Today, I finally got fitted for a bra this afternoon. I never felt so good about shopping for clothes before. I love seeing my breasts in a bra for the first time in my life. It is my bra, not my wife or girlfriend bra. I felt like I am being validate what have been feeling sense I was teenager. One small step toward being the person I want to be

So, I've recently accepted I'm transfemme and plan to pursue it. I'm not in a position to do so atm, plus have at least a bit of research I'd like to do before starting to socially transition and start hrt. Well, in the bit of research I've been doing I've come across the term egg several times. Now, I get I was an egg; but am I still one since I'm really not transitioning yet? I mean, I don't know if I'd just be called trans now or what...duckling maybe? Can I be a little baby duckling?

Like I know, some people take out a loan, others get some inheritance or save up, and others get it from insurance or move to a place that covers it. But, what do people do when none of those are an option? Personally, being trans for me was always about that, for as long as I remember that's the only thing I wanted, like yeah transitioning socially and hormones are very cool, but none of those really help. So, it just hurts a lot to know I'll probably never be able to afford that.

I can tell myself that maybe in 10 years it'll work, but I've already had to suffer my whole life. It's not even about detransitioning, without SRS I don't even really feel like living.

How do people cope with that in the same situation? Is there any way to get rid of that pain?

Sorry that most of that post is just venting instead of a question

I stumbled across some trans related stuff on Reddit about a year ago and related to quite a few things I was reading but since then I feel like my desire to be a woman/be trans faded. I think I felt to strongly about the whole idea for it to be a one off thing and since then I can’t keep my mind off of the topic as a whole, but I’m not sure what I want anymore? I don’t really know what to do anymore. I feel like experimenting with gender related stuff is a way I could really know, but I’m also not in a position to do any of that. So I guess in a round-about way I wanted to know if anyone here did something that confirmed for yourselves that you are trans? Sometimes it feels like I would rather have been born a girl, but then I also get this sense of dread that if I were to transition I would end up detransitioning and I just don’t know what to think anymore. Sorry for the wall of text, this ended up being more than I was planning on typing…

So I met a cute trans girl at a nightclub on Sunday. We were in a chat group together but never met before. We chatted and danced, I told her via my notes app that she's very cute and can we kiss and then I got my black lipstick smeared all over her face 😇

Anyway I felt immediately like super caring and wanting to help and look after her. Just little things like sharing things and checking in and checking in and offering to help safely walk home after the after-party (it was like 4am and she has chronic fatigue), but still it was more just the urge to do it all.

She fell asleep cuddled up to me on a sofa at the after and I felt so proud somehow and content lol 🥺 This morning I woke up and think I got girl horny for the first time because all I could think for hours about was having her close to me and cuddling and kissing again.

Tonight I've been so emotional thinking about how I feel such like deep caring about someone I've spent about 6 hours with and how I hope she wants the same.

idk if it's weird and I'm just a bit clingy or really want someone (I've been single since just before starting monotherapy in December), or if this is some emotional stuff that can happen on e. It is quite nice but omg it's overwhelming lol.

Shaving, as a concept fucking sucks, 10/10 would not recommend the concept.

That being said, I feel like it is my requirement as a woman to shave my legs, bikini, and underarm. I know this is a bullshit standard pushed by cis men but I still feel obligated to partake.

If I shave, the whole process is dysphoric because I have a lot of lower body hair, especially on my thighs. I don't know a way to make this a better process that isn't laser since I can't afford it. Sometimes I will shower with the lights off and shave so I don't have to actually look at my body.

On the other hand, if I don't shave and start to get long manish hair, I get super dysphoric and have an instant need to shave it which - as above - is dysphoric.

I plan on getting laser for my face somewhat soon but getting laser on my whole body isn't realistic as of yet. Do you have any ways that help you feel less dysphoric in something that causes a lot of it?

I just gave my parents my coming out letter than walked out the door to go therapy. I'm just on the lobby waiting for my therapist feeling like I'm about to fucking die. How's everyone else's night going?

I (22) recently came out as trans and started HRT. I get dysphoric using the mens, but am I allowed to use the woman's? Idk what to do about anything honestly

So yeah, as the title says I have ffs in the morning, I think the trip to the hospital and being pushed in a wheelchair into the O.R and laying there on a table is what's freaking me out, seriously rather just have someone hit me over the head with a shovel as I'm having my morning coffee.

I just keep thinking that Im having my face peeled off and grinded on tomorow and I'll be numb for a year. My stomach is in Knotts.

Tell me im being dramatic

1 turn pay check into visa gift cards to not need parental permission 2 ask to hold the order at the post office to pick up 3 microdose and keep them at work if possible if not then private drawer ( I am microdoseing to help not get noticed by parents)

I’m 12 weeks post-op. I have an appointment with my surgical team on Thursday and my primary doctor on Friday. I’m scheduled for a revision surgery on December 26th.

I need some advice because I really don’t feel ready to go back to work yet. I have short-term disability with a maximum benefit of 25 weeks, and I’m wondering if this second surgery would qualify me for more time off. I feel like it should, considering all the complications I’ve had—like not being able to sit for more than 30 minutes, plus constant bathroom and wound care issues. Going back now would leave me without the PTO I’ll need for the revision.

Short-term disability isn’t telling me what documentation they need from me or my doctors, just “detailed medical records,” so I’m feeling pretty stressed. My job has billable hour requirements and doesn’t allow paperwork breaks, so it would really interfere with my recovery. Any advice is appreciated.

Should I try to get a pixie cut idk why but whenever I tie my hair into a ponytail my brains reads it as girly whereas when it is long I look like a guy that watches metallica

I literally am fighting myself to even resume my failed transition because I just can’t see myself going back to existing as undeniably visibly trans. I did it before because I was young and naive and hopeful that not passing was just a temporary stage in my transition. The more time that passes the more I realize the financial mountain I have to climb to achieve that is simply too high, and I’m not getting any younger. At the same time I don’t know how much longer I can continue as I am now. Damned if I do, damned if I don’t…

I’m 26, I just took my first dose of meds, I know nothings happening yet, but I feel calmer now, like the day I’ve been waiting for has finally come. I’m finally on the path that’ll turn me into the person I’ve been waiting for in the mirror. I just wanted to share the good news 🥹 I’m excited to be on this journey

Honestly, I'm scared shitless.

Today in therapy, I had a breakdown because I couldn't live as I wanted to. My therapist suggested a sit-down discussion with my mom and stepmom at next week's appointment clarifying my identity, which I agreed to. And now, I have this impending doom lingering over my head.

My parents know I'm feminine; I've been crossdressing in secret since I was 11. And now at 17, I'll be confronting what I feared most. I have no idea how they'll react, and thinking about it makes my existing anxiety worse.

What do I do, y'all?

So there’s this girl… and I really like her… but I don’t know if she feels the same way. She’s cisgender, and I’m trans femme. We met a couple of months ago at her job, where she works at a MedSpa, and I’m one of her clients. But each time I go in, it feels less like of an appointment and more like we’re just two people hanging out and vibing. What should be a quick hour ends up stretching into two because we just lose track of time talking.

She’s kind, funny, and so easy to be around. We connect so easily like, the kind of conversations that are just fun. We bounce from one topic to another, talking about music, movies, hobbies, random little quirks and things we’re into. And she’s so genuine. I find myself laughing, opening up about things I don’t usually share, and feeling totally at ease with her. It’s been a while since I’ve felt this way about anyone, and I think there’s a spark there… but I can’t tell if she feels it too or if she’s just being naturally friendly.

One thing that’s been stuck in my head is in one of our conversations, she asked if I had a partner (I don’t). A little later, she casually mentioned that she doesn’t have one either. And then, another time, she even gave me her number so I could send her a link to a nail polish I’d recommended. It’s the kind of thing that feels like it could mean something… but at the same time, it could totally just be her being nice.

I keep wondering if she’s dropping hints or if I’m just reading too much into things. Since it’s been so long since I’ve liked someone like this, I don’t want to rush in or be too forward, but I’d love to get a sense of whether there’s something there. Any ideas on how to open up the conversation without making it awkward or obvious? Maybe certain topics I could bring up to see if she’s interested?

Because TIL that, historically speaking, men take their belt counterclockwise and women, clockwise so the tip comes out and the left and right hands, respectively. I’ve always worn mine clockwise so tip is at my right hand.

Currently doing injection, .4mL of 20mg/L. My 4 day was ~650.

Currently getting denied for FFS because my levels aren't in in therapeutic ranges. The argument of blood clots (which was only in oral administration and only a concern for first few months). I've had zero noticeable side effects related to my estrogen levels.

Would be nice to have some consistent information on what to expect, etc.

Using a throwaway account for this because I do not want this on my main. Basically, the title. I(18F) started HRT a week ago, so my sperm count should be good. I know I probably want kids when I'm older, but I don't really care if they are mine or not. However, I started making pros and cons about having bio children and my thought process is this. If the kids are mine, the cons are that I could pass down these inheritable traits: autism, ADHD, a propensity for depression, and gender dysphoria(which isn't bad, but it causes a lot of suffering). There's only one thing that's making me think, and I know this comes from a point of privilege but bear with me here, and it's that I have a very high IQ, like learning an entire semester long college-level class in 12-ish hours and getting the highest grade possible on the final exam type smart(not trying to brag I promise, I'm just trying to make a decision), and thanks to it I never struggled in school at any point. Since IQ is largely genetic, I want my potential future kids to have this privilege. I want them to not have trouble in school and have a comparatively easier time getting a good education and high-paying jobs. I'd also feel kind of wasteful and ungrateful if I don't pass it on. I don't want to pass down my negative traits either, though.

Assuming cost isn't an issue, should I freeze my sperm?

So... When I came out to her, she slap me in the face and said a lot of rude things, but I just can't stay in boy mode, it's making me really bad, my dysphoria is just killing me slowly rn

Wish me luck

So my best friend is genderfluid. I helped them pick a fem name, and we are really the only ones who know it. They aren't in a position where they can come out to their family. But I'm posting here bc she's been having a lot of dysphoria lately and has been kind of stuck in fem mode, and I don't know how to help. When we finally go meet them in person, we're gonna order some clothes for him to try on, but how do I know the right size? It'll be next summer before we meet most likely. He lives with his parents, and her mom snoops. She has no one irl who knows and can't afford to move out. Is there anything I can do other than being there for them?

So I’m just starting out hrt, I’m a little over a week in. I have the sublingual pills, but I’m having a lot of trouble with them dissolving. They mostly dissolve about halfway before the rest floats out beneath my tongue. I just wanna know if im still getting a good amount? Should I drink more water to moisten my mouth more? Sorry, just looking for tips

Uh I'm not exactly sure if this goes here anyway so yeah I got a kilt for various reasons but mainly because I wanted one and for the first couple times I wore it it was fine anyway I wore it to my schools homecoming and I was kinda expecting to get a couple rude comments because my school is full of annoying people (to say the least,don't worry I wasn't) anyway it wasn't until after that that I realized that I actually felt good in it more confident and happy and I've been gender fluid for a bit now but I think that was more of me having some internalized stuff but now I'm thinking I'm fully trans andim still dealing with the aforementioned internalized stuff but I think it's starting to go away I'm not exactly sure how to feel about any of this but I think it is a good thing any help is very appreciated and kinda needed my brain isn't exactly working right now so I need all the advice I can get

I've heard about people's libido decreasing on E, but I've also heard about it increasing. My libido is pretty strong (not even SSRIs could keep it down) and today I've already beaten myself off twice and now I'm feeling like doing it a third time. It's not even been a full week of E though, so maybe I'm thinking too hard (pun not intended).

Sorry about the vagueness, I didn't know how to phrase it. Right now I haven't started HRT (though hopefully that might change soon) and I'm wonder if people change their mind on things like name and pronouns during/after transition.

I like my name and am fine with people using he/him, but I also look very Guy right now. In my head right now I'm thinking I'll use She/He pronouns, but don't know if that'll change when people use the 'he' part as an insult.

Another small thing, I don't know how I feel about having boobs. Did anyone else feel that way and changed their mind as they grew on them?

Edit: this is a guest post coming from a trans guy, but I want to know as many trans people as possible their experience with this

I've posted before about how my dysphoria is absolutely unmanageable into a normal life, even with 3 years of hrt and top surgery. The bottom dysphoria was just too much.

Last night, I decided to try some very potent CBD, which while legal(where I live), this variant is slightly psychoactive. You don't really get "high" like with actual THC, but you still just feel nice and relaxed.... I did at least for my standards. I even didn't feel suicidally dysphoric about bottom dysphoria, which is also a huge improvement for my standards.

However, it is quite expensive, especially with my student budget, but also just in general. So I'm wondering, has either weed or (very potent) CBD helped with anyone else's dysphoria? Just curious about other's experiences, and wondering if what I'm feeling isn't either a 1. placebo from being excited to try it and 2. not just a more pronounced effect from me having no resistance to it. So yeah I'm curious if this has helped anyone else and if it's "worth it".

So, to all you girlie's who are taking estrogen by pill, make sure you take it at least 4 hours before you get blood work done lol. I took it about 2.5 hours before the blood draw, and I ended up having 600+ pg/mL (expected range was 150-300) so... make sure you wait lmao