/r/Psychonaut
A psychonaut is a person who experiences intentionally induced altered states of consciousness and claims to use the experience to investigate his or her mind, and possibly address spiritual questions, through direct experience.
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A Psychonaut is a person who explores activities by which altered states of consciousness are induced and utilized for spiritual purposes or the exploration of the human condition, including shamanism, sensory deprivation, and both archaic and modern users of entheogenic substances, in order to gain deeper insights into the mind and spirituality.
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I have been seeing these mushroom grow kits online. Does anyone have any experience with these easy diy kits? Are they legit? What is a good brand to order?
I need to get this off my chest, I have people reaching out and connecting with me and Im struggling to internalise my achievements, I feel overwhelmed and Its not that I don’t want to be smart, Its that I wasn’t expecting everything to happen all at once, i have people from really good universities reaching out and i feel a pressure to perform now constantly at the same level.
I don’t know what to do. I feel like things are going the way i want them but i wanted it to be more at my pace however i have shined through and everyone is aware and i cant self jeopardise, im constantly in my own head.
Can i possibly have some feedback?
So when it comes to doing this stuff as a newbie some of my buddies think shrooms are a good start while the others think dmt would be great the most ive done so far is microdosing so I havent gone big on either yet which would be the best in your guy's opinion
Im a recovering addict 2 years sober I have uses psychedelics to deal with trauma when i was 20y , but when 22y i start doing cocaine with my father , Then he died from Overdose and i start doing heroine cocaine etc and get a 3day coma from a ketamine heroine cocaine trip and get to recovery in a therapeutic community where i had been on itensive psicodrama CBT and psychotherapy for 18 mouths , and i feel prepared for The world outside and i have a decision not to do drugs In recreation.
4-aco-dmt 4-ho-met DMT Psilocibin LSD etc
How Often do u use to spiritual propouse?
Sorry for my English
For context: I have, what I would say, to be a highly extensive experience with psychedelics. Over 100 trips with LSD, around 40 with mushrooms, countless DXM experiences, a recent delve into the ketamine mind-fuckery. A short and rather brief stint with DMT, and a few research chemicals with things such as 25i, 2cb, and a few others. Through these trips, I’ve had probably 20 out of body experiences. Nothing I was living or experiencing was based in reality. This is a hard point to get to when you build up such memories. The brain, in my experience, has a way of “fighting back” from ego death. And when you’ve gone beyond deep. Beyond tracers, things shrinking and growing, or any morphing, or audio distortions. This is when you are out of body. Now to get to the point-
Going to the deepest corners of my consciousness, I won’t lie it is TERRIFYING. To ponder on what you are, why you’re here, and how coincidental this life we live is; it’s incomprehensible. If you’ve gone deep enough to see purgatory (or one might relate it to infinity, heaven, after-death), then you will know gratitude when you are sober. When time stops, you glitch reality, and can’t fathom what you even are; trust me, when you baseline you will cry in joy.
My argument for the greatest lesson one can go through with psychedelics, is that we as a soul have so much more to grow. Even when accompanied with crippling depression. Ego death. Loss of all structure in life. In the deepest parts of your mind in trips, you will realize how beautiful life is. Now, this is coming from someone that has had a numberrrr of bad trips. I mentioned purgatory above…but even when you have a bad trip, those are most times the greatest lessons you can learn from losing your ego.
We are all stuck in a rock and a hard place. The world we were born into isn’t fair in the slightest and there is much evil to not only observe, but endure as well. I think we fellow trippers are trying to find ourselves ultimately, but under that we are trying to find out why we are here. I believe it is a test to be in such a diluted and corrupted world. A rock and a hard place is the point. How can a soul grow and learn to cherish, love, and value without knowing the dark. You cannot see the light if darkness never existed. Carry love even when you are confronted with someone who can’t do the same. Whether you do it for yourself or if you think there is a God pulling strings to test you. It doesn’t matter. Have you ever considered that what if something like us never has existed? There is no after-life, reincarnation, or heaven and hell. What kind of existence would you live after death if all you ever had after that was your own thoughts and morals. Be okay with the person you are now. Death is beyond our knowledge, so cherish life and others because that is why we are all here. ❤️
This is a rant and I know it’s long, thanks for reading if you have this far. Psychedelics have helped me understand so much with life. Religion, relations, nature, and the world itself. I hope all use these substances to delve deeper into what our minds actually are. It’s not necessary every time, as I’ve had my fair share of just goofy trips and less-meaningful encounters. But there is healing and great knowledge to be found.
Much love to my trippers❤️🪐 stay safe
New as in purpose, looking for peaceful experiences, as well as spiritual experiences. I was considering the Star Gazer and Golden Teacher strain, would like some recommendations and information on the specific strains and what to expect. Only interested in psylocibin although ayahuasca would be great at some point in the right setting. Thanks guys.
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TL;DR -- Took 3.9 g psilocybin GT mushrooms and experienced a profound decoupling of awareness from the self and reality, leading to very clear nondual insight. Also continued tolerance experiments indicate tolerance might accumulate at different rates for different aspects of the effects. Trip notes at the end.
I've been experimenting with tolerance. The last 3 days I did, consecutively: 2.6 g, then 1.6 g, then 3.9 g (all GT psilocybin mushrooms). This trip report is for this last high (3.9 g) trip. My main goal and curiosity is exploring consciousness and what I am, really at my core (subjectively). I'm not religious and don't believe in anything supernatural, so you can filter my words through that lens. Interestingly, I've been finding that while my tolerance definitely does build up rapidly, it does so non-uniformly over the different types of psychedelic effects. It seems like the hallucinations (e.g. visuals, etc.) and disorientation attenuate the fastest with tolerance. But the more fundamental "dissolve the conceptual filters through which I usually experience reality" effect seems to be the most preserved. This is optimal since that's what I'm most interested in, and I'm happy to skip the other stuff to be able to go straight to direct, clear, lucid insight into experience. Only problem is it requires a lot of mushrooms and closely packed days when I don't need to get much work done!
I've been having consistent and strong "headless" experiences for a while. Then more recently there was a shift where reality became "unreal" or "empty." That one is still very comes-and-goes and not at all stabilized. But it really dealt a much heavier blow to the ego than my first "entry level" headlessness, which was just a sense of delocalized awareness in an otherwise real-seeming (i.e. full of actual objects with objectness) reality. But then today's trip blew both of those out of the water. This time awareness fully (or at least, much more so than before) "decoupled" from appearances. In contrast, I now see that even before when I was experiencing headlessness, there was still a muted sense of a center where my body is located. Even if viscerally I did not feel located at that center. But this was something else. There was just appearances. And the mind / thoughts were just commenting on it, from nowhere and everywhere at once. But what was most surprising was just how clear it was. Not open to interpretation. Not easy to doubt. Not ambiguous. Just absolutely crystal clear. And of course, almost entirely inaccessible now :P . But that's how it goes. Once it's been glimpsed once, it will start showing up again more and more. But despite how poetic or qualitative the descriptions below sound, they all had a very clear, precise, and often literal meaning.
Trip Notes
Voice memo recordings (recorded some time later) transcriptions:
Alright I was frying so hard last night or morning, whatever. I commented on someone's post, kinda forgot about it until I got a upvote confirmation. It's a funny story so thought I would share with you guys too. ( He was asking if anyone ever ate like 30 or 40 hits at a time and I scoffed )🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯 🤯 🤯 🤯 🤯 🤯 🤯 🤯 One of my first heroic doses when I was like 15 was brought on by my friends brother. I saw him taking some hits off a a sweet breath bottle, and I say "hey uh you got liquid"? He goes "what does it look like"? I say "how much"? He says "20 bucks". I promptly tell him to go fuck himself. He says "nah bro 20 bucks for the whole thing but you gotta eat it all in front of me"... I promptly hand him 20 bucks. After consumption he says oh yeah keep that bottle wait a week and wash it out you'll trip again. ( #1 of my favorite tripping phrases of all time ) And after last night and me still coming down off of ten drops that shit feels like it just happened yesterday. Yea im still doing the same shit after all these years. Never gets old for me. It's just harder to find the quality these days. But everybody still got it if your really in the know. I'll tell ya what I tell everybody now. If your going to take heroic doses you better have a heroic mindset. Make sure your a leader and not a follower cause if your the latter, people will turn you into a crash test dummy. I was just young, dude thought he was doing me a disservice. But really all he did was open my fucking mind. As a matter of fact after taking me to a giant party at a mansion in the middle of fucking cornfields in Delaware ( you can't make this shit up ) and seeing me not loose my fucking shit, he gave me a giant handful of weed and a ride home @fterwards.
On one of my most recent trips , I was encountered by what I can only describe as an evil entity. I wasn’t afraid during this moment. But I could feel its presence, it was telling me it’s in control of this reality its presence felt very large. I wasn’t afraid for my life but I felt awful and disturbed. Then a friendly entity came to the rescue , showed me that I am everything and that this life is simply a fun game we play with our self and it’s all my imagination, and then it just exploded my brain into different screens showing me different memories. I just accepted this new reality , I was then in a state of pure bliss , a place I felt oddly familiar with. It felt like I was here before and have always been here. It felt like I returned to source and completely accepted what I am, what I was , was simply an imaginary game I played with myself for amusement.
Then the trip ended. About 2 weeks later , I felt eager to go back in for some reason “this time I won’t let the fear scare the first part of my trip” I went in with the largest dose I’ve ever done. 12 grams , I made a mistake of going into sauna before my trip; I live in a very hot place already. At the beginning of my trip I felt the same evil entities presence again, I was been shown some crazy things that I cannot remember clearly now. I just remember thinking OMG. But then the trip was interrupted by me feeling very unwell , my body temperature was 41°c, dangerously hot. Close to been comatosed , I lost control of my body , ambulance rushed me to hospital. I almost died , I was fighting with every part of my being to stay conscious thinking if I slept then I wouldn’t wake up. Luckily I got to the hospital and drs said I had heatstroke. It was a horror trip.
It’s been a few months since, but I feel like I’m losing my mind and losing touch with reality. Since I was young I was always questioned reality but since my trips , once your eyes are open to what cannot be explained through words it can only be felt. I don’t know how to switch it off, I wish I wasn’t so curious and looking for the truth of reality. Ignorance is bliss, I am having panic attacks regularly becoming dizzy and shivering with cold, I am a tall athletic man I don’t spook easy, I don’t feel good mentally. Not sure how to navigate this. I think I am suffering from some sort of PTSD. I’ve been having hallucinations I don’t really want to even talk about. I feel like social media , this world everything is just so full of negativity. You analyze our reality a differently, for anything to survive it must eat something else, what sort of a place is this ? You open social media you see humans literally bombing kids and at war for what exactly? You start to look at the world like it’s full of evil. And have a hard time seeing the good in things. I don’t want to talk to people who don’t understand what I mean, I don’t want them to see reality either.
I just recently started meditating for about 5 minutes a day
I’ve been doing this for about 1 week but recently I’ve noticed memories and feelings of nostalgia during it and then after but why?
Back in December last year, I had a 9750 µg 1D-LSD trip (equivalent to 7500 µcg LSD-25). This was quite a mystical experience and a spiritual opening, from which I cannot go back. I am not recommending doing this high of a dose to anyone. I might write about this experience later, but the present post is about what came in the following trips.
I had four more trips this year. Aside for a trip where I was directed by an external facilitator (which happened just once), every trip resulted in a strong and deep purging-style mystical experience. I feel that it is now pointless to set an intent before a trip save for wishing to surrender to the fullest extent to what the experience wants me to go through.
Similarly to what Chris Bache describes in his book covering his 73 high-dose trips (500-600 µcg LSD each), every trip consisted of a first part of "purification" / confrontation (which sometimes felt like eternity), followed eventually by a second part of awe, bliss and "gifts". There was nothing of a recreational or therapeutic nature in those trips, which felt more transpersonal (or beyond transpersonal). In my case, the first part confronted me to what seemed exploitative dynamics on a cosmic scale, the reincarnation system, and the fundamental nature of consciousness; followed in a second part by spiritual teachings, 'soul lessons' and awe.
What is interesting is that this structure manifested itself regardless of what I took (either LSD or mushrooms), of which set and setting I was in, and in what dosage—pure LSD: 200 µcg (twice); dried mushrooms: 2 g (once) and 5.5 g (once). It is like I cannot 'escape' now what the experience wants me to go through. Obviously, tripping in a safe set and setting leads to easier surrender and integration, but I feel that it is beyond the point.
I was wondering if anyone would have experienced similar (or read/heard about something comparable), that is, having a breakthrough trip that results in lowering the necessary threshold (dose-wise) necessary to have purging-style mystical experiences.
Edit: replaced mcg by µg (microgram)
Thrasher, Penis Envy, Golden Teachers, Liberty caps, Ape Revert, Blue Meanies, Jedi Mind Fuck, Albino Avery, Enigma......they all contain varying amounts of psilocybin. Yet some are said to induce strong visuals while other breeds (that might have the same amount of psilocybin) are said to NOT give so much visuals but more introspection. How does that work?
I recently had an experience where I saw what some people call God, and I received a full awareness of my place in the universe. As a result, my fundamental perceptions have changed. I feel completely reborn with a new identity, new beliefs, and a full understanding of the path I’ve been on. I’ve suffered from anxiety and depression for 41 years, and in an instant I realized that I only experienced those because I wasn’t aware of either my path or the truth that everything is just silly. Like the main character on a hero’s journey, I had to fight battles and monsters before I fulfilled my destiny and connected to the universe. Immediately afterward, I suspected I had died, left my body behind, and made it to my perfect heaven (which, as an atheist, I hadn’t believed in). And I realized everything I suffered through for the past five decades was completely worth it, no questions asked. For the first time in years, I want to take care of myself. I have zero guilt or regret about the choices I made or the way that I am. My inner critic, who has been brutal my entire life, is nearly silent. If you have been fortunate enough to have that type of experience, have you ever reverted back to your previous state (like experiencing anxiety or depression)? And if so, were you ever able to manifest a similar transformative experience? Part of me fears that this is just part of my historical pattern of trying and failing to make myself “better.” Before this weekend, I had given up any hope of ever feeling good about myself.
How do you get yourself to trip when you haven’t in a while and it feels daunting?
Just doing some research and was wondering if anyone has any input on it or anything other MAOI's.
I have been intentionally meditating on the nature of evil lately, trying to purposely have bad trips so that I can have the opportunity to confront and understand suffering.
This is important, because there appears some sort of unofficial consensus in psychedelic circles that evil is, in some fundamental sense, unreal. Suffering, evil, malice, destruction, - all of these are in some sense illusory, insubstantial, or non-existent. And to the extent evil can be said to exist, it is secondary to and parasitic upon "the good." The primary reality to these people is instead a triumphant and overpowering "Love" which takes precedence over evil as real and constitutive of the actual substance of things. Pretty much, psychedelic revelation reveals the fundamental goodness and perfection of the universe and the illusory nature of suffering (Evil is the absence of Good, aka Privatio Boni).
But I admit this is incredibly difficult to swallow and just seems outright wrong in my experience.
It is all the more perplexing to me that this "everything is love," or, "love is the answer, bro," nostrum is as popular as it is, because I don't think it stands up to not only the manifest facts of ordinary experience, but also close phenomenological investigation. These are the available positions as I see it:
(1) Privatio Boni (Evil is an illusion, God/the Universe is omnibenevolent)
(2) Privatio Mali (Good is an illusion, God/ the Universe is omnimalicious)
(3) Neutrality (Good and Evil are illusions, God/ the Universe is amoral)
(4) Partiality (Good and Evil are real, God/ the Universe is both)
Partiality and Neutrality are plausible, but Neutrality seems closest to the metaphysical reality. Suffering is just as unreal as bliss and happiness, and both are contingent on the further ground of pure understanding. God is, I would alternatively submit, understanding. As such, good and bad things happen in the universe as means to the end of that understanding. There is understanding in suffering just as much as there is in happiness.
Some people will make the argument that no person does evil intentionally, but only acts evil out of ignorance. That is, they act only for what they think is in fact good. One user on this sub even said when someone acts in an evil way, they do not act consciously. Literally, evil is a kind of nothingness, a confused action. Thus, if you handed to me an enlightened sage in contact with God, he would never act in malice. But this is just the perspective which I don't think makes much experiential sense. If you were truly in the mind of God, what would you see? What would you do, what would you create? You would see what already exists here. You would make hurricanes, wars, smoldering bodies, contorted expressions of pain and misery, loneliness, abandonment, devastation of all magnitudes. You would imagine people humiliating each other, torturing, bullying, deceiving. Allegedly a sage would never do these things, - and yet they all the same happen in the universe. And why? Because God presumably saw the wisdom and necessity in producing them.
You have to confront not only the understanding and intuitive insight you can receive on good trips, but also on bad trips. Honestly confront the evil of the world, bring it into your mind and do not immediately try to sanctify or remove it. Contemplate evil. Understand it.
But I admit in the end that these are difficult matters. I will no doubt continue to try to understand pain, suffering, sadness, evil, negativity.... it cries out for a 'why?'.
I have some shrooms in my cupboard i want to take before they expire. but im currently working through some dark shit right now and im anxious about how intense it will be when i trip
Whenever I take shrooms or acid I feel this sharp pain in the head of my penis and its all I can think about. It wasn't that bad when I first took shrooms but now its really bad I just avoid them altogether. I am circumcised but idk if that makes a difference. One time I took acid and I got really scared I broke my penis because of the strong pain
Hello guys a couple days ago I took some mushrooms and it was cool for like the first 2 hours, but when I was peaking I’m not sure what happened but my neighbors started fighting and that was the beginning of the bad trip. I started to have auditory hallucinations of dogs barking and the police at my door, my mind started spiraling. I started hearing voices when I turned the shower on to calm down it was the first time that has ever happened and I guess that’s what’s still kind of freaking me out right now.
For any of you experienced with psychs was this a form of psychosis or schizo?
Hello,
I have a dear friend of mine who wants to do her first Heroic dose of mushrooms. She is on and off with her ADHD medication and currently on. I am curious to know if anyone has experience with this. I have some questions:
Is it necessary to stop medication before dosing? How long should she be off the medication? Would different medications yield different standards for abstinence?
Please feel free to share any information you have on the subject and thank you in advance!
I’ve had the experience along time ago with green mold ruining a batch of dried mushrooms due to improper storage.
Bought some mushies from dealer and most of them are way too moist in the middle and 1 was full of the mold. I tried just informing my dealer about it not caring or wanting free shit but he’s literally arguing to me that that’s just those “regular blue spots” and shit.
I already know it’s not that, I’ve just come here to complain and try to feel less crazy, y’all know what I’m talking about right.
I’ve separated the batch into several bags to stop cross contamination and try to salvage any dry enough ones and to keep an eye to see if the mold grows.
I’m tired of how the things on this sub are represented in media. I’m sick of Ouija boards, tarot cards, meditating people, and "trip" sequences being shown to us as tokens of something weird and kooky going on... I feel like all of these topics deserve a more serious approach, and I’d like you guys to help me.
I’m writing a game that focuses on transcendental experiences and how they can trigger deep changes in our personalities. The beauty of putting these themes in a game instead of any other medium lies in the ability of games to make the player live through an experience instead of just “relating” to it. Here are things I need your take on:
I would really appreciate any sort of answer. Even if you’re not a gamer, not a visual thinker, whatever, I don’t care about any of that. Any experience you’ve had and any language you may use to describe it will be of great help to me. Thanks; I love you all.
Disassociation is an unconscious choice to avoid fears and pains in our body if we can show ourselves that our body is a safe place to be then we will stop abandoning and disassociating from all the pain and fear we are experiencing and face it head on fully.
Note: I posted this in r/shrooms and r/psychedelics as well. I want to get as much info as possible, so I’m sorry in advance if you’re in those communities and see this there as well.
Anywho, going on a trip with a bunch of friends and one of them will be tripping for the first time. I have personally never done it (it may be my first time also), but I’m a big proponent of psychedelics and lurk most of the communities here on Reddit.
My question is basically the title. I’ve put together a very relaxed music playlist for him, but I want to make sure I give him the best possible set and setting. Any advice would be greatly appreciated and thank you in advance!
P.s.- not every response has to be serious. I’ll show him this post and he’ll get a laugh out of responses that are the exact opposite of what to do lol.
Art is the vessel that makes it out the void of which creativity is quite literally stored in. To understand humanity - you have to observe art.
We really are the universe experiencing itself.
Hope you all had an amazing weekend leading to a productive week. Any recent findings or ideas you’d like to share?
I’ve been reflecting on the visual differences between fractals and paisley shapes during trips, and I’m curious to hear your thoughts. What do you think leads to the appearance of one over the other, and what could be the deeper significance behind them?
Do you think it has something to do with the dosage, or our state of mind at the time? Or is there something about these patterns that holds a particular meaning or message for us?
Would love to hear your experiences and interpretations!
Stage IV Ewings Sarcoma, I was tipped off by a little tumor on my shin that I call lumpy. Lumpy has been around for a couple years and only started hurting sometime in 2023.
For the record, get yer lumps checked. Better safe than sorry. By the time I had my biopsy and PET Scan it had spread to a lymph node that I call lymphy, to my iliac which I call hippy, and to my T9 vertebrae, which I ran out of cute little nick names for.
When the doctor told me (unstaged) sometime in August, it didn't really phase me. In my head I was stage I, even though I could feel the lymph node in my thigh. Even though I had stopped running due to the pain in my hip. It was probably just a reaction from the biopsy. It was probably just sciatica.
The night before the staging appointment with the oncologist I went for my daily walk with my 3 dogs and my (at the time) boyfriend (now husband). Usually the best part of my day; patrolling the hood with my pack. I decided to get a little hiiiigh on some THC gummies (~20mg). I hadn't even cried or shown a sign of fear up until that point, but at that point...it caught up to me. Not the tears. Not yet, but the fear.
My mind told me I was going to die. The mask peeled off and I could see the exposed, ugly, fleshy corpse beneath. I saw how selfish I had been my whole life. How I've been so ungrateful for my job that I complain about cus like "duuude the 9-5 is the killer of the soul". All the times I said "you go without me" to family and friend events my boyfriend clearly wanted me to join him to. All the times I showed people I didn't give a fuck about them and laughed it off as "i'm just a terrible texter".
I was able to talk myself back to a better headspace before drifting off to sleep. Lulled myself back into the fantasy that the oncologist was going to give me a stage I and a high-five and then I would never complain about my job ever again, always text back right away, and go to every single stupid bowling event or pickle ball or whatever thingy my boyfriend wants.
But it didn't go like that. It was stage IV. I heard my parents voice break over the phone. I heard my boyfriend sniffling in between breathes. He and I held it together that day, but the next morning immediately after we woke up we held each other and had the most gut-wrenching, terror fueled cry I think he has ever had.
Two treatments in, and it really feels like a bit of an ego death. You lose your hair, your mass. You lose your identity and become a cancer patient, and you really look like one. Nurses and doctors poke and prod you. They stick probes up your hoo-ha multiple times per week for IVF. They look at your poop moments after you did the deed. You really do not have time for humility or privacy.
You are taken out from the world, from your job, from your social circles. Made completely dependent upon the relationships, the insurance, and the money you have. It pains me to imagine the struggles of someone with less healthy relationships, or a shitty job or no money.
You’re forced to see yourself in a light you never fathomed nor wanted. You’re forced to think about the life you’ve led, and it puts into perspective what is most important.
A little life-hack for those of you starved for connection – be there for people during dark times. Doesn’t matter how mild. Got a cold? Gift em a soup. Going through a break-up? Treat em to a drink at the bar. Got cancer? Show up, make them a meal or write them a letter. Prioritize people over watching another episode of your current binge, or playing another round of video games, or whatever it is that keeps you from showing others you care. Over time, they'll come to love and appreciate your thoughtfulness and concern.
It takes a special person to see darkness in anothers life and tend to it.