Just wanted to invite anyone who is interested in a BIBLE STUDY to join us tomorrow at 7 PM central time we host BIBLE STUDY via Zoom. If you are interested, please send me a private message and I will send you the link. The goal is to create a community where we can die deep into the word of God together this is a safe place For everyone to come and read the word of God and dive in a little deeper. Hope to see you there!

when it comes to matthew 16:24 which says “if anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me.”, could that be implying that if you are trans you must deny yourself as transgender and revert back to your biological sex and pick up your cross and follow Christ? my old youth pastor used that verse as an example of why i should be a girl as “God intended me to be”, which, never made sense to me, because if i could, i’d be normal and be female and have a “female brain” (as i often describe my experience of being trans as, i’ve always thought like a dude. i always knew i was a dude despite my physical differences. i quite literally have a male brain if that’s a good way of describing it.). like seriously, as much as i wish i could be a normal girl, i cant. believe me, ive tried. but every time i come across this verse my old youth pastors words would always come back to me and remind me of how his words made me feel, so much to the point where i avoid my bible for hours on end, if that makes sense. anyways, my question is, what would be the transgender response to this verse being used as a way to make trans people feel as if they need to deny their obvious trans identities that God gave them in order to fully follow Christ?

Keep forgetting to post this. Peace and love y’all!

Hate to ask this as a nominal conservative and a very believing Christian myself, but are "conservative Christians" just a label for Christian Nationalists?

And if so, are they a lost cause?

Had some interactions with noted theologically conservative folks recently and the takeaway was that they are true believers in the church of MAGA... Christ seemed to be an afterthought if that.

Please help / send advice

I honestly have been feeling sick since late August and have not gotten much relief I plan to go to church and see if Jesus can truly heal me from what I am suffering from. I likely got sick from a virus that did a number on my immune system and I am still recovering 2 months later. I also apologize if I am uploading the same post over and over again.

I am starting to lose hope both mentally and physically although someone gave me some good confidence in a dm I met them on this sub and told me god works through doctors.

I am scared because this infection seems to be spreading I noticed it started from my throat and now it's made its way up to my ears. I pray god cures me soon and I can cured through a doctor. I hope to see an ENT soon however with American healthcare seeing a doctor is going pretty slow. I have never been this sick for this long hence I am more worried about why my immune system can fight what's been happening.

I don't have enough food either and am always often finding myself starving every morning although I plan to go to my local community college soon and get some food from the food pantry I know they have.

Not to mention I am stuck with and living with my transphobic parents who made it clear they won't accept me I have been crying every night from my pain and suffering as well.

the only thing keeping me going is reminding myself I am princesa because I have the mentality of one. And I am gods child for he is the king of heaven.

Apart from me just want to live to be a good lady for the lord and god and I want to live to see it all. I just wish I was not so lonely all the time and had people to talk to but I hardly do.

I could really use some motivation to keep me going right now am I a princesa? And feminine compliments do get me going.

How can I be a loyal and good woman for god and the lord?

“I don’t understand how I’m supposed to feel.Does the fact that you’re a girl make you feel empowered? When you tell someone you go by she/her, are you like “yesss” or like “whatever.” I feel broken
I tried to be a butch girl I tried to be an ani di Franco type girl I tried to be a girly girl I tried to be a businesslike no nonsense girl and it’s not like an immediate revulsion from my spirit it’s just like it’s saying “why?” It just feels like there’s this layer that could be shed

and I can’t get rid of dysphoria no matter what hoops I jump through no matter if I pray or wish or try to think about how great it is to be a woman just take pride in this body it connects you to earth it’s like (female friend) and (female friend) they feel whole and they feel pride this empowers them why why can’t it do that for me I keep pushing and slamming myself against that fucking wall and it won’t fucking budge I’m so angry

am I just supposed to not have feelings about my gender? Like should it just be this tagalong thing I don’t care for? Is that how cis people feel?? Is it just irrelevant?

idk I think for a moment I could be a girl if being a girl was a tagalong thing I don’t care for but then the dysphoria and it just feels like the future doesn’t exist if I’m a girl. I can’t explain it. Its like nothing extends, nothing goes, everything dies here like a limb being perpetually severed. 

But I feel so guilty and wrong being a boy sometimes. I feel like I don’t deserve it. I don’t deserve to be thing that gives joy. It shouldn’t give joy it should be a matter of course. A person’s identity shouldn’t be something that gives excitement, right? It’s who I am, it’s not a toy.”

i wrote this paragraph to one of my friends and I just felt like it encompasses a lot of what I feel right now. can anyone help?

So I have Asperger’s and I’ve suffered from extreme loneliness ever since 8th grade and i want a female clone of myself to be my best friend forever and I can be a feminine guy around her and be my true self. I think a female me would make me feel safe and have the love that I never had in childhood. I know it sounds so weird and stupid but im literally crying rn and I just don’t know why god would make me suffer through loneliness.

So as you all know I am a trans woman however i have transphobic parents. I remember talking to them about trans stuff but they woulr say things like if god wanted to make you a woman god would have made you a woman. However to say that is to say god made me a man so how could they prove that. What if were just seeds from a fruit of gods creation such as you get an apple from god take its seeds and make an apple tree although god gave you the apple it was you who technically planted and made the tree god had no development in that tree.

So I am nothing more then a seed of my parents and seeds of thier parents and so on.

I just wonder why if this is the case why is 99% of the population is fine in thier body but only 1% have issues with being the wrong sex?

i’m having a hard time accepting myself. i know God made me transgender and i know that for a fact. but i find it hard for me to accept myself completely, and i notice that’s the thing that’s preventing me from becoming closer to God. i want to take up a career in ministry and i want to help others grow closer to God, but i can’t do that if i can’t accept myself for who i am. any tips?

For those of you tired of exclusively male language for God, please find here a list of biblical texts that refer to God with feminine imagery:

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1YDkrhIKCVMf5UAHLDnLrgmiq9lxSjGabwELqHNZkZ4E/edit?usp=sharing

Question for the community is there a discord server I can join

I want to say this I feel as if I have reached a point in my life again where I feel so lost and hopeless that I become very depressed and suicidal again. I have not felt this way since 2020 which happened pre-panemic for me. I noticed after 2020 I began to become more happy again in the year 2021 as it was more of a putting my life back together again and saying to myself I survived a great depression now I get to flourish and be happy again. However, over 4 years I noticed I began to become more and more depressed as 2022 felt more like just a normal year, and then 2023 felt like things were going downhill again for me. And then 2024 comes around and I feel very depressed again. I think a large part of this is because I have not lived the way life is meant to I have never made a single real-life friend mostly because of my mental illness. I am 21 now and feel as if I wasted my life doing nothing but sitting in my parent's house I don't know how to be independent at all as my parents basically keep spoon-feeding me at this point and then question often as to why I can't be independent. My 2 siblings I grew up with have already had major success and my parents talk about them and are proud of them yet they see me as the one kid they have who has yet to grow up. Now they kinda expected this with my ADHD they know my mind takes longer to mature. I mean my parents often get mad at me and say things like your 21 and you still don't have a job yet and stuff. My brother told them that everyone grows up differently and I would be the child that the the longest to grow up because of my mental issues.

It's just sad as well here my parents are proud of my older brother and younger sister. Yet to show anything to my parents and yet I am the only trans person in my whole family tree. And my parents would disown me the second they found out. And it's scary for me to think I might be the sibling that just fades away and never gets talked about. I often feel guilty for the thought of wanting to just run away and abandon my parents. I mean my dad is a 20-year vet and he allowed me to have things such as education benefits and health insurance which mind you I am still one. And to come out and say to him I am trans is like going to be a stab in the back for him. Mind you he was just the army when I was still a fetus. I just feel guilty that my dad worked 20 years of investing in me to make him proud and so much more and it's just going to be all for nothing for him. My mom always makes it seem like I owe her something just because she gave birth to me and I often hate that as well.

I mean I am at the stage right now where I am finally planning to leave my transphobic parents' house likely end of the year or the beginning of the next I am just a bit upset right now god or Jesus isn't allowing my plan to be executed in the way I had hoped right now. As I posted several times they told me if they found out I was gay and I was kicked out of the house was a sign I needed to move out as soon as possible and I was no longer safe so I began to plot a plan by June. I had to say bye to a long-time friend back in May although we never met in person our 4-year online friendship was almost 5 mind you felt great and we were almost like sisters because of how close it felt. And It did hurt me, especially all the things they did for me in 2020 they helped me over the thoughts of suicide in 2020 and helped me manage my mental illness. When they left it got to a point I didn't know how to live with the fact I could no longer talk to them. I got all depressed and angry too. Wondering why god and or Jesus was not letting my life go the way I wanted. In June I registered with a homeless agency in hopes because of my age so I could get put into some type of youth transitional housing however I was told I got struck down because I didn't meet the department's definition of being at risk of homeless because my parents till left me sleep in their house and all even though I told them I didn't feel safe in my house and my parents could kick me out if they found out they didn't do crap. And so I was like to Jesus and god why is this happening and why can't I just have something good in my life happen?

I thought maybe this was some sort of test after all back in April or May I belive some random woman on the internet named Angel came out of nowhere and told me to not kill myself and I just find it very interesting considering I did ask for a sign just before if god and Jesus did hate me for being trans like my parents claimed to me they did.

In June I met my new online bf who we have yet to make official but plan to soon to come into my life just as my I don't know but something about him seemed nice on day 1 I liked him installed and he even offered to help get me out of the situation and let me live with him as a friend. I even told him I loved him on day 1 too XD. And I felt in a sense god had guided me to him. Maybe god was trying to get me to understand that some nice and or important people in our lives leave but new ones come in and make new memories with you to enjoy and that's the exciting part of it honestly. He seemed a bit restraint at first of course on in a few months I managed to get him to say he loves me back and it was the most natural love I have ever felt, to be honest.

although his original plan didn't work I noticed as of recently he started trying again but it didn't just feel as if he was selfish and doing It for himself but as if he was trying for me as well. And I never had a partner before as selfless as him. I mean he even told me I got to be the most selfless partner he has ever had too. And we are working so well together it's almost as if we are how in sync we are. I remember him telling me of a toothache he had and how he had no money and he was just as abusive in relationship as I am and I noticed for that reason that also made us more loyal and understanding to each other. I remember being a bit hesitant at first to give him the money mostly because it was being pulled from a joint bank account and my parents could see a name if I cash app him some money which I mind you my parents keep stealing my money from that account and I feel helpless and can't do anything about it. Anyhow I managed to find a way and I smuggled 50$ to him which he used for pain killers and food and he felt so happy I never had a partner be that thankful before.

I told him as his lady I care for my gentleman and don't wanna leave them suffering hence I gave him the money and he told me he would repay me back when he can as he also cares for his lady. And I often to myself loyalty isn't earned It just comes naturally. I will also give him some money at the end of the month so he can renew his driver's license which he told me he is pleased with as it's been too long since he drove.

I like his mindset because although he has yet to get it done and often apologizes a lot for not being able to help me in the moment I can tell just by how he types he is trying and that's all that matters to me honestly. And I know right now he is working behind the screen to get a job to get that apartment like he originally wanted to do for me.

I wonder often if god or Jesus is helping because he already got turned down for one job offer. And It makes me sad and think god I am not asking for much just you let my gentleman succeed so he can help his lady succeed as well. Then I made some promises of promising to be a good lady for the lord and stuff as well and if I make it to live with my partner I promise to be as loyal as ever and never cheat and always do the best I can to take care of my partner. I felt god has guided me and helped me wit my identity these past 4 years when I found out what my trans name would be and recently I found out what I wanted my middle name to be which I thought of as princess because of my mentality and personality and I think to myself a princess never gives up although because of my hispanic heritage I though of taking the Spanish term for it so princesa.

So all in all that's my story so far and I hope that all this pain and suffering is just a test of loyalty perhaps between us jesus and and god. And eventually we will make it to see the end of the rainbow and our suffering will be over hence I have a good feeling 2025 If we make it will be a spike of happiness year.

At this month's Compline, for the weekend of All Saints and All Souls day, the theme is "Memento Mori", or "Remember you will die". We will contemplate our own mortality and remember those we have lost.

If you're not local to the Puget Sound area, or just can't make it in person, you can catch the livestream on Instagram!

https://www.instagram.com/queercompline/profilecard/?igsh=NWNjejI4NG43c2Zv

my old youth pastor told me that he believes God created me female for a reason and all that jazz, sometimes i feel like he’s right, and other times i don’t. whenever i feel like my youth pastor was right, i feel horrible. whenever i feel like like he was wrong, i feel at peace, if that makes sense?? like, i know God intended to make me transgender but sometimes i feel like im just lying to myself? how do you guys deal with this?

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So I am and want to remain stealth, because I am extremely uncomfortable with the notion of people making assumptions about my past and my body and my medical history on the basis of knowing I’m trans.

I haven’t encountered a situation where someone has asked me directly yet, but I have reasons to anticipate it happening eventually. People tell me I should just lie, but I feel so deeply uncomfortable doing so. Partly because I’m autistic but also partly because of the commandment, being one I’ve always taken seriously. I can’t remember the last time I have intentionally deceived someone, and I’m fortunate that I haven’t felt like I’ve had to.

But if my identity comes into question, I’m afraid that anything other than an outright lie would be just as good as outing myself. I don’t know what I’d do in that situation and it gives me a great deal of anxiety.

Does anyone have any insight or advice?

God bless

Hello! I am a practicing and avid Christian, FtM, 17 year old. I started my transition at the age of 11 and have been on testosterone for some time. I am very lucky to pass so well and in all aspects, I identify and live my life as a young man. I do not make my gender identity a public matter; those who are aware of my transition are family and those I knew before my full transition (around the age of 14). I am blessed to be apart of a supportive family which has helped me through my transition and done their best to support my needs. The only issue I have right now is in regards to my spiritual journey.

I am a practicing Christian Catholic, yet I'm unsure how to take the next step in my faith. I wish to take a more active role in my church, and hopefully find myself volunteering with the youth once I've finished school. I'm not so much afraid of being shunned or harassed, I understand there is a place for everyone in the Church, but I was wondering if there are any other transgender individuals who are active within the Church and gone through a similar situation. What difficulties did you face? Are there roadblocks I should be aware of and is this venture even possible for somebody in my situation?

For context: my belief is that I have been made in God's image to live my life to the fullest I can. This includes all the struggles I have gone through with my gender identity. I believe God purposefully gave me these challenges to overcome, as He does not make mistakes.

Thank you so much for reading.

So i sent a letter at the beginning of this week to my sister who will at the end of the month graduating army boot camp and will be moving forward with her actual army classes soon. I don't know with how sick I been if I will necessarily be able to go so I sent her a letter congrating her and stuff but in the letter I also explained her my gender identity more I gave her my pronoun card as well. This is the first time she Wil even see what my pronouns are and name. I did tell her a few years ago that I was trans and I don't know if she thought I was serious and or not because ever since then she did refer to me as bro but a few years ago she did let me wear one of those tight fitting dresses of hers when our mother was not home. So think she understands but just is not educated on the subject.

If so then why does she still see me as a brother and still calls me bro I don't think she is intentionally trying to mis gender me but perhaps it was because of our transphobic parents. However she still even in direct or private dms will sometimes refer to me as bro which confuses me.

I can't seem to pattern if she is an ally or not because she has defended me In the past but as not identity me in the way I want to.

She will get this letter by what I estimate tommorow and will read it this isn't a coming out as I already have to her this is more of just a re coming out to my sister but this time I am trying to make her understand better.

While at boot camp I also noticed she become more of religious and I am wondering on how that might dictate her thinking on homosexuality and transgenderism.

Would you say that this is something big for a siblings to be reading and getting? As far as this goes you think god and Jesus will guide me all the way? After all my sister was born to be the only female siblings in our family and yet she will find out she might not be the only sister after all?

I just hope she isn't to concerned as I did mentioned something about gender dysphoria and the feeling of want to self harm in that letter too. As she knows the type of household I am living in.

I did also thanks to your guys help on this sub sent a second letter which was 4 pages full of Bible qoutes that support my thinking.

So yeah please pray for me and thanks it just i don't know how she will take this.

I assume by the end of rhe month she will be able to communicate again and if she has more of questions and or what should I tell her about all this sexuality and trans stuff because I don't know how to explain it to my sister at all of my feelings.

how do you pick the correct name? i myself am trans ftm, and have been transitioning medically for 2 years now. i often times question my name and can’t decide on one. how do you guys pick one? do you pray about it?

So I made this post a few times but I still feel sick I thought maybe I will just wait it and get better bht it's been 2 months since I got a viral infection and that went away a long time ago and yet I still have lingering systemotms. My throat still hurts after all for 2 months and my ears have been hurting for 1 month. I am hoping by maybe seeing an ent they can figure out what is wrong with me. Not to mention this headache that won't go away Is scaring me.

My parents are finally concerned enough to care finally to the point thirr will to take me tk see a doctor as soon as possible. Even if means seeing a doctor far away.

Honestly I don't know what's wrong with me and all and I already prayed to jesus cure me but it's not seeming to work and all my dad said was it's because your not doing what you said you promised you would do.

All and all I don't think what I am facing is fatal I think i just have an infection of some kind that might be restitent and or my body can't clear it up on its own.

But it scares me this is the most sick i ever been and I never been sick for this long honestly.

I was born and raised in a catholic family and I have been thinking of going back to church and possibly confession the last time I went was in 2018 but with that many years, there is so much I wish to confess to. Should I tell the priest and confess about my sexuality and gender identity even though I feel it's not a sin?

Why would a femmine soul take the body of an xy chromones egg if it was a feminine soul wouldn't it much have preferred an xx? This is what I often wonder sometimes as a trans woman if I choose to take the xy body or if god gave it to me or if this was just a birth defect in general. And what I understand is its the sperms that determined the sex so is it possible it got the wrong chromosome?

I often wonder this sometimes with what is going on In the world something tells me that we won't exist in 2030 and if I am correct thier is an astroid that is meant to hit is around that time.

So back in May my parents searched my phone wich mind you I am an adult and they make all sorts of threats on me. And they question my sexuality and told me if I was gay they would kick me out. Depsite never really being religious and saying thier catholic but wanting to religious all of a sudden to show thier hate from homo people and trans people.

Now me being sad my parents would never accept my gender identity so I wanted to kill myself and then I asked God for a sign not to and yet someone a girl named angel message me out of no where and convinced me not to kill myself.

And I told myself if god accepted me for myself then God would guide me all the way.

So I’m AMAB and I have Asperger’s and I think I’m nonbinary but I have a weird relationship with my gender. I think my gender is a completely different gender from man and woman but I think it’s closer to femininity. It’s comparable to femininity but it’s isn’t typically femininity. Is it ok if I make my own term for my gender?

I hate being a guy and I’m not asking if I’m nonbinary but I’m just curious: how does one definitively know that one is nonbinary? I have this fantasy in my head where in the afterlife I’ll become my true self (gender-related) and I’ll be my own unique gender identity. I’ll finally be free from being a man and I’ll be happy.

https://www.lgbtqnation.com/2024/10/97-of-trans-youth-dont-regret-transitioning-new-study-finds/

Im sure im going to hell. God made man and woman, and I feel so much guilt in my heart I don’t know how to feel.

Is it really worth eternal suffering ?