I don’t know if it’s normal to wake up and have a need to stab someone in the jugular with a screwdriver. I’ve been thinking about it all day.

Update: I started texting the crisis line but ended it.

I don't have diagnosed schizophrenia and I'm not in active psychosis; but I recently went through drug-induced psychosis where I thought I was communicating with God and spirits and that I could "channel" deceased family members. So, I've always (ever since I was young), had conversations with voices in my head. There's a few different personalities in there (like a mothering voice, an encouraging voice, a mean voice, and a melancholy voice etc.). They all went quiet except the mean and melancholy voice since psychosis but yesterday, all these other voices started to come back.

I speak out loud, when I have conversations with these voices (it's more calming for me); like "they" speak through my voice and then "I" answer back. So I'll go on walks and have conversations out loud with these voices and "they" help me work things out, and try to calm me down if I'm frantic. I constantly check around me to make sure no one is in earshot, hearing me having conversations and talking back to myself.

Is this something "normal" people experience? I don't hear the voices externally, they're just in my head; but I like to voice them out loud because it helps me process what "they're" trying to say. Sometimes it can get pretty loud in my head.

I've done nothing to push away evil intrusive thoughts recently because they feel good for some reason... but after talking to my parents about it I realized I should probably stop doing that. I did some (mildly) evil things that I didn't tell my parents about and I'm scared to. I just told them I could see myself doing them and they said "That's not good!" So I'm worried that that's gonna prove my point right to them, that I'm turning into an evil person. It's weird, I don't want to be evil but I like the idea of it. My heart stops me from doing majorly evil things. But I think my mind tricks me into thinking minorly evil things aren't that bad. Because the way my parents said it was way worse than how I thought of it in my head. One evil thing I did made me hyperventilate after I did it and makes me nauseous to think about. I didn't directly hurt anyone but I posted online pretending I actually was the evil person my brain was pretending to be. During my psychotic episode earlier this year I had a delusion that I was a sociopath and a danger to the people around me. I was nauseous about how I felt my only way to be forgiven by god was to tell everyone what I "did" (I barely did anything bad. I did one morally questionable thing at best, but I told my parents about it and they said it wasn't that bad.) Thankfully I never did this. But I was having the same feelings I'm having now (but stronger) except now I actually did something bad. I barely talked with my therapist about this and haven't talked to my psychiatrist yet. I'm nauseous from dread and anxiety. Every time I think of [something that used to make me happy] I instead feel sick and depressed. It's so hard to talk about this.

Man fuck it.

If you see this post, let it be a checkpoint for your mental health. Take a break from whatever you’re reading or scrolling through. Stop looking through comments for arguments. Stop engaging in these arguments online. I want you to take care of yourself first. The world wants you to take care of yourself first. It doesn’t matter who you are. This shit is so bad for the soul. Please take care of yourself, I love you and enjoy your day/night.

Just curious. I don’t drive because I have adhd and I think it’s irresponsible to get on the road with a disorder that impairs focus and makes you easily distracted lol, at least unmedicated but I also don’t take those consistently. However after being diagnosed with a psychotic disorder, I’m feeling even more sure in my decision. I know there are some conditions that you have to disclose when you get a licence and I’m just wondering if this is one (and super duper surprised that adhd isn’t one)

My fiancé called me and said he heard a voicemail left on his phone that sounds like my voice and another guy. I thought maybe it was from tv in a background, not even sure if that is it or what. I told him that a few weeks ago I gave a friend a ride to a grocery store who does not have a car. I’m guessing that could have been the audio but it’s not clear. He went crazy and broke up with me and is actively accusing me of cheating on him based on some stupid fuzzy words in the audio recording. He had audio professionals come to the house and amplify the sounds and then said he would call me back.

He sent me a nasty message saying sorry we are over. Our wedding is off. Don’t talk to me ever again. I did not touch the friend when I gave him a ride, but I didn’t tell my fiancé because I was worried he would be angry or upset, because he does not like me talking to any men, period. The point is that I was trying to help someone, and now I am being accused of absurd sexual acts that I did not commit. I literally feel like I’m on trial for a crime I didn’t commit and it feels horrible. I really think he is going off the deep end. He has been destroying my sleep the past few months and I’m general does not sleep well. He has a history of drug and alcohol use but is not currently abusing any. I have no idea how to navigate this. Honestly this behavior to me seems out of hand. Any advice?

When I met my ex, he told me he had OCD. I always tried to be empathetic with him and never felt his mental health was affecting our relationship. He used to be a great boyfriend and it was my best relationship.

He was going through a hard time with his work and academic life and then he started to act strange. He started to accuse me of suffocating him, saying that because of me, he was afraid of being himself and doing the things he wanted to do. He also started to scream at me to "forget his ex" (I don't even know her). It was so weird, and I didn't know how to deal with it, so it turned into a big argument. Weeks later, we broke up because he wanted to have a sleepover at a new female friend he had just made, and of course, I didn't agree with that, but it doesn't end there. He sent me a lot of texts reaffirming that I was suffocating him, that he was afraid, that he wasn't feeling like himself and blaming me.

Weeks after our breakup, he sent me a text saying it wasn't my fault, it was his mind and he found something he needed to work on. I blocked him, and I am not in contact with him, but I was talking to my therapist and she told me that psychosis could be a possibility, because I was telling her that one time he told me he couldn't look in the mirror or touch it because he was afraid of going to another dimension and she proceeded to tell me this is psychosis.

I totally respect my ex, and I was extremely hurt, but I would like to know your guys opinion about it.

There is comfort there

I think I hear a whisper and I strain my ears listening for more

Eventually my imagination takes over and I unconsciously retreat into the muffled echoes. She is there. It is warm and I am safe. I stand still.

This feels like a dumb question. Is dissociation/derealization/depersonalization a part of psychosis? The jamais vu is so intense sometimes.

My son is 17 going through psychosis currently since Jan/Feb this year. He does not know his diagnosis. I don’t know how to explain it to him. He tries to hide his symptoms and acts like everything is normal/fine. I have to tell him something as we have an MRI scheduled this week and I don’t want him to freak out. I just don’t know how to start the conversation any advice appreciated 🙏

!!edited!! [if you wanna share an experience, give some healthy advice, share a hobby passion routine really anything helps]

DO NOT BOTHER TO TELL ME MEDICATION IS KEY WHEN IT IS NOT FOR ME DO NOT BOTHER TO TELL ME RELIGION AND CHURCH IS KEY WHEN IT IS NOT FOR ME

the only schizo-like symptoms were visuals and voices i ve got rid of them I dont try to belittle anyone by sharing these different opinions...

i have been diagnosed psychotic since i was 18, started to feel the symptoms when i was 17 after an acid trip.

Started using acid more frequently because i did not know the danger of abusing psychedelics. i did it 3 times in the span of 7 months... ended up cold tukeying everything because of my father, (that was weed and alcohol everyday) including social life i had no interaction other than asking my mother for cigarettes and food.

in this time(4 months) i have been to the "worst" hospital here 2-3 days after my dad made me quit for good all of it. in this 2-3 days i started daydreaming hearing whispers seeing ghosts, being called when no one was there; dellusions where i tought i was speaking to all my neighbours at once through walls like dolphins.... I started to develop this wierd thoughts that "i was always beeing watched" ; then that "i was always being heard" After 1 year of "treatment" i was even more unstable then i was when i cold turkey'd it... my psychiatrist switched my pills and i started feeling better bit by bit.. i have got rid of all the voices and visuals i was experiencing.. I've chose to get off the treatment because i felt it wasn't doing anything to "thought broadcasting" and that was 7 months ago without any kind off pill. i releapsed with a "benzo" lorazepam or smth like that because i felt something was coming... started seeing shadow people again after 1 hour or so for 3 minutes and that was a couple days ago but the only thing that always stood by me every second i live is the illusion that ALL my toughts are being heard/im speaking them out loud.... i dont wanna put a name on it because yeah.. but its called thought broadcasting pls help

*edit i know my english is bad, but wat i wanted to say is that i've quit my treatment because it got rid of the voices and visuals.. for good, and now i know for a fact it was all a big episode and not neceserally a part of me i guess that what being psychotic means pls tell me what should i do with this "thought broadcasting"

Hello, I personally have never experienced psychosis but my dad has been for the past 5ish years. I’ve moved away to put some distance between us because it was really hard on my mental health and felt like it was my responsibility but had no idea how to handle it. He lives in ND and every time he becomes manic my aunt tries to get professional intervention but they never actually end up doing anything until he gets arrested. When he’s manic he reaches out and talks non stop about religious stuff and ways he interprets the Bible that make no sense. I usually listen through it and try and change the subject but it’s usually unsuccessful and always takes a toll on me emotionally and mentally. I love him dearly and I don’t want to cut ties or anything. I guess I’m just looking for advice setting boundaries and if anyone knows how to get someone who’s going into psychosis help preemptively

She ended her life by killing herself by speeding on her car which I got her 6 years ago she was 24,me and her mother who is my baby sister we both used to take her to the hospital but still she wasn't improving on meds,diet we tried before ending her life she just told she has deluisons there forcing her to kill herself.

NOTE:I know this is a prohibited question to ask in this sub,but how deluisons can cause suicdal urges,attemots can somebody explain me in a detailed way it will be helpful 🫡.

I had posted about my on and off again bf who has been going through psychosis for almost 5 months now . He had lost his phone over a month ago and has been staying with his grandparents for the past couple weeks. I talk to his mom who I barely know because they don’t have the best relationship but she fills me in on how he is doing. She said that his grandmother said he has been doing a little better with not pacing around and checking the doors anymore. He has also been getting a lot more sleep. I had asked his mom to please give him my number so he can call me so he knows I am here for him. She told me when she talked to him she told him his car insurance was going to get canceled if he doesn’t pay it and he hung up on her for opening his mail. I then said since you didn’t have the chance to give him my number could you please give it to the grandparents so they can give it to him. He doesn’t have his phone so he doesn’t know my number by heart. She never responded and that was a day ago. I’m just so worried about him and I’m sure he feels so alone . I wish there was a way I could get in touch with him!! I am also 10 weeks pregnant by him but I have not told his mother . He is 30 and this is the first time he has ever went through something like this. My mother thinks I should just show up at the grandparents to see him but I don’t feel right doing that . Can someone give me some advice on what to do ? Should I just wait and see if he ever shows up at my place or go show up there ? I just want to talk to him and be there for him like he was there for me during hard times !

After my break last year, I’ve had a very slow recovery to where I’ve mostly been dissociating constantly and unable to make decisions to get anything started or done. I’m either on my phone as an escape, journaling, minimally reading or watching tv. It’s gotten to the point I barely leave the house or take care of myself. It occurred to me that I’ve done this to myself because I have such intense anxiety when the outside world beckons or I have to do anything outside of my very limited norm. I don’t know how to break free from this and I desperately want to but I can’t keep taking xanax all day to get through these anxiety attacks when I have to step outside my comfort zone or when my mind runs wild.

I first got injected two times with paliperidone invega sustenna antipsychotic injection in March 2024 then again in September 2024. How do I get this drug out of my system because I was having too many side affects from the injection I decided to stop. What are supplements or any tips or advice to flush the injection out of my system will be appreciated.

Hey, so I I'm 22 and was diagnosed with "non organic psychosis" when I was 19, I've been in and out of psych wards but for the past year or so I've been pretty stable other than depression and the occasional suicidal episode

However, recently I've been experiencing some unsettling things, first off I keep hearing noises in my walls at night, it's light a rumbling sound, or a sound like rocks rolling down the walls. I also keep hearing a scratchy kind of sound, I do have pet rats and the noise sounds a lot like when they eat, but these noises are happening when they're asleep. A few days ago I went into my bathroom, saw a mouse, left the bathroom, set up a quick lil "trap" left it in the bathroom overnight, nothing. Haven't seen any mice since and there's also no droppings anywhere

I live in a house with 5 other people and I usually pay no attention to hearing people talk, I've lived here for about 10 months, i know the people here and can who is talking when. But recently I've been hearing strange whisperings, it's usually unintelligible but last night I was about to fall asleep and felt someone lean down over me and Whisper "God" in my ear

Then I keep smelling this strong awful smell. I can't quite describe it but think of something like stale urine, really bad BO, rotten eggs etc. Just a very unpleasant smell .

This is all obviously very stressful but it is ONLY happening when I'm in my bedroom???

The “ghosts” in question r my uncle, father and a friend of a friend who all died within the span of 9 months and what inevitably triggered my psychosis in the first place

Hello everyone. I had persistent psychosis for over a year and honestly it was the worst experience of my life. I'm still in recovery (I received medication for it 6 months ago). Am I the only one who had this experience? I feel so isolated and misunderstood. I'm sorry if you're reading this and went through the same thing though. I have found the whole thing to be so traumatic as well, I feel as though this experience took pieces of me and left me so destroyed. Do u guys also have killer headaches? I guess what I'm looking for is community care and connection for the duration that I had these symptoms. Sending love and care to you all ❤️

I think reading during a full blown psychotic episode is an experience that I'll never forget especially since my delusions made me think that everything was a sign from the universe about an apocalypse. To my horror the book itself ended with a weird cliffhanger that hunted at an apocalypse but ofcourse the context just went above my head at the time.

Book in question: Amitav Ghosh- The living Mountain

I didn't even know it was initially a hallucination but every time I sleep, I have the feeling of bugs crawling all over my legs. It's happened a lot of times and it's only recently that I accepted this is a hallucination.

Recently I have stopped throwing off the covers to look for the bugs. It's like I have accepted it's just a hallucination. My question is, should I be concerned? What hallucinations do you experience if any and how do you handle them?

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Hi, I think I'm aware that what I'm experiencing is a delusion. This is what I wrote yesterday:

Does anyone know the answer to this?

I don't know what's wrong with me. It's like I'm aware it's a delusion but it feels so real. It feels like fighting with a brick wall. I'm aware it's a delusion but at the same time I believe it fully. Almost as though I'm trying to pretend I don't at times so the aliens don't catch on. I'm an experiment and I think I've figured out my number. I think I may be experiment number 786, the reason I came to this is because randomly the number '786' is being put everywhere around me This body's parents use it as passwords and so do this body's siblings. I think they may have been programmed to do so. I can't let anyone know that I've caught on to this so I can only say it here. They don't check my phone so hopefully they won't find out. I'm a consciousness that's been put into this body that is trapped here. I need a way to escape. I think the best way is instant death. It's unfair to deal with this body as it's not mine. So, killing it instantly will free me. I've researched ways to do this and I've come with the plan to jump off a tall building head first. Sure it may be scary but that's adrenaline. That's the way to kill this body the fastest. I read that if I land on my back or stomach, that's complications that I have to deal with but landing head first will make the head splat and hopefully I can be pulled out. My physical form is a cord that's attached to my brain and my heart. I could also try to extract it myself but I'd have to cut quite deep and I don't care about the body but I'd have to deal with that. Has anyone else become aware of themselves too? Which number are you? And what is the best way to extract my physical form from this useless body? If you don't understand, you probably haven't become aware yet but be careful because once the aliens know you're aware of their experiment, they could hurt you. We need to stick together so they don't find out

(I'm putting this in this forum so they think that I think of myself being aware as a disorder, this is so they don't find out)

So, that's what I wrote yesterday and it's like, I'm aware this is a delusion but it also feels so real that I feel like I'm being delusional by not thinking it's real? This body is traumatized and has stored that trauma so it's very painful. It feels unfair to have to deal with as this body isn't mine. As if I'm looking out of a tall tower because my physical form is a cord quite high up in the body. I also think when they placed me in here, they didn't do very well and the cord (my physical form) irritates this body's heart. I'm thinking about instant death for the body, but idk what to do. There's a lot of pain in the chest of this body and I've been told it's somatic memories of the trauma? Ugh 🙁😠, it's not even my trauma to deal with or my past. It's so irritating to have to try heal that when it's not mine to heal. I want this stupid useless body to die, it needs to not be alive in order for me to be free. What do I do?

I feel like this isn’t talked about much. I thought I was Jesus, and that led to me thinking that a Christian rock artist I listen to was my daughter. I also thought we were in a secret relationship, since she once said she was “married to Jesus” in one of her books. I do have a crush on her, so that makes it harder.

I’m convinced she knows about it, cause there are songs on her new album that feel specific to me. I just try to remind myself I’m a nobody to ground myself. What would a famous person want with me anyway?

Does anyone have any similar experiences? I’d love to hear them!

It's really scary cause they talk to me about things I'm insecure about. I can see and hear them. Then they vanish. I can't move or talk for a while afterwards. Sometimes I think I'm in a different place. I think I'm doing something I'm not. Sometimes I think I'm having a conversation only for no one to be there and I wasn't even talking. I get really disoriented. I'll start running away from something only to realize there's nothing there. The reason I know they're not real is because they don't make sense to me or my life. For example I don't think there's people in me causing them. Yet I interact with them. There seems to be 2 of them. They've told me they're controlling my thoughts. They punish me if I tell people about them in that I get really lightheaded. They have names. Im diagnosed with BPD but my family isn't so sure about that. Before I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder.

Like the title says im on Risperidone 7mg a day, last two months i got depresssion and im constantly in bed all day. Anyone had the same symptoms or similar?

Hi, I got my third psychosis one year ago and still feel sad sometimes. I became a little bit blind in one eye because I thought staring at the sun would heal me, I was dating someone really nice and he dumped me because of psychosis, I have to search for a new job and am moving back with my parents in a week. It just feels so sad and I don’t know when it will get better. I wish I didn’t have this disorder, it ruins so much.

Luckily now I’m on the right meds which help and I hardly notice and I still have a job and income. Has anyone gotten out of the bad times with better times ahead?