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Today marks my 27th birthday. I’ve been sober for about 3 years. I still smoke boat loads of weed but I’ve been able to stay off the nitrous oxide, poppers, cocaine, ketamine, and meth (whatever candy I could get outside of H). I’ve overdosed 4 times and each feels the same. Even sober minded, I long for that feeling often. Ironically it’s the only time I can remember feeling alive. Tonight I feel some semblance of relief and safety. While I miss that feeling, I’ve finally realized that I was chasing death. I’m trying to stop hurting myself and people around me. There is physical and mental mental pain every day. I’m facing the shame and guilt. I won’t go out this sad :)