Hello, I have messaged my teacher regarding this but I decided to post on here as well. During practice this month I have been experiencing extreme fatigue and nausea during practice. Last night during practice I was interrupted by a family member and opened my eyes and was so dizzy I just laid down. The spins did not go away for two hours eventually leading my to drift off to sleep to relieve the feeling. I come to ask if this a sensation to push through or if this is a side of something else.

Has anyone here been assigned any missions? Unexplainable things you have to do that are guided by signs? It's like the ultimate murder-mystery / escape-room challenge. It kinda tracks with the Campbells heroes journey. Anyone???

Next: for all you spontaneous head-exploded ones, do you think it was Phowa (pho-ba)...spiritual suicide????

Last: what are we talking about here exactly? Tantra/Tibetan Buddhism? Yoga? Shamanism? Zen? Huna?

I know there is a lot of caution surrounding the awakening of Kundalini. I suspect most of it stems from the potential Kundalini psychosis, which I don't doubt exists.

The caveat I want to address is whether, long term, a Kundalini awakening can ever be a bad thing for someone.

Perhaps it is due to my beliefs that I question this. To me, Kundalini is Shakti and the Goddess Bhairavi.

If the Divine Mother, in her wisdom, has decided to awaken, surely it is for the best - even if it is horrid for the person short term.

I myself have experienced psychosis - as the mods may know - and feel that if it was a consequence of Kundalini, it must have been necessary in the Divine Mother's judgement. (Please see a psychiatrist if this happens to you and take the medication).

Much like a dark night of the soul, described within a more usual spiritual awakening, there are periods of intense purification and suffering. Surely it would be ludicrous to say your soul has made a mistake in your awakening due to the pain you endure. That would be claiming to know better on a mental level than your soul, higher self, guides or what have you.

It would be even more brazen to claim that mother Kundalini has misjudged the situation and made a mistake in awakening.

Perhaps all of that was strongly worded and I'm curious how other people might feel about this. Caution is the rule here, I know, and I'm open to a bit of discussion on this topic. My point, more concisely, is that Kundalini must arise for the good long term even if a person is unprepared and or suffers in the short term.

Thank you for reading and let me know your thoughts.

Hello everyone, I have read both of the recommended Richard Bach books but don’t understand their relevance to the topic.

I have skimmed around the Lewis Paulson, Kason, and Morris books and those at least talk about the topic.

I have also read the wiki.

So, more concretely, my questions are: what exactly is referred to as kundalini in this sub and how does it relate to the Richard Bach books?

It seems to me, and I have dabbled in chaos magick and other more widely and deeply rooted cultural sort of magick, that kundalini is used here as an emergence of magical power which we must then tend and take care of how we use it. And I say use it because I’ve read here several times that we can “use” this energy.

I don’t know if I’m making myself clear but I want to leave the question and my understanding sort of broad because I’m not exactly sure what kundalini is.

This happened last night. Is this what they call a Kundalini rising?

I usually meditate in bed before sleeping. Most of the time I do Active Imagination where I have conversations with my higher self.

Yesterday, I went in with a problem. I have been going through a 2-month plateau in my life -- lethargy, unmotivated to work harder, I just feel flat. Not feeling low or high, just flat.

So I asked my higher self for guidance. He told me to just breathe and relax and not focus on anything.

First, I had a series of thoughts about the problems and challenges in my life. I acknowledged those thoughts, and I felt calm that all of them would be taken care of.

After a bit, I felt a blissful stage. I didn't think much, but I experienced a sense of bliss all over my body. I have had this part before whenever I do this type of meditation.

Then I noticed something that I had never experienced. I felt a release, a tingling sensation from my lower back to my arms and then my fingers. It was not intense. But the right amount. It was kinda orgasmic but not intense. This repeated itself so many times.

In the past, I have had a NEO (non-ejaculatory orgasm) once. I felt that up my spine and then my brain. But last night was different.

The sensation did not necessarily go up my spine or brain; just other body parts. It was blissful and amazing, and I did not want it to stop.

At one point, I felt the urge to pee. So I had to stop to go to the washroom to pee. I felt like I had woken up from a trance. My body was heavy and tired. And peeing made it better. Then I went back to bed. And after that, I slept.

This morning, I woke up with a slight headache. Perhaps it was because of all this release, but it was not a major headache that I couldn't function. Is this a Kundalini energy release? Or is it something else? I do feel calmer today—probably the best I've felt in weeks.

Namaskar/Hello everyone,

A month back I posted about the experiences that i was having Last post After that I had stroke attack on 3rd October in which my left side arm and face were temporarily paralysed and then i was admitted to hospital for about 5 days. Very suddenly after dinner, my left arm, face behaved very differently and my voice pitch became very different. I was not able to speak properly and in sense you can relate the whole behaviour as similar to very drunk man. again to suprise, i was not feeling any pain but kind of happiness - which i cannot describe in words

After getting admitted they did MRI and found out that 2 brain vessels are damaged. Though I regained my ability to control my left arm and face by almost 50% within 30-60 mins. Now its almost a month now i have regained control almost 95-98% of normalcy except for some sensitivity to which doctors are hopeful to get back within couple of months by looking at my progress.

To further add - I am male, 40, having diabetes + bp already. So the whole episode might be attributed to it.

The reason to say might be because I want to rule out the possibility of whatever happened because of kundalini. On tht day ( 3rd Oct ) I attended reiki sesssion which was all about teaching reiki and self healing by kundalini activtion where reiki master activated top 4 chaskras - Sahastrara/Ajna/Vishushudha and anahata by reiki diksha. Rest were supposed to happen after 21 days. The session happened in the morning and stroke after almost 10 hours. TBH, i am not thinking at going for session 2 which iw kind of due this month as i am bit scared

Another reason for me to get scared is whatsoever i was experiencing in last post, head twinkling and noises, slowly I am getting them back. though they are not as string as earlier but still i am confused and worried. I checked with Nuro-Physician but they didnt suspect anything. May be I will check again with them after a month or so but till that time not sure what to do - just be observer ?

This morning I believe I may have accidentally triggered a Kundalini awakening... I'm not positive but I believe this may be what's happening.

To give some context, I awoke from a dream and as I was doing so, for whatever reason I found myself visualizing energy moving back and forth across my third eye. I'm not positive as to whether I was fully awake of perhaps just had a false awakening and was on the astral.

One way or another, however, I continued doing this until a phone screen appeared in front of my vision, as if it were a dream or an astral projection, except there was nothing in front of me besides the phone and a void of darkness. On the phone screen it read something along the lines of, "Kundalini Experience: Are you ready?" And I said what the heck, and pressed yes.

Afterwards there were a whole bunch of settings I could manipulate on the phone. I don't remember most of them, besides one about spiritual defense (a number between 1-11 iirc), one asking about my intentions (which I didn't really get enough time to read), and one about "update frequency" (which had a time value connected to it).

I wasn't sure if this was a legitimate kundalini awakening happening or not, until I woke up and felt intense energy flowing through my body, which seemed to be stemming from around my tailbone area (which is exactly how I've heard kundalini awakening described).

Has anyone seen this "settings menu" before? Because I am interested to know if this is something I can go back to and modify later or if the answers that I was rushed through are now set in stone. Particularly, where it said to enter a defense level I wanted to set it a bit higher (like 6 or 7 at least). But then I guess I ran out of time or something, and it reset back down to 1. Also I would have like to have been given a bit more time to answer on the "intention" bit as I didn't really get enough time to understand what my options where.

Furthermore, was this even a real kundalini awakening, or is this just some weird thing I experienced? And is there anything I should make sure to do now that this has happened?

Thank you all in advance for any answers you may be able to give on this.

Imitation Can Be flattery Until it Goes Beyond Into plagiarism.

Hello all.

I share this with a respectful attitude and without prejudice.

This sub stands as an unusual bulwark of ideas on Kundalini on the web.

Eleven years ago, warnings about Kundalini were non-existent. Today, people arriving at the sub complain that all they are encountering on the web are warnings.

I knew that there was an imbalance, a general oopsie style ignorance caused in part by the dead fellow I call out so often. KYYB.

He had a major role to play in the present information disarray to do with Kundalini, even though he's been dead 20 years. Between his bullshitting and mystery-talk, his followers just filled in the spaces with fluff.

He also make Kundalini as a topic become popular, which was probably never a great idea. Yet, the cat's out of of the bag now, and adapting seems to be the wiser course.

We, and certainly I, take Kundalini just a few slight tads more seriously than most, and hold people sharing ideas or doing things more accountable and what I would consider, more appropriately-responsible for something as consequential as Kundalini.

The hard part about Kundalini is you cannot tell the whole truth for risk of being called crazy, or worse, and then the spoken warnings lack some context and go underestimated because of it. There's no helping that. Some things just cannot be said.

Having the courage to speak on things others balk at or avoid means we get noticed (For good and bad), and copied.

While some copying is just fine, and influences are going to be a normal part of things, which I do take some satisfaction in, there are limits.

I have started seeing signs of this sub's influence in many places, too numerous to count. Even some of the KYYB related wwebsites, some have borrowed ways of saying things from here in their attempts to hide their heritage. That I don't smile so much about.

There are times attributing is tough. There's the Japanese zen story about the farmer and good luck, bad luck. That's a translation of what I think is a traditional or common zen teaching story to help guide equanimity. I don't know who originally came up with it.

In sharing ideas, I often state things like Denis used to say, or I quote from Richard Bach's books, which in some cases is almost but not quite the same as quoting from Denis. I often borrow ideas from Dan Millman. I speak of ideas from the book The Sword of no Sword on a less common basis. I speak often about the fine contents of the book by Genevieve Lewis Paulson that I prefer, with three or four caveats. And it takes the sub community to help me remember what those are! (Funny!!)

Often I share ideas that are my own conclusions from my own life experiences, and from my own dealings with Kundalini.

Reddit does consider our submitted words as copyrighted by the person doing the submitting (or other) if they are original materials.

When that other sub was being attacked, (I was told that Interpol were involved, doxxing, death threat phone calls at home, psychic attacks, etc) all of the mods from /r/kundalini bent over backwards without reservations at 2AM to assist the other sub in any way we could.

While researching a person' post history recently when they asked in the sub, I noticed the words of someone we banned after a long struggle to get compliance and respect for our rules, which failed. He then started his own sub or continued another sub - something which reddit permits, even encourages - yet I've come to notice, (and others have told me) that he has been too often and too routinely been using my own phrases and ways of stating things without any attribution whatsoever.

Well, screw that, I thought.

So I offered a report to reddit very unsure about the result, using the term impersonation. I explained well enough to have the reddit Anti-Evil Operations Team understand what I was getting at.

Yet I pointed towards zero specifics. I kept it vague.

Often, reddit reports are dealt with in mere hours. (Maybe a day or three. A day longer during big holidays.) It's been quicker with new AI tools.

Two full weeks later, meaning or inferring that they looked closely and deeply, reddit replied that the person in question received a temporary ban. Yikes. If reddit chose that route, likely the problem was found to be vaster than even I bothered digging for.

That's a start.

I extend my respectful gratitude to reddit's Anti-Evil Operations team members. Reddit resists being capitalised, but the AEO team deserves our respect for the job they do. They have mine.

If people are going to ride on my coat-tails, I want at least some of the credit, of find your own ideas and lingo to describe things.

Reddit has continued to improve in many ways, with a few hiccups that didn't really affect us.

You people (The 42K subscribers plus lurkers) come first, to us, not reddit politics.

As to our neighbourhood sub who too often borrows ideas from this one, I suggest that you learn to be more honest.

Many of the people there were removed from /r/kundalini with causes, and they are an active bunch yet decent answers are, well, questionable, and rare.

/r/kundalini remains one of the world's top go-to places for answers on Kundalini, and for more immediate and personalised help with less trolling and less shitposting than just about anywhere. Or at least, that's what people have been saying to me and my fellow mods for years. We have haters too, which is fine. They're a part of the balance.

Not everyone has access to nor can afford a medical professional. We cannot offer medical advice. We can offer spiritual advice on our topic at hand. What is shared here is of value, even if it is shared freely.

This sub works so well because of a solid team of moderators and a fine community of generous and helpful regulars. One regular was so generous recently that he was willing to get banned over trying to get his point across. That's a pretty admirable spirit. Yet we value his input, so he averted a ban. He's also way better than me at being concise!

Peculiarly, this week a one year old post reply was reported for impersonation. It was a listing of sub rules. People are strange, some days. It's the new Wild West... the WWW. Some people aren't any smarter than the saddle on their horse!

My continued thanks to all the regulars who offer quality answers, and to the mods who both answer, and moderate. It's a thankless effort that does bring learning.

Some regulars, in past years, got warnings to not just repeat my own words. They only needed one warning, and have since found their own way of saying things, their own voice that isn't just repeating Marc's words. That means they're working out how to get ideas across from their own life experience. Inspired, influenced, yet not imitating. I smile at this.

This sub wouldn't work without questions, without people willing to offer answers, and for the regulars to inspire corrections in thinking, in asking better questions, etc. It's all terrific.

Thank you to all for this community. Keep up the good work.

Marc

Does everyone have popcorn for today? Shhhh.

It's been 11 years since it happened, a long intense journey. I traveled to the void last year this time of season. I'm searching for those who can identify. Cancer born in late June of 1983.

Hi everyone! Just after peoples thoughts on a few things! As a child I suffered an injury to my lower spine as a result of a fall. Shortly after I experienced a recurring dream that went on for several years and now, at 52, I can still remember very clearly. I also began suffering from migraines that carried on until my first and only pregnancy at 38. None since! I had an episode of what was believed at the time to be meningitis at 17 but turned out as unexplainable after a lumbar puncture! Blinding headache, loss of bodily control, rolling eyes, very scary! I have had a chaotic life, addictions, traumas but have come out the other side thankfully :) Now I find myself in menopause and my life seems to have become chaotic again resulting in me having therapy. My therapist says I show strong traits of ADHD, as well as emotional dysregulation and CPTSD. I am spiritual in nature, extremely empathic and sensitive and wondered if kundalini work is what I need as I don't want to medicate. I guess I'm a little apprehensive as I don't want to unleash pandoras box lol I just want some peace. I have been doing a lot of retrospective thinking, shadow work if you like so feel in a more grounded space just wondering if kundalini yoga may be appropriate. Many thanks for the opportunity to share :)

I was a normal teenager.. but between the 10th and 11th grade, I discovered chakras and Boom!..

Instant kundalini awakening, instant hyperactivity.. instant insanity!..

Im 30 now.. and deal with psychosis and some disease for 8 years... currently experiencing epsidoe triggers and I was just reflecting.. no one else is crazy with energy. Why me?...

hello,
Context: 25m, 5'6, had my awakening started VERY recently after integrating working the chakras and mantras in to my regular breathwork and meditation routine. My metabolism is incredible now, and I am always filled with energy. I always stay over hydrated than before. Getting plenty of sleep after a painful couple of weeks maintaining this state which I fixed by practicing the surrender pose. Since my childhood, I felt the left part of my body rather weaker than the right, which now feels fixed - but the left side of my body now feels stronger.
I practice yoga stretching, calisthenics extensively, walk 1-2 hours everyday and used to hit the gym regularly to work with weights until a few months ago.

The problem is, my parents and a few of my friends have started to say that I am shrinking in height? I also feel my height vacillating 1-2 inches randomly. Is this a common problem?

Diet: Almost everything, meat, veggies, eggs, rice, tea. I started eating like an animal, always hungry than before.

Questions: IS this common? shrinking in height? If so, how do I fix? What should my ideal diet be?
Should go back to the gym to work with weights during an awakening ?
PS: I don't fap/nut. All this started after a bad breakup

thank you, I love you if you are reading this , God and existence are beautiful

Any thoughts on this one?

I’ll try to be brief: about a decade ago, at 30(M), had K awaken. My psyche had been broken w grief over a baby we sent to heaven, and the K came not too long after. My practice at the time was a lot of contemplative Christian prayer (see: The Cloud of Unknowing).

Life happens. Decade later, more kids/crazy parent life, lost touch w contemplative practice. K still in the background, but not much interaction.

Last week: I went to war with a theracane against some muscle knots I’ve had in my shoulder blade for…about a decade. Coincidental to when K first showed up.

After FIVE days of working on this muscle knot, it finally released and…whoa. K is back in a BIG way.

And something new: ive picked up a new…talent. I am finding i have full knowledge of meridian lines and points on the body now.

Anybody ever have something similar? It’s been a lot of energy to deal with, all new integration, and dare I say even new sensory perception.

Wild world we live in.

Thanks 🙏

Hello kundalini community,

I have been lurking on this page for sometime now. I am posting in search of some insight into what I’m currently experiencing. I’ll give some context too, in the hope that it will paint as much of a clear picture as possible.

I was raised catholic, and from a young age, I can remember wanting to seek the Divine. I was always very interested in my own religion and also others. Fast forward to my early twenties, and I enrolled in and completed a bachelor degree with honours in Theology and Religious studies. After this, I started living a pretty standard life of a twenty-something year old (partying etc).

I then moved to the Netherlands to be with my boyfriend at the time. I was still interested in spirituality but it was very much in the background of my life and perhaps a bit superficial. In 2018, there was one very significant event that changed my life. It was traumatic and extremely emotionally and spiritually painful. As awful as this event was, it was a huge catalyst for my spiritual life. I became busy with self-help and spirituality. I have up most meat, and dabbled a little with yoga and meditation, though I made no significant practice. Looking back, I’d say I was quite often using ‘spiritual bypassing’ to avoid feeling the pain of the trauma I experienced.

I moved back to my home country during Covid and started therapy. I am also currently completed a postgrad diploma in counselling. In the last few years, my spiritual life has felt much deeper, partly due to making a consistent yoga and meditation practice. I have also recently made some big and difficult life choices that have led me to feel more at home with myself than I have in a very long time.

What has never left me in my life, is my desire to seek the Divine. I’ve never been completely sure how this looks, only that I have that desire. I learned about kundalini a few years ago, and became fascinated with it, but would often feel frightened at the idea of such a strong force, and shut down any reading of further study. I’d only occasionally read some posts in this sub.

In the last few months, I have felt a significant onset of what I thought/think is sexual energy (this has felt like a surprise as I have had no libido for almost four years, possibly due to trauma). I have also been feeling subtle rushes of bliss. Then a week ago, while partaking in a yin yoga class, I have a gradual build up of blissful energy which the developed in to bags I can only call love, which then focused strongest at my heart centre (I was actually in a heart opening pose at this point). The energy felt like it was coming in and out of my heart and was surrounding my body.

Now, if a breathe a certain way and close my eyes, I can feel that subtle bliss, this leads to me having an urge to self-massage. Last night, I felt this energy run through my body, and I have overwhelming feelings that I can’t name, and then the urge to move my arms above my head, once I did this and let the energy move, I felt settled again. These energetic experiences have had a subtlety to them, but the feelings feel intense at times.

My appetite has changed, I don’t feel as hungry as often and I don’t feel as tired. I don’t feel like I want to eat chocolate or drink much alcohol.

I am posting now because I know much of what I’m experiencing could be linked to kundalini, though it’s not the ‘BIG’ physical experience that I imagined it to be from my early readings.

I’m wondering if what I’m experiencing is just life force energy? A small part of my intuition says it could be kundalini, and I feel like I can trust and hold myself, at least where I’m at just now anyway, I actually feel pretty amazing and at peace. I feel like I can ground myself when needed, which I do pretty regularly anyway. Maybe the part of self that doubts is what drove me to post here, seeking insight. Or maybe I’m looking for clarification.

An important question I have is, if this is kundalini energy moving through me, and I continue to experience it, at what point should I seek a teacher?

Many thanks 🙏

Hello, I've been through all of the wikis here, I've researched extensively for the past 2 weeks, so the reason I'm posting is I've kinda hit a dead end. I had a spontaneous Kundalini awakening this year and for the longest time I had no idea what was going on. I had a multitude of painful symptoms, pressure in head, heat in head/body parts, nerve pain. I went to all sorts of doctors and had all kinds of tests done and the doctors kept saying I was fine. I've seen a neurologist and had every scan imaginable. I had very intense dreams which was unusual. I had a previous substance addiction a few years back but got clean in 2022.
I don't have access to any teachers/gurus here so after scouring the internet I came to the conclusion it was Kundalini. I still drank occasionally and smoked but after my research I quit that altogether. I began fasting and meditating (right before I even realized what was going on, it was just intuition) and began noticing synchronicities and other unexplainable things. I had never really paid any mind to this kinda stuff. So, while meditating, fasting, eating as clean as I could the symptoms got much better, but I could feel some pressure in my head, nothing too major. Last week I had 2 days of a blissful calm I've never felt. It was like nothing could irritate me and everything felt perfect. I was told that wouldn't last and understood that. That time has passed and I feel like I'm kinda going back to my old self. I picked up the habit of a couple cigarettes a day again (I know, it's tough, but I'm trying) but I just kinda feel normal again which isn't a problem.
My issue is, sometimes while meditating I'll feel that rocking sensation and an energy go up into my head and it kinda just sits there and that pressure just stays there for a bit. I'm not trying to get back to that "blissful" state or anything, I'm not even really focused on a "result" of any kind, but that pressure gets annoying and I want to continue this journey more than anything. I feel like I got a taste of something and I'm at a standstill now. Which I guess kinda discredits my previous statement lol. I'm trying to go with the flow, and I'm not trying to be in a hurry with anything, it's hard to explain. I just want to know how to progress or what to do and how to get rid of this pressure.
Thank you!

My belly has been tight for over a year. As I’ve been letting go of myself more, it has started to loosen up slowly. With meditation and shamata sometimes it fully loosens up and I feel this intense tickling sensation. It’s a LOT of energy but tickles can be very uncomfortable at times and it kinda makes me tighten again. What is happening to me and how should I deal with the tickles? Thank you!

New to this topic, and wary since so many posts claim psychotic breakdowns, seeing ghosts etc afterwards. Is this a thing?

I couldn't find this - or any variation of this question - in the history here, even if it seems like a basic question. I am very sorry if I missed a relevant post when searching through the archives.

The question is : What supporting practices do you have that work for you and your kundalini wellbeing? What practices are a must for you, what practices didn't work for you, and what practices do you want to do more of?

I am alone/without a teacher and without a religion/spiritual community, and I am curious what other people's practice is like, and I appreciate experiences and tips you want to share.

I'm suffering from this syndrome because of my stupid unprepared kundalini practice while I am high, and this is hunting me for past 6 months and I have all the symptoms like Muscle cramps or spasm, two energy pushing one from upwards and one from downward.

How do I explain this phenomenon to a mental health professional, I sacred he may not understand anything about this spiritual practice kundalini

Please help me 😭🙏

If possible please suggest me a doctor in Banglore or in Tamil Nadu 🇮🇳

Good day everyone. I looked through the subreddit and couldn't find anything relevant. My awakening was earlier this year. In the past few months, I am not able to read or do computer work without my head becoming full, specifically in the center of my forehead. I am not able to work at the moment due to the concentration issues. Did anyone else struggle with this? Is this related to general head pressure issues? I am aware of the head pressure section in the wiki but wondered if anyone experienced trouble with reading specifically. Thanks all.

I don't believe I have it awakened, yet I'm eager. Maybe that's the reason for this dream but I've had 2 of these vivid dreams besides the other night within a year. I'm not obsessing over it, usually lol. Anyways, in this dream it was like a script. I was an NPC, just following along, and eventually when I realized I could take some control, I sort of woke up and started to become more lucid. I felt this energy and pushed it to my back and eventually spine. I don't have any sense of energy at all during my physical waking moments. I can only feel it when I'm sleeping or just waking up/falling asleep. I decided to push this energy into my spine (maybe it was already in my spine idk) and up to try and awaken this energy and have a Kundalini activation/awakening. I saw from a video game like 3rd perspective at one point the energy surrounding my body. It was light blue IIRC.

I don't think I succeeded in the dream but dam was I sweating. It felt so real and I could really feel and channel the energy. Thought I was onto something. Anyone have an experience like this?

I am living in a place where there are no gurus to train about Kundalini awakening. In order to activate it, can I do it alone without guidance, and if I were to seek someone to unlock my energy or follow a guru, can it be done through a virtual teacher of some sort online? Any help would be appreciated.

Hello All,

I have been browsing this sub for a little bit and I find everything fascinating. I haven’t tried anything (as I know you really have to be careful and in the right headspace to even mess with this stuff), but over the last few years I think I have been able to move energy up my spine to my head.

On another note (but I am guessing related possibly), I have a quiet yet constant high pitched ringing in my ears.

Now, I have read that kundalini can sometimes be an energy ringing or buzzing in your ears, and not tinnitus. The reason I think this may be true for me is because when I am lying down in bed about to go to sleep, the ringing is there. But if a small noise like a creak from the house suddenly happens, the ringing increases in intensity and volume and pitch for that split second the sound was there. This only happens to me when lying in bed while trying to sleep.

The ringing is in my ears now, but it’s not bothering me per se. I can just hear it. But if I am busy, I don’t really notice it.

The last thing that I really want to ask about is; sometimes when I am on the verge of sleep, the ringing with get suddenly SO loud and “connect” from both ears into the centre of my head (or so it seems). It goes away as instantly as it came, but it makes me jolt up it’s so intense.

Could this be kundalini?

EDIT

If not Kundalini, what then?

Seeking some feedback on sending energy.

First, some background. My father has been in the hospital for several weeks and suffering quite a lot. There is also an underlying relationship aspect, where we haven't been connected at a very deep level.

The other night, I was led during meditation to send him love and healing energy. I did this as a sort of amplified Metta practice, radiating love out of my heart chakra and directing energy to him. It was all automatic, guided by intuition.

The following day, I had this stong feeling like what I had done (along with recent other spiritual practices and self-work) was magic. Like for the first time in my life I had done ACTUAL MAGIC. More precisely, I allowed myself to be a vehicle for that energy to pass through.

Realizing the intensity of all this, I then wondered if I'd broken the 2 laws. I see now that I neglected to do it with no karma back to me. Reading the rest, I didn't aim to affect his mind or even to affect a certain outcome like healing him.

Is this an acceptable practice?

🙏

Hi there, I've been looking at this subreddit for many weeks now. There's so much incredible advice and I'm hoping I can receive some of my own for a sudden and traumatic kundalini awakening / ascension that I am currently facing.

Since 2020, I have been suffering with severe, 24/7 depersonalisation, triggered by a period of extreme stress.

For four years straight I have simply existed in the place behind my eyes, separate from the world, with hardly any emotions, no thoughts in mind, no energy, no dreams or hopes or creativity or imagination. No enjoyment, no passion, no love. It has felt like a waking death. I have tried many different therapies and medication but haven’t been able to shift the constant fog. 

In April, I finally snapped and broke down crying for hours. I decided I would try one final time to find help and heal. I found an incredible therapist who happened to be based very close to me. I started working with her and slowly began feeling safety in my body, and the dissociation began to lower a little. 

I noticed some strange things happening to me between sessions. Sometimes my legs would shake, or colours would briefly look brighter than normal. I didn’t pay them much attention. But then something massive happened. 

2 months ago, I was sitting on my couch, watching TV, when suddenly I felt my heart chakra open and experienced unconditional love 100x stronger than any normal emotion. I was in awe. It lasted for 10 minutes, and then faded, and since then my life as I knew it has been turned upside down. 

In the hours and days that followed, an energy began moving up my spine, and intense emotions began jumping up at me to be felt. I started hearing voices, seeing flashing lights, hearing buzzing in my ears. An overwhelming exhaustion took over, I found myself sleeping for 15 hours a day and having vivid dreams whenever I closed my eyes. 

At first I thought I was experiencing psychosis, but now I realise I am going through a full-blown Kundalini awakening / ascension. And I am terrified and grief-stricken beyond words. All I wanted was my normal life and sense of self back, and now I am being faced with something so bizarre, unpredictable, and horrifying. 

In the past week, things have ramped up and I am now having daily body flashbacks to CSA from my childhood, a truth that feels so heavy and shocking that I fear I will never be able to fully accept it without my entire mind shattering into pieces. Due to the stress of this my depersonalisation has returned, leaving me back where I started. I’m feeling like I’m trapped in a dimension all by myself, but now with the additional kundalini symptoms and terror. 

I’m trying to take each day as it comes but I am so lost and exhausted. My body is in pain and constantly trembling, I’m always on edge and bracing for when the next flashback will happen, I’m struggling to eat or bathe or sleep. I just want everything to stop but I know there’s nothing I can do. 

All the advice I see everywhere is “just surrender!” but my extreme childhood trauma has caused me to develop parts of my personality that desperately need control. It gave me a sense of safety in terrible situations. The idea of letting go to an experience I can’t even properly conceptually understand in my mind is so foreign, so wrong, so dangerous to these precious parts of me, that they’d rather I die than try to do so. They are fighting this with everything they have, and I don’t blame them. How can I trust that this process is good for me when my trust has been repeatedly betrayed since infancy? When each time I relaxed, something awful happened again? My mind is constantly filled with worst-case scenarios - I see images of myself screaming over and over in the street, or ending up trapped in a hell-realm where I’m tortured for all eternity.  

I have spiritual friends, they meditate and fully embrace ego-deaths and out of body experiences. I feel so weak and stupid in comparison. I’m someone who doesn’t even smoke weed as it sends me into a panic. My need for control has meant that I’ve steered clear of all spiritual ideas my entire life, as the thought of god, heaven, hell, reincarnation, etc was too much for me to handle. How on earth can I handle this?

I don’t think I’m capable of making it through this process. I cry all day, everyday. I’m often having intrusive thoughts of ending my life. I am unable to work like this and money is running low, so paying for a coach is not an option for me. It feels like I’m being punished. I’m terrified of what is coming next for me. 

I am so so deeply scared, scared beyond words. 

I’m typing this out as I’m desperate for advice, comfort, and compassion… if you have read this and feel you can offer any of these things in the form of a comment, it would mean everything to me. Thank you.

Hello everyone,

I wanted to know how kundalini affected your career life before and after.
Did you change fields ? Did you manage to keep working in your old one ? How did you adapt ?

I try to glean a little wisdom here and there so as to orient myself and make better decisions on this aspect after a long break from work. Thanks.

What is the difference in Kundalini and Kundalini yoga that makes one discussed here and not the other?

I'm not sure if that's the right community to ask, but I'll give it a shot.

I'm a vivid dreamer and been healing through my dreams. I've also been having ringing in my ears. I know the ringing has to do with tight neck and throat muscles, but the tone, volume, and physical depth have been changing. Sometimes it comes with tingles and euphoric sinking. Recently, it's been thin, high, soft. I don't know if it has to do with the worsening dream recall. I still dream vividly, and the last few nights, my dreams felt significant and archetypal. I want to remember every detail like I used to, but I can't. The only dream I could recall in detail was a spiritual teacher telling me how to breathe - and I remembered it randomly during yoga practice.

I've also been feeling much calmer lately, and I feel in control of my thoughts. Genetally, there has been a dramatic internal shift. Still, I feel uncomfortable without a good dream recall, since my dreams have always been an important part of my world and a way to communicate with my subconscious. Any ideas what might be happening?

Hello all.

Been on here a while now. Awakened K via Kundalini Yoga breathing in 2019 and then unintentionally exacerbated K in 2021 from doing another type of breathing exercise.

Had a pretty rough time since then with things gradually calming down until two months ago out of the blue (a have not done many spiritual exercises over the past three years), i had another surge. This time the enrgy is going into my head and I've not had a decent sleep for two months.

Ive tried to hold on but things just seem to be even more difficult with where the energy is working. Its in my brain right now and its not just energy but energy carrying negative emotions which are excruciating.

Each day i feel like a need to get some psychiatric help, but then make it through.

Tried a bunch from this sub and other sources for grounding and calming. Flowing out hands works occassionally, not all the time. Energy flows out but there always more in there. Im seeing a transpersonal psychologist which helps a bit.

Suicidal thoughts have come and mostly gone. Having trouble concentrating at work.

But the worst thing is just being in fight and flight like everdaybfor two months. Unable to relax because of how comfortable the energy in the head is along with the dark emotions it carries with it. Also 3-5 hours sleep every night is taking its toll.

The energy has calmed in this time but is just right in my head and relentless. There from waking up until bed time. Its like my head is locked in a tight bubble.

Would like to hear from those who have been through this or supported others going through this.

I am booked in to see Pyschiatrist in 3 weeks but feel like I might need to go to Psych ER sooner. I'm in Australia FYI.

Thanks

Edit: Also i think I'm dissassociating from my body. Hands and the rest of me are under my control but a lot less "me".

I am not doing any spiritual exercises except those from crisis, calming and grounding 101 and 102.

I'm going to school for Counseling Psychology and thinking about what I want to specialize in. Most of the curriculum focuses on Western approaches to psychology. I'm fascinated with Eastern approaches and in the future, I would love to integrate both in my practice. After learning about spontaneous Kundalini, I'm curious to know if there's a need for psychotherapists specializing in Kundalini awakening? Is this something that would have helped you?