From when I look this up it doesn't seem to mean much but thought I'd ask here. I constantly look at the clock at 18:58 and have for years.

It's a really strange feeling.

I don't know if it's just because I loathe myself so much, but I don't feel like I am connected with the body and personality I'm in.

I keep thinking "this isn't me".

Maybe I'm just that desperate to escape myself this is some strange kind of coping mechanism.

I really feel like I've lost my mind. I think I've been under so much stress for so, so long now I can't think straight any more. I'm so, so anxious and I don't know who to turn to or who to trust.

I'm flooded with advice from people, but the problem is all the advice is contradictory and it's driving me crazy. I have no idea who I can trust. I don't know what people's true intentions are, and even if they have good intentions, they might well be telling me wrong. And it doesn't help to try to talk with "experts", because even "experts" can't agree with one another.

I feel like I don't know how to communicate how much I'm suffering right now. I just hate the body and brain I'm in SO much I can't explain.

I am going back and forth trying to work out if I'm a terrible person or not and honestly I have no idea. My thoughts go at a million miles an hour.

I feel like my soul desperately wants to leave my body and my brain and to be someone else. I don't feel like a "real person". I know this is a sign of dissociation. I just feel I've spent my whole life mostly as a ghost just observing everyone else and never being able to properly participate. Like I've been watching a movie my whole life of a world I'm not really part of.

And when am aware of myself, I can't STAND being her.

I don't know how else to explain it other than I imagine it's a bit how a person who is trans might feel. Like they're in the "wrong body". I'm not trans, but I still feel like I'm in the wrong body. And the wrong mind as well. I guess it's just because I hate myself so much. But I wish it was a sign my soul was ready to leave this body soon. I really, really hate it here I don't know how to describe it.

This past week, i’ve had 2 separate instances of people having intense deja vu around me. To the point where they have each told me that it is the most intense deja vu they’ve ever experienced. The first person was an acquaintance that i’ve been trying to form a friendship with and the second person was a patient of mine at work. Both instances happened when I was meeting them for the first time and they both occurred during one-on-one conversations with each.

Is there a significant meaning for why this could be happening?

I’m on a journey of leaning to feel again, learning again who I am and what I want. I learned that this was something I gave up on as a child to feel accepted and safe in my family. BUT since Im feeling more I’ve also be seeing more. Especially after kind of spiritual turning point, like embracing my soul again, I get really nasty dreams. Like a spirit standing next to my bed, looking at me, one on my bed trying to get me. In real life it more subtle like seeing colors when meditating or thinking. I’m confused about the meaning of this (also Im one of a vanished triplet and I’ve always been extremely scared in dark places, but since I became a walking head I did not dream and did not feel frightened anymore)… can some explain what this is and how to deal with it?

Is it possible to channel other human beings and have their essence inside your body? I feel like I become the person I’m channeling and we communicate mind to mind. My body will become their body and mirror their body language. I’ll talk to them and feel their facial reactions I don’t know if I’m just disassociating though??? Let me know if it’s possible

Hi Guys, I am curious to learn more about everyone experience with manifesting and there struggles. I am new to this but want to learn more. I am trying it out but doesn't seem to be working. So I am curious to know if anyone else is struggling and what are some of the challenges you are facing with it.

I am an introvert who desires to make friendships and connections with people, but at the same time I do not feel like I am trying enough to get myself out there.

I have coworkers who I have tried to become friends with but it never seems that they want to reciprocate; we chat at work but no one wants to talk to me outside of it. I can’t say that I have any friends, only acquaintances (mainly from work). Am I destined to never truly have a close/best friend?

Is this a path that I may have chosen for myself? Are there reasons for social isolation on a spiritual level? Is there anybody here who has had this same experience or similar?

Just feeling lonely and would like some input or advice please.

I don’t identify as Christian or religious, but there’s a moment in the teachings of Jesus that resonates with me. After his divine manifestation on the mountain, he said something like, "You are all thinking human thoughts; at what point will you seek the divine that you truly yearn for?" This idea has lingered in my mind. As I fully let go of attachment, I began to understand why the divine won’t and can’t intervene in the status quo of humanity’s suffering.

Many people often wonder why divine intervention doesn’t come when we need it most. The truth is, if a divine force were actively disrupting our lives, it would impede on others free will and autonomy in the world. However, it also seems that alleviating suffering caused by our own choices isn’t part of our soul contracts. This lack of intervention is crucial; if divine help were always available, it could lead to soul co-dependency on the beings guiding humanities evolution, preventing us from experiencing the growth we need. So in theory if there was an external force outside of humanity that only divine intervention can stop then you'd have yourself a divine problem worth solving.

I can’t comment on your life since I don’t know you, but I encourage you to reflect on your own suffering. When you truly ask yourself whether the pain you’re experiencing is divine or simply the unfortunate result of human actions driven by other people's agendas and goals, what do you find? Do you feel as if the problems you face are divinely orchestrated, or are they just the complex realities we navigate as human beings?

A format like a podcast/channel/talk show... you ask them what they think is going on "outside" of this material world - is there a spiritual "framework" that is running, a "game" that is being played, ...? You ask about a lot of specific details about their model.

You also sprinkle in some probing questions as well... maybe one thing doesn't quite make sense to you, or you want to understand any experience that led them to that conclusion.

You could compile all the results throughout the lifetime of the show and build your own theory.

Curious... would this pique anybody's interest??

I keep seeing the time 12:34 and it's always in the afternoon but what has me curious is that I could be doing something and not thinking about checking the clock but as soon as I check the time it's 12:34... It's happened so frequently over the years I started to wonder if it's a sign. Does anyone know what that time or the numbers means?

Sitting passenger seat A black cat crosses the road from right to left infront of me n my coworker going 50 down a long road in the middle of nowhere (Farm lands of ND) ON HALLOWEEN we slowed down and didn’t hit it but I’m pretty superstitious so I’m wondering?? Plz help

When I was younger I used to smoke weed to destress, it got me into spirituality. I would get high and feel so at peace and calm. One time in particular, I was sitting straight up in a chair and closed my eyes. I saw almost a birds eye view of my spine connecting all the way up to my eyes, just surrounded in darkness. It was me. I was sitting in this chair, my body completely relaxed, and I felt so incredibly aware of my body and how alive I was. I don’t smoke weed anymore, my anxiety is really bad and I don’t have those fun experiences anymore. But that experience gave the expression “your eyes are the windows to your soul” a lot of context for me!

Hi all, looking to get some insight on how to handle this situation.

I (24 F) live with my son (3 M) and Fiancee (23 F). I consider myself spiritual and use the term “pagan” to describe myself. I have an altar in my home, celebrate sabbats, etc.

Since the beginning of October, my son has been telling me there are “monsters” in his room at night. At first, I told him he was safe and nothing was going to hurt him, there are no monsters, etc. — I assumed he was just scared because of all the Halloween decorations that we see in stores, in peoples yards, etc. But after a week of this, I asked him one night “what do these monster look like, bud?” He told me “they’re real ones mom! Real ones. They’re babies. There’s two of them!” I told him he was safe and that he has an evil eye on his doorknob to protect him. At first, that seemed to hold his concern about monsters at bay. But then, one morning, my son told me he didn’t like having a mirror in his room and that he wanted the mirror taken out of his room (his closet doors are mirrors). He continued telling me there were babies at night that wanted to sleep in his bed and play with him. I started cleansing our home more and put selenite and black tourmaline in his room.

Last night (October 30th) my son was out of control before bedtime. Screaming, hitting, throwing things at me, etc. I told him he needed to calm his body down, and he took ten minutes to himself in his room. When I went to check on him, he was lying very still in his bed. I asked if he was okay, and told him I was there to give him cuddles and say goodnight. My son told me “the babies are back. They want me to touch them. They’re in the walls. Sometimes they go outside and play. They’re silly!” (His bedroom has its own glass door that goes to the backyard, which I keep locked with a child lock). He said something about a rainbow, so I asked him if the babies look like rainbows. I had two miscarriages before my son, so I started to wonder if he was seeing the spirits of the babies I lost. Immediately my son became very insistent: “No no no! The babies are black mom! They’re all black, they’re black!” And then he got very quiet. After a moment he said “something is very wrong in here.”

My son DOES NOT talk like this. Yes he speaks sentences, but the steady stream of information he was giving me was more descriptive than normal, and his eerily assuredness gave me goosebumps. I wasn’t asking any prompting questions other than the one about the rainbow colors.

What do I do? I think he’s seeing something in his room, for sure. I know my kid, and I can just tell something is different when he talks about this stuff. He hasn’t watched any movies with content like this.

Last night I tucked him back in bed and put the dog in his room. I also saged the whole room. In the morning (Oct. 31, today) he told me the monsters were “all better.”

As a kid, I saw shadow people (best way I can put it) and I think he’s seeing them too? How can I help protect my son? I have been cleansing, using protective crystals, but I haven’t done any sort of protection spells. I have a small tuft of his baby hair from his first haircut and was thinking about using it in some kind of spell jar.

TYIA for any advice.

TLDR: my son says he is seeing two babies in his room at night. He says they are black (as in color, not ethnicity) and that they want to sleep in his bed.

Edit 10/31 - spelling error

I discovered on my path that in order to grow and mature up, it is greatly useful to acknowledge my flaws, instead of hiding from them.

When someone tells me something that makes me feel uncomfortable, and I feel challenged in my beliefs or my comfort zone, I find it wise to reflect on why am I feeling like this instead of hiding from the discomfort.

Admitting my own weaknesses and mistakes to myself, it’s not a sign of failure, it’s a sign of growth. This is how we get stronger. It’s not by hiding in the shadows and refusing to face the truth that we get stronger, it’s by acknowledging our shortcomings, and recognizing our area for potential growth.

This is why humility is crucial on the path, because without humility, we are blinded to our own weaknesses, and without seeing those weaknesses for what they are, how is it possible to correct them?

No matter how young or old you are, or how long you’ve been on that path, I strongly recommend to adapt a humble approach if you’re serious about growing up as a human being and becoming as mature as you can be.

This is what we’re doing here, in my opinion, on the planet earth as human beings; we collectively learning the optimal way to be interact with each other and our environment.

Spirituality, mysticism, science, psychology, they are all the connected fields in one way or another.

If you think that you have it all figured out and that you have nothing left to learn, I consider this strong sign that you’re hiding something to yourself and that you would benefit from a good dose of humility.

I don’t have everything figured out, and I’m still learning every day, and I try to share valuable things that can help others and consolidate my own lessons.

In order to turn weaknesses into strengths and obstacles into stepping stones, it is necessary to face them head on and acknowledge them. Don’t be afraid to face the truth because the truth is The Way.

I often hear the spiritual community say that love is the big thing in the universe. The universe was/is built on love. The universe is love, we are love. All things are love. So on and so forth.

But I want to understand why is love this huge thing? What does it even mean. Isnt love just another human conception? What makes it any more important than say hate, envy? Why is love superior or better? Don’t we as humans just attach meanings of bad, good, negative, positive to these things.

What makes you think that the universe is built on anything? Maybe the universe just is, maybe it’s beyond all human understanding. Maybe the universe isn’t concerned about love, about hate, about good or bad.

Life can be about answers or questions. It seems like maintaining curiosity is important to happiness and mental health. What are some big questions which keep you inspired ? Please nothing about how you ask yourself like why is the world so sad, that’s not curiosity but a thinly veiled rant.

God created us on Earth to forge our own superiority. He bestowed upon us nobility through work, pleasure through sacrifice, wisdom through failure, and ecstasy through conquering the impossible. Only our souls possess the power to create the best in the universe by cultivating the best within ourselves. When the body is exhausted, the Creator grants us His paradise in His heavens, where we attain the finest without toil. Deprivation rightfully deserves all who denied their destiny in destruction—destruction for the sake of the best, no matter how far-fetched it may seem.

Our destruction for the best is our destiny and our happiness, no matter how much we deny it. Souls are subdued to attain security, hearts tremble from losing the familiar, minds accept humiliation to deserve the luxury of comfort and bliss. In that moment, denial manifests, causing the soul to stray from destiny, and happiness departs without hope or expectation. The soul is left with only the question: "Why all this hardship?" and the universe screams: "You have degraded, dear human."

No matter how varied humanity’s paths may be, one must remember well that there is no merit in a person who has created their superiority with bare hands, possessed their dreams, and mastered the impossible. Do not see them as great in my eyes, nor does my mind perceive them as marvels. There is no merit in a human being merely because he proved that he is human.

I’ve been thinking a lot about confidence and what makes a person feel confident, or what confidence even means to different people. I’d love perspectives on if you feel like you’re a confident person or not/how you’ve gained confidence or what you do to feel confident/what confidence means to you?

Today my intention was to let it go. Let go of the things I cannot control. Accept what is for me will find me. Today I chose to love myself, and reiterate that I deserve love. I choose to live freely, feel light within. I choose to feel beautiful.

Who else experiences those powerful goosebumps from their guides? That tingly energy starting at your neck and moving down your arms.

Whether you’re thinking about something significant or offering spiritual services, these goosebumps can serve as a guide themselves: a yes or no answer from your higher self or spirit guides. The stronger the intensity, the clearer the affirmation. Sometimes, guides even extend this energy to others around you, allowing them to feel the truth in the message as well.

Those gooseboomps are also used by spirits in all forms, for example when walking in a house what is possessed. A death family member who want to answer all the questions for their relatives. With a 100% accuracy, because a lot of people will ask you trick questions.

Just wondering if there are more with this gift.

Waking dream or vision

I used to be an early bird. I’d be up at 4 am, willingly all my adult life. I’d also wake up at 6 am to watch morning cartoons as a child. I used to just fall asleep, sleep through the night without bathroom breaks and typically wake up in the same position fell asleep in. I was a good sleeper and an even better dreamer. I’d have reoccurring dreams that would pick up again months later like a new season of a TV series. I had flying dreams. I could recall my dreams hours and days later. My dreaming ability was so heightened I could start to smell the things in my dream worlds. Dreaming was my favorite pastime!

Since my mild infection covid infection early 2024, I’ve been having a lot of difficulty sleeping due to long Covid. I get about an 4 hours of sleep every night if I am lucky. I just toss and turn most of the night. It doesn’t really feel like I am sleeping at all. I wake up so tired and disoriented. I stay that way most of my day until it’s time for bed and suddenly I am wide awake.

I started taking melatonin to help. In the past I’ve used it and it would TKO me really fast. Now 5mg does nothing so I doubled the dose and still nothing. I feel fairly relaxed but I never go into deep sleep. Ive considered upping the dosage to 15mg but I understand it could be dangerous so I haven’t. I’ve tried different relaxation techniques but my attention span is very limited due to LC so it is to no avail. I will start taking magnesium to continue my proactive recovery. Since the infection, I also lost my ability to dream for about 9 mos. It’s not until a month ago I’ve started dreaming again, vividly. Slowly I am able to remember my dreams which is comforting to know that my brain might be repairing the damages from Covid.

Thanks for reading this far. The point of my post is that I saw something in my waking world that can only be described as a mandala. Except there was no symmetry. There were maroon outlines that were softly lit faces and parts of animals, notably: a North American lynx, horses, birds of prey talons, feathers, owls, wolves and bucks(deer). These images rotated fairly quickly but not fast enough to not see them distinctively. I looked towards my pillow in the dark and I could see the mandala but if I closed my eyes it would go away. I opened my eyes and I could see it again. I did this a few times and shook my head to make sure was awake...after I realized it wasn’t going away I just closed my eyes and attempted to sleep again. I woke up early at 4 am to because I couldn’t really sleep. When my partner woke at 5 am, I told her about it. I started to feel strange while describing it and that feeling is coming back to me as I type this—It’s a fuzzy feeling behind my head.

If anyone has any insights or interpretations that would be great! Thanks for reading and Happy Halloween!

Just curious if anyone has heard of the watcher on the moon. She of the dark/ the red angel. If not thanks anyways ☮️

So today I decided to wear all black, me and my friend we were supposed to go to the library. I came and picked him up and he was wearing black too( black shirt, white pants) while we where out in the streets I noticed a lot of ppl wearing black too. And we are just in the middle of the day… Any ideas of what it can possibly means ? Thanks.

This is open for interpretation and question. What your reading is a true recollection of a few of the events and there were always 1 to 2 witness.

In march I met a soul named Emily and explored our connection. Things to note from my acceptance of Emily into my life was the number 13 7 times found in relations to people and direct events involving Emily and the sky with like 4 clouds in the sky made the sound of crashing thunder sounding as if the world has split setting off every car alarm for miles. Through this i found love, a strong curiosity for understanding. Through it I received what some around me have explained as divine understanding, but Emily says is innate knowledge granted to me by my spark and souls contract I agreed to (eons ago apparently).

I received understanding on plato, sacrates, aristotle and many more teachers through spiritual connection and understanding. I never stepped in a school to study or a church to worship. In fact, following these events was the first time I seeked spiritualism at a church and I was disapointed and appalled by the massages laced in dogma and dictrine.

But it continues, and I will answer questions about any aspect of my journey in the comments. I'm currently receiving visions of a future in which I am sharing the message of the divine and my life Is taken in the name of God by a bystander. I know what im being asked to do... What is your thoughts? Emily claims to be the divine aspect of sophia and that she came back for me. Apparently my post isnt open to comment on. Feel free to dm me

I have a mother wound I am healing from but I feel conflicted. My mother still speaks to the man who abused my sister, my mother still gets testy when I ask for things but she’s nice some of the times and she’s trying to be a better person but I don’t think I have the patience to try the manifestation with love by not accepting what you see in front of you, I don’t know how to stay detached so I think I should just avoid her. I feel like I should be over this by now and I recently had a tooth pulled and I think that tooth symbolizes my mother. The tooth 🦷 was open and it hurt sometimes but at other times it was fine as long as I didn’t apply pressure to it. That’s exactly how my mom is. She’s fine as long as I don’t require her loyalty and consistency. I’m tired of this game. Just like the tooth 🦷 it’s very painful to choose myself and detach and avoid but I’m going to have to. I will not live like this anymore

I see the numbers 616 everywhere when someone is up or about to go down. There’s no real post here i just wanted to say thankyou angels, universe and the good vibes for looking out for me ☺️

My mum died November 4th 2023. And today is obviously Halloween so I don’t know if it’s just due to the closeness of the anniversary or if it’s because as I’ve heard from people “the vail is thinner” or something today. I’m not really sure what I believe in but I’m also getting this feeling a really strong feeling that my mum is truly hanging around. I just have this unexplainable feeling that my mum isn’t moving on. Her death was suddenish and I know she didn’t want to die. Someone on a different subreddit suggested I have a dinner with her and talk to her. I want to try that too but I’m so not experienced in anything and I don’t want to do anything that could be potentially stupid and dangerous. She keeps appearing in my dreams not knowing she’s died. Maybe I’m just missing her but I still don’t think she’s moved on and I’m not willing to even chance that. Im thinking maybe some religious person or something. Man I don’t know what to do about it.

Notice how we don't realise the value of something before we've lost it or struggled with it ? Like I didn't know the value of joint health before hurting my knee. Maybe the spirits above us wants us to lose everything (except life) to realise the value of love, health, etc... so we can become better humans.

*NSFW- Drugs mentioned

When I forage in the forest I like to leave offerings. I know it’s best to leave offerings related to Natives that were living in the area. Also things that already come from nature that are non invasive or even cute little shrines made from sticks and stones.

What is your opinion and the history on providing psilocybin mushrooms and marijuana as an offering? Whether it be to the forest or people.

Typically some people relate these substances to negative spirits related to addiction, but they do come from Mother Earth. I just want to be mindful and respectful of the offerings I leave.