. "Fantastic" he thought "it's no wonder I'm losing weight." He also noticed a marginally pink tinge to it but filed it away in his mind as *you're colour-blind, it's probably nothing.* He'd been doing that for months. Ignorance was paramount to a comfy life.

Wake up call for sure. I was being stipid with the amount I took.

I also don’t want this to impact my current prescriptions including benzodiazepines and lyrica.

I'm better now but there are things I haven't told anyone and I really don't think they'd fully understand. So I'm doing it here. Let me know if any of it resonates.

"He stumbled his way through the partially lit house, making his way to the narrow, steep staircase. He took a short pause before assaulting it in short exasperated puffs. "It shouldn't be this difficult" he moaned to himself before finally reaching the door to his room. He fumbled through his keys and made his way through the sad, hollow excuse offered as protection in this accommodation, collapsing onto the bed. Shaking and trying desperately to get his breath back, he reached into his pocket and pulled out a box. "Thank fuck" he thought. 30 minutes later all was right with the world."

There's context missing but I think that's fun.

I’m about a week give or take a day or two on methadone , (45mg) why does it feel like it takes so little to get me bricked up? Also my penis looks and feels an inch bigger? I’m also cumming super fast , how long will this last

Last night i did 200mg oxy and literally barely felt it i had 2 days off it and before that i did 80mg so it wasn’t like my tolerance is massively high i chewed 3 40mg’s and sniffed the other 2 and even though people say taking orally is better for some reason it really doesn’t hit the same for me i don’t know if it’s because i didn’t smoke as much bud or what but does anyone know why this is?

Can you cook morphine sulphate ampoules and snort like you do with ketamine vials? I dont inject so just wanted to find out if alternative methods are possible. Perhaps orally? 15mg/1mg.

I normally smoke my tar. How do I go about slamming it? Dosage? What do I mix it with?

I’m still on MAT, 60mg to be exact, but at least want to start the schooling now. I know we have plenty of folks in recovery in here- has anybody go down a similar track to help people? I just feel it’s my calling… and if I’m being honest, I need a career. I started using right after HS, I’m 32 now & I just feel life Passing me by. I’m scared of being a failure & bum my whole life- it’s been weighing on me heavily lately, which is why I thought this would be a good fit. I’ve always be the “ help others” type- very empathetic. It’s just the schooling ins cares of. I’m severely ADHD & regular school was hard enough with out my Adderall. I’m not on that currently, so I feel like I’ll fail.

At the end of schooling, I just want to help addicts get clean. Be actively in the streets, & in the office. Idk if that would fall under this specific program I’m looking at, but if not, please give me suggestions.

I’m based out of Maryland, if that helps!

What’s up y’all just came in here to share some motivation to everybody struggling thinking they can’t get thru it. For context I have been doing Oxy consistently for about 3-4 years now. Since 2021 I haven’t gone longer then 5 days without it. Now I wasn’t your typical user who needed it all day to function I could go up to 48 hours no use at all and be fine doing construction work. However once the is up I’m going strait to use. Since January of this year I started using more due to a lot of shit in my life and I would use every other day. So for example for the last 9 months my schedule would be.. Monday night.. Wednesday Night.. Friday night.. and then prolly Saturday too. So since Jan my body has been use to that schedule. Sometimes I’d go on like a 7 day binge too and then take like 2 days off. But whatever just wanted to give context of my use I wasn’t a every day user but over the past 3-4 years there wasn’t a stretch longer then 4-5 days I took a tolerance break… well now I’m currently about to put on probation and have to piss clean. Now I don’t need to get clean rn I still have a lot of time but I wanted to see if I could before I HAD TO.. and man I’m on day 7 rn and I thought I was gonna be going thru hell but beside my mental everything is GOING TO BE FINE MAN.. this sht is 90% mental man unless ur doing like 1000mg a day. Just strap ur boots on get ready for a shitty week or 2 but it’s worth it at the end. Teach yourself discipline. Teach yourself control. We are MEN!! If you can’t get this in control your in for a long ride rest of your life. Get your hands on the problem as fast as u can so u get thru it don’t just throw the problem on the shelf so it comes around later.. y’all got this man just find something to keep u happy and out that dark space and y’all be fine!

i don’t have syringes or access to any right now, am i able to just insert pills rectally as opposed to boofing them? they’re 15 mg extended release. or would i be better off just taking it orally? i have 0 tolerance if that changes anything