I have liked this one girl for probably since the day i met her. That was over 3 years ago. We were getting on great and i thought she was flirting, until recently on a trip my pushed me to finally do it, finally ask her out. I got no. just no. fuck me that hurt, i tried to stay calm in the moment and kept up my easy going act on the way back, but when i got home and had a shower i cried. i cried more than i have cried in my entire life, because in that moment i realised that i was no ones favourite person and that i was a nuisance to everyone i know. this happened after a big breakup btw. anyway being a guy fucking sucks.

I feel really uncomfortable with myself. I feel disgusting. But I also feel lonely. So much that I want to put my hand in my body and rip out this feeling. This sensation of unease that made me cry all day. I just want a hug, and love. I want to share my life with someone, laugh with them, tell them that I love them. I want to cry. I want to die. I'm disgusting, I'm at the bottom of the "worth pyramid". I have no value, but I'm still human, I need love and friendship like everyone else. Without it there's that unbearable sensation. Today is worse, this sensation tortured me all day since I woke up, I cried a lot. I'm scared of people, I'm afraid I might make them feel bad, but I also feel lonely. I've been alone for a lot of time, It's almost normal now. But sometimes this feeling comes back and I just want it to end. What terrible thing have I done to be undeserving of love? If I did something terrible I want to say I'm sorry. Really. I'm really sorry. But please end me this pain. Please. It's too much time alone, it's damaging my mental health. I'm sorry for being cringe

Has anyone ever felt really ugly and unattractive to themselves but to top it off have other people so disgusted by you they can’t even stand next to you.

Once when I was at a carnival for school I was standing in line by a fence and the girl next to me who I realised was a girl from my class was talking and laughing with her friends then when she saw me she asked her other friend to swap places with her so she didn’t have to stand next to me. It was so obvious because she looked me up and down when she did it. But I pretended like I didn’t notice.

And even though this was long ago she still did things like this like if I have to sit next to her she moves away or ignores me when I talk.

i have lost everything, yesterday my girlfriend broke up with me and I feel like my world has just been torn apart. I thought she was the one, I told people she was, I knew she was. I don’t know what to do. My heart is utterly shattered into pieces. I am so worried that she’s going to forget about me and we will never come back together again. I am just so devastated. Please help me Reddit

hi! i was diagnosed with epilepsy last 2022 and since then,everything has changed. i can’t go out, i stopped studying (their decision and luckily, i found a full online school. im currently a 1st yr college when i supposed to be 3rd yr student. until now, im sad about it. all of my plans got messed up. i didn’t experienced the college life, night hangouts, city life etc.

they’re strict so i ended up going out without them knowing. it took so long before i can hangout with my friends especially at night. i was an extrovert person before but now, socializing drains me.

yes, i know my parents are just worried for me but it alr feels like im captured and they don’t listen to me when i explain myself and how lonely it feels like. they say “let’s stop this conversation and follow me”, “you’re so OA. there are times that we’re allowing you to go out.”, and tells my siblings to talk to me because they find me annoying and dramatic. it’s painful for me especially when she know someone who died with d3press*on and she said “people should really show love, care, and attention to their loved ones” but what she doesn’t know is that her own daughter is experiencing the same. it’s very hard to me knowing they aren’t showy and they don’t watch the words they say since they just find me petty.

it’s sad since i can’t spend time alone that’s why there are times that i just inform them that i’m outside gonna do important stuffs and go home. my sister and i lives together since my parents are living to our other home. sometimes my sister goes out and leaves me alone in the house and it’s okay for my parents but staying home alone like for a night, they don’t want it. the time that im alone when my sister goes out is much longer than her spending a night with her bf.

when i spend a night/day with them, we don’t even bond that much. i just stay at my room. i feel and find happiness when i spend time with my friends but for that to happen, i need to escape and don’t let them know.

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Hi I am a high school student. I liked a girl 3 years ago when I was grade 8.

I thought it was just phase and ignored it. We were in different group so we were strangers. We had corona also so I used to talk to her in online class and knew something about her.

but i was close to her at grade 9. We were in same class. I am an introvert with social anxiety so I was quite and immature. But I used to absorb her moments and she was playful like childis which I liked about her. She was kind of extrovert. I didn't knew about introvert and extrovert so she was very interesting for me. I keep my crush. I used to see her. I even sat behind her but was hesitant to talk to her and I was not in her socials. So school was only option to see her. I even went against all class by staying by her side when the were annoying her. I got in fight with one of boy in that condition. And in that time one of my friend said to her I liked her, I gathered all my corrage and proposed her. Her reply was not positive at all I got regected.

I was persistent so I still liked her maybe because even after regecting me she used to talk to me and act like nothing ever happened. I got closer to her and couldn't move on. She used to ask help from in computer since I was best in computer science. And I couldn't move on.

I made lot of memories of her in grade 10 and 9, when I was in grade 10 final year I asked to her why she didn't liked me. Her reply was not satisfying at all see said she liked Korean men(f*cking bts and k drama). I didn't believe it cause she had 5 bf before and none were Korean (note it I am not from Korea at all I am from South Asia). She had just gone through breakup when I asked her why she was not interested in me and her reply pissed me of so I ignored her till the end of out year life was good. Out exam ends and I am in high school.

My current situation now

I miss her every thing I do is releted to her I am doing a level now and I have computer and main subjects when someone ask me questions my brain plays my old crush asking me computer questions. I am interested in dslr, our school had conducted phtography class and my first time photo is dslr was of her, so every time I take photos I will have memories of her photo. I used to make her small clay gifts and I remember it I miss her so much every time her memory plays in my head. Like our good moments even though we weren't dating. That plays.

I wanted to talk to her I have gave up in getting her. But still want to talk with her. But she is in different high school and I am in different. I had stalked her insta and send her friend request but she isn't accepting it. Just small take could make me fell better but I cannot talk with her.

Today I got a message from old friend (the one who said her that I liked her) I wanted to talk to her so asked him for help and. That message had photo of her and a guy hugging. He found it from that guy insta. That guy was one of her ex. I remember that guy had made her cry in past due to cheating. And she is with him. My heart felt heavy when I saw that photo. It felt like huge rock squeezeing my. I was tearing up I am crying now while writing it.

I wanted to talk to her once. But seeing that photo I wanted to end my life. But I don't want to make my parents hurt. I can't make my mom and dad see there so suside. So I must not give my life for that shit

I don't know what to do now. I know ppl face problem harder than this so I can give up. But I don't know how to face this shit. I want to prove her wrong I want to be successful and show her what she missed.

Im at my braking point i cant due it anymore my stupid brain is a curse on me i fucking hate it encephalitis is my down fall and my stupid self got a learning disability from the damage to my brain and i just feel broken i cant due it anymore my mom is going to need to bury another child but i just cant take it anymore i hate myself to the cord and wish nothing but for me to be dead. I plan on leaving in the new year im going to try and make it look like a accident so my family and friends dont suffer from my stupid decision that i make. i made a note for them to read once they find it after im gone

I think i want to kill myself. I dont know how yet, but ill figure it out. It would be sad to leave my dogs behind but im tired. Everything’s hurting. Just celebrated my birthday a few days ago, it was the happiest I’ve ever been since September. Any day soon would be a good day to die.

No woman has ever liked me. I’m 23 years old & still a virgin. Never had a girlfriend. Never kissed a girl. Never held a woman’s hand. Nothing. Every woman I ask says I look like a shriveled up raisin or that I look like a make a wish kid. I’ve been to rehab 6 times since 2016 for this same reason. Since no women like me then I don’t find happiness or a point in living.

Hello, please be kind. I need your suggestions.

I am 31 years of age. I have been battling with depression and hypersensitivity since my childhood. At times, even the general situation’s emotions numb me and I cannot function for days and weeks. I developed suicidal tendencies a few years ago. I was a good student but couldn’t continue after high school. And, now I am working at a basic level job for almost like a decade. I sometimes can focus and do my job properly but for weeks, I just go by the days and weeks. Drinking and masturbation have become my escape. Last year, something else happened. At my workplace, I became close with this colleague. Let's name her C, 37 years of age, who started treating me like her younger brother. She didn’t have many friends and she found a friend and a brother in me. I cared about her and everything was going well. In Tihar, I gave her a kurti as a gift. Last year, during 20th November, we were chatting and she asked me if I wanted to watch a movie with her, her husband, and her son. I even mentioned that would be awkward. The next day, she stopped speaking and started behaving so differently for days. Apparently, she got scolding from her husband and naturally she would step back. The problem that happened was the lack of communication for me. I already was not in a good state and it backfired me. I knew about it in a month or two but before that I started asking her about her newly changed behaviour. I begged her, and sent her some messages angrily. The only part I felt bad about was the communication part but I too understand that. I felt she would come up to me and say something has happened and she cannot continue talking to me. She called my other colleague, let’s name her B, who is a caring figure and sister to me and said that I was latching onto her. She didn’t explain the context or anything and just said that to her. I felt so disheartened. It’s been more than a year and it’s still affecting me. I started seeing another girl but the after effects of that are still affecting me. The main problem is my inner problems, depression, suicidal tendencies, this issue, and a new relation: everything got mixed up. I feel pathetic and weak. I even have been toying around with the idea of killing myself for a few weeks and I don’t want it to happen too. I feel guilty about not being able to step back and let her go just like that. I am nearing 32 years and haven’t saved up any amount, not finished any degree, and I don’t know what I am doing. Person B is very caring and tries ways to help me out. A few days ago, I again approached C and told to at least make it cordial at the workplace. She started shouting at me, fair enough. I too told her about me feeling abandoned and her using me when she had emotional needs and just throwing me out; I feel guilty for using those words and I cry. I feel pathetic for not being able to focus on myself. The family kind of is disheartened, naturally, and I shouldn’t have started seeing this new girl as it’s so unfair for her. Her being interested in me made me have an escape for a while maybe, to fill the void. I used to read news and feel weird about people doing silly stuff in love but I kind of relate to the emotion. I want to believe our relationship was platonic and I don’t know how to go about it. I feel weak whenever I see her. I know I should focus on the things that give me joy but it’s so weird to not even say hello to the one who would reach out and give me some notes whenever I felt low. I feel like sending an apology to her husband but I know that would worsen things. Maybe, I wanted someone to hear this and give me a comforting hand. I feel like a failure. I want to live and do something about it. I want to look after my family and inner circle friends but I don’t know what to do. Even this morning, I was toiling about the ways I should escape all of this. I don’t want to and I want to and the reason I want to kill myself is not just that. It feels like a dementor's kiss.

I adopted a dog two years ago for emotional support and companionship. He's a great pyrenees mix who has severe issues like resiurce gaurding( he's bit me) he get extremely agressive during play time wheres he's also bit me. He won't let anyone get close to me or my mother only inside the home he's dog reactive and overly protective. He's increasingly becoming more mean towards the cats. But he's also affectionate but those warm moments are few and far between...

I don't have the thousands of dollars for the behavioral training that he needs.

I'm afraid of him being adopted out to a mean family who just let's him loose. Or that the spca will euthanize him...

He has potential to be an amazing dog but I haven't the money to make that a reality and the stress is building.

I feel so let down of myself. Tourette syndrome really had made highschool a lot worse in the 9th year. Been told no one likes me, which is true. That being said to me makes me real quiet and makes it processed into my memory as a sad. And its overflowing and overwhelming me. When I talk too much I am told nobody likes me and I'm annoying. When I talk too little or not at all I am told nobody likes me and I'm annoying. What have I done to deserve this? These thoughts overwhelm me into making me become depressed. But alas, I don't show that in my outer self as I am someone who really can hide my emotions and when I'm alone. I can have time to think about the sad things that has happened to me in the past, no matter how long ago it was.

I wake up each day sometimes feeling good, most other times just down right depressed. I work in the night and sleep in the day ( usually about 5 hrs) and the only time i feel genuinely happy is on the weekend when my daughter stays with me. I dont have friends anymore because during a difficult time for me i didnt want to speak to or see anybody for fear that they would see my depression. During that time i spent about 5-6 months in my room in darkness not leaving barely eating. It came to a point where i just wanted to die. I never went through with it but to this day the feeling still creeps i to my head. It'd be easier than feeling sad and alone 80% of the time. I want to take my mask off but im afraid of being vulnerable

i made her cry by accident, i still feel awful about it. whenever i try to apologize she just tells me to shutup and im struggling because i want to put it right and be forgiven but i dont know how because she won’t talk about it

After nearly 5 years of on-and-off relationships, my girlfriend and I have recently parted ways. The relationship has been marked by a constant cycle of uncertainty, where she often expressed doubts about our future together, leading to repeated breakups and reconciliations.

Feeling frustrated by this cycle, I made the decision to block her completely about 6 months ago. However, after 5 months of reflection, I began to question the abruptness of my actions. About a month ago, I decided to reach out to her, expressing my apologies for the sudden block. I explained that I wasn't in the best state of mind at the time, conveyed that she remains incredibly important to me regardless of our relationship status, and assured her that I understood and accepted why we couldn't be in a relationship. (Even though i have not accepted nor do I know why she dosent see a future with me). I did this because i still love her and i want her to be ok.

Now, a month after our conversation, I've unblocked her, secretly hoping she would initiate contact. However, I find myself still waiting. The silence is confusing and leaves me wondering about her feelings and intentions. I'm contemplating reaching out again, this time expressing my love for her and my desire to be together. What could her silence mean? Should I take the initiative and reach out again and tell her I love her and let’s give this another chance ?, or is it time to step back and focus on healing?

Hello everyone and anyone, if you are feeling alone, tired, and sad then I’m here for you. Please reach out to me and we can talk about anything! I’d love to hear about you because not many of us talk about ourselves to anyone. Trust me I could use it also since I’m in the same boat as you. So, feel free to reach out. I won’t judge anyone no matter what and I’ll honestly do my best to make an effort to talk to each person!

i just realized for the past two days ive been thinking about the same girl thinking i actually have a chance but the realization i dont was enough to push me to cut again. i hate myself and how ugly i am, i will never be loved but keep trying and getting burned an it just makes it worse everytime. its building inside and ive been planning to kms for a while but everytime i seriously start making the steps to do it something happens to give me false hope. who knows it might be this month but christmas time is coming and that always manages to make it worse.

I recently told a long time friend of mine that had serious feelings for her and we kissed but she had a boyfriend and a few days later she told him, she texted me and told me she was sorry and she could text me for awhile and I don’t know what to do. She reciprocated all of my feelings back to me we cuddled all night and talked about them and she is the closest person I have and I feel like there’s an empty hole and I can’t stop thinking about her. What do I do? Do I try to get her again? Do I leave it alone? Do I wait? Please help.

I am happy to chat about anything and everything I just want to have a lovely good conversation with someone and have plenty of good laughs along the way thank you.

I was so happy in high school. I was top of my class, had an amazing girlfriend, was doing really well at sports.

Then it all came crashing down when I left high school, my after school plans didn’t work out and now I feel like a shell of myself, unsure what to do in life and I miss what my life was. I know I can’t go back to it but I just feel like I want to leave earth and idk how to change it.

Can someone tell me why my mood can switch up so fast I mean I can ball my eyes out in my room by myself and go out to the living room to just chill and then suddenly I can just be the happiest person again like nothings wrong with me or my life. It’s the same when I’m at school if somebody says something looks at me a certain way or doesn’t say anything at all, I still can switch my mood feeling sad and excluded from the class though I’m probably not. I catergorise this as having good days and bad days if no one says anything or does anything that remotely apples to me I’m fine, or if people are talking to me and seem like they are actually wanting to talk to me that’s a good day. But if someone does a single thing like look bored when I talk or looks at me a specific way my whole mode will change. Am I just sensitive because it feels like the smallest thing will make me really sad.

I am not going to do something drastic in any immediate sense. I kind of just finally gave up. I am just not a person. There is nothing in me other than the biological need for food, water, and air. I am just a waste of biological material... my disgusting body and my stupid mind are just not made for this world.

I will never understand or like any of this. There is beauty, sure, a lot of it, just not for me. Everything I like is short term; the disenchantment with all of that comes too quick. I end up hating everything that I start to like, and everything I try to do right, I ruin.

I am just not a person in the way everyone who can live here is a person. For now, I think I will just try my best to go along mindlessly with it... I just don't know how much energy I have in me to ignore the stupid desire to be an actual person.

If I have anything that makes me a little human, it is that little desire to connect with people, but I really can't, and it is my fault. I hate the idea of beeing seen and I just really don't get how to be a person or what to do at any point in time. I really want to be a person but I don't feel like one.

I am sorry for complaining if you got this far. I really wish you all a great life.

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Edit: I didn't go through with it. Last week was the lowest week of my life. I really really wanted to do it but I couldn't. I was on the bed sleeping atleast 18 hours a day. I just ended up with a few light bruises. But I think I'm going to push through.

Thanks for all the private messages. I tried replying to all of them, only reply to a few.

Edit 2 (March 2024): life really is the weird fucking thing huh. I've been slowly getting better mentally through February, I didn't see all the new comments on this post since then. Then my dad died. And the whole world is upside down. I wish it was me instead. And I've also been stuck on job search with a big debt and now I also have more debt. I can't afford to die now, but that's the only thing I think about.

I feel like a throw-a-way person. Like no matter how hard I try, I am never seen. I’m that person that people say, “That name sounds familiar, but I don't remember her,” when I’m dead. I have no past. Everything I have owned is gone from birth, lost in a move, or thrown away by my ex-husband. It’s like I never existed. I had a dream a few weeks ago that I was somewhere with my boyfriend, and he went into a building for something but never came back for me, and I was in the street crying, yelling for someone to see me, hear me, and people just walked past me like I was a ghost and not there. I have come to terms with the fact that I don’t matter. I’m here to do what people need, but when they don’t need me anymore, it’s like I never existed. I am a throwaway, forgotten. I can’t explain how sad I am or how horrible it makes me feel. I am invisible. You can say I’m being a baby for feeling sorry for myself, and maybe I am. I’m just so tired of pulling my big girl pants up and dealing with it. I can't do it anymore. Thank you for letting me vent.

How do you overcome a breakup when you were the one who ruined it?

I don’t know what it is about rain. But it makes me so happy and thrilled to bits and it just warms my soul and heart and just everything. Through and through. I love it so much and it makes me so happy when it rains. It’s been raining today and it’s like none of my problems exist. Everything feels okay and right in the world just because it’s raining. Rain makes me feel like everything is okay. It’s so comforting. I’m so thankful for the rain today. Today, it has let me know that everything is okay.

I have been looking for ways to put an end to my pain, but I am just unable to. So, Redditors, how do you manage to let all the negative shit get out of your mind?

I’m 21M and I feel quite embarrassed about this. I’ve always been very close to my mom, and not close at all with my dad. I can barely speak with him.

And so whenever my mom goes away, like now she’s visiting her cousin, I get super… gloomy. Like I just feel so sad, and it worries me a lot about the future. I guess I just feel so lonely, like my mom is really one of the only people I feel comfortable around.

I like listening to music and watching YouTube videos and browsing the web and exploring nature and wildlife and I like chatting with people as well so please feel free to reach out to me thank you.