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I turned 17 today!

I'm 23, enby transmasc.

Only seen positive experiences but mine is different. Had my sustanon 250, 1ml shot in the leg and I hate needles so much I felt absolutely disgusted and scared after the shot. That day I couldn't sleep all night cause my heart was beating so fast and loud and I had a weird physical anxiety senation over my whole body. I did get sleep on the next days. Feeling disappointed and shit about my shot.

For the first few days I have been so physically tired/lethargic it actually scared me, could barely get in the shower and had someone prepare my meals for me, could barely walk and my legs were more tired than they are when I work out, and I didn't work out. I felt handicapped for 2 days too cause my leg hurt when I walk or try to sit down from the injection. I'm also on my period which always makes my legs tired but this is another level.

I'm on my 4th day today. Now I had a bit more energy and my legs didn't feel as tired, and it doesn't hurt to walk anymore. Still too tired to go to the gym but managed to work biceps at home. Feeling slight burn and strange on the top of my clitoris skin or somewhere in that area, maybe bottom growth. Woke up with a sore throat and right now my throat feels painful like when you're about to cry and you hold in the crying when you're nervous and your throat starts to hurt, that's what it feels like. It's 5pm and now I feel so tired like I already want to sleep again and my head kinda hurts now too on top of my throat.

I will update this the next days if there's more changes but this is my first and LAST shot of T.

I knew I won't do this again the moment it came out from my leg. I am waiting till I can get prescribed gel, and will try and go on testavan gel. Changes will revert back by then so I start from 0. It seems better in every way to go on gel and I'd feel way more in control cause it's on you day by day and doesn't stay in your system for weeks like one shot does. I don't feel happy to be on T at all, I want it out of my leg fast, health anxiety. I felt very happy when my prescription arrived tho.

The thing is, 1 vial of T is 8euros, that's 4 vials in 3 months, you do every 3 weeks. Gel, depending on the brand is 62-77euros for ONE MONTH. Which is why I tried an injection.

Spent 400euros on gendergp to get this (worst financial decision) and now I left gendergp to start imago instead, gendergp is too expensive and I saw imago is way way cheaper. My endo is next month so I can get actual supervision which will make me feel safer, and then I can get bloods done to start gel hopefully.

I don't regularly shave because of this, I just trim instead. Would anyone have some advices ? I can't even fathom how people shave genitals and be peaceful about it

I'm not sure is this okay thing to ask but I'm curious. I'm a trans woman myself and yesterday I talked with my friend who is also a trans woman. We talked about some quite nsfw topics and some how this question came to our minds. I know that surgery method affects the out come and probably size. But can trans men have a wish before the surgery about the size? Or do they just make it some regular size/how much material you have for that? I know a bigger penis would need more material to make. Based on what I know about men I guess trans men would want as large penises as possible. Do different surgeons do different size penises? What determites the size?

I've been having a lot of trouble with my hair, and figured this would be the best place to go with it.

I have really thick really straight hair and nothing I've done has looked good. When I get a regular mens haircut I look like I'm a 9 year old boy (with a pretty gnarly haircut), and when its even down to my shoulders I straight up just look like a girl. My hair is the one thing I'm able to control right now and I don't know what I should be doing with it.

Any advice would be appreciated. I want to break out of the cycle of feeling dysphoric, shaving it all off, and then feeling ashamed and wearing a hat for 6 months then repeat.

If I've missed anything important please forgive me. It's been really bothering me and I'm having trouble putting my thoughts to words.

Thank you in advance.

I'm 24, and I've been on T for almost exactly one year. I've had eating disorders my whole life and the yo-yo cycles have led me to be a big guy - like, a BIG guy. In September of 2024, I started seeing a nutritionist who specializes in eating disorders, and she said I'm likely in "starvation mode" so my body holds onto anything I eat because it doesn't know when it'll eat again. Had no clue this was a thing, but she told me to start eating a lot more. Started doing that, and holy shit, she knew what she was doing. I'm down two jeans sizes and shirt sizes, but here's what I don't understand - I usually never talk about my weight, but I weighed myself yesterday and I'm 397 pounds. Now, listen, I'm 6'1 and I'm comfortable being a big guy because I'm actually really healthy. Good cholesterol, no heart problems, not pre-diabetic, super mobile except for Plantar Fascitis but that runs in my family and I manage it well with some great insoles and compression socks. I'm not an exercise guy due to some gym trauma, but I go for a lot of walks. My thighs have gotten pretty toned, and my stomach is the smallest it's been in years. How can I be the heaviest I've ever been? How can I be almost 400 pounds? Someone told me it's likely from the testosterone causing me to build muscle and burn fat, and that makes sense with the dropping clothes sizes and I also do feel a lot stronger in my legs and arms. Is it possible that's the explanation? By all accounts, I should be the healthiest I've been in years, but the scale doesn't reflect that. Any thoughts?

I am 17 and I have a strong build, you can see my abs, my whole upper body passes for male exept chest (of course) but I have a pretty big butt for my body.

where will the fat from my things and hips go? To my stomach? But isn’t that a bit unsusal for my age?

i'm a younger trans guy (19) and i kind of hate myself and the fact that i'm trans. i struggle to see myself as a 'real man', and i'm constantly suicidal because i hate that i'm not cis. i know this is stupid and i definitely see other trans men as 'real men', i just can't do it with myself at all. (transitioning would probably help, but i'm not able to do that at the moment, as badly as i want too...) i don't feel proud of being trans in any way, i just feel disgusted with myself. i feel like there's no way anyone could ever view me as a man, and that all the people that treat me like one are just pitying me. i hate that i feel this way, but i really don't know what to do about it. i know most people's thoughts are probably 'go to therapy', but unfortunately that's not something i'm able to do right now either, so i just wanted to see if maybe anyone had any advice for dealing with it on my own... probably not, but i figured i'd see. this is a really embarrassing post for me to make so i might delete it later haha

Any gamers in here play apex I'm sick of being put with shit people who you can't communicate w. I personally play on ps4 my tag is kevinfromaccount (was meant to be Kevin from accounting but ig playstaion doesn't like the office) also UK based 🫡

Hello, so I’ve known I was trans for years. I’ve came out before and it didn’t go well, so I went back in the closet. But now I’m in a totally different situation with new people in my life and I’m trying to think of the best way to come out to everyone.

Figured this would be the best place to ask about binding. I bought an underworks 997 XL and ended up feeling horrible about it because it genuinely just...doesn't work. It doesnt fit right and my chest looks practically the same with or without it, the only difference is I'm in pain when I have it on. I've given up on trying to get it to work, I think I'm just going to give it away at this point. My chest is 38DD and very, very dense. I see people saying that binders/tape can work great on large chests just fine, but they always seem to have breast tissue that just isn't very dense to begin with, so it's easy to manipulate. I saw a post with someone explaining how they did trans tape where they folded their breasts inward on themselves and my thick ass boobs just laugh at that. Does anyone with a similar chest have any advice? Should I just give up on achieving at least a semi flat chest?

So I'm 14ftm (I'm turning 15 in like a couple weeks tho) well recently I started talking with one of my friends who's also ftm. We kissed recently AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING. I've dated some1 before and that guy wasn't a very good person nor a good kisser so idk what to do or how to handle this. Yhis whole time I've just been winging it but I'm so nervous idk how to do it and I need advice from older trans guys. PLEASE HELP ME (btw this isn't sexual content or anything I'm just looking for advice)

Can I get a flatter chest? And how can I achieve that? (I'm Pre-T btw)

I don't know if people will see this post.

I'm just wondering does anyone have any suggestions for haircuts, I have glasses and I'm struggling to find any I like. Any name suggestions or peoples name suggestions would help. I have short hair and prefer pretty masculine stuff idk i have 1a straight hair type and don't wanna style it much. Any help would be appreciated

Hey! I started taking testosterone a year and a half ago and I'm trying to bulk up. I've joined a gym and I'm trying to gain weight (because I am having a hard time gaining weight). Do you guys have any advices for the weight thing? Like, diets or tips in general? And any workout routine for gaining muscle?

i’m iranian, 25, and am yet to go on t, but i would love to be able to visualise in some way what it might look like in terms of body hair and facial hair. i know i’ll grow to resemble my dad or other men in my family but i don’t really have anyone around my age in my family to compare to. any photos of middle eastern ftms? or descriptions of where you grow hair? thanks!

I have no one I can share my progress with so I thought I'd post it here. I'm 30 days on low dose of T gel and so far I don't think ivenoticed any major changes. Maybe a bit more facial hair but I've had that pre T as well so I can't be sure. I think my bottom growth is starting to come (pun intended) because a few days ago I touched it kinda roughly in the shower and almost exploded lmao. Also my voice might be a bit deeper in the mornings but I'm not sure if that's placebo or not.

I have a meeting with my endo in may and I'm hoping to up the dose AND switch to injections because gel is starting to piss me off. This is my experience so far, it's very different from anything I've read or seen online and its a bit depressing but I think I'm powering through. Just wanted to share and celebrate the fact that I somehow made it.

So im trying to figure out if i want my name to be Albie which will be me naming myself after my late grandad (Albert) im out to my dad but he still hasn’t called me by my previous chosen name only my deadname so do you think it would be a problem naming myself after him? The other name i have in mind is Bobby but that doesn’t have any attachments to it since its just a name i like. Can i have some advice?

its so frustrating. when i am on t, i have a small appetite and my metabolism works a lot better than without it. i was 204 pounds, my lowest ever, about six months ago and now im nearing 240 because im constantly hungry and overeating, which is an issue ive had my entire life up until i first started testosterone in 2019.

im so ashamed, and i feel so ugly and not like myself. i cant see my sharp jawline anymore. i felt amazing and the most like me when i was on t and almost below 200 :( and i cant get myself to stop binging.. only t helped.

does anyone else experience this, by the way? not having an appetite + metabolism working much better on t vs without? also, have you ever had a period where you just.. stopped taking it for whatever reason and now need to wait for a new prescription before it can be filled? i stopped because i was having a hard time with the needle, and felt discouraged and next thing i knew.. it was six months later ;;

Hi! I’m a 15 year old trans guy with A LOT of bottom dysphoria, and for a good while I’ve been considering getting an STP or just a packer in general.

There are a couple of problems tho.

1. Since I’m 15 I live at home, and I don’t really want to have to deal with talking to my parents about a packer.
2. Once again, since I’m 15 the money i have at hand is kind of limited and I don’t know if there’s any good but cheap options.

It’s not that my parents aren’t supportive, they very much are. The conversation about getting a fake d!ck though? Not really one you want to have with your parents regardless of the situation.

So is there any advice on how I could Stp or a packer without my parents knowing? And are there any reasonably prized options?

so, my fiancé and i have been talking about having a kid in the next several years- big changes for two guys who were originally child free, lol. we’d like to have a biological kid if possible, either using my own eggs or one of theirs implanted in me. i’m the more “traditionally” masculine partner and i’m on t, but i’m also the one willing to carry vs him having no interest.

i’m planning on keeping my current job for a while as it’s a very comfortable union job with great benefits, but it’s a directly customer facing role. and if i’m being totally honest? the idea of being a visibly pregnant man interacting with the public is just terrifying to me. has anyone had any experience being a pregnant man in one of these roles? i’d be on t roughly 6-7 years at that point (obviously with a break for the pregnancy)

my dysphoria is very “perception” based. i have no issue carrying a child, but i don’t want to hear comments from people about me carrying said child or my gender being commented on. is it worth it to push through? should i try to take medical leave early?

i’ve never really had the urge to get an STP because i would be wayyyy to scared to use one in public but i was thinking about getting one just for giggles to use at home. and for packers i’ve used the sock method but it never really stays in place and looks weird. so if anyone has any recs for either/both id love it 🙏🙏🙏 thx

What were the first changes y'all noticed when starting T? I'm curious what the changes people have first vs the ones thought to be first/ones desired to be first.

Also curious what was the first notice in change depending which method you started with, like gel or injection.

I feel like there like like 5-10 changes that are talked about everyday and then a hundred other little things that are like "oh yeah, that happened!" I'm about to start next week so I'm anxiously excited. I want to be looking out for the first and small changes more than the guaranteed bigger ones. It's all exciting.

So I LOVE praise, love it love it love it love it, who doesn’t right?

But when it comes down to things like “good boy” and “good girl”, I’ll sometimes have a stronger reaction to “good girl” BUT, I’ve never been called a “good boy” irl before, or over the phone, just through those silly little videos. Though i have started to notice, the more farther along I am in my transition, the more I drift away from “good girl”.

I just wanted to ask my fellow men was it like this for you too? Like in terms of actually having to adjust and accept that you are actually a guy now and simple things like that become a BIG change for you and I’m not going insane lol.

I'm like nearly 2 years on T ATP, and one thing that I'm really struggling to keep up with is the difference in skin sensitivities 😭😭😭. I had so much of this during my first puberty that doing it again is sooo hellish. I use Harry's Deodorant, and before I used Degree. Harry's was great at giving me such a better smell that didn't fade halfway through the day and is such a better antiperspirant. However it irritates my skin so bad. I get terrible rashes and cysts and I don't think I will last long with this tbh...Degree didn't irritate me, but was weaker in every regard. I'm not sure where to find a good, strong deodorant that might be better for skin that's delicate... What can I do???

I (14m) want to get top surgery as soon as physically possible (16), which means paying out of pocket for it and traveling because of wait lists and age limits where I live. The government here is also terrible, and threatening to take coverage away which means there's a good chance I'd be paying out of pocket no matter what. The only problem is that I can't really get a job because of trans related reasons.

I'm obviously in school, which takes up 7 out of the 8 hours I can safely bind (even then, I'm forced to do gym class in it and experience constant pain because of my binder). This means I can't get a traditional job after school. I need a job to get top surgery but I need top surgery to get a job. I've never tried taping my chest but I'm fairly certain it's too large/dense to work.

I'm pretty constantly unmotivated and have debilitating anxiety about doing really anything because of the toll dysphoria is taking on me mentally (also probably autistic and changes to my routine really fuck me up.) This I'll try to get over because top surgery is most important, but it's certainly demotivating.

I can't pass in anything but a hoodie and jacket.

I'm still fighting to try and get my dad to let me change my name, so I don't want to out myself to my employer. (Hopefully this is temporary)

Any good ideas for jobs that don't have these problems?

This is something that's always been really embarassing, especially as I went through highschool and college avoidant of everything not knowing why I was so uncomfortable.

I turned 19 late last month, and I've been on T for nearly a year albeit I still don't pass (only over the phone, and occasionally in person).

I know I'm attractive to people, but I know that's always based in my 'femininity' because I'm short and built like a twink. But there's always a surprised disgust from people when I DO have a deep voice and body hair that's usually much more than any cis man.

It's really difficult to word, but I feel too feminine for people who want a 'man' yet too masculine for those who clearly want a stereotypical 'femboy' to project stuff onto.

I live in a pretty conservative small area in my country and it's frustrating. Since HRT I've actually had a sex drive for the first time ever, but I cant really bring myself to try and do any hookups bc I'm scared of rejection.

Sexuality is just so, messy. It's weird and I dont know to approach any of it as a trans person with the amount of self doubt that harbours into it.

I’m a trans guy and came out last year and I didn’t really tell my parents about wanting to go by he/him, addressing me as a boy, or by calling me by a different name since I feel sorta awkward when talking about it.

So me and my family went to my grandmas house for Christmas this year and when he were leaving, my grandma brought up something that I had said earlier when we came over (I won a ton of games and my aunt called me “The queen of winning” but I corrected her by saying “king” instead)

I got nervous since I didn’t expect to actually have this conversation, and then my grandma said if I wanted to be called a different name, I awkwardly said yes and said I wanted to be called “Andre” which is just a nickname to what I really want to be called.

Then my mom loudly said “ISN’T THAT YOUR CHARACTERS NAME?” (I have a character who is just the dude version of me and I have said that “he is me”) I said yes again and that was when my grandma brought up about what I said.

When we were ready to leave the house, my grandma hugged me and called me Andre and told my brother to move by saying “Let Andre get through, mijo.” And then my brother just went “Who’s Andre?” But I didn’t really care, I just had a big smile on my face when I walked through the door 🥳

hey yall im a month on t and super abruptly noticing this weird feeling like there's a lump in my throat, is this from my adams apple starting to develop? what can i expect it to feel like as it starts dropping?

18, never had strong dysphoria involving genitalia although top surgery and hopefully getting on T is my biggest priority. My family is very deeply homophobic and almost everyone that isn’t distant family doesn’t believe in transgenders.

My mother, who i am dependent on, is also one of those people. I have came out before as pan and was very swiftly told she would disown me for being gay or being transgender. So!

Can anyone share ways to distant yourself from family starting at a young age?

I have never had a job but I have been looking for opportunities and internships as I am in college. I don’t have any friends that aren’t online to hang out with or etc (which i’m trying to fix although I have limited transportation and hardly on campus). I will not be coming out to anyone as trans.

Fast food restaurants jobs aren’t an option for personal (autistic) reasons. I live in a red state (TN) so I have encountered numerous openly homophobic & transphobic doctors. I want to start saving up to move out or atleast to get top surgery.

Anyone down to dm or list general info that I need to know that I unfortunately have not been told by parent to start contributing to society?