Haha wow I’m gonna kms sorry guys

Meme so niche that the caption doesn't fit in the template 😂

nobody actually cares. but of course this is yet another lie i've created in my head just because we're not hanging out. It feels like i constantly have to be reassured that they don't hate me and won't abandon me

You ever wake up feeling normal. Fine. Balanced. Then in an hour or two you get nauseous and really feel just downright feeble?

i would love to feel a sense of belonging for once but Nope not happeninggggggg ❤️❤️❤️

It has been 3 rough fucking weeks, would I wanna do it again? Hell no. I am still a wreck sometimes but I am functioning somehow

I'll take 10 if I have to

I hope she likes the game and the challenge. She says I'm not the same, I'll not be the same either. If she already had problems with Borders, she either will change her mind or have even more problems.

It's just a matter of choice and of stock. Sadly for whoever is in my way, my shine is out of stock. I'm tired of being comprehensive, understanding. I'm tired of being good. This is the beginning of a new journey. I just hope no one dies and that my goes are accomplished.

I poured my heart out to her today. She just said it's not about me, but like taylor swift says, but what if it is. I will make ir about me. It's ways her her her. Her space, her limits. We'll, she reaches mine, there is no turning back. I switched on her. She will get every that's been waiting for her since the beginning. She will see me, she'll either hate me or love me forever. I'll just make sure she sees it. I'm sadistic and evil too. Good luck my love, you will need it. And that is me fully medicated.

Not working because my anger is greater than any substance. She will know me, and maybe she will hate me. She can turn things around eventually, but right now I have no fear of losing her. Like she said, she will be a boat, a step in the ladder of my life. I still think she's the one, I can lose the one because I love myself more, I'm the 0. I love my shine a d my evil. I gave her all the shine I could. Things will be different now.

She doesn't know that right now I'd spank her like I've never done before. I'm am absolutely crazy. She says she not easy to deal with, and that's true. I say that I'm not easy to deal with too. I'm done with being emotional. I'll be firm and assertive. I've moved states for this woman, started my life from 0. Still she is the way she is. Art the clown will be my inspiration for my next personality. She has an idea how anxious I am, how sad I am. But she doesn't know the coal that lives inside of me, she just lighted it. She will regret everything she has done and beg me to stay.

It's all consuming, all evil. But it's simple, I will just do everything perfectly, every single thing she complained about today, I'll be the perfect girlfriend. But I'll be distant and cold like she is. I will freeze my heart until she decides to unfreeze it all by herself. And I'll say nothing, I'll have a smile on my face at all times, but my eyes will be full of fury. I'll laugh like a horror movie clown, she will wonder where her precious angel went. Well my dear, you've destroyed it, crushed it. Yet somehow I love you. So let's play, and I will win, because you di not know what I'm capable of.

She just unleashed a part of me I tried to keep hidden, I myself supress it. But well my love, welcome to the shit show. You said you wanted me raw, my raw is so much darker and disturbing than you think. Hope you either leave me or enjoy the fucking ride. Because I'll only live you myself if I'm dead. It's distance you want? Oh you gonna get everything you want, by the book, out of spite and anger, not out of love. And if you do lose me, you will find no one like me. For better or for worse. Full BPD mode activated my friends. I'm the the absolute nicest and purest person until I become the most evil and ratchet. Good luck for her.