Dude like I know this isn’t a big deal but all I wanted for Christmas was this cheap 20$ grey gap hoodie from my family. Like it’s so simple and plain and I love it, for the past few weeks I’ve been telling my family about this hoodie to lock it in and tell me why it just sold out when my mother was going to buy it for me 😐. Something so stupid and simple and I’m probs not gonna fricken get it. Like dude why literally why it’s so stupid, was I really asking for so much? I hope everyone who gets on burns and falls into a hole. Everything sucks rn I’m so pissed 😭

If you’ve been one of these before, why continue the lie, genuine question, are you really not able to stop lying? If you’ve been caught and been cheating, why tf keep lying especially if they have the evidence of you cheating and lying , tf I’m looking at the evidence and you CONTINUE TO LIE! Why!?

I have a friend who struggles with mental health issues, and even though I know I can’t fix him, I still get triggered by negative thoughts about him. It’s like his problems stick in my mind, even on days when he hasn’t cried or complained.

The less time I spend with him, the better I feel, but the thoughts don’t completely go away. Sometimes, the frustration builds into anger. I get so overwhelmed that I lash out by biting my fingers or a pillow, not to self-harm but just to release that pent-up frustration. On really bad days, I feel like punching something, and I’ve even punched myself because I didn’t know where else to channel the anger.

To make things worse, I’ve been on the NHS waiting list for counseling for ages with no progress, so I don’t have professional support.

Has anyone else dealt with this kind of lingering anger and frustration? How do you manage these feelings when professional help isn’t an option?

I need some help please!

Hi Everyone.

I’m 38 now and have previously been married and found that my wife was having an affair. It broke me mentally and I ended up taking about 4 years to consider dating again. I worry now that I have serious trust issues to contend with and if I will ever get over that?

I knew my partner had been acting sketchy for a while and I ended up getting a social media report online which showed she was in loads of dating websites. She eventually came clean once I showed her the report from the company I used and that was that

Is it wrong that I know look to do background checks/social media checks on everyone I start to get serious with?

I just posted a similar post in sad.

But I'm just so angry with people. Like how everyone is saying nice things about him when they either hated him or said horrible things about him or to him. Like I hate so much how people do this they all the sudden when someone dies they act like they care.

I'm upset with myself too because I never thought to check up on him or anything like the other members. And today I looked him up and saw how mean people were being on anything he posted. Even still after they found out he died.

It makes me angry how people act in social media. They see someone say something they don't like and automatically hate them forever and continue to let them how horrible they think the person is.

And like how people forget they don't know celebrities at all. Not even if you met them 100 times you don't know them. Their job is to get them to like you and be obsessed with them. So even if you think they are good people they could be the worst people in reality. And it goes the same. You see a celebrity act in bad ways online you still don't know them and don't actually know if they are as bad as they seem from online. And people's views on life change every single day. And then people continue to hate on someone because they think they are a bad person. And then they pretend like they are a better person than the person they hate. But like you are spending your time and energy to make someone hate themselves.

People can do problematic things but it doesn't make them evil. He also did a lot of good things in his life.

And honestly he needed the proper support system and help. But instead he got so much hate

And I also want us all to take the time to remeber that people online DO NOT know us either so what they say about us doesn't matter at all

And again that we do not know people from the internet so if a post makes you mad then you don't have to be cruel to them.

Also I want to remind people to let the people who you think are important to you know whether you know them in real life or not. And don't wait untill you find out from the internet they died to post how happy they made you.

My idiotic family now thinks I'm automatically evil because a company lied to me. Like I'm sorry how does this even make sense? My dad literally said "Companies are INCAPABLE of lying" and I'm just so damn pissed off that I fell for their absolute bs again. They've literally refused to blame the actual people that caused a problem just so they can yell at me and make me wish I never even existed. It's goddamn Thanksgiving and they intentionally yelled at me for something I didn't even do, and of course because they're super Christians, they REFUSE to even consider that they're wrong. I have been so mad at them my whole life, but this was the absolute last straw. If you have kids, DO. NOT. come home from Thanksgiving JUST to yell at them and make them wish they were D.E.A.D.

i was studying abroad but due to circumstances won't be graduating on time and i am angry at myself not for this (struggled with mental health) but being unable to get a post study work visa in my current country as well as returning to a life back home which was meh at best despite my legitimate criticisms of my country especially the place being a conservative third world one

also while people in countries like mine often deal with a hard immigration process ( for example had to show income proof even as a student) and know that life in a new country is difficult but the people i know still managed to get work there with the privilege to choose their future life direction or lucky enough to get permanent residency if not citizenship atleast...BUT ME? NOTHING 😔

i have been unlucky in many aspects which weren't basic needs and now scared what direction life would take me due to my past

yeah rejection is redirection but where? to poverty? misery? both? (saying this because of family history)

nothing ever happens truly...so fed up

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I'm just angry all the time for no reasons and for all the reasons. I used to throw it out earlier but I just keep it inside me and it feels like it's eating me slowly every moment. I almost get urge to do something to my self or to people who make me angry. No one wants to understand me and everyone are living their fake lives trying to outrun everyone in everything without caring enough about the human race and doing actual meaningful things. I want to hit myself until i bleed myself to death but I know that's stupidity at whole another level which in turns makes me more angry. I feel like i am a fucker who's just crying all the time but with a smiling face which does make me angry

Now these ash holes insists on trying to talk to me and assumes that I want to join whatever lame group they've formed.

I miss the days like in kindergarten where they separated me from the rest of the class. I had my own table.

In high school, they kept me in the back

Now, I'm being pestered by these turds.

Imagine trying to talk to someone from a loft from downstairs.

"Don't you want someone to talk to?" Fork off! No one wants to talk to some idiot who thought that TV seasons that were actual literal seasons.

Reposted from u/DaMafiaBoss (11/25/24)

Listen up, to everybody on Reddit.

I am sick and tired of everybody responding negatively to my comments and disliking my content all the time to diminish my points here and put me down all because I have a mental illness or just because something I say is to be taken seriously instead of an opinion.

From now on, I want to make things clear when you see this on my stuff and on any subreddit or community I'm involved in. The next time, you dislike my stuff or say negative harassing things to me in comment sections, I will report you (for harassment) and will block you indefinitely. So CUT IT OUT!

Do I make myself clear...?

Good, don't make me have to repeat myself. How would you like it if something you said positively as a good opinion would be disliked by me and you'd report me for harassment huh? You wouldn't like that huh? EXACTLY! So stop and learn how to acknowledge others for once. ONCE! Cause right now, I'm already damn near p*ssed off. So next dislike or negative response, I will keep reporting and blocking you to make sure you will never have anything bad to say to me entirety of time.

Thank you. Have a good day. Sweet riddles.

I wish I just wish I have a loving family who cares about each other instead of screaming and yelling. When I see happy family I get sad because my family isn't that close.

When my family yells get angry and screaming I feel like yelling and screaming and throwing things this has been going on for 4 years long horrible 4 years I wished I screamed instead of breaking shit I can't afford to replace it.

I broke my phone and I had to buy a new one if I break this one I can't get another because I can't afford another phone. I break things because people pisses me off. Now my life is ruined I lost all my data.

And I don't know if I will get paid for job training though voc rehab. I applied for every job nobody won't hire me and I had 5 jobs .I can't get one due to my social anxiety and lack of skills and my shyness yes I ruined my life.

Horrible 4 years no I am not okay and I won't be . Family treat me horrible, missing pet I never saw her again nobody cares lost of a mom and oldest brother alone and lonely nobody like me I can't find a job and I have nobody. Family want to fight and argue first it was my mom now she is gone it's everyone in the family when I was younger my oldest brother want to argue with everyone.

Yeah I've been told my enitre life by my parents that anger is a bad emotion, that you shouldn't get angry. Admittedly I believed them for the longest damn time, helll I'm here aren't I? well I want to say, respectfully mom and dad. Fuck you. Sorry if maybe I shouldn't say that but I'm justified aren't I? I'm a human being, I'm allowed to feel the full range of emotions, my feelings are valid, who says I don't have a right to be upset? Who says I don't have a right to be upset about you kicking me out of the house for 10 minutes? sure it was ONLY ten minutes and even when I asked you about it recently you say "that never happened" or "you're just crazy" trust me I may be allot of fucking things, but I don't make shit up like that, who says I don't have a right to be upset about that?

Who says I don't have a right to be upset in general? I mean humans are always allowed the full range of emotions, hell having that belief is what developed my addiction, because I wanted to avoid these emotions for so damn long I developed an addiction to pornography, which I know to someone reading will be absolutely ridiculous but it's what my truth, and no one else can take that away from me. Though you and I may have different beliefs, this is my godamn life, I don't want to feel superior, I just want to feel like I can experience all normal emotions like anger, and not feel shame for it, I want to be able to say "yeah, I'm angry" and not feel like you're shaming me all the damn time for it, is that so much to ask?

Imagine watching a TV show and thinking that everything that isn't related to that show is about that show only.

Imagine saying Sandy Hook never happened because the teenage characters in their stupid show is still alive.

Since when did elementary schools have teenagers? Even if they did, do you think they'll accept kleptomaniacs?

Imagine thinking there's no asian leading lady in Avatar because the leading lady in your stupid show is American.

So they're saying the medical examiner from Gotham is in the Earth Kingdom?

Oh really? Since when did I watch, Harry Potter, Lord of the rings and game of thrones? Since when was I, a pop culture enthusiast?

Also, do you like retro, grilled food and ponies? I don't think so. So how tf am I copying you? Just go screw yourself you freaking basic normie.

That's the dumbest thing I've ever heard.

Fuck you for giving me a sense of hope for a future. Giving me a false sense of love. Fuck you for making me get mentally sick and places in a hospital bed of what you did. Fuck you for making me love you. Fuck you for making me think I was special to you. False security. Fuck you for lying to me that he was just your cousin when I confronted you about him. Fuck you, Carel Illut. Fuck you to hell.

I FUCKING HATE THE WAY YOU TREATED ME I HATE THAT YOU GAVE ME THIS TRAUMATA I HATE IT SO SO SO MUCH AND YET YOU LEFT ME FOR SEX, DRUGS AND A COMMUNIST PARTY. SEX, DRUGS AND A COMMUNIST PARTY. I SHOWED YOU THAT YOU DONT NEED TO SMOKE TO BE HAPPY AND FOR A WHILE YOU WERE. YOU DIDNT UNDERSTAND WHY I WAS DISAPPOINTED WHEN AFTER MONTHS OF BEING CLEAN YOU TOOK THESE DAMN CANCER STICKS AGAIN. YOU ARENT EVEN 18 YET DUDE. AND I HATE HATE HATE THAT I SLEPT WITH YOU OKAY. I HATE THAT YOU STOLE MY FIRST EVERYTHING AND I HATE THAT YOU LOVED ME AND CARED ABOUT ME BUT NOW NOTHING MATTERS. I DONT MATTER AT ALL. ALL THE GOOD TIMES WE HAD, YOU JUST PRETEND THEY DIDNT HAPPEN. IT WAS ALMOST TWO YEARS. I LOVED YOU. I STILL DO, BUT ONLY THE OLD YOU. NOW A MONTH AFTER YOU BROKE UP WITH ME YOU ALREADY HAVE A NEW GIRLFRIEND WITH A GREAT GREAT SEX LIFE. SORRY THAT I COULD NEVER GIVE YOU WHAT YOU SEXUALLY WANTED. I BET YOU MAKE FUN OF ALL THE AWKWARD THINGS I DID DURUNG SEX. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. FUCK YOU LUIS, FUCK YOU. I ALWAYS TRIED SOLVING THE PROBLEMS, MADE PLANS AND SHARED THEM WITH YOU SO I COULD OPTIMIZE THEM. GUESS WHO NEVER EVEN ONCE THOUGHT ABOUT HOW TO SOLVE A PROBLEM. NOW THAT YOU LEFT ME, ALL THE DRUGS THAT YOU ARE TAKING ALL THE SEX TGAT YOU ARE HAVING ALL THOSE STRANGERS ALL THE PARTIES. YOU ARENT EVEN AN ADULT YET. I TRIED PROTECTING YOU SO HARD BUT NOW I DONT EVEN RECOGNIZE YOU ANYMORE. WHO ARE YOU. WHERE IS THE BOY WHO FELL IN LOVE WITH THAT AWKWARD SHY GIRL. WHERE IS THE BOY WHO TOLD ME ITS OKAY TO WAIT AND THAT HE WOULD UNDERSTAND IF I DIDNT HAVE THE STRENGTH TO VISIT HIM. WHERE IS THE BOY WHO BOUGHT ME TEA AND WHO I HAD LATE NIGHT TALKS WITH. WHERE THE FUCKING FUCK IS HE. ARE YOU EVEN EVER SOBER? WHO IS THAT NEW FUCKIG GIRL. I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU. ALMOST TWO YEARS, BUT YOU JUST DELETED THEM. I HATE YOU SO MUCH FOR DOING ALL OF THAT. I HATE YOU. I HATE THAT YOU KNOW MY DARKEST SECRETS AND I HATE THAT YOU PROBABLY LAUGH ABOUT THEM WITH YOUR NEW GIRL NOW. DONT TELL ME YOU WANNA MURDER PEOPLE BRUTALLY AND I ONLY TRUED TO MAKE YOU SEE THAT ITS STUPID OKAY YOU DIDNT BEED TO CUT YOURSELF SO DEEP BECAUSE OF THAT. I DELETED THE PICTURE, I CANT STAND LOOKING AT IT. FIRST YOU SAID FUCK YOU THEN WHEN YOU CAME FROM THE HOSPITAL YOU SAID YOU ARE RIGHT IT WAS UNFAIR AND THE NEXT MORNING YOU BROKE UP. I HATE THAT YOU DONT CARE. I HATE IT SO MUCH. I DTILL REMEMBER WHEN YOU LOVED ME. AND EVEN IF ITS GONE NOW, I HATE YOU FOR PRETENDING YOU DIDNT HAVE A GOOD TIME. HAH MAYBE YOU WOULD HAVE STAYED IF I HAD LET YOU FUCK ME. I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU. YOU ARE GOING UNDER AND WHILE I TRIED SAVING YOU, YOU ONLY MADE ME FEEL BAD TOO AND THEN LET GO. YOU DIDNT EVEN TRY. YOU NEVER ASKED IF YOU COULD VENT. I WAS FRELING HORRIBLE TOO. I WAS FEELING SO SO SO HORRIBLE. YOU DIDNT KNOW. BECAUSE ALL I DID WAS LISTEN TO YOU. TRIED GELPING YOU AND YOU BRUSHED IT OFF, NEVER ACCEPTED ANY OF IT MADE ME FEEL LIKE I ONLY MADE IT WORSE. I HATE YOU. IT DISGUSTS ME. SO YEAH, I AM ANGRY. FUCK YOU.

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There's no way this fucking shit wasn't rigged, all these "special" rules. Don't even get me started on the fucking age difference. HE IS ALMOST 60; GIVE HIM A BREAK. THE PAUL BROTHERS SUCK I never go on the internet to complain but this genuinely pisses me off so much

I moved to the US with my wife. After spending about 3k in exams cost, our cat has been diagnosed with a common fatal disease for young ones (<2 yo). Low and behold, medication cost is 6k ?! Where I'm from, the exact same medication is 900. This is so unbelievably fcked I don't even have words to express the rage I feel. Love this great country :D

I’m 15M and I’ve found myself in a tough spot with a close friend who’s struggling with severe mental health issues. He has CPTSD, depression, and social anxiety, and we’ve become close over the years. He’s the kind of kid who’s always on his own during break times, and I approached him because I wanted to be friendly. Over time, he opened up about his struggles, and now I’m the one he talks to about everything.

While I want to be there for him, it’s been overwhelming. He constantly ruminates on thoughts like, “No one likes me” or “Life is hopeless.” I try to reassure him, but these thoughts always come back. A recent example: he told me, “No one likes me,” and I responded with, “People don’t care enough about you to dislike you.” It made him feel better for a bit, but the cycle keeps repeating. He gets stuck in a negative mindset and keeps returning to the same thoughts.

When he’s feeling depressed or overthinking, I can’t just change the topic or distract him. He won’t let me; I have to address what’s on his mind, or he’ll spiral deeper into those thoughts. I’m not trying to “fix” him—because I know I can’t—but I feel like I can’t ignore him either. I feel obligated to stay by his side and support him, but it’s emotionally draining.

What makes this harder is that I’m dealing with multiple mentally ill people in my life. Here are a few examples other than my friend

• On sports day, I saw a guy running away from a crowd because he has social anxiety.
• My dad is on antidepressants and has his own struggles.
• My TikTok feed is full of people trauma-dumping or talking about their mental health problems.

It feels like everyone around me is dealing with mental illness, and I’m constantly surrounded by it. This is starting to make me feel mentally unstable, especially since I don’t know how to handle it all. I even wake up worrying about how to support my friend or others I meet who are struggling.

My friend has a therapist, but therapy isn’t really helping much. All they do in the sessions is let him vent, cry, and complain. The therapist listens, which I guess is helpful, but sometimes they just give him books to read, and it doesn’t feel like it’s enough. He’s been seeing her for a while, but he says that nothing has really changed, and even though he’s put in work to improve his social skills and stop being so socially awkward, he still feels like nothing is working.

He constantly talks about how socially awkward he is and how he doesn’t feel liked by others. He says he’s been putting in the effort, but he feels like he’s still failing. He gets really stuck in his own head and starts losing hope. He’s mentioned before that he’s given up on being able to change anything and feels like he’s hopeless. I’ve tried to reassure him, but it’s hard to see him so down when he’s been working so hard to make progress.

I’ve tried recommending resources like HealthyGamerGG and encouraging my friend to get professional help, but he doesn’t engage with these suggestions. He’s stuck in a victim mindset and doesn’t believe anything can improve. I also know that mental health resources in the UK are not great:

• Childline and Samaritans offer generic advice that doesn’t help with deeper issues.
• Kooth is understaffed and unreliable.
• Therapy waiting lists are impossibly long, and by the time you get an appointment, the problem has worsened.

At this point, I feel like I’m being forced into psychology just to cope with the number of mentally ill people I’m meeting. It’s not just about wanting to help—it’s about feeling like I have to help because nobody else will. But I don’t know how to do this without burning out.

I don’t understand why people hate on him for doing his podcast. You see the craziest shit in the comments section of the video, like people criticising him for talking about Lamar Jackson, when he’s an opponent. One dude said “this is what happens when someone who can’t string two sentences together is given a platform.”

It isn’t even something he’s really doing out of his own free time, he’s doing it for Bleacher Report. It’s part of his media commitments, and it’s fun, so why not? It’s no different to Stephen and Jerry Jones on the radio, or players going on the Rich Eisen Show. Hell even Cole Kmet has his own podcast, I don’t see anyone flaming him.

Most of sport is the engagement that comes after the game. I remember James Graham, Australian football player, he goes “people are saying we need to focus on the footy. But when do we ever focus on the footy? The off-field drama is way more interesting.“

It’s always about some contract drama or coaching drama. The reaction to the game goes MUCH longer than the game itself. You’re going to listen to at least six hours a week of interviews and podcasts and articles et cetera, when the game itself goes for three hours. The players have a huge role in that. I don’t care how you think you would feel about it; no-one would enjoy it if players “shut up and dribble”.

People hate everything now.

I'm writing this while trying to do my math homework right now. I don't want to be here in an hour struggling through my math. I don't give a FUCK about what they teach; it's never going to help me in life. What's going to help me is free time after school to manage stress and other things. I'M JUST SO FUCKING TIRED OF TESTS I DON'T UNDERSTAND, HOMEWORK, PROJECTS, AND EVERYTHING ELSE. I'D RATHER FAIL MATH THAN DO THIS HOMEWORK. I'M FED UP WITH THIS CRAP. It's hard to explain, but I'm tired of knowing I'm going home to worry over tests and homework, struggling to understand everything, etc. I'm fucking done. DONE. I want to BURN this textbook, then throw it out the window.

Not a carrier of illness (if it was I'd be in the hospital, 4 weeks of enduring his bullshit), but a pain in the ass for sure. He visits me in the night, runs around the floor and runs in terror when I see him. Somehow an animal has worse social anxiety than me. Just some random housemouse. Doesn't touch peanut butter. Barely just now getting into marshmallows. Does that mean he'll use the humane trap? No. I'm so close to just using a non-humane to go ahead and kill him because I know he'll die outside when I release him but I feel guilty taking the life of my hated mouse acquaintance. I'm not really looking for advice unless you know how to make him really intrigued by the bucket but this is the 4th time he's waltzed into my room while I sleep to just stand in random bullshit spots, have me wake, freeze and then run like he's being chased by a murderer. Also he's a total fatass of a mouse so he's an adult. He should know better than to home invade. He can't even steal my shit and sell it cause he's a mouse.

Edit: As it turns out, the fatass managed to take the marshmallow on the trap without tipping it. What the fuck? Why do I have to get literally crafty in my method of marshmallow lures? This mouse is a curse on my very essence Edit 2: I misspelled Marshmallow in my rage apparently Edit 3: 5 weeks. Five fucking weeks. Of this rip-off Tom and Jerry type bullshit where I put the fear of God into a mouse every time it tries to visit me. Like fucking... I dunno. Bon and Terry. Except my name isn't Bon. I'm extra pissed now because I feel unwell tonight (not Hanta) and there's the small chance he brought a friend. Fuuuck.

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I’ve been dealing with persistent anger issues for a while now, and it’s starting to feel unbearable. It’s especially intense when I think about a close ffriend of mine who has mental health issues and is constantly crying and complaining about shit nad never bothers to make a change. he has CPTSD, social anxiety and bit of bpd and used to have depression. he is constantly moaning and complaining and he finally started to make a change to improve his confidence and on day 3 of his confidence plan he kept moaning about how he'll be awkward awkward awkward he kept repeating that in my fucking ear awakward awkward and how he'll never be confident but he never fucking tries and he always find shit to rant about like how people dont respond positivley to whats hes saying but i've told him he needs to put in the effort to be more popular he understood that but he still fucking drives me craazy. i've set boundaries and everthing but i still get reminders of the memories. i just woke up at 6am to have an anger outburst. it triggers something in me. I get this strong urge to punch something or scream, and it makes me really anxious, almost like I can’t escape this feeling.

I’ve tried everything I can think of to manage this anger. I’ve done things like deep breathing, journaling, and even exercising. I’ve had some small successes, but nothing seems to work long-term. The anger comes back, especially when I see my friend getting upset or feeling hopeless. i'd rather have no friends then a mentally ill crying and complaining one. i've been "there for him" and he says hes grateful but that means i have to deal with him

i can't escape from this guy until hes somewhat better as i see him in many classes and he'll always find the oppurtunity. i'm gonna recommend him to see a GP to get meds as thats his last hope because he's too moanining and complaining to get confidence the hard way and didnt wanna do EMDR therapy because he said "why do i have to remember when my life was shit" even though his ptsd was from bullying and a can of £5 pepper spray can be easily used against a bully

Has anyone else dealt with something similar? How did you manage anger in a situation like this, where you care about someone but their struggles are affecting your mental health? I’d really appreciate any advice or strategies that have worked for you.

I know Gen Z didn't fucking vote, and millennials only just started, but I'm getting to the age as a millennial where I want to buy a house and afford to have children, and it's really fucking hard when the Republicans ruin the goddamn economy every time they are in power. It's an established fact. You can decide how and why, but every time a Republican takes over, the deficit skyrockets (in his first term Trump boosted it by over 7 trillion dollars, with a fucking T), and then there's a massive recession (the kind 20 years ago people referred to as once in a generation but now happens once a decade minimum because Republicans take over) because people are so fucking stupid that they actually think the Republicans are good on the economy. I want a nice stable fucking economy so I can get a nice stable life going. That is it. Is that too much to ask for? Apparently, because people buy Russian propaganda and horse shit from Elon Musk. Grow the fuck up, and stop being a bunch of fucking ingrate morons.

I used to leave music lists running while playing games but having to stop what I'm doing every 5 or so songs to nudge you awake again has gotten to be too much of a pain in the ass.

I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. The angrier I am, the angrier I get at myself for being angry. I am trying to help myself and point out how bad it is to be angry, how much damage I do when I’m angry and I can’t! My anger is winning and I hate it! I feel so lucid when I’m angry. There is no anxiety in my head when I’m angry, I know what I want and what I don’t. I don’t take shit when I’m angry. I am more confident when I’m angry. I am FULL OF POWER when I’m angry. (I’m not, but I get shit done that normally my heart won’t let me. Brain over heart). I get angry from small little things and i just flip! I hate it!!! I really don’t want to be angry but it feels soooo goood. Am I addicted to being angry? Could be. I do have an addictive personality. I hate that I love being angry!

I can't believe how conflicting this is. I rely on this website to talk about and post things I like, but there's always some shit that makes me pissed off. i want to leave but I dont want to leave.