Anyone think they not belong on earth? Like they belong other planet? I feel this all the time. Is there reason why feel this way? Hope everyone has good day

so i went trick or treating and it was like a super upscale full size bar kinda neighborhood and i had the best time and i have candy for easily the rest of the year! so happyyy!

It used to be one of my all time favorites but now that I’m aN aDuLt I can’t even fully enjoy it anymore.. no more dressing up, no more Halloween celebration at school, no more logging onto Club Penguin for the Halloween party, no more trick or treating.. instead it’s just trying to get through the night and hoping there’s enough cash after grocery shopping for clearance candy tomorrow 😒 Even though I’m autistic and technically can still go, I can’t drive and my parents are completely on the ‘you’re too old’ train The only good thing is that nobody trick or treats on my street so I don’t have to hand out candy (I say this because I’m sure my jealousy would eat away at me even worse) it’s just ugggghhh why can only kids and teens go??? 😠

Hey everyone, I hope someone here is able to help me.

I turned 18 fairly recently, got into college a few months ago, and things are going too fast. I've known about age dysphoria since a few years (cf. my post from a year ago, things have changed since then so don't really give too much thought into it) but usually disregarded it because I thought it would get better over time, but needless to say that it doesn't.

As I go through life and get closer and closer to having to get a job and take on "adult" life, I become more and more unsure of how to be my true (child) self. I've come to a point where I cry about it fairly often, and sometimes I don't want to get up in the morning because what's the point if I can't be a child?

If anyone wants to help me, even if it's just to talk about your own experience, please do. I'm getting really desperate because I feel like I'm running out of time.

Thanks for reading this mess of a post.

Halloween is like one of my favorite times of year. I love the fall energy and the holiday itself. But does anyone else get really sad on Halloween? Like it makes me realize how I'm too old for basically anything (21). When I was regressed earlier I started to get really excited for trick or treating but than I remembered and I started to cry

Im so scared of adulthood i have to pick my GCSE options soon and honestly im so so scared. It feels like just yesterday i was 7 or something

Lmao apparently harry potter books are supposed to grow up with the reader rather than stay little kids books for seven years. When I was a kid reading them I liked the darker themes and more complex characters and story rather than just have a happy sappy book for kids. But then it got very dark.

The characters became brooding and sad themselves. Which makes sense. But you read the book to escape reality. Not make the book as dark as the world around us. The movies are the worst at becoming more and more brooding and angsty.

I think 1-3 are the best in terms of the books. More nostalgia, more wonder and less angst.

hello guys , im in my late 20's and i feel in my mind to be like 11 or 12 , it is strange, i dont feel right in my places like work, it has been a torture life as adult, but it still have good things being an adult. do you thing its a good idea to find frinds of that age i feel i am ? and how? of course before you think, it would be only friendship

Love peppa pig! Makes me happy. What your favourite show? Maybe have more than one favourite? Hope you excited for Halloween! Hope you have amazing day 😊

I think I'm autistic and have adhd. I hate most of my family cause they are toxic and would never accept me for all the faucets of who I am. I don't have money and I'm not sure I could take most jobs very well(I can't drive so no physical jobs) I'm about to become an "adult" and I don't relate or like it that much despite being a really mature kid most of my life. I don't know if my plan to make money to leave will work...but I kinda don't care anymore and I'm just chilling 🧃🟠🍊 (lol jk im depressed and dissociated🙃😊) I can't really bring myself to care that much anymore and I'm fine with that ☺️ I don't want to be a part of a capitalist sucky world like various others I see( despite the fact that observing their behavior is fun sometimes especially on tv) I just want to be my weird kidish self, find a way to go to a good therapist, eat food I like and not hate myself 24/7

I guess the reason I'm putting this here is that it's ok to not care sometimes especially if you have not been caring enough for yourself.😳🤔🙂 You deserve rest of the best form, kindness of great magnitude, the fullness of the moon, and the peace to knock out an owl🌲🦉💤 in the dead of night😆

Lol bye I'm baout to pass out now cause I didn't sleep well yesterday 😬 (I will still be up a few hours from now 😑🤣)

Hello. I've come to the realization, that I don't feel like a human. It's not just that I'm "weird" or "childish" or that I'm age regressing, but rather I just don't really like being in a human body or living a human life. I don't feel comradery or friendship with other humans. My family has never loved me and always viewed me as a burden rather then a son(due to my illnesses). I suffered a lot of bullying and torment in school from teachers and students for my different nationality. I have a lot of intense trauma of being physically beaten and bullied. I remember my family not caring about me being bullied. I remember one instance, when an older kid(3 years older) in school beat me up while my older brother and older cousin watched as I was getting beaten up and did nothing to help. My parents didn't care either. I just struggle to feel like a person. At first, I felt heart broken and devastated that this is the case. It made me so sad and make me yearn for companionship. But now, I'm disillusioned. I just feel like "being loved" is stupid. "Having friends" and hanging out is stupid. I see all these posts on Instagram of people with their family and friends at gatherings saying they love their family and their friends, but I just think that's stupid. My family never loved me, why should I love them? My "friends" in school used to physically torment me and humiliate me. Why should I "love" them? Why should I care for human companionship if I don't even feel like a person? I'm more of just an alien, spectating in a human body. If no one has ever cared about me, if they only view me with contempt and hatred, then how do I feel love for others? How do I feel human? How do I feel like I fit in in this species? Is it bad that now I don't care for people? I don't want to hang out with people, I don't want to "have friends". When I see people laughing or smiling or "having fun" or showing signs of affection or "love" to each other, I just feel disgusted and hateful, I have to turn away. I try to force myself everyday to "act human", but it gets harder and more mentally taxing every day. I fake laugh, I fake smile, I try small talk, I speak with a fake happy tone. I try to act socially approachable but I'm tired of it. I hate acting. Sorry, for the rant lol. It's just something that I want to get off my chest.

I get called a little and age regressor but it doesn’t fit me. I don’t regress? I’m autistic (as many are here), so how do you describe these characteristics?

this vent contains spoil. I remember Digimon. It was like Pokemon but less appreciated. But in the end, we learn that the heroes are gonna lose their digimon because they grow up and became adults. And does they want to stop this ? Of course. They did everything to save their digimons... But they couldn't not... they deafeat a last vilain in the end and it is the time to say goodbye. The characters talk but all of a moment, their digimons disapears. Life goes on despite everything, but that cartoon end is just heartwrenching. Do we want really to grow up if that mean you live what you loved the most behind ?

So this happened multiple times. I either get emails or log in to one of them and they seem to be explaining there are the ability to separate profiles. That might sound normal once, but then they seem to do reviews a lot and try to do surveys and everything to figure things out. Disney thinks I have a young teen (since I get uber for your teen ads all the time) and the explanation in netflix was quite amusing. They just don't get it I guess, that some paying subscribers are the kids! lol

I don't want to be an adult.

I don't want to socialize as an adult.

I don't want to have adult relationships.

I don't want to have adult friendships.

I don't want to be expected to be mentally an adult all the time.

I don't want to be physically an adult.

I don't want to feel the need to drink alcohol anymore.

I don't want to feel the need to use cannabis anymore.

I don't want to have the anxiety I've grown to have from trauma in my life.

I don't want to have the depression I've grown to have.

I don't want to worry about political things anymore.

I don't want every new friendship/relationship I have give me anxiety & make me over analyze everything I do because I don't know how to be an adult emotionally & socially like they are expecting from me.

I don't want to feel like I am putting on a mask every time I go out into the world because I don't feel like I can just exist as myself no matter how hard I try.

I don't want to mask anymore in social settings and drink alcohol to try to be more neurotypical and grown just so that people will like me so I can make friends and relationships I don't even enjoy having.

I don't want to worry about legal consequences because I have emotional dysregulation and always have to control my emotions as a biological adult and mask rather than let my emotions out and throw a tantrum, because if you have a tantrum as an adult you get in legal trouble or other consequences that children don't have, not just timeout or losing privileges.

I want to be a child.

I want to socialize as a child.

I want to have child friendships.

I want to be expected to be a kid.

I want to physically be a kid.

I want the fact that I wear a diaper to be socially acceptable again.

I want the clothes that I wear to be seen as the correct clothes for me to be wearing at my age instead of people thinking I'm just a grown woman dressing like a 6 year old girl.

I want to be able to go trick or treating with other kids and have mommy go with me and watch out for me.I

I want to be able to go to events for children and parents and be allowed at things 12 and under again.

I want to be able to jump at the trampoline play area at chuck e cheese (I just want to be that height again)

I want to be able to fit into a regular stroller that isn't a stroller wagon.

I want to be able to fit in and wear diapers for kids again.

I want to not worry about finances again.

I want to have the obliviousness I had a child.

I want to be expected to be the neurodivergent little girl that I am and act like it.

And there is probably plenty more that I could add to this list.. but this was at the top of my head of what I am currently feeling right now.

Hai do we a did system and lately the age dysphoria has been off the charts. We're also in a transform body so it's incredibly hard thinking about how we couldn't start our transition till 20s and have trauma from coming out. Also I have trauma from never getting a girlhood and the pain is absolutely unbearable but lately it's been such a struggle and not only like dysphoria over the body but over lifestyle like having to work feels weird when you feel like you're a middle schooler our host is only 13 like it feels awkward having their work when that's how you typically feeland it's just don't know how to cope anymore. I don't remember my friend or my Pain ever being this bad I feel like it's been at 12 recently and I don't know what to do. I'm home today but not super small. I feel like play time would help but I'm scared. I'm just gonna feel awkward and dysphoric doing it. I'm just so broken.

Cartoons are good too, sorry lol. I am looking at a lot of magic and witch themed and even ghosty kid-friendly shows, like Sulphur Springs and Ghost and Molly Mcgee and Hocus Pocus and this came up, wondering if anyone liked it? The reviews were kinda mixed. What's your thoughts, and are there any recommendations?

I'm supposed to be turning 20, but I'm not and I can't be. I'm terrified. I've been having nightmares about birthdays for the past several years, and this year is my 20th, and I can't take it. Everyone I know thinks I'm stupid for it, and I don't know what to do about it. Everything is so wrong and I'm so scared. I wish I could physically change myself with surgery or something, but I can't afford that and my family would never let me. I don't know how to bring it up with my therapist, either, because I've stumped many of my former therapists with the issue because it never goes away.

Recently decided to do something to make me happy. Now feel very happy. This is reminder to do same for yourself. You deserve be happy! 😊