Love being T4T

So for a long time, I avoided any kind of femininity in my presentation. I did it to control my dysphoria.

But now that I'm 7 months on T and consistently passing, I decided to switch out my plain septum barbell to a more "feminine" piece.

And let me tell you: just changing that one piece has made a crazyyyy difference in how I'm perceived. I used to get quite a bit of interest from straight women up until I changed it. Now, this week, that's mostly stopped, and I'm getting more interest from other men. I've been able to experience such a major difference bc my job is extremely social and has a casual atmosphere, so it's common for employees where I work to get hit on or casually flirted with.

At first I was worried that I wasn't passing, which is important to me bc of how bad my dysphoria has been. But I still kept getting sir'd and he/him'd, so it hit me that I'm just constantly getting clocked as gay - or at least a femboy now.

I know societal standards for guys are extremely strict, but damn. Didn't really expect a single nose piercing to have this much impact. I think maybe my body language may have gotten a bit more feminine without me realizing it too, bc I've started feeling more free to be myself, which is likely contributing to how I'm perceived now too.

I guess I'm just going to have to adjust yet again to people's perceptions of me. Bc although I am gay, people didn't used to assume that bc my voice has gotten very deep, and I kept my style masc.

Overall I'm very happy with this development tho ☺️ it's so lovely to be able to express myself how I want to without dysphoria ruining it!! And ngl, getting more interest from guys while still getting assumed to be male has been a massive confidence boost. I feel more free to explore adding some more feminine jewelry to my collection now.

stopped using make up when i began transitioning but recently have started regularly wearing make up again!

How do you cope when you feel completely wrong? I'm not doing well today

Hello! I've been thinking of starting T for a long time since I became an adult but Im having a hard time knowing exactly where to get it. I've seen stuff about the online services like Plume but I'm worried about what the total cost for it will be. I don't think I would be able to talk to my primary doctor about it since I don't "look/act like a transgender person" and it would be difficult for me to use my insurance with this.

I do have access to a Planned Parenthood in Springfield, Missouri however I don't know what the costs compare to other places. I also am unsure if they still do those services since Im unable to schedule an appointment online (would I need to call them?).

I currently have a good amount of money, however I work part time and get $900~ a month and I want to make sure I'm not paying too much when I don't need to, any advice? Thank you

EDIT: I ask here specifically because as someone who presents femininely I'm worried how that affects how seriously I get taken for needing HRT

And it’s my favourite month so I can pretend I’m a frazzled paranormal detective doing research on ghosts. Hell yeah.

More than looking for advice here, I'm looking for sympathy or people who have dealt with the same things, So I can feel like I'm not alone in this.

I've been on T since April this year, and tomorrow I finally got an appointment to opt for free treatment, and despite how excited I am, my changes are starting to show, and I thought at this point I would be close to my goal of moving out, but I'm nowhere near, so I have to take the very hard decision to stop taking testosterone, or my other option, change to gel, and hopefully changes would slow down.

I honestly feel a little stupid for starting my transition while in hiding, but it felt like I couldn't take it anymore, now the changes are stressing me out? I don't feel entirely prepared to deal with it emotionally and having to confront my identity irl.

TLTR: due to living situation I find myself having to take the decision to stop hormones.

Here's the thing: I know I pass at this point. I've been on T long enough that I pass to your average cis person. Occasionally I am still clocked, but typically it's other trans people (or queer cis people).

But I'm frequently getting a new type of response from guys who I'm assuming are straight. I wear some feminine jewelry and my face is still a bit "soft" bc I'm not on a high dose of T. So I have some definite femboy vibes, depending on what I wear a certain day. Some men immediate clock me as gay and give me "that" look (the "don't touch me or you'll infect me with Gay" look).

But frequently now I get guys who see me and are like 0_0 and act awkward. Like they don't know where to look, or they realize they've looked at me a bit too long and get embarassed.

Are these guys finding me confusing bc I'm a guy but they're attracted to me? Or is it just them not knowing how to interact with a more androgynous/fem gay guy? I'm obviously new to this kind of response and just don't know how to interpret it. I would assume that they're just bi, but I didn't know there's that many bi guys out there if that's the case.

Would like to dance with you bros^^

I get these just from this subreddit and no where else, and every time it's just "hey I saw your pic can we talk". No one does this to me anywhere else since I came out as a transman, and I want other people to be aware that these people aren't actually supporting us