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I’ve been low key really not okay mentally since I saw himiko’s death on October 31st. And Allthough I didn’t know any details, I knew that she would die for like 3 months now and was dreading it to the point that it would take so much of my mental space every day. This is because I’ve never related to and felt personally connected to anyone more than Himiko. I can give details to any interested commenters, but let’s just say, besides the illegality, I relate to and have lived through so many things that are impossibly similar to what happens to Himiko. So the prospect of her meeting a “tragic end” was absolutely devastating to me and me dread watching the scene for months.

Thankfully, Allthough Himiko was a “villain.” She met a fitting and poetic end. Which was pleasant because I thought for these past months that she would die in a cruel and uncaring way since she was one of this anime’s villains. However, in the aftermath of watching this, I thankfully had my sister to really understand and comfort me through it.

But I still wanted to connect with others who felt at least similar to the way I did. But after many downvotes or just complete dis-acknowledgement on many heartfelt comments I left on subreddits like my hero academia and boku no hero academia. I just felt alone. But I thankfully found this subreddit so maybe I am not alone in these thoughts :).