I work with the general public and let me tell you some people have absolutely no manners and come off immensely arrogant. I am in a leader position so I tend to be the go to when my crew needs me to deal with difficult situations, usually I’m pretty calm and collected rarely do I allow people to get under my skin, but it does happen and I’m only human, but I have my limits to what I will or will not tolerate.

I was covering for a coworker when a customer came in looking for an order he had placed online. Already from the beginning I can sense from his tone that he had a snobby attitude, not a problem yet maybe he was in a rush I thought. He provides me with the information needed to pick up his order, however I could not locate it, at first I worried that my other coworker neglected the delivery, but I couldn’t find the order at all after searching for it extensively.

The man begins to snidely complain that he has done this plenty of times and insinuates that we didn’t know what we were doing. I began to start feeling offended, but I overlooked his comments and began to explain to him respectfully how the online ordering system worked. He rudely interrupts me and responds with—-I’ll be paraphrasing—-“I know how this all works, I’ve done it plenty of times, if there’s any issues then it’s on your end, maybe your buggy system.” I respond with a stern “Sir, you need to listen, I’m trying to help you so you need to listen.” He rebuttals with, “You need to be careful young man.” He said it in a threatening way. I ask him, “With what? Have I been rude to you?”truthfully, I can’t remember his reply, but the issue was that this man was treating me like a child.

Even then, I STILL tried to remain professional in helping him, I still tried explaining the ordering process and asked him if it was possible that he might have used a different name, (you’d be surprised how many times people will use their spouses account when placing an order and I was deadset on figuring where this mans order could be) I even raised concern that perhaps he sent it to a different location. The man STILL would not even CONSIDER those could be possibilities, he was so adamant about his order being here. Finally, we both see his confirmation email and guess what? It WAS for a different location, he had sent his order to a different place so that explained why I had no record of his order. I told him where his order was at so he could go and pick up. For me, the situation had been resolved, people make mistakes, things happen, not a big deal in my eyes. We are only human and I will never get on someones case for making such a small mistake.

But what happened next really surprised me at the audacity of this man. Instead of admitting his mistake (yes, the system does show you where your order is being sent for client pickup so you ARE aware of where to go before it’s ready, Einstein) he immediately refuses to admit his error and procedes to say the following verbatim in front of other patrons. “You are being recorded. Young man, I recommend you go home, buy a dictionary, look up the word condensing because you are being condescending to your customers!”

Wait…what? Did I miss something here? I was so astonished by this man, but I knew exactly what was going on here. The man probably felt stupid, but he had such an inflated self worth that he refused to acknowledge that he was in the wrong, furthermore, he attempts to insult me by saying that I was dumb enough not to know what condescending meant or that I didn’t own a dictionary and then to try and embarrass me in front of all the other clientele. I was dealing with a straight up narcissist who was projecting his own condescending behavior in order to protect his fragile ego.

I had enough, I yelled “I don’t care! you can record me all you want! you’re arrogant, rude and disrespectful, you’re not a nice person at all!” And I proceeded to kick him out the place.

I know when I’m being insulted you stupid dumb fuck 🖕🏻I could have stooped to your level and really gave you a taste of your own disrespectful medicine. I would have talked to you like no one probably ever has before, idiot. I should have called you out for being so arrogant in your own stupidity.

I don’t care who you are, I treat everyone with a modicum of respect until they lose it. I’ve had my share of instances where I’ve dealt with people like him and they’ve always apologized in the end because they knew they were in the wrong. I expect the same.

So to end my long ass rant, you don't have to be overly nice or even like the people who work behind a counter but you should always be respectful and vice versa. I don’t give a crap, I won’t let people disrespect me. Too many people walking around like their shit don’t stink. The sheer arrogance is mind boggling. Just be a good person.

Tldr: Customer is rude and disrespectful even after making his own mistake, I don’t tolerate it and kick him out for his obnoxious behavior. I’m expecting an apology next time I see him.

For some context I am living with my parents and when I was like 1-2 yo my parents bought a pet. He was a chocolate colored Burmese cat. He was my best friend throughout my whole childhood, who took care of me whenever I was sad or crying. He never bit anyone, and even played with our 5 dogs. He would never mind if I would put him into this small Doll stroller. Now it's been over 1,5 year since he had to be put down. He was old and would cough all the time. He would eat less and less due to vomiting. I knew his time would come soon and I was trying to prepare myself for it. Unfortunately at that time I had to leave the house for a bit since I had to stay at the hospital for a few days. The day I left my dad called me and my mom who were with me that the cat is in a bad condition and that it's time for him. He drove Felix to a nearby vet, and I couldn't go there to be with him in the last moments. Before I left to the hospital I went up to my baby to say goodbye and tell him I'm gonna be back soon. So I suppose I did get so say goodbye, but not the way I wanted it to be like. I started thinking that maybe he didn't want me to see him like this and that he knew I left for a bit. Still, I cry every once in a while blaming myself for not being able to be there with him. To see him that one last time and comfort him that everything is going to be okay.

I hate my life, I wish someone loved me. Not pretend to love me. Or only when it’s convenient.

I am alone and I blame everyone else for it, yet it’s my fault.

I am alone because I have no girlfriend nor friends. I have a great family yet it isn’t enough. I value them, but my thoughts and experiences grow worse over time. It isn’t enough. I need another type of love.

I am alone and I feel alone all the time. The only reason I don’t feel alone is because of school and a job I barely work. I have a lot of ‘friends’ who think they are there for me, but aren’t. They pretend to be and only talk to me when they need something. An example, I was friends with a girl for one year and we were talk a lot we flirted and then she ghosted me and then she got a boyfriend and all of a sudden she turned out like all the others. I wish I had a girlfriend. I am so tired of people saying that. I wish I was good looking. I wish that I had that. Let me tell you something, if every time you met someone and you asked them to hang out and be your best friend/girlfriend and they told you ‘oh sorry, no but you can find it in somebody else’, if everyone tells you that it’s a cycle and you will never ever get it; that’s the issue I’ve had for the past four years. I just want affection. I’m tired of feeling this way.

I reach out in college. At work. Attempt to make friends. I bet whatever solution is to be told, I’ve fucking tried it. Maybe I’m meant to be this way. Wow. That sounded so corny. But it feels the truth. I’ve broken out of my shell and went into it multiple times. I think the longest streak I’ve had being myself and loving life was two years until I was told I wasn’t good looking and would be this way forever, and even if I didn’t let that get to me, in that entire year, I felt alone.

I don’t want to live my life like this. Some days I want to block all the ‘friends’ who say they’re there for me, but they aren’t. I wanna be an asshole but I can’t. I have no friend group. I have no true friends. Nobody ever reaches out to me. Sometimes I want to die. But I don’t mean. 1% out of 99% I do. Other times, I want them to love me and care for me. But I know you can’t force that on someone, so why don’t I just get rid of them first good? Block them. Unfriend them. They pretend to care yet love another and love others. They only care for me because they don’t want my death on their conscious. Honestly, that’s how I feel.

All I want is for someone to love me.

And I’m jealous, envious, and cocky. I used to not be, I’ll admit that. I used to selfless and always care for others and be kind, and then realty I stopped. Two years of me just being a kind man, and getting nothing out of that. See? Look how selfish that sounds.

I was born to live and enjoy life. Not to be other people’s pleaser. To not be your rebound. To not be your convenience friend. To not be someone you can talk to every 6 months when you feel pity for me because you’re the one who made me feel the way I am.

I feel like I know the solution. Suck it up. Cherish what I have. Be the better man. But what if I don’t wanna be? I’ll be left behind and cast out. Or maybe, I’m just rambling. I’ve never been so 50 / 50 split of getting rid of all of those people, telling them the truth (what I say here), or not.

What do I do? Get rid of them? Ignore it all? Be a better person? Suck it up? I truly don’t know. So many things.

I've transformed into a deeply bitter individual, harboring no belief in redemption Improvement seems out of reach, and l'm struggling with both life and relationships. The desire to end this disappointing existence looms large, yet my family's potential anguish holds me back. The thought of the ridicule society would heap upon them without remorse is unbearable- they don't deserve it. Finding a reason to continue living and reclaiming self-worth has become an insurmountable task. It's a Herculean effort to persevere when I feel like a worthless, cowardly human being. How did I reach this point? Idk

Since I was a teen (24 now) I've suffered with severe body dysmorphia. My whole body was a target, except for my boobs which I was really proud of. I was always the friend with big boobs, and I think in some way a portion of my self-image became how much I loved my boobs. When you hate your whole body, having one thing that seems okay is hard to ignore.

Fast forward to this year, where I decided I would lose some weight for the summer. I've been skinnier than I am now- so I guess I didn't expect to lose such an extreme amount of breast tissue. I already had asymmetrical boobs (a D and a DD), but still they were big for my frame and that's all I cared about. Now however, my smaller boob shrunk down to a C cup while my other boob remains at a DD. It's quite an obvious difference.

I guess this shrunken boob has brought up old ghosts in my closet. I haven't felt this poorly about my body in a very long time. I keep debating whether or not I just want to gain the weight back in hopes my boob grows again, but at the same time im proud of the changes in my body. There's also the point of if my boob will even gain back the fat if I were to put it on again. I feel like my identity and self-image have changed, and it feels way too hard to overcome.

like, it's OKAY IF SOMETHING GOT POSTPONED TO TOMORROW. IT JUST MEANS I'LL MAKE UP FOR TODAY, IT'LL BE OK.....!!! AHHH

I just remembered, so Im from the southern hemisphere so its currently fall/winter (Im so out of touch that I don't what season it is) so is cold, I havent sleeped yet andI'm sitting with my dad. He was telling me to put a carpet under the desk so my feet wouldn't be cold, that made me realize I've been using gaming/internet as a way of escaping reality since I was about 14 bc life sucks, the thing is I've gotten so used to just disasociating from my body and just spending all my attention spam on whatever I'm doing on my computer that I can barely tell what my body needs or how it feels. Since stuff like being tired/cold or a lot of needs used to bother me so much and I couldnt continue, or I would need to sleep.

I miss being a healthier, saner person. At least I have grown a lot as a person.

Edit: I kept zoning out when I wrote this what I meant by "needs used to bother me so much" Is that I used to notice them more, while now I dont even reallze untill i focus on my body i just block them out i guess.

didnt wanna have sex strictly because i got dysphoric and hurt and now im being blamed for making him feel unloved, and i didnt mean to do that, i was just honest and told him i didnt want to, and then i said something mean and i feel bad about everything, and im such a shitty boyfriend. i HATE being gender fluid. i fucking hate it

I was at work, there was a large table of men and I was cleaning a table near them. Three of them tried to get my attention and the whole table of 15 men stared at me and told me to smile. I was embarrassed and I felt like it was really unnecessary for them to say that. Do you expect me to be smiling while I’m cleaning a table? I wasn’t even their server. It’s extremely uncalled for and I’ve been told that before by men while at work to smile. I don’t get it. I clear tables, I don’t waitress. They didn’t need to try and get my attention like that. I don’t understand why men tell women to smile.

I grew up pretty standard 2 parents and all 4 grandparents and only 1 brother (I’ll get back to that) in the very early 2000s. I used to think my life wasn’t all bad until I grew up without my mom for a good portion of my life due to drug addiction, and only being told awful things which were kinda true by my emotionally (and with my dad literally not dead just worked a fuck ton) unavailable dad and his side of the family (at 3 years old), they never knew how to deal with or show emotions really at all only threaten me (mostly as my brother was the “perfect” child) with soap in the mouth, a wooden spoon, to “stop crying or else” or their favourite lI’ll give you something to cry about” or one I heard way to much “stop crying it’ll make you sick” all of these were a given in my grandparents house. Until I finally moved in with my parents at the age of 7 (4 years with my grandparents) but I would occasionally see my mom around as she would be at my nan’s (mom’s mom), and my parents would always fight a lot to which my dad around that time gained full custody of me and my brother, we had no idea as we were separated from our mom a bit more unless he was home (probably should’ve started with that oops) but whenever we would be a “proper” (heavy emphasis and big quotes around proper) family it always devolved into them yelling about money and some shit, and it all came to a head with our parents splitting up once before in 2007 my mom had brought 3 guys to my nan’s house with me there within this time period of 2007-09 1. Was a chill fun guy who’s been dead for about if my memory is right 16? Years now give it take 2. Guy was a fine enough guy never talked to or seen him much but the third guy was a real piece of work, on the surface he was a smooth talking Italian guy with a pretty thick accent once alone he’d peel back that layer, and show his true self a very mean evil fuck who abused i have no idea how many women but he choked my mom a lot when we were sleeping and one time I stayed up a bit later because it was a weekend and I could hear my mom it sounded like struggling, so I go out there as an 8 year old to find him on top of my mom basically strangling her so I rushed in pushed him away from her and said “stay the fuck away from my mom” (I heard swearing a lot and my dad let me at the time) but also he was like 30 something being pushed and shoved around by a tiny 8 year old. But after that we went to live with my dad and my mom after that she kept going back farther into her drug addiction around 2010-12 the big problem with juggling being moved from 4 different places and school was taxing on my childhood brain (4 places being my parents, grandparents, aunts and nan’s) and getting no therapy because not many in my family really cares about mental illness. (Told you I’d get back to it) so the big 2012 incident was me and my brother playing halo in his room after school only to hear our mom bust through the front door and me and him have been playing for a few hours at this point, then we hear our mom screaming and throwing stuff at our dad something about him sending money to a secret 3rd child he might have had during our moms rehab. Nobody acknowledges him as as apart of our family and dad won’t get the tests done to see if he is his and this for most of our grandparents involved to try save us and de-escalate the situation and according to my mom she would “sneak around the houses at night to see us and dad” because we would “freak out” if we saw her, which just sounds like a child missing a mother if you ask me the fully grown adult so yeah, and my high school life was pretty uneventful as it was pretty standard. TL:DR I got a pretty bad hand dealt in the life category and just now processing and trying to deal with it all now as an adult. (I just finally asked my mom for therapy or counselling a month ago to which she told me “I’m not broken”when I tried to open up to her about my thought process and why I think I need therapy) oh I never talked about my brother he was a pretty typical bullying me a lot and shooting me with BB and pellet guns but the worst is him shoving me in a dog crate at the age of 5 and pushing me down my grandparents flight of stairs. Oh and my grandpa on my moms side he was more absent then she was only popping up if he was required to work up there or birthdays and Christmas I still don’t know much about him to this day.

This past month has been one of the hardest I’ve had to go through nothing feels like it’s going right and as soon as things were , something else decided to pop up but that was on me. I’m starting to feel hopeless like I can’t change or there’s nothing I can do to make my situation better. I sometimes fear I may even end up alone , but I’ve never experienced that and I feel that I might just have to soon. I don’t want that not because I’m afraid of being alone but what I’m hanging onto means so much to me but I’m not doing my part. I have no outlet , I have no friends to talk to. I want to help myself but I’m still looking for a job to support me. I feel like it’s the beginning of the end. I’m only 22 and I know life will go on and things will get better but I feel like I’m suffocating right now because I’m so stressed out. I want to do some drugs so bad because I want to escape the reality I’m in but it’s not what’s going to help me. Weed definitely helps but I know it only numbs the pain and brings it back shortly. I’m doing my best to change myself , to change the way that I operate but fuck it is so hard. I like posting here because it’s a journal and I hope others can let me know what they do to help.

I'm (26F) currently 8 months pregnant with my and my boyfriend's (28M) first child. Although we were not planning to have a child, we were happy when we found out about the pregnancy and committed to doing our best to raise the baby. My boyfriend stepped up and started looking for other streams of income (he started using his car for Uber) and also worked very hard to get a better job (he was able to get a job that pays 3x what his previous one was paying).

Things were really looking up for us. However, as the pregnancy progressed he started spending less and less time with me. I could understand that his new job was demanding plus he had to Uber after work so he didn't have a lot of time to give. But on his free time (typically weekends), instead of prioritising time with me, he would go out with his friends and only come back early Monday when he had to clock in for work. He also stopped helping me with chores and I was practically alone. I tried talking to him and whenever I brought it up, he would correct his behaviour for like a week and then go back to isolating me. I started getting more and more frustrated and angry with him. Last week I'd had enough and said things that can't be unsaid. I had made peace with the fact that I'm gonna leave him and so I didn't hold back.

I'm not going to get into the specifics but the things I said were grounds for a break up and some of them were things I'd been holding back for a very long time. I'm at peace and have no regrets. I've started mentally preparing for us to coparent once our child is born and I'm okay with that.

After my outburst, he moved his things to the guest bedroom and we haven't spoken to each other since then. I'm not going to apologize because I meant everything I said and I know that he's also planning to leave the relationship and that's okay.

Mainly on youtube comments "WhO iS fRoM InDIa"... Like, who the F cares? Apparently many people since these kind of comments get thousands of likes. These mfs always find a way to slide in that they are from some country... Someone writes a comment about something and then go "by the way I'm from Greece" lol who cares, shut the fuck up!!

I mean at travel vlogs these comments make sense or when location is important theme of the talk, but they usually do it in most random stuff like a video about unclogging a toilet and if it's poilar enough, there will be some MF going "where my India gang at" .... Just, fucking shut up

Ok vent done

i know social media is fake and yadayadayada. but holy shit. every fucking video. every girl has this perfect face. and its not thirst traps or whatever. its normal content. and theyre STUNNING. and just regular people! i dont understand. it doesnt feel possible. i live in a big city and i rarely see people that attractive in real life. it sucks because even if i know people edit and whatnot theres clearly a MASSIVE SURPLUS of attractive people everywhere. i mean, why the hell would you edit your video for you to be attractive for a tarot reading??? clearly theres some reality to how beautiful these people are. its bitter and whatever but im so fucking jealous. all it does it make me feel like the most ugly person on earth. UGH.

I have a windows desktop and two laptops. I am writing this on my ancient Macbook (2015) and I mainly use my desktop, my windows laptop is for school stuff. But since it is summer I barely use it at home. My desktop has always run slow since it has an old processor and only 8 gigs of ram. Lately though it will run so slow it makes it unusable! My windows laptop also stopped working, I think the battery ran out or something, so I have to keep it plugged in constantly to even use it. I just tried to use my desktop but it was running slower than a snail on Tuesday. So I booted up my laptop and plugged it in but it just shut off! I almost punched it, no joke! Now I am using my macbook it is alright just a lot of programs do not work on it now. You cant go wrong with 16 gigs of ram though! UGH I wish I had the money to buy a brand new desktop AND laptop! LAME

I need someone to talks to preferably in my age range 15 - 17. I feel very alone and need someone to listen to me.

my dad has a roommate due to not being able to live by himself cuz he can’t pay his own house cuz he has a bad job. Anyways my dads roomate has this massive paranoia and constantly asks me the same shit cuz he thinks it’s about him and his sexuality since he is gay but no he isn’t dating my dad. So i have developed tremors a few years ago, my dads roommate saw this and started acting all edgy and asking why i’m so shaky.

One time he asked why i’m so shaky and i said i just developed it and got no idea why. He said “ok” in a very sad tone. Another time at dinner he saw my shakiness once again and kept asking me “why i’m so nervous” and he would keep asking me nonstop every few seconds after i told him already that it’s just something I got. It got to the point where i got pissed off and yelled at him that i wasn’t nervous and i just walked away and he said “awww”.

He also expects me to talk to him every second. He will constantly over and over again ask me why i’m so quiet. One time he asked me so many fucking times to the point where i lost my fucking mind and told him to stop asking me. This guy is a 60 year old man who acts like a kid. I’m 19 btw. He knows i have autism too but he acts like i don’t. Like dude i’m just quiet sometimes wtf.

So I am 22F. Okay I am currently on my last day of work and we are struggling. For context I live in south africa the place here sucks really. I can't get a permanent job only temporary. And that sucks too. We only have 2 incomes and 5 people living in the house so it sucks. So the thing is we want to convert the garage into a flat for me and my fiancé because we need our own place because we are getting married next year.. Yay right? Anywayy. So because I don't have a steady income I do stream but not making a lot at all still kinda new... So to make it into a flat it will cost us about 80K in ZAR if you want to convert it it's alot of money we can't take a loan because um how?

It will take us ages to build anything and we also want to build on and that alone will be only 110K ZAR. SO WTF? To find a place to live like I said we can't because um money? And we need to sell my fiancé's car because we can't afford so we're fucked. I don't always wanna live with my parents in their house the garage seem like the best option but.. I don't know if it's possible.. What do you think? No nasty comments please I am already depressed and crying at work at my last say here so yay me...

I'm so fed up with it I can't take it anymore I'm just a failure. I received some of my results on finals and initially I was quite happy with them feeling that I did alr and then from chats around the class I found out I'm just bang average if not under. I hate it and I hate myself. I worked my ass off and some of those ppl barely did anything I'm just incapable of doing fuck all of great I'm just average if not mediocre. I can't keep on with it, it's been already 2 semesters like that and I thought I was better this one but I'm just not. No improvement at all. I feel like crying honestly but I just can't. I hate it and I just received 2 grades out of 10. My rank will be awful, my future will be awful I've got no friends no nothing I'm destined for nothing I just feel lost and fucking empty I hate myself so fucking much

I(20F) have been feeling lately like I've never had a real friend. Everyone's moving on with their lives, but I feel stuck in my city, especially when even my friends who stay here have new friends and have new lives in their uni.

The other day, I went to my friend's home,it was her birthday but she kept me waiting for two hours, which made me feel humiliated, I was about to cry but kept myself controlled. She came to the city after a few months and brought her new friend here..the friend was ok...but I realised how my best friend was now closer with this new person whom I barely know but this new girl knows everything about me..it was quite a surreal feeling to experience in a bad way..

Don't get me wrong I have a new uni and new life too but the problem is my uni is a shithole of a place where everyone is a conservative, a sexist, racist or a drug addict there's litreally no in between...or they're just bad people.

Atleast once in my life I want to stop feeling that I am always the one making plans and being there for others, but I don't feel like anyone cares about me as much as I care about them. I just want a friend who's as excited to spend time with me as I am with them, as excited to take cute pictures and post them as I am, as excited to make elaborate plans as I am...I am so envious on how life just happens and happens good to some people whereas no matter how hard I try I'm still back to square one..I want someone who takes the initiative I'm tired of the being the one always taking that first step.

It's tiring always giving and not getting much back. I wonder if I'm just not good at making friends or if I let people walk all over me. Either way, I'm tired of feeling like this and just want a real connection.

Sometimes I just wonder if I am cursed.. truly...

i am completely broke, $0.14 in my bank account because of college i dont know want to do, no job will hire me and im so hungry, i dont want to be rude and eat my flatmates food because hes in a tight situation as well, i just wish i had $5 to buy something from the gas station, im crying so much i dont know how ill get $260 next week to pay rent, ontop of that i owe my college 5k for my course, im so stressed but all i want right now is a warm bowl of udon noodle soup

I'm sorry if I spelled that wrong, but it's 3 am on a school night and iv had no sleep so bare with me please. So anyone who don't know what it is here's the definition. Insomnia: is when you aren't sleeping as you should. That can mean you aren't sleeping enough, you aren't sleeping well or you're having trouble falling or staying asleep. Hypersonmnia: Excessive sleepiness or drowsiness. And for me that sounds stupid cuz there pretty much the opposite but it's not and it's awful. When my brain sees that it's dark or the time of when people sleep, my mind os awake and its vary vary hard for me to fall asleep. But when the sun starts showing or my light in my room is on (that one don't work eveytime) I can sleep perfectly. It's vary hard to deal with considering I'm an 15 year old in an American school system that we wake up at 5am and walk to school. Sit in a class for 45 mins for 11 blocks and hope if I fall asleep I won't have detention the next day. I have done test after test. Iv been in sleep study and MRIs and I'm tired of it all I just want a way for my brain to stop being stupid and sleep 😭

Ok so I just need to vent out and I want to apologize for my bad English upfront. So I lost my best frend after they made a choice and don't get me wrong in my opinion that was the right thing to do but still it hurt me.

So me and that frend we were close we understood each other whit no words and just we vibed amazingly I saw them as family and honestly they were one of the people I trusted but after years of friendship there lover started to see me as thread to there relationship so they chose the relationship and obvious that is the right thing to do but men it hurts men I want to talk to them and just have fun like before.

And just to say I didn't act appropriately after I just left and shunned everyone out but idk what to do whit all the pain I just feel sad and think that of I'm not around thing will be better I guess?

Thank you for listening.

it hurts we will never be close like before things have changed so much but i miss her and there is no one else like her in the world. im scared to reach out i won’t do it but i don’t know how to move on from her

My dad’s parents hate everyone. I’m not like talking about the phrase everyone uses I mean they HATE everyone. Racist, homophobic, conservative, republican you name it. I’m open about being lesbian and I’m accepted by my immediate family. The things is, I can’t tell them or I’ll lose my trust fund. They’ll disown me. Ever since they abandoned their family for selfish reasons, I’ve had to visit them to keep the peace. I dad (without my permission) told them I got my first job at Walgreens. I ended up quitting because of my mental health and they don’t know. My mom said since I’m 18 I can decide whither I wanted to go or not. My dad on the other took the liberty to make the decision for me. I’m going to see them for breakfast tomorrow. Last time I saw them my dad’s dad said something transphobic and I couldn’t finish my lunch. Now, with all this shit going on it’s gonna be fucking awful. I feel like I have to go since I have (supposedly) huge money waiting for me when they die or when I turn 21. I’m so worried or scared idk I just feel like I’m about to have an anxiety attack thinking about what could happen.

At this point I feel like I'm going to be a failure at any job have and I feel like a total idiot. I recently started working at this new job that I have as an assistant store manager in retail and I feel like I'm falling behind. Im a slow learner and forget things easily to the point where I have to write things down and my manager gets frustrated with me about it as if I'm purposely trying to forget things even though that's how my brain is wired. She also got frustrated with me for struggling with calculating maths through the computer system when it came to calculating sale targets (I also have dyscalculia). Im just frustrated with myself for annoying other people at work and at every job I've worked at I've always had someone I worked with say the typical line "you've been here for this amount of time so you should know this by now, you're so slow". I don't even know what to do with my life anymore since I feel like I suck at everything. Do any of you who have ADHD know what job is easier for you?

Jeez...I'm a massive people pleaser and my irls are taking advantage of it big time...

And when I try to set boundaries, I get guilt tripped 🙃

And if my husband would understand that the AC can't run for so long because it's so power hungry, that'd be great...we're everything but well off lol...

But if I tell him, the first thing he says is that he bets my family complained about us using it so much...(which is true lmao but they have a point...)

Meanwhile me, trying to please everyone 🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲

It’s been two months since my grandmama died. It’s been traumatic I guess you can say idk? I don’t want to keep grieving I hate this feeling. I can’t get over her being gone. Like this really hurt me. I did something that I wouldn’t have imagined I’ll be doing which was taking care of my granny while also having my kid. I feel like poop. I never thought I’ll be in this position with pronouncing her death to my granddaddy. Washing her up and administering meds. Sometimes I want to know why God gave me such a task because now that shes gone I feel so lost. I’m trying to understand why? I miss her hugging and rubbing my hair. Like I know it’ll be ok eventually but lately isnt hasn’t been feeling that way.

20F, I guess I’m posting this because I need another person to listen to me and actually understand why I might be upset or sad or lonely and not feel like my feelings are just a passing comment

If you look at my last post, you can see that I’m living in my car. My commander has allowed me to stay at the armory (where I work) for a little while but I feel terrible. And I think I’m kind of digging into a sort of depression. I hate it here, I hate not having a way to do laundry, I hate not being able to buy a meal when I’m hungry, I hate not being able to get a place because my account is so negative that when I get paid it won’t matter until I get paid next month, and even then SOMETHING will happen and stop me and I just want something of my own. A bed and a place to put it is all I want. Something always happens. I was reckless, depressed, destroyed my credit. I’ve struggled my whole life with being abused, constantly taking care of myself and not having anyone to have my back, constantly feeling like I’m in survival mode, and I’m really tired of making the wrong decisions but I don’t have all the answers :(

I don’t know how else to say it I’m just really sad? I’m a super independent person which is my downfall sometimes, I’m super go getting, I feel like I make the wrong decisions completely unintentionally all of the time and call it my “bad luck”. It’s HARD being an independent person when I’m struggling so bad to take care of myself and be who I want to be. It’s hard to constantly say “It’s not a big deal” or that “I’ll figure it out like I always do” to people who talk to me about it. Because I have no clue what I’m doing anymore.

I work full time army guard but it’s a supply technician job, it’s temporary, it ends in October. Currently at my unit there’s an opening for a permanent admin/supply position. Nobody understands how hard I’m working for this or why I’m ignoring them throughout the day. I’ve been studying so much and burning myself out. I can’t afford food still or a place to stay and I just want to sleep in a bed again. I don’t like being alone. I’m so lonely and I just want a hug. It’s hard to be strong constantly and to be perceived by people I care about as the person who “always figures it out”. I don’t want to “see it through” or “figure it out” anymore, I want to be happy and content. I want my mind to feel at peace for once. I want to feel loved and cherished or like somebody is actually seeing my pain.

I feel disgusting and pitiful and I want to cry right now but I’m not going to. I am strong but I’m tired of being strong. That’s all. I want to be comfortable. I am just so sad and I feel so unbelievably alone. Of course I’m grateful for the position I’m in compared to others. But it’s just the always feeling like the world is out to get me and I’m just constantly taking hits. I can’t say it enough, I know I said it already, I am so lonely and tired of fighting. It’s hard to keep up a good face anymore

I, f19, have pcos and don’t really get regular periods and when I do, it’s very very painful and it gets to a point where I cannot even move. I need to check for endometriosis but my parents think I’m “faking it” and tell me that “every woman gets periods I’m not any different” despite of being educated enough to know about this. Today I must’ve have overslept for …… what one hour?…. I tend to sleep for 10-14 hours on my periods. It’s the only way I get relief. Anyway I couldn’t wake up and even now I’m lying down as I type this. He was heading out for work and he saw I’m still asleep so he got hella abusive and started yelling at me for oversleeping and he well…. Slapped me. I didnt cry because I’m used to parents who beat me (mom) and at the end of the day my dad is just her puppet. But goddam it my stomach hurts and now my face too. He knows I’m on my period and they take advantage of the fact that I live with them and they can put me thru whatever hell because I can’t move out.