The decision has been made, and by tonight I will not be staying on their property. They are making arrangements, and have disowned me. They... My mom is heartbroken, heartbroken that I would "choose annihilation, deserting this family, and leaving my sister brotherless"...

I had a small sliver of hope, that they would even try to understand. Especially my mother. I am going to ask her to give me my birth certificate, and where to mail it so she doesn't have to see me again. I am done with this family, and they are done with me. If I see my sister one day, I hope she will understand me, and understand where I am coming from.

But until then, I am going to live free of the chains that have dragged my soul down for 8 years. It's not gonna be easy, and I would love to hear what resources I might use for job seeking when I finally move out of Wyoming in 2 weeks.

To those who are still struggling, don't give up. My situation was unique, and by no means be as extreme as I have had to be. I don't know what else to say, but I do know that I am going to be better off without this in my life. Will update when I am with whomever I am sent to.

I plan on starting hrt soon (might have to be diy based on recent events) so what is the best way to remove chest hair while on hrt? I have a lot of chest hair, and I am unable to get a close shave on my chest without causing ingrown hair, so I was wondering about how feasible options are while on hrt? I know epilation is a good option but how painful would it be while on hrt?

Thanks 🙏

It happens like every 2 months or something where I experience a point of wanting to be male not female. Very strongly at that. During that period I feel a stage of deep regret for transitioning.

But then for the times I do feel like I'm trans that itself is very strong and then I feel like I need to transition.

I don't know what to do it's absolutely destroying my mental state not knowing and being caught in this limbo.

Has anyone else dealt with this and if so do you have any tips for me to figure it out? I just need this uncertainty to stop or at least feel more certain.

Im considering trying estrogen implants. I've tried oral E to poor results, and injections im not great at keeping up with. I wanted to try implants but since I don't have a GP, who should I speak to about getting them?

The last few times I’ve been out in public I’ve been getting gendered correctly, the other day when i got my first 2 helix piercings a complete stranger referred to me as a lady, and tonight when my mum (who after 2 years is yet to say my name) and I were out at a restaurant for dinner, the waiters without hesitation referred to us as “ladies”, now at the time i was extremely euphoric, but both times after I’ve come home, I’ve looked in the mirror and just fallen apart, because I can’t see whatever it is that’s making people think I look like a woman, if i look at myself from certain angles i could understand androgynous, but i can’t see feminine and it’s really fucking with me, because the first explanation that pops into my head is that I’m just so fucking ugly that people feel sorry for me and do it out of pity, but then i think about it for a few minutes and realise it’s probably just my brain focusing on the negative and they probably do see me as more feminine but i can’t believe that and idk why and it hurts so fucking much and i really fucking hate being trans

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I've just passed the three month stage since starting my hormones and are currently on 6mg e and 12.5mg cypro (both pills). I've now just developed a massive sense of panic about if i've been taking them correctly.

Because the E only comes in 2mg pills, im on 3 a day, so i've just been taking them all at once a bit after i wake up. Is this the incorrect thing to do and should i space them out over the day? Also ive just been swallowing them whole so should i let them dissolve instead?

Im getting my levels checked in 2 weeks when i get back from placement and i'm scared that they are gonna be way to low for what im on.

Also if it is any help, i'm on proganova for my e

Okay look I thought I've been Asexual for the longest time because I was never really interested in anything like sex, but recently I found out that romanticism turns me on like A LOT. idrk how to explain it but anything sexual doesn't affect me as at all in comparison to how anything that's affectionate but not sexual??

It’s kinda hard to describe other “like I just got a hit of Dilaudid”(not a recreational user, just unlucky). About 4 hours after estradiol IM I’m happy, content, and the brain is full girl mode. I literally can’t even imagine I was AMAB.

Anyone else?

It isn't horrible but it can shift around from time to time causing the bra to shift into these uncomfortable positions. My mom checked the bra and the bra was sitting right when she helped me put it on, so I know its adjusted right.

I can'd adhere it to my chest either, as the very early stages of my breast development have started. I feel like an unadhered padded bra I can get away with because its quite roomy between my chest and the breastforms.

Is this just something that can happen when wearing breastforms in a pocket bra?

For context I'm 15 I have always identified as a straight cis guy, but recently I have been questioning if thats actually true, I've always had urges to be a girl since I was a kid.

They went away for like 3 or 4 years but reappeared when I started crossdressing again at like 10, ever since then the urge to actually become a girl has grown. Obviously from the surface this looks like the story of a trans girl in denial but there is one teeny weeny problem.

I still love being a guy. Looking in the mirror and seeing a stoick the vast type big burly man is something I've always wanted, I'm relatively well built so I'm getting close to that dream. I've always felt like I have 2 very different sides as I've also wanted to see a cute and pretty girl looking back at me.

I'm so confused, how am I getting gender euphoria from being both. It doesn't make much sense to me. I don't know what I am. Am I a boy? Am I a girl? Am I a gremlin troglidite living under a walmart? I have no clue.

I do like women(asexual tho) and am pretty good with the ladies if I do say so myself(he says with the singleness of a male praying mantis pre-mortem). I'm not sure what I should do. I know I probably can't transition as I go to a school with some heavy transpires. What am I?

TLDR: I don't know if I'm a boy or girl or something else entirely

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Hi Girls 👋

I'm 29 and AMAB, for as long as I can remember I have always had thoughts of wishing that I was born a girl. I have always taken opportunities to dress in feminine clothes when they come up, and the idea of wearing a cute dress gives me what I can only describe as butterfly's. However, these feelings come and go and even when it's all I can think about I never hate seeing myself as a guy, I don't look down and get what I would call gender dysphoria, at most I would just get a little bummed out.

On top of this, whenever I do try on feminine clothes I can't help but get ✨excited✨ and once I've dealt with it I don't have as strong of a feeling like that. No matter how little I want that to happen that's kinda how it always goes and I'm not sure if I'm looking into things too much and I just have this cross dressing kink, or if there's something more to it?

Any thoughts/advice/opinions would be much appreciated 😅

Hi All,

I seem to remember there was some sort of US domestic version of the Rainbow Railroad that helps get queer folks out of red states into safe areas, but now I can't find any information. Does anyone know of any charities like that?

I'm looking for some volunteer opportunities!

For me, whenever I watch Graincheck, I always admire her outfits. She's not trans, but the fact that I always want to buy what she's wearing has been a huge green light for me wanting to transition. Also, seeing a woman do my favorite hobby as a 9-5 is huge to me, especially because I'm autistic, and anything labeled as "my favorite hobby" is huge to me.

It may have taken a while, but a year after starting HRT has certainly made my existing wardrobe fit a bit tighter, due to addition in the chest and more ‚rear‘ areas, which is unfortunate but nice that I’ve gained fat there! It’s especially nice considering I’ve always had a lightning fast metabolism but somehow I’ve been able to gain a bit of chub, which I don’t mind one bit xP

Best of luck to my fellow gals on y’all’s desired weight outcome!!

Hey everyone, I found some good online stores for you to check out if you are currently struggling to find shoes in your size. Some of them are pricey but others are affordable I think. If I missed anything, let me know 😁

Long Tall Sally (UK 4 - 13) https://www.longtallsally.com/shoes/

Cinderella Shoes (UK 7 - 13) https://cinderellashoes.com/

DSW (US 3 - 13) https://www.dsw.com/category/womens/shoes

Lonia Shoes (US 10 - 6) https://loniashoes.com/

Tresolz (US 10 - 16) https://tresolz.com/

Dolce Vita (US  5 - 15) https://www.dolcevita.com/

Onlymaker (US 5 - 15) https://www.onlymaker.com/

Coix (US 11 - 14) https://coixshoes.com/

Charlotte Stone (US 4 - 15) https://charlotte-stone.com/

Lurah Shoes (EU 41 - 45) https://lurahshoes.com/en/

Good American (US 4 - 14) https://www.goodamerican.com/en-ie/

LJB Footwear (US 5 - 15) https://www.ljbfootwear.com/

Miyana Berlin (EU 37 - 45) https://www.miyanaberlin.com/

Mokkah Shoes (US 10 - 14) https://www.mokkahshoes.co.uk/

Sam Edelman (US 4 - 14) https://www.samedelman.co.uk/

Low Heels (US 9 - 13) https://lowheels.co.uk/

Etta Grove Footwear (US 7 - 14) https://www.ettagrove.com/

N.Y.A.S (US 9 - 14) https://nyasize.com/

Vaila Shoes (US 9 - 13) https://www.vailashoes.com/

Otto + Ivy (EU 42 - 46) https://ottoandivy.com/

Rothy's (US 5 - 13) https://rothys.com/en-ie

Smash Shoes (US 10 - 14) https://smashshoes.com/

Six10 (US 10 - 14) https://shopsix10online.com/

Crispins Shoes (US  10 - 14.5) https://crispinsshoes.com/

Gowa Shoes (EU 42 - 45) https://gowashoes.com/

So I’ve had a lot of time to think about the election and I wanted to discuss a couple of ideas I’ve had. Granted I’m 5 days into a cold so I might be off base but these are post mortem thoughts on my part.

1. We need a PR campaign for trans people. We got slaughtered by the rights attack on us, we need to show them that we are normal just like everyone else, just configured differently. I don’t know how’d we do it but I think it could do a lot of good in changing minds the next four years.

2. We need to concede the sports battle for now. We aren’t going to win it and it is hurting us. It really sucks and I wish life was different but like a war we need to focus on the fronts we can win and come back to this one later. I don’t know what to say except im sorry the world sucks and maybe find a different hobby until things get better.

3. We need some form of dual power for the next four years, a community outreach system that spans states. Something like the black panthers maybe but far less militant, but we can’t rely on the government for now so we need to come together as a community.

I’m sad about the election but now that I’ve had time to mourn, I’m thinking of how we can best fight this war the next four years. We will survive, we just need to think tactically and never give up.

Sorry I’m new, and I’d want to learn

how have you gotten around the ban on hrt? looking for some kind of hope that we can continue on here in the US in spite of the coming bans

I'm day 2 on my hormones and spiro I'm so excited because it seemed to feel like it was out of my reach but now that I have it day 2 or not it makes me the happiest ever I love life. In case you were wondering I take 4 mg of estradiol a day an I take 50 mg of spiro.

Hi, I'm a transfem in Utah. After seeing the election results I'm thinking it might be a good idea to quickly push through and get my legal name and gender marker changed. I've been thinking about it more frequently over the last couple of months and from past experiences I know that the thought will become more and more common so I know that it's something that I want. If I go through with it will it backfire on me here in Utah? Also if I do go through with it does anyone have a recommendation of the order I should update my documents?

Dealing with doubt 33 mtf

I started questioning my gender several years ago after many years of cross dressing. Which I thought was just a sexual thing until I did a little reading. That scared the shit out of me so I just put it out of my mind until August of this year when I had to give myself permission to seriously explore gender as opposed to just cross dressing. After reading and watching many videos on YouTube I related to so many things. I am speaking with a therapist now and started hrt. I still have doubts and thinking there’s just no way I’m trans. Recently I started feeling the pain in chest and want to stop hrt because I won’t be able to hide the changes. Does this mean I’m not trans? Not exactly ready to be out? I say I want to stop but then tell myself I’m gunna take my meds for just one more day. That has been several weeks of just one more day. Does anyone have any advice? Is this normal? I don’t want this to be a mistake.

Do you think if things get bad enough then the rainbow railroad will help us out or?

Full transparency - I'm using a throwaway account for safety and anonymity. Our 17 year old daughter has been socially transitioned for a year now. We live in a very (very) blue state thankfully, but I don't want her to have to wait until she's 18 to start hormones because of the obvious BS orange dictator pig who will be in office soon and who knows what that moron is going to do. I'm also concerned about going through "official" channels to get HRT because what if they really DO start trying to go after our trans kids (and us) so maybe it's the paranoia talking but I feel like we shpuld try to fly under the radar as much as possible? My question is: What is the safest way to get our daughter on estrogen without having to go through insurance or making it obvious? I want to make sure she is getting the proper testing so she's safe and we can monitor levels but how tf do we go about doing this? Is there anyone who can help me with a detailed outline of how to proceed?? I'm talking an "explain it to me like I'm five" kind of help. Since she's still considered a minor, we can't go through online channels like Folx or Plume. Or can we? I have no idea. Can anyone DM me with some help? I'm so frustrated because it feels like we're in panic mode now. 😭

I've also posted this on /asktransgender and cisparenttranskid.

Thanks to anyone who is willing to help! 💜

Dear beautiful humans,

I am a proud mama to a 17yo trans child mtf. She came out a few years ago, and has recently started to express an interest in more gender affirming undergarments and I would like to get her some for Christmas.

She has been wearing step one underwear since she was in primary school, but when looking for bras (for me) recently, I found “we are nala” tucking underwear and she was keen, but the reviews on their bras are quite poor, so I’m looking for some advice on other brands. She’s also been wearing some padded crop tops that I got off Amazon for myself, but were too small and she snapped them up and wears them often.

I’m looking for something affordable, practical and comfortable for school and home.

She is tall (6ft) and very very slim and preferring something subtle that won’t land her with the equivalent of a DD chest against her tiny frame.

Any suggestions for little Christmas treats will also be well received - jewellery, lipgloss didn’t hit the mark last year :( But the ikea shark was an absolute win <3

Edited to add: We are in regional NSW, Australia.

Edited again: I truly wish I could hug every single one of you and gather you up in my arms until you felt safe and loved and until you remember how beautiful and strong and brave you are. x

Thank you all so much for the outpouring of love, support and advice. She’s going to be a very happy bebe at Christmas!

My breast buds are coming in at a nice rate, and in 2-3 months, you can now see the indent in my shirt. When am I going to need a bra? Do I need to wear a bra?

I know yall are probably sick of me already. Not that I blame yall I would be too. But I'm desperate and I don't know what else to do besides posting these weekly updates.

I'm at 30/500 for my go fund me goal of affording hormones and a bus ticket.

As we get closer and closer to Trump being sworn in I'm feel less and less confident that I'll get the money in time.

Even if I don't get enough for the bus ticket also if I could at least get the 250 for the three month supply of hormones from folx I would feel so much better.

Please if you have any spare money consider donating at : https://gofund.me/4b246da6

If you want to donate a different way just let me know.

If you want me to do somthing for the money I make scripts for GWA I could write somthing for you. I'm not the best but you can look at my works.

If you know of any charities that help Trans people it's apreciated. I looked but most that I found work with trans youth or Trans POCs and as I'm 29 and white I couldn't find anything I could use.

Why California specifically? I just feel like California has the best chance of surviving a Trump presidency.

The hormones mean alot more to me then leaving to California anyway. I might not be able to leave until after may next year anyway because I'm still waiting on a copy of my birth certificate in the mail. Which I'll need for any kind of apartment application getting a state ID etc..

To anyone who helps thank you so so much. It's been really hard especially with SH right now and it gives me hope when people donate.

If you don't have money to donate but want to help me just sending words of encouragement goes a long way.

As always Milly loves all of you. Stay safe

Hello everyone. I'm not sure if my doctor did say how deep the needle must be. On Tuesday vile of my E is being delivered. Already have the needles and syringes. My question. How deep must I inject it into my thigh? Girls who are experienced with this, enlighten me. Going from femigel to injections :) excited and nervous.

I’ve been learning a lot about myself these last few months, most notably that I might be trans (mtf).

Long story short I’ve always hate or at most been apathetic about my appearance as a guy, even when I others told me how good I looked I still avoided looking into mirrors.

This changed when I tried on feminine clothing for the first time over a year ago, I looked in a mirror and although I looked terrible I felt amazing. Afterwards I spent a while in denial until 3ish months ago when I tried embracing this side of me.

My life was been much better since then, I’m happier and healthier than I used to be, I started exercising again and I dress in girly clothes as often as possible.

The next logical step is to talk to a professional about my gender identity, I have been on the website to book an appointment almost everyday for a week but I’m scared to make an appointment since I would finally be exposing myself irl.

This is kind of half advice half vent, I’ve got no one to really talk too about this stuff so I thought I might as well post it here.

Witch Cackle 😆 Cause it would be impossible for someone to be one under his regime. Ah how the turn tables. I’m hoping these times can end the division in the trans community and in the LGBTQ community altogether. Anyways babes finish highschool and take the U.S government class in high school if you’re not there yet. There’s also youtube channels that teach you on Youtube. Stay beautiful girlies!

xoxo

• Rosie 🌹