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Now yeah we know that majority of these cases are staged and scripted all that but like just curious (got me thinking given that it has series like that) so like in yo honest opinion guys what`s the likedhood that some parents did (or perhaps do still occasionally) had a threesome with the babysitter and that some mom had sex with some of her son`s friend(s)? Or perhaps would you say that the likehood is way more to be just as they are a jack off fantasy.

And also in your opinion what`s the likehood that there exist some parents who had (or still have) threesomes with some of their friends and/or had some kind of orgy? Perhaps some rich couples who had(have) that kink or?

I don’t mean “Scientists discovered a way to do thing that might bring wooly mammoths back” news, I mean “x thing just happened, prepare for Baby Boomer 2: Electric Boogaloo economy and your life to be infinitely easier” news. Life is disappointing.

It’s because it took me so many years to find the perfect girl and I screwed up. This is mostly a rant or a vent just letting my thoughts out. If you take the time to read, great, i would love to hear everyone’s thoughts. If not keep scrolling and I hope everyone is having a great day.

TLDR: choose the wrong girl, realized far too late, and lost my best friend, tried dating since, no other girl even comes close to her.

I met her last year and was instantly attracted to her. Just being around her made me happy. We grew close, talked on the phone or text eachother a lot. We became very important to eachother and care about eachother a lot. Problem was she was already dating someone else. Would talk to me about her problems with him sometimes but I’m not someone who’s going to “steal someone’s girl.” So I decided to just be a friend and let it go. After a few months I met another girl. Didn’t talk as much, but she was cute, funny, smart, and goal oriented. Met her through the same circle of friends I met the first girl. Everyone knew me and the second girl, let’s call her T, where “talking” and both were into eachother.

Before T and I ever did anything or made it official, the first girl, J, brakes up with her boyfriend, and immediately comes over for emotional support. We end up hooking up and she stayed the night. Goes without saying I was happy af.

J and I talked only once about dating after that. We already meant so much to eachother and we were good for eachother and now we know physically we are very much compatible. She told me straight, that now I had to make a choice between her and T and I had to make it soon.

My overthinking got the better of me. All of our friend group, including T and J were supposed to be going on a trip in only a couple weeks. Everyone knows about me and T. No one knows about me and J hooking up. I didn’t want to hurt T. I didn’t want everyone to judge and hate J. I don’t want the drama.

So….even though I wanted J more than anything…I choose T.

The trip came up, and my plan, in my own fucked up mind, was to play it off like I was as a bad choice for her. Dont start up a relationship and make it seem like it was her idea to break things off. Then, after a few weeks, go after J.

Unexpectedly though, J found another man. I hate myself for it, but that’s when i decided to try and make T and I work. the entire time, secretly hoping we’d fail. J even told me she’s not expecting the other guy, N, to last, that it was just a casual fling. So I decided to bide my time. Stay with T so I wasn’t alone until J was available again.

That didn’t happen. The “fling” turned into a relationship. And T and I failed. After some time I did try to make it work. Be the best boyfriend I could be. But her depression and insecurities caused her to self sabotage the relationship. So when she wanted out, I just let her go. This was back in May. And today, J is still with N.

I tried being a good friend. I really did. But feelings for her only grew. The jealousy ate at me. The self regret of choosing the wrong girl and i should have just communicated what I actually wanted. I have only met N a couple times and while I don’t think they are a good match, he seems to be genuinely good to her. And as jealous as I am, I can’t hate him. She’s happy. And her happiness is all that really matters. It’s all I wanted for her.

J and I started to fight a lot. Growing distant. My best friend was drifting away. Then we finally sat down and talked. I confessed to her, she told me back then she really wanted me to choose her. I think she only went after N cause I choose T. The same thing I did, not wanting to be alone. It hurt her that I didn’t choose her. She wasn’t expecting it to last but now they are talking about kids and moving in together and told me that if he proposed today she’d say yes. It broke me. And we both decided at that moment it best to never be friends again.

I made so many mistakes I regret. And she was everything that I wanted and more. I have genuinely never met a girl like her. We have not spoken since September, and despite how this post sounds, I am over her. I have been trying to get out there. Going on dates. Learning from my mistakes and actually trying to go after what I want, not over think, and communicate more.

But something I’m starting to come to terms with, is I will never find someone like her again. I can’t just settle. It’s not fair to whoever my next partner is if I’m thinking “but she could be better..” It took me so long to find this one, who knows how long it will be before I find another like her. And even if I do, would I even deserve her? Would I be good enough? Honestly I doubt it. And she set such a high bar for me that, every other girl pales in comparison in my eyes.

So, I have come to terms with the fact that I may never find love. I’ll grow old by myself. It sounds sad, I know, but, now that I’ve realized this, weirdly enough, I’m ok. Like, it’s kind of liberating? Like I don’t have to worry about it anymore. I don’t have to try anymore. I can focus on my self. I do think I’m a good person just made mistakes. But we all do right? It’s what makes us human. Love isn’t meant for everyone. It is strange though. Like, finding women ain’t hard for me. I usually jump from one relationship to another or at the very least I’m talking to someone. But now? Shoot I was just at a concert the other weekend and this really cute girl tried talking me and I blew her off. I don’t do that. I’m talking to no one. I’m just. Done.

For background my mom (60 years old woman) a mother of 3 boys and whit alot of life experience spoken whit me when we want on a walk ..we spoke about life and stuff mainly about relationship . And in some point she (i don't know how we arrived there) she told me: "kid. In my 60s years of life i understood that a man marries 2 types of woman . His mother and the complete opposite of his mother"

I aksed : when did you started to read froid

She answered : who the fuck is froid

Nothing more i just found it extremely funny and worrying.

For context, I’m a 2nd year medical student and I finally get some time to myself after a hectic week of exams, and instead of relaxing, I spend the first hour stressing over how to make the most of it. Should I watch that new show? Read that book? Take a nap? And then suddenly, half the time is gone, and I’m more stressed than before.

Please tell me I’m not alone in this. How do you guys actually enjoy your downtime without feeling guilty or overwhelmed?

Last year, around November, I met a guy online from a video game. We talked a lot and eventually became pretty good friends. As the months went by, I started to develop feelings for him. It was not until May that I decided to tell him. He still wanted to be friends, but he was also interested in me and wanted to get to know each other more. We occasionally flirted with each a lot and exchanged I love yous. Before I told him that I'm a VERY shy person. I rarely used my mic or camera during our calls. He was perfectly okay with that and didn't want to pressure me to do something I'm not comfortable with.

Two months later, while we were in a call, we were both telling each other how much we loved each other and wanted to be together. In the next hour, without warning, he said he wasn't comfortable being with me anymore. In his words, he said, "I want to be in love with you, but it feels more like saying I love you to a computer program. I feel too detached." I was heartbroken and devastated. I asked him why he had led me on for so long, and if those I love yous meant nothing to him. He told me that he truly wanted to love me and wanted me to change. He saw that I was making changes, but he wished for more and ran out of hope.

I loved him, and I tried my best to improve myself. I know that I didn't use my mic or camera that much, but I was slowly getting more comfortable around him. I wish he had told me about this sooner instead of breaking my heart and ditching me like this. It's only been 2 months, and he already gave up on me.

This isn't the first time something like this happened. A month before we agreed to hang out in a call. The next day, I asked him if he wanted to call. He was already on a call with a friend. I asked if he was going to be free afterward and he didn't want to call me because he was much closer with the person than he was to me. I kid you not, he told me "For starters, I can hear her voice when we call, as opposed to reading every message. As it stands, she's higher on my call priority list." I was balling my eyes out because that shit was so hurtful. Is me texting really that bad?! I'm just really bad at talking to people. Using my camera or mic is like moving mountains for me. I don't know why it's so difficult for me to just press the button and talk like a normal person. That's why I feel more comfortable doing text. It was only when he heard from my friend that he apologized to me, saying he'll do better.

It's been 5 months since we cut ties, but I still think about the things he said to me. I know that I shouldn't waste my time thinking about him, but no matter what I do, his words would always come back to me. It makes me hate the why I am. I hate how I have a hard time communicating with others, and I hate how my shyness ruins everything. I'm just so sad and hurt.

as of 2024? And also is there any truth by some claims from some men who said how in columbia or mexico or in czech can be found quite unusual offers from hookers (can some of the following such as, gangbang, foursome or fivesome + sexual roleplay or ffm with twins/sisters or mom + daughter combo or public sex)?

Given that the "infamous" dellai twins film in czech or would u say that these things are way more likely only in porn and quite difficult to find hookers that would do that (as is porn as u know a fapper fantasy and as u know only betas jack off and the more often u cuck yourself the bigger the loser u are)

So if u have info on any of the questions feel free share it. Asking for a friend btw.

I'm currently living with my mom and her boyfriend. My whole life i've been terrified of upsetting my family, since they were really judgmental and mean. I think they're all very snobby, and of course I've always wanted to be the exact opposite, since I was into emo music and skate culture. When I was 18 I got a nose piercing and my family were so weirded out it was awful. I kept it in for a few months but was insanely self conscious about it.

Because of these issues with my family, I've never been able to develop myself. For my whole life I've found it easier to just give up and try to blend in with my brothers and all their friends, even though I'm still weird and I never fit in. So I've always been surrounded by people who treated me badly and was too afraid of "finding my people." The real problem is that now if I meet someone I have a lot in common with, I have NO way to connect with them. I don't fit in with MY people either at this point.

Now I'm 23 and finally starting to give less of a shit. But since I'm still living with my mom, a lot of it bothers me, either making me really anxious or really mad. As she's gotten older she's become more racist and bigoted (she used to be the most progressive one in the family). Her boyfriend is a far-right veteran which doesn't help. It seems like the only way she reacts to things is with disgust or fear.

We went to a record store the other day, I was reading the back of Blood Visions by Jay Reatard (google it if you want) and I put it down and kept going, then my mom sees it and goes "Ew!!" Then she proceeds to get scared by the sunny day real estate song that just came on the speakers and says it's time to go. It's incredibly frustrating because she's basically a David Bowie superfan, and she used to play My Chemical Romance for us as kids. Now everything is too "scary" for her. Whenever I happen to wear all black or anything that isn't "business casual" she acts freaked out. She said an Everclear song sounded "satanic." An indie song on my playlist is named "The Devil in His Youth" and my mom saw it and went "Ew!! That's scary!"(despite her liking plenty of other songs with Devil in the title.) For some reason music examples are all I can think of now, but it happens with everything.

So what bothers me about this so much is that its like she thinks I'm some child of satan or something. And she's always judging me harshly for everything because of this. And I still care because I feel like I upset her for every insignificant thing I do now. I don't want to dress how I like because she will comment about it or act all worried. I don't want her seeing the music or movies I like. I don't want her ever meeting my friends or people I date unless they're some catholic girl.

So idk what to do. I've tried expressing my annoyance and she just says she's old and she doesn't understand kids my age. She's not willing to understand or change. So I just have to stop caring about what she thinks, but I still feel immensely guilty whenever I do something she wouldn't approve of.

I hate seeing men but flowers for their (presumably) girlfriends/wives because it makes me feel so worthless in comparison. I know this is dumb. Seeing those acts of love just makes me wonder what it is about me that makes me so undeserving of those little “just because” gifts. It seems like every time I go grocery shopping there’s a man buying flowers, or even buying JUST flowers and nothing else

Me (23f) never dated or kissed someone before, at first i thought i was okay by being single forever. But lately i feel really sad that i have no experience, and have never dated, how do guys seem someone with no experience whatsoever like

I’m struggling to come to terms with the fact that I’ve squandered my young adult and college years. I just turned 22 and I’m gonna be graduating college this way. In my entire time doing my undergraduate degree I have not made a single friend. I have not been to a single party. I have not gone on a single date. I have done literally nothing but school and work while other people have made the memories that will last a lifetime and friends that they’ll likely talk to for ever. Not to mention most people meet their significant other at college. I got none of that. I went to community college to save money and then picked a four year school I ended up absolutely hating to finish my degree in. I have not been happy in years. I know this is all my fault but it still hurts.

I have no friends, no social life, no fond memories. I spend all my time alone. I sit in class alone. I sit in the library alone. I sit in the dining hall alone. I sit in the study rooms alone. I stand working at the counter alone. I am literally always alone. And it traps me with my thoughts that torture and cause me agony. I think back to the fact that I’ll never experience what it’s like to be a freshman and move into college for the first time and start a new life and be independent. I’ll never know what it’s like to make a friend and progress through college with them or to rent a college apartment as a senior. I’ll never know what it’s like to go to a college party or a bar with friends or meet a girl at school. All of this is so far out of reach for me. And now it’s over. I’ll never get these years back. In hindsight all of done at every opportunity was make the wrong choice. I’ve flushed the best years of my life down the toilet. I have nothing to show for the past 4 years of my young adult life.

I feel like I never got the chance to be young. I never got to grow up. I never got to leave home. I never got to really go to college in the traditional sense. I’m not ungrateful for what I do have, but I know for a fact I’ve wasted my time and have missed so many milestones. I feel as if I’m the definition of a loser. I feel that my life will only get worse from here. My only chance at being young and I let it all slip away. I have no stories from college. I have no memories. I have nothing to look back to or grow from. I have nothing to be proud of. I know I made a bad choice and it’s my own fault. I know that. But I find it hard to cope anymore. I’m gonna experience the final Christmas break of my life in a week. Then my final semester and that will be the end.

In all honesty, I’m grieving a life I never had.

part of it is my fault. up until VERY recently I've been scared to speak up for myself. i overthink and overapologize. I'm seen as optimistic and bubbly by many, and I love talking about the little things that make me happy. i mumble and I'm scared to make out of pocket jokes. i speak like a child around my family because I'm scared I'll get called out for speaking with the "wrong tone".

but sometimes, people will just be assholes. my family of nurses has dismissed my medical issues- physical and mental- many times. i live in my body and I know when something's off, but NO, I'm just being dramatic, or, I need to pray, or "nothing's wrong".

what's more common is people being condescending towards me. it's happened since I was 10. people act like I'm this sweet little cherub and shield me from "innapropriate" topics. its so damn annoying.

its funny, because in theory I could be intimidating. I'm tall for a girl, and I have a strong RBF and broad shoulders. i have a very straight posture from choir, and my voice can get deep. but my personality and anxiousness just ruins it all.

ugh.

Can anyone help me with what that blog post is that’s all about those people who are always “I don’t know what I did wrong/why so and so has cut me out of their life/I’ve never done anything to them” etc etc type thing.. have seen it referred to a few times in AITAH posts.. does anyone know what I’m talking about/can help? Thanks!

Long story short, been talking to this girl for a while, she’s been playing hot and cold, doesn’t phase me. Got jealous when I took her friend out.. so I took her out on one day date last week (Wednesday). Saturday night she asks me to come over Wednesday to help her install a mirror and other home stuff… she even asked me this a while ago, but we never got around to it. So I’m going tomorrow, how should I approach this? Play it cool, make a move? FYI: We haven’t kissed yet.

I'll go first. I used to be a heavy drinker. Not so much anymore but after a binge I would wake up to many drunk texts that I sent the night before. Some to people I haven't spoken to in years or even since highschool. It would be the most random stuff also. There's something about doing that, that makes me cringe sometimes daily just thinking about it. Many soured relationships because of it.

It is for a female if that helps! But I’m interested in both more masculine and feminine nicknames. I’ve always hated my name and want to try something new, having a hard time finding something I like! Thanks!

I'm tired, guys. I just got out of another heartbreaking relationship and it's time -- It's time to give myself all the love I've poured out on others over the last decade. It's time to go deep and heal wounds. It's time to gain the confidence to face the world so that I don't waste the one shot I have on this floating Space Rock mired in depression and anxiety.

I want to find beauty and do things on MY terms. I'm scared, but you don't grow by staying put.

I just booked a solo trip to Maui in January. I canceled it once before but spent a day regretting it. So here I am again. I am grateful I have the means to make a trip like this happen.

Hawaii here I come.

I’ve been entranced listening to music and podcasts in my open time. I have been trying to work on myself. I’m looking forward to 2025. I’m in rough shape overall but I’ve been in worse to be fair. I pray every night hoping that helps. I can’t wait for the semester to be over so I can switch my focus to something exciting. It’s like the light at the end of the tunnel for 2024. I’m struggling just as much as the next guy but my friends and family are my life savers.

I am happy with my progress on my weight and strength. I have been doing quite well. I wish I could cook easier but I will be able to soon. Experiment with some ideas I have for recipes. I’m excited to be able to learn to shift “again”. I’ve been doing good with my guitar. I’ve enjoyed reading more often. I should be happier but I don’t think I much am. It’s sort of a mask but nowhere to go but up. Listening to David Goggins helps a bunch. I’ve been writing down a bunch of motivational quotes which help.

I haven’t touched fast food since October which is cool. I can tell I’ve lost weight in the mirror. It’s a good mental boost. I wish I had a crystal ball sometimes to help when the stress hits hard but I guess I’ve got two magic pills to help with that lmao. I have to stay focused, finish classes hard, lose the weight hard, and find my happiness. I think I can finally say I Love Myself. I haven’t hated myself in years but I’ve been apathetic toward myself for a long time. I need to give myself credit where credit is due. I do and am capable of a lot of great things. I struggle and still have a long way to go but am working on things.

My life motto since about 2020 is constant improvement above all else. I have always disliked it when people ignore their problems and choose to not improve their situation. Sometimes people don’t know which is a different situation but you can’t stay ignorant to it forever.

I’ve done a great service to myself in the fact that I have stuck to my ways and strived for improvement even when the going gets tough.

There are days where I don’t want to get out of bed, not go to the gym, not do hw/work. But I have to, so I force myself and get it done so I can enjoy the free time. Do I sometimes use that time to revel in the pain. Yes and that’s okay I’m feeling my emotions out rather than holding it in like I used to. I’m still devastated from something I’m not supposed to mention anymore. I have myself and that is enough. I’m happy that I love myself.

There are still things I need to work on but I’ve been on meds for a couple months almost and going to therapy for a month. I wish I could fix my sleep 100% but that shit happens. I’m just glad I’m almost done with the semester and I’m gonna finish strong.

Then I can breathe a little easier. Until then I have my music, my friends, and myself. I’m grateful for what I have. I try to not be sad often but it happens. It’s okay to be sad and to vent. I don’t like to bother my friends and family so here I am on reddit. I don’t know everything but I do know you are what you think about. I’ve never been easy on myself. I have always thought I can do and should be doing better. That’s how I was raised, what you give is never enough and you need to give more and stop failing. The thing is that’s not gotten me too far other than having bad anxiety that I hold inside. I think positively as much as possible no reason to be negative and waste energy on that. I enjoy attempting to be an all time optimist.

I still need work on myself but I will get there. If I need to vent that’s okay. A fake smile is still better than a frown.

https://open.spotify.com/track/2r5seNRSheLITyH4cevy2O?si=s86L9HQLSYqD799RTVIFiw

I first got into call of duty during modern warfare 2. It was the first online multiplayer game I ever played. Being able to go online and play against other players really piqued my interest especially since it was a shooter. it was so fascinating to me that these were actual people in the world and i think that was the main selling factor for the franchise post-COD 3. I always enjoyed the mechanics and the competitive nature of the game. I didnt care about unlocking any camos or perks or prestiging. I just wanted to unlock a gun that i liked and all of the attachments that I liked. The only fun i got out of the game was trying to win. I bought pretty much every call of duty game from modern warfare 2 up until black ops cold war with the addition of black ops 6. Each installment had its quirks, both positive and negative. But overall I had fun. With each release around black ops 3 and beyond it felt like developers were more and more overlooking obvious issues with the core mechanics in the game in favor of adding DLC, battle bass content, miscellaneous microtransaction content, or basically anything not having to do with the playability of the game. To give one example, Most recently, in black ops 6, there has been a major issue with the leaderboard in the game mode Free for All where you would score the required amount of points needed to win but the game would still count it as a loss. This issue has been in the game since launch in October (along with a free beta before that) yet they have already added battle pass stuff, skins, camos, and several other updates to the game and left this along with several other playability issues completely unchecked. But this isnt really the straw that broke the camel's back. The community has a major issue with not playing the objective in their respective game modes. Why is it like this? because the community has almost collectively shifted it's focus away from winning the game to getting enough score to unlock camos. Win or lose? doesnt matter to them, they just need enough headshots to unlock all the camos for one gun and then they repeat the process for the next one. It isnt just the fault of the community. The developers could easily make the camo unlocks objective based but to them that takes time and energy away from what they really wanna do which is come up with more skins and other battle pass BS they can sell you. Then it basically dawned on me that the developers dont make this game for people like me. They make the game for the people who wanna do nothing but grind camos and grind the battle pass. So what does it matter to them that free for all is broken when the playerbase doesnt even care if they win or lose? I made a mistake trying to re-enter this community with black ops 6. They got me with their advertising. The new movement system reminded me of another game called double action boogaloo and i thought that it would reinvent movement in call of duty when in reality the game plays out basically the same as it always has. Its such a shame because somewhere buried under all these issues is a great game, but people dont value playing it for the love of the game and because of it, the quality of the game suffers. The devs are focused only on what will keep the game alive enough to squeeze as much money as possible out of people. This kind of thing is why I stopped playing after black ops cold war and why I shouldve just stayed out of it all together. This is going to be it for me and call of duty. I just cant support a development team that purposefully makes the gaming experience this bad, especially at $70 per game.

Does anyone know how to get a bank to hand over a custodian account with no trouble? My mother is the custodian and will not sign it over to me and there's quite a bit in there that I worked my ass off to make. I'm not struggling to make ends meet but I am not leaving that money there for her to hold over me anymore. I turned 21 a few months ago and I'd really rather avoid any court or lawyer trips if that's a possibility. Thanks for reading.

To begin, two things:

1. I am an individual with a fairly accurate social radar. I can tell what a person is feeling, and sometimes what they may be thinking. I can read people easily enough.

Queues come easy. People drop conversational hints. It’s quite blatant. I follow them. I go where they want the conversations to go. If they insinuate that they’re excited, I inquire. If they insinuate that they’re sad, I inquire. I give concern. Depending on the person and/or their mood, I give support or advice.

2. I am a low value individual. I find attributes can often be grouped into three categories— mental, physical, and social. A bit videogame-esque, but it works for me. When someone is boring, they can at least be smart or pretty. When someone is ugly, they can be smart or funny. When someone is dumb, they can be pretty or funny. Some people have positive attributes all around the board. Some have all negatives. That would be me.

With that established, it’s no surprise that others would either overlook and/or ignore my emotional needs. There is very little that I bring to the table. Truthfully, I’m lucky to be at a table in the first place. It’s just irritating and a bit hurtful that they don’t even try.

It can’t be ignorance. My friends are intelligent and observant.

Can it be that they just don’t care? That would track.

Truthfully, I’m just tired of being the one to reach out. It’s not even that I do it often. It’s just that no one else does it for me at all.

Womp womp womp

I wake up peacefully everyday. In good company. Myself ☺️

Waking up is the ultimate privelege.

I go about my day with clarity and peace. Each day my bond with myself grows deeper and I become more at peace.

No distractions, I can just dedicate my whole being to my soul aligned purpose. So blessed 🥰

I'm sick of lying to myself - being happy is easy.

Just don't think the thoughts that make you feel like shit.

Just wake up smile to yourself, wow I'm glad to be alive. Life is great.

Think about how good it will be if I manage to find some food and water, if I can manage that I'll be happy.

I am happy 😊

Life is not hard. I'm sick of lying to myself.

Life is so easy.

What comes after this life is 10x harder

I might as well enjoy the rest of being such a simple being such as human.

I would literally KILL before we became the "51st" state. I'm getting deleted off the Canadian forums for being too crass (fucking L O L) but I am not kidding. Doesn't the US itself have very specific guidelines if this were to happen to them?

My ex mid twenties 27M and myself also mid twenties 25F dated for around 7 months until he broke up with me. It was never really about losing feelings or not seeing a future but more of so because of his very challenging issues. We didn’t speak for around 6 months until we ran into each other couple times. The last time I ran into him his family members were there too and were actively trying to get me to go out with him again and just see how it is and how we feel. ( i guess they all spoke about it?) He then invites me to go out , which his family members knew about and that’s what they were sort of pushing me to go to. He kept on texting how excited he is and that he’s looking forward to seeing me. Everything went fine and he told me couple times that he had a good time. Nothing related to reconciliation was brought up which i was happy about since i enjoy his company but not to get back. Couple days later i was in his area so I asked him to get tea to which he gladly agreed. He then however proceeded to ask as to why did I ask him to meet up and that he was surprised to receive my text. I guess my question is why is he acting surprised to hear from me when we literally met up a couple days ago , it’s not that it was out of the blue. I also feel like whenever someone asks “Why did you want to meet up?” they have some sort of an answer that they are expecting. This is the second time he asks me that question, and I have a feeling he’s looking for me to say that I want to get back or something like that, since I feel like ( might be wrong ) that’s what he wants and this whole inviting out thing and asking me why I wanted to meet up is a way to test the waters and see where I stand. But funny enough, he has never explicitly said it himself. I don’t have an intention of getting back with him, more so if someone can shed some light on this situation and his behavior?

TL;DR I reconnected with my ex after six months apart, encouraged by his family. After meeting twice, he questioned my intentions for reaching out, possibly testing the waters for reconciliation.

We've been together 10 months now and everything has been smooth as butter, she (24F) is poly and bi while I (22M) am a regular straight dude, from our first date I felt something special that had me turn down my other date at the time.

Now 10 months later things are stil as exciting but different each time we meet (up to three times a week, with her travelling 24 miles round trip every time, with a ride home by my parents as late night trains can be sketchy and they are cool parents.

Most of our time we just spend sharing eachother's hobbies and interests, most of which end up to be mutual or adjacent. For example I do 3D printing and she loves painting figures. So I now have someone to paint all my unpainted 3d prints into real beauties.

We both still look forward to each new 'date' like it's one of our firsts (though we still both need our own space, naturally.) I can't wait for another 10 months of life with my beautiful chef and I know she can't wait for the same with me, flaws and all, and I can't express how much I love her for that, and more.

Long Post. I also have to say that i live in EU, Romania.

I feel like I should have never been born

24M I have never had a relationship.... never even had a date. Its not that i am ugly, or fat, or that i smoke, an alcoholic, do drugs, gamble or being abusive and violent. Its none of the above, its something far worst than that. I am a super introvert, I am more of a loner, very shy especially at start and not good at doing the first step and that is the worst thing i think a guy can be.

I have seen so many people that are addicted to gambling that still get a girlfriend that either helps them to fight against the addiction or, in case it fails, break up after months of trying, but they still got it. It really makes me feel that being a lonely guy with no friends is the worst thing a guy can do.

I have always wanted a meaningful relationship since i was 14, I am 24 now and I never went on one single date. Since my first year at uni i realized that I will always be alone and then a small "depression" hit me. I gave up on life. I couldn't focus on my studies anymore ( I was studying programming), and from a guy who was able to learn and do good in school I began to be the worst in this aspect. I had to repeat a whole year and i had to postpone my degree by one more year, so it took me 5 years to finish a university that should have taken 3 years. At the end of it did i learn anything? No, my knowledge is the same as it was 5 years ago, I have no chance to find a job in my field and if I ever want to find one I need two more year to study from 0. But that wont happen, because I cant study at all. I can't do anything

I am stuck. I still live with my parents and i make around 400euros per month, but it doesn't matter since I don't use the money for anything. I have a driver license but I didn't drive for 4 years. All my hobbies are home oriented, the usual like gaming, anime, history but there are times when I would like to travel but I know this won't happen.

I tried to force myself to be social but it didn't work out in the end, because nothing that you have to force yourself to do will ever do. I tried to force myself to be more social at work during the break time and speak with people ( most of them are my age ) and I tried to say yes when I was invited by my work to go and have like a pub eat and drink event ( I went twice ) , but now I just can't force myself to do it anymore. I don't go out during the break to socialize, I got bored of it and I just cant force myself anymore. As for the events, i declined the last two because I just couldn't go anymore. Don't get me wrong, they are great guys and great coworkers, I am just not interested and I have never been interested in socializing, I just don't find myself there.

All my life, I never felt the need of having friends, especially around 14 16 years old. I know a lot of people view this as a strange thing, but for me is enough to just chat a little bit online and I am done, my social battery is fully charged. What I wanted was a relationship, a meaningful one, one that we as a couple could put time and try to work togheter to create something for the future that will last. Somebody who can love me for who I am and that I can feel safe around and also love back and make sure she feels the same. But I know I will never have one. It doesn't help that I also have standards, not that I am looking for the most beautiful girls in the town, but I also can't say that I am very desperate even if I sound so.

I feel its too late especially for someone like me. Most people met their partners at university. I feel that a lot of good girls ( not all of course ) are already taken especially at this age. Not to say that my 0 experience is seen as a red flag. I have seen many times girl saying that it is a red flag that being a virgin at this age for them is a red flag. Adding to this the fact that I am such an introverted guy made me realize that my hope is gone and I have started to become more and more sad as the years passed. I tried dating apps also for 3 months, Bumble, Boo, Tinder and of course 0 dates.

Right now I can say I am just stuck. I can't study, I can't even enjoy my hobbies like gaming as I used to, I don't smile as I used to and to be honest, darker and darker thoughts come in my mind ( I did try to seek professional aid, nothing helped, and they said that drugs are out of question as I don't really have depression ).

People often say, get out of your comfort zone but I just don't understand it. Why force myself to do something I don't like, put on a fake mask just to attract somebody? Sooner or later they will find out about my real self anyway and then they will leave. I already tried to do it once, at work trying to be more social and well it didn't work out. Actually, it hurt me more because it made me even more depressed.

I feel like i don't belong in this world and this is not me blaming the world or forcing it to be like me, its just that i feel like I shouldn't have been born in the first place. Right now I can't do anything and sometimes I wonder when will come a day when everything will end. I am so sad, I dont even have tears to cry anymore

After 28 years, here I am at the hookah bar by myself. I haven't done this stuff since I was a teenager. I had a craving and decided to go out and think some things over.

I only ever seem to be comfortable alone. I am content like that. But it's not the answer.

I am entering the hardest industry in the world and finding myself changing. Becoming hardened and cutthroat. Somehow becoming more alienated than I once was.

I never perfectly fit in with any group of people. I was always behind the curve of something or another. I never fully identified with anything or anyone.

I haven't been close to anyone in years but I'm not terribly upset at that. I do have regrets; in my mission to protect myself, i seem to have become an island.

But mark my words, I will get mine and I will win. Even if the shisha is the only one who believes me.