That's it. Wish me luck. Or that I don't get murdered. No seriously, I'm scared that I'll be attacked and anxious about the transition but also incredibly excited at the same time.

It's taken me so long to start my HRT because the sperm freezing process has been such a pain in the ass. It's taken me 6 months now!

But, hopefully I'll be able to finish and start my estrogen on Dec. 17th latest.

Did anyone else find it relatively easy to quit drinking when coming out? I drank heavily for about 5 years and as soon as I figured out I had gender dysphoria, I basically quit drinking cold turkey and haven't looked back. I realized I was only drinking to hide the dysphoria. Has anyone else experienced this?

Ive been doing research but can seem to find a before and after of breasts from detranstioning back to male. Anyone know of any sources or open to share theirs?

I knew I wasn't a man at 14, due to immediate transphobia I hid it for years. At 28 years old, I feel like being myself is like waking up out of a 14 year long coma. I end up feeling like transition is mountain too tall for me.

Anyone who's been through this, can you tell me things that make me happy, optimistic and motivated to continue my authentic path?

Please 🙏 Thank you 😊

I started thinking abt my bsf after we both said we liked each other and im just in bed trying to sleep but I keep thinking of her and my cheeks hurt like alot and i feel like hugging her sm but I can't. I keep crying because ik we could never be together or anything but then I loop back around to imagining scenarios where we are going on dates and hanging out and im a pretty girl not the ugly "boy" I am now. I've been on estrogen for 3 months and I've never felt this way it feels weird like too strong. Is it because I'm still a teenager? I'm worried I might be having weird delusions again or im mentally unwell or I'm being a disgusting perverted freak I don't know what to do with myself.

I am having bad imposter syndrome and depression lately, 19 days before starting E. I noticed that most straight girlies here didn’t act on their attraction to men until after they have transitioned. And it makes me doubt that I am trans and that I am just faking it.

I remember calling myself a girl and wanting to grow out my hair but my parents shut that shit down. I was punished or shamed every time I exhibited feminine qualities here and there. I even had a mild transphobic phase 2 years ago where I said kids should not be told about trans people because I myself thought I was a girl as a kid and I grew out of it (oh really?).

My egg cracked last September while I was on molly in a rave. A guy thought I was a cis girl and asked for my number cos he thought I was pretty all dolled up. I told him I was not what he was looking for and I am just a gay femboy. He was cool about it and went his way but the fact that it made so happy/euphoric gave me a panic attack and it hit me that my depression for so long and my crossdressing in private was because I was trans and repressed it and the trauma being shamed for my feminine qualities by my parents brought to me.

My goal for pursuing hrt actually is I hope it will lift the cloud of depression and dissociating I do if I am indeed trans since its crippled and held me back for my age (mid 20s). But I am just afraid to be wrong and ruin my body if it turns out I am not. Since unlike most, I originally came out as a gay man but not very successful with it, couldn’t relate to most cis men, gay or straight for closer friendships and most of my friends are women.

I heard that a lot of trans girls who do vocal training end up with a valley accent, is there a reason for that or is that just the easiest voice to do

I put a post in here about a week or two ago telling y'all about me coming out to my mom. She said stuff like I would never be a biological woman and etc etc bullshit. How can I cope with her continuing to deadname me and refuse to respect me whatsoever and act like the victim when I don't want to talk to her? Any advice helps!!

So I've seen a lot of you girls talk about using the women's bathrooms in public and I've just been curious what sparked it? I try to avoid going to the bathroom in public in general cuz I'm sorta just afraid of people but do you guys just start going in? Do you have to hit a certain pass threshold? Is it even legal? I've been tempted into the girls bathrooms because I always feel so awkward and I guess afraid would be the right word in the men's and I wanna know how you girls handle it.

In my last post I asked about using 16 gauge, I did try to but I couldn’t get it to go in not to mention I got a bruise from it. How bad is it to have to miss a week because I have to wait for shipping.

could diy honestly be banned or no

Honestly was so nice of him. He said hed love me no matter what and I thanked him. I said it wasnt a given. He said hed be lying if he dosent see me as a straight cis masculine man, and I dont blame him. I think my past and letting people telling me who I am is making me have second thoughts. Ive been ruminating on transitioning due to gender dysphoria for a about a year now. I think its because I want the dysphoria to stop, and im ok with being a man, but am afraid that ill be more miserable if I transition because its so hard. Dr. Z talks about being a trans woman has to do with physicality and how you actually feel about inhibiting your body. I feel neutral about my male body. Ive definitely dreamed and thought about inhabiting a female body and have had a desire to have breasts / look like a girl. All signs leading to transition- im just very scared and conflicted.

I stole my mom’s nail polish and painted them I’m so fucking euphoric my head might explode!!!!

I was walking out to my car for lunch tonight and a younger man came out behind me, said “Holy shit”, and did a sort of flirty growl. I was sort of taken aback and didn’t look and kept walking towards my car and the guy kinda jogged past me to his ride and they all drove off. Idk what to think really.

So I haven't publicly transitioned in my day to day life and I haven't came out to my family yet even though I've been on hrt since June. I'm just wondering if anyone thinks that would be a good day to do it for the "new year new me " awful joke.

Been interested in starting progesterone for quite some time now. My doctor from my LGBT clinic has been resistant with giving me a script. How did y’all go about getting one? I’m only on estrogen right now but I’d like to also take progesterone since I’ve heard great things about it.

So I,20, think I might be a woman, but I don’t really know how to navigate things at all, especially with how things are looking within the U.S. like I want to be seen as a woman though I don’t really care about presenting super effeminate. Just looking for a little help I suppose

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I'm not trans, but my girlfriend is. She has times where her dysphoria gets really rough, and I was wondering if there's any advice anyone can give to help. I know words don't do much, understandably so, but is there anything else I can do to help her? What helps the most when someone's in a dysphoric patch?

I guess ima go on a little rant because im bored and im kinda just losing it lol. And I guess its on this Subgenre or wtv because i know no better :3 anywaysss cutting to the chase. Im kinda just losing it because i have had some bad luck eith relationships, and am i in no interest trying to find one over reddit lol, but i reall reslly want a gf to play vr games with me, but is also local to me☹️ its so hard trying to trust people with the fact im trans becuz im not out to the real life public, so everyone knows me as a boy still:( so i cant really just go out and find someone:( but i really want someone with a vc because it makes me feel closer to them in ways? I dont know. Im just a silly goober after all

For context, I am on E and Anti-Androgen for 2 years now. I recently added progesterone in my regimen and for all I can say is, it made me hornier than ever to the point that I feel like I’m a horny teenager again discovering orgasm for the first time (I’m 23).

As much as I enjoy the pleasure of “new” orgasm that I experience, I can’t help but feel disgusted to myself of how I am acting as a 23 year old trans girl.

For those who had the same experience, how did you girls cope up with this?

Hopefully this doesnt violate rule 5 but I see people all the time talk about how most people are given very low dosage but almost none of those people actually mention how high your dose should be and those that do just happen to usually use injections so I was wondering if anyone here might know what the best dosage for sublingual would be since I should be having my 2nd appointment soon and want to see about increasing my dosage

Quick question. I have an appointment for electrolysis and the tech said if I want numbing gel to order it myself before hand. Did your clinic provide it for you? I find it odd that I have to pay out of pocket when my insurance is being billed, why not bill my insurance and up charge it?

Hi :)

I haven't found much on the subject, the problem seems quite rare : I have been on monotherapy (gel) for 5 months with levels at around 180 pg/ml.

Unfortunately, the ALAT transaminases increased from the start of treatment and remain at around 85/90 U/L (30 U/L before treatment) ... I admit that it scares me a little because they don't seem to want to go back below the 50 U/L mark... I don't have any related health problems.

Have other people found themselves in the same situation ??

Thank you ! 😊

The majority of my day has been great, if I'm being honest. The constant voice and facial hair dysphoria was at a lesser degree (a w in my book), and I could almost see the woman I'm meant to be in the mirror. Then less than an hour before I clocked out at work (closing shift) my brain decides to fuck up my day and spiral into less than safe thoughts.

The only trigger was talking about my Thanksgiving to a coworker. But nothing bad happened at Thanksgiving. All of my older siblings were there with their significant others, and I'm still single. Which lead to the question "would anyone I bring home be accepted by my family?" The only person that might not accept anyone I bring home is my dad. He's still there for me when i need him, but I think the fact that I'm bi and trans makes him uncomfortable. And the thoughts only get darker from there.

What did I do to deserve a brain hell bent on lieing to me to the point of self harm?

I apologize in advance if this type of post isn’t allowed here. I am a cis woman. Yesterday I was in the bathroom at Target after unexpectedly starting my period. I approached a girl in the bathroom who was washing her hands and asked if she had a tampon she would be willing to spare. She told me she’s trans and got teary eyed.

I have been thinking about this interaction nonstop since it happened and I feel terrible that I upset her. I don’t know how to word exactly what I am looking for in posting this, I guess I’m just hoping to hear how I could have handled this better and if there is a better way I should ask this question going forward, if I’m ever in a position like this again.

After almost a year I finally came out to a more public group on social media. Shortly after I’m getting follow requests from people I used to know as if they suddenly care about me 🙄

I just don't get what people's issue is. I already can't transition or express who I am irl, I live in an Arab country and family, for fuck's sake, and online, where I can express myself and be seen as the girl I am, I just end up getting called 'dude,' 'man,' and 'bro.' Like, is it too much to ask not to be referred to as such? Am I maybe just asking for too much and unjustified in being bothered by these terms? Maybe I should suck it up and accept them as gender neutral no matter how much they bother me? I really don't know. I'm just tired of this

What brought this around was a response to a comment I made on TikTok. I was having a discussion with someone who said 'man' was used gender neutrally in a comment. I said:

Idk, not everyone sees it that way ['as gender neutral'] . As a transfem person, I'd dislike being referred to as 'man'. Probably would politely ask not to be called that

The person with whom I was talking acknowledged that as valid and that was that. Then i just get someone saying 'Thats rough man'.

I just don't know at this point if I'm right in being bothered by these terms or if I'm overreacting and should get over it. I already feel like a dick when I ask people not to call me 'bro' but rather 'sis'. I just don't know, maybe I'm splitting hairs, maybe my sense of identity is weak. Idk it just makes me dysphoric to be called these things. It's like my whole identity is not seen.

I'm ranting, I'm sorry. I just don't know who I can tell about this without judgment and telling random ppl on Reddit is the only way for me to get it out

My mom is a very logical person as opposed to an emotional person, which is both a good and bad thing.. It's bad because she can be very calculating and is really intelligent (in my POV at least), but it's a good thing because it would make it easier to convince her with logic.

I really need help though, she sent me a letter and I've recently been working on my response to it (I did use a lot of AI because I don't want to tire myself out so early as this back and forth could last for a very long time (It's been going on for awhile now but I don't want to have to provide every single letter she has ever sent, sorry, it also kind of hurts to write these so that's another reason why I'm using AI mostly.) Because of the amount of AI generated text my response has, I really want help from everyone to check over the response (like revise it, edit it, maybe add something if it missed anything or made any mistakes) Just tell me what you think I should change in the comments! (I may change the wording though, it depends).

Her letter: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1HKJr9sjuAV0e3QRLFLrqMKU45ZZLYS_H/view
My response draft: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1umLdfKUYEz2CqUHVK3IC3en_wN4sIXEe/view?usp=sharing

when discussing my future wedding, i don’t know what i’d wear as a wedding outfit. i’m not a dress person at all but also not a suit person. i love feminine and dainty stuff just not dresses. i am so confused about what i could wear. I love lacey and frilly stuff. Is there anything more in the middle to wear that isn’t either really masculine or just ultra traditional like a dress? I am quite alternative, I have already decided I want to wear white converse.

Thanks :)

The transphobia is too much. He thinks trans = porn = hellfire. I just can't keep up even the bare minimum. This shit sucks. Not the first time I've been dissapointed in him, but hopefully this is the last.