31F -- I will try to keep this concise. In August of 2022, I was formally diagnosed with a genetic disorder (hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome) and since this time, my life has flipped upside down. Earlier that year, I was suffering from severe neck pain and had deconstructed Christianity in 2021 and was looking for physical and emotional healing. I saw someone advertise a Kundalini Activation session and I read into the founder and it sounded amazing. I attended the session and felt so hopeful and excited about it but also didn't expect anything major to happen to me. Boy was I wrong. During the session, my body was jerking uncontrollably, I felt tons of emotions rising up but never really "releasing", my head was jerking all over the place, and I was just trying to surrender to the experience. Afterward, the practitioner called me out specifically and no one else and said "I felt like I was cutting cords in your neck". I took that as a spiritual sign since I have severe chronic neck pain and thought this was God/spirit speaking through her to me and I felt like this was going to help me on my journey of healing.

Well, that has not been the case. After I got diagnosed with Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, my entire life began to make sense. I've always been hypermobile and have had chronic pain since I was a kid. My joints would always feel clunky in their sockets, I was always injury prone, basically had all the signs. So I started building a care team to treat my hEDS and later discovered that I have a condition called craniocervical instability which means the ligaments in my upper cervical spine are damaged and not able to hold my head up properly and is compressing my brain stem. I've had debilitating symptoms related to this for two years now (and severe neck pain in general since I was a teen).

All the while, this kundalini energy has never left me since the day of that session. At any moment, by simply focusing my attention to it, I can tap back into that energy and the more I surrender, the more intense it gets. The thing is, when I do so, it moves my head and neck in positions that worsen my neck instability symptoms because I don't have the stability in my connective tissue.

Because of this, I have been suppressing this energy ever since which makes me terrible. But surrending to it feels like it's physically harming me. And now I've been in the worst physical state in my life where my neck pain and instability is so severe that I have to wear a neck brace just to function, I had to quit my job because I can't hold my own head up for very long, even just typing this is painful.

I have read all of the tips in these groups for years, I do the White Light protection, I focus on grounding daily, I walk barefoot on the ground as much as possible and use a grounding sheet, I spend as much time in nature as humanly possible, I eat clean. It barely makes a dent. I feel like my nervous system is broken and that my body is broken. I am in such extreme pain and I feel so torn between trusting the western medicine approaches that are recommended to me to treat my hEDS (the route I've been taking) but then I am just suppressing the kundalini. But then when I honor the kundalini, I feel worse no matter what I do.

The only thing that has helped me is not thinking about it at all. I am also neurodivergent which is highly comorbid with hEDS and wonder if my brain wiring and nervous system are just hyper-sensitive at is it so maybe i had a premature kundalini awakening and now my nervous system is damaged in a sense. I don't want to use the word "damaged" or project that energy but that's truly what it feels like logically. Does anyone know if this is possible?

I just want to take care of my body and my nervous system and give it what it needs but I don't even know what that is when I'm in such a severe state of chronic pain and illness. And it makes me sad because the person inside of me is so in love with life -- I notice every bird, every flower, every smile, music lights my world up, I love dance, I love serving others. And I feel like my light is being snuffed out by my condition and my nervous system dysregulation.

Any advice appreciated. Thank you <3

Accidently came in contact with a spiritual vampire (over the internet) that is determined to drain me over the last few days. It's getting tiring, ngl.

Have salt, some shungite (works but makes me feel weird), however my OCD makes it hard to deal with it.

Also, I have difficulty threading the line between not attacking back and not rolling over. Even me writing this sentence triggered (maybe (?)) a counterattack, it's so hard to tell with OCD.

I obviously don't want to break rule two, and think I have gained some karma from this experience which I don't want to be doing.

Some part of it seems to be directed influence, as when I maintain an energy-shell egg, my thought patterns change. Still, I can't maintain it constantly and there have been a few dozen openings which led to attempted (and maybe successful) drainings.

I have searched this sub for ideas over the last day, and some of it is helpful, but it's still not really letting up.

Don't want to spend my day fending off spiritual attacks.

Hello, I use machine translation I apologize for any mistakes I need an explanation maybe someone understands my experience or has gone through something similar, I practiced semen retention for 6 months and in the fifth and sixth month I noticed that I started to isolate myself from people after that I practiced exercises called TRE my whole body trembled that day because of those exercises and after the trembling I felt anxious and afraid and the matter got worse as the days passed my body started to tremble and forced me to twist and do certain movements and my fear increased and I thought that it would not stop and my nervous system was damaged a lot and what I meant is suicidal thoughts and my mind never stops thinking extreme terror detachment from reality crying then at the end of the night my nervous system spasms and my muscles tremble, as the days passed I noticed that I feel better if I talk to someone or if they sit near me or I am among people where I feel safe and calm and all that stops but when I am alone it preys on me and the symptoms return, strange things I noticed this week when I walk in the street among people I feel very happy and I feel that People are drawn to me and I feel like I understand people and I carry love for them as if I understand existence. Fear returns when I am alone in the room and it is as if I am entering another world.

Hi,

I’ve had my kundalini awakening at the beginning of 2020, following 4 years of chakrah work, deep meditation, self exploration and the likes. But right after the opening I…died…might be a symptom of kundalini awakening but also my whole world fell apart at that very moment. Since then I’ve had moment of wonders and mental health problems too, no idea if it’s related to k awakening or life stuff or what.

My point is today I feel fine and my life is more stable and balanced but I do feel very disconnected from the spiritual world and I’d like to move forward again. I don’t know if it’s part of k awakening to go through different phases but I’m finally ready to tackle it more and it probably needs to be consciously activated if it doesn’t just happen.

What are your thoughts on that? Thanks a bunch!!

Hey again community,

I’m in a weird spot and have been for many months now. Past few days I’ve had some major shifts again, so maybe I’m coming out of these many months. I’m glad that I’ve become optimistic and patient. I’m not in a rush.

I’ve realized during these years of k rising that my throat chakra has been my biggest blockage. I can understand and feel that everything physical about my body is connected and it feels like my upper shoulders to basically my ears (even eye brows, cheeks and forehead sometimes) (the neck area mainly) has been unlocking unhinging cracking popping releasing etc like crazy through this whole process. Especially these last many months. Right now I’m in a familiar pain. It doesn’t bother me as much as it has. The severity can become quite immense but I can deal with it no problem now days. I will admit frustration or wishing it was all just F***en normal already does occur. But much less than it used to. I am more optimistic and patient than I used to be. But I still have moment where I lost patience and have pessimistic thoughts.

I had posted about my dentist sending me to a specialist. I’m still waiting for that appointment. I filled out a questionnaire for the oral surgeon saying these problems started coincided with me doing breathing exercises to the extreme. Part of me is paranoid they’re ignoring me now because I said that. But the rational part of me understands how stressed our healthcare system is and it’ll likely still be months before I’m seen.

I hope everything written above is informative on my situation as I get to my question for those of you who are more experienced. I’ve read many testimonies online and a few in books about people who have undergone k rising about how teeth ache and shift and bites change as jaws change. This lines up with my experience. I’ve seen that teeth hold energy and throat chakra can be very difficult to get through. I was raised strictly and told to shut up a lot. My curiosity would annoy adults so I learned to keep my mouth shut a lot. Hide my emotions well. Not put stress on others. I don’t feel like I’ve lived my life as genuinely myself for most of it. In the years since k has started to rise I feel much more authentically me. It is easier for me to speak up. It is easier for me to do what I believe is right. I am a better communicator and it is powerful. But my throat chakra is still blocked. Many many minor things move around before major shifts happen and I know I’m going in the right direction. My spine is starting to feel lighter, my footsteps are quieter.

I’ve come here today to ask if this makes sense. For those with a blocked throat chakra is it reasonable to believe that it was blocked by me not allowing myself to be me? Not expressing myself properly? I’ve been around manly men a lot of my life. I’m more feminine than that. I fit in with the manly men, I look the part but I am more sensitive. And that’s okay is something I’ve learnt. I am both masculine and feminine. Are all the teeth clicking and jaw popping something (like the testimonials I’ve read) is that common for throat chakra unlocking? I’d like to know if that is fluff online bs or not. As I am experiencing it and am grasping for a better understanding in this moment. I’d appreciate any feedback and am open to answer more questions about myself if more information would help the quality of answers I receive.

Sorry for the length of this getting so long. But if you made it to the end thank you.

With continued appreciation for this space

thank you.

Hi Friends—

Firstly…just wanted to drop a bit of gratitude for this group. When the K train left the station for me it was almost exactly 10 years ago and idk if this group existed yet, but I wasn’t on Reddit and never found it. I appreciate all you do.

I posted here a few weeks ago that the K— which had been in the background for at least 5-6 years—has come back with more fervor than ever. Wanted to share an experience from today.

We had cleaning people through today for the first time since Act 2 started. And…whoa. I couldn’t even be in the house afterwards because of the offgassing chemicals/VOCs. Windows open, air purifier on, turned all of the exhaust fans in the house on. I had to go hide in the attic because I couldn’t take it.

I have NEVER expressed sensitivity to such things before. I guess it’s time to order up a bunch of “green” cleaning supplies.

Just wanted to share this unexpected twist in my road, the destination of which is unknown. But one I will attempt to travel with patience, faith—and God willing—guided by grace. And also with organic cleaning agents, apparently.

Cheers. 🙏

I’ve been blocked at lower 3 chakras since 2020 and I’ve been slowly but surely unblocking them one by one. It takes a lot of time (years) but it’s very rewarding. The most obvious consequence of unblocking these chakras for me has been the ability to control some muscles that I had no idea that could control previously.

After gaining awareness of those muscles, I noticed that I could control them in two stages:

1. Unconscious control
2. Conscious control

With unconscious control, through the use of some techniques and exercises I can make the symptoms go away as these techniques relax the muscles in question. Techniques like breathing, meditation, allowing energies instead of resisting them, yoga and stretching are some of the techniques I have used in the past.

With conscious control, I can directly gain control of these muscles and relax them at will any time.

Right now I’m in the process of unblocking my Solar Plexus Chakra and that has been quite challenging as there are a lot of muscles that run through that. I can control some of them but others are quite elusive at the moment.

Anyway, this is one way in which I wrap the idea of chakras in my head

Let me know what you think or if you have advice on what I can do to unblock them

Hi I’m new to this group and just need some advice really. I’ve experienced a lot of intensity this year due to energetic shifts. I started expressing myself more authentically, causing many friendships to fall away. Also, I’ve lost both parents, so I have no family support, and I feel pretty alone going through this process. Plus I lost my job a couple months ago. I’m currently experiencing involuntary movements, pains in my body and joints, tingling and tension. I feel so burnt out and exhausted from this that I can’t get out of bed some days and now I’m feeling depressed. I’m worried because I need to get a job to make money, but I feel I can’t even work right now. Any advice please? 🙏🏻

Did you have to suffer from strange, difficult to explain things before the kundalini awakening?

Which, let’s say, made you want to get clean?

Hello! Any particular useful media content that is reputable can be recommended? Podcasts, YouTube channels, Twitter feeds, etc?

Very hard to tell what is serious and useful media content surrounding this topic.

TIA!

Lately my practice is going good but also my libido and food appetite has increased immensely. I am trying to control both but it's like flood gate has opened? Any views on it?

Earlier I could fast... But lately it has almost became impossible.

I have kundalini syndrome. I know this is so stupid but I got it by so stupidly taking a knock off version of Ayahuaska at home by myself and felt a surge of energy in my head, whole body buzzing and feeling like I was gonna die along with the worst dread/panic/ I've ever had. That subsided as I came down from the Aya, but a couple months later I was woken up in the middle of the night with intense panic that lasted 12 hours, felt like my head was getting squeezed. Slowly but surely I got these panic attacks under control for 4 years, only happening occasionally under bad stress, until recently. I went to a Breathwork class where I was told to do circultbreathing for 50 min straight for "trauma release". I told the teacher I had "panic disorder" and she said if it comes up just keep breathing. I did that. When I got up after the 50min my eyes were dotting, I was trembling and had a panic attack. It's been 1 month now and I'm still dizzy, feeling spaced out and worst of all the traumatic emotions are back on a daily basis. If anyone knows how to calm down Kundalini energy please help.

So originally I was flowing all my kundalini out through the top of the head, (after my crown chakra blow out, this became organic for me) once I became acquainted with the sub, another frequenter to this space and I were discussing flow. He brought to my attention the caveat that this space suggests k should always flow out through the hands, I was reluctant to switch as I felt secure in what was happening within me, but after several discussions I switched to flowing out the hands.

After a few challenging months I ended up reaching out to Genevieve Paulson about a week or so back, having forgotten I made this switch, it ended up coming up in our discourse and she suggested that although it’s a good practice to flow out through the hands, one should always flow out through the top of the head, let the kundalini mingle with the divine energy, and come back in to the energy body. I switched back to this, and I have felt stronger and more energetically secure since.

My friend who still flows through the hands and I were reflecting on this. I know different folk can have different energetic experiences. We know that mind centered masculines have come up in regard to this topic coming up in the sub in the past. And so we postulated perhaps the hand flow could be better for him because of that and the head flow could be better for me because of my feminine nature, or possibly other reasons.

So I wanted to bring this here to this space and ask for some speculation on why we have different responses to different kundalini flows.

I definitely agree that learning to discharge excess energy out the hands was a beneficial practice, but now that I’ve switched back to head flow I feel so much more balanced and relaxed. It likely would have benefited me if I was aware of the hand flow practice before my head exploded and sent me all the way out, 😀. So again, I definitely see the value of it as a practice. Just wondering why it feels like I experienced an adverse effect from it over time that made me feel kind of drained, and weak. While others seem to feel stronger, and more grounded.

Thank you.

Hello everyone!

Finally after long searching about what I am experiencing the last few months.

Whenever I relax my right hand it preforms different types of healing Mudras.

When I write down the alphabet and take a pen, I can ask questions and my hand points out letters that represents words and then sentences.

It even has a name.

Anyone experienced something similar?

Thank you! 🙏🏼

sometimes i have a tingling sensation that goes from the base of my spine and travels up to the back of my head

sometimes it makes me shiver like when you catch a cold draft

and another thing , when i lay in bed especially face up if i imagine that im in an empty space or try to fly , my body contracts fast for a second

Hello, I have messaged my teacher regarding this but I decided to post on here as well. During practice this month I have been experiencing extreme fatigue and nausea during practice. Last night during practice I was interrupted by a family member and opened my eyes and was so dizzy I just laid down. The spins did not go away for two hours eventually leading my to drift off to sleep to relieve the feeling. I come to ask if this a sensation to push through or if this is a side of something else.

Has anyone here been assigned any missions? Unexplainable things you have to do that are guided by signs? It's like the ultimate murder-mystery / escape-room challenge. It kinda tracks with the Campbells heroes journey. Anyone???

Next: for all you spontaneous head-exploded ones, do you think it was Phowa (pho-ba)...spiritual suicide????

Last: what are we talking about here exactly? Tantra/Tibetan Buddhism? Yoga? Shamanism? Zen? Huna?

I know there is a lot of caution surrounding the awakening of Kundalini. I suspect most of it stems from the potential Kundalini psychosis, which I don't doubt exists.

The caveat I want to address is whether, long term, a Kundalini awakening can ever be a bad thing for someone.

Perhaps it is due to my beliefs that I question this. To me, Kundalini is Shakti and the Goddess Bhairavi.

If the Divine Mother, in her wisdom, has decided to awaken, surely it is for the best - even if it is horrid for the person short term.

I myself have experienced psychosis - as the mods may know - and feel that if it was a consequence of Kundalini, it must have been necessary in the Divine Mother's judgement. (Please see a psychiatrist if this happens to you and take the medication).

Much like a dark night of the soul, described within a more usual spiritual awakening, there are periods of intense purification and suffering. Surely it would be ludicrous to say your soul has made a mistake in your awakening due to the pain you endure. That would be claiming to know better on a mental level than your soul, higher self, guides or what have you.

It would be even more brazen to claim that mother Kundalini has misjudged the situation and made a mistake in awakening.

Perhaps all of that was strongly worded and I'm curious how other people might feel about this. Caution is the rule here, I know, and I'm open to a bit of discussion on this topic. My point, more concisely, is that Kundalini must arise for the good long term even if a person is unprepared and or suffers in the short term.

Thank you for reading and let me know your thoughts.

Hello everyone, I have read both of the recommended Richard Bach books but don’t understand their relevance to the topic.

I have skimmed around the Lewis Paulson, Kason, and Morris books and those at least talk about the topic.

I have also read the wiki.

So, more concretely, my questions are: what exactly is referred to as kundalini in this sub and how does it relate to the Richard Bach books?

It seems to me, and I have dabbled in chaos magick and other more widely and deeply rooted cultural sort of magick, that kundalini is used here as an emergence of magical power which we must then tend and take care of how we use it. And I say use it because I’ve read here several times that we can “use” this energy.

I don’t know if I’m making myself clear but I want to leave the question and my understanding sort of broad because I’m not exactly sure what kundalini is.

This happened last night. Is this what they call a Kundalini rising?

I usually meditate in bed before sleeping. Most of the time I do Active Imagination where I have conversations with my higher self.

Yesterday, I went in with a problem. I have been going through a 2-month plateau in my life -- lethargy, unmotivated to work harder, I just feel flat. Not feeling low or high, just flat.

So I asked my higher self for guidance. He told me to just breathe and relax and not focus on anything.

First, I had a series of thoughts about the problems and challenges in my life. I acknowledged those thoughts, and I felt calm that all of them would be taken care of.

After a bit, I felt a blissful stage. I didn't think much, but I experienced a sense of bliss all over my body. I have had this part before whenever I do this type of meditation.

Then I noticed something that I had never experienced. I felt a release, a tingling sensation from my lower back to my arms and then my fingers. It was not intense. But the right amount. It was kinda orgasmic but not intense. This repeated itself so many times.

In the past, I have had a NEO (non-ejaculatory orgasm) once. I felt that up my spine and then my brain. But last night was different.

The sensation did not necessarily go up my spine or brain; just other body parts. It was blissful and amazing, and I did not want it to stop.

At one point, I felt the urge to pee. So I had to stop to go to the washroom to pee. I felt like I had woken up from a trance. My body was heavy and tired. And peeing made it better. Then I went back to bed. And after that, I slept.

This morning, I woke up with a slight headache. Perhaps it was because of all this release, but it was not a major headache that I couldn't function. Is this a Kundalini energy release? Or is it something else? I do feel calmer today—probably the best I've felt in weeks.

Namaskar/Hello everyone,

A month back I posted about the experiences that i was having Last post After that I had stroke attack on 3rd October in which my left side arm and face were temporarily paralysed and then i was admitted to hospital for about 5 days. Very suddenly after dinner, my left arm, face behaved very differently and my voice pitch became very different. I was not able to speak properly and in sense you can relate the whole behaviour as similar to very drunk man. again to suprise, i was not feeling any pain but kind of happiness - which i cannot describe in words

After getting admitted they did MRI and found out that 2 brain vessels are damaged. Though I regained my ability to control my left arm and face by almost 50% within 30-60 mins. Now its almost a month now i have regained control almost 95-98% of normalcy except for some sensitivity to which doctors are hopeful to get back within couple of months by looking at my progress.

To further add - I am male, 40, having diabetes + bp already. So the whole episode might be attributed to it.

The reason to say might be because I want to rule out the possibility of whatever happened because of kundalini. On tht day ( 3rd Oct ) I attended reiki sesssion which was all about teaching reiki and self healing by kundalini activtion where reiki master activated top 4 chaskras - Sahastrara/Ajna/Vishushudha and anahata by reiki diksha. Rest were supposed to happen after 21 days. The session happened in the morning and stroke after almost 10 hours. TBH, i am not thinking at going for session 2 which iw kind of due this month as i am bit scared

Another reason for me to get scared is whatsoever i was experiencing in last post, head twinkling and noises, slowly I am getting them back. though they are not as string as earlier but still i am confused and worried. I checked with Nuro-Physician but they didnt suspect anything. May be I will check again with them after a month or so but till that time not sure what to do - just be observer ?

This morning I believe I may have accidentally triggered a Kundalini awakening... I'm not positive but I believe this may be what's happening.

To give some context, I awoke from a dream and as I was doing so, for whatever reason I found myself visualizing energy moving back and forth across my third eye. I'm not positive as to whether I was fully awake of perhaps just had a false awakening and was on the astral.

One way or another, however, I continued doing this until a phone screen appeared in front of my vision, as if it were a dream or an astral projection, except there was nothing in front of me besides the phone and a void of darkness. On the phone screen it read something along the lines of, "Kundalini Experience: Are you ready?" And I said what the heck, and pressed yes.

Afterwards there were a whole bunch of settings I could manipulate on the phone. I don't remember most of them, besides one about spiritual defense (a number between 1-11 iirc), one asking about my intentions (which I didn't really get enough time to read), and one about "update frequency" (which had a time value connected to it).

I wasn't sure if this was a legitimate kundalini awakening happening or not, until I woke up and felt intense energy flowing through my body, which seemed to be stemming from around my tailbone area (which is exactly how I've heard kundalini awakening described).

Has anyone seen this "settings menu" before? Because I am interested to know if this is something I can go back to and modify later or if the answers that I was rushed through are now set in stone. Particularly, where it said to enter a defense level I wanted to set it a bit higher (like 6 or 7 at least). But then I guess I ran out of time or something, and it reset back down to 1. Also I would have like to have been given a bit more time to answer on the "intention" bit as I didn't really get enough time to understand what my options where.

Furthermore, was this even a real kundalini awakening, or is this just some weird thing I experienced? And is there anything I should make sure to do now that this has happened?

Thank you all in advance for any answers you may be able to give on this.

Imitation Can Be flattery Until it Goes Beyond Into plagiarism.

Hello all.

I share this with a respectful attitude and without prejudice.

This sub stands as an unusual bulwark of ideas on Kundalini on the web.

Eleven years ago, warnings about Kundalini were non-existent. Today, people arriving at the sub complain that all they are encountering on the web are warnings.

I knew that there was an imbalance, a general oopsie style ignorance caused in part by the dead fellow I call out so often. KYYB.

He had a major role to play in the present information disarray to do with Kundalini, even though he's been dead 20 years. Between his bullshitting and mystery-talk, his followers just filled in the spaces with fluff.

He also make Kundalini as a topic become popular, which was probably never a great idea. Yet, the cat's out of of the bag now, and adapting seems to be the wiser course.

We, and certainly I, take Kundalini just a few slight tads more seriously than most, and hold people sharing ideas or doing things more accountable and what I would consider, more appropriately-responsible for something as consequential as Kundalini.

The hard part about Kundalini is you cannot tell the whole truth for risk of being called crazy, or worse, and then the spoken warnings lack some context and go underestimated because of it. There's no helping that. Some things just cannot be said.

Having the courage to speak on things others balk at or avoid means we get noticed (For good and bad), and copied.

While some copying is just fine, and influences are going to be a normal part of things, which I do take some satisfaction in, there are limits.

I have started seeing signs of this sub's influence in many places, too numerous to count. Even some of the KYYB related wwebsites, some have borrowed ways of saying things from here in their attempts to hide their heritage. That I don't smile so much about.

There are times attributing is tough. There's the Japanese zen story about the farmer and good luck, bad luck. That's a translation of what I think is a traditional or common zen teaching story to help guide equanimity. I don't know who originally came up with it.

In sharing ideas, I often state things like Denis used to say, or I quote from Richard Bach's books, which in some cases is almost but not quite the same as quoting from Denis. I often borrow ideas from Dan Millman. I speak of ideas from the book The Sword of no Sword on a less common basis. I speak often about the fine contents of the book by Genevieve Lewis Paulson that I prefer, with three or four caveats. And it takes the sub community to help me remember what those are! (Funny!!)

Often I share ideas that are my own conclusions from my own life experiences, and from my own dealings with Kundalini.

Reddit does consider our submitted words as copyrighted by the person doing the submitting (or other) if they are original materials.

When that other sub was being attacked, (I was told that Interpol were involved, doxxing, death threat phone calls at home, psychic attacks, etc) all of the mods from /r/kundalini bent over backwards without reservations at 2AM to assist the other sub in any way we could.

While researching a person' post history recently when they asked in the sub, I noticed the words of someone we banned after a long struggle to get compliance and respect for our rules, which failed. He then started his own sub or continued another sub - something which reddit permits, even encourages - yet I've come to notice, (and others have told me) that he has been too often and too routinely been using my own phrases and ways of stating things without any attribution whatsoever.

Well, screw that, I thought.

So I offered a report to reddit very unsure about the result, using the term impersonation. I explained well enough to have the reddit Anti-Evil Operations Team understand what I was getting at.

Yet I pointed towards zero specifics. I kept it vague.

Often, reddit reports are dealt with in mere hours. (Maybe a day or three. A day longer during big holidays.) It's been quicker with new AI tools.

Two full weeks later, meaning or inferring that they looked closely and deeply, reddit replied that the person in question received a temporary ban. Yikes. If reddit chose that route, likely the problem was found to be vaster than even I bothered digging for.

That's a start.

I extend my respectful gratitude to reddit's Anti-Evil Operations team members. Reddit resists being capitalised, but the AEO team deserves our respect for the job they do. They have mine.

If people are going to ride on my coat-tails, I want at least some of the credit, of find your own ideas and lingo to describe things.

Reddit has continued to improve in many ways, with a few hiccups that didn't really affect us.

You people (The 42K subscribers plus lurkers) come first, to us, not reddit politics.

As to our neighbourhood sub who too often borrows ideas from this one, I suggest that you learn to be more honest.

Many of the people there were removed from /r/kundalini with causes, and they are an active bunch yet decent answers are, well, questionable, and rare.

/r/kundalini remains one of the world's top go-to places for answers on Kundalini, and for more immediate and personalised help with less trolling and less shitposting than just about anywhere. Or at least, that's what people have been saying to me and my fellow mods for years. We have haters too, which is fine. They're a part of the balance.

Not everyone has access to nor can afford a medical professional. We cannot offer medical advice. We can offer spiritual advice on our topic at hand. What is shared here is of value, even if it is shared freely.

This sub works so well because of a solid team of moderators and a fine community of generous and helpful regulars. One regular was so generous recently that he was willing to get banned over trying to get his point across. That's a pretty admirable spirit. Yet we value his input, so he averted a ban. He's also way better than me at being concise!

Peculiarly, this week a one year old post reply was reported for impersonation. It was a listing of sub rules. People are strange, some days. It's the new Wild West... the WWW. Some people aren't any smarter than the saddle on their horse!

My continued thanks to all the regulars who offer quality answers, and to the mods who both answer, and moderate. It's a thankless effort that does bring learning.

Some regulars, in past years, got warnings to not just repeat my own words. They only needed one warning, and have since found their own way of saying things, their own voice that isn't just repeating Marc's words. That means they're working out how to get ideas across from their own life experience. Inspired, influenced, yet not imitating. I smile at this.

This sub wouldn't work without questions, without people willing to offer answers, and for the regulars to inspire corrections in thinking, in asking better questions, etc. It's all terrific.

Thank you to all for this community. Keep up the good work.

Marc

Does everyone have popcorn for today? Shhhh.

It's been 11 years since it happened, a long intense journey. I traveled to the void last year this time of season. I'm searching for those who can identify. Cancer born in late June of 1983.

Hi everyone! Just after peoples thoughts on a few things! As a child I suffered an injury to my lower spine as a result of a fall. Shortly after I experienced a recurring dream that went on for several years and now, at 52, I can still remember very clearly. I also began suffering from migraines that carried on until my first and only pregnancy at 38. None since! I had an episode of what was believed at the time to be meningitis at 17 but turned out as unexplainable after a lumbar puncture! Blinding headache, loss of bodily control, rolling eyes, very scary! I have had a chaotic life, addictions, traumas but have come out the other side thankfully :) Now I find myself in menopause and my life seems to have become chaotic again resulting in me having therapy. My therapist says I show strong traits of ADHD, as well as emotional dysregulation and CPTSD. I am spiritual in nature, extremely empathic and sensitive and wondered if kundalini work is what I need as I don't want to medicate. I guess I'm a little apprehensive as I don't want to unleash pandoras box lol I just want some peace. I have been doing a lot of retrospective thinking, shadow work if you like so feel in a more grounded space just wondering if kundalini yoga may be appropriate. Many thanks for the opportunity to share :)

I was a normal teenager.. but between the 10th and 11th grade, I discovered chakras and Boom!..

Instant kundalini awakening, instant hyperactivity.. instant insanity!..

Im 30 now.. and deal with psychosis and some disease for 8 years... currently experiencing epsidoe triggers and I was just reflecting.. no one else is crazy with energy. Why me?...

hello,
Context: 25m, 5'6, had my awakening started VERY recently after integrating working the chakras and mantras in to my regular breathwork and meditation routine. My metabolism is incredible now, and I am always filled with energy. I always stay over hydrated than before. Getting plenty of sleep after a painful couple of weeks maintaining this state which I fixed by practicing the surrender pose. Since my childhood, I felt the left part of my body rather weaker than the right, which now feels fixed - but the left side of my body now feels stronger.
I practice yoga stretching, calisthenics extensively, walk 1-2 hours everyday and used to hit the gym regularly to work with weights until a few months ago.

The problem is, my parents and a few of my friends have started to say that I am shrinking in height? I also feel my height vacillating 1-2 inches randomly. Is this a common problem?

Diet: Almost everything, meat, veggies, eggs, rice, tea. I started eating like an animal, always hungry than before.

Questions: IS this common? shrinking in height? If so, how do I fix? What should my ideal diet be?
Should go back to the gym to work with weights during an awakening ?
PS: I don't fap/nut. All this started after a bad breakup

thank you, I love you if you are reading this , God and existence are beautiful

Any thoughts on this one?

I’ll try to be brief: about a decade ago, at 30(M), had K awaken. My psyche had been broken w grief over a baby we sent to heaven, and the K came not too long after. My practice at the time was a lot of contemplative Christian prayer (see: The Cloud of Unknowing).

Life happens. Decade later, more kids/crazy parent life, lost touch w contemplative practice. K still in the background, but not much interaction.

Last week: I went to war with a theracane against some muscle knots I’ve had in my shoulder blade for…about a decade. Coincidental to when K first showed up.

After FIVE days of working on this muscle knot, it finally released and…whoa. K is back in a BIG way.

And something new: ive picked up a new…talent. I am finding i have full knowledge of meridian lines and points on the body now.

Anybody ever have something similar? It’s been a lot of energy to deal with, all new integration, and dare I say even new sensory perception.

Wild world we live in.

Thanks 🙏

Hello kundalini community,

I have been lurking on this page for sometime now. I am posting in search of some insight into what I’m currently experiencing. I’ll give some context too, in the hope that it will paint as much of a clear picture as possible.

I was raised catholic, and from a young age, I can remember wanting to seek the Divine. I was always very interested in my own religion and also others. Fast forward to my early twenties, and I enrolled in and completed a bachelor degree with honours in Theology and Religious studies. After this, I started living a pretty standard life of a twenty-something year old (partying etc).

I then moved to the Netherlands to be with my boyfriend at the time. I was still interested in spirituality but it was very much in the background of my life and perhaps a bit superficial. In 2018, there was one very significant event that changed my life. It was traumatic and extremely emotionally and spiritually painful. As awful as this event was, it was a huge catalyst for my spiritual life. I became busy with self-help and spirituality. I have up most meat, and dabbled a little with yoga and meditation, though I made no significant practice. Looking back, I’d say I was quite often using ‘spiritual bypassing’ to avoid feeling the pain of the trauma I experienced.

I moved back to my home country during Covid and started therapy. I am also currently completed a postgrad diploma in counselling. In the last few years, my spiritual life has felt much deeper, partly due to making a consistent yoga and meditation practice. I have also recently made some big and difficult life choices that have led me to feel more at home with myself than I have in a very long time.

What has never left me in my life, is my desire to seek the Divine. I’ve never been completely sure how this looks, only that I have that desire. I learned about kundalini a few years ago, and became fascinated with it, but would often feel frightened at the idea of such a strong force, and shut down any reading of further study. I’d only occasionally read some posts in this sub.

In the last few months, I have felt a significant onset of what I thought/think is sexual energy (this has felt like a surprise as I have had no libido for almost four years, possibly due to trauma). I have also been feeling subtle rushes of bliss. Then a week ago, while partaking in a yin yoga class, I have a gradual build up of blissful energy which the developed in to bags I can only call love, which then focused strongest at my heart centre (I was actually in a heart opening pose at this point). The energy felt like it was coming in and out of my heart and was surrounding my body.

Now, if a breathe a certain way and close my eyes, I can feel that subtle bliss, this leads to me having an urge to self-massage. Last night, I felt this energy run through my body, and I have overwhelming feelings that I can’t name, and then the urge to move my arms above my head, once I did this and let the energy move, I felt settled again. These energetic experiences have had a subtlety to them, but the feelings feel intense at times.

My appetite has changed, I don’t feel as hungry as often and I don’t feel as tired. I don’t feel like I want to eat chocolate or drink much alcohol.

I am posting now because I know much of what I’m experiencing could be linked to kundalini, though it’s not the ‘BIG’ physical experience that I imagined it to be from my early readings.

I’m wondering if what I’m experiencing is just life force energy? A small part of my intuition says it could be kundalini, and I feel like I can trust and hold myself, at least where I’m at just now anyway, I actually feel pretty amazing and at peace. I feel like I can ground myself when needed, which I do pretty regularly anyway. Maybe the part of self that doubts is what drove me to post here, seeking insight. Or maybe I’m looking for clarification.

An important question I have is, if this is kundalini energy moving through me, and I continue to experience it, at what point should I seek a teacher?

Many thanks 🙏