Does anybody else still have a deep heaviness in their chest and cry nightly when they think about things said to them?

I am not truly human because humans are artificial. The illuminati or god have been using me as a so called normal person as they only show they are liars that do not care for people.

My mind can only feel the devilish God and his creations' so called love. I am living with a circus in my evil imagination everyday who subliminally forces me to be a girl. I will not be loved if I am not a girl. I broke down today as the flood of evil entered my soul as people are only scamming each other.

I was selected because of physical disorders is how it looks. I no longer trust humans and all I see is a human monster who cannot believe who I am, which I am not human.

I am not feeling like typing enough.

All my life i've bien excluyen and bullied and i'm tired. I'm tired of not knowing what's wrong with me. I used to have dream and being ambitious but now i'm tired every day, and all day. I'm a 31 years old loser who never had a girlfriend, still living with his parents and i ende my studies late. Most of the time i feel like other maes don't respect me, and even hate me,and women are disgusted by me. I'm short height also and it seem that i can't even attract women with similar taste and hobbies, it's like i'm never good enough, wich get me even more depressed. I'm never funny, fun,carismatic, smart or whatever. And most of my bullies are living their dream life, with good memorias from youth to remember when getting older and I don't have NOTHING AT ALL.

People could bully me with teachers watching and they wouldn't even bat an eye. I guess they didn't care as they saw I wasn't really fighting back or doing anything about it.

Even funnier that about a year ago a friend ran into one of the teachers (in my country a teacher can have this advisory role for one class, and she was one of those, meaning she's supposed to be the one to "take care of us", so to speak) and at the time I was in another country for work and was visiting for Christmas. What the teacher asked my friend when talking about me was "THAT sucker managed to go in [country]?"

It's worrying that there are teachers who are not past childish cruelty...

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 i recently photographed grad cap photos of hispanics using my phone and im a 20 yr old asian woman. I noticed since I began photographing hispanics, my ex friends (all white rich girls) dont message me on insta anymore and they never liked any of my posts. is it bc they r afraid of hispanics? I realized none of my ex friends were actual true friends, and my current friend group is mostly hispanic. My mom said its possible that my ex friends realized white people r no longer the majority in where we live (texas) so they r afraid and jealous. im gonna photograph another hispanic soon and I realized I have a sudden increase in followers, and many r hispanic. my sis told me many of my ex friends got karma and have bad boyfriends. i think its bc these girls r afraid of me and my new friends. i avoid my ex friends bc they were toxic.

My daughter 15f, changed high schools this year largely for the opportunity to play hockey at the varsity level with a team at her level. She was the top player at her old school last year. Several of her former teamate who we thought were her best friends have grown very resentful about the decision and have in some cases cut off all communication. However, last night I got a call from her coach saying he got a text that my daughter was regularly using a racial slur toward a former black school mate. A screen shot was provided but it is clearly fake as it doesn't show who sent the message. I am confident that her former friends and teamates are behind this, of course I don't have direct proof of there involvment but its likely given the accuser is now in friend circle of former teamates. I might not get so upset about this but my daughter is on a path to play d1 hockey and even the mear accusation of racist slurs would get her kicked off her current team and ruin her future prospects. The question here is what should be the consequences to the person making the accusation. We know who it is for sure since it came from her phone number. Do we involve the school, police or just parents?

I am sure some of you question changing schools for a hockey team and i understand why you would question the decision but I would encourage you to focus on my question.

I went to a small alternative school when I was young so there were a limited pool of other boys to associate with. My main bully when I was 13 or so would bully me psychologically. He'd label everything I did 'gay' and police my humour. He was the arbiter of what was cool and uncool. At one stage he started calling me 'Larry' because he knew I hated it. It made me feel like an old man. At one point I just gave in and went by that name, including sometimes at home. That was corrosive for my mental wellbeing. 15 years later and he hasn't apologised. I hope he had a shit life. I think I'll talk to my psychologist about this stuff. I am gay, btw.

First off, I'm absolutely not playing 'traumalympics' here, or trying to compare who had it worst. But I genuinely have no idea how bad my bullying was. I used to think most kids who were bullied had experiences pretty similar to mine, but I'm starting to wonder if that's true.

I was bullied from my first school day until the last (ages 4-17). Until age 12 I was bullied by all the kids in my class (some were worse than others but nearly all of them actively participated) as well as a number of older kids. This was daily namecalling, mocking, setting me up for jokes, deliberate exclusion, and occasional physical actions such as pushing, grabbing my things, or spitting on me, and one 'joke' drowning. Between age 12-17 it was mostly being excluded and ignored, with some classmates actively mocking me. I was also still bullied and sometimes threatened (including a death threat) by the older group of bullies whenever they ran into me.

Does this sound fairly typical for bullying? Is this average? Or is this actually on the more severe end of the spectrum and have I been underestimating how bad it was?

And I wanna know would trying to face things, even tho I get triggered anyways makes a difference?

I will go to university but I felt that people are trying to take advantage of my anxiety and fear to disrespect me, but at the same time those things really makes me scared and triggered and I hate appearing like that everytime but I want to get rid of that it’s annoying and it makes people control my feelings and take advantage of me and tries to make me less

But like if there is something or someone trying to disrespect me would it help if I face it or technically tried to because I can’t control being scared and triggered at all I will still appear weak but would face it help or is it useless.

Also I also get triggered from a lot of things but I can’t tell wether it’s because of my like my existence or is it because of anxiety it’s that I feel everyone ignoring me or like whispering when they see me everywhere and I get triggered everytime that happens (so I get triggered all the time) I know it may be because of past experiences but can I try to prevent that now?

Throughout my life, I was always taught how to be kind to other people. I even thought that the world was perfect and that Everyone was kind and caring. But I was wrong, very very wrong. It all started in middle school. In 8th grade, I met this girl, who I'll call Sasha, as I cannot remember her real name. Sasha was the typical popular girl, and wherever she went, everybody surrounded her and showered her with compliments. Back then, I even thought that popular people were all actually good people, but again, I was wrong. Sasha started out as a nice person, but it was only a false mask she put on around other people. When the teacher wasn't there, Sasha would constantly make me feel uncomfortable and I was too scared to tell anyone because I was scared of her, I felt trapped by her. Then one day, things got worse. Our science teacher back then decided to put Sasha next to me, and that made me very scared. Sasha gave a fake smile and smirked. She then copied my work and told me to not tell anyone. I wanted to report her to the authorities, but she threatened me, saying that nobody would believe me, and that nobody would care. One day, me and my friends were put in a group with her, she then began bullying me and my friends and treating us like we were servants, just because we were from Asian countries, and she thought that we were inferior to her. Eventually, I had enough of being oppressed by her and wanted to get back at her, because her behavior was spiraling out of control. So I decided to do the worst thing I had done in my life: I pranked her by disabling her phone and blaming somebody else and I also had to pretend to be her friend. She gradually grew more tyrannical and emotionally abusive. She eventually made me and my friends do all her dirty work and also verbally abused my friends by calling one of them"Short and dumb", and my other friend "Filthy". She also called me "Chink" "Banana" "Ding Dong" and "Ching Chong" just to name a few. I eventually had enough of her behavior but I was scared that she would get back at me, so I never told anyone about the situation. I tried to ignore her, but one day, she went too far. It was almost the end of eighth grade, and I rushed into my English class, and I heard her and her boyfriend laughing. He was talking about how funny it would be if she challenged me to a fight. At first, I didn't pay any attention to what they were saying, because I thought they were joking. But boy was I wrong. I looked around the classroom, and she was glaring at me, and her boyfriend and his friends were saying: "fight! fight! fight!" I didn't want to fight because I didn't want to get in trouble, but Sasha told me that I was weak and because I was Chinese, I was colored and therefore inferior. She also threatened to hit everybody in my family, and said that they didn't love me. Then she kicked me in the leg, and we started to fight. We were fighting in front of our whole English class and the teacher didn't notice, because she was playing games on her phone. In the middle of the fight, I heard one of her boyfriend's friends tell her to beat me to death, but I defended myself by using kung fu against her. After we fought, I really wanted to tell the teacher and, instead of apologizing, she said I can't tell the teacher, and she threatened that if I told the teacher, she'll KILL me. Then the lunch bell rang and I dashed out of the classroom, feeling lucky that I had escaped her tyrannical control. She was like the female version of Saddam Hussain, because she also had an abusive father, just like him. I realized i was myself again, and was once again freed from my cage. I then heard from several other students that she suffered from bipolar disorder and had an abusive father. I eventually realized that she was miserable, and that it wasn't my fault. After all this happened, there was a period of time when I had flashbacks of her and I would get nightmares. But I eventually realized that I'm a better person, and I can change myself for the better. So I decided to become a teacher so that I can educate kids before they go down the wrong path, and guide them to make good decisions.

Moral of the story: many people who turn into dictators often come from broken homes. So be careful of who you associate with. It may backfire on you and everyone around you..

Trigger warning for self harm: For me it was my appearance, I struggled with self harm in highschool due to depression and one day my sleeve came up when washing my hands and a girl saw my scars and took a picture, this spread around the whole school and I was harassed for it. People would come up to me and encourage me to take my own life, saying if I wasn’t an attention seeker I’d just do it “right”. They would throw things at me, put hand sanitizer on my desk hoping I had new cuts on my wrist so it could burn them, this experience really opened my eyes to the true nature of society and now the only place I open up is on reddit where nobody knows me.

I so so badly wish this were true but sadly all my bullies have had the best social lives, best grades, constantly in relationships, etc. They’re not insecure either you can tell, I honestly hate hearing this phrase as I’m actually the miserable one and talking shit about me was simply a fun hobby for those monsters. And because they already placed you below them on the social hierarchy, they don’t care what you say or do back to them either. There’s really no winning it seems.

Honestly I need to distract myself constantly even being 2 years out of highschool now because whenever I have a quiet moment I just remember the laughing and the insults and sit there fuming. It sucks i used to be the calmest person ever but now I’m constantly on edge and angry ready to go off on the slightest criticism because I’m so sick of hearing negative things about myself.

It won’t let me post more than one pic so I’ll put the rest in the comments. Give me better comebacks 😂 I honestly don’t care but why do people bully just for this

It feels like a 10 gigabytes of space has been created in my mind.

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The greatest ugliness and evil in human nature is using one’s power to make life difficult for the vulnerable.

Bully - “Always deny it. Don’t assume everyone, including your boss, is stupid.”

Bully- “Always playing the victim. Back when you were bullying others, you were full of arrogance.”

for some reason i suddenly thought about this stupid boy at my school who thinks im fucking slow or something. he was in my gym class last year and he would criticize and laugh at every little thing i would do wrong. once he said "chop chop" when I was try to catch a ball? stfu. andd then once we were playing dodge ball and i picked up a really bad ball that's overly inflated and too wide to properly grip and when i tried to throw it i failed obviously and he pointed at me and started laughing with this stupid girl who bullied me in the fifth grade. And another time that stood out to me was the closer to the end of the year- he completely ignored me while we were playing basketball and didnt pass to me even though i was on his team. luckily my friend at the time called him out for being such an ass to everyone, but when i tried to say something he didnt listen for shit. plus my "friend" wasn't the nicest to me either and though she was better than me or something. the reason sometimes i wasn't the best at every single fucking sport was because they aren't my thing, and the shit talkers would make me scared to participate so i would mess up. i was good at basketball and people agreed, but i was only confident until they began shit talking when i messed up. im so frikin done :) idc if it was last year, i hate myself and something is fucking wrong with me. the guy still shit talks me now to. he sits right behind me in science, and once when we were working, i heard him say to his friend in a rude way: "why don't you go and sit next to (my name) and see what's going through her head?" then, his friend- WHO I DONT FUCKING KNOW said something containing "i would rather kill myself"

oh my god :) and as an introvert i never say shit to these people

i started uni education 2 months ago and met a lot of people, suddenly falling into a friend group with students i have excercises/lectures with. Most of them live in the same dorm, so they kinda bonded with each other. One of them, that had put this group together is someone of a "friend" to me, but i don't trust her at all. She seemed pretty insecure when we first met, like she was apologising for everything and talking with sarcastic/joking manner about every subject. I remember we went out with her and my other friend, so she was mostly talking with her, forgetting that i exist too and when she remembered it was usually for some weird comments she thrown to the wind, like commenting the way i did something, or moved or anything, indicating that i must be stressed, when i wasn't at all. And i don't believe she made it with a good will, because she didn't just ask me personally, but smalltaked this shit out with this joking manner, while my other friend was watching. After that hangout, she interacted with me many times and things suddenly didn't feel so fishy. Tbh i kinda liked her, because she introduced me to her other friends from her dorm and it felt less lonely.

From yesterday i feel it kinda comes back tho. She started being borderline passive agressive just "joking" around and she had put me in uncomfortable situations twice. I have a close friend, who is the only person there that i could trust there and the "friend" tries hard for her to like her, even made a groupchat with 3 of us, when she's not interested in me so much, so why she just won't go and text with her instead af inviting me someore to be like the third wheel of a bike. Everytime we met in 3 she was doing the same thing, maybe without stupid passive agression, but i still felt rejected afterwards. Recently she suggested that we should go to some party and asked me if we will take my close friend with us instead of just inviting her herself, so i felt kinda used and after i did that she was laughing that i didn't invite her on our stupid groupchat, like if it was my initiative.... She wrote me something afterwards that she's happy we're going there, but made it in a way that seemed ironic. I asked her, if it's an irony and she was again laughing and telling me she doesn't know what I'm talking about. I apologised, thinking that i misinterpreted shit and wrote ,,I'm tired and entering other densities" to soothe the atmosphere, for which she wrote ,,i get it, just don't get too denseXDDDD". Again i was pretending, that i'm amused.

Today after lectures we went bowling with our other uni colleagues and i was kinda irritated by her, even if at the beggining i tried to go there with an open mind. She apologised me for some bullshit that nobody would be offended about and it seemed like she knew it doesn't make sense, more she did it in front of others, like if i needed her stupid apology. I laughed again. She was also pretty competitive when it comes to the play. Honestly I felt isolated when we were talking in a bigger group with her leading the conversation, cause i could just go away and they wouldn't notice. At the same time i had no idea how to join the conversation.

One time i snapped but still made it into a joke, when one guy from our major that was with us said to her, that it's her turn, when she was talking with someone and she jokingly said, that she's just a woman and he's stronger, so he should do it instead of her. I was standing next to her and started laughing hard asking loudly ,,Girl, what are you talking about, why?". Something about her using the "woman" card to not take her turn instead of just saying she doesn't want it now really irritated me, but i had cope with laughter, so she started laughing to, even if for me it was just channeling my own agression, cause this whole situation wasn't even funny to me.

Other thing is my "friend" wanted to go for a coffee with me couple weeks ago, but it didn't happen, because i got sick and we rescheduled it. I was happy, that she wanted to finally talk with me face to face instead of awkward group conversations and maybe i could just know why she acts like that and what is happening. But today she invited also my close friend there to go in 3...

I thought of cutting her off, cause i feel drained, but with her i would also cut off this people from her dorm and maybe my close friend too, because we all share this one big "friend group".

ADVICE PLEASE: I'm in 10th grade, and there’s this guy in my class who used to be a really good friend of mine. We were part of a big friend group, but over time, he started to shut me out of it. Things kept getting worse between us, and now, whenever we play soccer with a group of friends, he goes out of his way to hurt me. If I have the ball, he’ll do whatever he can to tackle me aggressively, which almost always ends in a fight.

This has been going on for two years now, and things have even gotten physical in class. A few times, we lashed out at each other, and one time I had him in a chokehold, and the teacher had to pull me off him. It’s escalated to the point where, even when we pass each other in the hallway, I feel tense and ready to fight.

What’s frustrating is that I’m generally a passive person. I don’t like to fight or cause problems, but with him, it’s different. He just brings out this side of me that I hate.

Recently, during a presentation, he and two others from our friend group mocked me the whole time I was presenting. It was humiliating, and now I’m just full of anger. I’ve even started thinking about waiting for him on his way home and beating him up.

I know that’s extreme, but I’m so frustrated and don’t know what else to do. How do I handle this situation?

So today on the bus this girl that has given me and my friends trouble on the bus before started throwing empty water bottles at us. She did something similar last (school) year when she got into to habit of throwing pens at me and my friend. But it hasn't happened for a while until today. The problem is I have no way of providing they were aimed at us and even if I did they couldn't do anything to stop her and also I don't think the school would care because I feel like I'm over reacting

So I’m a girl that goes to high school.. No I do not have friends (Idk why I’m not the issue I promise) and for some reason everyone that I’ve met even the people that I have not spoken one word with think I’m weird or I don’t deserve to get treated like a human being. Everyone has openly talked shit about me and it seems like the most normal thing in the world for them..It’s so fucking hurtful guys..Not just that but literally EVERYONE has this urge to humble me,embarrass me, laugh at me, exclude me from anything and everything, hurt me physically and mentally, or just ignore me. It’s literally natural for them. I get treated like shit. Let me give an example.. When you’re in class and you see someone drinking or coughing you wouldn’t think anything of it , right ? Me too

But for some goddamn reason when I do it people start to turn around and just stare at me like I just farted or sum. Tf is yall looking at?? Seriously like what did I do?

Or even when I go to throw something in the trash and turn to go back to my seat I get all of those weird looks like “wtf is she doing”

and I’m just like ??? yes this has been going on for a looooong loong time and no it’s not my looks bc I’m really not ugly and stuff like this also happens when my identity is hidden (mostly online) and literally wherever I go not just in school.

If I ask regular questions I get ignored Everybody wants to make me the bad guy no matter what I swear it sounds like a stupid joke but I don’t know how to explain it otherwise

I get disrespected by literal strangers

and I know it sounds like I’m exaggerating bc the examples I just gave seem pretty harmless.

But I’m telling you people going trough this shit everyday is fucking draining. It seriously affects my mental health very badly and nobody understands what I’m talking about. People tell me that I should“just keep trying” or “you’re just imagining things” but no I’m not. Why would I make something so stupid up,honestly?

It gets to a point where im scared to interact or even look at people because I get judged by EVERY SINGLE MOVE I make. And this is very embarrassing for me too tell because it’s sounds so stupid but I don’t know what to do. You guys have no idea how bad it actually is. I’ve not been able to include myself anywhere because I get rejected before I even try. When I express my needs I don’t get taken seriously. Almost like “wait…you have needs too? Oh I thought you were just here to make everyone else feel better about themselves”. What the hell..I try and try and try so hard to fit in and all I get is judgement for literal existing… I’ve been asking myself what’s wrong with me for years and swear I’m just like everyone else and I mind my business even tho it doesn’t sound like it… People always say you should love yourself. How tf am I supposed to do that with this shitty life I have.. I cannot leave my room because I cannot do it anymore..

Is it my spirit? Please I just want to be appreciated ONCE in my life because it never happened til now…This shit is not fucking funny and it’s causing my depression to get worse. You’re supposed to socialize..welp doesn’t work for me

It’s like everyone has morals except when it comes to me…I feel like shit

What I mean by that is, did people giggle when you walked into a room or were sitting or standing nearby them? As if your mere existence was a joke?

people Often confuse being different as a bad thing, they strive for conformity and yes conformity creates security but it prevents you from being creative and making a change. The greatest minds in history didnt conform to the normal at the time, they challenged it. People who STRIVE to conform at any stage of life will never live their own life, they’ll always live for other’s approval and they’ll die that way too. No one "fits in", humans are so unique, different ethnicity’s, different experiences, different environments it’s IMPOSSIBLE to find a "normal" across 7 billon people. It’s a pointless pursuit to chase people’s approval when those people don’t even like themselves. You are good enough as you are. If someone is bullying you for being different, they’re just a conformist who chases a norm that simply doesn’t exist, chasing they’re whole lives for the approval of society, and no matter how hard they chase it’s simply impossible to achieve 100%. Everyone’s a little different, who cares.

Any tips?

please help in reporting this profile whose creator is using a person's pictures and oddly similar information to mine to frame me/incriminate/harass me

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