Every time I'm at school I feel so exhausted I want to lay down in the middle of the halls and do nothing.

I’ve been suffering what I think is depression for 4 months now I’m in the darkest place I’ve ever been I don’t go out I’m in my room basically all the time before 2024 life was great I had a solid friend group a girlfriend and all but something happened I don’t know if it was the weed or what but I didn’t want to talk to people as much I used to be very outgoing funny guy I feel like a shell of my old self I’m only 15 too I feel like what happened was I stopped going out then I cut off all the people who wasn’t my close friends but still had a good relation ship with and had a laugh with from time to time when I went out with my friends it almost felt like they didn’t like me anymore so I stopped going out with them and some old friends ask me to come out very very occasionally and I really do want to but then I don’t it feels like I’m lonely but I don’t want company I feel like if I died tommorw only my family would care I feel embarrassed to talk to a therapist I haven’t got to the stage of sucidal thoughts yet but I’m afraid I will I don’t want to kill my self I just want to rest forever I’m tired all the time I look tired all the time even though I sleep everything is so draining I just want to fly way to go back back to the good times back to my friends back to normality I’m attempting to start going to a mixed martial arts gym to see if that would help with my mental health I hope it goes well any advice will not be taken for granted keep your head up and I’ll try to keep mine up too.

I'm a college student and I have been diagnosed with dysthymia disorder and I've been feeling useless ever since my friends called me lazy regarding some group assignments. I've been juggling these assignments since most of them have similar and close deadlines. Sometimes I prioritize one assignment (majority are done online) over the other because either my group mates are having a hard time and needed help on the assignment. And sometimes I don't do much work on it since I'm not good at that certain subject. I'm a slow worker and when I'm having trouble/focusing on another assignment I make sure to message the other groups that I will do my parts at a later time or try to ask for help. And so far I've been keeping my promises and have been able to submit on time.

I've been called lazy since I was a child and ever since I've been trying to improve myself. Trying without any of the effort working out has been a recurring problem and has put me in the worst ruts for a long time. When I got to college I felt I was making progress but the lazy comments just keep coming. I don't know what to do my emotions have been welling up and I'm scared of lashing out or break down in front of them. I don't know if I really am useless or not. I tried to ask them what I did wrong but they gave me nothing and passed it off like a joke. I really want to improve but I don't feel like trying anymore.

i feel like i fuck everything up no matter how hard i try, like idk what the point of life is if i just disappoint everybody. i feel like i can't make anybody happy. like im worthless and useless. i just want this feeling to end. i feel fat and dumb and ugly. even though my girlfriend claims im not i don't know what she sees in me...i feel like im just going to disappoint her. i just want to make people proud and happy but i feel like it's impossible. so what's worth living at this point anymore

Hey I’m 19f and I’ve struggled with depression my entire life and everyday im fighting and anytime 1 small thing that is negative happens I go into a complete mental spiral and I’m depressed for days. It’s worse when someone is mad or upset at me, even tho I know I didn’t do anything wrong. I’m a hardcore people pleaser and I stood up to myself today for once and now they’re mad at me. Idk why I care if they’re in the wrong. Idk why I’m like this or how to handle or deal with it. Therapy is too expensive and I don’t rly think I have a safe place to talk abt things

i’m 15f and i’ve hit such a low point in life. i think of killing myself everyday multiple times a day and im sick tbh. i dont really enjoy anything anymore ive lost interest in all my hobbies and barely eat or sleep. (don’t tell me to tell a trusted adult or a parent they’re not supportive at & if i told them i was suicidal id get screamed at lol)

I’m tired of endlessly scrolling through apps to not think, I’m tired of waking up tired. I’m tired of my thoughts and knowing that I will be lonely for the foreseeable future, that my thoughts will always be like and I just have to learn to ignore them.

I have lots of things going for me that people think I should be happy about - I have degree, a good job, I won multiple awards in my field, and I'm even in a band with my best mates (which I dreamt of doing for years).

But ever since a rough breakup last year - that stuff is just not making me feel happy, motivated or fulfilled like I thought it would.

Being loved and in love for the first time felt so amazing that I thought of the other parts of my life as just little 'bonuses' that weren't the real main reason I wanted to wake up every day - I felt bulletproof knowing that even if I didn't have anything else in life I'd still come home to someone who truly loved and appreciated me.

That relationship was my main source of motivation, I wanted a degree, a good job and my awards to help get a nice house to start a great family with a lovely woman - but since that's no longer on the table I don't know what my goal or purpose is anymore, and that makes it hard to get out of bed now.

And I can't tell if that's normal, or if there's a chance I've more depressed than just sad.

I feel alone, I feel so misunderstood and judged even though im not. I just can’t do it anymore, I thought I was getting better but it always stays the same.

I was diagnosed with persistent depressive disorder when I was 12 or 13 and I’m supposed to be better now, but I’m 15 and it’s all coming back, maybe it never left idk.

I’ve been in therapy since I was 5 till 14 ( I also have asd, spd and js family issues) and I’m so done with it, I dont want to go back its too much, but I feel so alone. I just want to die its too much.

I fail at everything, school is too much, my friends and my bf and my family is just too much and I can’t even cry anymore even though I want to so bad, its just too much I can’t do it anymore I’m so tired and I can’t even sleep.

I wanna talk about it but My friends and bf won’t get it, my family will just get worried and send me back to therapy and I really don’t want wanna go I went for 9 years and it didn’t help I’m just done and I can’t even cry.

Anyways, that was it, I just wanted to rant and maybe it’d help me be able to cry but I still can’t, sorry for the rant bye

Im about to get my degree but so fkn what? Only managed to get a third honors, didnt even get it yet and have exams soon.

Who wants to employ you, from a crappy uni with an equally crappy result, useless? You have what, like 3 months experience in your actual proffession and some more in odd jobs here and there no one cares about. Best hope is you get some clergy duties, and thats as far as you go in life. Pathetic.

My only real shot at actually becoming a solicitor is to get fe1's done and find a lawyer who i can impress somehow, solid interview and roadmap of my plans maybe. But even then, id need fe1's for even a shot to get accepted as a practicing solicitor. Much less one like that in some giant firm everyone's gona aply to. Fml. Idk what im gona do but it already looks hopeless.

Unfit, underqualified, basically no experience and youre lazy and depressed. Not to mention all your friends just dissapeared. Let yourself go after your first relationship went to shit. Havent spoken to a human being for more than 5 minutes in like a year. What a great way to get out into the real world.

So ever since I was younger I got bullied bc of my height and my long hair and I passed elementary school with one friend and that has created a bad picture of me and now everyone at my school thinks I'm weird. It's like my whole city doesn't want me or doesn't like me . I get the looks wherever I go. My parents don't care ab the fact that my mental is shit they only care ab my grades (which aren't that good) Now I only have one small friend group in school and 2 friends outside of school wich we rarely go out bc they don't invite me most of the time. I am posting here to ask for help on what should I do. Thank you for your time.

So ever since I was younger I got bullied bc of my height and my long hair and I passed elementary school with one friend and that has created a bad picture of me and now everyone at my school thinks I'm weird. It's like my whole city doesn't want me or doesn't like me . I get the looks wherever I go. My parents don't care ab the fact that my mental is shit they only care ab my grades (which aren't that good) Now I only have one small friend group in school and 2 friends outside of school wich we rarely go out bc they don't invite me most of the time. I am posting here to ask for help on what should I do. Thank you for your time.

Hello all, first time posting. Firstly, please don’t try to change my mind because I’m at peace with my decision. I’ve decided I will be gone by my birthday. The hardest part of this all is knowing how it will hurt my loved ones. They try to understand but they can’t. I want to be able to leave them behind notes and things to help make it easier. So far, I plan on writing a personalized notes for each person, recording myself talking to them, but I don’t know what else I can do for them. Any suggestions?

as a disclaimer, I was raised in a toxic Catholic household so I'll be venting about religious figures, and by venting I mean cursing. If this triggers you or bothers you, please ignore. Also, I'll be mentioning SA.

I've been living almost half my life with depression and anxiety, and had been dealing with paranoia for a long time now. I don't even know where it all went wrong. Maybe it was when my dad became an abusive alcoholic or when I gave up on my dreams and purpose in life because of depression. Maybe it started when I was sexually assaulted by several classmates then proceeded to leak my nudes, making me the "public bathroom" of highschool. Maybe it started when I fucked up so bad, when I hurt my loved ones. Maybe I wasn't meant to be happy at all. Maybe I just deserve to fucking rot in earth then suffer for eternity in hell. Maybe God just hates me because I'm me, and maybe I deserve everything that has happened to me.

I don't see the point of my life, why was I even born? To suffer? Sometimes I think this is all just a big joke from the guy upstairs, and right now he's laughing his ass off as he sees me suffer. And believe me, I tried. I tried to become a better person, I tried to make my life better, I tried to make God believe I was worth it. Hell I went o to therapy for 6 years, I was medicated since I was 14. Did it work? If it did, I wouldn't be venting like an edgelord in the internet right now lmao.

I'm tired of trying. I want to die, but I don't want to commit suicide. If I did, I feel like I would be fulfilling god's wishes, and I don't want that.

I may sound crazy, but this is the way I was raised. If you do a good deed, you're praised and rewarded. If you do something bad, you'll suffer and rot in hell for eternity. Then, why was I punished when I was still a child? when I didn't know any better? Maybe I was a sinner since I was born, or was a horrible person in another life. I thought my soul was pure, but I think it's not anymore. I feel dirty. I feel like I'm the shittiest person in earth. I don't deserve to be happy, but I want to. I fucking NEED to be happy. I need to be ok. I need to. Because if I don't, all of my efforts will go to waste, and I don't want to give god that satisfaction. I forever thank my family for giving me this fucking religious Trauma, because now I have a purpose in life. I will make sure to make God angry by being happy.

Well, that's that. If you read all that bullshit and didn't think I'm histerical, then I thank you.

I’ve been more depressed than usual lately and so I’ve ghosted everyone in my life for over a month. I didn’t even realize how long it’s been or how bad it was. I was completely avoiding everyone and I feel terrible about it. I feel like I should apologize but I also don’t know if it’s a good idea. I don’t want people to think I’m looking for sympathy or making excuses. And some of the people I don’t know as well, so I don’t know if it would be appropriate to tell them the reason. I would really appreciate it if anyone has any helpful advice

Why is it that mostly every day now, I just instantly feel like trash. Like I'll be at work, 5 minutes later, I feel so sad, I just want to dissappear. It's so random and it's starting to piss me off.

Yeah, I'm a sad little bitch baby that's terrible at everything he sets his mind to. I know. I'd rather feel sad all the time rather then have it come in waves.

I broke down in tears at work the other day. Do you know how it feels to have people asking you what's wrong, and you can't answer them because you yourself have NO idea why you started to cry in the first place? That makes me feel even more like a piece of shit and I'm fucking sick of it.

I won't be around much longer if this continues. I simply cannot live a life where I can feel just fine one moment, then all of a sudden I feel the sorrow of a thousand cries.

If I disappeared today, hell there would probably be a fucking parade. I just wish I wasn't such a bitch and I could actually do it. Just a testament to how shit I am at literally everything. Can't even kill myself. What a fucking joke.

Ik it sounds stupid or incel behaviour or whatever but I have had a bit of heartbreak a few years ago and I have not gotten over it. It made me very suicidal. I guess I’ve always been kind of clingy but I cannot handle rejection at all. I am going to kill myself because it makes me feel hopeless. On the apps for weeks without a match. Match - no message. Match - Boring convo 2 word response after a day of waiting. Get your hopes up and they stop responding. No matches, out of likes, please pay to boost. I cannot speak to women in person at all, so these apps are really my only hope. Except for the fact that they make me reallly really just loathe myself to the core. women are so insanely mean all the time. If I’m not the love of their life, they have to find some weird petty way to think they’ve got one over on me. Sorry for messaging, I shouldn’t have bothered you. I guess they have different options or whatever, but it just fucking kills me to constantly have this weird standoffish conversations with people I’m supposed to have matched with, and I’m supposed to be getting to know/like in some respect. I want to fucking kill myself! Please don’t tell me to wait until I’ve focused on myself and solved my depression. It’s my whole life I’m depressed. It’s my whole life I’ve been focusing on myself. It’s my whole life I’ve been waiting. It’s my whole life I’ve been alone. I can’t talk to women. I can’t do it. We’re all adults and old now I’ve missed the practice, I missed learning. Everybody has experience and I am drowning in sorrow. I have some loser stink that women can smell through the app. I hate my self

First off theres a kind of comfort in depression, its not like i can barely get through my day without ending my life but im kinda scared about how my life would be if i was happy. That may sound weird ik. Second, i never have the thought i want to get better its always just i want to die. And i dont see anything wrong in wanting to die i think it makes sense. So why would i try to get better, be happy and live my life if i can just die and its all over? It doesnt make any sense for me.

I’ve lost quite a bit of weight because of my depression(don’t have an appetite) my therapist and psychiatrist have shown concern for me over the past 3 months saying I look very skinny and fatigued.I usually don’t buy clothes often but I recently had to because my clothes won’t fit anymore my medium sized shirts and pants are huge on me.As I was shopping I realized a men’s small is too big for me and a XXS is a bit baggy.Found out I know fit into a boys large for a snug fit,I got concerned and weighed myself after,I’m 112 and 5’8 (used to be 172 and 5’7 last year)should I be concerned about my weight?

This is my first time posting here. I'm hoping for some insight or advice.

I'm 24f and live at home still. I've always grown up isolated from contact from peers due to living in the country. This made being able to relate to people and start conversations very difficult for me as I hadn't had contact with someone my age until I was about 5. Talking to people and starting conversations is still something I struggle a lot with. I was bullied a lot throughout school for being generally awkward and overweight. I've had the same 2 friends since high school, I've only had 1 girlfriend, and I'm silent at work 50% of the time.

Unfortunately, the long reaching consequences of this haleft me living as a hermit. I only go to work, to the store, and back home. I very rarely leave my house for anything. I have a couple friends, but they all live quite far, so we only text. For the longest time, I've been too anxious to put myself out there and meet new people while being too depressed to really want to do anything about it.

I've been taking antidepressants for a while. Since I started taking them, I've cared less and less about meeting people. I've cared about everything a lot less in general. It's like a part of me just wants the world to forget about me, for lack of a less dramatic phrase.

I WANT to meet new people, I want to make more friends, I want to fall in love and have a girlfriend who loves me. I've tried going on dates, talking to people over dating apps/non-dating social apps. However, It's as if my subconscious would rather me die alone. I have no idea how to get myself to give a shit enough to do something about my situation. I want to care, but I feel so apathetic about the subject simultaneously.

How do I get myself to care about me and my social life? I'm overwhelmed.

Thank you if you've read this far. I appreciate anything you can give me.

I haven’t gotten over my high school bullies. They live in my head rent-free. Any time I mess up or something bad happens, I compare myself to them and think of how they would insult me for it.

They’d rip into me for still living with my parents and getting demoted at work if they knew. They’re out there living their best lives and succeeding at everything while I’m still struggling.

They were right when they called me a “loser” then because I still am one now. I’m not fishing for compliments. It is what it is: I’m a loser.

I’m 18 years old, I graduate high school in approximately 25 school days. I have no drivers license, no future career ideas, I work at a dead end job making 10 an hour, but I’m working another job soon starting at 15.25. The only way I can get myself decent income for myself alone is having to work 7 days a week 60+ plus hours combined. I have a few friends, but not sociable in the slightest. Never had a gf, or a good home life. I literally have gone through each day of my life over the past 3 or so years where I have thought about killing myself or wishing I was dead. It’s literally the first thing that comes to mind every morning I wake up and every night before I fall asleep. I pray everyday that I just go peacefully without pain or acknowledgment. Everyone around tells me it’s just “teenage angst” or to “be grateful for what you have” but I quite literally have nothing to be grateful for.

I was a true jerk with trust issues to everyone. I saw enemies everywhere, literally. That was my little paranoia. Blocked a part of my previous acquaintances because of this. I always thought theyre false, toxic, that they consider me a weirdo and gossip about me. I was... horribly, horribly wrong.

Now I'm trying to fix everything up. It won't be easy I guess, but maybe that's how I can finally end improving myself, to change these trust issues that actually have its origin, in people misunderstanding and mistreating me before.

That's how I rly became afraid, that I can't be myself, that I can't be chill around everyone, cuz there will always be someone that will try to ruin my good mood and make fun of me.

To everyone that felt bad cuz of me, I'm sorry guys.

21st birthday is around the coroner and i’m so happy to add alcohol to one of my temporary distractions from life. Hope it makes bedrotting more fun cuz my room feels almost like a jail cell. My father died from complications of drinking and hope to go the same way as he went suddenly with little pain

The average person cares about nothing but wandering around in their car. And accumulating as much property and wealth as possible.

I’ve always known that people suffer from derealization/dissociation but never experienced it myself until last year. I was extremely extremely depressed, at one of the arguably worst points of my life, and to make it worse it was a point that was so important in my life and was meant to be such a wonderful memory and is something I will never get the option to experience ever again. However during this point I was very very sad, spent most nights awake as I couldn’t stop thinking about ways to k/m/s, and was constantly crying. Anyways I am talking about a roughly 3 month long period where i remember only like 3 things that happened.

there's no point in living looking like how i look

So I've struggled with depression since I was about 13. I've gone between meds/self medicating/no meds between now and then (I'm 27f). I've managed pretty well on my own for the past two years but I've been struggling a lot lately with no motivation, always tired, irregular sleep, etc. I went to the doctor and she put me on Lexapro. I've heard of it but had no experience with it. Is anyone currently taking it or taken in the past? Did it help? And did it cause weight gain? I know that sounds trivial but I'm currently struggling with my weight right now and I want to know what I'm getting into, thanks.

Also, my doctor said it would take about three weeks before I'd notice a difference. Is that your experience or did it take longer?

He has mentioned that when I’m “myself” I’m the cutest thing and he loves my confidence. I wish I could be that for him all the time. But I just can’t. I can’t stop hating myself

Today, I experienced a profound encounter that shifted my perspective entirely. As I made my mind up and went to Wallmart to buy supplies for a exit bag.

At a Parkinglot, I encountered him, an elderly gentleman with a wise, weathered face and a twinkle in his eye. Instead of just passing by, we struck up a conversation. He shared stories of his life, filled with ups and downs, laughter and tears.

As we talked, his wisdom and kindness enveloped me like a warm embrace. He listened intently to my struggles, offering words of encouragement and understanding. Despite my inner turmoil, I found solace in his presence.

As we parted ways, he turned to me with a smile, his voice carrying across the silence, "Thank you for sharing your story. Remember, even in the darkest of nights, there are stars to guide you. Keep moving forward."

His words pierced through my despair, and for the first time in months, I felt a glimmer of hope stirring within me. In that fleeting moment, I realized that even amidst darkness, there is light to be found.

To the old man who unknowingly saved me today, I am eternally grateful. Your presence reminded me of the beauty that still exists in this world. May your wisdom continue to inspire others, just as it has inspired me.

Today, I learned that even the smallest act of kindness, even a simple conversation with a stranger, can change a life. And for me, it was enough to carry on for another day.

PS : Never throw away your reciepts even if you think you will NOT return said Item