Idk about this whole love thing anymore I’m still pretty confused and could use some kind words

from 323 pounds to 253 in 10 months. this is gonna be my year istg

So I posted here before, but that was more regarding a situation I was recently in. Lately I've been wondering if I really have a chance appearance wise, I don't think I'm like horrific but.. being 5,6 is a problem in of itself lol and I just wanted to see what people think (To get a better idea of you check my profile I have other pictures that are better I just can only post one here) tysm!

I don't need compliments about myself, just tell me good things that have happened to you recently (allough you are free to say if you find me pretty)

Hi there everyone you can call me syd! Ive had a rough week lately and just need a pick me up more so. Posted in a few other subreddits but I havent done this one yet and everyone seems super nice! Other places not so much, had a few people call me a addict or a junkie, and also got body shamed this week a few times 🥲 tell me a fun fact or something positive going on in your life! Doesnt have to be a compliment but Just some hope ☺️! Thank you all

Like the title says I got dumped out of nowhere and had a really rough time after. I changed my whole life lost 55 pounds and started to treat myself well. And have to start dating soon or later and I still don’t have much confidence and I’m sure the tinder algorithm will crush what’s left of it. I hope for some kindness and encouragement before Rejection and ghosting starts. 🙂

I Was dressed as Captain Kishibe from Chainsawman

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Hey. Some of you might remember me from a few months ago making a post about how excited I was to be with my man and marry him... I was. I was excited but the emotional abuse he put me through finally got to be too much. The neglect, on top of the distance,was just too much to deal with. I had written out so many break up texts and thought so often about leaving but he usually took accountability and apologized and made improvement, so I stayed. Over and over while he was simultaneously breaking me down. But I kept hoping it would get better and then all the time would feel like our highs together.

I'm so angry at my self for staying for so long, and I know I destroyed him and he says he committed to therapy so he can hopefully come back. I know he's desperately afraid of losing me and getting out of his abusive home situation. I do believe he truly loves me and I truly love him but his programming from childhood (and the environment he still lives in) was gonna take a lot more than Bible classes to heal from.

I'm really hurt and feel broken. Missing our nightly and morning calls, our jokes and stupidity, he was my best friend... I need some encouragement, leaning back on friends and family is helping but I just miss him so much already. I wanna keep all the good fun parts and throw out the bad. And maybe one day he'll come back healed and ready to be a present partner.