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Long but I am trying to figure it out so you’re warned..

I (46F) am married to my husband (57M) have 2 adult children (20F, and 22M). I thought I was doing well when my (20F) graduated high school. I thought that’s it. My job there went from “Mom” to support. I did some thinking, got a different paying job, and figured everything would get easier. My husband is on SSI for a psych issue (schizophrenia). It’s well controlled with meds. My son has some type of mental issues but the doctors haven’t put a pin on what’s going on, but he has a job and is learning to adult. My daughter has life figured out and has left the nest to live her own life. I am not upset by this. She is doing well, kicking butt at life, and calls regularly. I have my own psych issues, but it doesn’t stop me. I’m just trying to figure things out. My new job is an over the road driving job. I could be gone for a day, or more up to two weeks. I own my home (or the bank does as I pay a mortgage). What I don’t understand is why can’t I get some sort of financial footing? It seems like as soon as I am close to getting caught up, something goes wrong and I am stuck wondering if I can even get food for the next time I’m on the road. Started my new job, and just as I get “caught up” we(57m, 22M, and I) caught Covid. I am back to work for about three weeks, and get hurt at home and had to spend almost a month trying to get back to work as they needed me to pass a DOT physical and that doc was a bit of a pill needing records back more than 20 years, signed by the doctors who wrote them. I am back to work, but it’s going to be almost a month before I see a paycheck as we get paid bi-weekly and my restart was the day after the pay period changed. My job is understanding enough not to can me while their doc did their thing, but I haven’t been there long enough to get any sort of pay for that type of leave. So I’m back to trying to scramble finances again. I came home yesterday (1-11-24) after being gone since 1-7-24. My house is a disaster, smells horrible, and hubby and son are just going on like there’s nothing wrong. My husband and son agreed that I could get this job. I didn’t need their permission, but it’s a drastic change so we weighed options and decided that this could work. They are not holding up their end which is to maintain the house. While I was off work it took two weeks to get the house close to livable conditions, and I still wouldn’t have friends over as it was a decent looking job, just the sanitary solution for my own sanity. I’m really struggling here. Any advice? I will read all comments, but due to the insanity of my schedule may not respond quickly.

I have boxes on boxes of books and i need something to do with them! where can I sell them without complication?

I met my ex boyfriend and we hit it off at the start. he was kind, respectful and over all seemed like a great guy. we hung out all the time. he told me so many story’s about how his dad was abusive and how he doesn’t have a relationship with him. of course i believed him because he seemed honest and open about his past. eventually he broke up with me and he said he wanted to “be single and work on himself.” everyone knew that was a lie but we still kept in contact as good friends, we were close from day one so this was normal for us. one day he made up this huge lie and ghosted me. i did some digging and found his dads phone number, i ended up calling his dad and discussing what was said and what went on, and how I was confused on why he did this. his dad was stunned and didn’t know this was being said about him. eventually me and his dad decided to meet in person to discuss what was going on. after a long conversation it turns out none of the stories about his dad, and half of his past he told me wasn’t true and it all started to make sense when my ex would slip up and say things that didn’t fit his story. i found out nothing was true and my ex lied to me. he used me for a lot of things and manipulated me. it turns out 2 weeks after we broke up he got with another girl. I’m sure he’s made up lies about me and as of now we are in no contact. but that’s my story. there’s a lot more to this but this is just the basics. the point is never trust anybody even if you think you know them.

I’m already quite able with a guitar:

I can learn any sort of rock, metal, hardcore, blues, rockabilly, reggae by tabs and partitions.

I learned some Guns n Roses and Pink Floyd solos as well and don’t totally suck at it.

I know the pentatonic and blues scale fret wise.

I guess what I’m saying is: I’m comfortable with my guitar but kinda illiterate theory wise.

I know what sounds good or bad but after trial and error. If you tell me "let’s jam in C" I don’t know right away which fret sounds good or bad. I’ll have to hit a bad note, go whoopsie and try to remember to avoid that particular fret in the future of the jam.

She is an amazing artist, and if we could get her in front of ONE label she could go so far but we are homeless so I'm having to do it by word of mouth EVERYWHERE. Anyway, here is her channel, can someone check it out and tell me where i need to go to make her a hitSuperSt*R

Does anyone have any tips or suggestions on where they started?

If you lost your friends and family, what would you do next to start your new life?

Context: I'm gay (19M), but a lot of my friends and family are super religious. They will leave me once I'm out and open about it, which I've seen it happen to someone else in my friend group. Right now, I'm taking advantage of this time to go to college before I'm fully on my own and working towards financial independence before I make any moves. Also, because I don't really know what I should do next. Should I move? Where would I meet new people once I'm done with college? I guess I'm just seeking advice to see if there is any suggestions on what I should do.

***Hope the question isn't confusing and will check back to clarify if y'all have any questions.

I taught at a high school for the last year, and quite enjoyed it.(on an emergency permit) I liked it so much that I decided that education would be my future. So after jumping through 100 hoops because of covid and testing issues for meeting the requirements I find myself at an empass.

As previously stated education wasn't my initial goal I was pursuing my Masters, WAS because I wasn't able to keep a 3.0. So I was dropped. I took a year working odd end jobs and substituting.(how I got my foot in the door) I am being blocked from enrollment to a credential program due to academic status.

What do I do? Everyone tells you to go back to school but what if that's no longer an option. where do I go from here? what do I tell my wife? How do I tell her I'm a failure?

Hello folks, not sure if this is the proper place, but i have tried lots and lots of times to learn how to improve my oration.

Now this includes more than public speaking, the main idea here is: is there a certain inflection of voice or body language that sort of makes it easier for people to follow what you’re saying?

Most of the advice i found was from the sort of :”be more assertive”, “use colorful metaphors”, and “stand up tall”.

While all those points are technically correct, i have found nothing to actually help.

Would be super grateful for any/all help.

Getting into genetics and might have to find a way to get these templates readily available. I’ll do literal data hoarding if that’s what it takes. I know that a genome is going to be 8gb or more

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My mother is explosive toward me for small, rookie mistakes. There was a big one recently that has left me in shambles and this will be the focus of this post.

Tuesday, due to my bipolar depressed ass being forgetful and oversleeping. Accidentally missed a shift. I was MORTIFIED when I realized what had happened and apologized profusely to my place of work. I explained to them I get depressed and forgetful and they seemed to accept it fine. No parents involved, and I thought it was done and over. We all move on with our lives. How wrong I was...

Cue Wednesday morning... My dad calmly walks into my room and informs me I missed a shift and got it taken care of. He seems fine and doesn't bring it up again. Mom over hears.... And the wrath of Hell is unleashed upon me.

She goes on about how I'm living my life wrong, everything I do if half ass, I should be fired, I'm a lazy waste, she can't believe I would do such a thing, starts threatening me to live my life properly... etc.. Keep in mind I have severe childhood trauma [beatings and being treated subhuman everyday by sisters] and THIS IS MY FIRST JOB EVER. And she's acting like she's fucking perfect.

Needless to say... I'm pretty sure my mother hates me and I feel all those words are true. It is hard for me to function without very gruesome thoughts about how I should be aborted. I don't even find food appetizing anymore.

This morning she ranted at me /again/ about how I am shitty at life and how I need to apologize even more for my behavior. I don't know how to confront her. She knows that I don't have much will to carry on, but I don't think she cares. I used to cut myself until I was dizzy too. I still have very, very deep scars.

She's acting like I do this all the time, like I want to avoid work...

She even asked me very fucking smug "Do you even care? Do you want to lose you job!?" So I shook my head to not wanting unemployment then she goes atomic.

"Oh so you don't care. How fucking great..."

I then meekly explain. "....I shook my head no at not wanting to lose it..." to that she just glared like she wanted me to drop on spot.

I can only remember bits and pieces of the exchange as I was shutting down and going to a place of hurt and trauma. But through the hellspawn screeching, I knew she was berating me... It's something you feel in your heart, ya know..?

Am I the asshole?

We are not a "race car" type family. We dont watch car races or have ever gone to one. We live right outside D.C. and my son has not let this go. At the age of 3 he decided he wants to be a race car driver. I thought it was a phase. Well, nope. This kid is adamant he wants to drive race cars because he wants to go fast. Help! Where do I start? I've been curating the love of math as a basic building block. What other things should I bring to his circle to encourage this idea? Just want to help set him up to succeed within our resources.

Until about a week ago, I used to believe in various conspiracy theories about China believing it to be the most socially progressive country on the planet and a country that we should model ourselves after. I have left up my previous posts on here, so you can look and see what I used to believe in, as embarrassing as they are. I would delete them but I think that I have to face the reality that these are once ideas I believed in and if I'm not careful, I could go down another rabbit hole.

Anyways, I kind of start hanging out with the wrong crowd. I went to China a while back and I had a really good experience there. Everyone was super nice to me and I was really impressed with how hypermodern the cities were and how beautiful and pristine the countryside was. I met these really pretty girls at a music festival I was at too and went home with them and they also gave me a really good impression of China. Then I was back home and there were these radical pro-China conspiracy theorists I met in Chinatown and they told me all these things they believed about China and showed me some resources that were very praising of Mao's Red Guards. They argued that the modern social justice movement should model itself after the Red Guards and not knowing everything I now realize about the Red Guards, their arguments seemed very compelling at the time. At the time, I was just all innocent and I didn't realize the effect of what I was hearing. I also listened to a podcast from one of my favorite NBA players, Kyrie Irving, talk about China. I had always respecting Kyrie for the way he thinks about the world/the bigger picture. He's always been a very woke guy in my mind. Anyways, Kyrie was talking about how great China was so that further cemented my idea that America should become more like China.

After doing more research and staying up all night about a week ago, I began to realize that China was not a heaven for social justice and progress like I thought it was. I had been wrong this whole time. I had been played. China is great for many reasons but I no longer think that America should model itself after China. I was just so preoccupied with being woke that I began to distrust the Western media narratives about China. I was looking to nonwhite/nonEuropean countries for America to model itself after because I was tired of the common narrative we get fed that only white countries can be woke or socially progressive.

Right now, I feel like I need to move on from my past beliefs. I need to be on my own. I'm ready to try out a new situation. I'm ready to be in a new environment, an environment where I can be happy. And my goals haven't changed, they'll always stay the same. To be around people and interact with them, I love that.

But right now, I am very lost. I don't know what to believe anymore when so much of what I've been told my whole life is a lie. I don't know what to believe or what not to believe. I don't know where to go from here and how to improve where I'm at right now. I've been very tempted to get back into drugs but so far I've resisted that impulse.

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I've never seen a single marvel movie (or any superhero movie for that matter) and I'd like to get into them but I have no idea where to start.

I am wanting to change my sleep cycle to sleep between 3-5 hours per night.

I found a great blog (http://www.dreams.co.uk/sleep-matters-club/4-alternative-sleeping-cycles-infographic/) and think I want to move forward with the Everyman cycle.

Not 100% sure where to begin though!? Does anyone have any advice?

I'm 27 and haven't needed to write anything of the sort since I left high school. I'd like to write fiction and have a few themes in mind, but I feel I lack the direction and discipline to know where to start

With all the marvel cinematic universe content being released I'd like to start exploring the comics that inspired the movies and shows.

Currently set to graduate with a BA in Psychology and a minor in marketing. I'm really interested in going into the field of forensic pathology but have no biology/chemistry background and my GPA isn't the highest. What would you recommend in terms of reading criteria, internships, and what the next step is?

I have next to no experience with it, and would like to know where to start. I've heard that wrestling isn't that great nowadays, so maybe knowing what the best "era" of wrestling would be, and which network is the best, so I could look up a bunch of fights from back in the day or something, then I can work my way forward towards more modern stuff.

Also, explaining the difference between WWE, WCW, NWO, RAW, and all the other acronyms would be great. I get what the acronyms stand for (World Wrestling Entertainment, World Championship Wrestling, New World Order, etc), but don't know which would be the best to start with.

I want to make my new ideas into a reality, WDIB?

There are a bunch of books and comics and I don't want to start one and not understand what's going on...

Hi,

I've always heard of Nietzsche, including his famous quotes (e.g. abyss gazing, etc.), however, I've never studied philosophy. I was hoping to start reading him and looking for a good book start. Hopefully, something that's easier for a beginner and brings across a lot of his common themes.

As background, I tend to read a lot of sci-fi/fantasy in my spare time (e.g. King, Asimov, LotR, Hyperion Cantos, etc.)

Thank you in advance!

Girlfriend brought of the Peace of Westphalia, and I realized how little details I knew about it, and any of the Westphalian ideas that came from it. Looking to learn anything about it, or anything related to it (I believe Machiavelli's The Prince is kind of related?)

Thanks in advance, everyone. RIP 2Pac

I have a small idea that I would like to make a prototype for. How do I go about making a professional one.