My dream is to become a mathematician. I had a lot of self doubt and imposter syndrome but my confidence is definitely better now. I grow up in a pretty hard childhood and was battling drug abuse from a young age. dropped out from high school in 10th grade but then I discovered mathematics, got clean and my life changed dramatically ever since.

as an autistic person with a lot of sensory issues regarding food, this is a big step for me

I think, I'll just stop worrying and stressing

I've done those more than breathing, at this point it's on autopilot, but from now I'll work on letting it go

I might make a account and share my journey

Funny enough one of the first thing that came to my mind after that choice was - how useful stressing is haha

As mmm anything we want to leave, it certainly will try to trick and stay

I will see how this will go

Edit - bonus

• i just reacted differently to a recurring situation, choose peace and silence mostly.

Usually feels like talking about science or anything to them feel like that it goes against their 0 second of research is wrong

This is why it's great to have hard-working friends. I get super happy for them and the faith that I could get there too gets reinforced along with a competitiveness to keep challenging each other to improve.

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Today, I had a very scary encounter coming home. Driving South, 50 km/Ph along a main two-lane road, passing many perpendicular ➕ side streets. Well, somebody from the left blew a stop sign 🛑 and I goddamn near got T-boned! Thankfully, one of us was paying attention. My brakes definitely work! I had to veer very hard to the right to try and avoid impact. I didn’t even think to blow my horn. I was so shocked in the heat of the moment, trying to avoid a collision instead of blowing my horn.

Applied to a lot of jobs today after an entire day of lazing about with a pinched nerve! Also cleaned room a bit and applied to more jobs than I intended to. Feeling hopeful indeed. Oh and slso treated myself to a chocolate bar and a nice movie :3

I learned how to cook and still learning and how to make a coffee for myself and I learned how to make salad! This year has been interesting year

I’m just really proud of myself for using my day off to do fun things today instead of cleaning up things that didn’t really need to be cleaned

it’s been 2 years since i was diagnosed and many many years since i started feeling this way, and i finally got my first prescription today. i’m just really proud of myself for getting the help i need & deserve. it’s not easy, but i really hope it will be worth it in the end.

That’s it that’s the post :)

After a year of working in a toxic environnement and a prolonged sick leave I will finally be able to start my own private practice with my best friend ! I can't actually believe it

Guys, I did it. I quit my job. I didn't need it. I realized I didn't need to force myself to wait until something bad happened. It was honestly a good decision for me over all and I'm proud of myself. I deliberated for months. It's also the first job I'd of had for a full year, too!

The shower was probably 20 minutes tops, but I'm glad I can finally feel a teensy bit more human after having to relearn how to walk.

i think this is the first time i'm saying this after so many years of ups and downs, intense highs and crushing lows–

i feel excited for my life :))

This is the distance that Frodo traveled by foot and ponyback to Mordor in Lord of the Rings. It was tough, especially with school, mental health struggles, and getting a puppy in January. I set out to do this last year in August and kept going even when it seemed unlikely that I would finish. I posted this in the LOTR subreddit and LOTRMemes subreddit but noone noticed, so I wanted to post here and share. I made a spreadsheet and charted my distance for y'all =)

I’ve had severe social anxiety and agoraphobia since I was a child and I’ve had to really depend on my family and my few friends to be able to do things outside of my house, but yesterday I managed to go to a bookstore on my own and bought a few books I’d wanted to buy in person! I was terrified out of my mind and I’m not planning on getting out of bed for too much today because of the fact I have no energy and so I can read my books, but I did it! (I’m also making my first social media post - ever! Still terrified, but everyone here seems so nice that it’s really easy!)

I 22m finally started investing money into my future after years of wanting to start but always finding an excuse. I shoved a tiny amount into an investing account and im gonna keep doing it till im old. Im already down 43 cents but the race has started and old me will thank me one day!

I just paid off my two smallest debts and now I just have 3 more debts to pay off!

I was inching toward being debt free but fell back into the hole last year.

Paying these two debts off allows me to breathe a little now every month instead of holding my breath waiting to see if I can afford everything. I’m still paycheck to paycheck but this will make it a lot better.

I'd think my parents in particular would be more stoked because they have been pushing me to lose weight since I was 6/7 years old but alas. Regardless I'm really excited to continue on this journey and finally feel better and be treated with more respect :')

I've always really struggled to approach people and start conversations, and it's even more difficult when I like someone since I want to do everything right, get nervous of saying the wrong thing, etc. But today I ended up having a great discussion with the guy I like and learned more about him and found more common interests. Plus, despite generally struggling a lot with making plans too for the same reasons of why I am so shy, I also invited him to hang out since we both have a shared interest we've been meaning to get back into and he said he always finds it more fun with others!! I know it's small, but I'm personally very proud of myself for this. I find it to be a very big step for my social skills and my friendship with him!

To some, this is simply not a big deal. But for me, my anxiety and depression have been taking over my life and, even on "good" days, it's still hard for me to get out of bed. It never feels like the day will end and it always feels like I can't make it through. But I did. To me, this is a major accomplishment. Because I am completely falling apart.

Here's to hoping tomorrow can be similar.

Its slow but good progress.

my driving instructor yelled at me so hard i started crying. so i decided to quit the program. i feel like leaving would be better than putting up with the disrespect (i’ve been doing that for a long time thinking that it’ll magically get better. it doesn’t.) so that kinda takes courage. trying to convince myself that i’ve made the right decision lol. idk if it’s worth congratulating

I used to wear really heavy makeup throughput my teens and often remove it and reapply it before leaving the house because sometimes it just didn't 'look right'. I have very slowly been decreasing the amount I wear and after 15 years, I finally left my home completely makeup free.

I looked like shit, but it was still very liberating!

I loved my Ex, genuinely with all my heart, but that's the trauma bond talking, she treat me awful, emotionally, physically left marks and financial abuse, was a narcissist that hide her true self away for a few months before the anger and abuse began, Narcissism is scary that people can change so suddenly. Trauma bonds suck, I wanted someone who hurts me and treats me badly, but ignorantly at the time you become blinkered to that idealistic version you met at the start or hope of changing them back to the person you knew and loved.

I told her I'm done being used whenever is convenient for her and not having any value or respect on me as a person.

This has been hard, I waited over a year and just was just led on completely for her own needs and gain. The person i met and loved I'll always remember that person fondly, but some people just cant be helped. You can give and sacrifice everything and for some it'll never be enough. I just need some reassurance rn reddit, this was a big step for me cutting her out.

I've not been to the dentist in nearly 10 years because I've never been very good at consistently looking after my teeth and that has lead to a bit of a very big phobia of going there. I'm better at it now but I also have a tooth that definitely just needs taking out. so I'm calling them tomorrow and I'm going to try and book in a check up. wish me luck!

until around 20 minutes ago I'd eaten a single cup of ramen in the past ~45 hours and drank very little water. but i went and had a good sized meal and 2 glasses of water (I usually drink that much in a day)

i still feel bad though and i don't want to tell my friends cause they'll feel bad. so im asking strangers online to validate me so i might feel some sense of accomplishment. lol

I'm going to be working in grief support which is a strength of mine, something I've wanted to do since my own parents passed away

Hi friends, I finally put in my two weeks at my toxic job and I landed a job that pays me way more. I'm so happy, I wanted to share this with you.

I'll be the breadwinner of my household now, it doesn't feel real. I never thought I'd make a semi-living wage in my field. I'm so excited!

I made it to 365 days without smoking weed, and 316 days no alcohol. I also realized that these two things never really affected me the way I thought they did. The reason behind me quitting was because of how other people took advantage of me while using. So I guess this is a cool milestone but also a sobering realization :/

Edit: Thanks so much everyone!! You all have motivated me to keep going. I wasn’t feeling proud of myself at all, and honestly wanted to go to the dispensary. But your comments made me realize this is a healthy choice to be proud of :)