Like the title says I wanna hear your craziest stories that made you consider woo. Like thinking about somebody during a trip and this person suddenly calls you, you know what kind of stuff I mean. Could be acid trips, shrooms or any other psychedelics and dissociants.

Btw I posted the same on r/LSD and only got downvotes :( Feels like most people there tried acid once and had to rationalize every part of the experience not to lose the feel of control.

I am planning to do mdma indoor with my friend on my birthday. I have done acid before a LOT of times, both indoor and outdoor. But haven’t done mdma. Is this a bad idea? If not, what’s the suggested dosage?

I’ve regained memories of more entities that I’ve encountered while on trips, thru AP, sober, etc. This time I’ve classified them by their strengths individually and in groups. I will be ranking them from 1 to 10 with 1 being equivalent to the power of let’s say Bane(Dc) or Tanjirou(Demon Slayer) with 10 being Superman, Blue Marvel, Hulk, or Goku. I’ve also classified them of being Extra-Dimensional, Local, or from Hyperspace.

These are the entities that I have vividly encountered either sober, during astral projection, or on a psychedelic trip around my home(s)

(This list is not in order)

Demon bush-squirrel-centipede Xiggut (15ft long) Extra-Dimensional Can increase its size similar to elder centipede from one punch man Individually: Rank 5-7 Group: Rank 10

Poltergeist group The 7-D Rippers (12ft there are 4 of them) Extra-Dimensional Individually: Rank 5 Group: Rank 9

Demon grey? (Estimated size 10ft, I only saw half its head and eye underneath the couch) Extra-Dimensional Individually: Rank 7 Group: Rank 10

Greys (5-7ft) Local/Extra-Dimensional Individually: Rank 2 Group: Rank 5

Kid Death Death (5’5) Local/Extra-Dimensional Individually: Rank 10 Group: Rank 10

The brown rabbit Mr. Biglet (5’4 and THE MOST VIVID encounter I have EVER had during THIS lifetime) Local Individually: Rank 9 Group: Rank 10

The Insectoid duo (5’6-5’7 each) Extra-Dimensional Individually: Rank 2 Group: Rank 3

The Vicious and Vulgar Giant Purple Bear Triplets Mike, Earl, and Tiny (14-15ft when standing upright) Local Individually: Rank 7-9 Group: Rank 10

The Xenomorph-Grey Hybrid Trek-stovic (14ft) Extra-Dimensional Individually: Rank 6-8 Group: Rank 8

Draconian reptilians (7-9ft) Extra-Dimensional/Hyperspacial Individually: Rank 7-10 Group: Rank 10

The Anunnaki (They were transparent but around 9-10ft) Extra-Dimensional/Hyperspacial (The Anunnaki are a conglomeration of HYBRID SPECIES, they are not one race nor are they one specific skin complexion 👍🏿) Individually: Rank 7 Group: Rank 8

The Hyperspace-dimensional Beings (100s of ft tall) Hyperspacial Individually: Rank 10 Group: Rank 10

The blue legs with an eye on the waist creature (3ft similar to the jimmy neutron jeans) Local/Extra-Dimensional Individually: Rank 1 Group: Rank 1

The extra dimensional owl entities(height indiscernible because they were looking down in on us like we’re in a globe or something and they also all resembled the deity Moloch or the talons from dc comics) Extra-Dimensional/Hyperspacial calling their bluff Individually: Rank 5-7 Group: Rank 7

The Biker Pig-human hybrid Rolgor (height indiscernible since I saw it and its buddy joking and talking shit outside the earth) Extra-Dimensional/Hyperspacial Individually: Rank 7 Group: Rank 10

The one eyed head wizard Sepheron (height indiscernible since I saw it and its buddy joking and talking shit outside the earth) Extra-Dimensional/Hyperspacial Individually: Rank 7 Group: Rank 10

The blue flamed Xyvkins?(the quadruped blue flame trees were around 20 or so ft and the blue flame slug beings were around 14ft) Extra-dimensional Individually: Rank 6-7 Group: Rank 8

Animal-human hybrids (10-20ft) Local Individually: Rank 5-7 Group: Rank 8

Jesters (3-50ft) Extra-Dimensional/Hyperspacial Individually: Rank 7-10 Group: Rank 10

Demon Commanders/Generals/Captains? (There were exactly 22 of them lined up with black silhouettes all having varying shapes and sizes most of them were bipedal and they all ranged from 5-30ft in height) Extra-dimensional Individually: Rank 7 Group: Rank 8-9

Chthulu cult member (entity with a cuttlefish head/face stood about 5’5) Extradimensional Individually: Rank 4 Group: Rank 6

Indigenous (Black) Warriors (similar to wakanda even the women were muscular and big, both men and women were around 9-15ft) Extra-Dimensional/Hyperspacial Individually: Rank 6-9 Group: Rank 10

Tall Skinny Brown Guy Deet (11-12ft) Local Individually: Rank 5-7 Group: Rank 8

Picture Vampire Morkash(13ft) Extra-Dimensional Individually: Rank 8 Group: Rank 10

Demon General TYron (8ft) Extra-Dimensional Individually: Rank 7 Group: Rank 9

Combat Bot GX7 (6ft) Local Individually: Rank 5 Group: Rank 6

Flesh Eating Arachnid Women (12-30ft) (They ALL have the bodies of human women except for their hands and feet which are razor sharp claws and their entire head and face is that of an arachnid) Extra-Dimensional/Hyperspacial Individually: Rank 8 Group: Rank 10

Super Thumb Thumb Entities (6-10ft) (They looked similar like the thumb thumbs from spy kids except they had regular hands and feet and they were hella buff similar to dragon ball z characters) Extra-Dimensional/Hyperspacial Individually: Rank 7-9 Group: Rank 10

Human/Grey Hybrid (7ft) (Was seen within some sort of incubation chamber with green fluid inside it surrounded by numerous other incubators like this one yet they weren’t as developed, there were 3 other greys watching over them, the one in the center being the tallest with some sort of collar thing like what mega mind wears) Individually: Rank 7 Group: Rank 9

Theoretical Hypothesis:

What if the dream state could be accessed on command through mediative techniques? Many current/ancient cultures emphasize the importance of accessing the pineal gland to allow consciousness to transcend the constraint of base reality and enter the state of the “divine”. The current understanding of the pineal gland links it to circadian rhythm, sleep, melatonin production, dream states, and altered states of consciousness. What if our brain has the ability to simulate a fake reality through an altered state of consciousness. If possible id assume building knowledge/experiences/relationships in base reality is essential. In a sense you can only have what you already know of in these lucid states.

I hope through practice I learn to enter this lucid state with ease. Im not sure where to start so I put this together and thought I could start here??

When I become advanced I will introduce thy holy substances lol

Wake back to bed (lucid dream method)

1. Set timer 4 hours into sleep cycle
2. When timer goes off get up and walk around room for 30 seconds
3. Sit in meditative pose with spine straight to keep awareness
4. Focus on breathing while letting mind drift back into sleep state
5. Remain aware during transition
6. Enter Lucid Dream
7. If you wake up restart process from 4 to re-enter

(my theory is that the meditative pose can help keep you aware)

Theoretical Hypothesis:

What if the dream state could be accessed on command through mediative techniques? Many current/ancient cultures emphasize the importance of accessing the pineal gland to allow consciousness to transcend the constraint of base reality and enter the state of the “divine”. The current understanding of the pineal gland links it to circadian rhythm, sleep, melatonin production, dream states, and altered states of consciousness. What if our brain has the ability to simulate a fake reality through an altered state of consciousness. If possible id assume building knowledge/experiences/relationships in base reality is essential. In a sense you can only have what you already know of in these lucid states.

I hope through practice I learn to enter this lucid state with ease. Im not sure where to start so I put this together and thought I could start here??

When I become advanced I will introduce thy holy substances lol

Wake back to bed (lucid dream method)

1. Set timer 4 hours into sleep cycle
2. When timer goes off get up and walk around room for 30 seconds
3. Sit in meditative pose with spine straight to keep awareness
4. Focus on breathing while letting mind drift back into sleep state
5. Remain aware during transition
6. Enter Lucid Dream
7. If you wake up restart process from 4 to re-enter

(my theory is that the meditative pose can help keep you aware)

When I was going through a long psychosis there were certain feeling that came with it. I remember the first one felt like an adrenaline attack, and my fight or flight kicked in and I busted out of the facility I was at. In the same night I had these awful smells fill my nostrils and hallucinated. Weeks later I had another feeling of intense numbness throughout my whole body, like it felt completely empty, my feelings and sense of touch disappeared and went numb. Like when you freeze up from fear. The last one was this tingling sensation like a soda can is in the tongue but throughout my entire body. I never knew these were even feelings that existed. Are there more physical and emotional feelings like this?

Are there any other easy to make/ extract psychadelics outside of the ones I listed in the title? I love learning about niche psychadelics and would love to make and use more but I haven't been able to find many like that outside of these. What are your suggestions?

I had an unintentionally wild, enlightening experience but not sure how to process it all.

I don't know how to even write it out without diminishing what I felt. I feel like it won't make sense with what felt like a language spoken in loosely connected imagery.

Two years ago, I took acid maybe 5 times, 2g shrooms once, mostly solo and with a girlfriend, and it changed my life. Sparked a long journey of spiritual discovery, religious interest, that I’m still on.

A year ago, then again two months ago I took 3.5g shrooms, in the same fashion, with the intent of spiritual/introspective learning, clarity, and also a good time, and didn’t really get anything out of it. Same again yesterday taking the same 110ug acid I did before. Felt a little connected to nature etc, enjoyed some trippy music a bit more, but that’s it.

It seems ridiculous that that’s it, nothing more to gain, no more lessons, just feel my feelings, be myself, be present, live according to the dao, accept my reality, the hardships, enjoy life. Pretentious to call it enlightenment but who gets to decide what that really means. When Alan watts says you’ve got the message and can hang up the phone, is this it?

Thats it? Is that all we chase? What’s the hype about? Why are they illegal and so stigmatised?

How do you tell?

I am planning on getting lasik eye surgery soon and I would like to trip with psilocybin maybe months later. Does anyone know if the two have any interaction? I know this is a strange question, but I really would like to know l.

I know this is a strange question but the other day the doctor dilated my eyes and it honestly felt kind of like a hint of the colored visuals.

I'm planning on getting Lasik surgery, but I don't wanna give up psychedelics. If anyone has any experience, I would appreciate it..

Is there any way to get it i currently i have a significant other who has an issue and this is honestly from my research the only way to help them..im at my wits end and truly hope they can get the help needed but it seems like it is the only solution and I am desperate im a veteran and do not need to see another corpse as in identifying them (If not allowed then delete this post but im truly out of options)

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Hi Psychonauts friends,

I’ve been tripping few times already with Magic truffles (Valhalla strain). Gradually trying a higher dose, never had a bad trip.

Last trip was 30g and effects were incredible, I had a bit of self and awareness of the world around.

Anyway, I’ve made up my mind, after 1-2 months of break I’ll do some 35 or maybe 40g of fresh truffles. My goal is to have deeper thoughts and understanding of the world or even maybe encounters some entities, as people describes in trip reports.

Let’s see ! I will surely come back there with my trip report.

Any extra tips from the community? Or wanna share some experience with likely high dosage ?

I am curious to learn about psychonauts that might be using other means/guides alongside or instead of psychedelics? Like meditation, lucid dreaming or any others.

I took LSD yesterday and made this abstract painting. The original sketches is from me tracing my visuals. It's all free hand. It's inspired by light and sound (Edm and jam band sound to be specific) I worked on it for 10 hours. I'm nowhere close to finish. What are your thoughts on it?

I'm trying to figure out why this happened. It was a while back. I don't trip a lot. I've had sex on them before, sometimes it's starts to become a little too much and I have to stop. But this time it started to feel like a little too much, and I stopped and layed down and it just felt too much more and more while inwas laying down until I passed out. It felt like greening out on weed. I hate passing out on drugs because I know they're already not great for me and I'm not trying to do them irresponsibly. I do have low blood pressure from genetics is this why?

https://youtu.be/xxHCtEAexgI

Hello dear Psychonauts, I created this 2h mix for mind-travellers and I am looking for feedback from other felllow mind-explorers so I can keep on improving for the next ones!
I am very open to any kind of feedback, but I am especially interested in impressions while in altered mind-states: THANK YOU 💓 link:
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I had an experience a couple years ago that changed me forever.

I was able to recreate the experience and continue to visit these places.

I am dedicating myself over 2025 to practice, train and take this extremely serious.

I created a channel where I will post after every session talking about the experience and the details. I will be extremely active on that channel and try to answer and respond to everything that is said.

I honestly dont know exactly what is happening, but the experience is so profound so clear, so engaging. It feels wrong and selfish not to share it. After the year if it turns out nothing came of it, and its clear I am just wrong, or mentally compromised somehow else.

That would still be a concrete answer, and that is my only goal. To get as much data and information as I possibly can. Hopefully an answer of some sort will emerge.

Thanks for taking the time

https://www.tiktok.com/@accidentalenlightenment/video/7443195283690769720?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pc&web_id=7429765766608225797

A friend of a friend will try lsd for the first time. But this person does not have any experience on psychedelics, chemical or natural. Only drinks a glass of wine or a half beer on social settings.

Should this person make a research before? - know your substance, trip responsibly

Or just start with zero expectation - keep the magic

My friend will be tripsitting for sure.

What he thinks is, lsd is not like other substances (like mdma or cocaine) You can not comprehend the effects by reading until you do it, especially if you don't have any references. Also negative effects may scare the person by reading , increasing possibility of a bad trip.

So may be, just doing it without previous knowledge would be a great experience. But also can be really scary.

What would be your thoughts on this?

Hey everyone! It's my first time posting here. Let me start by saying I'm doing this because I want to see something beyond this world(I've had an obe once, hope to recreate it). Life has taught me that safety is not something i can ever take for granted. I can never feel truly safe in this world. I've had an abusive family, moved away, had to go back because things didn't work out, moved away again... plus i have a few mental disorders that make everything take so much more effort(like today I wasn't working, I just wrote an email to my boss, sent it, went to the dentist, made a sandwich for myself and the plumber working in my yard, washed a couple of dishes and I feel absolutely exhausted).

I currently don't have access to psychedelics(I used to know a guy but he's on the other side of the world right now) so I am trying holotropic breathing combined with shamanic drumming. I started with 5 minute and felt tingling and paralysis. Went on to 10 minutes and tbh nothing changed much. At 15 the paralysis was much stronger(it caught me by surprise and the first time i was not prepared for that). At 20 minutes is where it got interesting. I started crying and hearing a buzz and sound started being more intense. This is where I am currently at and I will keep going but i guess I just wanted to know if what I experienced so far matches other people's experiences.

For the past year, I've been taking mushrooms. Usually every few weeks to give myself a break for reset. I've done various dosages, but as I've gotten off SSRIs, I've lowered that dose to hone in on the most cost efficient dosage (for me).

I always find it interesting to read about other people's experiences because while some people seem to report varying experiences with each trip. Seeing entities and thinking they're in a totally different place altogether - my ego death has been really consistently a sense of ascension into the Universal Consciousness.

I'm thankful I don't see entities, and I'd argue that I don't really hallucinate greatly on mushrooms (nothing beyond bending and blending of textures or breathing surfaces). I've never believed I was in a place other than where I actually was - and never have i seen things that weren't truly there.

I feel like I've seen through those and again reached "ascended states" where I was no longer my human self.

I suppose my thought and curiosity lately has been circling around why some people have rather consistent experiences, and other people seem to be taken on these wild rides in cartoonish like imagination.

Thoughts?

Where do you all stand on this?

Closed-eye hallucinations and closed-eye visualizations (CEV) are hallucinations that occur when one's eyes are closed or when one is in a darkened room. They should not be confused with phosphenes, perceived light and shapes when pressure is applied to the eye's retina, or some other non-visual external cause stimulates the eye. Some people report CEV under the influence of psychedelics; these are reportedly of a different nature than the "open-eye" hallucinations of the same compounds. Similar hallucinations that occur due to loss of vision are called "visual release hallucinations".

There are five known levels of CEV perception which can be achieved either through chemical stimuli or through meditative relaxation techniques. Level 1 and 2 are very common and often happen every day. It is still normal to experience level 3, and even level 4; however, only a small percentage of the population does this without psychedelic drugs, meditation or extensive visualization training.

Level 1: Visual Noise

The most basic form of CEV perception that can be immediately experienced in normal waking consciousness involves a seemingly random noise of pointillistic light or dark regions with no apparent shape or order. This can be seen when the eyes are closed and looking at the back of the eyelids. In a bright room, a dark red can be seen, owing to a small amount of light penetrating the eyelids and taking on the color of the blood it has passed through. In a dark room, blackness can be seen or the object can be more colourful. In either case, it is not a flat unchanging redness/blackness. Instead, if actively observed for a few minutes, one becomes aware of an apparent disorganized motion, a random field of lightness or darkness that overlays the redness or blackness of closed eyelids. For a person who tries to actively observe this closed-eye perception on a regular basis, there comes a point where if they look at a flat-shaded object with their eyes wide open, and try to actively look for this visual noise, they will become aware of it and see the random pointillistic disorganized motion as if it were a translucent overlay on top of what is actually being seen by their open eyes.

When seen overlaid onto the physical world, this CEV noise does not obscure physical vision at all, and in fact is hard to notice if the visual field is highly patterned, complex, or in motion. When active observation is stopped, it is not obvious or noticeable, and seemingly disappears from normal physical perception. Individuals suffering from visual snow syndrome see similar noise but experience difficulty blocking it from conscious perception.

Level 2: Light or Dark Flashes

Some mental control can be exerted over these closed-eye visualizations, but it usually requires a bit of relaxation and concentration to achieve. When properly relaxed, it is possible to cause regions of intense black, bright white or even colors such as yellow, green, or pink to appear in the noise. These regions can span the entire visual field, but seem to be fleeting in nature.

Level 3: Patterns, Motion, and Color

This level is relatively easily accessible to people who use psychedelic drugs such as LSD. However, it is also accessible to people involved in deep concentration for long periods of time. When lying down at night and closing the eyes, right before sleep or just before waking up, the complex motion of these patterns can become directly visible without any great effort thanks to hypnagogic hallucination. The patterns themselves might resemble fractals.

Level 4: Objects and Things

This is a fairly deep state. At this level, thoughts visually manifest as objects or environments. When this level is reached, the CEV noise seems to calm down and fade away, leaving behind an intense flat ordered blackness. The visual field becomes a sort of active space. A side component of this is the ability to feel motion when the eyes are closed.

Opening the eyes returns one to the normal physical world, but still with the CEV object field overlaid onto it and present. In this state, it is possible to see things that appear to be physical objects in the open-eye physical world, but that aren't really there.

Level 5: Overriding Physical Senses(LITERAL SUPERPOWERS Ex: Mutants(Marvel), Metahumans(DC), Eleven(Stranger Things), etc

This level can be entered from complete sensory deprivation, as experienced in an isolation tank or deep trance of hypnosis, but even there it requires great relaxation. According to lucid dreaming researcher Stephen LaBerge, perceptions can come from either the senses or imagination. An inhibitory system involving the thalamus, likely involving serotonergic neurons, inhibits imaginary perceptions from becoming too activated so they turn into hallucinations. This system is inhibited during REM sleep, and the imagination can freely run into the perceptual systems. What happens at level 5 is likely that this system is inhibited, just like in REM sleep, by different causes like sensory deprivation, psychedelic drugs or meditative relaxation techniques.

If you would like to see the images/clips of how it looks to confirm yourself

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Closed-eye_hallucination

I didn’t take its hand sadly, I opened my eyes . For those that did experience this and held its hand what happened after ? This was from 5.5g of shrooms Gonna be taking 6g next week!

As the title states, looking for some input on some of the recent trips I’ve had.

I’ll start by saying. I have quite a few low dose trips with mushrooms. Less than 5g. Those are all great… But recently I have been playing around with breakthrough does. 5-6gs at a time. A few good high dose breakthrough trips that I’ve had, have been really spiritual to me. I’ve met God. I’ve talked about my life. I’ve actually figured things out. They’ve definitely put me on a good path. I started going back to school and losing weight and eating better, etc.

However recently, about my last two or three trips have been absolutely insanity. It will start off going good and then after I breakthrough, I start crying and breaking down and just sobbing about how much I hate myself. Then it goes very south. I know psychosis is a thing, but this doesn’t even come close to describe it. I get in these absolutely nasty thought loops where I just can only explain it by I feel like my braining is exploding. It’s so bad. I usually trip alone so this doesn’t help it either. I don’t have anyone to be there to help me get out of it. It sucks because I feel like I’m gonna die and I feel like my life is gonna fall apart, I’m gonna lose my job. I’m gonna go homeless, lose my loved ones, etc. These loops are just so hard to get out of. I know I have demons that are bringing me down and probably making me feel like that, but I don’t wanna face those because of these outcomes that happen. I just want to have those spiritual trips where I figure life out.

I really want to enjoy some good trips. I have been doing my best to “respect” the mushrooms and do them in a good headspace, environment, etc. Even though they are bad trips, I always try to take something positive from them and apply them to next time.

I guess my question to you all is, what can I do? Like how do I avoid these absolute psychotic episodes? What do you do when you have experiences similar, and how can I apply better circumstances to myself for this?

I bought a couple backs of some mushroom gummies online and I was wondering if anyone had any actual information on ingredients. I wont be naming the brand unless someone needs more information, but you could probably take them on a 'road trip' in the 'desert' under the 'stars'.

anyways, ive looked at their website for lab results, but it doesn't give many hints to actual active ingredients. has anyone seen any third party testing? Does literally anyone actually know what is in these things besides fruit flavoring and gelatin? ive seen many positive reviews, but before I put anything like this into my body id prefer to have some evidence of what im taking. even if someone has some recommendations for an at home testing kit that would fit.

thanks!

I’m 33yo female and I’ve been on more than my fair share of acid trips, mushroom trips, hippy flips, candy flips, Jedi flips… you get it. I love to explore. Usually I end up feeling better than I did before. It feels like it helps refocus my mind and give me a much needed boost a few times a year.

The last time I did acid before last night was on my 33rd birthday - I found out I was pregnant shortly after. That itself was a whole new realm to explore - I never planned on being a mom.

trigger warning for anyone sensitive to really sad shit when it comes to babies.

Our baby was born 9/13 and was a healthy, happy little guy. We took him home and honestly I thought life is complete. I didn’t even care if I tripped again for a long time because there was nothing to straighten out. I was elated with joy. My son unexpectedly passed away on 9/25, 12 days after I had him. And it’s been the hardest thing I’ve ever had to live through. I’ve had many moments I felt like I should just end it completely and hope that reincarnation is a thing and I get placed in better circumstances.

It’s been two months and I decided to turn back to my old friend hallucinogens - they have never let me down before. I candy flipped last night and it didn’t work.

I didn’t see any pretty swirls or have any warm Fuzzy feelings or revelations. I got sleepy. I sobbed and I slept. Today I feel like I did the day he died. Void of joy. Void of life.

Does acid not work if your grief is too heavy? Will I ever experience joy again - even superficial joy that those little trips used to bring me? This was kinda my last resort - I’ll Try anything to stop the pain for one goddamn night thing and it didn’t work. My brain wouldn’t trip.

Anyone else experience a loss of ability to trip after great tragedy?

So about a week ago I had planned a shroom trip with a few of my friends, i was planning on taking a dose much larger than before and on supposedly more potent shrooms. So I had embarked on a journey of 10 grams of blue meanies while my two friends took roughly 2 each and were intending to watch over me ( there was also one of their gf's that was there who was completely sober if anyone was wondering) and my trip started off pretty crazy, it started hitting only 15 or so minutes after I finished eating them and it slowly (but actually very quickly) ramped up.

My first stage was me sitting in the living room with my friends just talking and having fun, my visuals started to get very potent and it was a blast having more than the standard geometric visuals for me. I was seeing for the first time realistic alterations of my reality, seeing eyes, or doorknobs end up all over the walls and such. At one point I started seeing weird alterations with my friends and I would see their heads triple and connect by each corner of their chin. (Hopefully that makes sense) My one friend actually saved a sentence i had said just because of how ridiculous it was but I had told him he had a second face on the back of his head and he responded "no i don't think I do" and I told him that he simply just hadn't turned his head far enough back. Soon after I remember looking at my hand and seeing it stretch out to the other side of the room and gain little bald heads on each fingertip that had suddenly got their own hands that grew from them. And something that happened around this time too that I thought was pretty cool was that in other shroom trips I've had short term photographic memory, ie.. I could look at something and look away or close my eyes and very vividly still see it. In this instance there was many cases where I thought I was looking at my friends while talking to them but I was actually staring at the floor. My brain had been hallucinating so hard that I would see them physically talk even though I was staring at the floor; it quite literally felt like i had eyes on the back of my head.

Here ends the fun part and I then got the feeling of needing to puke (and for context I've never puked on any substance before) And I told my friend as I soon realized I couldn't walk on my own, he then got up and started carrying me towards the washroom and I told him I wouldn't make it and so we went to the kitchen sink and I started throwing up hard. And in this instance I have never feared death to this extent. I truly thought I was going to die and I ended up dropping my head in the puke filled sink just to try and gain some relief. He told me to pull my head out and I saw a sink attached to his head briefly and suddenly he was normal but very disfigured with geometric like deformation. And I just stared at him until I started blurting out that "I need out, I need out!"(referring to the trip" and some time after he had brought me to the bedroom to try and settle down.

I then was still worried about death, sitting on the bed on my side constantly telling myself to stay on my side and not pass out or I'll choke on my puke and die. My friend was sitting next to me on the bed and enjoying his tracer visuals and he tried to start conversation and I told him to shut the fuck up because I couldn't handle anything at this moment. He at some point had went to the washroom and came back. I realized this and completely forgot he had left a second time to hang out with his gf when he thought I had settled down. I had then worried that I started tripping so hard that he had disappeared from my vision. I began to see him in the jacket on the wall, he didn't move and it looked like he was continuing to look at his tracers on the wall. I repeatedly then called out his name and there was no movement. I then tried to hit him in hopes he would move in the jacket and it didn't work and eventually I looked at my phone at it was stuck at 12 am and my phone was at 100% battery, i then started to worry about wether I had gotten stuck in a mental purgatory and put my hands against my temples-my hands felt the palm of each other touch. This confirmed it to me that I had entered a construction of my reality all on my own with the only window into true reality being the jacket on my door. I then started to have that stereotypical cyclical thought and behavior that is associated with shrooms. It was simply my awareness of being stuck in my head and not knowing for how long I might be here alone. This went on for what felt like hours, with the clock still stuck at 12 on my phone. I eventually started reaching out with my hand asking for anyone to grab it with tears raining down my face and I felt no such hand. At one point where I started to clear up a bit I ended up trying to message my friend and ask where he was after I no longer saw him in the jacket. He then told me the washroom and I asked him to come. At that moment my clock started counting up, and finally at 12:04 I saw my first person in what felt like forever and I asked for a hug. That was the best hug I think I'll ever feel in my life. I then started telling him about what happened and he told me he had left to see his gf for about an hour and a half who was in the living room right next to me.

He helped me get up to go back to the living room, once again I puked more but this time I had a bucket with me. And I sat down in the living room and told them about what I had just experienced and how absolutely horrific it was for me. In that moment I had the most euphoric experience I've ever had, I had felt like I climbed mt everest, landed on the moon, or even created the first light bulb. I felt I had conquered what seemed like hell itself.

And that was roughly where the trip ended for me. I was still hallucinating quite heavily at this point (walls breathing, room swaying, my body changing in size) but it was bearable again. And I went to bed and stayed up for a while until I was sober enough to fall asleep.

This experience is something I think that will carry on long into my life simply because of its potency and the pure amount of psychological load it put on me. It felt like a good story that had an arch to it, the good the bad the ugly and then the beautiful. And this truly confirmed to me, despite the mental anguish ive gone through I'm sure that I fully want to live in this world and beyond that, live AS ME.

Idk I just felt like sharing the most incredible psychedelic trip I've had to date and I would love to answer questions or have conversations about your trips aswell. Im curious how similar this is to some of your experiences. (Or different)

Also something I really wished I had tried during this was closing my eyes and seeing where I'd go. This trip was a lot for me and I couldn't handle what my reality was and so therfore never had the courage to close my eyes, I would love to try that on a similar dose (hopefully this time with some more respect for the mushrooms strength)