I thought I was going to be ok, but I really struggled once it began to let go. I did let go, just about, but it was hard. I'm going to do Bufo and I'm worried I'll resist too. Any thoughts on how best to surrender/let go of control and ego?

I am a male in my 30s. In the last few years I have dealt with job losses, extreme isolation and loneliness, anxiety, depression, feeling lost and just being out of touch with reality and personal circumstances. I’ve tried mushrooms before and had a good trip. I felt very in the moment and present.

I am looking to be more present and move forward in life. Would ayahuasca help me in getting my life together and move forward? Would welcome any tips and advice on people who have been through this journey!

I’m doing ayahuasca this Friday for the second time. I have a minor surgery scheduled for five days later. I will not be fully put under, just sedated. Is there any medical reason to reschedule it? I’m not sure what medication will be used to sedate me.

I've done many, many ceremonies. Most with Aya but a few with Yage.

But at least three times now I've had this similar but not exact vision. It seems to be a representation that the world we experience here is essentially a digital, non material, reality. It is like we are inside a digital theater, as digital beings, thinking and acting like it is all material. And we all think this is so real, but that its not. Its just thought. Does that make sense?

Our observable existence isn't an actual tangible place. It is just a mental projection. All of it. I guess like the matrix, pre red pill.

The way they show this to me is taking me "back stage" and showing me that everything on "stage" is just theater... I've even seen my shaman backstage in a small room providing the music to the people out front.

Has anyone seen anything similar to this?

I brew 2.5g mimosa tea + 4g rue tea. The problem is when I drink rue I have to wait an hour for full activation. However, the nausea increase as well and by the time I drink mimosa I purge it within 2 minutes.

I failed twice in a raw and had to just experience the harmala effect for 7-8 hours.

Please suggest a way to ingest mimosa tea to activate it. Can I drink mimosa only 30 minutes after rue? Or can I drink it after I purge rue which is 1:30-2 hours. I appreciate the help.

How does pharma compare to aya? Is pharma as introspective as aya? Is it possible to gain enough knowledge for change from pharma?

I've been looking around Reddit and Google reviews and finding it disturbingly difficult to find a retreat that doesn't have at least one report of sexual assault, or the leader is a westerner who spouts conspiracy theories when you're 6 hours into a trip. I'm starting to think taking Aya isn't for me, because there are so many shady people in this biz. Are there any recommendations that prove me wrong? I could go to the extremely expensive retreats, but it is sad if that's the only option I have. Maybe there are female only retreats around with a good rep?

Totally new to posting anything on reddit so please be gentle with me! :))

I am scheduled to participate in my 2nd Ayahuasca ceremony in December, I will be in town with close friends that I have been trying for several months to share mushrooms with. I will have done ayahuasca on a Friday and Saturday night and was considering doing mushrooms with these friends on Sunday night with Monday and Tuesday to recover, then travel home on Wednesday. If this isn't too stupid, what dose should I do if I've done up to 4.5g in the past? 4.5g was for a ceremonial experience. This time with friends would not necessarily be for me to have a ceremonial experience just more supportive and unitive, Thoughts?

Hi I know generally speaking grandma is not recommended when they’re is a history of psychiatric disorders I have a friend who suffers deeply and I feel like maybe it’s time to introduce him to the medicine The thing is he has got Bi Polar disorder and I was wondering if it’s a red flag or depending on the case as long as shaman approves What do you guys think?

Hello everyone. My friend attended some retreat in my country where she took a ritual with ayahuasca. Alonside that, there was another ritual which should clean your liver and the plant cocoro(or similar name) was used. How my friend explained, the process started by applying the plant (which was poisonous), then you have to take it out of your body by throwing up and drinking a ton of water. The organizators were shady in the first place, and the ritual ended with one guy going sick and they took im to the hospital.

My firend luckily didnt take the ritual with the unknown plant, she only took ayahuasca.

Does anyone know which plant might be used here? Thank you in advance.

Have known of the Facebook group for a while, but only now trying to join. Tried joining 3 times in the last week, but they're not approving. Anyone here know why that might be or how I can get in? Anyone try to join recently and get approved? (Or not?) Or if anyone knows the admin (listed as Michael) or the other moderator (listed as Skye) and can pass on the message, I'd be very grateful. My attention is being turned towards dieting and I could really use the help and guidance.

Thank you for any help :)

What exactly is it? Is it necessary to have a guide or therapist or can I do this on my own?

I'm considering embracing Ayahuasca again and if this is something that can help me pre-ceremony, then I want to take advantage of it.

Many thanks ❤️

I’m getting ready for a week long retreat in Iquitos (Yosi Ocha) starting Dec 2. I’m a seasoned traveller but have never been to S.America or an Ayahusca retreat. I have some questions:

1. Do I need bug spray?
2. What about laundry facilities? Detergent?
3. Should I bring a laptop? (Not needed for work)
4. Any book recommendations?
5. Is it appropriate to tip?USD? Soles?
6. What’s the drinking water situation at these places?

Thank You!

My friend and I are planning a trip to South America to partake in some indigenous ceremonies. I would greatly appreciate any recommendations for retreat centers and such. Ideally looking for less touristy settings. We’re really craving a dirty, authentic experience. Thanks in advance 🙏

Lots of people doing this work in Costa Rica. Market saturation combined with economic factors make me infer there are probably a lot of outfits that come and go these days along with plenty of newcomers. not saying they are not worth the exploration but I've been down to Costa Rica a few times now to and drank a couple of times. New Life Rising (formerly new Life Ayahuasca) is a place I cannot recommend enough. Relatable down to earth hosts, small groups, fair price. I hear SolTara is good too however I cannot personally vouch for them, but I do hear lots of good things from them. But of course, I'm still going to recommend New Life for anybody looking to try for their first time or who just want to explore a new place to drink.

Hello! I’ve signed up for a trustworthy retreat with three back-to-back ceremonies in a couple of weeks, based on a friend’s recommendation.

I’m probably a good candidate: I’m healthy, have spent months at a Zen Buddhist monastery, done many silent retreats, and had a life-changing experience with 3.5g of shrooms at 20 (I’m 26 now). I struggle with anxious attachment in relationships but have worked my way from a deep hole years ago to being generally quite happy, grounded, and trying my best to be kind.

That said, I’ve only microdosed shrooms a few times in the past six years with mixed results, and weed tends to make me very anxious. And while I really want to do this, I’ve been reading about all these horror stories of depersonalization or making rash decisions after or whatever. And I like my life! So I’m worried about something going amiss after taking the drug.

I’d love to hear any advice or thoughts to help think through these fears. Thanks!

I've read somewhere that once you pay for the Ayahuasca retreat, she starts working with and through you. It's been a few days since I paid for my retreat and I've been massively purging. It's quite overwhelming to be honest. I'm also coming off medication at the same time.

I'm supplementing the meds with magnesium, cbd oil and capsules as well as true hope emp supplements. I haven't heard people talk much about pre-Aya purging. Is this normal? Also, it seems as though everything's coming up to be looked at like fears, beliefs, thoughts unprocessed and unresolved traumas.

I have a therapist that I see regularly but it doesnt seem like enough. I think I may need more support pre-ceremony. Does anyone know anyone that can help me with pre-ceremony preparation?

I have booked an ayahuasca ceremony in three weeks. I took Isd yesterday(just read that it was not a super good idea). Am I crazy? The ceremony leader told me that if I have medications etc but I don't have any and to avoid suger, red meat and cannabis etc. This is don't really feel good. Should cancel my booking and wait longer for stabilizing my brain and my body or what should I do?

Hello, I was searching for affordable Ayahuasca ceremony in Thailand (potentially in Cambodia/Laos if not here).

I would expect it to be cheaper than in EU and better quality. I haven't done this one and would like experienced facilitators.

Since I am traveling, I can't exactly follow the guidelines/restrictions pre and after in regards food etc..but for a couple of days I can manage.

Any suggestions please where to find someone?

Hi to all and thank you for being part and sharing your thoughts in this community. Love to you all. Out of nowhere I have been drawn to the Ayahuasca world. I’m interpreting this as my calling to grow, evolve, interpret and release some negative emotions. Become a better me and human. After connecting with a Shaman I have started with my journaling and connecting with nature and trying to let negative thoughts go. I have suffered with depression for probably 25 years of my life. I’m 50 now. I have done things through life that I am not proud of. I want to get the most out of my experience as possible, if that means facing my demons and depression I’m open to it all. I don’t want to be scared of it though. I want to accept and embrace as part of my journey.No matter if that’s hard or not. I also want to learn to love myself and learn how to accept myself and ultimately find peace and happiness in life. Any guidance or direction would be greatly appreciated.

Hi there!

I just wanted to share this kind of feelings that I have in several sessions. How when I'm flying through the multiverse I discover different conspiracies related to people involved in my Ayahuasca. Examples of these conspiracy ideas may be that the shaman already knew that I was going to go to that session, or that the driver who took me to the session, and who denied having taken Ayahuasca, revealed to me the name of my future daughter. Other detailed example: Once the owner of a hostel was offended and expelled us when he found out that that night we were going to do Ayahuasca, and then, during the trip I "discovered" that he simply wanted to throw us into experience and that he is also in the dimension of Ayahuasca.

These types of thoughts and ideas that come to me during sessions sometimes take the form of telepathy with some friends or people I know. I feel that they are watching me during the experience, that they are masters of this realm, that have more wisdom than myself and that I can communicate with them. Obviously, this is false, because the next day when I talk to them they are surprised and laugh at these ideas.

The thing is that all these things seem to be just illusions of the mind or tricks or I don't know, but when I'm inside the Ayahuasca realm everything feels like so true.

What do you think about these things? Have you ever experienced something similar?

...and I'm still trying to to find the words for this indescribably beautiful experience.

At least for the past few years amid constant upheaval, I had been feeling very disconnected from myself, focused instead on survival and deflecting an incessant barrage of challenges. Last evening, with great gentleness and powerful healing love, Grandmother coaxed my soul out of the safety of its chrysalis and flooded it with the warmest and most beautiful light.

One of the most memorable messages I received is "bloom where you're planted." In other words, whatever choices we've made to get us to where we are, we're called to share our light with others. Find the right soil where you can grow, make sure you have enough nutrients, water and sunlight to thrive, and remember to check your garden for weeds now and then. And if others aren't ready or willing to receive your light, remember that does not reflect poorly on you. Just as the light of a candle isn't diminished when it lights another candle.

I will share more as I continue to move forward and integrate, but whether you are soon-to-be first-timers or seasoned travelers on this journey, for now I wish you all the peace, light, and healing that Grandmother has to offer.

Hello! This may be my first time posting on Reddit as a whole so forgive me for any inconveniences. So I’m a 20M who has tried most of the drugs you can get, and been pretty underwhelmed. Even smoking DMT in pure form twice just caused me to black out and not get to experience what I wanted.

This being said, I am chasing the feeling of a life time. But I also understand the depth of ayahuasca, its spiritual practices, and dangers. I’ll be reading more on these as well. My main question here is whether the Chacruna leaves (Psychotria Veridis) can be directly supplement with pure form DMT? Considering it is already a fine dust I would assume it would be soluble to boiling however would it mix and give the same properties as the plant, given it could be other herbal compounds that effect the trip. If anyone has any ideas or insight here it would be helpful!

TLDR: Chacruna leaves seem to be difficult to track down even on the dark web. Is it possible to use pure DMT powder to substitute the leaves?

If so, why? Did your experience help confirm it?