For all who have sinned without the Law will also perish without the Law, and all who have sinned under the Law will be judged by the Law. For it is not the hearers of the Law who are just before God, but the doers of the Law will be justified. For when Gentiles who do not have the Law naturally do the things of the Law, these, not having the Law, are a law to themselves, in that they demonstrate the work of the Law written in their hearts, their conscience bearing witness and their thoughts alternately accusing or else defending them, on the day when, according to my gospel, God will judge the secrets of men through Christ Jesus. But if you bear the name “Jew” and rely upon the Law and boast in God, and know His will and approve the things that are essential, being instructed out of the Law, and are confident that you yourself are a guide to the blind, a light to those who are in darkness, a corrector of the foolish, a teacher of the immature, having in the Law the embodiment of knowledge and of the truth, you, therefore, who teach another, do you not teach yourself? You who preach that one shall not steal, do you steal? You who say that one should not commit adultery, do you commit adultery? You who abhor idols, do you rob temples? You who boast in the Law, through your transgression of the Law, do you dishonor God? For “the name of God is blasphemed among the Gentiles because of you,” just as it is written. — Romans 2:12-24

I have struggled with sxual sin since I was 11. I discovered prn and it was involving ftishes and bd&sm. Sx is a beautiful gift of the Lord but I have only ever understood and experienced it to be degrading and painful. To be honest I've never even watched "normal" prn and have hardly any desire for conventional sx. I've allowed my l*st to completely dominate me. I've prayed and promised to repent and turn away from it but I always keep coming back and I'm fearful of being a fake Christian.

How can it be that I am a new creation in Christ and still be in slavery to these desires? I've asked Jesus to forgive me and I know that I can't earn my salvation but I can not stop going back to my sin. Any time I start to have some victory over p*rn addiction, I relapse and again and again.

I've always wanted a wife but I feel like my mind is just too broken. I hope that there is hope I am/can be saved but I am at a point where I think it's impossible for someone to love me and for me to love them. I really struggle with feelings of worthlessness and every day is a battle not to give up and just end everything.

I want to be free from this but I am fearful that my repentance is fake. That I am an Esau where even my tears are phony. I have prayed to be forgiven through grace countless times but is this evidence that I am not a child of God? I don't know what to do.

Edit: I have accountability software on my devices but I also know how to get around them. I am part of a local church. My Christian friends know I struggle with p*rn but they do not know the kind I struggle with

Recently in a life stage where I feel so stressed out and everything just won't work out for me and idk what to do with my life at the same time, I've also been hearing my friend that got baptise received "miracles" and it just seems like their life is much better with the help and guidance if Christ and experience peace in life

So my question is, Those of you who have been baptism please share your life and if u felt the Christ or experience some changes in life both good or bad

I've been considering baptism plss be honest!!

I don't want to disclose what sin is that but here is context, I was exposed to that sin at 9 yrs old and I always keep on falling into it. At 13 yrs old I decided to pursue Christ and managed to get rid of it, one day I don't know how but I somehow fall into it. At 15 yrs old, I managed to break free from it. But this year(16 yrs old), I fall back to it. I feel like a hypocrite, I read my Bible everyday and pray everyday, school mates come to me and ask me Bible questions and I answered them. But I cannot just break free from this sin or even worse fall back into it, fellow Christians in this Sub Reddit, please help me I need your helps and prayer. Give me tips and help me to get out of this sin

I see mention of this here and there and it's still something that confuses me.

I was raised believing in the rapture. I read some of the left behind series when I was young.

But to me it seems that this is not really the case. That we will endure right along with everyone. And that our persecution will be terrible throughout this period.

I just wanted to see everyone's thoughts on this. This is obviously not too important because it's God's plan in either scenario and I will do what I am told.

God has given me talents in life. Things that I excel at that bring me joy, that not anyone can do.

I appreciate these gifts and so I train them and actively work on bettering them.

Though, all the times I've tried to make something of the gifts that I have. Like building a life, my plans all come to nothing. Whether through circumstances outside of my control, health problems, family problems, friendships that don't work out, or sin, etc.

The Bible says that man has many plans for his life, but God ultimately directs his steps. (Proverbs 16:9)

I don't understand why God gave me certain talents if I can't use them due to the afflictions and failures that I face, when I have relentlessly tried to pursue these gifts that I have. Because I have debilitating health problems that keep me from expressing and using my talents in a productive way.

This deeply bothers me because I want to live for God in what I have been given but I struggle so immensely that I never get to a point where I can reliably and functionally implement what I have into life, in this world.

My health problems regularly affect all aspects of my life, and I feel like an outcast because of the patterns and nature of the problems that I have. They are unexplainable in many ways. I've struggled with these debilitations for so long that they have shaped my life and my personality to a large extent. I am like a hermit and to the world I barely exist.

I want to enthusiastically pursue the gifts I have, to build a life in this world, that would honour God. Though I struggle so much that it often leaves me feeling pessimistic and depressed, to the point where I get overwhelmed and completely discouraged by my afflictions. I feel caged by the difficult circumstances of my life.

In The Parable of the Talents, Jesus says that those who hide their talents, they will not only get no reward, but they will also lose what they had in the first place.

This terrifies me, because I deeply yearn to be more for God. I completely trust Him with my life as He directs my steps. I walk as God allows me to walk and where He leads me to walk in how His word teaches me. It burdens me to have these gifts that I can't express, that have also come to such failure in the past. I recognise what God has given me, yet I can't enable it in a functional way in the life I have been given because of severe health and personal problems.

I wish I could find a way to share what I have been given with others. I deeply yearn for meaning and connection in life, but my health challenges don't allow me this freedom. I live a lonely and reclusive life, that I would wish on no-one else, because it is agonizing. I seem to be faltering in my effort to make more of the talents that I have, and I certainly fear God's judgment because of this.

Where I have always deeply hoped and wished for more from a young age, and thus also the reason why I have managed to develop these gifts to the point where they are now. I have made a life of progress and I have far exceeded my own initial expectations when I started with these gifts that God gave me.

The conflict between how my life has played out and what the word of God says in the Parable of Talents has me worried. I reconcile myself to the will of my supreme Father in Heaven, I want Him to make of me just as He chooses. Because I give my life to Him as He gave His life for mine on the cross. I trust Him with my life. It just causes me such immense sadness to exist in this manner, when I've always wanted to use what I have been given. It never worked out to this point, and I don't think I am good for much else beyond the gifts that God gave me.

Does anyone have any words of wisdom for the situation I'm in? I want to look to the future with optimism but now I basically long for my own end so that I can be free of this suffering. This is where I am in life, I look forward to the end, and otherwise I try to do my best today to live for God; to live like today is my last.

Think of all the times you received good things that you didn't deserve, and despite all the times you've wronged someone.

Such was my life.

Didn't think too much of it at the time, let alone as a nonbeliever, but even then, I always noticed how extraordinarily lucky I was to always have something or someone show up at the right moment when things were getting dark or having everything, even the bad, work out for the good.

I was born with a colloid cyst in the brain, which rendered me unable to talk (all I could do was just scream from what I've been told), yet thankfully my grandparents took me in, which led to my Nana having compassion on me and taking me to Easter-Seals where I got habilitated. Not just that, but I had all the teachers who treated me with nothing but GRACE, even in times which I honestly didn't deserve it, and that is an understatement! I was a terrible student who threw tantrums and rebelled against them, insisting on doing things my way, and I was nothing short of selfish. And despite all that I've done to them, taking them all for granted and being utterly detestable by my deeds, THEY ARE STILL REMEMBERING ME FONDLY AND CHEERING FOR ME! Any other person, if they dealt with someone like me, I can tell you for a FACT things would be VERY different. And that includes the social workers there too, and all other staff.

At my former job, which I hated, though most people were hostile, and my time of working there was unbearable, there was always a few coworkers who treated me decently. And most of the good that came with my job came from customers, which towards the end of my time working there, things were changing and there was no longer anything for me there, as the best coworkers have their shift end early and I'm left pretty much isolated, and because of it, I'd find myself being on the verge of snapping, and I feared that I was gonna act out and do something I was going to regret, but then one day, I'd be working on that tobacco lane, and a girl would come into my lane to buy a pack of ciggys. I didn't think much of her young appearance apart from it being a shame to waste her good looks. Turned out she was underage, and it was a sting operation, and that led to me getting fired. I could've gotten arrested for that, but nah… they simply let me go.

I'd normally be freaking out about that (the fired part, not the ciggys part), but instead, I felt peace. And things worked out in my favor, as about a month later, I'd get hired on the spot by a guy who turned out to have been one of my many customers, and he remembered me. And from there, in my new job (and current), I was treated like family by all my coworkers, and I couldn't be more thankful.

There is more, like meeting a good friend on that dating site by extreme luck, as well as a great therapist, which emphasizes always having something or someone show up at the right time. And lastly, with the part that led to me being saved: getting kicked out of a suicide cult.

Looking back, had it not been for any of that, especially in the last seven years, I'd either be dead, locked up in either prison or a ward, or better yet, remained mentally handicapped, which I've pretty much seen the fruits of that. But in the end, the more I reflect on those good things, well… the more my faith is solidied that there is a God, and he is GOOD. And THIS is his GRACE.

Before being saved, I've done a lot of terrible things, and I mourn for them; I was a womanizer who used to not only look at porn, but took advantage of girls I talked to on Skype, in needy positions. and I've bullied people. I once basically raped my cousin at the age of 8. And in my selfish pursuit of my own death, I led people to their own, helping them kill themselves. And there was so much more; the list is endless. I used to not be so bothered by it and justify myself as being “more righteous than others”, but in the end, I'm a sinner who doesn't even deserve to live, let alone any good thing. Yet here I am. Shown mercy, being called out of the darkness I've walked and forgiven. As immediately upon believing, though not yet coming to the truth about Christ Jesus, all my addictions and vices fell off of me.

And though I was self righteous and utterly prideful, God was patient enough to humble me and lead me to the truth by his word, keeping me from getting yoked into false doctorines of doing works to be saved or going to “deliverance ministries”, and all that. And when I went through hard times, he was there. And whenever I fell short and ended up wanting to give up, I would be reminded of his ever-enduring love and grace as despite my errors and folly, he'd never let me go.

Long story short, if he can forgive someone like me, so can he forgive you!

If this has meant something (to the unbeliever) and you wish to also know the truth that sets you free, here is the truth:

We've all sinned against a Holy God, and because of our rebellion, we are deserving of condemnation, and none of our good works will ever be enough to save us. The law of God calls for perfection, and because we've fallen short of it, we are under judgment. But God loved us despite our broken and sinful nature, and he knows we can never do what he calls for us to do. So, out of his love, he came down in the form of his only begotten son, Christ Jesus of Nazareth. He walked a sinless life, fulfilling the entire law of the prophets, to die a sinner's death on the cross, his BLOOD was shed, and he rose on the third day, that whoever simply believes on him shall never perish but have everlasting life. And the moment you believe on Him, you are given a new heart, and the indwelling Spirit, who will lead you to all truths and guide you on the path of righteousness! And you are SEALED unto the day of redemption, and no one can snatch you out of His hand!

For we are saved by GRACE through FAITH, and that is NOT of ourselves; it is a GIFT of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast. (Ephesians 2:8–9)

not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to His mercy He saved us, through the washing of regeneration and renewing of the Holy Spirit, (Titus 3:5)

Simply learn to not take things personally?

Or react humbly around someone who seems to find error easily

I find myself very anxious around these people

I'm 16 and I'm constantly facing emotional abuse. Everytime I make mistake even if it's as small as forgetting to close my window at night, my grandmother will shame and humiliate me in front of my relatives, her friends and even guests, and sometimes even fat shame me even though I'm only slightly overweight. I feel so miserable and I'm just asking God to help me cope in this time.

I saw this post: https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/18iknur/redditors_who_have_died_and_come_back_to_life/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web3x&utm_name=web3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button

I wondered if so many people experienced a peaceful few moments after dying and before being revived, is it possible for non-Christians to have a peaceful afterlife? I assume most of the people commenting there are not Christian so how did so many of them have good experiences and not straight-to-Hell, bad experiences?

I dreamed that the moon had turned black followed by a fiery black and red planet passing over the sky. When this happened the people around me only cared about material things. Getting excited about new cars and gadgets. Some where just watching the moon without a care in the world.

It's could be a run of the mill dream but its been on my mind so I thought I'd ask the people here.

I know that in the last days that the moon, stars, and sun will change. Also I am familiar with Joel 2:28. I am man on the younger side at 25.

I found the end confusing and a bit short…

1. Didn’t Job fail the test? Satan was sent out to make him rebuke God, Job was very upset with Him and questioned Him until the Lord manifested himself directly to him…

2. Job’s friends were not being spoken to, so they did not speak to God, but God was angry with them for not speaking up? They even tried talking Job out of his depression and anger/ questioning with God, and setting him on the righteous path?

3. The ending paragraph about how Job’s life turned out seemed rather rushed. He was given double of what was stolen from him by Satan and then lived to be 140.

I have been single since I was 18 and I am now 30. I live by myself in an apartment in China. I enjoy being single but I do want someone to share my life with. Is online dating a good idea or is it not worth it? I don't know how to go out on dates and I am not sure who to ask out. Nobody is really catching my eye, or if they do they can't speak any English. I am also not sure if there are any Christians who live here, maybe there are but it probably isn't something they would reveal so easily.

My heart's desire is to find love. Love in God or love in a girlfriend or something. Any form of love that would cure my pain and loneliness. Fine. Praise the Lord! However I have almost completely given up on the fact that he'll provide that for me. I have no desire to improve myself nor will i try because i don't think God will approve nor will he accept. These are the solutions i get whenever i go online for help.

• Read your bible more
• Serve more
• Put God first (duh)
• Scripture barrage (usually irrelevant to the topic and most scriptures feel like they are just telling you to "Suck it up. Im not helping you")
• Don't focus on that, focus on God and his kingdom (If i haven't been doing that then, what have i been doing for 3-5 years? Not like 3-5 years mean diddly squat to God)
• Your feelings don't matter (not directly said, but definitely implied)
• Hold my sparkling water while I crush your hopes (full-blown guilt trip on how desiring anything but Christ is sinful)
• Pray about it. (As if i haven't prayed before coming on here for help)
• Go outside and work on yourself. (I hate myself. I feel like anything i do wouldn't matter)

Which are good solutions. Which I would say if they helped at all. I give up. I feel as if i should stop asking and continue life as if the gaping hole in my is and was never there. There are many people that have the same problem. So I must not matter.

I'm out of hope. I'm stuck. I'm in a lustful/repentful loop. I'm going crazy. I want to give up. But I know i shouldn't. I don't know what to do. It feels like i never do. Even when i technically do, I don't. Will my unfaithfulness be the reason he doesn't bless me with the one thing I crave?

I see a decent amount of sodomites on Reddit who say they are saved and are somewhat solid when it comes to the Bible but yet admit to still having a reprobate mind. The reason I say they are sodomites is because they admit to still burning in lust toward the same gender : vile affection which they often try to make sound not as bad by wording it as “same sex attraction”. I have a few questions for people who do not believe in the reprobate doctrine that I would like to ask.

My first question is the title. Do you believe that these people who are still turned over to a reprobate mind are saved?

Second question. For those who believe that one with a reprobate mind is not saved. Do you believe that a sodomite can be saved and that when they are sealed with The Holy Spirit they return to a normal mind and their reprobate mind is gone? This would make them instantly straight and their vile affection would go away immediately.

Last question for those who believe that there are saved sodomites who are both turned over to a reprobate mind and sealed with The Holy Spirit. How do you explain your belief that God would allow a born again Christian to be so disgusting? Being a sodomite is the result of being punished by God (recompense of their error) and it is the worse punishment we have seen with our eyes. That would have to be hell on earth to be so gross. I’d take getting ate by any animal alive or being a slave for the rest of my life over being turned over to a reprobate mind. I don’t see how God could allow someone he loves to suffer from that kind of punishment. How do you answer that?

Hey friends. I lost my faith years ago, and I still am dying to believe but simply can’t. I feel quite stuck and sad :/

This was a good read : reflections

I prayed to God for 2 signs actually - both pointing at 2 different outcomes. The first sign manifested that very same day & on 2 separate occassions after that. But a few days after I saw the sign for outcome 2 as well, seeing it made me feel anxious and confused. What can this mean? How do I know what God is telling me?

Your sacrificial dedication is a bright beacon of light in a dark world often shadowed by civil unrest and uncertainty. Through your unwavering commitment, you choose to answer the high calling to nurture souls, uplift hearts, and encourage others with the transformative power of preaching the gospel.

In your tireless pursuit of knowledge and understanding, you equip yourselves to guide others on their spiritual journey. Your ministry extends beyond the walls of the church, offering solace to the brokenhearted and hope to the weary. You stand out in the streets declaring the good news to anyone who will hear.

With eloquence and conviction, you proclaim the timeless message of the Gospel, giving hope to the weary soul and inspiring transformative change. Your words uplift, your presence comforts, and you keeping giving love even on your bad days.

In an ever changing world so desperately in need of hope, you stand as beacons of light, reminding us of the enduring power of faith and the boundless depths of God's love. You feed us the true word that quickens us and keeps us equipped to be better than we were the day before.

Thank you for your unwavering dedication, your compassionate ministry, and your inspiring leadership. Please don’t give up and always know that we are grateful. You are cherished, appreciated, and I’m thankful for all that you do.

I’ve seen the overwhelming evidence in the Bible that would suggest she has sinned but I’ve also seen evidence to suggest she was sinless and I respect both sources. I am torn between the two and after my research, I really don’t have a conclusive answer on whether Mary was sinless or not. Is it okay to stay inconclusive about this?

In the last couple years, my faith has kinda wavered. I grew up in church, involved in ministries and small groups, etc. My wife’s whole family is full of pastors, dad, both grandpas, uncle, and brother. Well I’ve kinda gone in phases with this doubt and talked about it a bit with my wife. She reassures me often and helps me, but not all the time. Sometimes she’s come to me with the same question of “what if the gospel is a load of crap?” and I reassure her. Well more recently again, I’ve been having issues. I think some of it stems from my current work environment. I recently changed jobs and now sit in an office with several people who are very open about the disbelief in Christianity, and most religion as a whole. Most everything they say is superficial and clearly based of false information they belief about Christianity, but it’s still enough to make me think about it in my free time. I do believe it’s good to go through seasons of doubting as it builds a stronger relationship and belief in the gospel. My issue is lately the idea of death and permanence and eternity. Not sure why, but I keep getting stuck on the thought that everything I know will end, and eternity will begin. I think about how awesome life is and then I think how one day I’ll close my eyes and cease to exist. I believe in Heaven, but sometimes I struggle with that. I feel like, if we’re wrong, man death is such a scary thing. I’ve always had a positive outlook on it due to my faith, but when I don’t have that strength, it puts me in a bad spot. A song that’s been resonating with me lately is “Faith Is”, by Benjamin Hastings. I love his stuff both on his own and the stuff he’s done with Hillsong, but this song really explains exactly how I feel lately. I’m not sure what will help me, maybe some one on one counseling, but is there anything you guys can provide me? Thanks!

There are people who are falsely accused and you can believe that God knows your heart, so that you can forgive and turn the other cheek without becoming prideful or defensive.

But I have come across circumstances where people in sin say “God knows my heart”.

I truly believe that people can feel convicted and desperately want to change and continue to confess, ask for forgiveness and repent and say “God knows my heart”, saying God knows they are remorseful and feel the conviction and truly want to change.

But then there are the people who continue to live in sin and say “God knows my heart”. As almost like a belief that God forgives them because in their heart they’re actually a good person, they have good intentions, they are getting joy or happiness and mean no wrong and God loves them.

So, maybe you fall into or have fallen into one of these groups or know of someone who has. What is your opinion on this? What would you say to the people of the last group who are in currently living in sin as a Christian and say that God knows their heart?

I am genuinely interested in the answer by the catholics. As I am trying to learn their thought on this. I hope that no one trys to harass them and that I don't come off as uncharitable in my question.

St. Jerome, although he translate for the vulgate, had a disagreement about the canonization of the apocrapha. As one source states "St. Jerome distinguished between canonical books and ecclesiastical books. The latter he judged were circulated by the Church as good spiritual reading but were not recognized as authoritative Scripture. The situation remained unclear in the ensuing centuries...For example, John of Damascus, Gregory the Great, Walafrid, Nicolas of Lyra and Tostado continued to doubt the canonicity of the deuterocanonical books".

Then with the council of Trent it seems to be saying that anyone who disagrees with that canonization and it's authority "let him be anathema". From my understanding of Trent, they stated that even the apocrapha has the authority on doctrinal issues. So does that mean that St. Jerome, according to the council of Trent, should be posthumous anathema? Or what am misunderstanding.

When I was young and unconverted I wrote a five chapter fanfiction Pokemon saga about a romance between two of the main characters. It was truly awful in terms of quality when I reread it very recently. But part of me was nostalgic and the story was very much unfinished. The perfectionist in me wanted to finish it, so on a whim I spent like two hours writing a sixth chapter which of course went unread I believe. Yet, I loved being able to write that new chapter about silly Pokemon characters.

I actually went in and started writing a whole new fanfiction, which I have not done in years, I am currently two thousand characters into this new fanfiction which is a total overhaul of the old one. I even planned to make each chapter have a lesson that I’ve learned as I’ve matured and that I’ve been taught through my faith (I.E. suffering produces endurance (Rom 5:3-5)). STAY WITH ME. I also used to be in these dorky writing fantasy roleplay groups where I engineered these deeply complex characters that I still think about sometimes as if they’re a part of me if that makes sense.

HERES THE TENSION. I’m 17 years old. I need to grow up fast and be a man as if I’m not a spiritual leader in my community people will suffer. I feel like this new writing interest I’ve picked up on is a sign of immaturity as it’s not even fiction it’s FANFICTION. But I am enjoying writing it so so much. Help me know what to do! Do I stop writing this? Will it be a distraction? Should I write real fiction that I can sell so I can start a family soon? I feel so foolish and immature but I feel like writing helps me finally have an outlet for all this pent up creative energy I’ve been suppressing. Yet again, it’s fanfiction which is immature. Please give me advice!

I was never given a good family. My upbringing was with less oportunities, I lacked the basic guidance every child should have.

Never had friends. Never was really loved.

Those who said they would guide me, turned away from me.

To make something out of myself, I decided that I had to become rich, reach a million dollars. With that much money, nobody would be able to control me.

I'm trying. It's hard. I've been failing again, again an again.

I try to be kind, nobody cares about me.

I pray to God, my prayers go ignored.

If He is real, I am sure He hates me.

I'm okay with going alone. I was alone my whole life.

This is my last shot at faith.

Is there another way?

I usually don't like to use social media as a way to solve things, but in this case, having more perspective would help me solve my issue of compulsive/pathological lying.

To make my situation more specific since I don't know which one it is, sometimes I'll lie, sneak around, or withhold information (mainly about myself) to avoid a conflict or outcome that I perceive will give me a consequence, so I'll lie to delay it despite the fact it makes the eventual consequence even worse in the future. For a hypothetical example, let's say I'm 12 and don't tell my parents I have bad grades in school because I fear that if I do, that they'll be disappointed in me. However, when they eventually get that report card, they're gonna know anyways.

Sometimes I'll even lie for no reasons other than just to maybe 'relate' to someone I'm talking to or to satisfy myself. And for some reason, I have difficulty being vulnerable and honest when I want/need something, so I feel the need to sneak around, hide stuff, or etc to get what I want (which I understand is manipulative, that's why I want answers on how you guys stopped doing all of this stuff because of how gross it is).

I really wanna stop lying and feeling like I have to do under the table things to have my needs met (which are...pretty basic and there's no reason to sneak or lie at all when I think about it). I wanna know if anyone has gone through this and overcame it, not just someone throwing a psychology book at me. I wanna know and hear from other Christians who went through this or are currently going through this. I don't wanna do it. It makes me feel like crap each time I do it. It's hurting my goals in life. It's hurting my relationships. Someone please tell their experience and give me tips as to how they overcame it. Because I have no idea.

Isaiah 31:1

Woe to those who go down to Egypt for help, who rely on horses, who trust in the multitude of their chariots and in the great strength of their horsemen, but do not look to the Holy One of Israel, or seek help from the LORD.

Sometimes all you have to do is ask God for help.

God in the midst of the suffering of his people is waiting for them to turn to him and admit that their own strength will not save them except the Lord's.

Simply say "Lord, help me!"

A slight but unyielding reason forces me to my knees. “Lord, please forgive me. Please guide me.” A voice from within says: “I shall; read the Bible. You will quit your job. You will not leave your room, you will only read your Bible.” I try to wiggle away from the burden. “Fine,” says the voice, “you don’t have to quit your job.” But just then, that slight, unyielding reason returns: “this is a lie. You must quit or you will burn.”

“David, God is barely making allotment for you to be pardoned. You must live in fear all the time; you must do everything the right way.”

And so I try to do everything the right way. My parents look at me as if I am insane; I hardly recognize myself in the mirror anymore. If my mind strays from God for a second, just for a second, it is as if I will be turned into a pillar of salt.

I feel the fear.

Is this normal?

In the Bible as the few times I read it front to back I have yet to really see anything regarding Sunday being a worship day. I only see sabbath and don’t see anything in relationship to the sabbath being null and void in the Bible. Is there something I missed or is Sunday worship just a tradition of man that happened at some point in history after the death of the apostles?