2011 was a time ☹️ I had to fight for my life just to find a picture that wasn’t PikNik’d to hell. 

<div class="md"><p>2011 was a time ☹️ I had to fight for my life just to find a picture that wasn’t PikNik’d to hell. </p>
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14 - 28

12 vs 25

<div class="md"><p>curious what my golden era was 😂</p>
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15 > 16 > 17 > 19 > 20 > 21 !!!

21 - 24. Went black and upgraded my makeup 

<div class="md"><p>2 and 3 are just random photos i took</p>
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17 vs 26

17 and 23. I'd say I turned out pretty nice 

1 to 3

The first 3 are from when I was 17 and the latter are 20. I corrected my facial symmetry by fixing my sleeping position and losing face fat. I also found a slightly better hairstyle. Please lmk if you have any advice!

<div class="md"><p>The first 3 are from when I was 17 and the latter are 20. I corrected my facial symmetry by fixing my sleeping position and losing face fat. I also found a slightly better hairstyle. Please lmk if you have any advice!</p>
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17m- 20m 

11 vs 22

not married anymore, but everything happens for a reason 😕

<div class="md"><p>not married anymore, but everything happens for a reason 😕</p>
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21>26>29>30

11>13>16>17>22

13-20

I was heavily addicted to meth. I achieved a year sober on October 26th. 

<div class="md"><p>I was heavily addicted to meth. I achieved a year sober on October 26th. </p>
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08/28/23-10/20/24

27-35 after opioid addiction and prison 

Why I looks so different betwen the pics ?

13->31

11/12/12/15/17/18/20/20/21/22

my last post came across in a way that i did not intend. my photo choice was poor - in my head, i was picking photos that looked most like me, as most of what i have is filtered. but i realize people may get an idea from the kind of pictures i take, which is not accurate to why i take them.
both of these are topics i want to touch on in this post. as i’d like to share my feelings in this process, which i should have done the first time. i think i was just excited to post.
i think i have found better fitting pictures, so i apologize to anyone who i might’ve offended. i’d like to emphasize that i’m not promoting anything… i just wanted to share my change, i guess. to me, it is more than visual. 
i have never liked myself. for maybe a lot of reasons. i had abusive parents who started me off with low self esteem and it led to more abuse as i fell into the only relationship pattern i knew from my upbringing. in my childhood, i couldn’t connect with others, and was often misconstrued as a result of my autism, so i felt like there was just something… wrong with me. that said, i didn’t take great care of myself. i was then bullied in school, on the more minor end told i was ugly, looked like a boy. and on the more serious end, told to.. in gentler terms, hurt myself, and end my life. 
my “friends” in school wrote an essay about how they hated me and emailed it to me in the middle of class. i didn’t have healthy supports. 
to me, these photos don’t say awkward tween phase. bc even starting at the age of 9, i did not want to be on this earth. 
i faced… trauma, that led me to believe people would only hurt and take advantage of me. that i had no bodily autonomy. that things of that nature were Bad and i was Bad. 
that’s … part of why the kind of photos i have taken exist. a mix of feelings. wanting control in the way people saw me. wanting to feel like these things were my choice. wanting validation. thinking that was all i was worth. i’m trying to turn it around into a more positive thing for me. accepting my body and my history and myself. it is a slow process.
that’s also why i have so few unfiltered photos. to this day, i really really struggle to look at myself. you would think i’m vain but in reality i’m trying to capture myself at one exact angle in the perfect lighting with makeup and filters so that i can look at it and try to convince myself that that is what i really look like .
it is just hard.
someone asked me last time what the wound on my arm is and it is something i did to myself on purpose. i haven’t felt like i deserve anything but bad things and i haven’t felt like i have any reason to be alive and i haven’t felt like i give anything positive to this world or really have any worth. i don’t feel beautiful. 
but i’m trying. still trying.
in the early photos i see someone who doesn’t understand why nobody likes them. who doesn’t think they can carry the pain that they have. 
in the teen photos i see someone who is close to giving up. who doesn’t believe they’ll ever make it to adulthood, so why try. even if they did, they wouldn’t be able to take care of themself. they aren’t capable.
in the later photos. well. 
i am an adult.
so
i made it that far. 
i was hurt in a lot of ways and i made a lot of bad decisions but i keep trying. 
i’ve picked up the pieces of what i broke in my life. i’ve made important choices to take steps towards a better state of mind and being. 
i see the progress in my eyes
i still feel pain and feel like giving up a lot and there have been bad times even very recently but i’ve also learned so much 
the change it more than visual. like i said. 
sometimes people look at me and jump to a lot of conclusions and i can’t stop them but people are more complicated than the boxes you put them in. 
i’m rambling. i was an ugly little sick little bug. i hated being alive and i hated everything in the world around me and i hated myself in all ways. 
i may not be a butterfly yet
but i’m finally cocooning 
and it’s gonna be a really long process for me. 
but i see that i can Do Hard Things. 
i see that i can hurt and keep going.
i am kinder to myself in a lot of ways. i stand up for myself. 
i am kinder to the world. i see beauty in the littlest things. 
and i try to be Good. even if i don’t always make the right choices.
i help people. all the time. i work with animals. i am silly and kinda chaotic and sometimes really odd but thats not a flaw thats what makes me who i am. 
y’all probably didn’t read this. i’m just sorry if i sent the wrong message.

tldr ;; this is not bait i am just proud of myself 

sorry for typos or run-ons

<div class="md"><p>11/12/12/15/17/18/20/20/21/22</p>

<p>my last post came across in a way that i did not intend. my photo choice was poor - in my head, i was picking photos that looked most like me, as most of what i have is filtered. but i realize people may get an idea from the kind of pictures i take, which is not accurate to why i take them.
both of these are topics i want to touch on in this post. as i’d like to share my feelings in this process, which i should have done the first time. i think i was just excited to post.
i think i have found better fitting pictures, so i apologize to anyone who i might’ve offended. i’d like to emphasize that i’m not promoting anything… i just wanted to share my change, i guess. to me, it is more than visual. 
i have never liked myself. for maybe a lot of reasons. i had abusive parents who started me off with low self esteem and it led to more abuse as i fell into the only relationship pattern i knew from my upbringing. in my childhood, i couldn’t connect with others, and was often misconstrued as a result of my autism, so i felt like there was just something… wrong with me. that said, i didn’t take great care of myself. i was then bullied in school, on the more minor end told i was ugly, looked like a boy. and on the more serious end, told to.. in gentler terms, hurt myself, and end my life. 
my “friends” in school wrote an essay about how they hated me and emailed it to me in the middle of class. i didn’t have healthy supports. 
to me, these photos don’t say awkward tween phase. bc even starting at the age of 9, i did not want to be on this earth. 
i faced… trauma, that led me to believe people would only hurt and take advantage of me. that i had no bodily autonomy. that things of that nature were Bad and i was Bad. 
that’s … part of why the kind of photos i have taken exist. a mix of feelings. wanting control in the way people saw me. wanting to feel like these things were my choice. wanting validation. thinking that was all i was worth. i’m trying to turn it around into a more positive thing for me. accepting my body and my history and myself. it is a slow process.
that’s also why i have so few unfiltered photos. to this day, i really really struggle to look at myself. you would think i’m vain but in reality i’m trying to capture myself at one exact angle in the perfect lighting with makeup and filters so that i can look at it and try to convince myself that that is what i really look like .
it is just hard.
someone asked me last time what the wound on my arm is and it is something i did to myself on purpose. i haven’t felt like i deserve anything but bad things and i haven’t felt like i have any reason to be alive and i haven’t felt like i give anything positive to this world or really have any worth. i don’t feel beautiful. 
but i’m trying. still trying.
in the early photos i see someone who doesn’t understand why nobody likes them. who doesn’t think they can carry the pain that they have. 
in the teen photos i see someone who is close to giving up. who doesn’t believe they’ll ever make it to adulthood, so why try. even if they did, they wouldn’t be able to take care of themself. they aren’t capable.
in the later photos. well. 
i am an adult.
so
i made it that far. 
i was hurt in a lot of ways and i made a lot of bad decisions but i keep trying. 
i’ve picked up the pieces of what i broke in my life. i’ve made important choices to take steps towards a better state of mind and being. 
i see the progress in my eyes
i still feel pain and feel like giving up a lot and there have been bad times even very recently but i’ve also learned so much 
the change it more than visual. like i said. 
sometimes people look at me and jump to a lot of conclusions and i can’t stop them but people are more complicated than the boxes you put them in. 
i’m rambling. i was an ugly little sick little bug. i hated being alive and i hated everything in the world around me and i hated myself in all ways. 
i may not be a butterfly yet
but i’m finally cocooning 
and it’s gonna be a really long process for me. 
but i see that i can Do Hard Things. 
i see that i can hurt and keep going.
i am kinder to myself in a lot of ways. i stand up for myself. 
i am kinder to the world. i see beauty in the littlest things. 
and i try to be Good. even if i don’t always make the right choices.
i help people. all the time. i work with animals. i am silly and kinda chaotic and sometimes really odd but thats not a flaw thats what makes me who i am. 
y’all probably didn’t read this. i’m just sorry if i sent the wrong message.</p>

<p>tldr ;; this is not bait i am just proud of myself </p>

<p>sorry for typos or run-ons</p>
</div>

11 - 22 trying again

20kg down in weight and started hair growth meds 5 months ago 

34-42

<div class="md"><p>Happy Halloween LOL</p>
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9 > 13 > 29

11->18->25. Gym & Therapy works y’all

I’m a recovering alcoholic and in the first pic I was drinking a fifth of whiskey a day. Starting to love sober life!

<div class="md"><p>I’m a recovering alcoholic and in the first pic I was drinking a fifth of whiskey a day. Starting to love sober life!</p>
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24 in both photos but a few months apart. Quit drinking a month ago and noticing a lot of improvements!

17–>21

15>20

I've always had body image issues and struggled with feeling extremely unattractive

<div class="md"><p>I&#39;ve always had body image issues and struggled with feeling extremely unattractive</p>
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14>19; last four pics are 18/19

17-19

For any of those wondering I can't take hormones it's illegal where I live 

<div class="md"><p>For any of those wondering I can&#39;t take hormones it&#39;s illegal where I live </p>
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Mtf genderfluid 6-16

Very insecure of my looks growing up. My brothers were always given compliments on their looks but I was always made fun of even by my father. Grew to love myself eventually. 

<div class="md"><p>Very insecure of my looks growing up. My brothers were always given compliments on their looks but I was always made fun of even by my father. Grew to love myself eventually. </p>
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12 to 41

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20kg down in weight and started hair growth meds 5 months ago

24 in both photos but a few months apart. Quit drinking a month ago and noticing a lot of improvements!

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