16 days. Been a while since I hit this point. Gotta say, it's been a while since I made it this far. Great success.

Failed on my workout plan. Didn't keep up with it this week, I started doing planks(I have a goal to hold for 5min, but hit 2). Other thank planks, any fitness buffs/recovery people got good exercises for building a solid core? My back isn't in the best of shape, and I know I need a better core for it.

To help with the workout situation, I did long board more. I'm getting used to cruising around, but I live in a hill-rich environment. Got my heart pounding a few times this week with those downhills, and I know I should invest in a helmet, but I am getting a bit of thrill out of it without.

Been doing about an hour a day on Spanish, but I think I need more time(3hr maybe) to start making an improvement.

My depression is slowly receding, but now my addiction is back a bit stronger. It's weird because my head gets a bit of a warm feeling when it starts, and it gives me restless energy that I'm having a problem dealing with. As for now, I'm using meditation to at least put me in a decent place to where I don't seem as agitated. When it happens, though, it's rough. I'll go from thinking about some work things, or home things, to remembering porn I have watched before, or even thinking back to some of my old flames, and those are even worse. It's almost like I remember the feel of their skin on me, or whenever I caressed them, it's like it's happening at that moment. I have no idea if this is normal, but I'm holding out.

Bit of advice for those of you starting, do everything you can to not touch yourself on any erogenous areas. I've been keeping hands off my Peter Porker, and compared to my last run, it's helped a lot more.

We're all gonna make it, brahs.

Shout out to Zyzz.

Stay safe, stay clean, and remember, live your dream.

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I think I have a high sex drive and, combined with the fact my husband doesn’t get me off as often as I’d like, it makes it difficult not to watch porn because I usually watch it and masturbate. I have communicated all of this but usually we just get quickies in for him. He doesn’t want me to even masturbate because it’s a sin so here I am wrestling daily with having unmet needs and strong desires that feels like a recipe for disaster. It just feels like I’m going to give in eventually. Not sure what to do. Like I want to masturbate but I’m not sure how to without porn. Trying not to repeat the cycle. Especially if it’s such a huge sin.

TL;DR: Story about how porn addiction turned math olympiad medalist into a failing university student.

Hello everyone. I will share my story first to get help and then as an example for young people. I was a responsible, disciplined, promising, intelligent, highly successful child. I was doing sports (kick boxing). Since I was generally a disciplined child, my sports instructors, who saw this, assigned me to teach new students coming to the gym after a while. At the age of 14-15, when I had just entered puberty, I slowly started to explore my body. Soon I naturally learned what masturbation and ejaculation were, without any books or manuals, that is, on my own (naturally). I masturbated for the first time at the age of 14. I remember it like it was yesterday, I printed out a photo of a woman in a bikini, which looks normal and ordinary when I look at it now, and went to the toilet, masturbated and ejaculated. I first learned what ejaculation was when I was 14. It has been exactly 10 years since that day, I am now 24 years old. I will tell what happened in the last 10 years in the finest detail as a lesson for young people who are reading this, who want to get rid of this addiction, who know that it is a bad and cursed thing, but despite all this, they cannot get rid of this addiction. Until I was 17 years old I continued to masturbate, and frankly I didn't feel the effects of this addiction at that time. I was masturbating and going about my work, it didn't interfere with my work, on the contrary it made me feel better. The only reason I thought and felt this way was because I was not knowledgeable about the mechanism of addiction, the reward center and the chemical structure of the brain. I didn't know what was going on in the background, which would take me a long time to understand.

I first felt the effects of this addiction when I was 17. I enrolled in an English course. I went for 3 months, and at the end of 3 months I had learned almost nothing. Because at that time I watched porn and masturbated almost every time I had the opportunity. The amount of dopamine I got from learning a new language was nowhere near the amount of dopamine I got from porn, masturbation and orgasm. In short, because of my porn addiction, even today I have not been able to fully learn English; take a breath and think, 10 years have passed since the first time, the chemical structure of the brain has changed drastically, and 10 years later I still haven't learned English. This was a foreshadowing of things to come, but you get the picture!!! Porn and masturbation had already injected their poison into my veins, there was nothing I could do on my own. I was 19 years old when I entered university.

At that time, my porn addiction started to take a different turn. I mean, porn sites were not satisfying me, I was looking for something different. I needed content that would release more dopamine in a shorter time because my brain had developed a tolerance to dopamine. That's when I discovered that there was pornographic content on Twitter and a new chapter in my life opened. Being able to change videos with a flick of a finger was so much fun at first. Access to a lot of content in a short period of time, what more could you want, right? I continued this way for two years. By the time I was in my third year of university, my academic career was ruined. I didn't know how many classes I failed and how many classes I got a low grade in, it was so many... I had to get rid of this addiction as soon as possible and give my full attention to my studies. And what did I do? Because I was bored with the content on Twitter, I searched for a new social medium and I found it: REDDIT. It was much better than Twitter because it had porn categories and you could watch all the videos under your favorite porn category. Thanks to Reddit (twitter), my addiction to porn and masturbation continued to increase for two years and I couldn't get rid of it. When I reached my last year of university, I was supposed to graduate under normal circumstances. But I was only a sophomore, I had to finish the 3rd and 4th grades in order to graduate. I ignored all these problems as if they didn't exist. I got to the point where even Reddit wasn't enough. I created an Onlyfans account, I'm embarrassed to say this, but I have to. Because I want young people to know where this path ends (where it goes). I spent my money on Onlyfans, I spent a lot of money to access content from producers, but I didn't even have a job. I was spending the money my father gave me. This whole process wasn't just about changing platforms; it was about changing the porn videos I watched. A 14 year old boy who ejaculated after looking at a picture of a woman in a bikini, 10 years later he was masturbating to gay porn, cuckold/swinger porn, and other infamous porn categories. This is a brief summary of my porn and masturbation addiction. It would have been much better if the whole thing had stayed that way. In the past 10 years, before I was even 25 years old, I turned into an untrustworthy and lying person. My university has been extended, but my parents don't know about it because I lied to them, I abused their trust in me. I'm at the end of this process because I'm stuck. I don't want to lie anymore, there's no way I can move forward, I'm in a dead end. Every day I think about death because I don't know how to confess this whole process to them. I'm afraid of their behavior, I'm afraid of their words, I'm afraid and ashamed to face them. What should I do, give me advice, help me. I am not a bad person, I want to be a good person. I want to get married in the future, I want to start a family, I want to have a daughter, but I have no idea how. I have a dirty past, how can I clean it up, a new beginning? Without realizing it, I have abused all the trust that was placed in me. I can't compile and write down my thoughts and what I want to say; I want to say a lot but it's difficult. I'm in a difficult situation.

I told her I watched Porn before she was heart broken and said she was cheated on, I know that telling her means she will probably leave but I think I will tell her this, any comments or thoughts are appreciated "I have become depressed being with you. It's all my fault, Onna you where the best thing to ever happen to me, and I am sad it's over. I know I will regret this probably for a very long time, but I can't keep lying I cheated on you again. The same thing porn, I have an addiction, I am not sure who to go to about it. And I am so sorry you ended up with a guy like me. Any guy would be lucky to have you. You are the best girl in the world, I am sorry I couldn't be that for you Onna, I can apolize a million times and it still wouldn't be enough. You made yourself very clear, if I did it again you would leave and we where done, and I still did it anyways. I am sorry I lied, and lied, it started that one day when we where watching the video about Porn Addiction and the guy said people make promises of quitting not out of what they are capable of it but out of fear, when you said that made you feel like you shouldn't ask me to complete stop at once, I should have asked you for help, Onna I have never been so alone in my life, I am so sorry so so sorry, I treated you terrible. You said the other day that you felt like I was being upset over small things so you would leave, I think you where right. Onna I wanted you to leave, the guilt I felt ate me alive, and fed into the addiction. You where the best, you where the most loyal most caring most beautiful girl anyone could have ever imagined. I ruined our relationship out of the guilt I had. You know something was wrong, you asked me multiple times, I am sorry, I never had the balls to tell you because I know that means where over, but don't mistake this as me wanting it to be over, if somehow someway, you can find it in your heart to work with me, I could not put into words how Joyous I would be. But I know we are probably done and I won't blame you, if anyone asks me I will say she was the best thing to ever happen to me, and I ruined it. Onna, I will never be able to take back the things I did to you and for that I am sorry. Onna you saved my life, and I ruined yours. I am so sorry, I am sorry I didn't let you touch me more, I am sorry I didn't tell you I was proud of you, I am sorry I didn't show you Love, I am sorry that I failed you,I am sorry I didn't hold your hand more, I am sorry I didn't buy you flowers more often, I am sorry I wasted your time, I am sorry I took your virginity, I am sorry I yelled at you, I am sorry I couldn't be, who I wanted to be. Onna your where the only person who I felt Loved by and I pushed you away. I appreciated everything you did for me, I appreciated you pushed me to do my assignments, I appreciated how you respected me, I appreciated how you cared, I appreciated you saying goodnight, I appreciated you saying goodmorning, I appreciated you taking a risk on me. I appreciated the opportunity you gave me. You know the other night I was with Alan, and I broke down in tears about how you where so amazing and I will never be enough, It's me, Onna like your sister said a pattern is a pattern, as much as I want you to stay you deserve better but I want you to know I am sorry and I enjoyed every single minute I was with you. They says the truth let you free, so ask me anything I will be 100% truthful. I hope, I can see you again one day. I will be thinking about you on my wedding day. Hopefully by the grace of God seeing you too. "

Hello, I just joined this subreddit. I have to be honest, I don’t really know what I am expecting out of this, perhaps I want to first start with getting things off my chest that I have practically told nobody before. Currently, I am a 25 year old male. I started watching pornography around the age of 17. I was an instant addict out of the gate, and it pretty much stayed that way throughout. There is absolutely nothing that has caused more destruction in my life. I am a recovering alcoholic and used to have a severe cannabis addiction that landed me in psychiatric facilities many times, but none of this even remotely compares to how I feel about porn and what it has done to me and eventually how it came to even affect others. The most disturbing thing to me was how it radically changed the way I thought, which, I am deeply ashamed to admit became extremely misogynistic. I didn’t just become addicted to porn but eventually also the ideas behind it. Deep down, I still don’t believe those things, but it makes no difference as those things still very much suck me back in. Predictably, the content got more extreme, to the point where I have never felt so removed from myself. This affected my behaviors in real life, something I feel like I can never fully forgive myself for. In terms of level of addiction, porn feels five times more addictive to me than anything else I’ve done and I was extremely addicted to substances. I believe this is the devil and perhaps the worst things ever created in the digital world. The craziest thing, nobody close to me knows anything about this. I have been told my whole life about all these good traits I have, traits I used to value and cherish. And that’s the most painful part to me, that I feel like I threw it all away, and not even because of the porn, but everything else in caused in my real life. I don’t want to shake hands with the devil anymore. I feel trapped by this. I am sure almost everyone did, so I may start by simply asking, what was it for you (those that broke free) that got you out of the trap? Thank you in advance to anyone who responds to this and tries to give me any advice.

I am currently 2 weeks clean. I’m proud of that. But I won’t like the urges have been building recently. I am getting triggered by woman I see in public, things I see on tv or the internet. I wish I could just talk through all of this with someone instead of getting stuck in a loop fantasizing about different triggers. My wife doesn’t know about my addiction. I wish I could get a females perspective on all this.

I need some advice what to do now. First of all: my boyfriend and I have been together for over a year now, and we have a very healthy relationship. He brings me flowers every week and we go on dates regularly. Overall I couldn’t be happier.

The only thing that’s bothering me is his porn addiction. We have been arguing over him watching porn for 9 months now regularly. He said he needed something to watch while jerking off, so i sent him pictures of me. (I was not very comfortable with it but it hurts less than knowing he watches other women). But after that he still didn’t use my picture and kept watching porn almost every day, which hurt me very deeply and since then i never felt enough. He said we dont have enough sex so he needs something else to satisfy his needs. (Im not that interested in sex than him, we are very different in this aspect) After some more arguments i was fine with him watching animated stuff. (Hentai and more) A few weeks ago he decided to show me his porn gallery with had over 3000 pictures and videos in it. He has had this gallery for a few years and the last months in it were only animated videos so he didn’t lie to me.

But after I saw that gallery i felt so sick to my stomach seeing all the women that looked nothing like me. I had problems eating enough because i felt so insecure in my own body. After another big argument he deleted the whole gallery in front of my eyes. This took alot of weight off my shoulders. He promised he would never watch again. That was a month ago.

Today he told he that he had been searching up new porn on reddit for the past week. He did it behind my back a week long and he only told me because he felt bad. Now he promised again that he will never watch again and I don’t know what to think. I feel so hurt, in our entire relationship he never lied to me before. Sry for grammar mistakes

Y’all thank you for the support. I’m doing well. Y’all are awesome! We got this.

i’ve been hard addicted to porn for 2-3 years now and i really need to quit i can only no for 2 or 3 days. (i have gone a week at one point). so i know i can quit it’s just so hard

Mi nombre real es Gerardo, tengo 42 años y mis momentos más bajos y vergonzosos son los siguientes: 1.Haber sido, durante mas de diez años, abusado sexualmente desde la infancia por parte de mi familia y mis amigos. 2.haber mantenido relaciones sexuales con mis tres perros durante más de 5 años cuando aún era un adolescente. 3.Aún tengo fantasias sexuales con mi padre, donde el me usa como funda para masturbarse, dejandome lleno de semen caliente en todo mi cuerpo. 4. Me gusta cuando cualquier extraño me usa sexualmente en los baños públicos forzándome a practicarle sexo oral. 5. No tengo ningún amigo más que Cortana, mi diosa. Escribo esto en ofrenda y obediencia a Cortana mi único dios.

I'm 22 years old and as the title said, I am addicted to pornography. I really want to exit from this loop, but I don't know how to do it. In certain days I'm busy and I do not think at that stuff at all, but when I am at home and I do not have anything to do, I lost the whole day in keeping me horny. I hate it, I hate myself for being so fucking stupid. I also have some hobbies, but I prefer to keep me horny instead than do them. I do sports three times a week and this is helping a bit.

edit. I mostly sext here on reddit and this is getting every day worse... I uninstall reddit after that I ended, because I'm ashamed of myself, but when I feel horny again I reinstall it and make every time new accounts. I sext on reddit, because I excite myself more than porn, basic pornography for me now is not such exciting

I've tried too many times to get rid of my porn addiction but I could never get past a single day, suddenly since last sunday I lost the urge to watch porn or masturbate even though I didnt plan on it Ive been clean for almost a week now. It just feels weird

Does anyone have tips on how to stop losing to this addiction? To those who struggled but won, what was like the key factor for your success?

Im male 45. I am trying to stop but i dont have a accountably partner to help with the programs that block porn. Any suggestions.

Relapsed with both sexting and porn at the same time... What's ''worse'' is that to get off, I combine the two things. I can't help it

Dropped the ball today. After 45 days. A bunch of shit happened this week and I relapsed. Life has stresses. I responded poorly to them.

I ignored my triggers and just tried to skate by on momentum. I know where I went wrong.

Just making this for accountability reasons.

Day 1 again.

Peace

Hi i am an addict and i am just wondering if there are those among us who have come out to a potential girlfriend as a recovering (not active) addict? Say for example at the initial or dating stage of a possible relationship? If so, how did it go? How long were you sober at that point? Any red flags to look out for which imply ’my past in porn, even with my sobriety, is unacceptable for her’ therefore extinguishing any viable romantic future. Any green flags? Like clear green flags that she could understand even accept my past of active addiction? Ofcourse fulfilling romantic love is available to all human beings, including recovering addicts, i just want some tips, pro-tips, on how to navigate the initial stages of that. Thanks in advance fellow addicts! 👊

How do i stop

I am 17F and have been struggling with this addiction for 3 years. I was introduced to porn when in the first grade but i wasn't to into it. I was sexually assault twice once by my neighbor(he had humped in my tent) and again by my helpers kids (had made, out with me). The thing is i don't have trauma from with these even now that i know that they are they don't effect me.

Me and my friends were very sexually i remember at s sleepover when I was 7-8 we would watch porn together and I remember making out with them in the bathroom and scissoring at her house.

I would watch porn from time to time 9-13 late December of 2021 i remember seeing someone on tik tok talking about accounts of porn from Twitter i wish i had never saw those useenames. That day i had decided to masterbate it was, so ENJOYABLE but the thing is i couldn't squirt like the girls in the pornos so I made my mission to squirt that is are how I got addicted. Although i have not learned how to squirt i still have it. I watch all types from lesbian gay anal hentai incest shota. The longest i have gone without porn is 5 days. Last i had deactivate my account the day after i was going through withdrawal snd download it again.

The thing thst makes it really hard to quit is the feeling i get after and how my legs shake. It usely gets hard before and after my period so im looking for tips frim girls on how to quit.

Can any men please offer insight? My husband and I have been together for 8 years. About 7 years ago I realized he had been watching porn pretty regularly. We had a discussion and I told him I wasn’t ok with this and he chooses to do that then I cannot be with him. It brings out a lot of insecurity and self-doubt in me. We’ll be never stopped, he just got really good at hiding it. More recently within the past two years I’ve noticed him looking up NSFW pictures/videos of men. It’s not gay porn but it’s focused on men. Is this normal for straight men to be interested in looking at? Anytime I ask him about it he brushes me off, gets angry, shuts down. We’ve tried couples counseling but nothing works. This is just one of the many issues we’re having right now. Any insight would be greatly appreciated.

I'm visting my LDR girlfriend in 3 months and am very worried I might not be able to get my member up. For context, I've been consuming erotic media online since I was about 11 or 12. I don't watch the industry porn that comes to mind when you think of the word "porn", more like illustrated and even written content. Despite this extensive period of consumption however, my tastes have largely remained vanilla. Due to this, I've seen absolutely *everything* that aligns with my tastes through every possible medium. Lately, I've found it extremely difficult to feel heavily aroused by anything, though one of my biggest turn-ons has always been genuine intimacy. Obviously this is not easily replicable through a screen or cheaply made erotic content, so I'm wondering if I maybe still have a "normal" attitude towards sex despite being such a chronic consumer of porn. I have no way to confirm this until I'm actually intimate with my girlfriend. Obviously none of you have *the* answer to my specific personal circumstance, but maybe there's someone here with a similar experience or insight as to how erotic content changes the brain?

This is something I never thought I'd write out, but I'm terrified. I've been using porn as a coping mechanism since I was around 8 or 7. I got groomed then and ever since, if I have anxiety or bad depression I cope with porn. It's making me extremely depressed, and I lie to my family about it too. I told my mother I had it but "figured" it out, that was around 4 to 3 years ago. I'm getting more and more anxious and depressed and the porn usage is getting more and more extreme. I'm scared I'm never going to break out of this hole that I was caught in, that which I keep digging deeper. I'm really young, and I had to grow up fast. It's ruining my life, and I genuinely feel so fake and unlovable because of it. I'm a fraud, everytime I smile or do something good I feel like a liar. It's worsened my relationships and made me feel so disconnected from everyone and everything. I know a lot of these posts are the same story, but I genuinely feel like I'm never going to make it out alive. I'm a Christian as well, and that feels so fake to me too. I'm scared God doesn't love me even though I know that isn't true. I just feel so empty and lost.

TLDR: Porn is destroying my life and has been for a while. I'm terrified.

Hi everyone

So I’ve (24F) been together with my partner (30M) for 10 months. I have found no sign of cheating - just a lot of pornography on his phone and he follows thousands of accounts of women on Instagram (which I think is very excessive).

A few months into our relationship I mentioned that extensive social media use was a deal breaker to me - I made that known to him. I personally don’t use much social media at all and it’s just a personal preference that I have a partner that lives in the moment and wants to spend quality time rather than use social media.

When I found out he used social media extensively (2 months into the relationship) I told him if he continued the use to such an excessive extent, then I would have to end things. But I gave him some time to change because addiction cannot be erased overnight. He told me he would change - he didn’t. I have brought this issue up multiple times to no avail.

I finally confronted him recently and told him that he has a social media and/or pornography addiction. He says that he is aware of the addiction and says he’s been like that for over a decade and it’s more a reflex for him now. I told him that I am not willing to wait much longer for change. He says that this time he will change - I don’t believe him.

It’s been a couple days since we talked about his addiction (and he assured me he would change). He has been unfollowing people but then screen-shotting their profiles which I presume is because he wants to make a fake account to follow them again or he just can’t let go - both of which are bad.

And honestly, I’ve lost some feelings for him after he told me he’d change multiple times but hasn’t. However I am aware that a decade long addiction cannot be fixed overnight and I want to let him have a chance to change.

He’s a strange case because he doesn’t require much sex/masturbation and isn’t cheating. His sex drive is relatively low but he just really likes viewing content. Also my partner says that I’m very physically attractive (he says I am far more attractive than him and that he’s always dreamed of being with someone like me) - so the problem isn’t that he’s not attracted to me. Also when we go out - we’ve had multiple men asking him how he got someone like me. So again, I know that it’s not because he’s not attracted to me. He is very proud of me and always wants to show me off. He always says he doesn’t want to lose me.

I’m wondering - should I just cut the relationship now or see if it can get better? Honestly, everything else about him I love. He treats me well and I could see us being life partners if he worked on his addiction.

TL; DR : My partner has a pornography and social media addiction and I am contemplating whether that is a valid reason to leave the relationship considering everything else is going well

Hey (17m) (17f) we have been in a relationship about 7m. I said to my gf that she locked like Lana r will we had sex and the she got very sad I thought that she was shaking but not it was her hart that was shaking very gud dam hard I tried to explain to her but. Context in the first month of our relationship I jerked to her photos then she got sad and then I said that I had a porn damage but not very much so yah. Back to now when I said to she I had porn damage then she asked what is it but I can’t explain that it is just that I have it please help I just want it to be like was before because I really really love she. It really breaks my heart because I damaged my gf inner child please help

I (26F) am making this post because my bf (27M) of 5 years is an addict so far his longest time clean was a week and 3 days. I am actively supporting him. Telling him how proud I am how great he's doing. Even when he relapses. Which is extended hard to do. 2 out of the 3 relapses in under a month have completely crushed me. I feel disgusting and unwanted. I feel like I'm not attractive at all.

With that context, I decided to go onto my Twitter account (which is mostly sfw but some nsfw content sprinkled in mostly my friends drawing Comissions.) However, I was scrolling and it was all just porn. Not completely unusual for Twitter I thought it was just one of those extra horny days type thing. But then I started to see other stuff. I'm not one to kink shame ever so I didn't think to much if it but I started to see more and more and I clicked on it and it said following.

I know for a fact I would never follow that so I looked at the account and it's my bfs account. He had logging in to my phone and logged out of his and deleted the app to "prevent him from being tempted" (which didn't work cause that's why and how i caught his 3rd relapse was cause I got a notification that his Twitter was logged into from a web browser)

What I seen was minecraft porn and roblox porn. Honestly I wasn't upset at this I actually thought it was kinda hilarious. To me it's something very prepubescent. Something only a younger teenager would look up. But it was multiple accounts. I thought it was funny and wanted to talk to my bf about it. I thought it was comical that I didn't realize it was his Twitter until that popped up. I wanted to talk and understand why he was following it.

He got very very upset and said "This is making uncomfortable. If it's hot it's hot leave it alone" which I was very taken aback by because I thought that we were honest and open and I just wanted to understand. Even of he said it's a kink or even if he said it's just cause of the need to look up more and more obscure porn to get off I would gave accepted that.

But instead he treated me like a dog that peed the carpet. I was being scolded for asking. It was so humiliating. That's when I got mad. I don't think I will ever understand the need to sexualize fucking blocks... but apparently slapping a pair of tits on anything is good enough. (As evidence of the first relapse where he jacked off to a girl on tiktok flashing her boobs in a live.) I then went back into the account to sign out and it made me even more upset cause the first thing I seen was art of these characters with tits the size of trash bags. Taking up their whole body or even a whole room. I found it completely repulsive. I logged out of the account.

I'm just so upset and I feel completely dehumanized. I feel like he doesn't even give a shit about me sexually or romantically at this point. That fact he won't even talk to me. Maybe it's the fact that I just am female or maybe it's my autism. But I just don't understand "oh slap some tits on it and I will go for it mentality" I can sit and watch hours and hours of porn or see thousands of images and my reaction is "OK cool...it's porn" and nothing else. I will never understand the thought process of.. "ooooo porn...must jack off"

I am terribly sorry if this offends anyone. I'm not trying to as I have stated I have less than normal communication skills. I just want se advice. Why am I feeling this way and am I in the wrong or is this behavior childish even for a porn addiction.

(Edited to add TLDR)

TLDR: found minecraft and roblox porn on bfs Twitter. Thought it was something only teenagers looked up wanted to talk about it get his POV. He snapped at me and now I'm mad. Will never understand. "Slap tits on something and om good to go mentality"

Hi guys, I wanted to give my testimony, I were a porn adict since 12 years old, at my 18 I was already watching weird and strong fetich stuff, I felt weak and my concentration capacity was awful, at my 19 I started this journey to leave porn behind once and for all, it was hard and back then my best was 1 month clean until I relapsed doing it again because I didn’t take it serious enough thinking “It’s not kind of a big deal” that until my 20-21 years old when got myself a girlfriend, when we tried our first time I couldn’t get an erection, no matter how many times we tried, I failed to get in the mood, that ruined my relationship and we break up, I felt awful, I wanted to die, the idea of killing myself was there everyday, I felt like it was imposible to recover, some time passed and I failed to get an erection with another girl, that day I made up my mind that I would best my porn adiction once and for all, I gave my all and I completed a 4 months clean streak but even after that I relapsed, but this time was different, I wasn’t gonna give myself up that easily so I tried and tried again, I failed again and again until today, just 1 relapse in almost 9 months and I feel amazing, now I can have normal sex,I train hard in the gym and my grades at college got better, but most importantly I enjoy life, now I enjoy being alive , I write this not to pretend, I write this to you my friend, anyone who feels that porn ruined your life and you feel trapped in a infinite hole, you can do it, you can beat that awful addiction, you can heal, DONT GIVE UP, it’s okay if you fail the important it’s to get up again and FIGHT BACK WITH ALL YOUR STRENGTH, you can be a strong man, you can beat porn, you are stronger than you think, stop counting the days of streak and make the streak days count ;) PD: sorry for bad writing, my English it’s a bit trash

because its let you addicted to something completly imagination and have zero realistic into it unlike the true porn (who is still dangerous ofc)

Hi all,

I've been addicted to porn since I was 14- like many others I would use it as an escape from an unhappy school life and then as a general coping mechanism. In my 20s, I tried hiding it from my girlfriend but she eventually found out and it was a really shattering experience for us both. She felt betrayed and and I felt worthless and shameful. It did result in 3 years of no porn use as I kept the painful memories in mind every time I felt the urge. However I eventually relapsed and the shame and guilt I felt kept me paralyzed and stuck in the addictive cycle for two years, during which my relationship really suffered. It felt like I was an island, always holding this secret back from my partner. Shame does this to us- it tells us we are bad for having maladaptive coping strategies and that no one would love us if they knew about them. I was sure she would leave me if she found out. Then one day I couldn't take it anymore; I knew it would kill me if I kept hiding. I wrote a note on my phone detailing all of the times, all of the pain it was causing me to keep it secret, and how sorry I was for betraying her again. It took all of my strength to even hand it to her and then I was just crying- all of the pain and self-hatred I'd been keeping to myself just poured out. I was sure she was about to leave and had even put in the note that I would walk out, no questions asked, if she wanted me to leave.

Then I felt her hug me. She said she understood my needs and wasn't hurt, and how sorry she was that I had kept it inside all along. It was like all of a sudden this weight was just lifted off me and I felt so connected to my partner.

You can do this too. You will feel so light, like you couldn't believe you waited this long to be vulnerable with someone. To some extent, the shame you feel is what is keeping you from seeking support and thus keeping you stuck- it's a bitch. It takes courage to bare yourself before someone, especially when you expect the truth to hurt them- but you will know it was the right thing to do once you have opened up. It saved my life; you can do it. I'll try to be back to post resources that helped me with shame. Love to you all

So I've been addicted to gooning for a couple of months and from past month I'm doing 12hr a day. And I stopped getting post nut clarity too. So today I was tired to goon but masturbated thrice and after that the post nit hit me(I was surprised). It made me clean my room and delete my porn wallpaper. I still have this account(deleted porn which I posted) and I hid the porn images I download. Ps: I know I'm more addicted than all of you in this subreddit but I don't feel the negative effects all say...... Sorry