HMU, let's jam

I'm a guy with BPD and HPD and I like singing songs that represent what I feel when I'm having episodes, especially if they are folk punk. But I can't find too many. They don't have to be about BPD since it's not the most common thing, but I'm looking for songs with lyrics that represent well the feeling of internal emptiness, chaotic feelings, self-hate or desperation for love and approval.

There's already a few songs on that list for me: Pigeon Pit - Nights Like These, ONSIND - Suicide Is Painful, AJJ - Love In The Time of Human Papillomavirus, Local News Legend - No Rehab!, and pretty much the entirety of Harley Poe's Lost and Losing It. I'd love to find more songs like that.

https://www.orgcore.org/post/op-ed-punk-rock-killed-itself

https://youtu.be/pUyCBAaf6SI?si=WJ2_5ZHohU37gVZR

i really hope im not making this up but i recently got back into kimya after a couple year hiatus. theres one song along the lines of like its her friends birthday and shes at the beach so she wants to have a good time but her pet turtle/tortoise just died so shes sad and buries herself in the sand and burns herself.

i cannot find this song anywhere please i need to find it again

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E_eLRXdzZM4 feels funk punkish to me. just want to see if people agree.

[https://www.sproutdistro.com/catalog/zines/accountability-consent/learning-good-consent/](link to zine)

And after Tuesday I need it more than ever I think

I.

Lost the election but we won the war

I'd wake up and pray, but I think, man what for?

If God is not deceased then I'm really the least of his-

-Prompt resignation after revelations

II.

I'm lost in this reckless abandoned motel

My dear apathy calms me and I know her well-

-Shit I've had it, give in. Give this record a spin

Seek out love from outside and find hate from within

III.

Under skin I do pierce with a dagger so fierce

Quantum inject my tears into all of my fears

But I'm here, what's the hurry?

My memories blurry

And hazy. Not crazy, but I wish they'd pay me-

IV.

-In antipsychotics

Self loathing, I've got it

A lot of it, slept on a cot a bit

I'm nodding off and I ain't even shot a bit

I'm clean as this Happy Frog is too hot. Well shit-

V.

-I just want to crawl out of this asphyxious cocoon

I am painting in caves, while I'm shooting the moon

They'll say afterwards that I was gone far too soon.

But too late by my estimates, strapped with my test kits

VI.

Reagents I play with. My soul I do pay with

Overdrawn account of this apathy

I could never live without

Saturated with doubt

Sit silent in smoke filled rooms and just pout

Like all their songs it's a banger https://open.spotify.com/track/2Bhc5cAO2mJYdF4QdDFb2z?si=jLASjpj1TN243VKBUkXpBw

i know of one show thats happened here and it was the apes show the other night - looking for more local bands or shows, all ages is most ideal :>

I barley know 'er in the sun!