I didn't even know it was initially a hallucination but every time I sleep, I have the feeling of bugs crawling all over my legs. It's happened a lot of times and it's only recently that I accepted this is a hallucination.

Recently I have stopped throwing off the covers to look for the bugs. It's like I have accepted it's just a hallucination. My question is, should I be concerned? What hallucinations do you experience if any and how do you handle them?

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Hi, I think I'm aware that what I'm experiencing is a delusion. This is what I wrote yesterday:

Does anyone know the answer to this?

I don't know what's wrong with me. It's like I'm aware it's a delusion but it feels so real. It feels like fighting with a brick wall. I'm aware it's a delusion but at the same time I believe it fully. Almost as though I'm trying to pretend I don't at times so the aliens don't catch on. I'm an experiment and I think I've figured out my number. I think I may be experiment number 786, the reason I came to this is because randomly the number '786' is being put everywhere around me This body's parents use it as passwords and so do this body's siblings. I think they may have been programmed to do so. I can't let anyone know that I've caught on to this so I can only say it here. They don't check my phone so hopefully they won't find out. I'm a consciousness that's been put into this body that is trapped here. I need a way to escape. I think the best way is instant death. It's unfair to deal with this body as it's not mine. So, killing it instantly will free me. I've researched ways to do this and I've come with the plan to jump off a tall building head first. Sure it may be scary but that's adrenaline. That's the way to kill this body the fastest. I read that if I land on my back or stomach, that's complications that I have to deal with but landing head first will make the head splat and hopefully I can be pulled out. My physical form is a cord that's attached to my brain and my heart. I could also try to extract it myself but I'd have to cut quite deep and I don't care about the body but I'd have to deal with that. Has anyone else become aware of themselves too? Which number are you? And what is the best way to extract my physical form from this useless body? If you don't understand, you probably haven't become aware yet but be careful because once the aliens know you're aware of their experiment, they could hurt you. We need to stick together so they don't find out

(I'm putting this in this forum so they think that I think of myself being aware as a disorder, this is so they don't find out)

So, that's what I wrote yesterday and it's like, I'm aware this is a delusion but it also feels so real that I feel like I'm being delusional by not thinking it's real? This body is traumatized and has stored that trauma so it's very painful. It feels unfair to have to deal with as this body isn't mine. As if I'm looking out of a tall tower because my physical form is a cord quite high up in the body. I also think when they placed me in here, they didn't do very well and the cord (my physical form) irritates this body's heart. I'm thinking about instant death for the body, but idk what to do. There's a lot of pain in the chest of this body and I've been told it's somatic memories of the trauma? Ugh 🙁😠, it's not even my trauma to deal with or my past. It's so irritating to have to try heal that when it's not mine to heal. I want this stupid useless body to die, it needs to not be alive in order for me to be free. What do I do?

I feel like this isn’t talked about much. I thought I was Jesus, and that led to me thinking that a Christian rock artist I listen to was my daughter. I also thought we were in a secret relationship, since she once said she was “married to Jesus” in one of her books. I do have a crush on her, so that makes it harder.

I’m convinced she knows about it, cause there are songs on her new album that feel specific to me. I just try to remind myself I’m a nobody to ground myself. What would a famous person want with me anyway?

Does anyone have any similar experiences? I’d love to hear them!

It's really scary cause they talk to me about things I'm insecure about. I can see and hear them. Then they vanish. I can't move or talk for a while afterwards. Sometimes I think I'm in a different place. I think I'm doing something I'm not. Sometimes I think I'm having a conversation only for no one to be there and I wasn't even talking. I get really disoriented. I'll start running away from something only to realize there's nothing there. The reason I know they're not real is because they don't make sense to me or my life. For example I don't think there's people in me causing them. Yet I interact with them. There seems to be 2 of them. They've told me they're controlling my thoughts. They punish me if I tell people about them in that I get really lightheaded. They have names. Im diagnosed with BPD but my family isn't so sure about that. Before I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder.

Like the title says im on Risperidone 7mg a day, last two months i got depresssion and im constantly in bed all day. Anyone had the same symptoms or similar?

Hi, I got my third psychosis one year ago and still feel sad sometimes. I became a little bit blind in one eye because I thought staring at the sun would heal me, I was dating someone really nice and he dumped me because of psychosis, I have to search for a new job and am moving back with my parents in a week. It just feels so sad and I don’t know when it will get better. I wish I didn’t have this disorder, it ruins so much.

Luckily now I’m on the right meds which help and I hardly notice and I still have a job and income. Has anyone gotten out of the bad times with better times ahead?

This is my diagnosis. If anyone has the same please share how it’s going for you and what you take for it. Thank you!

why does psychosis have the effect on completely self destructing your life. i ended up deleting my entire everything... lost so many important files relating to my hobbies.. all because i thought my delusions were real. I thought the whole wolrd was out to get me and planting evidence on my hardrive.

then when i enter the recovery stage im fucken sad that i deleted everything, hope yall understand what i mean

Everyday just feels so empty and redundant. I lost my whole routine and hobbies. It feels so unnatural to not have my old life. Everything basically got blown away. I'm always in my room now. I used to go for walks and see familiar faces, they are all gone. I lost my hobbies of making music and photography/crafts/cooking. Things will be never be the way they used to. My room is always a mess now and my health/physique isn't great or my diet. It's lonely. Even though I have my sister. Me and my brother don't talk and my parents are more miserable too. I just miss the old days when things seemed positive and bright. When I would watch movies with my brother. It feels like I actually just died after my psychosis ended and am now stuck in purgatory. My life has become so void. It just feels like this endless void.

Hey, just released from the hospital after a psychotic episode and I'm experiencing really severe brain fog. I constantly feel uncomfortable, it feels like a perpetual minor headache, I have no appetite and can't focus on anything. I don't feel safe driving.

I've seen others on this sub talking about how this state can last for months. Is there anything I can do to reduce the symptoms and impact of the brain fog?

Thank you

I'd love to meet up and have friends that experienced what I went through.

I've had a very episodes of psychosis in the past, and I think I can feel myself slipping into another one. The thoughts and beliefs are starting to feel more real but I can't say them in case that makes them more real. In the past, my partner would help ground me or distract me or reality test the things that scare me but now I'm alone and I'm not sure what to do. I'm in my bathroom and I'm scared to leave it but I can't say why. Anyone have things you do when you feel like this?

Hi guys, I've been sensing things that aren't there for a very long time. I remember telling my bio dad who fed into it, he told me had hoped it had skipped me but that our family had a lot of psychics and people who could see and sense things. Only problem is that these things that I sense usually want to hurt me.

I mentioned it to my therapist who told me that hallucinations are quite common with BPD. I'm generally good at avoiding things that trigger it, I have a routine of turns lights in an order, mirrors face away from bed, curtains closed at night, doors closed unless lights are on in both rooms.

I don't see things in front of me, it's more that I perceive them and sometimes see an almost overlay in mind and my body goes into fight or flight.

Problem is that I have horses, I try to manage feeds around the dark but as we getting deeper into winter, it's not feasible. I've been feeling a presence with no imagery, just an instant total fear response, from a specific spot every night and it terrifies me. I feel like I'm being watched. It's not a person, the land is attached to the house and I sort the horses at a slightly different time every night. This part of the field is also not visible from the road. The dog also comes with me and she is extremely protective, but not bothered, nor are the ponies. I try to use to convince myself that it's all in my brain.

My bf (autistic,pagan and a believer) sorted the horses the other night. And told me he felt it too and I instantly started crying. He told me that it wasn't dangerous and meant no harm. Since then, I haven't been able to feel it's presence and I'm almost more scared, I keep expecting to feel it from somewhere else, to creep up on me.

I have never told my psychiatrist about this because the last one put me on antipsychotics and told me they were sleeping pills, also threatened to put me the hospital and that I wouldn't like it because there's crazies there so I'm still a bit distrustful. I have an appointment with him in 2 weeks and I think I'm going to mention it.

Any one have any advice? I'm sick of being terrified in the dark. I'm planning to put lights from the fence to the part where I sense this but it's just plaster and I don't want to live like this anymore.

The worst part of my psychosis was the months after it when I could not sit down even for 30 seconds, my skin felt like there was spiders crawling under it, I could not stop walking in circles like I would wake up and just walk in circles for literally the entire day my legs would give out but I’d still have to walk. Even when eating I had to walk so I resorted to only eating bread rolls since I couldn’t use a plate. Even though I was exhausted I couldn’t lie down in bed so I’d have to wait for my olanzapine to knock me out. Anyway I wouldn’t wish it on anyone it was by far the worst 3 months of my life, has anyone else experienced this ?

So, I’ve just been taken on by a psychosis team and I’ve not yet seen the doctor to get meds I have my first full appointment a week on Tuesday. I am currently on Prozac that I was given I guess while they worked out what was going on with me. I have funny side effects and I worry that it could make me worse as it’s not an anti psychotic. Also what medication do they give people to start on usually?

We’ll be talking to the dr but I like hearing from real people taking these meds. He’s taken olanzapine and respiradone.. needing to change soon. What are some effective ones that also have less side effects? Less lack of emotion and weight gain.

My best friend just tried to end his life he just told please let me die he told me he is suffering from psychotic delusions,I just watched it on Google it told me they are false beliefs,but how the hell can delusions force someone to end their lives please can someone explain me.

I'm not diagnosed with psychosis but have a question for antipsychotics so thought this would be the place.

I used 2.5 mg olanzapine lowest dosage for OCD, when i first used it, the first pill was really strong, made me sleepy and took all my thoughts. other pills don't do the same effect, like no point to using because i don't feel like I took a pill, and it should be a strong pill i guess?

just curious, am I developed resistance to it, or it doesn't do any effects because i'm not psychotic?

some people talk about side effects even on the lowest dosage, i don't feel anything. i think i am just lucky?

I understand you do not have the answer to this question just looking to vent I'm your stereotypical savant with charisma but as I age more I display more symptoms of autism of course the bipolar and ADHD doesn't help with that I just don't understand why I differ so much from the "average" person!

Not even trying to seek attention just seeking someone to talk to I'm only 14 man

i'm starting a new job on monday. i jsut got back from treatment. it was nice in treatment because i had friends. now they aren't even responding to my messages anymore. i don't have any friends at home. i used to have a ton but i lost all of them due to a couple manic episodes. can anyone else relate?

I don’t want to offend anyone by posting as I know most people don’t have a choice. I had psychosis/mania last December cannibis-induced and it has destroyed my life. I lost all my friends, my family relationships have been severely damaged, I lost all motivation for life and dropped out of college with only a year left. In the weeks after it I started making changes, stopped smoking weed, took my meds religiously and genuinely wanted to get better and have a good life but as time dragged on, a self sabotage urge grew and I stopped taking my meds and started smoking again and of course it happened again, I haven’t smoked since but I want to just to become psychotic again and I don’t understand why I want to bring this on myself, I’m throwing my life away and I feel like I’m watching it on the sideline. Sorry if this was insensitive but I want to know does anyone else think like this

There are the BIG hallucinations, especially the ones the media loves to misrepresent and create a stigma over. But what are your "minor" hallucinations? The ordinary, daily ones? Mine are:

- I can't use my phone on vibrate if I put it in my pocket because I keep hallucinating vibrations when there is no message, so I miss actual messages.

- If I am carrying a water bottle or any liquid in a container, I feel it leaking and dripping on me. Drives me crazy. One time I decided not to give a fuck about it, and it was actually leaking on me.

- If I click on a video while the sound is off, I will hallucinate a very low volume of random video voice or a song as the video plays. I have to make sure over and over that the sound is off.

- Objects and figures moving around the room. Very very faint ones. Sometimes more prominent if I am especially stressed. You know when you're aware that you're hallucinating but you can't make it stop, so you just look at somewhere else and try to ignore whatever the fuck your brain is doing? Yeah. Sometimes I'm trying to listen to the lecture, and shit's moving and swirling and there are figures passing, so I'm just trying to nod my head at the professor as if I understand whatever they're teaching, and just trying to ignore the whole show going on behind them.

- Minor sounds like elevator button pressing sound, clicking sound, taps or footsteps, echoes...

- Smells. In stressful days, I can smell the "remains" after humans touch things. Like, feeling some sort of warmth and "human smell" radiating from common objects like doorknobs, etc.

- When it rains, I sometimes hallucinate HUNDREDS of worms on the sidewalk. Hundreds of them.

- Ants. I used to feel ants on my skin, all over my legs, even SEE them. Not anymore, thankfully.

And yeah, I am on meds. It's as good as it can get.

I don't have as many visual hallucinations as I used to but recently there's this hanger in my closet that started waving at me while there were colors swirling around it. I'm still in a simulation and I don't believe that I nor anyone else is real. I try to distract myself from these things but once I stop believing what "isn't true" then instantly something else comes along. In therapy the other day I started discussing traumatic stuff and felt embarrassed and shameful then started I guess panicking and then felt like I was reliving an experience and I saw it happening again like I was watching it and started screaming and crying and since then my beliefs have gotten to be more frequent and the things that normally help and distract me are making it worse so I don't really know what to do. There's people in my head implanting thoughts and beliefs and it's making it difficult to know what in my head is real and what isn't. I have been told before I have psychosis but I don't really believe them because it's my reality. There was a time where I was more "aware of it" but I don't remember what I had to do to get to that point. My "meds" I believe are not medication I believe they are either placebos or some kind of poison similar to cyanide but slower acting. Any time people ask me to explain it to them I try to then they just tell me I'm weird or crazy. My entire life people said I was weird and crazy and they don't understand and they never will. Nobody understands

Anyone who’s stopped a medication that took away libido how long did it take for yours to come back

It's so hard not to give in to the hunger cues. After taking antipsychotics I've gained 20kg or 44lbs in about 11 months.

I hate this so much. None of my clothes fit from last year...

I want to become fit more than anything. Losing weight would be an important byproduct.

What is your diet like to atleast avoid more weight gain? If not lose. And any fitness tips to help the weightloss?

Hi I'm 24 yr old and had 4 psychosis episode so far. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder my question is I sleep 12-14hrs a day and feel tired always apart from that I feel normal. is my diagnosis with bipolar disorder is right? I consulted another psychiatrist and he diagnosed me with schizophrenia so I'm confused

During my 2nd hospitalization last year , I shared a room with a guy in his 50s who kept sending emails to the prime minister of Canada. Not threatening emails but he was spamming his inbox with delusional conspiracy theories and articles. Police officers visited him and took him to the hospital under form 3. I thought that was weird, did not know you can get locked up for that. Whats your weirdest experience at the psych ward?