Just took a call from my power company and the lady asked, "hi is this Mr. (dead name?") and without telling them I'm trans, without giving her any extra info I told her, "that's me."

What then proceeded during the conversation was her swapping between Mr and ma'am 7 times throughout, saying, "and this is Mr deadname?" "Yes." "Okay ma'am we'll schedule..."

Maybe I just thrive on messing with people so I find it funny instead of awkward, but voice training works. I've been voice training for about 3 years and as long as you practice earnestly. It's tough at first, but you'll go from

1. Finding your voice

To 2. With effort getting it right Then 3. Focused expertise And finally 4. Passive expertise

Tldr: got injected with decapeptyl and it might have gone intravenous, causing some shitty reactions.

So yesterday i got my decapeptyl injection and it might have gone intravenous.. yesterday at 3pm i got injected an shortly thereafter I started feeling kinda feverish. Around 9pm i went to bed and played some game until 10pm when i decided to check my temperature 🙃

Nothing really out of the ordinary in terms of my temperature but when i got back into bed shit hit the fan. I started shivering like crazy en soon thereafter i became delirious. I couldn't relax my body for hours and started mumbling to myself and wall and i was hearing stuff. Can't remember most of it but yeah crazy stuff..

I've been having these injection for about 1.5 years and this is the first time something like this happened so im still not sure it actually was the decapeptyl. I have to mention i already wasn't feeling so well that day so maybe the injection just kickstarted these bad reactions?

Has anyone else experienced something like this?

helloooooo i (16m*) have been somewhat questioning my gender lately, and im starting to get pretty confused. it all started the other day when a friend of mine jokingly called me "girlie" and out of nowhere it kinda just made my heart jump and get all excited, which was kinda confusing. ive thought about it, and im really not sure. i might be trans?

any advice would be greatly appreciated

:D

Been struggling a bit recently as my usual shaving just doesn't seem to be leaving me with that lovely smoothness it used to a few months ago, and my facial air will not go away no matter how hard I try to shave (I've always used an electric razer, never used creams or anything). Is there anything any cream or something that can help?

I’m not sure how to put all this multiple things without sounding lost and jumbled but yeah

is it normal to really want to have sex and be seen as a trans girl but also like having a dick during it but also really rather have a vagina? Like people talk about girldick and I’m like omg yes I love mine but also really want the surgery. and also is it common to be a “pillow princess”

Also I have a friend offering to have sex when their ready and so that’s really cool but it’s making me think about sex more and I’m going crazy 😭

And can someone please give me some self pleasure advice because recently it’s been making me feel shit since im not doing much and it’s just getting boring and unjoyful

Hey, so I recently started my hrt this week and I’m super excited, but I have never been able to swallow pills in my life. My body just won’t let me swallow if it detects a solid object in my mouth, and if I try hiding it in like pudding or yogurt, my tongue presses up when I swallow and stops the solid pill while letting everything else pass. I’ve been trying every technique I can find for hours the last couple days with tictacs, but have had no luck. Are there alternatives to pills for blockers or am I screwed in that regard? (I know some people don’t necessarily need blockers, but I am both getting hairier and have a receding hairline and want less of that)

Turns out, I’m going to need a sports bra soon! I was doing my usual gym routine and decided to try incorporating jumping jacks… yeah, they hurt a lot more than I expected.

Today I learned that gravity is a bitch... and my chest feels a lot more tender than usual.

Hi girls, I'm a month on E and have noticed breast development has taken its first baby steps, I still have hair on my chest tho so I was wondering what would be good alternatives to using a razor... I'm rly bad at shaving with them and end up getting tons of nicks and spots I miss. I used Nair a few years ago and don't recall any bad experiences but I hear a lot of horror stories about it so I'm not sure if I want to try it again or not, any help would be appreciated

unsure if this is an acceptable post here, but my sister came out to me (also trans, other direction) a few weeks ago and she's now out to our parents, but they aren't being very supportive. i really want to help her feel as comfortable as possible pre-everything, but i'm stuck in the same boat. it kind of feels like we're both sinking in our own little oceans. are there any tips for her or tips for me to better support her?

Well nothing important happened on day to buy today on day 3 I got called sir): still hurts. On a better note I think Ima start doing the pills under tongue because apparently that’s supposed to work better. Love y'all see you in the next update.

So I'm thinking because recently I just became the legal age where I can get hrt (still a minor) that I should probably try to get it problem is I'm a minor thankfully I have supportive parents, now I just need to hope I can compell them

recently more and more people hate me, at first only guys hated me but now more and more girls started hating me and it's not so good, it's those who look like I want which kills me even more, the comments they write are like "yuck", "you're disgusting", “halloween is over, time to go back to factory settings” and many others which are not very nice

I have an appointment on December 5th for Hrt!! And I'm wondering if anyone else has done it through planned parenthood and what I should expect! My first appointment is on Telehealth if that matters at all? Any information you all could give me would me amazinggg!

Hey Girlies, My HRT just got approved, and i'll be picking up the script from my doctor next week. I've been going through a bit of an emotional time lately and i've put on a lot of weight - will fat redistribution still happen as normal, or would i be better suited to losing some weight first and then starting HRT? I only say because pretty much everyone makes the joke of "i grew these with pizza and hard work, not implants" but i'm trying to go into more of a caloric deficit, and hoping that won't hamstring me

Any insights welcome 💜

Sooooooooo not having HRT and surgery sucks for the time being. I don’t know if anyone ever use closet with open doors were your allowed to be u but not fully or to an extent. Sooo I normally leave my house be myself at school and my parents are okay with me buying a shit tone of stuff to be myself but if I ever had the money to do plume and HRT. Imma never hear the end of it. Soo it’s best to move out with my trans masc bestie ^^. Now let’s get to why I put on euphoria. The things I buy help me cope with my problems and feel better about myself. My makeup is just does so much for me, I had bought breast forms and felt better about myself chest. There not the real deal but it’s better then no chest ;^; and I recently decided to buy some hip pad, shape wear, to give a boost in looks and confidence. Imma practice brushing out my wigs so that I feel even more like myself. But since I basically got these I can focus more on my wardrobe. There’s something about starting over and rebuilding myself into the person I was meant to be. It eases my soul and my parents will have no choice but to acknowledge it and tolorate it more 😤. Doing this really makes me happy

I remember in high school and through college I was pretty happy. I guess if I didn't listen to these nagging feelings I thought were just a fetish and had limited outlets. I played sports, had friends, went to parties and had a girlfriend. I felt comfortable as a man, both presenting as one and in the social role of man. I really enjoyed the camaraderie with other men and social acceptance. Sure there were some signs: such as deeply trying hard to be a man via weightlifting, contact sports, trying to join the military and trying to have as much sex with women as possible. I even enjoyed sex as man, although there was always this unfulfilled desire for more. There was what I now recognize as envy of women, which was hard to tell apart from lust. I remember speaking to a trans woman acquaintance of mine and asking how do you know if you're trans and she responded "Do you feel comfortable in your own body"? .I thought to myself; "Yes, I am comfortable as man, I guess I'm not trans." This was after disclosing to her my fantasies and desires to be a woman.

It all shattered about a month ago, the defense mechanisms built up by repressing over the years. So many memories, feelings, and experiences finally make sense retroactively.

Hii, I really need advice because I'm not sure what to think anymore.

When I was still in the process of figuring out that I was trans I kind of got the feeling that one of my friends (m) was transphobic but since he was also friends with my best friend (f), who was always really supportive of me and didn't seem to get that feeling from him, I figured I was propably just paranoid and tried to forget about it.

That was until I started trusting him enough to tell him that I was trans since about a month later he dropped some really transphobic comment directed at me. He excused himself after my best friend got really angry at him and told me that he didn't know what had gotten into him. I didn't really know how to react so I just accepted his apology and tried to move on from it once again.

It's been a few years since then and he never really said anything like that ever again, he's also started acting way nicer towards me. It would seem like he's simply a way nicer person now, however, about once every month or two I still notice him saying some kinda weird things regarding trans-related topics. After telling my best friend about it she usually talks to him and after that he seems like he completely changed his view on said topic, but not because he understood what the problem with it was but simply because she told him that she didn't like his view on the topic. The thing about this is that he always does so whenever she criticises him for opinions he expresses and on top of that he only ever expresses such opinions when she isn't there. He's also recently once again shown signs that after all these years he still doesn't see me as a woman, at least not fully, whilst also clearly acting way nicer around her than around me.

The things he's saying nowadays are by far not as bad as the thing he said back then but I can't help but remember the transphobic comment from back then every time something like this happens. He's always saying that we just misunderstand the weird things he says and that all the nice things are his real thoughts but the more it happens the more I get the feeling that the nice things directed towards me are just an act, that the thing he said back then is still his real opinion and he simply stopped showing it because he knows that if he expressed hate towards me, my best friend would start to hate him and their friendship or whatever he sees this as would break apart.

I had to quit my job becouse i was tereated like shit there everyone was mean if i had a trouble at something no one adked if i need any help and just rushed me, and now becouse i dont have a job i wont have money to see a doctor and get an opinion and start hrt i have 2 and half weeks to get 550 PLN and i dont have any income rn and i feel so dissapointed innmyself

How much reduction do you think you saw after the first 2-3 months? Shaving doesn't really make me dysphoric as much as the dark tint on my upper lip even when completely smooth. I have reddish brown hair (more brown than red) and some pale skin for reference.

I feel like this movie resonated with my experiences as a kid a lot and her experience coming out to her family was similar to mine. Anybody else watch/relate to this movie?

I feel like I'm going slowly insane 😔 Is there anything that could help me?

• 16 months hrt
• middle aged
• some miniscule changes (see profile if curious)
• crushing face dysphoria, a little less severe body dysphoria, social dysphoria is in comparison manageable

So, my dysphoria doesn't get better with anything affirming 😔

Makeup or hair or clothes, well, it's still my face, my body - just with makeup and new hair and new clothes, still my bloody ugly run of the mill despicable bloke face 😔😔😔

If anything, those affirming things underline the gender incongruence i feel - they doesn't help, they make it even worse somehow.

And after a lifetime of unrecognised untreated dysphoria, I'm poor, broke, with no realistic hope for face chirurgies.

What can I do? What should I do? What's left?

How can therapy help, if any? Got my third therapist but I'm still in despair, what am I doing wrong?

Any helpful coping skills I don't know about?

Feeling lost...

Yesterday I was out listening to French music (Françoise Hardy specifically) just dreaming about how unreal it’d be to see myself on a billboard in my city, like those girls who look so effortless and so beautiful. Last year I felt so far from that. I looked manly. My skin was rough. I wasn’t eating right. I felt truly invisible and alone.

This year I started going out more, taking care of myself, just trying to feel like me. And then out of nowhere someone from one of the top agencies in my country stops me and looked at me like they saw something beautiful, something I never thought anyone would see. They then asked me if they could take a few pictures and if I’d move cities to them (I said yes of course!)

It’s amazing really. A year and a self care can do this much? The person inside me was crying with happiness

I mean I DO have dysphoria since I was 5, because I keep acting fem and is uncomfortable around people who treat me like I'm gonna grow up to be a manly man, However, ever since I came out to my close relatives and friends, my dysphoria is almost nonexistant. I have a naturally feminine body and a relatively high voice, and I accidentally got called ma'am once when I was boymoding, so I don't know

For the first year I had not higher than 64pg/ml, for the 7 months 127pg/ml, and only for the last 4 months I have 264pg/ml. Although I do pass, I'm not particularly happy with my results, and my acquaintances have more progress than I. I though that I just lost generic lottery, but for past days I've been thinking, what if my hrt just wasn't effective this whole time cuz of low levels and I will catch up later since now I have good levels?

Whenever i look at queer people with queer or supportive friends, i feel so hurt. i really have a few friends. i am going insane and i feel like people hate me

seriously.. I'm a bit desperate right now.. I just have a more "masculine" body type. My entire upper body is built the way a man would want it to be. Yes, in the hip area, I look more feminine because of my swayback. My face is not extremely sharp and angular, but my shoulders are much broader than my father's. How can I compensate for that? In general I look like shit.. like a fcking grown man.. ew.. Do I have to make sure that my hip area looks broader, which I can't completely control myself. It feels awful.. and every time I put something on, this fear is confirmed..

3.5 mo HRT (also just graduated from patches to sub-q!), and one of my FtM friends invited me out for Halloween, and I had kind of set Halloween as a goal for presenting femme in public anyway, so I thought hell yes this is perfect!

So, true to the trope, I planned a costume that had ears and a tail (a raccoon) and ordered things for it in September. I was SO excited.

Well costume parts start showing up, and finally Monday I tried everything on, looked in the mirror… and hated it. Like. The WORST dysphoria.

I would not be deterred though- I actually doubled down. Since I was short on time for shipping etc, I decided I was going to go shopping in person and buy my first dress. Terrifying. So I went to a local dress shop, with one particular dress in mind and my measurements that I thought were right… and it didn’t fit. So I KEPT going. I tried on other dresses (terrifying) until I found one I liked, fit, and worked for my body type (I’m bigger, tall, and still have objectively masculine proportions). I also shopped for jewelry, got cute shit, and felt GREAT leaving, even though I spent more than I had planned.

Then the belt, and the shoes. Wooooof. I’m a 12 (maybe actually an 11) womens, maybe wide, maybe medium. So, every shoe stores website is completely useless for what’s actually in stock so I just went for it. Found a pair of patent leather red kitten heels, and was like “I’m gonna figure this shit out”.

The belt was the hard part. Again, pretty masc proportions still. I went to the vintage shop that had served me well for masc clothes, and even though they were swamped, the two older queer men really helped, and I found something perfect.

Fast forward and I’m putting on a ton of makeup (I mean, it’s Halloween and I’m a raccoon, so I’m not SUPER worried), get to my friends, and it’s just wonderful from there on. I was SO stressed just an hour before, and the whole night folks were super complimentary.

Tldr keep pushing ladies. Don’t let frustrations, fear, and setbacks stop you, it really is wonderful sometimes 🩷🩷🩷

I don’t really know how to word this but I’m so tired of my body. I hate it so much I’m way too tall and I my voice is wrong even with a bunch of voice training. I feel like the only way I can be loved is as someone’s fetish, I can’t go out because I get dysphoria looking at other girls I feel really jealous and ashamed I feel that way. I don’t want to be trans I just want to be a girl that’s all I wanted. I want to be approachable for other women, I don’t want to have to explain that I’m not hitting on them. I have a career and a home and non of it has for filled me. I want to be seen as a girl just once but it won’t happen for me it’ll never end I don’t know what to do anymore

Came out with a meme lmao I’ll update this with what he says. This is the first family member I’ve told.

***Update: nothing but love and support now…. Time to tell dad