They are a very close friend of mine and we share nearly everything. This all started during the beginning of COVID, and has ebbed and flowed since. They have been hospitalized for it and it only made it worse, in part because they worried the people in the ward were also part of the cult. They have had a bad experience with psychiatrists and medication, but during episodes like this I worry that not enough is being done for them. They don't have a job or health insurance currently but we are actively working on that. Over the years, I have responded to their worries in a variety of ways, some temporarily beneficial, others not so much. The paranoia is seriously impacting their life and our friendship. How should I respond when they express this worry to me saying it is real, cancel plans because of it, or do something like take a picture of a random person in public?

#"Dignified alternatives" vancouver, "resistance is a broader refusal of fascist tactics that expand the grasp of the carceral state through the criminalization of poverty and disability...Involuntary treatment is rooted in the dehumanization of people and can be understood as a continuation of settler colonial violence and racial capitalism...capitalism create(s) disability." https://springmag.ca/involuntary-treatment-is-not-care-bc-is-spearheading-its-violent-rise

#antipsychotics don't work "often assumed that patients who experience acute psychosis have no insight into their symptoms and therefore no motivation for treatment, we found that this is not generally true...More psychosocial interventions targeting neurocognitive symptoms should be developed and assessed for their acceptability and effectiveness...Greater consideration of patients’ preferences for their own treatment may help with goal formulation, establishing a therapeutic relationship, fostering motivation for change, and thus long-term stabilization." https://www.springermedizin.de/treatment-preferences-in-acute-psychosis-a-comparison-of-patient/50156454

#criminal doctors georgia, "Four Seasons shooting suspect had guns, nazi paraphernalia." https://www.ajc.com/news/crime/911-call-four-seasons-shooting-suspect-had-guns-nazi-paraphernalia-in-unit/WLM4ILO6MVD43E7TZRCB723S54/

#Isn't women's mental health important? congress in "New Jersey, Oklahoma, South Dakota (abortion referendum), Idaho, Kentucky, Rhode Island, Tennessee, Virginia, West Virginia and Florida (abortion referendum)...bills that specifically exclude mental health emergencies." https://medicalxpress.com/news/2024-10-bills-exclude-mental-health-emergency.html https://ballotpedia.org/2024_abortion-related_ballot_measures_and_state_context#2024_abortion-related_state_ballot_measures

#assaultive outpatient torture "there is no evidence that OPC (at home injections) can reduce major acts of violence resulting in injury or weapon use." https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC5298526/

#Separation of branches of government ireland, "improvements that can, and should, be made to the Mental Health Bill 2024 include: – A statutory right to independent advocacy (this should be alongside the new provisions for a ‘nominated person’ to be your support) – The establishment of an Independent Complaints Mechanism...needs to remove its declarations and reservations on Articles 12 (equal recognition before the law) and 14 (liberty and security of person) of the UNCRPD." https://madinireland.com/2024/10/bernadette-grogan-from-mental-health-reform-on-reforming-the-mental-health-act/

#TV Doctor Odyssey season 1 episode 4 "shame...working for the enemy. big pharma, the sickness industrial complex...western medical torture." https://youtu.be/5KkSEJzCaxg

#Religions netherlands nurse "who claimed that her colleagues at the hospital adhere to Satanism is not allowed to work in the healthcare sector anymore." https://nltimes.nl/2024/10/31/nurse-accused-colleagues-satanism-banned-working-healthcare The majority of psych workers are djinns.

#Cogentin Limited Role of Genetics and Age...when you look at the significance level for anticholinergic burden, what we’re seeing is that people are getting a newly incipient dementia diagnosis because they have high levels of anticholinergic burden." https://www.psychiatrist.com/jcp/anticholinergic-burden-in-schizophrenia/

#My experiences October 30 9:03 PM social worker mother rated my mental health B (F is worst).

#assaultive outpatient torture "Assisted Outpatient Treatment: A State-by-State Comparative Review...fail to comply with treatment directives are merely exercising cherished and protected aspects of liberty: the right to bodily integrity, to control one’s person, and to refuse unwanted treatment.145...Stress,243 fatigue,244 and anger 245 can each impact individuals’ abilities to reach rational decisions...Kentucky and Maryland mandate that treatment plans honor the directions in advance directives. 266 Two other states—New Mexico and Louisiana—specify that a treatment plan cannot conflict with an individual’s advance directive." https://papers.ssrn.com/sol3/papers.cfm?abstract_id=4998584 "Matter of KL, 806 N.E.2d 480 (NY 2004)...coercive force of the order lies solely in the compulsion generally felt by law-abiding citizens to comply with court directives...violation of the order, standing alone, ultimately carries no sanction (hospitalization)" https://www.courtlistener.com/opinion/2224781/matter-of-kl/

#Computer therapy "computer-generated avatars has found to be an effective way of helping people with psychosis reduce the distress and frequency with which they hear voices." https://www.miragenews.com/digital-avatars-cut-distressing-voices-in-1345714/

#Menopause "testosterone for (peri)menopausal" women. "If your dosage is too high...can make you feel antsy, angry, aggressive or argumentative." Sounds safer than antipsychotics. https://www.getthegloss.com/menopause/testosterone-therapy-women

#Religions "we’ll explore whether the spiritual experiences many seekers describe as awakening are, in fact, moments of psychosis — or if society’s understanding of ‘madness’ is limiting our grasp of higher consciousness...madness can sometimes be the doorway to awakening." https://archive.is/vkHOz

"clients reported having cultural conversations in 48.4% of sessions." https://psychiatryonline.org/doi/10.1176/appi.ps.20230266

#TV At 51 minutes Netflix's "manic" Hasan Minhaj Off With His Head. Talk therapy, "I've done it all. Don't waste your money...you deserve a therapist that understands you culturally." https://youtu.be/1m5ZTUxNLMk

"American Quack Association...There are no tests." https://www.tiktok.com/@nhs.anti.psychiatry/video/7431128143563345184

Marvel stuntwoman said she's not in recovery because she's not sick. https://www.instagram.com/askabipolar/reel/DBv4aEuuVtY/

#forensic psychology "High Court of Australia itself has acknowledged “the fallibility of judicial evaluation of credibility from the appearance and demeanor (body language) of witnesses.” https://nouvelles.umontreal.ca/en/article/2024/10/29/australian-courts-use-body-language-to-judge-witness-credibility/

#punishing speech vs. conduct "disruptive and destructive conduct, such as defacing university property, interrupting classes, or disrupting university operations, such as a job fair." https://reason.com/volokh/2024/10/30/on-punishing-speech-vs-punishing-conduct/ mother said she called the police because I was endangering her "welfare" with inconvenient, embarrassing screaming protests. Mostly and for more than 4 years I didn't have any violent, even self defense, actions. Words regarding self harm should be decriminalized so people can go to talk therapy and because, in my case, what I'm depressed about is dictatorship.

I tend to bottle up feelings where they fester and make me sick. I have no one to talk to. So, am I supposed to continue to do that because venting makes everything worse?

Or is this just another "toxic positivity" narrative?

I honestly have no idea what constitutes a healthy relationship. I'm not even sure there is such a thing. I've gone through at least 2/3rd of my life and I still have no idea what I'm doing.

Does anyone have tips for finding other psychiatric survivors, anti-psychiatry activists, psych institution abolitionists, etc in person?

I live near a moderately large city in the US but I can’t find anything. Even the local anticapitalist/prison abolition/leftist groups tend to be very pro-psychiatry. (And also problematic in other ways…)

Peer support/mutual aid/alternative therapy is all state-funded and controlled. It’s like there’s literally no way out; they co-opt everything. Everything is about “recovery” even if you get away from professionals—you can’t just say you thought all these diagnoses were bullshit to begin with.

I’m hesitant to start a public group because I don’t have experience organizing and I don’t feel confident my skills are adequate. I’m not looking for emotional support—I just want to either find a political organization to join or make some like-minded friends.

Do these things exist in person anywhere?

I joined a talk at my university, online, hosted by a few psychiatrists. If I am able to recall correctly, it was on a paradigm shift from analysis of brain structure to analysis of behavior, in the current studies of the field.

The audio was a bit cracked up, so it was difficult to understand the meeting, comprehensively. But I did gather a few things. One, that biological markers don't seem to explain a whole lot about "disorders" (genes, brain structure, etc.). Also, that research is being done with AI to analyze certain behavior, facial-expression, language, and vocal cues, with the goal of finding correlates between such and the manifestation of certain "disorders".

One person, who I assume attended in-person, questioned whether any of this could explain the mechanisms behind certain behaviors, "disorders", etc. The people hosting the meeting acknowledged that the research was purely correlational, which makes sense. Which makes you have to stop and think... why are psychiatrists so certain on their opinions towards a patients "disorder", and the exact drugs needed to treat said disorder, and that any other undesirable effects are purely further manifestations of "mental-illness", "treatment-resistance", ignoring the possibility of adverse effects of the drugs themselves... if the current research is purely correlational. One would think that such a soft concept should require a more nuanced approach... when the process seems very rigid, absurdly so.

I asked three questions in the chat. Two were read out loud, one was ignored. Guess it wasn't so important, in spite of the stated willingness of those hosting the meeting to answer questions for a little while.

My first question was: "Could certain behavior and verbal signals be a false positive [given AI behavioral analysis], based on the neurotype of a person"? In other words, if you are someone who has a different brain than another person, could certain behavioral and verbal signals be falsely flagged as indicative of, say, "psychopathy", when it could very well be something else? Is there certain overlap, which would not be able to be caught, regardless of the nuance of the AI analysis? I think this is an important question to ask, because it seems that, if taken without nuance, it could lead some to be "misdiagnosed", or experience other negative consequences, due to an ostensibly "objective" analysis by AI.

My other two questions were the following:

"Given these overall results, how much of 'psychopathology' would you think is explained by 'atypical' biological features, and how much is explained by a person's environment, and prior experiences in life?"

"Could it be said that diagnosing psychiatric disorders is a bit difficult at the moment, due to the flawed and imprecise methods we have today?"

All of these questions were ignored, sadly. I was told that audio issues were being experienced... I have a hard time believing that. Regardless, I think it is quite rude to not only skip over reading a question, but also choose not to answer all of them.

Perhaps... these very questions are threatening to the field as a whole, as it stands today. Regardless... I think it would be fun to push some boundaries in the coming future.

And that's all. Further evidence of the shaky foundation of psychiatry, today.

#pill intoxication psychologist, "the “paranoid psychosis” thing...caused by a thorny combination of lithium intoxication and the dangerous interaction of several drugs," https://www.yourtango.com/health-wellness/clinical-psychologist-admits-hypocrite

#mechanical restraints canada, "Pierre-Luc Larouche died at the Douglas Mental Health University (Institute) after “maneuvers” were made on him by the staff." https://nunatsiaq.com/stories/article/puvirnituq-man-dies-after-manoeuvres-at-montreal-mental-health-institute/

"He attempted suicide. Peoria Jail restrained him in a chair for five days...longer durations than other jails in Illinois and far past industry recommendations." https://illinoisanswers.org/2024/10/28/peoria-jail-restrained-mental-illness-five-days/

#Temporary insanity "Psychosis can be either a temporary state, commonly described as “temporary insanity.” "300 discrete diagnoses." Prove there's even 10 real diagnoses? (depression, trauma, social anxiety, hallucinations, postpartum, anorexia) https://www.psychologytoday.com/intl/blog/navigating-mental-crises/202410/psychosis-has-been-described-as-temporary-insanity

#for profit washington d.c. "for-profit psychiatric hospital...broken bones." https://archive.is/8Yj52

#Music "Aside from refusing to take prescribed medicine at the ward in the video, attempting to break out of the hospital, and eventually breaking out (in her mind), Ari Lennox has found another way to express herself through song." https://youtu.be/22NZRV39aVI https://grungecake.com/ari-lennox-smoke/articles/116854

#Ayuverdic india, "prakriti (body types as per yoga and Ayurveda)...60 subjects for each of the four conditions will be given integrated treatment." https://archive.is/g5xUs

#psychiatry app? "OpenAI’s Whisper, which many hospitals use, has been making things up." https://www.fudzilla.com/news/ai/59966-ai-transcription-tool-whisper-faces-scrutiny-over-accuracy

#Divorce is a disease? "Fern Britton...was labelled "psychotic" by a doctor and told she needed to be hospitalised due to her unhappiness in her marriage." https://www.devonlive.com/news/celebs-tv/fern-britton-opens-up-marriage-9669199#google_vignette

#Religions Jewish flag banned by wisconsin landlord while christmas decorations allowed as a double standard. In no way have I been allowed to be a Muslim. My "rape(d by parents)" sign got 2 months in n.u.m.c. psych ward. Compared to parents decorating the house for religious and secular holidays. https://www.reddit.com/r/legaladvice/s/5PIrtayzSd

#My experiences October 26 5:48 PM I cried because mother said the government psychiatrist will celebrate ruining my life. 7:59 PM father complained due to his physical weakness he doesn't want to be around my dog.

October 27 6:10 PM yelled at by both parents for not eating chicken as a vegetarian. mother, who quit Jewish job to get a raise at a for profit poisoning the elderly, slandered me as not doing "charity." she claims I started calling 911 first. I was false arrested October 2005, and kidnapped by mother to the police station in 2011. father screamed he "will kill (me)" twice June 25, 2012 and that is the first time I called, 7 years later. October 28 12:48 PM father yelled at my dog for friendly barking to another dog.

I had a psych med-induced manic episode last year. I made a complete fool of myself, causing me to be dropped with no explanation by everyone I considered a close friend and to be ridiculed or taken advantage of by just about every new person I met. It culminated in me putting myself in a position where I was violently SAed by a stranger from the internet. It's hard to explain, but it was a really weird situation that was lowkey my fault, but traumatizing nonetheless.

As much as I have made material progress (quit meds, built a new support system, enrolled in a better college and getting good grades), I still don't feel great physically and emotionally. I'm hyper-sensitive to feeling disrespected or unwanted like I've never been before, I have crying spells, flashbacks, and I'm physically exhausted all the time. I haven't been able to keep a job for more than a month since I got assaulted because I always start getting random sores everywhere and stop being able to do anything outside of work. Thankfully I'm supported by family, but they can't support me forever. I'm doing okay in school because I'm pretty smart but getting assignments done is like pulling teeth for me. I used to make art but I legit just can't be bothered anymore because all I want to do is sleep or dissociate with technology.

I want so badly to heal from this, but I have no idea how. I feel like most people would tell me to go to therapy, but I've been in and out of therapy since I was 10 years old, including for several months after I had my episode. I have never found success in therapy- it just feels like gaslighting to me. This probably has something to do with the fact that I'm autistic and hyperverbal. I have yet to find a therapist that a) has a communication style compatible with mine and b) understands and believes my struggles with ableism/looks discrimination/executive dysfunction/poor social skills/etc. I guess I could be doing more to find a therapist, but I don't have the energy to keep finding therapists, making appointments, attending appointments, and judging whether a therapist is right for me.

So I really don't know how to heal from this. I've found some success in practicing magic, consuming media to help me understand what happened, and relying on my new support system. My new partner has been so wonderful and more supportive than I thought anyone would ever willing to be for me. But all of this just isn't enough. I need real help, but I don't know where to find it. I would appreciate any advice.

#Housing First arizona "Proposition 312, a ballot measure that would allow property owners to claim a tax refund for costs they’ve incurred to address people illegally camping, using drugs, or defecating in public." "problem can’t be arrested away...increases the likelihood of people remaining in stable housing, accessing medical care and receiving substance abuse treatment...mental illness does not cause homelessness,” said Will Knight, decriminalization director at the National Homelessness Law Center...new shelter that allows people to stay with pets and partners." https://www.themarshallproject.org/2024/10/25/arizona-prop-312-unhoused-ballot-measure

#Early Voting (Medical) marijuana in nebraska; north and south dakota, florida, dallas. Psychedelics in Massachusetts. nevada and california consider banning forced prison labor. california proposition 36 thieves "complete drug and mental health treatment." https://www.nass.org/can-i-vote/absentee-early-voting https://vote.gov/register/ https://ballotpedia.org/2024_ballot_measures https://jacobin.com/2024/10/forced-prison-labor-slavery-election/

#misdiagnosed "Brain on Fire:...antibodies affect brain receptors in patients with anti-NMDAR encephalitis, a condition often misdiagnosed as schizophrenia." https://scitechdaily.com/brain-on-fire-the-mysterious-disease-that-mimics-mental-illness/

#Measurement? Dopamine dopameter. https://youtu.be/EmRCGv2vWmo

#sexual assault england, "administering a dose of antipsychotic medicine 10 times higher than it should have been." https://uk.news.yahoo.com/creepy-north-london-doctor-gave-155244791.html

#retaliation missouri "First Amendment retaliation claim should go to a jury based on allegations that the officer pulled a gun and said, "I can shoot you right here" and "nobody will give a s**t" after driver asked for officer's name and badge number." https://reason.com/volokh/2024/10/25/short-circuit-a-roundup-of-recent-federal-court-decisions-285/ I was false arrested to the ward multiple times for not "shutting up."

#republicans betraying Reagan j.d. vance is pro-psychiatry. https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/politics/jd-vance-critical-of-ronald-reagan-for-homelessness-crisis/ar-AA1sT4FK

#insincere environmentalism trump, "They say that the wind drives ’em crazy...“I wanna be a whale psychiatrist.” https://archive.is/Ep93a

#overdose canada, "mistakenly been given 10 times the prescribed dose of an antipsychotic...confusion, agitation and eventually delirium." https://toronto.ctvnews.ca/lawsuit-alleges-ontario-man-died-after-given-10-times-prescribed-dose-in-hospital-1.7088220

#Religions "Pope to Vatican confessors: “Do not be psychiatrists, forgive without asking questions” A call to humility, listening and mercy." https://www.exaudi.org/pope-to-vatican-confessors-do-not-be-psychiatrists-forgive-without-asking-questions/

#My experiences October 24 7:20 PM mother threatened, "locked away the rest of your life." October 25 10:56 AM mother threatened over "Another insane (laundry) thing." 2:20 PM mother wants to "check...mental health" of youngest brother. parents said his "body odor" is mental. father said on friday brother was "worse" than me.

October 26 around 11 AM mother said I should brush my teeth when I just had and flossed. 11:55 AM father to mother, "you're out of control."

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new zealand, "Mental Health Bill passes first reading...minimises coercion and is responsive to individual needs. It introduces far greater protections and safeguards...supported decision-making." https://www.beehive.govt.nz/release/mental-health-bill-passes-first-reading

#governors should be leaders washington state republican, "You can’t separate the substance abuse issue from homelessness or mental illness, in my opinion...He advocated for 30 percent of the state's spending on housing for the homeless to be linked to drug treatment." https://stopthedrugwar.org/chronicle/wa-governor-candidates-spar-over-fentanyl-ut-poll-shows-half-ready-legal-weed-more-102324 I know rich drug users (not pot). Also, the democrat being against Naloxone for overdoses and clean needles makes him liable for contagious diseases. https://archive.is/3nCM8

#Right to Vote "Disability Rights Montana...asks the judge to go further by issuing a permanent order barring the county clerk from denying voter registrations if residents have been involuntarily committed and also convicted of a felony." https://helenair.com/news/state-regional/government-politics/warm-springs-resident-sues-for-access-to-voting/article_b893b8c8-90ce-11ef-a975-432274237f90.html

#diagnose as police brutality rochester, new york, "might be suffering from a medical condition only cited by cops...excited delirium." https://www.techdirt.com/2024/10/23/new-york-pd-is-training-officers-that-someone-saying-i-cant-breathe-is-just-excited-delirium/

#Marijuana california, florida, maryland, massachusetts, new york, oklahoma, virginia, and washington d.c. can prescribe for any mental condition. https://norml.org/laws/medical-laws/

#opposite of healing england, "places of pain and fear. Compassionate and therapeutic care is now, in many cases, the exception not the norm. “This is made even harder by the outdated Mental Health Act that doesn’t give people nearly enough say over their care.” https://www.messengernewspapers.co.uk/news/national/24674198.mental-health-hospitals-re-traumatising-patients-charity-warns/

#corruption "director of California's mental health commission traveled to London this summer courtesy of a state vendor while he was helping to prevent a $360 million budget cut that would have defunded the company's contract." https://www.news-medical.net/news/20241023/A-California-official-helped-save-a-mental-health-companye28099s-contract-It-flew-him-to-London.aspx

#Safer than electro-magnets "Can (Ultra)Sound Waves Treat Depression?" https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-leading-edge/202410/can-sound-waves-treat-depression

#pill-induced mania/gambling "Antidepressants turned me into a raging alcoholic and I'm not alone...Tony was prescribed citalopram, an SSRI." https://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-13996393/antidepressants-alcoholic-effect.html

#sexual assault england, "A second client alleged he had sexual relations with her said he gave her a drug similar to methamphetamine, which can cause psychosis...experience “has put the Complainant off going to counselling again in the future and trusting in people in general.” https://inews.co.uk/news/sex-drugs-drunk-work-unregulated-therapy-3331900

#My experiences October 23 1:54 PM father to mother, "you come home yelling like a maniac." October 24 2:47 PM mother ADA violated my exercise. 3:27 PM she forced me to change clothing, which distracted me, causing a physical injury.

I think the idea that multitasking is a myth is total BS. At the very least I think it’s a bit more nuanced than just “multitasking is a myth”. I think it’s a very male centric perspective. When I think of work that’s traditionally done by women, the majority of it requires multitasking by default. I can’t fathom that someone taking care of a toddler and a baby, for example, would spend much time NOT multitasking in some way.

Obviously the other side of this is that mothers, especially new mothers are often exhausted and overworked. So multitasking can be detrimental, but I still think to say it’s just a myth is way too much of an oversimplification.

Sounds like a dream.

Like forums, communities that kind of thing. I found a few about mental illness in general but none about pds specifically.

#drug war philippines, "Game tayo. I will call that neuro-psychiatric exam. Pero, pero let us make this an election issue." This is the challenge of Vice President Sara Duterte." https://news.abs-cbn.com/news/2024/10/22/vp-duterte-game-to-undergo-drug-tests-only-if-young-guns-also-do-so-1822

#Natural medicines "Sri Lanka...over 1,200 medicinal plant species...Ayurvedic herbs like Bacopa monnieri, Centella asiatica, Withania somnifera, and Valeriana wallichii have long been used to treat mental disorders, particularly anxiety and depression. Other plants, including Ginkgo biloba, Hypericum perforatum, and Rhodiola rosea, are utilized to address bipolar disorder, disruptive behavior, and schizophrenia...trigonelline, bacosides, asiaticoside, asiatic acid, and quercetin." https://www.eurekalert.org/news-releases/1061985

#TV Strong Medicine (2000) season 1 episode 1 "You medicated a man without his consent?" https://therokuchannel.roku.com/watch/2e176a7b8afd5f5a832826617c68afe3 season 1 episode 14 "Lu treats a homeless schizophrenic woman who suffers from the ("severe...shaky") side effects (thorazine instead of more expensive risperdal)." https://therokuchannel.roku.com/watch/77a25be6e6785c868f9f012d7d908968 season 3 episode 11 Flesh and Blood "Andy is concerned about the state of mind of a schizophrenic woman whose mother wants her daughter to have her tubes tied."

Brilliant Minds season 1 episode 5 "He didn't like how they (poison pills) made him feel so he stopped...didn't trust us...There was no changing (cure)." but it's also pro-psychiatry.

#Podcasts Bill Maher Skinny Confidential "personal autonomy in healthcare decisions." https://pdst.fm/e/pfx.vpixl.com/usvBQ/verifi.podscribe.com/rss/p/claritaspod.com/measure/chrt.fm/track/9DD8D/arttrk.com/p/PRGN3/chrt.fm/track/8E527/verifi.podscribe.com/rss/p/traffic.megaphone.fm/STU5908816896.mp3?updated=1729539652

#Too disgusted with america to eat "atypical antipsychotics correlates with higher rates of binge eating and food cravings[2][3]." https://typeset.io/questions/what-are-the-eating-behaviours-among-patients-with-4q0qjivizr

#False Claims Act connecticut, "psychiatric services center faces charges for allegedly falsifying patient records and submitting fraudulent claims, defrauding the state’s Medicaid program out of more than $300,000." https://insurancenewsnet.com/oarticle/ct-psychiatric-services-center-owner-accused-of-defrauding-medicaid-out-of-more-than-300k

#Genders "Females and males differ in their rates of psychiatric disorders over the lifespan, finds study." https://medicalxpress.com/news/2024-10-females-males-differ-psychiatric-disorders.html

#Regulations "State Sens. Michael Webber and Rick Outman on Wednesday introduced bills to address growing concerns over patient rights and oversight at state-run psychiatric hospitals...add representatives from Disability Rights Michigan, Mental Health Association in Michigan, and Arc Michigan as permanent standing members to the Recipient Rights Advisory Committee...protecting the Office of Recipient Rights — the entity responsible for investigating patient treatment complaints — from pressures that could interfere." https://www.misenategop.com/webber-outman-introduce-legislation-to-protect-patient-rights-improve-oversight-for-state-psychiatric-care/

#a few days is enough "Chronic treatment for acute symptoms." https://www.reddit.com/r/Antipsychiatry/comments/1ga762f/chronic_treatment_for_acute_symptoms/ I always calmed down within 1 day after yelling at serial racist parents.

#My experiences October 22 12 PM mother violated HIPAA, then yelled at me.

#CRPD Treaty United Nations UNHRC resolution 52/12 "A/HRC/RES/52/12" 2023. "respect for inherent dignity, individual autonomy and independence, non-discrimination," https://daccess-ods.un.org/access.nsf/Get?OpenAgent&DS=A/HRC/RES/52/12&Lang=E

#TV Saturday Night Live season 50 episode 4 "No matter who we vote for, I promise you I'm not going to therapy." https://youtu.be/TXNX_U1HK_k

The Misfits (2021) "Are you crazy? According to the authorities and standardized tests." Netflix, https://youtu.be/lxhMLjt83KQ

#Social Security Disability Insurance "SSDI...Medicare Advantage plans, called Chronic Condition Special Needs Plans (C-SNPs)...severe mental illness." https://fortune.com/well/article/what-disabilities-qualify-for-medicare-under-65/

#diet pills "family filed a criminal complaint against the medical staff for abandoned death and filed a complaint with the National Human Rights Commission of Korea." https://www.mk.co.kr/en/hot-issues/11146050

#forensic psychiatry "close High Security Hospitals as well (Ospedale Psichiatrico Giudiziario [OPG]). The new forensic treatment model is expected to be more respectful of the person, including the perpetrators of violent crimes...the reform (Law n. 81/2014), Italian psychiatrists are now obliged to answer calls to give evidence on strictly legal issues such as the social dangerousness of the mentally ill offender." https://krimdok.uni-tuebingen.de/Record/1905537808/Description#tabnav

#Nutrition October 20, "World Iodine Deficiency Day...crucial micronutrient essential for mental development," especially if you don't live on a coast for seafood. https://archive.is/bv0ux

#most dangerous antidepressants "Tricyclic antidepressants, citalopram, venlafaxine and monoamine oxidase inhibitors are the most toxic antidepressants in overdose." https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S1357303924000793

#harassed by harris "As San Francisco district attorney, she advocated passage of a 2004 statewide proposition that expanded California’s behavioral health system for those with serious mental health issues." https://rollcall.com/2024/10/21/for-harris-mental-health-access-a-key-policy-priority/

#Deinstitutionalization guyana, "in-patients at the National Psychiatric Hospital who bear the greatest burdens of risk, harm, and violence. Between April 2009 to June 2021, the NPH failed to prevent the deaths of five patients under its care...state ineptitude and institutional violence." https://www.stabroeknews.com/2024/10/21/features/in-the-diaspora/political-promises-psych-washing-and-institutionalized-mental-health-care-in-guyana/

#My experience October 19 6:30 PM My dog was sleeping. parents put on the lights and TV (unlike some, he's not interested). 7:49 PM mother said I'd be killed for believing in djinn exorcisms. 8:29 PM I cried. 8:33 PM she said "shut my light...the dog...it's bothering."

October 20 9:30 AM mother gave a gift to brother's wife a day after not stopping genocidally interfering with my dates. 2:20 PM "make a mess...I'll go ballistic." 6:56 PM "I don't care" about sadness caused by her swatting attacks. 7:39 PM I cried.

#panic vs. heart attack Heart "pain in the center of the chest that lasts more than a few minutes that feels like pressure or squeezing; discomfort radiating to the arm, neck, or jaw; and sudden shortness of breath." https://healthmatters.nyp.org/panic-attack-or-heart-attack-how-to-tell-the-difference/

#Marijuana "Could Anti-Inflammatory Drugs Target Depression?...Pro-inflammatory proteins can affect the brain causing changes linked to psychiatric illness." https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/its-not-just-in-your-head/202410/could-anti-inflammatory-drugs-target-depression

“State medical and recreational cannabis policies were not associated with a statistically significant increase in rates of psychosis." https://www.marijuanamoment.net/legalizing-marijuana-does-not-jeopardize-mental-health-studies-show-contrary-to-opponents-alarmist-claims-op-ed/

#Videos "This is What Dystonia Looks Like: The Frustrating Reality of Antipsychotic (zyprexa)" https://youtu.be/up-2wUsB1pY

#Native Americans "Friendship House, a Native-led (alcoholism) recovery treatment program in San Francisco...“A traditional practitioner did prayers for me. They shared some songs with me. They put me in the sweat lodge...Medicaid in California, Medi-Cal, as well as in Arizona, New Mexico and Oregon, is set to cover traditional health practices such as music therapy, sweat lodges, and dancing." https://www.publicradiotulsa.org/npr-national-news/2024-10-19/medicaid-will-cover-traditional-healing-practices-for-native-americans-in-4-states?_amp=true

#Role model ohio, "Former prosecutor charged with soliciting pleads not guilty, resigns from mental health board." https://www.daytondailynews.com/local/former-prosecutor-charged-with-soliciting-pleads-not-guilty-resigns-from-mental-health-board/5P3NY25YO5EWREBCKVIYIRLKVE/

#antipsychotics don't work "systematic review and network meta-analysis of 68 studies has found no clear evidence that any specific antipsychotic significantly improves cognitive function in patients with schizophrenia spectrum." https://medicalxpress.com/news/2024-10-meta-analysis-reveals-minimal-cognitive.html

#Success without antipsychotics "total of 9 patients were antipsychotic free 12 month after entering the project, since 4 patients had continued tapering in their regular outpatient setting." https://www.researchgate.net/figure/Study-flowchart-Eight-patients-were-without-antipsychotic-medication-after-six-months_fig1_384931765

#no alcohol israel, "Sheba Medical Center, Ben-Gurion University researchers surprised to find alcohol caused more psychological problems (PTSD) than psychedelics on survivors of Hamas’s Oct. 7 rave massacre." https://www.timesofisrael.com/study-nova-survivors-who-drank-alcohol-before-hamas-attack-more-likely-to-suffer-ptsd/

#My experiences October 18 5:55 PM "I'll wear what I want." mother, "You'll do as I tell you." October 19 12:19 PM she threatened "I'm going to stab that man (father)" for a dirty microwave. she threatened to stab me and refused to drop the weapon April 2019. And at least one more time for cutting my hair and a supposedly dirty sock which I photographed.

12:42 PM "I (she) am going to have a breakdown!" 1:50 PM father, she's a "Fucking idiot." 2:14 PM she's "losing your fucking mind." 3:04 PM she said there's something wrong with her "mentally."

#What about those who plead mentally ill? "Opinion: This is what New Jersey owes the wrongly convicted." The psych system is designed to force ("insight" into your disease) guilty pleas to a mental illness or be tortured for life. https://www.northjersey.com/story/opinion/2024/10/17/opinion-what-new-jersey-owes-the-wrongly-convicted/75589235007/

#"forgotten report that upended mental health care in California" "the present system of commitment virtually says anyone who says this patient is in need of treatment, then can be committed indefinitely into a state hospital. This is perhaps one of the most drastic deprivations of a person’s liberty possible." https://capitolweekly.net/the-forgotten-report-that-upended-mental-health-care/

#European Court of Human Rights Norway, "ECHR based on Article 2, the right to life, Article 3, the prohibition of torture, and Article 13, the right to an effective remedy." https://www.jurist.org/news/2024/10/echr-rules-norway-authorities-failed-to-prevent-suicide-of-prisoner/ "compulsory mental health treatment in 2019 under Chapter 5 of the Mental Healthcare Act." "Particular importance shall be attached to opinions concerning previous experience with the use of force... b. have the opportunity to cultivate their private interests and hobbies...Consideration shall also be given to the individual’s essential beliefs and cultural background...(right to contact) ombudsman for patients, a priest or similar spiritual advisor." https://app.uio.no/ub/ujur/oversatte-lover/data/lov-19990702-062-eng.pdf

#TV The Lincoln Lawyer season 3 episode 7 "criminals with badges are the worst kind." https://youtu.be/8Q3jJA60jWo I was discriminatorily false arrested 10 times without probable cause for protected freedom of speech and religion. The first time the balding cop said he's above being sued.

#not logical "psychiatrist mentor of mine told me: “psychiatry is not a science, it’s rather about the study of man." https://www.thecipherbrief.com/book-review/a-spys-world-its-all-about-influence-persuasion-and-trust

#murderors "vast majority of serial killers are not psychiatrically ill but have very disordered, psychopathic personalities. As such, there is no real psychiatric treatment that is effective or can be offered to them." https://www.pedestrian.tv/entertainment/making-a-serial-killer-where-to-watch/

#Regulation connecticut, "Capitol Region Mental Health Center in Hartford and the Greater Bridgeport Community Mental Health Center...bill, S.B. 957, called for the state to create a new office within DPH to oversee prison medical programs." https://www.ctpublic.org/news/2024-10-18/do-connecticuts-psychiatric-facilities-need-more-oversight-lawmakers-to-decide

#contradicting quacks “quirky guy with a history of quirky behavior,” but not a schizophrenic." https://archive.is/KYMyt

#My experiences October 17 6:36 PM father called youngest brother "miserable." mother said he is a "psycho...can't cope...he's losing his mind." October 18 around 12:50 PM I said mother is stupid and unsupportive for not listening even 1 minute about Silicon Valley. she replied with a threat to "flatten (me) like a pancake."

#money isn't all going to esKetamine Pie chart shows 80% psych ward labor cost. https://vermontbiz.com/news/2024/october/17/brattleboro-retreat-releases-2024-annual-report

#untrustworthy artificial chemicals "Why I’m wary of the new schizophrenia miracle drug...I’m not alone. A 2012 study found 50% of people with schizophrenia don’t take their prescribed medication, and it’s not just because of side effects. A 2020 research review found we disengage with treatment in part because we don’t trust health care...monthly injections feel like coercion and control to many with schizophrenia...To be a psychiatric patient is to be unheard, to be told to be quiet (also by cops)" https://archive.is/q1XKn

#sterilization "Canadian Senate has unanimously supported a bill to end forced sterilization of Indigenous women." https://www.aptnnews.ca/videos/canadian-senate-supports-bill-to-end-forced-sterilization-of-indigenous-women/

#Deinstitutionalization israel, "Health Ministry to shift psychiatric care focus to community," https://m.jpost.com/health-and-wellness/article-824882

#prison wards "When a Hospital Feels Like a Prison." https://www.psychologytoday.com/ie/blog/beyond-mental-health/202410/when-a-hospital-feels-like-a-prison

#assisted outpatient poison new mexico, "Disguising Punishment As Treatment Won’t Make Us Safe...overcome our reliance on the criminal legal system to solve every societal issue." https://www.aclu-nm.org/en/news/disguising-punishment-treatment-wont-make-us-safe

#TV The Faculty (1998) "We are going to get you help...a professional (psych)...they've got the police." https://youtu.be/MZ8NLnAiNc4

#Music is crazy "Donald Trump's Mental Fitness in Question as He Turns Rally Into a Concert | Firstpost America." https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=WOVhOvIRjnQ

#slander "Donald Trump calls anyone who opposes him mentally ill," https://archive.is/XF6ux he would send 1 million poor people to psych wards.

#embarassment "Shame Increases Psychosis and Paranoia Severity." The shame of being misdiagnosed. https://www.psychiatryadvisor.com/news/psychosis-and-paranoia-severity/

#dry eye "individuals with dry eye were more likely to develop depression, anxiety, fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue." https://europe.ophthalmologytimes.com/view/the-consequences-of-dry-eye-disease-incidence-of-psychiatric-disorders-fibromyalgia-and-chronic-fatigue-following-diagnosis-aao-academy

#side effects "Ulotaront, a trace amine-associated receptor 1 (TAAR1) agonist, also holds promise as a novel emerging drug class for schizophrenia. The FDA granted it the Breakthrough Therapy Designation in 2019. Data from a 26-week open-label extension study showed no clinically significant changes in weight, cholesterol, triglycerides, or A1C levels." https://www.psychiatrist.com/news/managing-weight-metabolic-syndrome-and-diabetes-in-schizophrenia-patients/

#psychiatrists hate freedom "Over-diagnosed Britain has forgotten about freedom...Being forced to view the world through a psychological lens is a threat to our freedom." https://archive.is/S79NE

#My experiences October 15 oculogyric crisis, couldn't read. October 17 10:01 eating a handful of food is "insane" according to mother. 6:10 PM she OCD yelled five times.

I don’t really know what kind of help I need. I do think I could use some help, as helping myself seems to be a very slow and exhausting process. But, I don’t trust that my “heroes” come in the form of psychiatrists and psychologists (at least, not a good number of them).

I saw someone, back in February of last year. Something was obviously very wrong with me, but I was unable to articulate precisely what and why that was. Just vague descriptions of what was going on, which weren’t helped by the incredibly unhelpful questions being asked of me. The diagnostic criteria seemed very imprecise (assuming common patterns when I had no discernible ones, such as hours of sleep per night), and also incredibly subjective (terms such as “sometimes”, “a lot of the time”, etc.). There were questions about how many hours of sleep I experienced each night, without any consideration of how my lack of REM (or dreams) could be affecting me. Just to name a few things…

Given this whole mess of a process, I wonder what gave the good doctor any right to not only make a determination as to what was going on with me, but also decide whatever random pill to throw my way, without any consideration for the seeming lack of precision of my diagnosis, how my brain might react to the medication (I reckon this varies based on neurotype), how other factors might explain what was happening (my particular flavor of sleep problems, general isolation)… Mental suffering can probably be tied to many factors, but I guess the psychiatrist has a sixth sense, in regard to whatever is afflicting a particular patient… and I guess they have the authority to decide whatever drug is best for you, in spite of a seeming lack of awareness (willful or otherwise) of the potential risks of a given medication, based on the idiosyncratic qualities of any particular person.

I lost my soul for a good while, to the “medicine” which was supposed to help me. In spite of the fact that something was obviously wrong… the psychiatrist neither had the competence nor care, nor fluidity to guide me towards what I might need to address both my adverse reactions to the medication and whatever was the root cause of my original “sickness”.

I don’t think I’ve ever had good experiences with a therapist either. This may be due to multiple factors, including the inherent vulnerability of opening up to someone when you have certain traits which predispose you to abuse, the fact that the zombification I experienced from my medication made it impossible to talk about anything coherently… it seems that my last one talked a lot about medication when they were hardly qualified to speak on it (neither was my psychiatrist, come to think of it).

All around, my experiences in the realm of mental healthcare have not been helpful. I would expect problems such as mental suffering, and the root causes of such, to deserve a thorough evaluation, but it seems this process was very rushed, and, arguably, not diagnostic at all, judging from my previous experiences. My “doctors”, my therapists… they never had a clue as to how to deal with me.

And so, I am presented with a dilemma. Perhaps my sleep apnea getting properly addressed will help me to function, in addition to what I have been doing now… ongoing introspection as to my complex world of pain, and how to address it. But, it seems I face a tight deadline, as I am preparing to face the world on my own. Not nearly enough time, some would say. I wish I could rely on a doctor to guide me along the process… somebody, somewhere, but I think I will just have to find some way to make up for my fucked up mind, and other problems, for now. Can’t trust anyone else to be able to address them, adequately.

And that’s that. The fact that so many desperate people are being castrated due to the sheer incompetence of these buffoons… it’s sickening.

Couldn’t be me lol

…i’m tired of being treated like a joke.

It doesn’t even need to be about mental health shit, it’s just. Everything.

Everything.

#No involuntary mexico, "amended article 75 of the LGS is concise: confinement can only be voluntary; it operates only with the existence of informed consent; it must be used as a last therapeutic resource, when it provides greater benefits than the rest of possible interventions, and it must be carried out for the time “strictly necessary.” https://eljuegodelacorte.nexos.com.mx/2022-se-acabaron-los-internamientos-involuntarios-en-mexico/

#Religions "NIFB pastor Steven Anderson, who was recently involuntarily committed to a mental institution for 24 hours, has shared details of the incident, calling it “horrific” and straight “evil.”...felony perjury...demon." https://protestia.com/2024/10/14/nifb-pastor-steven-anderson-describes-spending-24-hours-in-the-psych-ward-like-listening-to-charles-manson-all-night/

#college sucks "study sought to measure the lifetime prevalence of suicide ideation and associated socio-demographic characteristics among students of the University for Development Studies, Tamale Campus. The overall lifetime prevalence was 24.5%...statistically associated with university-associated factors like academic stress, and victimization." https://bmcpsychiatry.biomedcentral.com/articles/10.1186/s12888-024-06155-7

#TV NCIS: Origins season 1 episode 1 he failed the psych evaluation, perhaps from PTSD. https://youtu.be/BCskuRZHaNU

#Hire, instead of poison "TV BRA in Norway is a unique media organisation. Their fortnightly national news show is presented by reporters who have learning disabilities or are autistic." http://open.live.bbc.co.uk/mediaselector/6/redir/version/2.0/mediaset/audio-nondrm-download-rss/proto/http/vpid/p0jx51r1.mp3

#maryland mismanaged "How a ‘climate of chaos’ went unchecked at Maryland’s max-security psych hospital. A Washington Post investigation found that officials didn’t act on staff complaints about facility violence, which culminated in a patient brawl, rape and death." https://archive.is/WcDfv

#nanoparticles turkish "Academics explore cannabis for schizophrenia treatment." https://www.hurriyetdailynews.com/academics-explore-cannabis-for-schizophrenia-treatment-201547

#drug-induced psychosis canada, "treatment team (12 years) later determined he does not have a mental illness and that his psychosis during the break-in was substance-induced...by 2014, his treatment team had decided he did not need them (antipsychotics)" https://edmontonjournal.com/news/local-news/alberta-hospital-edmonton-not-mentally-ill

#Timing "researchers at the University of Birmingham, argue that soaring house prices, employment uncertainty and lack of access to affordable education could all be contributing to increases in mental health problems as younger generations grapple with issues that were less prominent for their parents and grandparents." https://medicalxpress.com/news/2024-10-intergenerational-unfairness-worsen-youth-mental.html

#threatened by politicians minnesota, "Council Member Boyd Morson argued against the letter, saying it would cause more harm than good. He also argued the letter accomplishes nothing since the council can't force her to seek mental health treatment. Morson also pointed out that none of the council members have the qualifications to diagnose an individual..."It's totally unethical, unnecessary, and a violation of her human rights." "attend future meetings remotely so she can feel safe." https://www.fox9.com/news/brooklyn-center-city-council-asks-member-seek-mental-health-evaluation

#My experiences October 15 10:59 AM mother obstructed, threatened when I said I talked to the government.

#Islam "Indeed, intoxicants, gambling...are but defilement from the work of Satan, so avoid it that you may be successful." [Quran: 5:90] "habitual drunkard shall not enter Paradise." [Ad-Daarimi]" "Prophet Muhammad described intoxicants as: 1. The key to all evils. 2. The head of all errors and lapses." https://islamweb.net/en/article/135424/consumption-of-intoxicants-drugs-an-islamic-perspective

pills are worse khamr intoxicants than alcohol. I only follow the Prophet. He said I will be sent to jahannam hell, "prescribed 40 lashes "administered with two palm branches." https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Khamr

turkey 1600's, "opium and cannabis ("giyah-e moqaddas (‘sacred herb’") remained legal during this period when you could lose your head over a good cup of coffee. Their use was such an engrained part of the culture that no one even thought to classify them as a problem." iran, "As in Turkey, cannabis was the drug of the “lower-class” peasants and Sufis, who used it to induce mystical experiences." https://www.alternet.org/2014/12/drugs-islamic-world-same-substances-different-rules https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6153265/

"its price is the gem of freedom." https://www.islamandihsan.com/the-business-life-of-the-prophet-muhammad.html False Claims Act overcharging is "riba...dealing in prohibited things, and cheating and deception" usury. "merchants (pill dealers) will be raised on the Day of Resurrection as evildoers," https://islamqa.info/en/answers/134621/what-prophet-muhammad-said-about-business

#Dogs south carolina, "Shannon Fitzgerald has seen it. In her ReVisions outpatient psychiatric clinic, she has seen dogs help patients with dark thoughts "in ways I never could," https://www.postandcourier.com/health/therapy-dogs-hospital-musc/article_bcbaedb4-8281-11ef-8881-cfe45c8f75a7.html

#racism "pervasiveness and chronicity of structural racism in research and university institutions." https://www.cambridge.org/core/journals/the-british-journal-of-psychiatry/article/exceptional-racism-at-the-dawn-of-scientific-psychiatry-in-brazil-the-curious-case-of-juliano-moreira/E9A35DBD650FE089F1C3C2CFB14E4F87

#Thyroid "first-onset psychosis in a 48-year-old female patient with hypothyroidism due to Hashimoto’s thyroiditis, despite being on thyroid replacement therapy (levothyroxine)." https://www.cureus.com/articles/309016-acute-psychosis-and-suicidal-attempt-in-hashimotos-thyroiditis-a-case-report#!/

#prisoner, not patient "rapidly growing numbers of women psychotherapists saw use of the term “client” as a feminist issue, a way to rectify the imbalance in power between (historically male) psychiatrists and psychologists and their (primarily female) patients." https://www.kevinmd.com/2024/10/the-dangerous-shift-in-mental-health-are-we-clients-or-patients.html

#genetics "Fifteen years ago, researchers introduced the first two mouse models of autism, each carrying a genetic mutation linked to autism in humans." Most developmental disabilities and mental illnesses have not been identified with a DNA test and are not found in the "tens of millions of mice." https://www.vox.com/future-perfect/377739/autism-research-mice-lab-models

#My experiences October 14 1:36 PM mother, "I'm talking to myself, practicing."

#side effects "25-year study found that clozapine...over 2,600 patients, showing...5% had gut blockages after long-term use." https://centrist.co.nz/schizophrenia-drug-linked-to-deadly-side-effects-after-long-term-use/ This scared my mother who had it.

#Letter to the editor "If he loses his housing, he would end up living on the streets. We would lose sight of him; he would get beat up or die of exposure. That’s better than a hospital for the mentally ill, right?" https://www.theglobeandmail.com/opinion/letters/article-drug-crisis-does-involuntary-treatment-work/ $2,000/day psych wards are much more expensive than a luxury hotel or apartment. Housing First provides shelter with optional supervised services.

#bipolar "Advantages in Bipolar: No Longer If, But Why and How." https://www.psychologytoday.com/ie/blog/bipolar-advantage/201306/advantages-in-bipolar-no-longer-if-why-and-how

#290 years of fake insanity "1734, Swedish law provided that mentally disturbed persons on trial for criminal offences were entitled by law to special procedures. Clear directives as to procedure in such examinations followed in 1826, but the first provisions for obligatory examination of mental status of certain persons became effective only in 1931." https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/0160252780900394/pdf?md5=2f60120fdc120df7fd0b10b0d31f635f&pid=1-s2.0-0160252780900394-main.pdf

#Nothing "International Space-Out Competition seeks to highlight how sitting still and doing nothing can improve mental health and lower stress." https://www.scmp.com/lifestyle/health-wellness/article/3281867/how-doing-nothing-can-improve-mental-health-hong-kong-space-out-event-aimed-show

#TV The Eleventh Hour (1962) season 1 episode 8 "Hooray, Hooray the Circus Is Coming to Town. A millionaire railroad magnate leaves most of his entire fortune to his eldest son, a man who long ago turned away from the business world in favor of an eccentric bohemian lifestyle. Dr. Bassett is called in by the man's younger brother in the hope of proving him mentally incompetent." https://m.imdb.com/title/tt0055669/episodes/?ref_=tt_ov_epl

Insanitarium (2008) "After he's institutionalized in order to cover for his sister, a young man encounters a doctor who is turning his patients into flesh-eating psychopaths." https://m.imdb.com/title/tt1103984/

#Book "Stijn Vanheule on 'Why Psychosis is not so crazy' (1/3): Psychosis as experience of Freedom" https://youtu.be/LMVmTZNWmkY

#Cultural traditions "Nigeria can establish a more comprehensive and culturally sensitive mental health care system." https://www.vanguardngr.com/2024/10/mental-health-integrate-traditional-healing-practices-into-healthcare-system-expert-tasks-fg/

#female hormones "suicide rate for men is three times that of women...We need much more education for psychiatrists on the impact of hormones on women’s mental health...We must stop using the terms “Borderline Personality Disorder” (BPD) and “Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder” (EUPD)." https://morningstaronline.co.uk/article/why-women-are-still-losing-out-mental-health-system

#My experiences October 12 4:26 PM "I'm not doing anything illegal." mother, "It doesn't matter...everyone (local) wants to hurt (me)."

October 13 9:25 AM mother said I'm "an asshole" for protecting the dog from her petty criminal negligence. Then she OCD hallucinated crumbs of food. 6:22 PM she told me not to tell dog to not eat our food.