I don't want to rant on and on but I've got a lot to say.

I have a stepchild. Trans male (important) who is 14. Estranged from Mother due to accusing her of SA when he was under 10yrs for 4 years. Been with me and his Dad for 2 years. Been a rollercoaster of SH, and all other common MH complaints.

He ran away last week to a 22 year old in Wales. Fooled this person into thinking they were 19 turning 20 soon and inder a fully coercive and abusive household with court ordered guardianship. Was very convincing (saw the messages). The person believed everything. They also bought him a laptop, set up a room for him, believed they were rescuing him.

(For context, SS is very erudite and articulate for his age, particularly whilst typing, and also looks wise, he is 6 foot and quite overweight so could pass easily for an adult especially from photos - also the adult is vulnerable)

He didn't reach Wales thankfully, as we found out in time and he was apprehended by the Police.

Found out he told Police, the online person, and Maternal Aunt, that two of my sons have sexually threatened him and one of them r***d him in his sleep after drugging him and got him pregnant and he told two people it was miscarriage and one person it was abortion.

None of these claims have been validated by Police or Social Care as he has history of alleging SA in multiple settings. His Aunt believed him and encouraged him to run away (he lied to Aunt and said the online person was 17 and lived semi-locally and also that he met them at Youth Group) and she also made a report about me/my sons.

The decimation he caused is destroying me/my children.

He has since claimed he wants to kill people and/or harm them.

We have been through his devices with a fine tooth comb and he is "into" pure depravity. He even has images/videos of a young person SH (who I recognised from online interactions he had in the past) and potentially their naked form (although that is unclear)

SS are saying they can't help (said they can give me a cinema voucher to take my kids out for a few hours to get away!!)

CAMHS have said he presents as normal for him. We have been on the phone all day to try and highlight how unsafe he is (e.g sent nudes to an entire Discord Server of 18+) and they referred us to ESL. They are coming to meet him tomorrow but basically said on the phone that in-patient care likely won't happen and they can help with anxiety support or ongoing training/support for family.

I don't know how to cope. My children don't feel safe. He isn't safe from himself. My husband can't go to work due to the risks he poses to others/himself. I don't work due to support needs of my other children (ASD)

They don't understand why he can do all these things and just be sitting in his bedroom casually drawing and listening to music...

At my wits end and feeling more risky every day. I was told they will have a meeting to see my referral this Monday and then contact me. When can I expect the appointment?

Pretty much what it says in the title.

I got myself an appointment with my GP for the end of February, and I'm scared that what I will tell them will land me in a mental ward or something.

I'm pretty sure that what I'm going through will make my doctor think that I'm a danger to myself or others. But I don't want to be admitted anywhere in case I lose my job. I don't particularly love my job or anything, but it took me over 2 years to get - and I got constant verbal abuse from my family for not being able to get a job.

I work a 20 hour contract in retail, and I actually enjoy working with (all bar one) everyone. If I lose my job because of my stupid mental health problems, my mental health will get even worse. My boss is quite nice so hopefully she'd be understanding, but I wouldn't want to overwhelm my coworkers with extra hours, I'd feel so guilty, especially after the awful Christmas period and then right after stock take too.

If I'm gone for an extended period of time then everyone else (there are four other sales assistants and one of them is doing his A Levels) and I don't want to fling them a load of hours because I finally snapped and got myself put away.

Tldr: Realised I almost definitely have BPD, now scared and want to know my options

Years of knowing I've been neurodivetgent, I always felt that despite that something was missing. There was an irregularity to my behaviour and my nature that couldn't be really contributed to autism, but I didn't feel like it was quite bipolar either. Nor was it DID (had to search up what it was called). I've heard of BPD many times in passing, but never actually even properly looked into it, nor knew what it was.

A week ago I took the jump and searched it up out of boredom after hearing it mentioned once again, and it felt like a part of myself that I hadn't fully fully conceptualised was described, to the point where I cried tears of joy, I felt less alone.

However, to my dismay, I've seen that there is a real stigma to this condition, and I might be jeopardised if I get a diagnosis, and pharmaceutical aids for the condition aren't really recommended by doctors. I feel scared being frank, and I don't know what to do.

I'm still largely ignorant on the matter, so could anyone please present the options I have?

I’ve been on Sertraline (100mg) for over a year now coming up to two, but have forgotten to take it for 3 days and then carried on not take it for over a week.

I’m feeling a little dizzy (sometimes), a bit emotional (over some really small things), a slight cold (apparently a side effect) and sweating especially at night.

How long does this all last for? I don’t want to go back on it and I know I shouldn’t have quit without easing off but I just don’t want to stay on it. (And doctor appointments are hard to get)

In the UK the titles “Counsellor” and “psychotherapist” are unregulated. This allows for people WITH NO mental health training to legally practice and call themselves therapists putting clients at risk of serious harm.

1. If mentally ill people are 13x more likely to be the victim of a crime then imagine how vulnerable these people are to  institutional abuse from those with no training.
2. The number of complaints against accredited counsellors has risen 24% since 2020 according to the BACP.  Imagine the amount of unheard complaints of abuse against ‘therapists’, who are not trained so not registered with a professional body for their clients complain to.

3.  According to people who have spoken up to the guardian about their experiences being abused by those pretending to be trained therapists they feel “embarrassed, humiliated & under control of the therapists”. 

 If any UK residents could sign this petition to put into law that only trained professionals can legally provide therapy. If you're not a UK resident but still want to help please consider sending this petition to a UK resident. Thank you for reading this far and hopefully for your support. https://petition.parliament.uk/petitions/705247

My bf (21) graduated summer last year and I (22) am in my final year of study (took a placement year to extend my degree). We had to move out of our apartment in Manchester that we had been living in for 3 years as he didn't have a job lined up. We are now living back home and both of our mental health has taken a serious decline. I've always struggled with depression and have been on antidepressants for years, but is significantly worse now. My bf has social anxiety, but I've never seen him this actively depressed before.

My bf is forced to sleep and live in the front room right by the front door which is an old wooden door which is very drafty making the room cold even with heating. The room is very cramped, without space for a bed so he has to sleep on a couch. His mum tells him he wasted his time and money with his degree (which he got a 1st in) and he should've settled for a job in retail. She constantly belittles him because of his social anxiety and inability to get a job immediately after his degree despite him applying for hundreds since graduating (plus some grad schemes before he graduated). He feels depressed because of this and his inability to get a job, made worse by the fact he can't afford to see his friends anymore as they are all back in Manchester and the trains are expensive. He's reached out to his unis career service as well as the job centre people he sees for job seekers allowance and neither seem to have been any help.

I am lucky enough to have a normal bedroom, but my situation is still making me hate life. My dad constantly plays loud music at night even though I bought him expensive headphones and have asked him to at least move to a room that isn't directly below mine (kitchen), yet he refuses to do both which is very sensory overwhelming to me as I have autism. It also fucks up my sleep schedule as I cannot sleep early because he will be playing music below me and won't stop when asked without an argument. My dad has his own mental health issues as well as being an addict so he's usually out of it most of the time and can barely hold a conversation. Despite my bf and I making no noise, cleaning up after ourselves and always staying in my bedroom, my mum throws a bitch fit and often refuses to have him stay at our house, which makes him feel like an awful person and like they hate him even though he's done nothing wrong. I get on with my mum outside of this, but it's like a switch goes off in her brain whenever I bring him up (we've been together 8 years this year), and she becomes extremely cold and distant towards him and which makes me feel unwelcome here because she doesn't accept the person who has stopped me from ending my life numerous times in the past. I tried to explain this to her, but she doesn't listen and just insists it's her house and her rules, which I guess is fair, but I do also pay to live here and just don't feel welcome. I also cannot see my friends because they've all graduated and live very far away (I'm in Cheshire, and they're all from down south). I basically have no friends I can see irl atp. I go to uni classes, but after my placement year, everyone I knew graduated, so I don't know anyone from this cohort of students, and since it's their final year, they're all in their own friend groups already, especially with my autism, I just can't connect. I feel so alone with my bf being the only one I can really talk to, and often I can't see him because he is not welcome at my house and because I have to interview people as part of my disseration project. I can't stay at his because people there's no quiet place at his house for interviews.

I know this probably comes off as really whiney so I'm sorry about that, and I know my situation is really not that bad compared to many others, but I just feel so hopeless and miserable. The job market is so awful I don't know when my bf will ever get a job so we can move out and on with our lives. It feels like living in limbo right now where no place feels like 'home'. I've started S/H again even though I haven't done so in years because I just feel so sad and hopeless all the time. I'm tagging this with advice, but I really don't know what can be done as we can't get out of this situation without one of us having a job, and he;s been looking for months now without luck and with my autism I can't handle managing a job with my degree (tried once and it drove me to suicidality). I'm already near the max dosage of antidepressants so don't think that's an avenue, and I doubt i'd qualify for therapy and evben if I did CBT didn't work for me the past 2 times I tried it and I'd probabloy be on a waiting list for forever (my bf has been on one for 2 years). I don't think I'm asking much of the world, I just want to live independently with my partner but it feels like it will never happen and it honestly makes me feel suicidal even though it feels stupid to say.

IDK I just needed to vent sorry I'm probably sounding like a stupid whiney teen.

Hey all, I’ve been on setraline for quite some time now I think maybe 2-3 years. Last week I ran out of it and didn’t take it for 4-5 days and since then I’ve been so spaced out and not with it.

When I spoke to my doctor she said some people stay on it forever, is that normal? I noticed I started to get depressed around 2016, ended up getting divorced and I look back on growing up in the 90s and early 00s as the best years that I’ll never ever get back, meaning the feeling. It’s like I can’t quite accept time has moved on and now I look at the days now like they’re just kind of there but anyway I’m in a much better place and my questions about setraline to get other people’s opinions and experiences would really help me

• I’ve always been active, does it affect weight gain? I’ve read a bit and it says about overeating but I’ve not noticed that change

• how does it affect muscle gain and retention? If anyway?

• is it safe to be on forever? I thought I read somewhere that you can have a higher increase in diabetes for example?

Any help would honestly be amazing as I find I hard to talk to anyone about it and don’t actually tell anyone I take it either, I’m just very private away from the phone!

I don't know if this is the right subreddit for this but I need advice.

Overview:

turning 18 in may and need to 1. pay rent 2. do something with my life

Info:

17 yrs

Male

Ethnically White British

bad GCSE's

all of my life I have been told to just follow my heart and all that nonsense, for years I thought I would just become a pilot like my father but deep down I don't think I ever truly wanted that. as a high functioning autistic person I sometimes find it hard to put any true effort into something if I cant see the result, such as studying for my GCSE's. deep down I don't know what I truly want to do in life and because of that I'm sinking down this hole of just playing games and not much else.

If anyone has some advice or what not please do tell.

I'm under my local cmht but what do I do when I feel particularly bad? My anxiety is going to kill me, it's unmanageable. But they keep trying to diagnose me with a personality disorder rather than giving me any practical help. I can't manage at work, my performance is so poor I'm going to get fired.

I called the crisis team after a SA a few months ago, and they told me off for not calling the cmht. They kindly sent an email to them for me, but I don't know what to do to help myself today, if I call them what will they do? What can they do? How do I get help now?

I’ve been on mirtazapine anout 3 years now, started on 15mg then moved upto 30mg. Was on 30mg for the longest time but before Christmas my anxiety got really bad and I kind of tried to ride it out but it just wasn’t getting any easier so about 3 weeks ago I moved upto 45mg. I can feel the anxiety definitely has eased up on me, it still comes in sickening waves but I’m just glad it’s not that debilitating anxiety where I’m frozen in bed unable to move vomiting etc. with the 30mg I rarely had issues sleeping, I’d take it around 10pm and by 11.30pm my eyes would be rolling and I’d sleep solid most nights. But ever since taking the 45mg my sleep has went to sh*t. I’m aware the higher dose has a lesser sedative effect. Today my doctor has prescribed me 25mg Phenergan. Has anyone had success using these alongside mirtazapine or just on their own for sleeping troubles? The lack of sleep is killing me, the endless tossing and turning and restlessness every night is awful, then when I do eventually get over to sleep I’m seeing every hour on the clock which then has the knock on effect the next day when I’m like a zombie on top of other MH issues which isn’t easy when you’ve kids to keep alive 🥲 thanks

“If you were my daughter, I would tell you to come home, but I know you don’t have one to go back to”. An acquaintance who was old enough to be my mother said this to me whilst I sobbed down the phone. She reached out to my dad making him aware that I wasn’t ok. She didn’t divulge that I was in hospital twice,self harming, placing my self into significant danger. She knew that it was up to me to confide, but knew I would struggle to start the conversation myself.

If I received this text alarm bells would be blaring. If my child’s former landlord texted me out of the blue, unprecedentedly concerned, I would be calling immediately. I would drop everything knowing that my child has a history of mental ill health, knowing they have acted on self destructive thoughts previously.

But I’m not the parent, I’m the child. My dad didn’t check on me. Radio silence. A month passes, A&E admission number three, I’m spiralling. I tell myself not to be the first one to call. He should call. Then the silence felt more unbearable than confronting and accepting the reality I was faced with. I needed to press pause the montage of all the times i felt unheard, unloved, a burden. And in that call an act borne out of genuine care and concern turned into a dagger I couldn’t take out.

Don’t blame me for not being open. Don’t blame me for you not knowing. Because you knew and didn’t call. You knew that I witnessed my own mum try to take her life, that I was physically assaulted by a family member, that my life turned upside down when I was 18. You chose to see my attempts as an act against you. You chose to do things which you knew triggered me. You chose to think I was being intentionally problematic.

I don’t blame my dad or my family for my inability to be candid with them. It’s not a matter of blame to me. Because by blaming I deflect responsibility of change on them. And by now I know this will never happen. My silence is me keeping myself safe. So don’t blame me for not opening up. I’m simply trying to stay alive.

For those who’ve had therapy, did your therapist’s title affect your experience? Did you notice a difference in how they worked? I’d love to hear how it felt for you.

I have TRD and a 26 year history of chronic mood disorder. Things are very bad now. I feel like I'm already dead.

I'm struggling to access services. I've been trying for a year. I was too ill for IAPT but they did help me do stuff like pay bills last year.

I have recently found out there are such things as second line treatments (ten years ago a GP told me I had exhausted all treatments and there was nothing anyone could do and I believed that). I'm trying to access a private psychiatrist but it's been over a month and I still don't have an appointment so I'm giving up. I'll try an NHS psychiatrist but I don't know how long I'll have to wait?

I don't know what to do while waiting. I don't SH and my life is not currently at risk so I don't think I can access crisis team. There have been a number of nights I considered driving myself to hospital but I don't think this is the right thing to do?

Is there a service I'm not aware of or anything like that that could help?

HI all, I’m looking for some advice on how to deal with a family member who is struggling with MH issues - it’s a bit of a saga but I’ll try and be concise.

They had a cluster of small strokes in the autumn of 2022 - and as a result became extremely anxious about their health.  I should preface the rest of this by saying they were already predisposed to unhealthy mental habits - conspiratorial mindset, refusing to accept established fact, opinions not their own etc, however this mostly manifested as spending too long on the internet and arguing about global politics or climate change.

All of their previous attention became dedicated to why they were unwell. They started getting anxious about how frequently they were using the toilet (1’s & 2’s), leading to them straining to the point of injury, and concerned about how much they were sleeping.  

Further to their detriment - the general distrust of authority also meant that they tried to self medicate, or not follow instructions regarding medication (e.g taking aspirin daily for 4 weeks instead of the prescribed 2 - whilst taking unprescribed supplements like serrapeptase *which should not be taken with blood thinners*).  This lead to further issues, which they then tried to self diagnose/treat, causing more anxiety and it spiralled significantly from there.

In Feb 2023, they were admitted to a MH ward as their behaviour had become too much to deal with at home.  This didn’t help in some aspects (MH wards are depressing, can’t imagine what it’s like as a patient), but they helped to steady things.  Medications were provided to help with some of the issues (laxatives to regulate, pregabalin for the anxiety, sleeping tablets) and tried to respond to their alleged physical complaints (checked their bowels, CT scans for spine/brain).  They were released from the ward in around Sept 2023, with ongoing prescriptions and weekly visits from the local MH support team.

Since then, they have steadily slipped back to the previous behaviours, fallen out of the routines they had, and are in a worse situation than before.  Self diagnosing random ailments, making baseless assertions, misconstruing medical advice or documents they’ve been provided with about their treatment, and more significantly blaming their medication for their problems. They firmly believe they shouldn’t have been prescribed medication, that they only ever had physical ailments that needed treatment and that they are the victim of malice on behalf of the health services.  

They more or less display the same behaviours as before they were admitted, only now they have an equal amount of anxiety about the medications that are supposed to be helping.  

They are very depressed - often sobbing to themselves, constantly repeating the same negative things about the drugs causing harm, doctors not know what they’re doing, that their life is ruined, and that they wish they’d died when they had the strokes.  They can’t sleep without the drugs, can’t go to the toilet without the drugs - but they don’t want to be on them.

They have a safety plan in place, and their are people around them to ensure their safety - however I am really struggling to identify ways to help, since they will not listen to anyone, and any conversation with anyone around their condition is more or less a repetition of the above from their point of view.

I don’t mind funding treatment if there’s something available - but haven’t been able to find anywhere to turn.  Does anyone here have any suggestions or experience that could help? (Thanks)

If you see my last post, I discussed booking an appointment with the GP to possibly go on antidepressant medication. I had that call today but it went absolutely horribly.

The phone call lasted 1 minute and 20 seconds for a start, the man on the phone was useless. I explained how I've been struggling with depression for 4 years and that I would like to go down the medication route. I'm 16 but he said I'm too young for him to do anything. As far as I know, at the age of 16, I'm responsible for my own treatment and legally, the gp can perscribe medication.

I explained how I'm having ongoing support from 1-1 talking therapies and have had counselling as well as I've been to camhs in the past, but it hasn't helped me like I would've liked and starting medication would be beneficial to start me off. He told me that I should ring up camhs for a self referal but I can't even do that because I need a gp to refer me.

I'm so confused and stuck about what I'm supposed to do

I always take the day off work, but I'm going through a bit of a depressive phase, due to things that are going on I'm my life that I can't change (other people's actions). So I have the day to myself which is usually good for me, but today it's giving me too much time to dwell on the negatives. Anyone have any good tips on how to stop thinking the bad stuff?

Seriously.

I have chatted to three different people today and yesterday. Yesterday was my first day using it. The first person I talked to literally said to me: "I don't know how to respond to that" after expressing to them the mental health issues I'm having. They were unbelievably unhelpful. It was shocking. I ended up just ending the conversation then and there.

I figured it might have just been someone on their first day volunteering there (because I do believe it's volunteers that you speak to).

And today I spoke to another person, they seemed not too bad. I believe their intentions were very good, and their heart was in the right place, but they weren't very helpful either. At least they didn't tell me that they didn't know how to respond to my message. I left the conversation with two different links (one to a stupid 'self help' PDF - it literally said to take a "mindful cup of tea" what in the world does that even mean? And naturally it also mentioned taking a bath. I don't even have a bath in my house. Very helpful).

And the last person I just finished talking to was zero help at all. It felt like I was speaking to AI, we just kept going around in circles. She kept asking what I do to cope with my mental health problems despite me answering the question four times in the span of half an hour.

It also takes a very long time for them to respond. Although I'm sure there's a reason, they want to make their sure their texts are appropriate and wouldn't push the person they're talking to over the edge.

I wasn't in a dire situation where I felt like doing something drastic to myself, I contacted them because I feel extremely lonely and I don't have anyone to talk to (they all just made me feel even lonelier. Especially the first and last people I spoke with). But I'd hate to see any of those people trying to talk down someone who is actively thinking about hurting themselves in an irreversible way (if you know what I mean, I'm not sure if reddit takes down any posts with certain keywords in them)

I'm sure there are excellent volunteers out there, but why do people volunteer to do this kind of thing if they aren't any good at it. I feel like their time would better be served volunteering at an animal shelter, or old people's home.

Thoughts on Shout?

I see that PTSD has a high PIP acceptance rate, and I need to get on PIP for various reasons but I’m just not sure how they approach CPTSD?

I’ve been meaning to apply for PIP for the last 5 years but each time I consider it I get overwhelmed and let it go. I now have a diagnosis and am receiving EMDR treatment for it but I just find the whole process so daunting, especially as I know most applications are rejected on the first go and you might need to appeal/go to tribunal?

Looking for any words of advice or success stories

Hey all, I'm a poly substance addict (primarily addicted to Xanax, diazepam, DXM and zolpidem. The Xanax and DXM and both physical and psychological addictions whilst the others are probably just psychological because I don't use them daily)

I'm mainly addicted to just the feeling of being high, really high. It's my escape from life, it's what's kept me from suicide recently but even now it's gotten to the point where I don't want to live anymore, I'm terrified of living sober especially. I've got depression, anxiety, EUPD, autism, ADHD and some other non mental health issues and addiction runs in my family so I'm pretty screwed in the mental department and in a way I feel like I was doomed to become an addict the moment I touched drugs.

I'm under an addiction service, Change Grow Live, and had a complex case team assessment today after having a normal assessment. They want me to see their complex case doctor and have another assessment as we didn't finish all of it today but already they've told me that they think I need to go into inpatient detox and then rehab because of how much I'm using and the danger of the substances I am using. I've never been to either before and I'm absolutely terrified.

For those of you who have been, what's it like? What should I expect? Did you find it helped? How long did you stay for and did you stay sober after coming out? Is it easy to get drugs in there? I'm terrified that if I find access to drugs in rehab I'll relapse. I'm also terrified of going. And also, how do I tell my family? I know how upset and probably angry my mum will be. I'm 20 and still sort of live at home so I have to tell her, she'd notice if I just disappeared. She's not great with drug use, she's got a rule of no drugs in her house and I've obviously broken it because I'm using daily at night. I'm afraid she'll kick me out or hate me. I'm so scared of all of this and I just want some idea of what to expect, how to get through this and whether it'll be okay in the end. Thank you

I am currently on my second week of sick leave (one week self certified, and sick note up to two weeks). I am currently in a mental health crisis (depression), and am being seen at home by the crisis team. I do occasionally see things that aren't real, or hear music that isn't there - but the crisis team do not appear to be particularly concerned as it is infrequent (once a week).

I suppose, at this time, I do not feel ready to return to work on the expiry of the sick note. I am not functioning on a basic level, and pose a risk to myself. My job involves a high level of thinking, and is stressful (Solicitor).

I just wondered what I could be doing whilst on leave? Currently, I try to do one or two chores a day (often failing), and essentially spend my time trying not to act on suicidal thoughts. I take the diazepam to calm me down, but obviously this is not a long term solution, and will become less effective due to tolerance.

I also wondered whether I would be able to obtain a further sick note to extend leave? Although in my head, I feel guilty about this, and sort of 'deluded' to think that I am actually well. How long have others in similar situations had off? I know it is very specific to each person.

Also, does anyone have any tips to stop worrying about work? It feels like I was running at 100mph, and the next day went to 0mph, and my brain hasn't yet adjusted. I am more worried about my clients being looked after than anything else, but my boss tells me to stop worrying and that they have it in hand. I don't find that helpful.

My emails to HR sound very irrational and when I read them back, I think I sound not myself. I am worried about job security as well. I had to walk past my office to go to the GP, and it sent me into a spiral.

Any comments or advice is welcome, although I find it hard to reply sometimes. Apologies for the rambling nature of my post.

Hello,

I have a relative who suffers from a mental illness, they've been back and forth with diagnosis' and currently have them with BPD. Prior they had been diagnosed in a different country with bipolar disorder (which I believe they have as they have certainly had a manic episode in thr past).

Their CPN and support worker are worried about them as they seem to be having a mood episode with psychosis. However, he was told that the psychiatrist was not willing to alter the medication dose, the medicine itself, or even schedule a closer review and was told to 'ride it out.

They've stopped going to work, sleeping, washing, eating, the list goes on. There has been strong bouts of suicidal ideation with the mood episode and psychosis.

They are not willing to go to the ED, as have been treated poorly by Liason staff before. There is no 111 service here either.

I've looked myself to see if there was any way to change psychiatrist (as I don't believe they have his best interests at heart). There is no PALS where he is situated, and I'm unsure of the best option to get him the best outcome possible.

It's breaking our hearts to see him in such a bad place. Any advice is greatly appreciated.

EDIT: spelling, grammar

Hi there. I think my mental health is getting way worse. It feels like I have two different people living inside my head, and they can take over in an instant. One is pretty docile and I don't mind them, but they put me in a very childlike state of mind. But the other is very angry and violent one and when that one is present I feel the overwhelming urge to hurt people and myself.

I don't think it's DID. I don't know what it is obviously. But I'm terrified that if I tell my GP that these personalities take over without warning every single day that they'll put me on medication. I don't want to go on medication as I've had bad experiences with one (fluoxetine or however you spell it), and I don't want to go on any that'll cause weight gain (I have an ED and if I gain weight it'll get worse).

Or alternatively, I don't want my GP to try and admit me into a mental hospital. I don't know if they could do that, since I'm an adult.

Any advice? I want to get help but I'm scared.

I’ve suffered from mental health issues for what seems like forever but I only really started tackling it 5 years ago after a mental breakdown. I’m 38. I’ve been helping looking after my Dad who has dementia in this time and he got worse to the point where he had to go to a home… I noticed over the past year or so I started to fall back into my own mental health black hole but I’m scared that it’s now worse than ever. My anxiety is crippling were I use to have a handle on it. I’m trying to keep it to myself as my family have enough to deal with. I don’t know how I’m going to get through it this time.

I’ve been in therapy for like a year and a half now and if I’m honest I just do not find it useful at all and I’m really really trying and have even tried different therapists.

Also if I’m honest I think going over things and voicing things in therapy I don’t often talk about obviously makes me feel a certain way.

I’ve gone to my GP before about mediation and was told no that I should stick to things like therapy but honestly sometimes I feel insane and feel like I need to try something else.

What can I say to the GP to suggest medication do I be up front and say all this or just say therapy isn’t working?

Sometimes I feel like the world around me is completely distorted or too much, I'm walking and functioning somewhat normally but I'm not feeling or seeing anything like I usually would. I've also started to see things that aren't there for example I thought my friend was holding a cigarette but they weren't and I thought the light was on and it wasn't and I've even hallucinated conversations with people. My head never feels right recently almost like there's lots of thoughts and I just can't catch them and make sense of them.

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After having been receiving treatment for depression over 10 years or so, and a long list of medications, my consultant psychiatrist has suggested that we could try buproprion for my treatment resistant depression.

I know the medication works on different receptors to SSRIs, SNRIs, and tricyclic antidepressants - which i have tried.

I know that it is only used off licence in the UK for depression, but wondered if anyone has tried it and what their experiences were? Whether any side effects occurred etc.

I really need help, but I don't want to tell them about my suicide ideation. I'll never attempt suicide, I've never really bothered with self harm. But once I do decide to go I will succeed.

I'm already autistic and I believe I'm developing bpd in addition to my anxiety peaking into full blown panic attacks on top of a depression I've been in since I can remember. I don't want to take their pills, I'm depressed because I'm autistic and hate being disabled. The disabilities are getting worse and suicide is just seeming the logical choice. I could barely tolerate the challenges I had adding more just isn't worth the squeeze for me.

As for the bpd although I am self diagnosing I have been taking a lot of risks and been committing a lot of illogical actions over the past few years which I put down to being human, the autism might make you robotic but I am fallible. Flings that shouldn't of ever happened, fights/arguments that went far too far or didn't need to happen in the first place etc, sudden life changing decisions made in haste without much thought. Not only that I'm cycling rapidly through my emotions for the past 3ish years after feeling empty and unbothered the start of my life. One minute I'll be getting my life together, the next I'm ordering supplies.

I really don't want my family to know either, but looking at the law there is a good chance if they decide to section me they will tell them regardless. After being failed my whole life by the school system I don't want a repeat in my adult one. I'd rather die than go through people mocking me with a smile again as they "make things better" by essentially making my conditions so intolerable they can train me like a dog.

I want to reach out for help, but I don't want to be sectioned. Control is very important to me and being the master of my own destiny is paramount. The only thing keeping me alive as of now is the fact that none of it mafters. If I lose these things I will end it. I'll quite happily play pretend, take their pills, be happy. I've spent years doing it already then as soon as I'm out take control.

How do I tell them I'm serious and get the help I need without losing my rights? It is a literal death sentence for me. I've made my mind up if I go in for being sectioned I've lost control of my destiny and what little made this life worth living has now been stripped bare.