My girlfriend has control issues and is oblivious to her own eating disorder. Look I know I need to get out of this relationship because she keeps gaslighting me. I am trying to find a full-time job so I can afford rent on my own. I know I am wanting to leave I just can't leave.

I have been microdosing T every morning for the last 4 days in a row and every day after the T kicks in it makes me horny to the point I want to masturbate. I am afab and take an estrogen based birth control every single day. I took DHEA for 4 months and have taken a full packet of t gel back earlier this year. I know the DHEA wasn't helping in the long run because I have grown longer body hairs and had voice deepening but not much bottom growth. My old doc didn't want to give me a script for T. Now that I'm going to the gym I'm handling T a lot better and my blood pressure isn't as crazy so I figured it was time to commit to it daily.

Today when my girlfriend asked me what I was doing in the bathroom and was joking it was a good shit I said no, I was masturbating. She then told me it takes weeks for the effects of T gel to work and it was impossible to affect me so soon. She is asexual so I was trying to hide the fact I was masturbating in the bathroom.

This morning I put in effort to look good, I chose an outfit that looked good on my body, I did my make-up. I was in a great mood and taking care of things. Her comment that it was impossible for the T to be working so quickly really hurt. She suggested I go get a blood test ASAP, on a SUNDAY, because there was no way I had T levels like an amab person because that's the only way I could possibly feel compulsively horny. And that it was a PLACEBO EFFECT? (Like, EXCUSE ME? I KNOW WHAT I'M FEELING)

She loves gaslighting me in general. Today I told her it's not ok that she's gaslighting me. I told her if she knew me better as a partner she would be able to tell the difference between my estrogen and testosterone orgasms. And her reply was to just shrug it off.

We had sex once in a calendar year and she doesn't want to be close to me. She is paranoid about her body odor whether she is actually stinky or not. and while she felt better for a month that she was trying out HRT solely as mono therapy (she stopped Spiro for a while) she suddenly panicked that her pits were too stinky so she's taking the Spiro again.

This girl is giving me a roof over my head but she's digging holes in my heart with gaslighting me just like my dead mother.

I am looking for someone who takes t gel knows how quickly the hornies kick in. I'm not making this shit up.

Again I know I need to get out but that's not happening for another 2 months until I can afford a place of my own.

If it helps you understand her better, she tests as an ENTJ- the commander. She only listens to facts.

Thanks for listening T___T

I'm on my way to be an illustrator and I'm making Yippee/autism creature keychains cuz is one of the few things I'm good at drawing. I am making different Yippee's with ties or bows with LBGTQ+ flags such as the gay, lesbian, bisexual, pansexual, transgender, aroace, ace, aro and many more. But I also wanted to make one for non binary people, but I didn't know if I should use a tie, a bow or something else. I tried to use a beanie but I had no idea how to draw it. I'm a trans guy and I don't know much about the non binary people/umbrella and I wanted to ask you people for what y'all think I should add to represent all of you!

Can I ask people use my pronouns without officially coming out?

Just a silly guy

So here I am, another soul questioning their identity. I probably am nonbinary, but i don't feel anything. I'm amab, but I don't care about that, I don't care about my gender really. I don't feel gender dysphoria, I feel fine in my body.

I like walking around shirtless, am secure in my masculinity, and at times try to grow a full beard though I am only 22 so it is coming along. I do marital arts, been a welder, firefighting, and is currently studying to become an engineer, drink rum and whiskey on the rocks, typical man shit. But I also like stereotypically feminine things, styling, painting nails, singing about my feelings. I may sound like a misogynist, but I know that those things arent inherently feminine, its just our society that genders alot of shit. Though I at times wonder what it would be like to be a woman, to have tits, though I can also see the downsides of that existence as I do of my current one. I don't feel like would be better in one or the other, I just want to be hot...

Now I know that is superficial and narcissistic, but I don't care about my gender, and would explore more liberaly. I like my name, it is super masculine and old nordic sound, but through my experience and life, it have come to be associated with being weird and different, and I accept it for that is me. There is only 1445 people in my country with my navn, I have only met four others, but I'm the one of them that I know the best. I am my name, but am also one of my name. I want to be a big buff guy that looks like a lion, a skinny intellectual looking twink, a soft femboy, a tall rough mechanic girl, a little gremlin girl. If I could get one superpower, it would be absolute shapeshifting, as I want to be everything. I think a possible intersection of these ideas might be the tall rough muscular mechanic girl, both feminine and masculine. I don't know, I just want to be hot...

Rant over.

The nonbinary really is nonbinaring with a buzzcut

It’s a gym body suit and I love it but I’ve never work anything quite like It and I feel like It May be too much.

Today my grandma came over to visit. I’m out as nonbinary to my entire family except for her. The reason why I didn’t tell her was because I just thought it would be unnecessarily confusing for someone her age with a very rigid concept of gender. I’ve always been gay/weird/punk rock so I just figured she wouldn’t really notice any changes in my transition since not all that much is changing. I had top surgery ten days ago which my mom has been calling “breast reduction” to her. But I guess I offhandedly mentioned I’ll be seeking a hysterectomy later this year. This isn’t that weird, I’ve had endometriosis for the majority of my life. But she kind of just said “So is there any other reason why you’re doing these things? Like are you trying to change?” When my mom asked her for clarification, it was clear that she was asking if I was transitioning to male. On the spot, I figured I’d just try to explain it to her. So I said no, I’m nonbinary. I don’t feel like either, I’m not transitioning to male, I’m just trying to feel comfortable in my body. I said that my friends do call me “they,” expecting that to prompt more questions. But to my surprise, she seemed to understand immediately and said she’d try to call me such from now on. She went on to tell me about her new neighbors, one of which is nonbinary, and how she had formed a friendship with them without knowing their gender. I feel kinda silly now. I guess I didn’t realize other people were out here giving my grandma free gender studies education lol, just assumed that would be my responsibility as the oldest grandchild. There’s not really a question here. Maybe just the moral that some old people aren’t always as incapable of learning and changing as one might assume.

I know it's impossible to avoid discrimination as a nb person. Sometimes you aren't safe even among other queers. There are so many issues that make me wish sex simply didn't exist. I'm really tired and frustrated about the inequality and stigmatization. I don't want to be seen as defective or being pushed into the binary. I don't want to be invalid or wrong. I just want to exist normally and have people who would accept me without a thought. It's hard and devastating to be both dysphoric and systematically discriminated. It's deeply upsetting. Life kinda sucks. I'm sorry.

just something I wanted to clarify before I use both the nonbinary and bigender flags on my profiles :33

I've been contemplating estrogen lately. Can anyone give me a little info on how or when they knew hormones were for you?

Hey everyone!

I'm AFAB, nonbinary. Was married to a woman for 20+ yrs, now divorced for 5 yrs. Two short term girlfriends since my divorce, but mostly solitary by choice.

Considering actively dating again. Mostly because I started low dose T, and my libido is off the charts.

I'm not sure whether I should try online dating or stick to in-person. I only want to date people within 10 miles because I don't like to drive or be far away from my cat. My city is smallish but high number of lesbians per capita.

I've never "casually" dated before. Meaning, dated without looking for "the one." What if I get attached? What if they get attached?

Also, am I too prudish to think age difference might matter? I'm 50, but look 40. I think people of all ages are beautiful but is there a max age difference you all would recommend from experience?

Finally, any advice on how my nonbinariness might affect things? For example, I met someone age 60 who is hot and likes me but cannot seem to recall my they pronouns no matter what. I realized I probably can't deal with that, unfortunately. I need someone to remember at least much of the time... Same issue with a good friend. Wondering if this will tend to be the norm with GenX and older 😥

Just to preface that there might be SPOILERS for DRAGON AGE VEILGUARD so I'm putting this out there, you've been warned.

I have realized I may be non-binary less than a year ago and I've gone from scared and confused to mostly just confused but generally okay. I'm 30 something and have two biological children so this whole self-realization was wild and I've cried a lot and dealt with a lot of nonsense, that I've mostly fortunately overcome thanks to my supportive friends and partner. However I've had a lot of issues actually talking about myself as a they/them, mostly because I didn't wanna explain myself to people and my native language is also heavily gendered and just a pain to use in a gender neutral way.

I've recently started playing Dragon Age Veilguard - as a long time fan I was really looking forward to it and (possible spoilers ahead!) I was especially excited that they included a non-binary character Taash, who also happened to just incredibly fit my tastes and gameplay. The whole thing includes Taash questioning their identity and dealing with their family and culture and your character can basically guide them through it, especially if romanced - telling them to be themselves, to explore their identity, to allow themselves to feel all the emotions.

I know a lot of people hated Taash and their story line but folks, I saw myself in their struggle so much. It was so nice watching them accept themselves and try to find happiness in the new self-realization. I thought that if I could make a game character accept themselves and support them so much, I could do the same for myself. I met some people today and I used gender neutral pronouns for myself and everyone accepted it without a single issue and I can't explain how happy and relieved I am. I never knew I could be so grateful for an imaginary person!

If you’ve been confident to walk around in public shirtless how’s that going? I’ve been post op 2.5 years and I’ll be going to a waterpark soon. I WANT to be able to be shirtless cause that was the goal, yknow? But with today’s political climate with people more openly bigoted I’m admittedly nervous to get stares or comments from people, even though I know it shouldn’t matter. I know I can get a swim shirt if I end up bailing on the idea, but I was just curious how your interactions have been if you’ve been brave enough to go out and about lately.

I've seen a handful of others posting their journeys with themselves of their identities, and I wanted to make my own personal end of the year post! I've been questioning my identity/identifying as nonbinary since around 2019, but honestly since middle school I had kind of been questioning before I really knew what nonbinary actually was. Growing up I never felt feminine or girly, and for a lot of personal reasons I suppressed the feminine side of myself almost to an extreme, and in doing so I always felt out of place. I cut my hair short for the first time in 2019, and honestly the rest is history. For a little while I labeled myself as agender, and a few years later changed to simply nonbinary, up until this year.

This year has been hands down the longest, one of the hardest, but also the most transformative year of my life. I don't have time to discuss it all here, but several events encouraged me to lean comfortably into my femininity for the first time ever. On MY terms and at MY pace. I finally truly feel like myself and feel comfortable with who I am! Currently I identify as demigirl: I don't mind people using she/her for me, but I do prefer they/them and the people closest to me do so, and I've never had a label feel more right for me either. Despite having embraced my femininity, I still prefer they/them pronouns for almost spiritual reasons. Despite what I look like, have looked like, or will look like in the future, I don't truly care about being a boy or a girl or being perceived either which way.

I am me and I am happy. I am my own person, my own mind, my own soul. Ten years ago if you showed me this picture of myself I'd laugh and tell you it was ridiculous and photoshopped. Ten years from now I'm probably going to look very different, and I'm excited for that! Hell, even just ONE year ago I looked quite different with a whole other aesthetic! The point is: I am ever growing, ever evolving, ever changing, and my decision to use they/them pronouns reflects that in me.

If you've read this far, thank you. Happy soon to be new year, and I wish everyone the best for the upcoming year. May you always stay true to yourself and put your happiness first :)

So since the Dutch mental healthcare system has failed me once again, i am asking for advice here.

For context i am amab, but it feels like i am constantly going between wanting to be pretty feminine and being relatively masculine?

When puberty started, and my beard started growing. At first i didn't mind because an cheap electric shaver could get an smooth result. But once the beard growth started really going fast, i hated, and was frustrated by the fact that i couldn't get an smooth result. I started laser treatment last year, and i can now get an smooth result again. This was an huge relief to me.

And in terms of clothing for example, i ride horse's. That is generally an quite feminine world here in the Netherlands. I started wearing women's riding clothes because the few male riding pants that they have, never fit me properly. So i started wearing women's riding pants, and now just an whole outfit from the women's section. It feels great to wear them, and no one really notices where i ride because pretty much everyone wears riding clothes. But while i think that my legs look great in leggings, i hate how male my belly and face looks. It makes me feel really bad and down if i look in the mirror.

I also regularly wear pants from the women's section just out in the city or something. And i do like to wear skirts, but i only do it in private. But the problem i have again when wearing these more feminine outfits, is that my face and stomach makes it look so wrong again i guess? And even if i were to wear skirts in public, i probably would only wear them when going out. I really like the functionality of pockets.

And now the weird thing. When i am somewhat angry, or under a bit of stress for like an couple of days, i find myself gravitating to masculinity more? I also like to solo travel, and when i went to south California for 2 weeks, i didn't feel bad about my body at all? Even though i don't get an completely smooth result with my electric shaver. I didn't bother me at all over there. I even kinda liked the slight grey beard shadow.

I guess this is an bit of rambling, but like what should i do? I know it's an pretty vague question but i don't have an lot of other people or places to go to.

Thanks in advance!