Can I use cocaine if I have schizophrenia?

Hello, everyone

Is anyone here on Vryalar and is on medicaid? If so, how are you able to afford the medication without private insurance? Thank you.

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Its something i think i should talk about

Its like i feel like i cant fully control what im doing actively when im doing whatever im doing

This is why im afraid to drive im afraid my mind is gonna make me do something i dont wanna do

It happens if when i play basketball against somebody

My shot would always hit the rim and go out

But when i play by myself i can hit shots sometimes

It also happen when i play fortnite Whatever im actively doing i cant do it right or how im supposed to do it due to not feeling motivated or enjoying it

Title says it all. Spent 3 weeks in a psychiatric facility and came out hardly able to talk to people. Over the past two months it’s gotten substantially better but still feel alone in this fight.

I was also substantially over medicated but luckily I think we have that under control now. Just trying to get my hobbies back and find a job to preoccupy my day.

I am wanting to become an electrician because I have a strong background in the concert entertainment industry. I’m hopeful I get the job.

Anyways schizophrenia was a major blow but things are starting to turn out.

Just to give some background I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective 3 years ago. Previously I had been diagnosed with add, anxiety, and ocd. My initial flare up which led to a most recent diagnoses started when covid hit. I never had delusions or auditory hallucinations. During this time I was experiencing mostly anger with college courses being up in the air still. Long story short I ended up dropping out of college in 2022. I have been on an Abilify injection since 2021 when I was inpatient at a Psych Ward and am still on it. I was forced on this injection in order to leave the hospital. This injection takes the life out of me and I accomplish nothing everyday. I want to come of the injection but parents say I have to be on it if I want to live here. I don't know what to do and am in a bit of a hole.

Any thoughts would be helpful

This might be a bit long but PLEASE bare with me..

So long story short, my friend was diagnosed with schizophrenia like 2 years ago and I've been with him ever since (on and off) on an insane healing journey.

Right now he's taking medication and his hallucinations are almost completely gone (thankfully)

However, he gets EXTREMELY burnt out from doing basic things. This can be as talking to people, doing some work on his laptop or even taking a simple walk.

This is obviously a HUGE problem because he's unable to work or develop any skills. The longest he can go without burning out is around 1 hour of focused work.

Now I know this is a common symptom of schizophrenia, but is there any way to alleviate this? Please share with me what worked for you!

Is this psychological? or does he possibly need his medication changed?

If you have any questions about him please let me know!

Quick description of his daily routine:
He goes to the cafe, smokes hookah and a cup of coffee. Takes a walk then spends the rest of the day home mostly sleeping.

I've seen this on several posts and wanted to have a discussion on it. When I was still not medicated, I would see things with my eyes closed, this manifested in several ways. One example of this was seeing cartoons, like Mickey Mouse characters. I would sometimes also see some beautiful moving artwork, as if somebody was showing me their artistic skills. Another one was seeing white texts on a black background. My voices were telling me that I was God, so I was wondering why would I be on Earth if that was the case. And one morning after waking from a nap a text was burnt into my eyes even after I started blinking saying "Because God is sick and tired of everybody". The third example was seeing images that were pornographic in nature. Like naked women, lingerie, penetration etc. Has something similar ever happened to you?

I can't take it all anymore, all these hallucinations, my vision is shit, my mother is the devil, she made me ill, for years it was just stress, stress, stress and arguments, never showed any understanding for my condition, this woman is literally the damn devil!!! I've gotten myself into debt because of her, I'm mentally screwed, the depression won't stop, the hallucinations won't stop, I'm 24 and I really want to end it... I know there's always someone who's worse off, but I'm a weak, broken soul now who can't get anything done, I can't work, I'm only getting welfare until February and then I'll have to see what I do, I'm literally living for nothing, my life is a depressive chaos which is just shit. why does such a goddamn illness have to happen to me? I don't take drugs, no alcohol, I'm the only one in the family with this shitty diagnosis, no one else in the family can ever understand my suffering!!! I have other neurological illnesses besides schizophrenia, it's so crazy, I just can't live like this anymore, I was such a fun-loving person, I went out, had a great job in marketing, met friends, went on vacation, originally wanted to get my driver's license this year and be self-employed next year, but now it's all gone because my mother played a big part in me being mentally handicapped. Only debts, only hallucinations, doctors who have no idea what they're doing and the depression that eats me up every day... I'm sorry for this endless text, I'm really just at the end of my patience :( I hope this nightmare ends at some point :(

Is there anyone here from germany that I can talk to? I'm not feeling well at all :(

When I skip doses of my meds sometimes I start thinking “How is me taking a medication going to stop other people from harming me?” Shouldn’t other people be taking the meds since they threaten me? My psychiatrist asked me if I believed my medication would take away those paranoid thoughts. I said to him that I don’t know how it could? Has anyone thought and realized this before?

Need advice

Is there withdrawals to quitting Abilify? I'm on Invega and read there are no withdrawals.

i stopped taking my meds and I'm thinking of smoking pot again, what are the odds I'll sslip into psychosis?

I was diagnosed with schizophrenia for almost 2 years im 16 and I have hallucinations and delusions, I have no signs of bipolar and I have family with bipolar and schizophrenia. My sister and my girlfriends brother have bipolar and they are nothing like me, my doctors who I just met yesterday says I'm bipolar by just having a hour long conversation with me. I was diagnosed with bipolar before but it didn't make sense to the doctors at the hospital. They gave me divalproex and told me to stay on respiradone I told them I didn't wanna stay on that because it gives me muscle spasms. The doctor wasn't even listening to me and it's making me angry. I had a really good doctor but she didn't know how to help me, so she suggested me to her supervisor. I'm soon just gonna go noncompliant with the meds and start all over again. I've had hallucinations since I was about 5 and now I'm worried about what this will do to me. My muscle spasms are already pretty bad and it hurts. I'm suggesting a new doctor because she sucks.

Day 1:

My mind felt quiet, and my emotions were more intense, but not overwhelming. I think my feelings have been dulled since my symptoms began, so this was a change. I did experience severe acid reflux and heartburn, though.

I’m currently tapering off Abilify, taking half the dose now, and have about two more weeks until I’m fully off it.

Day 2:

Same feeling of calm today, and I feel less paranoid about my coworkers being out to get me. I usually see patterns of faces and eyes on walls or floors, but that hasn’t happened—even when I try to look for it. Pretty promising so far! The acid reflux and heartburn were about half as bad and only lasted for an hour or so. The new medication seems to be kicking in quickly and is much more effective than Abilify at reducing my symptoms. Also, my memory feels sharper. (Which is wild because I have a crazy good memory already, I’m a software engineer so keeping track of the state of data as code manipulates it is important.)

Hello. I have been experiencing hallucinations. I do not have schizophrenia, but I wasn't sure where else to post this. Sorry if this is not the correct Reddit.

I saw a real spider in my bed for the second time, and it set me off again and I've been seeing them everywhere I look but when I go to look at them they're gone (assuming not real). I feel them on/in me occasionally and I am jumping at everything. I went to take a walk outside and the leaves falling were messing with me so I'm in a different part of my house now. How do I deal with this? I started having them 2 months ago and it stopped for a bit, but I've been seeing things again lately. Not really scary things until now again. I hate this so much and I just want to make it stop.

Does anyone else really struggle to watch movies? I get extremely irritated and tired trying to watch them. It's sort of sad because they used to be such a big part of my life and I currently work in the industry. Just curious if anyone else experiences the same problem.

Has anyone taken fanapt? If so what were the side effects you experienced, I quit vrylar 9 days ago still no delusions but I'd like to try 1.5mg just in case.

Hello people,

Just to share about something that works a bit for me. I have a relapsed few month ago and negativ symptoms increased. So I am doing again my adapted cold shower the morning and it helps me get my stuff done for the morning hours. The effect get less strong as the day goes, but it gives me some hours of effective motivation.

Regular cold shower do not work for me and increase my disorganization. Maybe because schizophrenia is stress related and that cold shower is actually stressfull for the body. So here is the protocol that get me working and not lost in mental confusion :

• First, I take my usual very warm morning shower (i dont dring coffee, warm shower during the morning is what wake me up).
• When my body is warm and I feel I got enough warm water (can be 10 minutes, or 20 minutes. Dont juge me please ^^') I reduce warm water to have temperature were I feel OK but that is not pleasant.
• I put water on my back and from this point I will look for the temperature that is cold enough to make me gasp. Not more. My purpose is really just to provoc a gasp for air, not colder.
• When I get the right temperature and I gasp for air, I expose my back and my chest with it during 10 to 20 seconde, then stop my shower and begin my day.

If I go too far and get colder, I trigger disorganisation and I can not work nore focus on anything. If I get the good gasp, I can focus.

Hope it helps.

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I have it when my symptoms blossom it goes between my legs and I see all kind of porn like gay porn

Hey, hello. I'm looking for advice or smth.

I don't see and hear things as much as I feel them. I'm delusional more often than hallucinating, and I'm paranoid as hell.

Here's my main concern, I have stopped taking my medication for around a week now. (Before you come for me, I have my very valid reasons. I can explain more if you need.)

So far, the paranoia, delusions, and voices and stuff are about the same as they were on medication. My only problem is there's something on my back. I know it's not real, but I feel like a demon or something is literally clinging to my back. I can't get rid of the feeling. You know that feeling when you're being watched, and you can feel the hairs stand up on the back of your neck? Or when you turn out the basement lights and have to run as fast as you can up the stairs because you feel like something is following you? I have the feeling 24/7. I'm trying not to let it bother me. I survived for years with this as a child before I was diagnosed, so surely I can make it again? I just can't shake it! I've been rotting in my bed for the past 4 days just trying to distract myself from the horrible pressure on my back. I haven't seen the sun in over a month. (I have an overnight job and I sleep during the day.)

Is this something I should be concerned about? I was completely fine for years and I only had my first psychotic episode this year. I keep trying to convince myself that I can survive without medication. Maybe I'll learn to live with this creepy feeling and I'll be fine. What should I do?

It‘s crazy because everywhere I am in the moment I literally hear strangers talking telepathically to me answering all my crazy loud thoughts and my mind is will start racing, my thoughts spiraling out of control and I just feel tense and stressed out.. Then I constantly get reminded that I have to shut up the thoughts, making me feel like I‘m in war with intrusive thoughts.. I mean if I wasn’t schizophrenic it would be no big deal dealing with horrible thoughts reminding me of crazy things I did and stuff but I‘ve met 20 strangers at least that just were talking telepathically to me.. Like auditory hallucinations 24/7 along with visual like it looks so realistic but this can’t be real unless it’s true it‘s because of my brain Tumor or something.. That’s why I keep waking up in withdrawals? I think I have an artificial intelligence chip etc, that creates psychosis? I‘m on a lot of antipsychotics and mood-stabilizers, but the psychosis never went away it started 4 years ago.. I thought it was because of withdrawal from sedatives? Then there’s also this derealisation that accompanies everything or like I‘m half asleep in my head although I am awake, just apathetic about most stuff but often really tense sometimes on the inside…

When you are hearing voices and you ask someone a question, do they have to answer very loudly for it to be registered, so that it isn't missed under the voices that you hear?

So I’ve been smoking weed since I was 15, I’m 30 now. I got diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 29. So it’s only been a year but I’ve had symptoms for much longer.

I take aripiprazole and Zoloft. I’ve still continued to smoke weed but now when I do, I get these feeling in my temples like little zaps and sometimes pressure…

Has any one else experienced that?

It’s like the mixture of meds and the thc just doesn’t react well in my brain. Well at least that’s what it feels like.

Attached below is todays video link to my “On Conquering Schizophrenia” YouTube channel. Today entails my panacea. Like all, todays video is ever brief and can be viewed amid a global solution.

https://youtu.be/cN_7dzjG9Kk?si=jK6eEos8F1t70J4y

In my last post, I asked you guys for improvements how I could write my character with schizophrenia of my book. Some of you Gave me some advice, which I'm grateful for, but some others seemed offended or descomfortable with how The character portrayed schizophrenia, so I'll briefly explain.

When I was writting, One of The most important things to The plot was for The character to have One specific hallucination but, since I wanted it to be more like a fiction instead of fantasy type of book, I searched to see how people can see hallucinations and, since schizophrenia sounded a good option to add to him, I did.

After making more and more of my story, I asked you about it, which, as I previously mentioned, some of you didnt like the concept, since my character was violent and it perpetuated stigma.

Well, I certainly didn't want to offend any one, therefore, I thought about searching for other mental disorders to write about thag had hallucinations, but, once again, I knew that, since I dont have any medical experience or engage with anyone who has it, portraying any real life mental disorder would just Tarnish the good name all these communities fight for and I would just end up like another brainless media creator creating characters with conditions they dont even know.

Therefore, here's my idea: Instead of using any real life mental disorder (like schizophrenia) on my initially violent character, since the book I'm writting is already a fiction, I was thinking in creating one fictional mental disorder my own. Since, if I did so, I could put The desired symptoms I wanted for him (hallucinations and delusions) and give him more justification why that specific mental disorder I created makes him violent. This way, I hope to be able to keep writting The original story without offending any of you.

But, If you think The idea is still too much interwined with schizophrenia and it still cause stigma, discomfort or offends you, please, let me know and I'll make sure to think of an option that can satisfy all of us

I’m 30 years old, and I lost my younger brother (28) five months ago in the most traumatic way imaginable. He had been diagnosed with schizophrenia and possibly bipolar disorder, but unfortunately, that didn’t spare him from being jailed for five months for a mistake he made, even though he was mentally unwell. When he finally came home, we thought we could support him and help him heal, but that peace lasted only two months before things took a devastating turn.

One Saturday, he sent me a long, chaotic message that ended with him saying he was going to end it all, even urging me to do the same. I could tell he was going through an episode, but I had no idea what was coming. I rushed to where he said he’d be, only to discover he had set himself on fire in public. His bloody footprints were everywhere. The ambulance took him to the hospital, and on the way there, we got the call saying he wouldn’t make it due to the severe burns all over his body.

I couldn’t accept it. I screamed at the doctor on the phone, refusing to believe that my brother was dying. When we got to the hospital, I saw him lying there, barely breathing, covered in burns from head to toe. I’ll never forget that feeling – the helplessness, the disbelief, and the overwhelming grief. He was able to say he loved us one last time before passing away peacefully after a few hours.

In the days that followed, my family and I had to prepare him for burial. Because of our faith, we needed to wash his body, and even though it was painful beyond words, I decided to do it with my friend and cousin. Pouring water over his burned skin and saying goodbye in this way is something I’ll never fully come to terms with.

Since then, life has slowly returned to some kind of ‘normal,’ but I still see his face every night before I sleep. My heart breaks thinking about his suffering, and while I know he’s free from his illness now, I just miss him so much. I’m sharing this here because I know grief takes time, and sometimes it helps to know we’re not alone.